All language subtitles for Alone S05E06 - Of Mice And Men

- Whoa.

That was a pretty
intense head rush.

- That sound like a bear.

- I got the cabin
looking pretty good.

When extremely cold
temperatures come,

I know that I'm gonna be
warm inside of my cabin.

Just these
really bad abdominal cramps.

Ugh, can't pass.

It's Jesse.
I have to tap out.

I know I'm
letting my family down.

Male narrator: For the first
time ever on "Alone,"

ten past participants return.

They've come back with
one goal:

redemption.

- I deserve to be here,
and I'm back.

- I want to win more this time
than I did last time.

Narrator: Now
a fresh hell awaits.

- The cold is an incredibly
strong punch in the face.

Narrator: In the punishing
wilderness of Mongolia.

- We're in
the middle of nowhere.

- Mongolia's a very
unforgiving land.

Narrator: They must survive
in complete isolation,

enduring as long as they can.

- I'm just gonna push and push

and push until
there's nothing left.

Narrator: The last
one standing wins.

1 have quite a few
mice living in my shelter.

It's slowly getting worse
and slowly getting worse.

I'm just scared to death that

the mice are gonna
get into my gear.

There's all this grass
and brush and stuff

in my shelter that
he can hide under.

1 don't know where he is.

Today, 1 think I'm gonna tear

my bed apart.

I'm going to lay out
all the grass,

just to see if there's
any mouse nests in there.

Vancouver Island had a little
bit of a mouse problem too,

but when I left,

they had quite a bit less
of a mouse problem.

A mouse is completely
destroying my gear.

It's like me against him now,
and it's--now it's personal.

I'm so frickin' pumped
right now I'm shaking.

1 finally, finally, finally
caught the effing mouse

in my paiute deadfall.

Just frickin' squished like
a damn pancake, baby. Bazinga!

Oh, this seemed like
a good idea at the time.

Why did 1 do this?

Well, potentially,

that wasn't exactly the
smartest thing I've ever done.

That was a lot of work.

I'm not sure of the benefits.

There was no mouse nest.

I am very surprised that
this time is this similar to

Vancouver Island
where the mice

are coming out
to haunt me again.

My name is Larry Roberts,
and I do not like rodents.

- What if all of my
footage was this close?

Oh, that hurt my stomach,
1 started laughing so hard.

Like, every single scene...

Was this close.

Oh, my God.

Oh, there goes the camera.

Oh, crap. Okay, calm it down.

That was a moment of insanity.

So with that said,
it's time to get up.

1 think today's gonna be
a good day for fishing.

I feel it.

The water's at
a good level today.

There we go.

That's a good one.

1 can't wait to take
fishing--

rent a canoe and go out.

I know he's gonna love it.

There we go.

Time with my son is what
I look forward to

more than anything else.

He's not just my son;
he's my friend.

Can't wait to watch all
of the amazing things he's

going to do, and to be front
and center for all of them.

There we go.

This one feels
a little bigger.

See, you catch one more, and
then you want to keep fishing.

1 got one more
grasshopper in my pocket.

How about 1 give it
a few more minutes?

My strategy is working

basically exactly
as 1 thought it would.

I am pleasantly surprised with
the amount of fish I've been

able to pull out of the water.

1 wonder if anybody's doing
as well as me with the fish,

'cause 1 would define
what I'm doing as

"killing it"
with the fish.

Good haul.

This one has
a big belly right here.

Wonder why. It's
a small fish with a big belly.

Just had a really full stomach.

Wow. Gonna have to cut
that open and see what that is.

Thing has been eating.

There's the grasshopper that

was there, and this
is what else was in there.

You kidding me?

Look at that.

That looks like a mouse.

Let me get it all the way out.

That's incredible.

I don't want to be limited

10 how many fish 1 can hold,
and right now 1 am.

1 need to try smoking my fish,

so I'll take a whole line
of fish,

string it from one
rafter to the other,

and then just keep a good,
smoky fire going all day,

and after a while, they'll
firm up and they'll find their

groove, and they won't
slide off, so it'll be fine.

Everything is
perfect right now.

It's really
smoking that stuff up.

Big plumes of direct smoke.

Operation: Smokehouse.

- One, two,

three, four,

five,

six, seven...

eight fish halves,
so that's pretty good.

Um, let me show you
my smoking setup here.

So I've just been
smoking these...

Right on my chimney,

and then 1 go ahead and take
this guy...

Stick that boy
on top of there,

just to help

keep the smoke trapped inside.

Hopefully, by tomorrow,

1 should have some
well-smoked fish.,.

My body's taken
to this lifestyle.

1 feel good.

I feel like I've, um, leveled
out in some ways.

The fish are biting,
grouse are singing.

Grouse is just a great
sort of change of diet,

which is really, really nice.

1 haven't gotten any
in a couple of days,

so let's see if I
can get some grouse.

I've been hearing one kind of
sing a little bit to the...

east of me, east of my camp.

I think out here
it's important

to just walk slow,
always be scanning the area.

1 don't want to hurt
myself while I'm here.

Stepping on a rattlesnake
or a pit viper is gonna throw

you out of the game.

There's a grouse right there.

I'm gonna try
to sneak by and get it.

1 missed it.

You could hear the hit.

It was a "pff"
sound.

There's feathers
all over the place.

Just not a kill shot. Just
got off by a feather, you know?

There he is again.

There he is again.

Got him.

It was a successful stalk
and kill,

about a 20-yard shot
through some brush.

Dinner tonight is not
a bad full grouse here.

Pretty happy about that.

Smoker's certainly
doing a good job.

Check that out.

It's amazing to know that the
way that I've lived my life

for the last ten years is

culminating to such
abundance out here.

One of the best
parts of doing "Alone"

season two was this guy
comes up to me and he goes,

"My Kids go outside all the
time and they play at "Alone;

and you've been
a huge inspiration to them."

That one experience
was probably the best

compliment 1 could have got.

Those kids are gonna grow up

a little bit more
connected to the land.

That motivates me
to stay out here.

- All right, so welcome
to the Green Glow Psych Ward.

I'd rather be just
about anywhere but inside

this shelter right now.

These rainy days are brutal.

It's cold,
I don't want to go outside,

1 don't want 10 be in here...

and it's just a monotonous day.

It's gonna be tough.

Need my blue sky
for my mental health.

How in the world did 1 survive
Vancouver Island? 1 don't know.

I had a white tarp,
for one thing.

Huge difference,
white tarp.

Not this green psych
ward shelter I'm living in.

It's not good--
not good for the mind.

Just sitting here staring at
the fire, hoping the rain slows

down or stops today at some
point so 1 can get outside.

I'm pretty sick of myself.
Yep.

Had all about enough
of me as 1 can stand.

Whoo!
It's a party.

Party of one.
That's me.

- No,
1 don't think it's--

the rain is lightening up
at all.

1 don't think
the sky is either.

It's my wishful imagination.

I'm not sure how much
more I can handle today.

So I'm just relaxing,
sitting here,

watching fly sex--gross--

and thinking about
setting a trap.

This diet of constant fish
is making me feel pretty good,

pretty clean, because it's
so fresh and such a drastic

change from my normal diet,
but I'm also finding that it's

not providing me with
the energy 1 need,

the fat source 1 need;

it's not giving me
the calories I need,

so I'm not feeling as high
energy as I normally would.

1 know that there are all
types of weasels and badgers

and wolverines, scavengers
that run around here

so 1 don't have 10 go
way up to make a trap.

1 can make a trap
20 feet from my door.

The flies are crazy.
The flies are crazy.

If I were to catch something
in the middle of the night

and it's out there howling,

I've got to go out
in the dark and dispatch it.

Hopefully it'll be
something that will not have

a pack of somethings with it.

- 1 want to set
a freestanding trap,

not one that's attached
to a tree that's rooted.

Be cool if there was something
like a wolverine or a badger,

something neat like that.

Not really hoping it's a bear.

It would be out here
angry as hell

with a tree
attached to its limb.

The first one
of these I've ever made,

so just want it to work.

There's the loop right here.

1 used silver.

See how it blends in so well.

And then there's the fish
head hanging inside the loop.

The loop is attached
on the lower notch,

fish head on the second notch,
and the engine on the third,

and all that ripe-smelling
bait is back there.

And you know
how the system works.

It tugs, that releases,
this lifts, that pulls.

Maybe it'll completely upend
something and--who-who-who,

bam!--slam it
on the ground over there.

The concept of handling
something in the pitch

blackness does
not totally thrill me.

Wow.

1 don't know.

- Tired this morning, 'cause of
all the animal traffic outside.

I'll go check out my trap.

And 1 might just--oh!

Dangerous part.

Damn.
Look at that.

Now that right there
is a moose track.

Look at the size of that hoof.

That is one
impressively large animal.

Wow.
Let me tell you,

man, when they come running
around my camp in the middle

of the night, it's no joke.

You start hearing these animals
all the time in and around you,

the evidence they're leaving,
the sounds they're making.

This is a lot
different from Ohio.

1 mean, we don't have animals

that could possibly
do so much damage.

We're in a situation that,
if something horrible

should happen to us,

it's scary to think
that I could be stuck

here in the woods for hours
if nobody's coming to help me.

It looks like 1 was correct.

Something came up here.

I'm trying to see if
the bait is still in there.

It's not.

My anchor stick
came out of the ground.

So I need to create another
one of these, and I'll make it,

like, this long, and I'll
pound it way down in there,

and I'll reset this trap
tonight, and, you know,

try and land some game, get
some valuable, you know, meat.

- I'd like to sharpen my knife.

Let's see if we
can figure this out.

So usually what 1 do is 1 keep
working it until 1 get a burr.

Wow, it's got a burr already.

Holy cow.

Extra coarse,
it looks like, then.

And then 1 just flip
the side and go 1 a finer.

1 heard something running.

What the ?

It still
sounds like I's over there.

What the hell is that?

1 hit a cormorant.
That's a big bird.

I think T hit it.

I'm gonna go after it.

I hit it.

1 don't know how bad 1 hit it.

Ah, dang.
It got away.

1 needed that.

1 hurt something else out here.

I don't like that.

1 don't want to hurt things.

1 have no result.

Damn it.

- I'm so thankful.

1 see blotches of sunshine
coming through my tarp.

1 can get out of here today.

I'm gonna climb that ridge over

there, way 10 the top, so
1 can see over the other side.

Be nice to get up
a little higher and just kind

of survey the country a little.

Tm gonna take a basket, see
if 1 can find some birch bark,

some berries,
some chaga, maybe.

Stuff ain't gonna be
around much longer.

It's really dying off.

I'm just hoping
the weather holds.

1 feel like there's
weather moving in.

1 don't know if I'm
making the right choice.

Definitely would not want

to get stuck out far
from camp in bad weather.

All right.
Made it to the ridge.

Now 1 can climb.

I just feel so lonely--these
clouds and this darkness.

1 feel like an abandoned child
out here...

like they left me behind.

Uh-oh.
It looks like it's coming.

Do 1 keep going,
or do 1 tum around now?

1 don't know.

I'd hate to have to come
back and try this again.

That.

Two rose hips.

There's another one there,

Very ripe.

You basically just suck
the pulp right off the seeds.

Hope the weather holds.

Coming up on this birch tree.

That looks like chaga.
That is chaga!

Finally. Look how high it is.

Tm gonna get a stick,
see if 1 can knock any off.

Chaga likes these big,
mature birch trees.

Success.

1 got all kinds of pieces--

really nice, big chunks too.

Oh, that's awesome.

Yay!

All right.
Good score.

You know, there's
gonna be people who say,

"What a waste of calories and
energy to climb this ridge,"

and I'll I've got to say is,

I'm only gonna be here
one time for my whole life.

I've got one chance to climb

this ridge, look at this view,
and take it all in.

You think I'm gonna
sit in camp

twiddling my thumbs
conserving energy?

No way, man.
I'm gonna go out and live it.

Whoo! There is an end in sight.

See what 1 see up there?

That looks like
the top of something.

I'm almost there.

I wonder what it
looks like on the other side.

Oh, wow,

Wow.

Look at that.

1 made it.
Yeah!

1 see my river.
1 think that's my camp.

Snakes right around,
a big loop.

The wind is picking up,

like this huge
front just pushed through.

I don't want to linger here
and get stuck in a storm.

Holy cow.

It's threatening.

Oh, no.

1 want to be anywhere but here.

Just anywhere.

Looks like rain
in the valley now.

Just now feeling
some sprinkles of rain.

I'm getting down
off this mountain.

Definitely
don't want to be wet.

Oh, 1 don't like that,
hearing that coming. Scary.

This kind of weather doesn't
bring out the best in me.

Not at all.

Doesn't bring out
the warrior or the tough girl.

None of that.

We're home.,

weather has moved in,
1 got to move out.

1 didn't want to be
stuck up there,.

I was up there a lot
farther than I thought.

Almost there.

Oh, 1 just--1 can't bear
much of that shelter,

crawling back into the green,
smoky tarp.

And what if this storm
lasts two days with no windows,

no friends,
no family, no cat, no dog?

Just loneliness and darkness.

Yeah,
it's easy to get in your head

and just talk yourself
right out of being here.

Easy to do.
So many reasons to go.

You're hungry, you're--a
shower would be amazing.

It's just the loneliness.

There's just a loneliness here
that sinks in after a while.

You're just--it's overwhelming.

You just want
to be with people.

That's what was cool with
doing season four with Dave.

Life's meant to be shared.

This time, it's just me.

It's too quiet.

You know what's
hard to think about?

All you have to do is make
a phone call, and you can be

in a bed tonight,
you can have food tonight.

Like, once you start getting

into that headspace, it's
really hard to come out of it.

- Well, I'm up.

It is oh-dark-30,
and the mice are just

frickin' going to town, man.

Just, "Shh, shh, shh, shh.

"Whew, whew, whew.

Shh, shh, shh."
Just all over the place, man.

They are just driving me
bat crazy.

Boom!

God, they're just insane.

Oh, my gosh.

Oh, the little bastards.

I wish I could
stomp their little guts in.

Oh, 1 was ready
just-- I had to get up, man.

1 was ready
to destroy my shelter.

1 mean, just destroy it.

1 was gonna go off.

Ugh.

Little bastard mice.

Run me out of my own bed.

I'm gonna make a fire,
get my hands warm.

I'm just frustrated.

I'm tired, I'm hungry,
and I'm hungry, and I'm hungry.

I'm hangry.

Little bastards!

God.

- Yesterday has
messed with my head

on many levels,

but mostly emotional.

It's been these highs and lows,

like real high and real low.

There's a mouse coming up.

1 hope he goes for my trap.

Then I'll have killed him.

If you don't want to die,
then 1 would suggest you leave.

- If you don't want to die,
then 1 would suggest you leave.

[trap thumps

Killed him.

Al right.

Knocked him on the head.

Died just outside of the trap.

Cook and clean you
in the morning, buddy.

- I've got three mice
off of that one trap.

They just kept coming,
and 1 kept setting,

and they kept coming,
and 1 kept setting.

Even more came out afterwards.

Um, I'll accept any
meat that I can get,

so 1 plan on eating
those guys today.

Definitely working
on the emotional thing.

I want to learn the land.

Killing is just something
that is part of this Earth,

and it's got to be done,

but it hurts,
and it's not easy for me.

1 don't remember that so much

in Patagonia, but I think
now I'm gonna have to face it.

- 1 have been dealing
with the mice

for up to a month now,
of them waking me up

and pitter-pattering around
my shelter,

but now they're sleeping,

'cause they like to party
all night and sleep all day.

You know,
it's these little things

they don't tell you about.

They don't tell you
about the mice...

when you're--when you go
to survival school.

They just say, "Just survive,
man. Just survive."

They didn't tell me
about the mice.

All right, well, I'm pulling
out all the stops today, boys.

Wake up, mice!
Wakey, wakey!

Wakey, wakey, mice!

You wake me up,
I'm waking you up!

You want a little bear spray?

1 hope that it just filed

their little
lungs with toxic fumes.

There.
That's it.

That's all of it,
you frickin' things.

1 should air horn them too.

That's fun.

Smells kind of peppery
and refreshing in my shelter.

Little peppery.

Is it a little peppery
in there for you, folks?

- 1 don't know
what I'm gonna do.

The trauma that 1 experienced
on Vancouver Island

is suddenly coming back
like it was yesterday.

- 1 absolutely can't deal
with the green glow in there.

It is a mental
roadblock for me.

I can't be in that shelter
and be happy about life.

- Killing's hit me a bit,
definitely.

Right now, 1 just--
1 mean, 1 feel raw

and a little overpowered
by it.

- Hey, guys.

Turns out I'm pretty sick
of hanging out with myself.

And I'm pretty lonely.
It gets to you after a while.

You just--the quiet
of not sharing the experience.

It just kind
of eats away at you.

And, uh...

starving sucks.

It has been so incredibly

humbling to go
through this twice.

1 feel like this time, because

1 was alone instead
of with Dave,

it's a bit
of a redemption.

It's a bit of a chance
to prove

on my own the skills
that 1 have.

But there is this recollection
of Vancouver Island.

1 don't want to
go there again.

1 don't want to get
that hungry again.

This is enough hungry.

This is enough cold.

This is enough loneliness.

It's enough
of the green monster.

It's like,
"Okay, this is over."

Leave with a smile on my face.

And that's what 1 choose.

- Whoa. Check it out.

There are a lot
of predators in this area.

Just hope that if 1 stay away

from them, they're
gonna stay away from me.

- I'm literally starving.

1 will eat anything.

Ugh!
Gross!

- Yikes.

I've got to hunt deer,
and I'm

gonna put every last ounce of
energy I have into that deer.

- I just heard something.

Let's go check it out.

In the grass,
and it's still over there.