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Okay, so there's this girl.

She's in high school. She's taken up
with her English teacher. And he loves

poetry, you know, which is how the whole
thing starts. And it's like that whole

kind of like steamy after class thing.
And he takes her away to this cabin that

he has, which is in the country.

It's a bucket?

What does bucket mean?

You know.

No, I don't. And he keeps her there for
three years.

It just kind of makes her sit there at a
typewriter and write. And you'd think

she'd be miserable, obviously, but
instead she's sort of under this, like,

of creative happiness.

Weird.

And then they buck it?

No, I mean, they don't have sex. That's
what that completely retarded expression

means. I mean, she has her own room.

I don't think I follow this, Ella.

Well, I think it's going to be really
different once I've actually sort of,

like... flesh the whole thing out and
put it down on paper, and hopefully it's

going to be, like, fast -paced and
really funny.

Funny? I find the theft and abuse of
minors funny.

Anyway, I'm sure that you don't really
feel like hearing about this.

I'm sorry. Yeah, no, I don't really feel
like it.

Well, I'm glad you're being so honest.
I'll try not to be offended.

No, no, I want to hear about it.

No, I do. I just, I came here to ask you
something.

Okay, what is it?

Well, um... Okay.

Yes, I will marry you.

No, I don't do anal.

What? I'm sorry, that's not even a funny
joke. It's just that I've been working

all night and my brain is decaying.

Oh, well, my room is decaying, quite
literally. There is a mold that's

underneath my bed.

It's like the size of Texas. It's my
floor with a map.

And it's giving me a headache and it
smells really bad and I just can't deal

with it right now.

Oh, no.

How did it get there?

Well, it wasn't me.

I didn't, you know, there was nothing to
do with my hygiene or anything like

that. Okay.

Because my room is right next to the
bathroom.

So every time a toilet flushes, there's
a little bit of water that seeps in. I

don't know if it's underneath the crack
or what the deal is. But it gets into my

carpet, and now this mold is growing.
And I just kind of, you know, want to

at people in the bathroom and tell them
to just stop fucking the toilet.

Because that would really help me a lot.
But that would be really, really

selfish if you told everybody to stop
flushing the toilet.

Yeah, I'm a selfish guy.

I get the feeling maybe you're asking me
if you can sleep on my floor. Yeah,

just for the night. I wanted to ask for
that. Okay, um, yeah, but why don't you

want to sleep at Yvette's?

Is it because that would involve
sleeping with Yvette?

Well, it's not really that I mind so
much.

It's more just the part afterwards where
I have to talk to her.

That's so mean.

I would say it's just honest. I'm just
being honest.

Yvette seems really sweet to me. I mean,
kind of like stupid sweet, but I think

she's sweet.

Yeah, she's sweet, but she's a cinema
studies major.

What? What's wrong with that? I mean,
that's such a weird thing for you to

Oh, no, Ella, no.

That wasn't supposed to be, like, a
snide remark.

You're a creative writing major.

That's a completely different, it's
something, it's two different

guess I'm just, like, have been writing
this screenplay, and I'm sensitive, and

I'm feeling feelings.

Do you, you're feeling feelings?

Yeah. If I had a band, I would call it
feeling feelings.

Yeah. Yeah, if I had a band, I would
call it the Shadow Band.

That's good. That's really good. Isn't
that nice?

Yeah, I like that a lot. So, tell me why
you think Cinema Studies majors are

such a jerk.

They're a bunch of pricks. And everyone
I've met, like, is an asshole.

And, I don't know, they just sort of,
you know, diddle around with the camera

and write papers that use the word, uh,
hegenomy.

Wait, are you trying to say hegemony?
Yeah, that word. I can't, they use it

the time and I can't even say it.

That's like the token word that people
use for like Lantoon, like, you know,

liberal arts, more pretentiousness, and
I think you could probably be more

creative.

Hmm.

Are you okay?

Yeah.

Yeah. It's just...

Like, are you uncomfortable down there?

Um, no, no.

Okay, um, because, you know, because you
can sleep up here if you want.

I mean.

Um, you sure about that? I mean, I've
been known to kick in

bed a lot.

I mean.

Kick in my sleep.

I mean, I don't know you could I Suggest
that we go head to foot, but that would

make no problem even worse.

Yeah, cuz then you'd kick me in the head
I

mean, I don't know if you'd like rather
like die than sleep in my bed,

but No, I mean, I'm cool with sleeping
in your bed. I mean, it's just question

like

No. Do you want to risk it?

Nope. Here, come here.

It just looks really uncomfortable.

Yeah, well, you know, it's a floor.

Okay.

Oh,

sorry. Yeah, this is my dog.

His name is Dog.

Okay.

Is that good?

Yeah, totally.

Sorry, sorry.

My bad.

Okay, are you alright?

Okay. We went like that. Yeah, that's
awesome.

Yeah.

Good compromise.

Okay, is that okay for you? Yeah.

Okay. I'm good. You good? Yeah, totally.

You can get the light if you want to.
Okay.

If you can, can you reach in?

It's crazy, you know. One day she
realizes this is just not what she

she sees an opportunity, busts out of
the house, he's hiding under the porch.

She can hear his footsteps above her,
and she's just, you know, she's freaking

out. She knows he'll really hurt her if
he finds her. She sees an opportunity,

and she just makes her get away.

She runs.

And so...

You left your things to rot around the
edges of my room.

A fish in a pan, a sock and an old shirt
of your father's. I don't even know

him, but I know you and the way you
broke three bones in the wrist of my

All right.

Thank you, Siri.

Who'd like to start us out with some
feedback for Siri?

I want you to let Siri know what works
in this poem.

What strong is the voice at this point?
I also want you to let her know where

it's weaker, where there are gaps.

All right, I'll start.

Siri, I think you do an excellent job of
capturing the way a person can be

present even in their absence. I think
that can become trite, but I think you

walk a fine line and you walk it well.

Let's see.

I thought it was... was trite sometimes.

It's like, it's just so, like everything
is recycled.

I don't know where it all comes from,
but I think it's this like wasteland of

Americana imagery that no one should
have to visit.

The one line is way longer than the
rest.

So, you left your things to rot around
the edges of my room.

I think if you cut it off, you left your
things to rot and made the line break

there to be a lot more.

You can talk about the wrist and relate
it to the heart.

But you say the wrist of my heart, and I
don't know. That was, I think, a moment

of triteness.

I think you can use the imagery of the
wrist tied to the heart, but please

use the word of.

And you say, I don't even know, which I
know a lot of people who say, I don't

even know all the time. And I think
that's like a really cliched phrase that

could easily fix that.

I didn't really like prepare anything

about the poem, but I like it a lot. I
think that it's like you move

from your own experience into...

like a more like a very real experience
into like a more mystical feeling

experience i guess that the part that
and i liked the bones of my heart i

thought that that was like a cool mixed
metaphor the part that i had a problem

with was a fish in a pan just because
like i didn't get where that image came

from really i had the same thought uh i
think it would be good if you held off

until we finished the discussion before
you come in um it's really really quick

all right um the thing about a fish in a
pan is that that actually happened.

My ex -boyfriend left a fish in a pan in
my room, and I was just writing what I

see, which is the way I work.

Do you want to hear something weird?

Sure. Okay, do you know Chris, who lives
upstairs?

Do you know if he lives downstairs for
me?

Yeah, the really cute one with the
really amazing eyes.

Whatever, he's okay. But listen to this.
This is disgusting.

He has mold growing in his room. Ew!

I know.

You know, I knew I smelled something
this morning.

You know what? He's really cute, though.
He's staying in your room.

He has really nice eyes.

Yeah, I think he's kind of cute. I don't
know. Are you, you know, into him?

No, I mean, I don't know, but I, like,
don't want to get my hopes up because I

kind of just feel like we're friends,
you know?

I just, like, don't want to get
overexcited about things.

He's, like, I don't know. I don't even
know him.

Well, you know, he...

He's friends with Patrick from the
fourth floor, and Patrick and I had that

thing at the beginning of the year.

Yeah, I know. You told me all about
that.

That's weird.

I mean, he's, like, such a private
person, but I feel like I told everybody

about that.

He's, like, Patrick's nature.

Yeah. You know? Like, he's totally not
like any other guy I've ever, like, had

thing with. Yeah, you told me he felt
like he was just this really apathetic

person. He's totally apathetic. It's
like he didn't care. You know, like,

other boyfriend I've had has, like,
worshipped me and, like... pampered me

like, been really much more into me than
I've been into them.

Yeah. Patrick, you know, like, I was
like a sandwich. Like, he could, like,

me or leave me or something.

Yeah.

Like, I don't know.

Do you have one detergent? I'm like, oh,
do you have more? I think I do up

there. Do you think we can make that?

Maybe, you know, we both are really
small. Small. Do you want to share?

Yeah. Here, there's something here.
Yeah, you told me that Patrick was just,

like, like, no guy you'd ever tell him
before.

Yeah. Anyway, I'm just not sure about
Chris. I find him really, really hard to

read. I mean, yeah, I can see why you
think that. It's his eyes.

They're very, like, really sensitive.

Yeah, piercing eyes. He's a really
sensitive, like, serious guy all the

Yeah. But, you know, when I was hanging
out with him with Patrick, like, he's a

really great, he's funny, he's
intelligent, and he's really cute.

So you have my vote.

And it's a Democratic one, of course.

That's a really good joke.

Anyway, yeah.

I don't know. I guess I'll just like see
where things go with him.

Yeah. Anyway, I bet he's into you. I
really do.

I don't know. I just, I don't know.

I mean, he's been staying in my bed, but
it's kind of like to know that that's

because he's got. I bet he has feelings.

I mean, we all have feelings.

Feelings for you, Ella.

God, you can be so cute sometimes.

Whatever.

What do we want to say? This is white,
then color. Should we just say color?

I think so. I think white's the color.

I'm sorry, but the maintenance people
haven't come to my dorm room yet. I'm

of them all.

Can I just crash here on the floor,
yeah?

Yeah.

Yeah.

I know.

The wolf in the dorm.

How was your day?

terrible lesson really bad yeah it's
just my hands really stiff and

just i don't know wasn't in his zone
yeah i'm sorry okay

i wrote more things in my screenplay oh
yeah

The girls, like, finally run away, and
she's running through the woods, and

she's all bloody and shaken up because
she's been through so much that she's

almost flaccid and very, sort of, dead.
And she's waiting for a car, and a few

pass, but they don't stop.

And finally, a safari jeep, the canvas
top kind, does stop, and the woman

the car is, like, just a totally
militant feminist.

Like, the kind who thinks, like, all sex
is race, and all men are pigs.

She sounds like the girls live in the
women's collective off Sasquatch.

Yeah, but, like, even more intense.

This woman is just so intense. She warns
the girl not to call the police, that

they won't help her escape her teacher,
you know, because he's a man and he

doesn't have the best interests of women
at heart. And the girl is so

impressionable that she believes this
woman.

And the woman dresses the girl in, like,
military fatigues. And the woman lets

the girl loose on the streets of some
small city.

Where is this taking place?

I don't know, like, Maine or New
Hampshire.

I'm not sure.

I, like, am really bad at geography
because I missed geography year at my

school. And, like, my first school, and
then I switched schools, and they'd

already done geography year.

Wait.

What's geography year?

It's, like, the year where you learn,
like, state capitals and, like,

and, like, you know, geography.

So I was left with, like, no knowledge
of, like, what the world is.

Shaped like?

Do you know my friend Evie?

Do you know who that is?

Um, no, I don't think so.

She has brown hair and glasses, and
she's pretty, and she's with me a lot.

Oh, yeah, yeah, I think I know who
you're talking about.

She, like, is, she and her boyfriend,
who does not go to the school, came up

with this theory that I think's really
funny, which is, like, that there are

certain people in your life.

Who you meet, who you don't think 30 or
more people could confirm that they're

alive.

Do you get that?

Um, yeah.

Wait, that they're alive?

That they exist. Like, that 30 or more
people could not confirm that they

Like, if you couldn't find 30 or more
people who'd be like, yeah, that

a person.

So this is like a metaphysical thing?

I mean, sort of, but it's sort of just
like that's a certain type of human

being. Huh.

Yeah, I think I know that type.

Which I think... No.

Yeah, I think so.

You think I don't exist?

Well, I don't think you don't exist, but
I think 30 or more people maybe

couldn't confirm your existence.

Does that offend you?

No.

Well, should it?

No, no. It's just a certain... Do you
hear that music the neighbors are

It's disgusting.

Come in.

Oh, hi, Professor Gibbard. Hi, Ella.

Come in and have a seat.

Is this an okay time to talk? Oh, I have
a department meeting in about 15

minutes, so we'll have to cut it short.

Okay. I just wanted to ask you actually
what the committee that was selecting

people for the screenwriting workshop
next semester, I just wanted to kind of

know what they would be looking for.

Well, I'm not on that committee.

I do know they'll want fully realized
work, really compelling stories.

Okay, well, I'm writing something. We'll
see how it goes.

You're writing a script? I am, yeah.
What's it about?

Well, I'm sort of working it out as I
go, but the premise is that there's this

girl who's sort of started having an
affair with her teacher in high school,

they've been sort of having this affair,
and he takes her to this cabin, and she

lives with him in the cabin for three
years, and then she escapes, and it's

of about her escape process across
America.

She's in the cabin for three years?

Yeah.

Well, either the cabin's pretty remote
or the woman is pretty stupid.

Hey. Hey, wake up.

Hi, I'm home.

People drinking.

Can you smell it?

Yeah. The guy, the people, both people
in my study group just like literally

foisted it on me when we were done. It
was like a literal, literal foisting. It

was crazy.

How was your night?

Okay. Did you get a lot done?

Yeah,

but not enough.

Did you... You didn't study enough?

No, I got a little bit of work done, but
I got tired.

Probably.

Do you want to put your eyes on the
outside?

What?

What are you wearing?

My tie.

I'm sorry I did that. That was, like,
totally inappropriate, and I don't know

where it came from. No, that's no
problem.

You know, and I don't want you to, like,
take it personally. It's just, like,

sometimes you're drunk, you know, a
little drunk, and you just, like, feel

making out, and it's not a huge thing.

Yeah, I mean, making out is cool.

You know, and I wasn't, like, assuming
that you're attracted to me, you know,

like... I wasn't making that assumption.
I just... I just, you know...

I understand not being attracted to
someone and just not wanting to make

Not that I'm not attracted to you. I
mean, I am attracted to you.

Enough to make out with you. But it's
just... I feel like I won't follow

through. And you might get upset.

What do you mean by follow through?

Yeah, I'll be like, hey, Ella, be my
girlfriend.

Well, that's like not even what I want.
Like, that's like not what I want from

anybody. It's not like what I'm looking
for. You know, like sometimes you just

like want to make out.

Such a disgusting day.

I know.

When's it going to be warm?

I don't know. It's awful out.

Oh, gross.

What are you doing for the rest of the
day?

I'm going to the library and studying,
and then I might watch some cable in my

room. How are you?

I'm okay.

I've been working a lot on the
screenplay.

Oh, cool.

Last I remember, the girl was being
followed by some radical Andrea Dworkin

in a canvas top Jeep or something.

No, that lady dropped her off in the
city.

In New York?

No, I think in, like, Portland, Maine.

Oh.

So she meets this girl who's, like, this
sort of young punk runaway, and she

really trusts this girl for some reason.
And so she explains her predicament to

her, and the girl wants to help. That's
nice.

She lets her come to stay at her squat
with her, and they listen to lots of

music. And the punk girl wants to help
the other girl, you know, stay

So, I don't know. The man is crafty, and
he could appear, like, at any time. So

the punk girl dyes the girl's hair for
her. They go to a gas station bathroom

where there's running water, and she
dyes her hair.

Cool. And no one recognizes her. It's a
good disguise.

Awesome.

I knew a guy in Portland's main.

Did you phone him?

No.

His weight went up and down a lot.

I am having an existential crisis.

Really?

I've had, like, a lot of those,
actually.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

But this one is pretty intense.

Really? Yeah.

What about it?

Um, I've just never felt this way
before.

And I don't want to play piano anymore.

Even though that's what you've always
wanted to do?

Yeah, that's what I've always done.

And it's like that was my life, you
know? But I got tendonitis freshman

and it just didn't stop being fun.

I think about somebody like you, and you
seem to have things all figured out.

You're focused. You have a drive. You
know what you want to do.

I guess so.

In a way. But I had a really bad
existential crisis, so maybe, you know,

when I figured a lot of things out.

This past summer, I had a really bad
crisis and figured it out. Oh, really?

Mm -hmm.

And what did you figure out?

Um... In three words or less?

I can't do that.

Yeah, um... If you want to, you can,
like...

I don't know.

I don't want to be, like, vulgar, but,
like, if you want to, you can put your

hand on my boob if you felt like it.

I mean, just because you never tried to,
so I was just, like... Because you

kissed me?

Yeah.

I was just, like, noting that you never
tried really to do anything more than

kiss me.

Just kissing.

I mean, I'm, like... Uh, well, yeah,
well, here's my thing.

Okay. Um... Just think, like, if you're
not gonna have

sex, why even go down that path?

Uh -huh. You know? You know?

Just make one sense of it.

This is like a nice form of
communication.

Yeah.

Between two friends.

Yeah. I don't know.

I just, I want to communicate with you.

Okay. If that makes any sense. Yeah. No,
that makes sense.

I guess I just don't understand why you
assume that I wouldn't have sex with

you.

kind of sex with me because you're a
virgin.

How do you know that?

You told me.

Did I really?

Yeah. Are you serious?

Yeah. It was at the beginning of the
year. It was like two nights after we

one another. We were sitting in the
soccer fields and I said I would tell

one embarrassing thing about myself if
you told me one about you and you told

that. And now I'm really embarrassed.

No, no.

No, don't be.

I remember even then I told you not to
be embarrassed about it.

There's nothing to be embarrassed about.
You just shouldn't have sex with me.

I'm your friend. I'm not anyone's
boyfriend.

I don't intend to be anyone's boyfriend.

Yeah, but we're like really good
friends.

Yeah, but that's not the same.

It's just... Your first time should be
with like...

A guy who you've been with for at least,
like, six months.

Who you're dating.

And preferably, if possible, you should
love the person.

Was that what it was like for you?

Oh, God, no.

No. But that would have been great.

Yeah.

Besides, I think it's different for
girls.

Well, I'm sorry that I brought it up.
No.

Whatever.

The Savannah you wanted to see? No.

Who are these people? They're terrible.

They're really amazing. Johnny the
Dripper.

That man's on next.

It's called Bike -a -thon.

Did he say Kite -a -thon?

No, he said Dice -a -thon. No, he said
Bike -a -thon.

Hey. Yo.

What's up?

What's up? I can't hear anything.

I know it's your thing.

Do you remember me?

Yeah, I do.

You're Ty, right? You're Ella.

Yeah, we met at that party where they
set the kitchen counter on fire.

That kid was pretty sweet. Yeah, it was
awesome.

Are you having fun?

Yeah, I'm having pretty good time.

How about you?

No, not really. I think I'm going to go
find my friend and go home maybe.

Anytime.

Leave me here. Don't whatever me,
please.

I love you. I have to pee.

Yeah?

Hey, Ella.

Hey, how's it going? Okay.

What's going on with you?

I don't know.

I don't know.

What's wrong?

I'm feeling crappy.

I'm feeling really crappy because I
don't know if I'm... I've been hooking

with Chris. I know.

You know?

Yeah. I mean, he didn't tell me, but I
just, I have a, you know, another sense,

like a sixth sense about this kind of
thing. Yeah, totally.

Totally. So I just knew. You know,
remember when I was hooking up with, you

know, Patrick?

Yeah, well, we don't talk about that,
but I just felt very dismissed.

Yeah, that's exactly what I feel like. I
feel very dismissed. I feel like he's

just, like, threw me away like an old
shoe or something. Don't feel bad about

it. though because you know i know he
really appreciates you as a person and

cares about you as a friend yeah i'm
sure he finds you really attractive ella

it's just that i don't even think it's
worth it because i just the other night

just i heard him talking about women in
this way that just really made me really

uncomfortable what do you mean you know
i mean i'm old -fashioned this way but i

i hate it when men talk about women in a
way that's really sexual like it's

really objectifying yeah totally and he
just did that yeah the way he talks

about sex it's like i know he makes it
sound like he's like so Right.

I mean, I'm sure, well, I don't even
know if he's experienced or not, but sex

isn't glamorous, you know? It's like, he
makes it sound so, I

don't know, just like organized and
like, it's not, you know, it's like

and messy and it's not clean.

Totally.

I don't know. I just, the sex, I just, I
can't imagine that it's like he says

that it is. Well, thank you. You make me
feel so much better.

Oh, thanks. I really appreciate it. I
hope I can help, you know. Yeah, you

a lot. When I first met you, I did not
think that we'd be really good friends.

Really? No, I didn't. I found you to be,
like, very, like. Uptight?

Yeah, totally, totally.

But you're not. I mean. Oh, I am a
little bit. But I really admire you.

Thank you.

You're really sweet.

Bella? Yeah?

over. Yeah, sure.

How come?

I feel so lonely recently.

You know, I wish I had a roommate or
something. I know, I know. A nice

boyfriend.

I've never felt this unattractive and
undesirable my whole life. Are you

serious? Yeah. You're such a fuck.

Well, thanks.

But, you know, I think I rely on that.
Like, I think I rely on men.

For, like, validation?

Exactly. Yeah.

And you don't seem like you live for
that.

I mean... Not really. I mean, I guess
I'm not used to getting it, so I just

don't. But you have other fulfillments
in your life, you know? Yeah. I mean,

other fulfillments.

Knitting.

The Rupert Everett biography. I don't
know. I guess.

You know, maybe it's because you have a
better relationship with your father

than I do with mine.

I do love my dad, but I don't know.

You'll figure it out.

I hope so.

Sleepover!

She's been adjusting to the sort of punk
squatter life, and she's even enjoying

it. But it all comes to a crashing halt
when she sees that the man, her teacher,

her captor, has found her and tracked
her down. How did he do that? He's very

powerful. Awesome.

They're hiding in a warehouse, and the
punk girl is using her street smarts to

help hide the girl, and they're sleeping
on a bare mattress.

Are you done soon?

Yeah, I'm pretty much done.

Okay.

Do you want me to get in your towel?

Um, sure.

Okay. Okay.

Hello.

Hello! I can't believe you didn't get
your hair wet.

Yeah, I know.

Amazing. Yeah.

It's like you're Jesus and you can walk
on water only you're eating and you can

walk under the shower without getting
your hair wet.

That's just what it's like.

Thank you for lending me a towel. I'm
sorry that I didn't have one. No, don't

worry about it.

I thought you washed your vagina.

Do you put soap in your vagina?

Yeah, mostly.

I told Carly from downstairs that I
don't usually wear underwear, and she

at me like I was from another planet.

Oh, that's because she's a gremlin.
Yeah.

But she can be kind of nice. I mean,
she's got an irritating voice, but she's

nice person. No, she's a gremlin.

Okay. I mean, she never done anything to
me. She's a gremlin.

Isn't she pretty?

She's not pretty. She's really, really
weird looking, and she's a gremlin.

So much.

Well, I told you she was a shithead. Her
voice is like an octave above Alvin and

the Chipmunks.

Yeah, I don't even know what to say.
She's just a fucking raging whore and I

hate her.

Get angry. I have always told you that
it is okay to get angry. Do you believe

me? And she has this Polaroid on her
door that she took with my camera of her

wearing my Missoni sweater and making a
stupid face.

And every time I pass it, I just want to
kill her and myself.

Well, it's not there anymore.

What do you mean?

It's not there.

I saw it up on my wee ear and it pissed
me off, so I took it down.

You are amazing.

I feel much

better

now. I know.

Dear?

No. You are a stupid bitch.

I won't pour acid on your face

if you never speak

to me.

No, no, we can't. We shouldn't actually
do this. It's too mean.

It's too mean. Because she's my
neighbor. We have, like, neighborly

worry about. We go on vacation in three
days.

Yeah, but then when I get back, I have
to brush my teeth next year for, like,

six months.

Oh, you will.

In sweet, sweet silence.

Oh, my God.

can I say? Thank you.

That makes me feel sort of a little bit
better. Good, I'm glad.

Can we talk about something else now?
Why? What do you want to talk about?

I don't know. What's going on in your
screenplay?

There's like more crap about me. You
shouldn't have to hear about me all the

time. I want to.

Thank you. Because I've actually worked
on it a lot since yesterday.

Good.

The punk girl is hiding the girl.

Yeah. And the man suddenly shows up.

He shows up? How does he know where she
is? I told you, he's so powerful. So the

punk girl, like, tells the girl to run
out the back of the warehouse and hide,

and that she'll get her when the man is
gone.

The man comes in, and he's talking to
the punk girl, and he's asking where the

girl is, and the punk girl just won't
give up the girl's whereabouts. She's

being really loyal, you know?

But he knows everyone's weaknesses, and
he knows the punk girl likes drugs.

Um, what drug, Ella?

Like, a very bad one. Like, heroin,
or...

Something addictive and tempting.

Okay. And she sees it and she takes a
moment and says she still won't give up

the girl's location.

Atta girl.

But... Uh -oh.

The punk girl asks if she can have a
little bit, like a taste of the drug.

Like if you want a small amount of
drugs, you'd call that maybe a taste,

So she asks, he gives her a little bit,
she snorts them off the back of his

hand. Nobody would take drugs like that.

What do you mean?

They just wouldn't. It's not realistic.

They would put it on their gum.

Okay, well, they do that. And the punk
girl feels the effects of the drugs, and

she just tells him that the girl's out
back of the warehouse.

The girl's on the road again, you know?

She buys hair dye and changes her hair
again and makes it brown.

She hitches a ride with the trucker and
asks to go wherever he's headed. So

she's at some small town main location,
and she's just there.

So what does she do next?

She goes to a diner. She has no money,
so she just gets water.

Harsh brain.

But this boy, this guy, buys her coffee.

He just finished working on the dock for
the morning. And they get to talking,

and he offers to let her stay with him.

That's a good idea. She just got out of
an abusive relationship with a 50 -year

-old sex offender. So shopping up with a
stranger seems like an awesome plan.

No, this guy is good. He's like nice,
you know, fishermanly stock, you know?

She just senses this guy is really good.

He gives her a dress, like an old one
that used to belong to his mom, who's

dead.

How sweet.

He takes her to his fishing shack, his
favorite place.

That sounds so easy.

It's not.

And she has sex with him, and it's her
first time.

Even though she was the love slave of a
sick old man?

Mm -hmm.

Does she tell him she's a virgin?

No. But he just, you know, kind of,
like, knows to be very kind and gentle,

think.

She loves living with this guy. She
totally takes care of him, you know?

something awful happens.

She gets pregnant.

No!

The man shows up. She has to leave,
like, keep moving.

And the guy understands, and he gets one
of his fisherman friends to drive her

to a bus station nearby.

She's overwhelmingly sad, of course, and
so is he. He asks if he'll find her

sometime, and she says yes, but who
knows if that's, like, even true.

I'm sorry that I just, like, called,
wrote you the email and asked for the

I just didn't know anyone else in our
class, and I don't, like, I didn't mean

be rude, because I know the email didn't
really say anything besides, like, can

I borrow, can I come by and borrow your
book?

I mean, it was...

It was a little weird, but not really a
big deal. It's okay.

Okay, good.

I think, yeah, it's cool. Don't worry
about it. Okay. Do you find the homework

challenging?

The homework?

The homework?

The psych homework?

To be, no, not really.

Really? Yeah, not, well.

I think it's kind of hard. Like, I feel
like I need someone to, like, unpack it

for me. It's really dead.

I do talk to my mom about it, which is
totally kind of cheating, but... How

come? Is she, like, a shrink or
something?

Yeah. Well, she's not really a shrink,
but she's, like, a therapist or

something. So she can, like, help you
with the work.

Do you talk to her about, like, your
feelings a lot because she's a

Well, she's pretty sneaky about it. She
definitely talks to me about it, but I

don't...

She doesn't really couch it as if that's
what's going on, but it's definitely

what's going on, you know? That's so
funny. Yeah, totally.

Totally.

Is your dad a therapist, too?

Therapists are always, like, married to
other therapists, I've noticed.

He did.

Oh, really?

Yeah, he was murdered.

Are you serious?

That's absolutely, that's totally not a
funny joke.

Nah, it's actually not a joke. He, he,
yeah.

What, are you serious? Because I
actually just can't tell if you're

right now.

Um, I'm serious.

He was serious.

Oh my god, I'm so sorry.

That's horrible.

It's okay.

Did it happen when you were really
young?

Pretty young, yeah.

Oh my god.

Don't worry about it. Okay.

It's cool.

Sorry. I always ask too many questions
and then, like, accidentally make people

say things they don't feel like saying
out loud.

Well, I'm gonna pee. Okay.

Good. I'll be waiting.

I was playing, I found your recorder.

Oh, I thought it was something weird.

Do you play this thing? Like, are you
like a serious recorder player?

Are there serious recorder players?

Are you a roommate?

Oh, yeah.

Because there's a bunch of rooms in the
house. Who lives here?

These guys, Jared and Peter.

Are they your friends?

I mean, probably.

Well, actually, no. Not really.

No? Not really.

Are they nice? Do you like them?

They're pretty cool. They're, I mean,
they keep to themselves.

That's cool. They're chill. They, like,
let you have people over and, like, play

music and whatever.

Yeah.

Basically.

Is it okay if I stick my gun to your
wall?

I don't know.

Yeah, sure, please.

Okay. Go for it.

It's all you.

Okay, thank you. I didn't know where to
put it. Mm -hmm.

Are you okay? Oh, ow!

Careful. Sorry.

No, it's fine.

I have hair in my mouth.

Where is this going?

What do you mean?

What do you mean?

Do you mean, like, are we gonna have
sex?

Is that what you mean?

Yeah.

Oh, um... I'd be totally fine with
having sex with you. The only issue is

I... I actually, like, I haven't done it
that much, so I just, like, don't know

if I'd be that, like, good at it or
whatever.

Does that make sense?

What? Like,

I just don't know if I'd be that, like,
like, I'd, like, know exactly what I was

doing, but, like... How about...

Yo. Okay.

Look. Okay.

If you want to have sex,

don't say anything.

Hey, that's so bad You

know if you want

I Mean I would be willing to make it

you know this I guess between us a
little more real even

What do you mean

I mean, what?

I don't like the relationship, you know?

Well, I think, I mean, that's, like,
really sweet of you, obviously, and I

really appreciate it, but I just, I
think, like, since we're about, you

haven't really known each other for very
long. Like, we just haven't known each

other for very long.

Yeah, I mean, I suppose that's true,
but, well, I mean, whatever.

I mean...

How many times do you meet people that
you feel like you've known forever and,

you know, you were just introduced or
you know people since you were, like,

and, like, you don't know shit about
them?

Yeah. What does it matter? It doesn't
really matter.

Yeah, I guess you're right.

Besides, like, I feel like I haven't
connected this well with someone since,

like, since my pop died, so...

That seems like...

That seems pretty important.

I don't know.

Yeah, no, I know.

I guess it's just that break is coming
up, you know, and it's, like, four weeks

long, and, like, we're not going to see
each other. So I kind of just feel like

maybe we just shouldn't start anything,
you know, now,

and that maybe we can just, like, look
at it again when we get back.

I mean, you can totally, you know, like,
write me an email or whatever over

break, but...

Is this an okay time?

Okay.

You didn't have to be so mean to her,
you know?

Yeah, I'm sorry.

It was like totally more... I don't want
to make excuses, but it really was more

Edie than it was me.

And I know that I didn't have to act
that way.

I was just really...

humiliated and upset and confused
because I felt like you were

saying to me that you didn't want to
have a relationship and then suddenly

you were with Carly in this thing
that... I don't know what it is, but...

mean, whoever said anything about a
relationship?

Well, it's assumed because Carly's so,
like, relationship -oriented and...

Carly's just weird. She just, like, she
just says things and doesn't even think

about them. She just...

So you're not starting a relationship
with her? No, no. Not.

Not starting a relationship with Carly
or anybody.

Not, no.

Can I ask you a question?

Yeah.

Did I do something wrong here?

No, you didn't, no.

You didn't do anything wrong.

It's just...

Sometimes you mother me.

Okay.

And that's a good thing. That's a good
thing because I'm really fucked up.

And that helps. And it feels good.

That's also a bad thing, you know? Like
annoying?

Not even annoying. Maybe just
existentially bad.

I guess I just, like, can't tell, like,
what they're thinking, ever.

You seem to actually think about things.

What? No, like, I mean, you seem to,
like, really think, you know,

about things.

Which I don't always do.

It's freakishly warm.

I'm so excited to get home.

I know, I know. New York!

I'm really excited to get out of here.

You want to fill the cab from the
airport?

Yeah, that's a really good idea.

Sweet.

Did you get all your work done? I did.

High five!

Woo! How about you?

Yeah, I did.

I mean, I got the screenplay done, which
was like the main thing that I was

worried about. Oh my god, that's
awesome. Congratulations.

Thank you.

Muzzle top.

Okay, so the girl packed all her hair
off and it's really sort of short and

black. All the momentum in the script is
hair momentum.

Now she looks like Edith Head.

Or like you in the ninth grade.

Shut up.

She knows that she needs to get far
away, so she takes the bus to the

And then the man shows up.

What, from where?

He just walks up.

And what happens?

They talk for a moment, and then the
girl pulls a gun from her bag, and she

holds it up, and she shoots him, and he
looks shocked, and then he falls over

dead. Holy shit.

And she looks at him, and then she walks
away. Where is she going? Who knows? I

mean, she's just sort of moving forever
into the horizon, walking for miles,

becoming a speck. Would she be okay?

Crashes hard.

Scratches down on the air. It's hard to
go. It doesn't give it for crying no

more. It doesn't feel the best
protecting the storm.

A clunted rage.

Constantly three steps out from pain.

It doesn't feel the dermatology pain.

It scratches through the scourge to the
brain.

She's got the itch, and it won't stop.

She's got the itch, and it won't stop.

She's got the itch, and it won't stop.
She's got the itch, and it

won't stop.

What's her dream?

Let her rise and do something clean.

She's rejected all the drugs on the
scene.

Put the money in the sweet powder
between.

She's got the edge.