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- I've got to hunt deer.

It's a huge caloric expenditure,

but that is what 1 have to get.

- Whoa! A large skull.

It's probably the red deer.

There are a lot of wolves in this area.

- It looks an awful lot like a leech.

It appears to have been sucking on this mouse blood.

I'm literally starving.

1 will eat anything.

Gross!

- The Mongolian cold

is definitely becoming a factor now.

No fish.

Wind.

Just calm the down!

Calm down!

Male narrator: For the first time ever on "Alone,”

ten past participants return.

They've come back with one goal: redemption.

- I deserve to be here, and I'm back.

- I want to win more this time than I did last time.

Narrator: Now a fresh hell awaits.

- The cold is an incredibly strong punch in the face.

Narrator: In the punishing wilderness of Mongolia.

- We're in the middle of nowhere.

- Mongolia's a very unforgiving land.

Narrator: They must survive in complete isolation,

enduring as long as they can.

- I'm just gonna push and push and push

until there's nothing left.

Narrator: The last one standing wins.

- Got you!

You know what patience does?

Catches the mouse with his bare hands.

As my food sources get smaller,

1 have 10 be prepared {0 eat anything.

Tasty little morsel.

So, uh, 1 was already in bed,

but I figured, why not have a little mouse snack

before 1 go 10 bed?

I'm not gonna let this thing sit around till morning.

At least, I'm gonna clean it.

I should put his little head on a pyre

for the rest of the little vermin to see.

"1 should've never came into Britt's shelter!

Oh, that was the worst mistake 1 ever made!"

Never cleaned a little mouse body before.

This is very small.

It's gonna end up being, like, five bites of meat, maybe.

My food acquisition is good, but it's lacking.

It's just not enough of

what I need in my diet to sustain, so

I'm finding I'm going to have to do something different.

Tm hunting anything and everything 1 can.

Let's see if we can get this in color.

1 want to try and toast it enough that

1 can just crunch right through the bone,

and it won't be a issue.

And fire makes everything taste good.

1 hope all his mouse buddies are watching.

Actually, 1 don't. 1 want some more visitors.

That's about the best 1 could do

without really lighting it up too much.

There it is.

30 minutes ago, this thing was running around my shelter

trying to eat my scraps.

The tables have turned.

1 don't like the bone that much,

but the meat tastes good.

1 think 1 have officially crossed over to hermit status.

I'm catching the mice in my shelter and eating them.

It was small, but it was still satisfying

just to have the flavor of meat.

Mmm, mouse.

- The mice are really fiddling around.

What the heck?

You hear just, ch-chh--

over in the grass over there.

A bunch of punks.

All right, mousie.

I'm gonna set this, and then you're gonna get trapped,

and I'm gonna eat you.

I tried to catch fish out here,

and it wasn't working for me,

so I'm gonna do exactly what

good old Mother Nature kind of allows me to do.

And right now, that's trap little creepy-crawly things.

Try, try, try, try.

If you get one little success,

you know, that goes a long way.

I want to learn from this place,

but 1 also am out here--

That trap go off?

Yes, baby!

Yes! Yes!

I just got a mouse in a trap.

But it's not running anywhere.

1 want you to die, and 1 want to eat you,

but 1 sure don't want you to suffer.

So that might've been a little bit brutal,

but this is survival.

I'm out here to get food from the woods,

and that means killing.

Any food you get--

even if you're eating veggies,

you're still killing animals in some way, you know.

There's life and death, and they go together.

Can't have one without the other.

Just getting that one is such a big deal.

That dead mouse means, for me,

is I'm gonna get my red meat fix,

and I'm gonna get some really, really good bait

to put in my fish trap.

I wonder how many mice Larry's trapped so far.

- She's a cold one this morning, boys.

Whoo!

It's gonna be a good day today, boys!

A good day. Whoo-hoo!

Hell, yeah.

Ow, 1 hit my head on the top of the shelter.

Oh, beautiful!

Mongolia! I love you!

Look at this. Look.

Frickin' blue out, man.

Birch tree's got ice on it, even.

It's a winter wonderland.

How can you not be in a good mood waking up to that?

And you know what the best thing about

yas

There was no mouse in the house!

There was no mouse in the house!

The mice are all gone, yeah!

- My nose is a little chilly.

Let's go look at the Paiutes and see if they're down.

Oh, looky-looky.

Look at who got hooky.

Just barely got him.

Let's see if he's really dead.

I'm pretty sure he is.

Oh, he's

Hey, you in there?

Sol

Frozen solid, man.

1 gofta thaw him out before 1 can even gut him.,.

Now we're talking.

The Paiute deadfall works great.

Last night, 1 did wake up.

It was just silent.

Not the absolute party frickin' zone it was two nights ago.

1 mean, two nights ago, Wt was like,

this guy must be the rock star or something.

He must be, like, the Blues Brothers

of the mice world or something,

'cause he was having a hell of a party.

He--he had all sorts of bad intentions going on.

Holy .

1 just heard my other Paiute go off.

- Looks like my Paiute's down.

Look how pretty that is.

Ooh, bazinga!

Nother one, baby! Nother one bites the dust!

Paiute madness, baby!

Yeah! Two, baby!

Two! Twofer!

Booga-booga-booga-booga! Booga-booga-booga!

Oh-ho. Craziness!

1 think it's time to name the Paiutes.

I'm gonna go put the names on there

and then show you.

The Paiute's definitely given me a few calories.

It's been fun making.

It's been fun improving upon and learning about.

You screw with it as much as 1 have,

you kind of get to know the ins and the outs

and the nuances of the trap.

1 have been dealing with the mice for up to a month now.

They've just been waking me up and making me nervous

about getting holes in my gear.

1 do not like mice.

So 1 named my Paiutes.

This is one I've killed five or six on,

something like that.

The first one in Vancouver Island,

the one that I was catching a lot of them on,

1 named "Slayer."

This one's "Slayer II."

1 thought that was a good name. "Slayer TL"

And this is the one 1 just made

that 1 caught one on just today.

"The Death Dealer."

Man, 1 can't tell you what a nice night it was

last night not listening to them.

Believe me, 1 can sleep through,

but when they're just, like, boring into your skull,

it just--it's so frustrating, man.

And last night, I woke up. It was just silent.

I loved it.

And here comes the rain.

Little .

Ah, there was a mouse, like, right there.

How many of these do I have to kill?

Damn it!

This place!

Not enjoying myself anymore, man.

Damn it.

You little bastards!

1 am not having fun anymore.

God, come on, man.

Come on.

One more day.

- All right, well, the rain is falling.

So I'm just gonna hang out in the cabin

and kind of work on little carving projects or whatever.

One of the things that's been on my list of things to do

now for a while is to make a little camp chair.

Thoughts are really--

it's just hard to stay focus in right now.

I don't know, it's just today.

Yeah, this-- the rain always depresses me.

You know, I learn a lot about how my mind works out here.

You know, I'm such a social human being.

It's been difficult since, like, you know, day one for me.

1 have the skills to be able to sustain myself out here.

1 can hunt;, 1 can produce shelter;

1 can set up traps; 1 can tan hides,

but then there's this whole other psychological part

of being out here, which it's--

it's the hardest thing for me.

It's not being out here and surviving;

it's being out here and surviving alone.

Oh, yeah, it's not bad.

- The rain seems to have stopped right now,

but the weather's gotten cold.

I'm having a very, very difficult time getting fish.

I'm not seeing grouse.

Deer is what 1 need to go after.

I'm heading into that canyon, and I'm gonna hunt.

I'm gonna camp overnight.

It'll be a good trip.

Saw three deer, and they were moving across the land.

Started into the canyon, but the wind was blowing my scent

into the deer's trail, so.

I heard some elk up on that far edge,

so I decided, well, I'll spook them,

and then Tl spook everything if 1 go that direction.

So 1 started heading up this hill.

I'm gonna keep going, and then just sort of

try to circumnavigate it.

Just one deer, that's all 1 need.

In Patagonia, I would not move around near as much.

I'm losing weight much quicker

because I'm putting so much energy into my hunting.

1 know there's something here,

but I'm not exactly sure...

God, it's a lot of work, a lot of calories

that are going into this.

You hear that?

Three deer 1 spooked out of a bed.

Followed the ridge down.

I don't know if they're gonna stay down low,

if they're gonna cross.

Either way, 1 got to move, 'cause they're...

1 think the only chance that 1 have

is to run on the other side, ahead,

and then try to bushwhack 'em.

1 don't know if they're gonna hear me in there,

but 1 got to give it a go.

I got to haul ass.

So I see those deer.

So 1 spooked three deer.

They headed up canyon.

1 decided to cut across the canyon

so I could run and try to catch up with them.

But I lost track of 'em.

1 just don't have the energy to

run ahead of these deer and ambush 'em.

I've never hunted this hard.

I'm hunting hard.

1 don't want to starve.

I know how to starve. I've proven that.

It's a definitive low point.

It is a depressive state of mind

to not be able to feed yourself.

There's something I'm missing,

'cause I cannot figure this land out.

Soon, I'm gonna be finding myself

peeling bark off of trees and eating the inner bark of trees.

I'm high up on the mountain now.

Look at all these birch.

I'm gonna just take it slow,

walk real easy through those.

That's my area right there.

All in there.

My shelter's probably...

right about there.

1 thought 1 was invincible at the beginning of this.

I have so much to learn from out here.

- I think today is my dad's, uh, last day hunting in Utah.

1 wonder how they did.

1 hope they got an elk.

That would be awesome.

I'm feeling pretty low.

Lacking human companionship is

absolutely the hardest thing for me.

So, today,

I'm gonna climb

that mountain.

1 know that the climb is gonna be probably exhausting,

but 1 need to jump out of this mind-set,

take a step back, look at it from another perspective.

Climbing to the top of that mountain

is gonna be good for my spirit,

and that's more important to me.

I wonder what it looks like up there.

What took me out last time was

feeling disconnected from

my family and friends and community.

This time, I know what the challenge is,

and so 1 know what it's going to take

in order for me to overcome that.

She's pretty steep, but 1 don't think that she's that steep.

Just trying to think, here, what my best plan of action

is gonna be.

It looks like this ridge here

is pretty shallow.

All right, the only place to go now is up.

Let's do this.

These little wanderings,

they are so good for my mental state.

Out here, you can't just feed yourself physically;

you have to feed yourself in other ways.

Check all this area out.

The desire for companionship still exists,

but you shift your definition of what companionship means.

Now that need is fulfilled by the land.

That, here, is a fall to almost certain death.

Just be careful.

Pretty steep, but I'm strong. I can do this.

Not much farther.

Here 1 am.

At the top.

Whoo-ooh!

I'm gonna remember the climb.

I'm gonna remember how good it felt to get to the top.

Worth it.

Absolutely worth it.

Ohh, 1 feel rejuvenated.

I think I might be able to stay out here

for a couple more weeks.

I'm feeling happy.

Thank you, Mongolia!

- So, winter's coming.

That's--that's a certainty right now.

1 want to finish my wall

so I can cut out wind and rain,

and all that nasty stuff that's to come.

So that's looking good.

1 think if 1 actually have a door and close this place up,

get this place cranking to, like, 70 degrees.

So I'm gonna go over to some of these dead birch trees,

and I'm gonna see if we can get any, like,

pieces of birch bark, 'cause I'm really looking

more for a wind block than insulation.

I'm thinking of home, but I'm in a good, like, headspace.

1 miss them very much,

but every single day that I'm out here

is for those guys.

Wh 1 left,

my little baby girl could barely open her eyes.

My son, he was playing with the suitcase.

And he packed a couple of his toys

and one of his sandals, so

1 don't think he was totally convinced

that he wasn't coming with me.

I love the thought of running and giving that kid a hug,

the whole rest of my family too.

But every day away just makes the homecoming

that much sweeter.

Ooh, and it looks like bad weather just blew in.

Definitely seeing some snowflakes now.

Yep, first snow.

First snow.

Wow.

I don't think it'll accumulate or anything.

Tomorrow, it could be 60 degrees.

You never know out here.

- This is my hunting area for big game.

It's--it's far from my regular shelter,

so I'm building a wikiup.

A wikiup will keep me

dry and warm while hunting.

It's basically a tipi that's made out of natural debris.

It's just a stepping stone on a base camp

that 1 can further travel and further hunt.

It's getting there.

A lot--lot to go though.

It's gonna take some time.

It's gonna take some energy.

1 don't know if I'm gonna be doing near what 1 was hoping.

Weather turned quick.

It's just like, oh, boy,

you don't know what's gonna happen.

I've been so much in the hunter's mind,

s0 much in the, "1 got to get food, 1 got to get food,"

it almost is stopping me from seeing things.

In my not-done-yet wikiup.

Just watching the snow come down hard.

It's keeping me okay for right now.

Not too bad.

Wow.

It's beautiful.

It's just nice--just laying down watching it.

Wow.

There's a part of just

being right here and not concentrating on the hunting

that's amazing.

What a trip.

I think I'm gonna just take a nap,

see what happens with the snow.

- Look at the snow coming.

That's pretty.

It's gonna get colder and snowier.

Look at this.

Let's check out the sky first.

Totally white.

No sun today, Mongolia.

I love this first snow, being in it.

I wasn't in it the last time.

This is what I've been expecting

for a couple of weeks.

I didn't expect to be as warm as long as I was.

I'm grateful for it. But this...

Today is the day it feels like the season's started.

And 1 mean the season of alone.

Now it feels like it's started.

1 just saw a fish jump over there.

Maybe 1 can get some action here,.

1 think it's about time to do some fishing.

1 remember a week ago,

1 was thinking fishing might be done for the season,

not because the fish don't bite,

but because of my accessibility to 'em.

1 guess the time of season dictates

what fish are gonna be in certain spots.

1 thought they would go deeper.

1 wish 1 could walk through there, but 1 can'y, really.

No, I'm not gonna chance it.

The water's really moving here.

Got one!

Al right.

Got one.

It appears 1 found a spot in the river

that the fish are active.

Okay.

1 was already in a good mood.

Puts me in a better mood.

If I ever deserved to catch a fish, it was today.

Guess what today is.

Today is day 35

which is a good, solid number, in and of itself,

But it's a milestone number for me,

because in Patagonia, on day 35,

1 was calling them to come pick me up.

1 knew in the middle of the night on day 34

that 1 was gonna be calling them on day 35.

1 was not in nearly as good a state as 1 am right now,

and I'm extremely happy about that.

Five weeks is pretty good,

even though 1 didn't feel that great about it at the time.

But now I'm at five weeks, man, and I'm rolling.

I'm in a groove.

And I'm not cold.

And I'm not sad.

Lonely? Eh, 1 mean, at times.

1 mean, not really.

1 miss my family,

but 1 don't know if that classifies as being lonely.

You know, I'm not, like, sullen and downtrodden,

like, "Man, I really want to see my family."

I really do, but I'm not like, "Oh, no,

what am 1 gonna do?"

1 know they're there waiting for me,

and it's gonna be all good.

So I'm all good. So it's all good.

- Here's a water bottle that 1 use.

It's that cold.

Solid ice.

Gives you an idea of what it was like last night.

Woke up in a bit of a mood this morning.

Bit of a "poor me" situation going on.

I just, uh--you know, it's been

going back and forth and back and forth now.

But 1 think today 1 really hit a wall.

So I'm gonna go out and do some fishing

and see if I can feel better.

It's really snowing.

There's no fish. They're just not there anymore.

They were there, and then all the sudden, they weren't.

There's been a direct correlation between

temperature and food production.

It was, like, something that just happened overnight.

One second, there was tons of food,

and then the next, there wasn't anymore.

At this point, it's been about a week since

I've caught any fish, and no grouse.

The greens are wilted, and I'm not seeing

deer scat or sign around.

So I'm absolutely feeling anxious

just not knowing where my next meal is coming from.

For five weeks, 1 walked here,

walked all up and down my territory...

in solitude...

eating only what the land provided.

Lack of food and lack of companionship, at this point,

is really sort of taking its toll on me.

And in all honesty, I'm struggling.

No matter where I'm at,

1 actively search out community.

1 think that that's one of the things that's been so hard

for me out here is that 1 have no sense of community.

With community comes a sense of place.

Without community, there's a huge part of my world

that's missing.

And 1 wish that 1 could pull it from the environment.

In some ways, I have been, but

that's a temporary fix,

like putting a Band-Aid on a bullet hole.

I was looking forward to

pushing myself past that barrier.

1 want to continue going.

1 just don't wanna do it without anybody else.

This is Randy.

I'm officially tapping out.

I'm ready to go home.

- 1 haven't been able to produce, really, any food.

And set up a lot of traps,

and those weren't producing as well,

But there's a whole other aspect to me

that's not being fed out here,

and that is my lack of social interaction

with people and my lack of community.

It's difficult. It's been difficult.

You know, I've reached the end of my time here in Mongolia.

In a lot of ways this place has

pulled me in and made me feel at home.

Kept me warm, fairly well-fed

for the first couple weeks.

Kept me company.

When 1 left Vancouver, I felt like I didn't

fully do what 1 wanted to do.

This feels like it's time, and it feels right.

Going beyond 21 days was, in some way, a goal for me.

I wanted to last longer than I lasted in Vancouver,

and so 1 feel like this was a redemption for me.

- Well, I've been napping.

It was a cold night last night, man.

And now it's snowing.

Son of a bitch.

I'm gonna have to poop in the snow.

1 hate that.

But I'm hoping that the snow will

really decimate the population of mice around here.

That would really make me happy.

Pretty nice out here in the snow.

Better than the bugs in the heat.

1 don't know what to do today, man.

Now is where the boredom sets in.

There's only so much stuff you can do out here.

You can only look at the mountains so many times.

Yeah, now are the dog days, man.

1 forgot when it happened,

and I want to say it's almost exactly right now.

Sure, 1 don't want to be in agony anymore, man.

I don't want to kill myself any more for this.

1 don't want to push and push and push myself anymore.

But it's beautiful out. It is just beyond amazing.

Sometimes when I'm back home,

just with the everyday rat race, 1 feel numb,

1 feel kind of dead to the world.

But when I'm out here, it's just such a primal feeling.

Man, it's brisk, baby. Brisk.

I'm alive.

I'm alive, Mongolia!

I am here!

1 am alive!

That frickin' echo just...wow.

Now, that's why I'm still here, man.

That's why.

1 just found out that 1 can echo out here.

I don't know why that makes me want to cry, but it does.

It makes me so happy.

I'm alive!

- 1 took three hooks together,

and I've made a lure.

Got one! Oh 1 just lost my lure.

- 1 have extreme abdominal pain.

My bowels are still not kicking anything out.

It would suck to go home.

- I'm so hungry, my stomach hurts.

1 still have a fear from Patagonia.

1 have 10 make sure that that doesn't happen again.

- Wolf scat.

Those are wolves, man.

They're not that far away. I'll try not to make any noise.