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look at me daddy

oh wow honey amazing

come on here we go

we're here now we go

on the swings yeah

on the swings yeah

go right off you go

quickly

cold look yeah

what age is your little one

he's 5 Harry

hi Harry

this is Charlie she's 5 too

hey Charlie

do you live nearby

yeah yeah you

yeah just over by the big church

I love it around here it's a great community

I never wanna leave

yeah oi

that's my swing whoa whoa

don't do that please

no swing no

no please

Leonardo get back

I think your dad's calling you

Leonardo get off

sorry about that mate

no it's it's

it's fine we've been on it for ages

what are you doing I'm sorry

what I tell you

I'm sorry don't do that again

and don't we

should we go home and have lunch now Harry

let's go get your big sister

I can't believe you did that

I can't believe you did that call the police

oh I I

I don't think we need to do that

you need to get your missus under control mate

she's not my wife I don't know her

he just hit his son you just hit your son

yeah

what you gonna do

oh Jesus Christ

whoa hey mate

please get away from me what are you doing

oh no

no no

oh

Jesus please

daddy forgot Violet

silly daddy

Violet

Violet

you've seen you've seen a little girl anywhere

what did you see she's

she's 9 she's 9

oh Violet sweetheart

did you see the attack

I did it was horrible

I can I can tell the police all about it

why didn't you do something man

what like intervene look at her

I could I could

excuse me excuse me

cross cross

cross cross

see see

take the kids take the kids

what's going on I've got to get out of here

John

where are you going

sorry oh Jesus baby

oh so the neighbours have invited us over for dinner

which neighbours the Christians

oh god yeah

oh and get this

turns out she's a vicar a female vicar

it's like we never left Austin

can we swear in front of them

can we can we mention we have gay friends

I love it when you're wet

it reminds me of our first kiss

John stop it

the kids might come in we should find time tonight

oh there's too much going on

I want you to handcuff me to the bed

and do anything you want to me

we've got dinner with Avika

off to dinner with Avika we'll be too tired

remember I'm seeing that therapist today

who's looking after the kids

you are I'm working

see I told you about this last week

got a meeting with the publisher

and I'm already way behind schedule

and when are you gonna move these boxes

I'm sorry I'll do it today

so what am I supposed to do

take them with you don't be ridiculous

you don't take your kids to therapy

just stick them in front of a screen

it'll be fine that's what you usually do

we're going now now

hurry up both of you

come on come on

stop messing around what is it

John Harley Quinn caught a mouse

that's not a mouse that's a rat

get away don't touch it

come on get

get away get in the car

I believe we're having dinner tonight

finally a chance to get to know each other better

yeah looking forward to it

hey hey

hey hey

stop fighting fingers no

would you care to come along to my Bible group

beforehand yeah

I'm running a bit late

and don't forget what happened to Jonah

he kept running away from God

and ended up in the belly of a fish

ha ha ha

ha ha ha

you get going I'll take care of this guy

put it in myself put it in

no never

I don't

know

Baba here Baba

right can we turn the music off now please shush

why did we move here I miss my friends

you're the worst daddy in the world

and I hate you you're evil

thanks Harry

that's really nice Harry

daddy's not evil he's just useless and old

so what is it you'd like us to work on today John

you mentioned an incident in London

I don't know if I'm comfortable talking about that

we don't have to talk about anything

that makes you uncomfortable

you mentioned intimacy with your wife has been an issue

shall we start there instead

when did you last do it

been a while

and why did you stop

did

did something happen

this morning

she tried to grab my penis

why did she do that well

she was trying to initiate sex

I was erect

perhaps

she thought that you were trying to initiate sex

given your

your chemisness

well I been

masturbating in the shower

were you thinking about your wife

when you were masturbating

does anyone think about their wife

do you think about your wife

I'm I'm not married so

Fergie

hmm I was thinking about Fergie

I

Fergie you know Fergie

she's a MILF pop singer American

oh god

right for a second

I thought you meant Sir Alex Ferguson

no no

god no

no you also could have meant the

the Duchess of York Sarah Fergus

yeah that would be yup quite an orgy

MILF stands for mum I'd like to fuck

yes

shall we talk about your mother

I don't think we're there yet

shh shh shh

shh shh

shh shh shh

oh come on

give mummy a cuddle he's been crying like that all day

you checked his temperature

I think he's not well I couldn't find the thermometer

look do you mind if I go for a run

should I make him a cup of tea

before you go oh

Harley Quinn

Harley Quinn come on

how was therapy

fine yeah

did you tell him about

well you don't just leap into the serious stuff

in your first session

it's like a first date

you keep your cards close to your chest

before you let them see the monster inside

did you tell him what a monster I've been

at some point we are gonna have to talk about this John

thank you

oh we need cough medicine for Harry

right fine

I'll have to run tonight

so you have enough energy for a run but not for sex

I feel old and shit you're gorgeous

oh um

can you check if they have oat milk

excuse me sorry

no Angus

no alright darling Angus

get out ah

come on Danny

be real you've been told

I just want my ice cream no right

put it back how many times do you need to be told

put it back he said if you come in here again

I'm not allowed to serve you

I will bring him out so I can talk to him

you're barred ha ha ha ha ha

barred for the co op uh huh

are you can I borrow something for the co op

it's the co op I'm sorry Angus

you know I'm not allowed to serve you

wait wait

wait wait yeah

look one beer

no one beer

I won't even take the ice cream

I'm not serving you

you believe this

bitch won't sell for me

probably best to leave it then

you got a problem with me pal

leave it Angus

no no

no I just sounds like you got a problem no

I'm gonna fuck off then

well I I have to you have to fuck off alright

I need cough medicine for my son he has a cough alright

alright

I see if I can't have ice cream

you can't have cough medicine Angus

fuck

off

I'll just leave this

I should go I'll just leave this here

I just leave it there

oh where are you going

hey

hey hey

where do you think you're going hey

oh yeah that's a nice wall by the way

Jesus yeah

can I get a look

yeah oh yeah

open the door

yeah open the door

where are you where are you going

where are you going hey

I'm gonna fight you I'm the way you live

you better watch your butt man watch your butt

you fuck off prick

prick

me me me just do it the once no more than once

hello come on in

come on in it's lovely to see you welcome guys

thank you so much for having us oh

please come in and make yourself at home

come on and you must be the lovely John

come on in come on in

Tommy's just in there

he's finishing off with the Bible group

go on off your pop who have we

got here gambling cursing

stealing

fornicating

well trying to fornicate anyway

so why did I come to believe

what was it that finally convinced me

well

this guy

this guy

Jeffrey Dahmer of course

Doctor Harold Shipman Fred West

Peter Sutcliffe a host of others

how could such evil bring me to god

because as far as I could tell

their evil

was of a magnitude

that couldn't be explained away by science

or psychology or he had a domineering mother

or he experienced rejection at an early age

no does that explain

ripping a man's heart out of his chest

and eating it or defiling the corpse of a cheerleader

through these apparent monsters

I came to believe in the existence of perfect evil

and if perfect evil exists

then so too must perfect good

ultimately every killer desires to be discovered

John meet the boys

this is Bobby hi

hi brick

Marky hello

take a pew

oh

I don't remember Jeffrey Dahmer in the Bible

no we are a Bible group

but truth be told

we've been getting a bit bored of the Bible sometimes

you can trudge your way through the Leviticus

what do you like to talk about football

women jazz

it's a safe space no

safe for us anyway

oh one more chap you haven't been introduced to

good evening

I'm Williams

sitting at the bathroom

and your name is

so Angus just attacked you out of nowhere

you wanna talk about serial killers it

was like having Ed Gein coming at me

Ed Gein I guess it's like Ed Gein

Gein is the one that Hitchcock based psycho on

wasn't it yeah

that's right yes

John loves horror movies I can't stand them

why

would you wanna watch something that keeps you awake

all night maybe that's why you never sleep huh

maybe honestly

anything with a with a haunted doll or a creepy child

I am there

satanic cults oh

I adore satanic cults ladies and gentlemen

your local pastor

I do I will

I mean I

I do feel sorry for poor Angus though

oh here we go

no I do

he's all alone up there in the woods

it's not funny Tommy

it's not you know

as a child he

obviously

had difficulties that were never properly addressed

and he was tormented at school

it's just I'm sorry

but having a difficult childhood is no excuse

for violently harassing a young woman

working a minimum wage job

it's just not oh

I do admire Katrina oh

she's just this young woman

and she supports herself with two jobs

she's a fantastic example to the community

and our son Cameron

he's had a crush on her for years

hasn't he because she's absolutely gorgeous

she certainly is

oh also

I saw this in the shop uh oh

Rebecca's bet noir who killed Susie Bisset

Malky runs a murder tour what is it real

sadly yes

it is Susie Bisset was murdered here

in Coldwater when was it darling

must be 25 years there abouts yeah

do they know who did it no

they never caught the killer Mommy

it was widely assumed that it was her boyfriend

or her pimp what was his name

Brody Dwyer that's it

she was like a prostitute

so it could have been anyone really

I think you meant to call them sex workers now love

well I think it's shameful

that Malky tries to make a profit from it

I told him that good

because you know

it gives a terrible impression of Coldwater

that it's some sort of den of ultra violence

it's actually really quiet here

well quietness is what we're after

John was always attracting trouble in London why

I wouldn't put it like that

you were always getting into violent confrontations

with dangerous men

oh that would be the boy

you've forgotten his keys again

will he ever remember them

never remembers the keys

doesn't matter where you put them

where's his key I don't know

we've got guests come and say hello

Cameron this is John Fiona hello

hi aren't you gonna say hello

I'll get off his back Tommy

do you want some dinner darling

no thanks mum

I've eaten nice to meet you John

feeling it well

just give him a break

he's just a bit shy around strangers

Tommy I'm just gonna check on Harry and Violet

what are you doing dude

you're gonna take my head off

what you watching

whoa

I didn't know you were famous

oh no

I am not famous seriously

oh come on

come on we've googled you Fiona

we've seen the photographs

well we did have lots of famous

people coming to the restaurant

Rebecca tells me you're writing a book

yeah oh God

who knows if anyone will actually read it

but ha ha ha

um I have a publisher and a pressing deadline

and it's all very stressful

oh she sounds so excited

eating and glamorous oh no

it's really not I'm more impressed that you're a vicar

no no

no no

no my life is very dull and ragged compared to yours

I wish someone would pay me to write a book

about my life yes

I could tell some stories yeah

I just got in

my dad got a neighbor friend

he was from London

ah he's old

dresses like a teenager but well into his 40s

I bet a loser

what did you say to him

as I said a loser

can I help you sorry

I just

John

can you give me a wee hand

Rebecca says I burn everything I insisted on cooking

anyway

listen to your wife talking about her fancy restaurant

pastas making me a bit nervous

I wouldn't worry about it

she's not judgemental about other people's cooking

I'm not worried about your wife

I'm worried about mine

I can't have her taking the Mickey out of me every day

for the next month

I think I can fix it yeah

uh huh how about that

yes cheers

cheers cheers

hmm

do you know what Fiona was thinking

you should really come to church sometime

hahaha well

we we don't believe in God neither do I

what no

no but dear

don't tell Tommy that he's still a firm believer

bless him you see

for me it's more about

well it's more about being a part of a community

and if there is a God

God is people

so what do you do for a living John

ah nothing

I look after the kids full time

yep oh good for you

no seriously

Cameron hates me now

cause I was never really around much back then

you got a hot tub

get in can I

yes get in

oh here we go

I wish there was water in it

no there's no water in it

oh thank you

here you go may I join you

yes it's lovely

and that there that's a

that's Tommy's shed now

a word of advice

never get John a shed if you ever wanna see him again

I mean he practically lives in that shed

I mean heaven knows what goes on in there

I don't think I want to know

listen I gotta ask you why

why did you move here could work as

I thought it was the perfect place to write my book

that's all

John was okay with that

yeah John wanted

to move in more than I did

he couldn't wait to leave London

I'm really glad you're here

oh

so how was therapy

Williams told me he was all excited

cause he hasn't had a new client in years

and he said

it was someone who'd moved into the area recently

so come on

who else could it be

okay

I'm a nosy bugger aren't I

sorry I can see

you like to keep your cards close to your chest

well I think I'm quite open really

so why did you come here

to Scotland hmm

we've always liked it here

and we decided it was time for a change

because

well I mean

just

people don't suddenly change unless something's wrong

or

I don't know

well I

I I have this

I suppose it's a kind of PTSD thing ah

I haven't really slept since it happened

since what happened

a what

when I was in London

I was in the play park with the kids

and this man he

he hit his kid

this woman intervened

and um

he hit her

he kicked her in the stomach

and I ran away

I ran away

and I left Violet behind

I abandoned my I abandoned my girl

they'll grow up knowing their father's a coward

I don't believe that for a second

look at today how you intervened

you let Angus take out all his rage on you

instead of young Katrina

you're a good man John

would you pray with me

what will you join me in prayer

uh no

I uh

I'm not a no

why not I don't pray

would you like to try it

come on

don't make me look like a fool in front of the big man

thank you Lord

for bringing John and Fiona

and their children into this community

thank you for John's honesty and his friendship

we come before you tonight

Lord to ask for strength

for humility

remember that when you walked on the water

and you asked Peter to join you

he needed courage before he could take the first step

I swear he's burnt this dinner

I knew he would I should never have let him bloody cook

come on

we ask you for that same courage

that you showed your disciple Peter

amen

I'll go and check on the children

amen

mwah thank you so much

you're welcome oh

look at these precious little angels

I wish we could have another

come on then hey

stop it you wig

the bangs bangs

listen to you thanks for having us tonight listen

call me anytime

thanks Tommy

watch the steps pull me down night

night night

I can walk by myself

alright alright

thank you night night goodnight

bye bye

oh come on love to talk about

so listen to this she told me she's an atheist

Rebecca yeah

ah well

I thought you'd be more surprised

well I imagine most vegans don't really

believe all of it the virgin birth

the miracle of the 12 fishes

12 fishes she was probably saying it to seem normal

the last thing those people are is normal

ah

why I like them seriously

then you

I love Rebecca I think she's mad and she's funny

why I love Tommy

he's so comfortable in his own skin he's authentic

I get the impression

you're not a fan

it makes my skin crawl

come on

you think we should go to church

I think that prank sent something to your head

well I did get something from it

what

I don't know just a feeling

like someone was looking out for me

hmm can I tell you what I got from it

what I like seeing you on your knees

Bos never used 51bce0c785ca2f68081bfa7d919

fee

fuck fee fee stop

stop please

fuck fuck

I'm sorry

to actually do anything

it's just nice to be close

we can't leave

huh we can't go back to London

why are you saying that

because I think you were already considering it

no I'm not if it doesn't work out

if it doesn't work out the whole cookbook thing

don't call it a cookbook but it is a cookbook

it's a culinary memoir I'm just saying

you're not a literary talent

and this is a new enterprise

and it's not as if you're exactly Philip Roth

no I'm not Phillip Roth

I'm not trying to be Phillip Roth

you don't even know who

Phillip Roth is porn noise complaint American Pastoral

okay so you do know who he is

I can't believe you said that

I just meant I don't know what I meant

we can't go back to London

because you might abandon Violet in a play park again

sorry

playback was your fault

is that what you really think

yeah wow

just being honest

well maybe that's the best thing about moving here

is that we can

we can start being more truthful with each other

look I get resentful because

you're the one who wanted to move here

I feel like I'm doing everything and

and you don't appreciate it

I'm the one looking after the kids

you hate being with them I do not hate being with them

I'm just not a naturally good father

I have to work at it you are a good father

but your mind's somewhere else look

I'm the same

I keep worrying that we've done the wrong thing and I'm

I'm terrified that I'm gonna fail you're not gonna fail

see you're not gonna fail

and as for settling in here we made the decision

we'll just embrace it that's what winners like us do

you still love me don't you

totally

do you still love me

what was that I don't know I can't see

I'm coming to fight you I know where you are

hey

hahaha

alright bye bye

what are you doing here

it's me

hey

hey

hey

don't just fucking ignore me when I'm calling after you

what do you fucking want

you following me what

feel like you're stalking me or something

of course I'm not stalking you

I will I told you

watch your back I didn't know

just leave me alone just leave me alone

fucking English puff

Monica what did you just call me

John

oh God

you're alright oh god

you're alright

shh

you sure no one saw you there was

there was no one around that I could see

I left him without a face

he didn't have a face

that's the dark that's your imagination running wild

have you called the police

I'll deal with the police

I'll deal with Angus

I have to tell Fiona do not tell her

you keep that secret

I killed him you don't know that

help me to help you John okay

why are you helping me

cause you're a good man

there's three steps out of this

you listening

shower

sleep

silence

say goodbye to me

shower

silence

silence

daddy

I can't sleep

hey you're okay it's alright

come on now

it's alright

shh

shh

I guess come here

God

forgive me

help me find a way out of this mess