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- * MTV *

- Previously on "Love & Hip Hop: Atlanta"...

- Renni and I, you know, we've been on this healing journey.

- So we're taking y'all to Canada.

all: Canada?

- Well, welcome to Canada.

- All right, the journey about to start.

- Yah! Yah! Yah! - We outside.

- They say Black women don't do this.

We doing it. - Oh, [bleep].

[all scream]

- Whoo!

- Thank you to my sister.

She's gonna donate her eggs. - Wait, hold on.

Time out. I thought we was off that?

- You not gonna deny this of me.

- I'm exploring the idea of running for city councilwoman.

- Whoo! OK, yeah!

- You always doing some [bleep].

- I went and had a talk with her.

And I told her exactly, I said you was dead-ass wrong.

- Oh, we have an early start tomorrow, guys.

- Yeah. - We got a 6:00 a.m.--

- Why would you just do that though?

- Be on a healing journey if you don't take accountability--

- Can't acknowledge, yes.

- I wanna know why everybody's kissing ass

and not holding their friends accountable.

- This [bleep] is fake.

- Bitch, you saying that this happened because of me?

[bleep] that! - Saying that this happened

because of me?

- I'll smack you, bitch.

[indistinct arguing]

[bleep] is you talking about?

[funky hip-hop music]

- * This is the life *

- * It's the life that we're livin' *

- * This is the life *

- * It's the life that we chose *

- * This is the life *

* It's the life that we're livin' *

- * This is the life *

- * It's the life that we chose *

- * Make my way to the top *

* And it ain't no stoppin' *

- * Came in with the whole squad *

* Make the whole place rock *

* Tell the DJ make the place stop *

* I make the place stop *

* Squad going too hard *

* Rocking like bass rock *

* Three, two, one, let the bass knock *

- I don't know about everybody else,

but I've probably only seen snow

maybe two or three times in my life.

So I'm going to make the best out of this trip.

I'll be having as much fun as I can.

- * Bass rock, three, two, one *

* Let the bass knock *

- New experiences are cool.

It's cute. But I'm a Cali girl, OK?

It's time to get up out this snow,

get my little toes defrosted,

and go get a nice little cocktail.

* *

- Did y'all snowmobile?

- Snowmobiles was fun, yeah.

- How were the dogs, though? How were they?

- The dogs was [bleep] terrible.

- What? - Well, I'm glad

we had the conversation that we had

before we got here about just having fun

and it not being focused on other [bleep].

Amy, I haven't thought about beefing once.

It's like it never happened.

- Remember? I don't even remember it.

It was a time. - Yeah.

I'm not gonna lie, I'ma tell y'all something.

People be having beef.

I never [bleep] remember.

- [bleep] I wish I could do that.

Now, let me tell you what my friend said to me that--

it really bothered me.

Paris, she was drunk one night.

And she had--and we was just on the phone.

She's like, "Ha ha ha, you 35, and you moved there

for a [bleep] that don't want you."

- No, she didn't.

- Yeah, she said that to me.

Everyone knows who my bestie, best friend, sister is.

Paris is that to me.

Paris, out of all my friends,

she definitely keeps it real with me.

I think this was her just giving me some tough love

on top of a little joke on top of a little--mm.

I know she was drunk and stuff like that.

It just bothered me just because, like, it's the truth.

I think it, but it's crazy hearing somebody--

somebody saying it to you.

Santana right now, I just like--

it's like, [bleep] you.

We not even talking.

We don't even see each other at this point.

Like, this what makes me like, you know what?

Paris was right.

- You talk to Santana? - I called him last night

when I was drunk in my room by myself.

It's no picking up.

I can't keep doing that. I want you to show up.

Like, I need that. Like, I need to be like,

OK, my [bleep] got-- like, really got me.

I'm always gonna love him.

And like, if he ever need me, I'm always whatever.

I'm always gonna be like that because that's what just

a stand-up type of [bleep] guy.

- Right. - Karlie, why are you crying?

- Can I say that I'm proud of you?

You are always looking out for people that you love.

I wish I just had someone like that in my life.

I don't have nobody. Like, literally, I have nobody.

I go to bed by myself.

- I get it. - I wake up by myself.

I don't have nobody. At the end of the day,

if I crash or if I-- if I have a flat tire,

I got nobody to call, not one person...

- You can call me, Karlie.

- Because I take care of everybody.

- You can call us. I promise I'll come get you.

I promise, I will.

- I give my heart to everyone on this trip,

like how I was with Spice.

Once you say I got your back,

even if you not speaking or talking,

if something really detrimental happens to you,

I'm still gonna give you my kidney.

I'm still gonna have your back. That's just how I am.

I make sure that I be there for my friends no matter what.

And I just haven't seen that for me.

Everybody depends on me, from my mother--

my mother don't eat without me, don't sleep without me.

I pay for the groceries, the rent,

the this, the that, I'm telling you.

- I truly feel Karlie

because I feel the same thing for myself.

I feel like I've tried to be so accommodating.

I've tried to be nice.

I've tried to be a stand-up woman.

And the thing that people will do is just suck

all of that energy out of you and then go on with their lives

and pretend like you never did anything for them.

- I don't know, sometimes I break down

and I get so depressed.

I can't sleep. I go to pray.

I be like, God, please give me the strength.

- Yeah, some sanity.

- I definitely think it's a deeper side to Karlie.

Spice knows that.

They just need to kind of get past this rough patch

and all the bad memories and thoughts

and remember all the good stuff.

This is why you and-- you and Spice,

y'all are both dealing with real-life [bleep].

For real, y'all both need each other the most right now.

- She was the only person I could come to.

It's really sad because I did think at one point,

Spice and I had unconditional love.

- Give me a hug.

Stop crying.

Aw.

- I feel like you the only one that be having my back.

It hurts to see how far we are from that sisterhood.

The energy that she's giving is not welcoming.

So how much more can I take?

- * I'm from Atlanta *

* So you know I don't play *

* Don't play, don't, don't *

- Ken? - Yep.

- Did you order food?

- I did.

- What'd you order me?

- Wings.

Didn't you say that was OK?

- I don't want no wings.

- I asked you what you wanted.

You told me to get you what I was getting,

what me and Cory was getting.

- I thought you were getting something healthy, man.

Why you get me some wings, man?

Since we had this whole blowup at the bowling alley,

things with myself and Kendra have definitely

been moving in a whole 'nother positive direction.

- I'm not even talking about the child.

I'm talking about the whole thing

with you trying to get her mother to--

- Listen, some way the paths will cross.

- I'm still where I am with it.

That's your responsibility.

And you are the sole liaison.

And I feel like, if you can stick to that,

we'll be a'ight.

- We settled our differences.

Last time we had a conversation about the situation,

me getting Gianna more acclimated,

we had a conversation about Gloria.

So I just want to kind of just put a whole end

to the guessing game of what this would be like,

what it's gonna be like.

We're doing a family function--

family there, the kids there.

At the kickball game, she could bring Gianna.

Everybody could meet her. Boom, boom, boom.

I'm not asking you to overcompensate.

I'm not asking you to be super friendly.

I'm just asking that everyone involved,

all parties involved, be cordial.

We're throwing this kickball game in honor of my mom.

Everybody, for the most part, could participate.

And I want all my kids there.

If Gloria actually shows up

and she actually wants to initiate speaking to Kendra,

even though I've told her time after time, like,

yo, she's not really interested in that at the moment,

then we'll cross that bridge once we get there.

You know, sometimes you just can't control the situation.

- The kickball game is great.

Like, of course I'm gonna be there in your mother's memory.

But like, I'm not open to meeting with her

or meeting her or conversing with her.

I'm not. - I'm not saying to do that.

- Que será, será.

Kendra and Gloria do not have to interact.

You know, we do not have to kumbaya.

That's just not something I'm gonna do.

Be happy that I am a good person,

that I love kids, that I love Gianna.

Be grateful for that, seriously.

[line trills]

- [indistinct] - Hey, hey.

You wanna come play kickball...

- Yeah.

- With your sisters and brothers?

- Yeah, then I wanna go to my house.

- I would love for her to be there,

but we need to figure out this parenting stuff.

[indistinct]

Like, when are you gonna spend time with your child?

- This phone call is to counter

the very thing you're about to go into, because I'm asking,

you know, for her to be present for this kickball game.

I'm sitting here initiating

the whole process of spending more time with my daughter.

And then she just hit me left field like,

when you gonna spend more time with Gianna?

I'm like-- sometimes, with women,

it's damned if you do, damned if you don't.

So look, checking in, right?

We'll continue this conversation another time.

But I was just wondering if you could bring her to the game?

So just let me know if we can make that happen.

- Daddy, where's my sisters?

- Your sisters are probably in bed right now.

Yeah, they definitely in bed right now.

Let me see your toes.

[chuckling]

Bye, Gianna.

- All right, bye. - Bye.

- Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop: Atlanta"...

[percussive music playing]

- [sobbing]

- Me and Mendeecees, girl, we've been going through it.

- Really? - And he said,

"I'ma just move out for a little while."

- This is the type of [bleep] she do.

- You don't understand. They keep painting me

as a bully all the time! - You're not a bully.

- You think I was! - Hey, hey, hey.

- It's the truth!

- * Make my way to the top and it ain't no stoppin' *

- * Make my way to the top and it ain't no stoppin' *

[upbeat music]

* *

- * Boo, I like the rendezvous *

* Name a better duo, that's me plus you *

[line trills]

- Hi, babe.

- Hey, what's going on?

- I'm missing you.

- I miss you too.

- It's so cold out here.

It's like--it's 17 degrees,

but it feels like it's negative 10 degrees.

[sighs] Are you still mad at me?

- Of course.

- Oh, gosh. - Of course.

You can't tell?

- Well, I said I'm sorry.

- OK.

- I have put Mendeecees through the wringer this year

with trying to donate my eggs,

planning on running for office,

and just moving on my own accord.

We have absolutely had moments of discord.

But this has lasted a little bit longer this time,

and I don't like it.

- Stand on what you mean.

You want to fight for this, then you gotta really fight.

When you get back, we gonna have to have

a real conversation.

- My sister needs me.

I told her I wanted to do this for her.

And I know that I might not be

being sensitive to Mendeecees' needs.

But this one thing that I want to gift my sister

should not be such a breaking point for you

in this marriage.

Well, all right, I got to get ready to get out of here.

I just wanted to tell you I love you and see your face.

- All right, love you too, and talk to you soon.

- All right, bye. - Bye.

- [sighs]

[percussive hip-hop music]

* *

- I hope they got some s'mores.

Y'all like s'mores?

I know we were having a lot of fun.

But I didn't want this trip to just

be about snowmobiles, snow sledding,

and getting drunk the whole time.

Spice and I got so much from our Mayan experience

that we wanted to do something similar here.

- So I set up a meeting with the local indigenous Canadians,

the Stoney Nakoda, so we can get a little enlightenment

on other people's struggles and understand

that the things we argue about are very trivial.

- What's your name? - Roger.

- Nice to meet you, Roger. - Hi.

- That's Zell. That's Karlie.

- How are you doing? I'm Bambi.

Nice to meet you.

I'm from California actually.

- Oh, you're from California? - Yeah.

- What part of California? - Um, well, Compton.

- Hello. Nice to meet you.

I'm Karlie. I'm Karlie.

- I wanted to get a little deeper here in Canada

and see how the people who are actually from this land live.

They're another culture who suffered

similar oppressions to our ancestors.

- My name is Henry Holloway,

but my real name is... [speaking native language]

Which means White Heaven.

I've lived here all my life.

And this place where we're sitting now

is very sacred ground for the Stoney Nakoda people.

The colonization started here

since the contact of white people.

- Right. - We signed a treaty

with them for an agreement to live together

and share the land together.

But they put us on reserves, stating that this is your home.

But to me, it's actually, they put us in a penitential area.

We lost our culture, our traditions,

our way of life. - Mm-hmm.

- And we lost our language because we were not allowed

to speak our language in the residential school.

- Hearing you speak, there's so many similarities

between your story and the stories of Black Americans

that originate from Africa.

They stripped us of our language,

stripped us of our religion,

stripped us of every-- our names.

- Yes. - And we're still trying

to figure out who we are and our culture.

So I really appreciate you.

- Thank you. Thank you.

- There are so many similarities

between the oppression of Black enslaved people

and the Nakoda tribe and their oppression.

I just feel this is such an important moment.

And I'm glad to experience this with, you know,

another group of Indigenous people.

- It's an honor to be showing our way of life for you guys.

- Thank you. - Thank you so much.

[drumming]

- [singing in native language]

- Watching them dance, I'm just like, wow.

I feel like, spiritually, I was supposed to be here.

- The way that they are communicating with God

just through praising,

I'm just grateful for these trips

and being able to see another side.

- Hey!

- I'm taking all this in.

This is about the community.

This is about growth. This is about closeness.

And I feel emotionally connected to these people,

who I don't even know.

It was a good feeling, but it was also a weird feeling.

- Hey!

Whoo!

- Everything about the ceremony, like,

listening to the stories, was so touching.

They really take pride in who they are

and what they come from.

And that's what I'm gonna take back with me.

Like, it's time for us to start taking more pride

in who we are and where we come from.

- I'm very honored for you to come here

and talk to you, you know?

It's mostly when we talk to white people,

but you're different.

I can feel you're stronger.

That's why we all survived together.

- Can you pray for us?

- Sure. Right here?

- Yes.

- Let's all sit together.

[speaking native language]

- I'm still feeling the drums and the energy.

It just makes me feel so enriched

to know what these people have went through

and still going through to this day.

So I got up and I said, can you pray for me?

It was a connection that I needed at that moment in time.

- [sobbing]

- When I seen Karlie listening

to some of the things he was telling her,

it was like breaking some of her--

maybe some curses that she felt like she's dealing with.

- [sobbing]

- You are important.

You are important.

You are very important.

- He just starts speaking to me and start whispering in my ear

things that he knew about me.

I just was like, oh, my gosh.

He knows me. He knows my heart.

He's connected to my soul.

- The creator be with you.

- Yes. - Always, always.

- Yes.

- He loves you.

- Yes.

- We love you. We care for you.

- Amen. - Yes, yes.

- Amen.

Not only did he pray for me, but he also gave me advice.

He just made me feel like it's gonna get better.

This too shall pass.

- Share the love that's inside you

so that the world be a better place to live in.

- How am I gonna do what you told me to do?

- Don't think about it.

Just do it.

- OK. - Yes.

- OK. All right.

- Thank you. Pray--pray for us, please.

- I will.

- Pray for me, please.

- Yes, I will.

- Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop: Atlanta"...

- Zell, this was your idea.

- Yeah, I'm ready. - So why you come late?

[laughter]

- Let's toast to not bringing up

no [bleep] for me.

all: Ooh. - You owe.

[all clamoring] You owe! You owe! You owe!

- * Make my way to the top and it ain't no stoppin' *

- * Make my way to the top and it ain't no stoppin' *

[upbeat music]

* *

- OK, OK, OK.

Come on, baby.

- This cute.

- OK, this is cute. - Ooh.

- Oh. - It's so cute.

- Hey, hey, hey.

Hi.

- Hey. - You 'bout to say you ready?

- Yeah.

- I'm still, like,

taking everything in from the ceremony.

And it was, like, a good emotional, fun day.

- Renni, you OK? - Yeah.

- You embraced that experience for real, for real.

- I love stuff like that.

- I loved it.

- How everybody feel about what we just did?

- It was an educational moment for me.

- Even though me and Karlie not upon a good page right now,

I mean, seeing her in tears,

it's never anything that I really want to see.

It was just an emotional moment for everyone.

- It's been an emotional day.

He was having a moment with Karlie.

- Oh, yeah.

- He told her that she needs to take care of herself.

He said, you take care of too many people

and you never take care of yourself.

- Speaking of taking care of yourself,

how have you been doing?

- Me and Mendeecees, girl, we've been going through it.

- Really? - We have.

We've been going through it bad.

And I think he feels like I think

I'm too independent for him.

- Mm.

- So Mendeecees and I, it just feels like

our idea of marriage isn't the same.

I want to be submissive.

I want to be the person that he needs me to be.

I don't know how to do that.

Maybe I'm not trying hard enough.

- You have to, like--

- Bring it back? - Bring it back.

- Yeah. - You can't be there

for everybody but not your man.

- Sometimes it takes drastic measures

to have drastic results.

- It does.

During that period of me and Kirk's relationship,

like, sometimes it's just, like, situations happen,

and it's just, like, a huge moment of, like--

- So I wasn't there. - Yeah.

Like, this has helped us grow

and move on to the next season of our relationship.

- Right. - Because it could have,

like, killed it... - Of course.

- And been done and over with and it's finished.

You know what I mean? But it didn't do that.

- I think we need real work. Like, we need work.

He bought an Airbnb for little Mendeecees.

- Oh, really? - And he said,

"Instead of giving this to Mendeecees,

I'ma just move out for a little while."

- Oh, we ain't playing them kind of games.

- I said, what? He was like,

"Yeah, maybe then you'll learn

to respect me and appreciate me."

- Ooh.

Yandy saying him contemplating

on moving out and all of that--

I've been through that, where, you know,

Kirk's moved out and freedom get tasted

and [bleep] start changing.

And that ain't what we trying to do.

You know, we're coming up on 25 years of marriage.

But during that time, no words could fix anything.

It was all Kirk's actions

were the reason why I made the decision that I made.

I tell Yandy, listen, y'all sit down,

hold yourselves accountable for the [bleep] you doing,

and then figure it out.

You wanna take advice from people

who done been through some [bleep].

But you got to switch--

you got to change [bleep] up. - I know.

- Me and Saucy, we ain't seen each other in, like, a week.

- I want to make a bet with Zell.

- OK, what's the bet?

- The bet is this. When he refers to Saucy,

he gotta give each person a dollar.

- OK, so--hang on. - A dollar?

- Starting from here on out, if I don't bring him up,

I need $100 from everybody when I leave.

[all clamoring]

Like, what's up? Like, y'all--

- Come again? - What win is it for me?

I definitely know that I can go a night,

a day, a month, a year without mentioning this man's name.

I'm like, bring it on.

Now I'ma make y'all pay up.

Let's toast. - Come on, let's toast.

- * That's on me *

- To not bringing up no [bleep] from me.

- [laughs] - Ah!

- And no Big Bags, no none of that.

- Oh, wait a minute. You owe.

- Ooh! - Ooh!

- You owe. You owe.

[all clamoring]

- Big Bag is Saucy's nickname when Zell is mad at him.

That man is still in love.

Pass me my dollars.

- You owe! You owe!

You owe! You owe!

[saucy hip-hop music]

- * Check it, I'm 'bout to put 'em to bed *

* I told you I wanted it slit *

* They trying to come at me again *

* I told 'em I know how to win *

- Well, I enjoyed riding the snowmobiles.

- Oh, my god. That was so much fun.

- That was crazy. - I can check that

off my bucket list, baby.

- I think the world is in an emotional state

because everybody's, like, in their [bleep] feelings.

- Yeah. But I guess it ain't nothing wrong with that.

I'd rather everybody be in their feelings and crying

instead of everybody being in their feelings

and trying to tear each other's head off.

- You're right about that.

- * She asked when the party begin *

* And this time, she bringing a friend *

* We mixing the soda with gin *

* Aah, here we go again *

- Eat the rice cake.

- No. It look like food

you would give to Breland and Xylo.

I'm good.

- Eat the rice cake.

Eat the rice cake!

- * You know where I be *

* Standing with the spotlight shining on me *

* I want it, I want it, I want it *

* I got it, I want it, I want it *

- I'm glad the sun is out a little.

- I know. It feels so good.

Look how beautiful it is, the mountains.

- Every place you look around,

it looks like a postcard. - It's so nice.

Y'all, so I feel like I'm getting cold right now.

We gotta go get ready for the curling.

- I'ma beat you before you even say it.

- Y'all know we about to go play curling,

so I gotta go get my outfit on, put on my curling outfit.

- I'm gonna be the videographer filming y'all do it.

[upbeat music]

- You'll get in.

Start with your hands.

Then when you want to, you'll add in your leg,

going the same motion as your hands.

- Whoa. - Holy [bleep].

- Oh, he just let it go. And then what?

Zell, this was your idea. - Yeah, I'm ready.

- So why you come late? - Oh, I'm ready

- You better be. - No, I was letting you guys

get some practice in because I know what I'm doing.

- And you better be able to push the ball...

- Yeah, I do. - Because I don't know

what the [bleep] going on.

- I just wanna do something fun in Canada.

Something unusual, but still remain to the Canadian roots.

Why not curling? Duh.

- My question is, what's the end goal?

Do you push it across the line? - The end goal--

- Is you want it to be in that, um--

- In the rings. - In the bull's-eye.

I picked this activity

so I can see these BBLs hit the ice.

I wanna see if they're gon' bounce up,

if they're gon' slide,

or are if they gon' melt right in with the ice.

- All right, so he swear up and down he the curling champ.

- OK. - We gonna see.

- Go for it! all: Oh!

- We [bleep], yeah!

Yeah, we going long way!

Why wouldn't I get out here and be the best?

Like, I'm the best.

I don't care if it's curling, if it's football,

if it's [bleep], if it's [bleep],

if it's whatever.

I'm an All-American. I'm the best.

I'm gonna do the best.

Everybody gonna be curling.

We bringing curling to Atlanta.

I'm having curling nights

on Wednesdays at the skating rink.

So you guys hit me up if you want to come.

- Now, Renni is athletic.

Watch she get it on her first try.

- Let's go.

- OK, OK.

- [laughing]

- Damn!

[laughter]

OK, Renni.

- Oh! - Oh!

[laughter]

- Let it go. - Let it go.

- All right, all right, all right, all right.

- And then do I do like this?

- Da-da!

But you want to do that at the end of your slide.

- Oh.

- You gotta have, like,

real upper-body strength to do that.

I gotta get in the gym.

I can't be doing these curls.

This not for me, Zell.

- See, don't be underestimating my baby, goddamn.

[all cheering]

- That was too weak.

- Yeah, yeah, yeah!

- Take your jacket off. - No.

- Oh, she wants to do it in the full fur.

- OK. - OK, fine.

You know, wearing a fur coat

to be sliding on the floor,

yeah, it doesn't work.

This is called rich bitch curling.

Yeah-- [laughing]

- Oh, my lord. - You didn't even let it go.

- Oh, lord, you still got it.

- Jess, what happened?

[laughter]

- The one thing Jessica White never does

is take off the fur.

- We got Black people on ice, y'all.

We're taking over the world.

Everybody's having so much fun.

Some of them wore designer shoes.

I don't get that, but we still working on this.

We curling now, so I'll take that on a résumé.

- That rhythm, get your rhythm. All right.

- And let it go.

- Let it go.

[cheering]

- Rasheeda, yeah!

- [whistles] - We gonna make it.

- Oh! - You did good, baby.

- No cheating either? - Yeah, we did that.

- Yeah, you did good. - Oh, you crossing the line.

- I can do this [bleep], man.

- Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop: Atlanta"...

[cheering]

- Hold on. Gloria outside.

- * Make my way to the top and it ain't no stoppin' *

- * Make my way to the top and it ain't no stoppin' *

- * You see 'em stars coming *

* You hear me on the beat, you know a star on it *

* Uh, that's trill, that's trill *

* No contract, but he the real deal *

* Tell 'em other dudes pack it up like luggage *

* I can't stand losing, so winning is my crutches *

* Hold me up, I can't lose *

[cheering]

- Anybody who may think that I'm having

some issues with my foot,

this is a Prada snow boot.

We'll always do something with a little bit of edge

and just a little bit of flair.

- Whoo!

- I was trying to figure out what we could do

in honor of my mom.

I wanted to make sure we were able to do

something that would include the kids and the adults.

So then I was like, you know what?

Kickball is very easy.

I think it was a good choice.

Only kick it if you comfortable, Camora.

[cheering, kids screaming]

I ain't gonna lie. I'm dreading Gloria

coming in here and making things crazy or weird.

But I'm gonna try to stay positive.

[exhales]

- Who kicking?

- Hold on. Gloria outside.

- They do got two outs? - Huh?

- They got two outs? - I'm about to get Gianna.

- OK.

I don't know if Gloria gon' come inside.

But if she do, like,

stay on your side, I'ma stay over here.

It's just how it is.

Have you ever seen

Mariah Carey hanging out with Nick Cannon baby mamas?

I think not.

- [bleep]. Here we go.

[tense music]

* *

Hey, big girl.

Come on, mama.

So you not coming in?

- Gloria is basically saying she has some other things

that kind of came up she needs to do,

so it's cool.

I'm very happy that she brought Gianna.

[indistinct shouting]

We got another one. - Hi!

- And another one. - Hey!

- Ooh! - OK.

I like that.

Y'all can go--y'all go next.

- Come on, y'all. Bring her over here.

- Gianna!

[clamoring]

- What is you doing?

Amari!

- I'm not gonna say it's a relief

that Gloria is not coming in.

But I just feel like that has helped, like,

ease my anxiety.

And you know, I always said it for years,

you know, there's a lot of times

I felt like you was my hero. You know what I'm saying?

My shero I guess, because I'll be the hero.

You my shero. - Don't make me cry.

- But I don't want to let you down.

You know what I'm saying?

I also don't want to let my kids down, you know?

- Absolutely. - We gonna have some--

we gonna some turbulent times. - Absolutely.

- But I just pray for better days.

You know what I'm saying? - Absolutely.

- And I really appreciate you. You know what I'm saying?

To tell you the truth, I'm not sure how things

would have turned out if Gloria decided to come in today.

One thing I am sure about is,

Kendra has definitely stepped up.

Not only is she a bonus mom to my other kids,

but the fact that she was willing to be

in the same room with Gloria speaks volumes.

As long as she and I are on the same page

and we team us, then I'm good.

You know, me and my mama, you know,

we had a lot of conversations, you know what I'm saying?

And you know, there was a lot of times she was like,

you know, you got you a good woman.

She decided to, you know, stick it out with you,

go ahead and marry you.

You know, one thing she told me before she passed was--

you know, we was in the hospital,

and she was just like, take care of that woman

and she'll take care of you.

- I love you, Joc.

Mm.

[squeals gleefully]

- Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop: Atlanta"...

- Bambi, I just did a song with your ex-husband.

- Is it--is it like, a diss?

- Talking about you was scared. Why are you scared?

Don't try to paint me like a bully.

I'm leaving. I'm not gonna let them do this to me again.

- * Make my way to the top and it ain't no stoppin' *

- * Make my way to the top and it ain't no stoppin' *

[upbeat music]

- Let's go.

- The curling thing, it looked easy.

But once you get out there, it's actually kind of hard.

- It was fun,

but it'll be my last time.

- Yeah, we're going to the hot springs

as soon y'all fill y'all little bellies up.

We need get in that hot water and let it soak a little bit.

- Oh, by the way, Bambi,

I want to tell you first before you see it,

that I just did a song with your ex-husband.

I was in the studio with him before we came.

And we did a song together, so...

- What is it called?

- It's called "Pull Up."

[tense music]

- Scrapp wants to link up with everybody

who he thinks is one of my ops.

Spice is the queen of dancehall.

So hey, get it how y'all live.

Is it--is it like, a diss?

* *

- If it was a diss song to you, I would never go on the song.

- OK. Mm-hmm. - There's no words in there

that sound like it's shading you or nothing

because I would've never get on it.

- Can you understand any of the words?

[laughter]

No, I'm joking, I'm joking.

I'm just joking.

I'm just asking because, I mean,

I did spend an entire marriage

trying to understand what this man was saying.

- Since we're on the topic of artists,

and there are so many artists at the table,

there's a big performance tomorrow.

So I'm inviting all of y'all.

I want y'all to perform on the stage.

- Amy, Karlie, Bambi, everybody.

- So when the resort found out that we were coming to Canada--

of course you know me, the queen of dancehall,

so me always have to represent.

So they asked me to perform.

And I invited other people to perform.

So I'm super excited to see, you know,

everybody just having fun.

- And, Karlie, you gotta get up there too then.

- Yep. - Amy, you gotta rap.

- Yes. - You gotta get up there too.

- One of my favorite songs is that song

you and Karlie did together. - What song?

- You don't even know the words.

You don't know it. You're just trying to be shady.

- I'm not--that's not shady. - Sing it.

Sing it. - That's not shady.

- Sing the song. - Karlie--

- No. No. - You know how many times

I posted that song? - Sing the song.

I think y'all should stop playing with me.

- I'm being messy because I want you and your best friend

to get back together and perform a hit record

that went number one? [sighs]

It's not a game. It's not a joke.

I wanna hear it. I love that song.

- You might just give us--

y'all might give us just a happy time.

- I don't even like talking about the song

because it just keeps reminding me of the situation.

I'm just annoyed at everybody trying to just

pressure the situation with me and Karlie.

We're going to talk when we are ready to talk,

not because somebody said we could talk.

- Would you consider doing a song with me?

- [bleep] no, not at the moment.

No, I wouldn't do a song with you.

See, I'm not doing no song with no more friends anymore,

because the last time I did that,

I got [bleep] thrown all over my face.

- I don't know what Spice mean

by I'm [bleep] all over her face.

The only [bleep] I'm doing is in the toilet.

I thought we on a healing journey again.

What happened to the healing?

I never threw no [bleep]. I don't [bleep] on people.

I don't do that. That's not nice.

- All right, I think we need to, you know, regroup

because the tone is kind of getting a little, you know,

going someplace that it shouldn't be going.

- We should be able to laugh and joke now.

- Yeah, but it's still obviously some tension.

So I think right now the problem is--

and I'm just gon' say it straight up--

is that it got physical, you know what I'm saying?

So when-- - It didn't get physical

because I didn't touch her.

Let me tell you something. - [screams]

- Let me tell you something.

[indistinct arguing] - What the hell just happened?

- [bleep]

- You see how she attacked me? She attacked me.

- I did not even touch Karlie in the Bahamas.

I approached her to have a conversation to her face.

Like, I'm not going to do nothing behind your back.

If I wanted to attack Karlie,

Karlie lives a step away from me.

Like, one, two step, and she's my neighbor.

So I'm looking at her like, girl,

what you get out of this for play a victim?

Like, why are you doing this?

Even when talking to you people--

even Zell coming up to me, oh, Karlie says she's scared,

because she keep doing this victim thing.

And now you're trying to make it seem like you're--

- Let's just let it be.

[overlapping speech] - Let's just end it.

Let's end it.

- Let's go. Let's go.

- Talking about you scared. Why are you scared?

Why--why is Karlie saying she's scared?

- 'Cause you yelling and you being loud.

- No, because that's how I talk.

- I know, but it's scaring her. - That's how I talk.

That's how I talk.

Karlie knows that I'm a sweet person.

She knows how loving I am.

Like, that's why you wanna be my friend, right, Karlie?

So yes, it makes me angry when you try to act

like I'm this bad person, I'm this bully.

"Oh, I'm so scared." Why all of a sudden?

Because it's something that people do all the time.

It's like they poke, poke, poke.

And then when I lash out--see?

They're like, oh, see, see? She angry.

All of y'all need to stop with this scare narrative

because y'all trying to paint me like a bully.

Is she scared of Sierra? - Hey, hey, hey, hey.

- Sierra box her in her face. - Both of y'all--

Sierra hit her in her face. - Uh-uh-uh-uh. Uh-uh-uh-uh.

- But she not scared of Sierra. - Come on, come on, come on.

Come on, come on, come on. - Come on, man.

- Spice, why are you deflecting to go into Sierra

about me and Sierra's beef?

Sierra has definitely took accountability

for her actions, and she's never come for me

like that ever since.

It's a huge difference from you denying

that you even attacked me.

- Stop. - All of y'all are trying

to paint me like a bully all the time,

talking about I'm scaring her. - We're not painting you.

- She's not scared of Sierra.

You don't understand.

They keep painting me as a bully all the time!

- You not a bully. - You think I was!

- Hey, hey, hey, hey. - It's the truth!

- Hey, hey, hey. - I'm human!

- Nah, nah, she's-- nah, we good.

She's not gonna do nothing. - [indistinct shouting]

[sobbing] - OK, OK, OK, OK.

Calm down, calm down, calm down, calm down.

- I'm not calling you a bully.

But if you wanna keep mentioning that word,

that's on you.

She's not taking any accountability

or responsibility of anything at all.

At this point, I'm just like, we ain't never gon' make up.

- Take this mic off of me. I'm leaving.

I'm not gonna let them do this to me again.

- Nobody's doing it to you. - I'm not doing it

another year, I'm telling you.

- This is the type of [bleep] she do.

That's the type of [bleep] she do.

- * Make my way to the top and it ain't no stoppin' *

- * Make my way to the top and it ain't no stoppin' *

[tense music]

* *

- I'm leaving. I'm not gonna let them do this to me again.

- Nobody's doing it to you. - I'm not doing it

another year, I'm telling you.

I gotta leave. - You have to control yourself.

- I can't... - You can.

- When I'm sitting at a table

with someone who I gave love to.

- Now, Spice, listen.

- I can't heal this way. I've gotta leave.

- I agree with you. - I was told

if I'm uncomfortable, to leave--

- So go to your room. - To leave from the place

that makes me uncomfortable.

- Listen, Spice, if you are serious

about healing and getting the help that you need,

you gotta be uncomfortable.

And you're gonna have to let

love, hope, faith push through.

You have the right to say how you feel.

You have the right to express yourself

the way you need to. - No, I'll stop talk.

- You don't have to stop talking.

- You don't have to. - I will stop talking.

- You should not. You should not.

But you also have to be willing to listen.

- I lost my dad when I was nine years old.

Growing up in Jamaica, it was so hard for me.

Even going into the business, dancehall is a harsh place.

It's a male-dominated business.

So I had to be, like, that man figure.

Even though it has built me and mold me and shaped me

into my success story, the woman that I am

and the artist that I am, it also comes

with that negative part of me being so aggressive

and so quick to fight back and quick to lash out

because I'm always in defense mode

because that's all I know.

- When we met, the first thing I did was,

I'm sorry I offended you.

I'm taking accountability for everything.

I apologize.

Why do you keep bringing up stuff

over and over and over again?

- Like, maybe you could try it one more time.

- No, I don't think she should. - No.

- I think she should just leave it alone.

- Why am I keep begging for a friendship?

What? No, you should be apologizing

and taking accountability... - And she's not.

- For trying--she's not taking accountability.

- At this point, I know everybody else thinking it,

when is it gon' be over with?

Either they're gon' be friends or leave it alone.

The fighting has to stop.

- The fact that this is still hurting you

the way it does, I'm sorry,

but it seems to me like you still love her.

Also, it feels like you need closure,

like you're searching, because somebody that I don't

[bleep] talk about no more cannot affect me like this.

- You know, Karlie and I, we just need that moment.

I don't know when it's gon' come or how it's gon' come,

but I came here because I wanted everybody

to just come together, communicate.

But at this point, I don't think I'm even welcome here.

Even though it's my trip and I planned it,

I don't know if this is the place for me to even be.

- I love you. I don't want you to go.

- I'm going to pack.

- I want you to stay. I wanna force you.

- OK. - I don't have no man.

I don't have nothing. Rasheeda got Kirk.

- Just go--go tie her down. - Just stay with us, please.

Can you not leave?

Please.

- It's OK.

- Listen, you have... both: One day.

- One day. - One day, that's all.

- One day.

- I'm going to pack my suitcase.

- Next on "Love & Hip Hop: Atlanta"...

- Is Spice gon' stay?

- We don't know.

I think being painted like a bully--

- I've seen you, Yandy, from-- from the Bahamas.

And I haven't seen you yet say, yo, Spice,

take accountability for your actions.

I haven't seen-- - You haven't seen that.

That doesn't mean it doesn't happen.

- Wait, there's no bar?

It's like--there's no-- - You're ready.

- Yeah-- [laughter]

- Oh, no. - Aah!

- I think I saw Jessica getting carted off the slopes.

Is she OK?

- What is it that you need?

You have to be able to communicate what you need.

- I signed up to this to be my forever.

And it feel like this ain't gon' be forever.

[dramatic hip-hop music]