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- Previously on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta"...

- She was dead-ass wrong for saying

that you should have died or whatever she said there.

And that's [bleep] up.

- She called me Black monkey.

- Oh, Black monkey?

- What do you mean, Sierra?

You got to understand the type of friends you're having.

- How come you haven't talked to your best friend?

- Oh, I have talked to her, but not about that.

- Why are you always so fake?

- You was like, "Stop with all this fake-ass [bleep].

"Y'all with that fake-ass [bleep].

Y'all fake as [bleep]." - No, I said fake-ass [bleep]

when Bambi started saying, "I haven't spoken to Erica."

I'm like, here we go with the fakeness.

- How's you and Safaree?

- You're causing unnecessary drama,

and I don't deserve this.

I've let myself down in all of this by blacking out.

Me and Spice never had issues up until this point.

- I do want to tell you that I am sorry

that I hurt your heart.

I apologize.

I appreciate everything you have done for me.

You are a definite person that changed my life.

- I want to just give you a hug.

[funky music]

- ♪ This is the life ♪

- ♪ It's the life that I'm living ♪

- ♪ This is the life ♪

- ♪ It's the life that I chose ♪

- ♪ This is the life ♪

♪ It's the life that I'm living ♪

- ♪ This is the life ♪

- ♪ It's the life that I chose ♪

- ♪ Make my way to the top, and there ain't no stoppin' ♪

- ♪ Comin' in hot ♪

♪ Always on top ♪

♪ Baby, I'm the boss ♪

♪ Baby, I'm the boss ♪

♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, make it go ♪

[line ringing]

- Hello?

- Hi.

- Hi, my love.

We just got the most amazing offer.

- OK.

- It's going to be the movie that changes your career.

- D, am I an actress?

- ♪ Gonna make it go, oh ♪

- Ahh!

- ♪ Gonna make it go ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Gonna make it go ♪

♪ ♪

- Y'all want spinach in your eggs?

- I do. - Yeah.

- OK.

- We're going to make some mimosas.

- Oh, yeah!

[laughs]

♪ ♪

- They all moving.

[gasps] Oh!

Hey, Renni.

Did you know that, like, it's something inside of seashells?

Like, pull this one right here.

- Oh, it's a snail.

- It's a snail.

Oh, my God.

I never knew that.

[mellow Afro pop music]

♪ ♪

[non-English singing]

♪ ♪

- Spice, you look really beautiful in that blue.

- Thank you, sweetie!

- Hey.

Hey, y'all.

Y'all ready for the pigs?

- Hi, Shekinah.

- Hey.

Hey, ladies.

- Are you on that boat?

- Hey, girl.

- Yep.

I'll see you guys in a minute.

- All right.

We going to have a good time today.

[upbeat dance music]

- Yes, sir!

- There's been so much going on on this trip, y'all.

So the last time we were all together on a boat,

it was a whole, whole lot.

So today we decided, let's split the activities.

The drama crew can go feed the pigs.

And the peaceful crew can all ride jet skis together.

And hopefully, we all can just kick it

and have a little bit of fun.

- Come on!

- ♪ All you haters, got you right here in my Prius ♪

♪ Putting bulls on the strip, wasn't saving it ♪

♪ All the fiends, they tell you that I'm they favorite ♪

♪ Bigger load, bigger bank rolls ♪

♪ I was smoking on exotic in my state clothes ♪

[tense music]

- Hey, E.

- Hey, I missed your call earlier.

I was shooting. What's up?

- Erica is finally calling me back after

this whole blow-up with Spice.

This isn't the ideal place that I want to have

this conversation with Erica.

We're getting on a boat.

It's really hectic on my end,

but I mean, since everything is happening so fast,

I don't really have a choice.

I'm going to just tell you from the top

what really has been going on.

So do you remember saying, like, the monkey thing?

- Spice made some pretty wild accusations,

and I understand people blacking out when they get

in these heated conversations.

But I do have to let Erica know that if she did make

this comment about the monkey when she blacked out,

that's not OK.

I just don't know what to do with this.

To be honest, I don't know what to do.

I don't know you to be this person.

- But you can't say that. - You cannot say that.

- The way that it's being presented it in a way

that we being drugged, Bambi being attacked

the other night completely.

This [bleep] bad.

As much as I love Erica, I'm going to hold her accountable.

I hope Bambi do the same.

Calling somebody a Black monkey,

a blue monkey, that's really crossing the [bleep] line.

We already got to fight so hard just

to be accepted in America.

So you can't just say that to a Black person.

Because once you say it to one Black person,

you're saying it to all.

- Well, Erica, I accept your apology.

And at the end of the day, I'm not going to crucify you.

And yeah, I think my service is gone.

Put this here. - Wow.

So it was said?

- She don't know.

She said she apologizes to us,

to everybody, if she said anything.

She blacked out.

She don't know what she said.

- Erica Mena saying that she blacked out

is not flying with me.

Accountability is what's needed right now,

and I wanna know, who is the real Erica Mena?

I have questions.

I really do have questions.

- And as a Black woman, I do have a responsibility

to hold her accountable

and shed some more light on this situation.

- For sure.

- ♪ It's a brand new day coming our way ♪

♪ ♪

♪ It's a brand new day coming our way ♪

- Honestly, I'm just happy my life is going the direction

it is finally with my career.

I've been in this for so long.

I'm still shooting season two of "Hush" here in DC.

Being able to have my kids here

is just one of those things that is, like,

this is kind of like a dream come true, because I get

to be a mom and not miss those moments

that you can never get back.

And I've been doing a lot of work

just to better myself.

- Centering yourself.

- Yeah, I've been in therapy.

And I know I need it because, honestly,

dealing with Safaree outside of the kids, it's complicated.

Why start trouble for me?

And then to even tell Spice what she told Spice?

So I've been dealing with that, obviously.

And I got to--

I got to be honest that I'm really, really

disappointed in myself just for going

to that place with Spice.

Could I tell you word for word what I said?

- When you get to that point, you don't know what's

coming out of your mouth. You just black out.

- Well, when King was old enough

to speak on it, him telling me he wants his own private life.

- And you as his mom, you respect that.

- Yes. - And everybody just wants

to push it on you. - Yes.

Up until that point, I really respected Spice,

being a single mother, having to, you know--

your kids be there, you got to do this, be the hustle,

be on the-- you know what I mean?

The ground running.

- And then it just took a whole left turn.

- Now, you know my friends are being

ganged up on about what I did.

I wish I could rewind and watch it.

- Yeah.

- OK. with your son, I don't like you.

- How do you know about my son?

- You said [bleep], right?

[clattering]

- You monkey! You [bleep] blue monkey.

Kiss my ass, bitch!

You should have [bleep] died, ho!

You [bleep] monkey! - Erica, get in the car.

- Oo-ah!

Thanks.

You could definitely...

You could definitely see I was just not--

what I said in that--

I so heartily from the bottom of my heart apologize

to, you know, the incredible Black community.

It came from just a hurt place,

and I don't want to justify anything.

And I take full responsibility for what I said.

You know, I'm just disappointed in myself in that.

What I said-- there's no excuse.

There's no justification.

It was wrong.

It's not something I'm proud of because my children are Black,

and it's something that I don't ever want my kids

to actually experience.

I just want to be better for them,

and I'm going to do the work to make sure that something

like this never happens again.

It came from an ugly place, clearly.

You know what I'm saying? - Yeah, that's--

- And it's just-- I don't know.

I'll be apologizing for a while.

♪ ♪

- Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta"...

- I knew you had over your house that had

a big old bunch of people over there.

- You know, they filming a music video.

I got to pay the mortgage.

- Uh-uh. Get Big Daddy.

Get Big Daddy out.

- You know I'm terrified of animals.

- Don't be greedy. Don't be acting like that.

- For calling me out and making a racial slur

because she's your friend, she gets to get away--

- No, she does not.

- She don't get no pass.

- I'm just making it very clear.

- ♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪

- ♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪

- ♪ One, two, one, two, on my way ♪

♪ Shorty so fine, yeah, come by me ♪

♪ Can we take time? Let's get away ♪

♪ We can take time. It'll be OK ♪

- I just want to have fun today.

- Well, I want you to have fun.

- So when I come up-- I said, we can't have one day

of good energy, good vibes, good spirit?

- Oh, no.

- Let's just have fun.

- Now--

- You ever swim with the pigs?

- We're about to go feed some pigs.

I see other people feeding pigs all the time on Instagram.

I think this is going to be a great day for me.

I can't wait.

- Hi, babies.

Y'all ready to pool these pigs?

- Whoo. - Hi.

- Hi. - Hey.

- Ready to feed some pigs?

All: Yes. - Whoo!

- Baby, I love pig.

- I'm not ready.

- Right, ladies. Welcome to the pig beach.

Make some noise! [cheering]

All right, ladies.

- No smoke. Call, it'll be like this.

Like this. No smoke.

- No smoke.

- I'm just very anxious because I'm like,

are they going to be running?

Are they going to be fat, skinny, short?

Are they going to be hairy?

Am I going to be disgusted

and don't want to eat pork anymore?

And then pork is my favorite meat.

When I see them pigs, God forbid,

but I like them to be packaged up and ready to fry.

- Are you ready?

- Uh-uh.

When are they coming?

- Hey!

- I'm terrified of animals.

- One, two, three!

- Thank you, Lord, for blessing me.

[whistle blows]

Thank you, Lord, for blessing me.

[pigs snorting]

- Uh-uh. Get Big Daddy.

Get Big Daddy out.

- [laughs]

- OK, he's standing next to you.

- I don't got no more [bleep].

[upbeat music]

- Oh, these pigs are very aggressive.

They're aggressive.

They're giving me more dogs than pigs,

but they are so cute.

I'm in love with them.

- Why are you so--ooh!

[chattering]

- Oh!

- They so big. Wait.

They don't stink either.

Big boy.

- You brought your food. - Yeah.

- Yeah. Give them the food.

Don't even make them work for it.

They haven't eaten.

You can tell by the fact that they're running out.

- What gives me my reservations about the swine shore

are the pigs.

And they're like, oh, no.

They're on this island.

They're really happy.

Really? They're happy?

I don't [bleep] think these pigs are [bleep] happy.

Look at how he's holding the [bleep] fruit there.

Why does he have to work for that?

I'm an animal lover, and I have a problem

with stuff like this.

- Well, what do you want me to do about it?

- I need a drink.

♪ Girl, let's dip and wine ♪

♪ Work it, but take your time ♪

♪ Bring your tight body over here ♪

♪ You know that it's mine, all mine ♪

♪ Girl, let's go dip and wine ♪

♪ Work it, but take your time ♪

- Hell no.

- You ain't getting back on?

- Not with Khaotic. - I got you.

I got you. Come on.

- You got this.

- I want to take her on the ride of a lifetime.

I know she can't swim.

But come on, Karlie, you got to live a little!

And we're about to live life to the fullest.

[upbeat music]

♪ ♪

- Spice, come into the office.

Sit down.

You know, everybody is just having fun, feeding the pigs,

running around, and just really enjoying theyself.

But I feel like it was awkward a little bit

because Bambi was kind of standoffish,

and then Spice was on the other side.

So I'm like, all right.

I'm going to try to see if Bambi and Spice can talk.

Damn, top model.

- Sierra pulls Spice and me together

to have a little conversation.

And at this point, I'm like, whatever.

I'm just going to see what type of time she on today.

- So y'all know the other night, it was crazy.

And I feel like Spice came to the table,

and she called us a fake or whatever.

I feel like it was a trigger towards you.

- Yeah, no. - It wasn't in a--fake.

- I said, who are you talking to?

- So when you were at the table making

it seem like you don't know nothing

about the whole situation, that's why I gave off,

"Oh my God, this is so fake."

- What I said was that I have not

spoken to Erica about that.

I didn't interrogate her about what happened.

She told me what she wanted me to know.

- Yes, she did. She really did.

She called me back before we came here.

- She said she don't know what she said.

She said she blacked out.

She said she knows she said some horrible things

and truly don't feel like--

you know--

- So for calling me out and making a racial slur,

because she's your friend, she gets to get away with it?

- No, she don't get no pass.

- That's why I'm just making it very clear.

I just felt like Bambi was lying that

she never talked to Erica Mena.

But, no, they say they talked to Erica.

Them say them have a conversation with her right

before they go on the boat, and she don't remember nothing.

OK, now she has amnesia.

I heard what she said, and the cameras did too.

So if they want to pick up for her, then that's on them.

I'll just let it go.

We'll leave it at that, and it's cool.

- Spice, I feel like you owe me an apology.

I was truly-- - Why? And you were the one

who said, "What the [bleep] you talking to?"

And you were talking-- - No, you talking--

no, sit down. Spice.

- When I get angry and I give you--

- You not doing right.

You not doing right.

- I don't want to be the angry one.

No, I'm tired of this.

- It's OK.

- Bambi, I'm tired of them triggering me.

And then when they come out to something,

I'm going to be angry. - It's OK. It's OK.

- I'm going to go. - All right.

- You know, a Black woman coming out of Jamaica,

struggling through poverty, and making it big in the US,

the racial slurs are something I've lived with all my life.

So everything was a trigger.

And if they don't want to support me, it is what it is.

But I love myself.

I love my color, my complexion.

I love who I am, and I'm always going to embrace.

I'm proud for the Black, proud of my color.

- You can't just walk away, though.

Because I ain't do that last night.

Spice wants me to just disown Erica,

And I haven't even had a real face-to-face conversation

with Erica yet.

Erica's not here.

I didn't make the comment.

I didn't hear the comment.

I don't know about the comment.

So why are you inserting me into this mess?

- She said what she said.

I said what I said.

Then Bambi is telling me to apologize,

and I'm like, why do I need to apologize when you started it?

You can't hold me accountable for stuff, for the reaction.

And you, you get action.

- She felt attacked.

- Because I'm a Jamaican. - No, no, no.

And I do understand.

- Because I'm a darker skin tone.

- No, it's not about that. Don't do that.

Don't do that, Spice.

I swear, do not do that.

- No, because-- - No, no, no, because--

- Because it was because I felt attacked.

That's why I reacted.

But you said Bambi felt attacked.

- Bambi said that she felt attacked.

This is my first time hearing from you.

- And the trigger words at that table

was when Bambi said, "Who the [bleep] are you talking to?"

And I'm sticking by it.

I said what I said. - But--

- That was the trigger at the table.

And everybody is talking about what happened

after the trigger word.

You take care.

It was nice meeting you. - See y'all.

- I met you before.

Over the last few days, I have watched Spice.

I can read her.

She's a [bleep] complicated human being.

And it's OK to be complex.

It's OK to be a complicated human being.

I know she's been through a lot,

especially after a near-death experience.

[tense music]

I need some sage.

- ♪ Oh, please ♪

♪ I am the realest one ♪

♪ That's what you call it ♪

- Oh!

I'll try everything once.

After the one time--

Oh! - Whoa.

- Oh, my God.

[indistinct conversation]

Yo.

- Karlie looked like she's scared [bleep],

like she shouldn't have took her ass out there.

- Yo, I cannot believe I convinced her.

- I'm about to go back out.

- Khaotic, you're going to give her a heart attack!

[laughing]

- Whoo! - Yeah!

- Yay!

[cheering]

- Karlie is from Trinidad, and she's terrified of water.

If you want to get you one of them rich-ass billionaires,

you have to know how to sit cute on the yacht

just in case you got to dive your ass in.

Bitch, you got to know how to swim.

So Karlie, what's going on with Spice?

- You know I love that lady.

I have not moved in the house.

I'm trying to do everything to make up,

but everything she has an issue with.

And her energy lately has been off.

- It is, but just taking consideration--

- So I'm not tripping?

- --of what she's been going through.

- I know, but you would think that somebody that's

going through that will be a little bit more--

- I think different people react differently.

- Yeah. People take things different.

People deal with things in a different way.

- I mean, listen, we are in a beautiful ambiance.

Right? Maybe it's time to try again.

But let me just give you some advice.

- I'm scared. - Just come as real as you can.

- Yeah. - That's it.

That's what I would just say.

Just come as real as you can, and put it on the table.

- Spice has been on edge this whole trip,

and things between us has not been friendly.

I know I'll be taking a risk in approaching Spice,

but this relationship means a lot to me.

I didn't want to go back to Atlanta

with this bad blood between us.

I still got love for her. She's my sister.

That will never go away.

- No screaming, no yelling, no theatrics,

just heart to heart.

- I went to her so many times,

and I'm scared of rejection now.

- Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta"...

- No. See, I knew.

- Oh!

- And I knew you was about to do that.

- I just wanna tell my brother,

it hurting me arguing with you.

It hurting me that we even was standing

going toe to toe like that.

- ♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪

- ♪ On my way to the top ♪

♪ There ain't no stopping ♪

- ♪ May be temporary, but it's long-lasting ♪

♪ Nobody gon' know dey broadcast it ♪

♪ When I'm feeling lost, you be my compass ♪

♪ My compass ♪

♪ When it rain, you change the forecast ♪

♪ All them other women no dey contest you ♪

- So it's our last night in Bahamas.

We are doing something extremely special

to close out the trip.

I love to be able to go to other places,

other countries, and indulge in their culture.

We had to make sure we experienced the Junkanoo.

[lively music playing]

- Amy, come on.

♪ ♪

- No. See I knew--

- Oh!

- And I knew you were about to do that.

♪ ♪

- Oh, my God.

The Junkanoo band came in, y'all--dancing instruments.

And we're sitting here trying to learn some

of the dance moves, and everybody

is smiling for the first time.

- I'm having fun, man.

And it set the tone for positive energy, man.

It's really doing something for the mental health

of our little tribe right here.

[cheering]

- It is called Junkanoo.

- Junkanoo. - Yeah!

- Junkanoo!

- Junkanoo is a festival.

It goes all the way back to slavery times,

and a lot of the Caribbean nations

all have their different celebrations

expressing their original heritage

against their oppressors.

- Junkanoo!

- Junkanoo!

[cheering]

- So it's the last night in Bahamas.

As I've been on my healing journey

and seeing how I can move forward,

I thought that tonight would be the perfect night

for me to actually apologize to Scrapp.

All right, so I just want to tell my brother that, you know,

it's been a long, rocky ride with us,

and I hate us being at odds like this,

just like I hate it for you and Bam to be at odds.

That's my girl, and I'ma ride for her.

But it hurting me arguing with you.

It hurting me that we even was standing

going toe-to-toe like that.

- I don't give a [bleep] about none of that [bleep].

- [bleep], go--

- Go ahead on with that [bleep].

- Put it on the Bible.

You want [bleep] diamonds. - I'll put it on Bible.

I'll put it on the Bible.

I'll do that [bleep] right now.

- I want to say I apologize

for just doing too much.

I had no business being in y'all business like that.

You know what I'm saying?

- I love you for that.

- Scrappy is really like my brother for real.

And even though I felt like,

why are you doing Bambi like that,

I should have totally stayed out of that.

And I recognize that.

I miss my brother, and I'm like--

- I apologize, myself, for all that.

- Yeah. [applause]

- I apologize.

- I love you, bro.

- Love you too.

Sierra, I appreciate that.

You know what I'm saying, when everybody calm down

and we able to chop it up, we let [bleep] go, man.

Life's too short to keep riding on that bull-[bleep].

- Let's not leave Bahamas with bad blood.

So is there anybody else that got something to say

before we go back to Atlanta?

[tense music]

♪ ♪

Spice, do you got something to say?

- OK.

Bambi, we had a conversation earlier,

and you apologized.

I should have in return apologized, too,

because of the things that I was saying at the table.

I don't remember everything and word for word.

I know I was angry, and that's just how I get when I'm angry.

I just go from 0 to 100.

But I'm working on myself.

After everything what just happened at the beach today,

it kind of made me reflect.

I feel like I probably overreacted.

Bambi was trying to apologize.

I honestly did feel bad, because at the end of the day,

I know she's going through her divorce,

and that must be a lot.

I feel like I'm too triggered with hurt,

and I've been going about things

and my emotions the wrong way.

I want to change and be a better person.

And I just want to apologize if I came at you a certain way.

And I feel like me coming at you, it came from a place

where I feel like you were already picking up for Erica

because I already put you and Sierra in a box

to say that's your friend.

So you're going to rock with her regardless of the facts.

So I was already coming to the table looking at you guys

sideways to see what's the approach,

you know what I'm saying?

And that's where the anger came from, because it was already

built up like, OK, me go watch Sierra

and Bambi to see if them gonna go pick up for Erica.

And it was wrong of me.

And so I just want to say I apologize

for all the hurtful things that I said.

- I'm just super proud of Spice

for apologizing after all she's been through.

But I also feel bad that Bambi's going through this.

- Maybe Erica wasn't so forthright

in the information.

I don't know how I would feel telling my Black friend

that I called another Black female a monkey.

So I'm going to just hug you, because at the beach

I never returned the hug.

[applause] - Yes!

- Thank you so much.

- I love you guys.

- I appreciate Spice's apology.

But at the end of the day, I feel like she came

out of nowhere with the insults towards me,

and I had never, ever done anything to her.

- You crybaby!

Give me a hug.

[laughs]

The crybaby!

- So again, I accept her apology.

But I'm going to have to keep her at a safe distance.

- I'm so happy to be here.

- See, that's that Bahamas.

That's that water, that breeze, that just--

the love, you know, begins to take over.

And that's what I wanted.

- We about to party some more.

Let's get this music going.

Let's go.

- Come dance with me.

- I see you, big booty bitch.

♪ ♪

- You look beautiful.

- You do too.

♪ ♪

- I'm fighting with my inner self, like I need to just--

but I'm going to work on it.

- But look at the steps you're taking so far.

I'm super proud of you.

- I try hard. - It's just going to be--

- I have to be with people.

- It's going to be a process, for real.

- That was good.

I'm glad I was able to just, whoo.

Woosah, and just let it go.

Because it's not really me at the end of the day.

So I hate when people bring me there,

because I'm trying to come from there.

- Exactly.

Earlier when we rode the jet skis and stuff,

Karlie was kind of confessing.

- Oh, Lord.

Here we go. - Am I pushing it?

Am I pushing it too far?

- Rasheeda!

- Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta"...

- There were cars and strangers and men outside.

- ♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪

- ♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪

- Earlier, Karlie was kind of confessing.

- Oh, Lord!

Here we go.

- Am I pushing it?

Am I pushing it too far?

What am I doing?

- Can I have fun? [laughter]

I've been trying to avoid Karlie for a while.

I just need genuine people around me

who I know that I can trust,

and I don't feel like Karlie is one of them.

I hate the fact that this whole Karlie situation

keeps following me,

and I really just want to forget about it.

- You know, she was confessing about how she misses you

and she loves you.

- She had access to me 24/7,

and she was the one who ruined that, so I don't know why

now she said she missed me.

Yesterday, I went to another state of just,

me can't fathom was happening because I worry

about my kids when I'm away, right?

I checked the cameras to my house.

There was cars and strangers and men outside--

- What? - Who were smoking

and all kinds of stuff. So I send my friend.

I said, what's going on at my house?

She said it's not your house.

She said Karlie probably rented out

the house to some production.

There's video crews over there and strange men.

My kids would have been home. - Oh, right.

- And that's the same thing me tell her.

I moved away from you because I'm

trying to find a safe place for my kids and my family.

Being here in the Bahamas, and my kids are home,

and I'm checking my security camera

and seeing all these strange men outside

and jeopardizing my daughter's privacy.

So yes, I'm in my feelings.

My anger--I can feel it getting the best of me.

- She was saying, "I haven't moved into the house.

I've done everything that Spice has asked."

That's the only reason why I was wondering.

- So I ask her to turn our house into

a [bleep] commercial thing?

Honestly, I can't even be dealing with Karlie

and her drama, but I'm tired of people provoking me

and then playing the victim.

I don't know if me and Karlie's situation can be fixed.

You know, I just feel like she invaded my privacy,

and it's hard to digest,

knowing that it came from a friend

or someone who I used to consider a friend.

- Ma'am, ma'am, come here.

Come. - Mm-mm.

- Come here. - Mm-mm.

- Come here. - Mm-mm.

I was ready to talk to Spice, but now I'm feeling reluctant.

Everyone's apologizing.

Everyone seems to be nice.

I don't want to start anything.

I'm just trying to end this trip

on a peaceful, great note.

I want to go back to Atlanta chilling and happy.

- Remember we were having this conversation?

- Mm-hmm. - And you really,

really want your friend back? - Mm-hmm.

- I just don't want you to leave here

with regrets, feeling like you missed an opportunity.

- Rasheeda, come here.

- What's up? - Hey.

So you know that conversation we were having at the beach?

- Yes.

- And Spice rejected it, right?

- Yes. - See?

- Right now is not a good time.

Karlie, you done rented the house out

to some random people.

I got to be honest, I totally feel

Spice being mad about that.

When it comes to your home, that should be the place

where you feel most safe.

If I was Karlie, I would stay away from her, to be honest.

- And who you had over your house that

had a big old bunch of people over there?

- You know, they filmed a music video.

But nobody said anything about her,

and nobody-- I mean, I got to pay the rent.

I got to pay the mortgage.

So first Spice didn't want me living next to her.

I respected her wishes.

I didn't move in.

Now I can't even rent my own house out to pay the bills?

I feel like she's just using any excuse to stay mad at me.

It just doesn't make any sense.

- You better not, fool.

- ♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪

- ♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪

- ♪ It's gonna be a better day ♪

♪ It's getting better ♪

♪ Getting better ♪

♪ A better day ♪

- Life is crazy right now.

If all goes according to plan,

next year the bistro will be slamming, jamming.

More than anything, I really want

to enjoy the healthy relationships with people

who I have in my life.

I told everybody, y'all want to come to Nassau,

holler at your peoples? You know.

We right here. Pull up.

- ♪ Grabbing the wheel, taking control ♪

♪ Love is the medicine we're looking for ♪

- This year has been a reset.

The restaurant made it past its first year.

My husband and I made it past our seventh year of marriage.

So I think things should be smooth sailing from here,

and I'm really, really looking forward to that.

- ♪ It's getting better ♪

- This Bahamas trip really opened my heart, my mind,

my soul, because being married to being divorced,

it was one of the most challenging years for me.

And I just thank God that I made it through, because whoo!

- ♪ Lean on each other like never before ♪

♪ 'Cause I don't think we've ever needed it more ♪

- I've really been through hell and back.

My second life gave me a spirit of like,

I can't deal with the fakeness.

And that's why I'm on a healing journey,

because I need to relearn who I am and be a better person.

Because I'm not perfect.

I'm still, you know-- I'm still a work in progress.

- This year, I've had so many highs, so many lows.

I need to focus on getting back to Karlie,

getting back to my music, and getting back to my family.

Spice and I have been friends for over six years,

but right now I'm just giving her her space.

I'm just going to let time tell,

and hopefully she'll come around.

- ♪ It's a better day ♪

- What's next for me is my career.

Anybody's going to be pimping, it will always be me.

I'm not letting anything stop me

from focusing on my music.

- ♪ I know together that we can be ♪

- So the trip has been actually refreshing,

and I'm optimistic about how things will be

when we get back to Atlanta.

I need to face my feelings and not run from them.

You've got to embrace that,

just like you embrace all the good.

And I'm learning how to do that.

♪ ♪

- After everything that I went through, I've grown.

When it comes to love, when it comes to health,

when it comes to mental health,

I've never felt better.

And I'm praying and fasting and hoping that God will bring

that man in my life so that I can get married in three weeks

and I'm pregnant in two months.

Maybe that's going to be my story.

[laughs]

- I have a lot of preparing to do.

This divorce case is coming up very soon,

and I'm just hoping that Scrapp and I can be able

to just be peaceful and co-parent.

Listen, goodbye, Bahamas.

The Bam is on the first thing up out of here in the morning.

- ♪ Better days ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Better days ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Better, better days ♪

- Ahh! - What the--?

- Get your--get up!

Get up!

- Let me tell you something. Stop talking.

Let me tell you something.

- What the hell just happened?

- [indistinct] [bleep].

Me, mother[bleep]!

Wait till the cameras stop rolling.

- No. No, Spice. No.

- I'm beating that [bleep]. Watch me.

- No, no, no. Spice.

- I'll grab you back. [indistinct shouting]

[bleep]. - You see how she attacked me?

She attacked me.

The fact that someone I look at as my sister

would even try to do that to me?

I said nothing to you.

I didn't even talk to you.

None of this makes any sense.

I don't know who she is.

- Stop rolling the camera on me, man.

I don't want to talk about Karlie.

No one will ever understand.

I don't think people will ever understand

that every time I love a friend,

they just betray me.

- I don't want to talk about it.

I'll leave her to play the victim.

You moved from your house just to what, spite me?

I've been so [bleep] good to Karlie Redd!

- Don't make me cry, though.

- I've been so good to her. - You have been.

- And this is how you repay me?

- We cool with Spice and friends with Spice.

I'm also cool with Karlie, but I know that Spice

has been going through [bleep].

But you're touching another place when, you know,

you open your front door and there's guys

smoking straight across the street

from where my kids gotta be living, playing--no.

I don't think she's out of pocket.

- You're a [bleep]-up individual, Karlie Redd.

You're [bleep] [bleep]-up.

I never did nothing but good to you, bitch!

- The reason Spice went off on Karlie Redd like that--

because Karlie Redd like to do [bleep] behind people back.

She like to antagonize you and provoke you

and then when you go the [bleep] off,

she likes to play the victim.

She's good at hiding her [bleep] hand.

That's Karlie Redd.

- When everyone hated you,

when people said you can't sing and you can't rap,

I was the one who gave you a song!

Everyone told me you were messy!

Everyone was asking, why am I your friend?

I was so [bleep] good to you, and this is how you repay me?

- My little daughter can't go outside

because you come by your house and rent

it out with [bleep] strangers.

- I go over to Karlie, and I just put my arms around her.

I felt like she needed someone to stand behind her.

Why are we Black women attacking each other?

We all need to support each other.

- Y'all get the cameras off of me!

I keep on telling you to turn off the camera.

- No, that's horrible.

- Wait. - No, you Karlie--

- You're an evil witch!

I don't think anyone will ever understand

going to a friend and sharing the joy of buying a home--

they go behind your back and buy the house next door

and not tell me.

I wanted her to look me in the face

and tell me that she did not care.

That's just what I wanted--

to look me in the eyes and tell me,

why is she doing this to me?

Kirk, tell me the truth. You think I'm crazy?

- You're headed up.

- Yes. - You gotta stay away

from things that's gonna pull you down.

It will [bleep] you.

What I'm trying to get Spice to understand--

you gotta be very careful.

The old Spice, you know, the whoop-your-ass Spice,

you're gonna have to park her for a little while

and enjoy the ride to the top.

- I'ma leave it to God. I'ma let go,

'cause this [bleep] crazy.

I promise, I'm gonna try to not let anything trigger me.

I'm gonna just leave it to God.

I need to find a way to stop going from 0 to 100 real quick.

I'm gonna work on myself, because I can't be doing this.

- Let's pray. Let's pray.

- Our Father, who art in heaven,

I decree and I declare in the mighty name of Jesus

that you'll take out the anger that is within me.

In Jesus' name, I pray.

- Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta"...

- I don't want to get emotional.

Why did I have to do this?

- ♪ On the way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪

- ♪ On the way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪

[soft dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- [sighs]

- You know, seeing it live, seeing the scene,

hearing the sounds,

it was like you felt it.

- Watching that--[sighs]

It was really upsetting to me.

- To me, it turned from, like, a one-on-one

to a one-on-the culture.

- My first go-to in anger or in outrage

is not a racial slur.

- I don't want to get emotional.

Why did I have to do this?

I don't know. Whoo.

It's a lot. I don't wanna--

[tense music]

It's not just about me.

Erica came for an entire race.

This racial slur

is over 100 years older than me.

It's deeply rooted into Black history

of how they used to dehumanize us.

How they used to sell us

and consider us animals.

It's okay to say, oh, Spice was wrong

for saying whatever I said,

but it's a whole different thing

when someone's response is to be a racist

or someone's response is to come for Black women

and dehumanize them.

- We've all seen the comment, "Spice went low,

and Erica went to hell."

I think that was the best way to describe it.

Just because you go low,

that doesn't mean you should go to hell.

It kinda make you feel, like, disgusted.

So you gotta make amends.

You need to do some history.

You need to understand what you're saying,

because it's bad.

- I don't feel that there's a difference between

using a racial slur and being racist.

It's the same thing.

- I've listened to my great-grandparents

tell me stories about how they picked cotton,

and they were called monkeys, monkey,

get your monkey ass.

It was very offensive. It wasn't right.

- So after the Bahamas,

I personally wanted to speak to Erica

to, in my mind, educate her on the history

behind calling a person of African descent a monkey.

♪ ♪

- Hi. - Hi.

The first time I saw Erica

was at Bambi's divorce party.

I wanted to talk to you.

If Erica would have a real,

sincere, remorseful apology,

I would have went to bat to fight for her

because I think there could have been

a teaching moment for Erica.

Calling a Black person a monkey--listen.

I was offended. - You was offended--

- And let me tell you-- - Because you chose

to be offended. - No, no, no.

I was offended-- - Because you know me.

No one's going to violate me using my child--

- It's not about--

- There's no boundaries at that point.

- Erica was not very receptive to what I had to say.

You called her a monkey-- - But what she said to me--

- You insulted every person of African descent.

I just wanted that moment of, like, "I am sorry."

- Was it wrong? Yes.

But at the same time, how [bleep] dare she?

The bitch crossed a line.

She violated me by coming for my son.

And I would do it all over a-[bleep]-gain

if she does it again. Period.

- So you're saying you would say the same thing

all over again?

- I didn't say I would say the same thing.

If I have to violate this bitch

for talking about my kid, I will.

- OK. - OK?

- Erica was on defense.

She was just like,

I said what I said, and that's it.

This is another sister that just wasn't educated.

She doesn't know.

- I'm Puerto Rican and Dominican.

I have Black in my family. I have Black children.

I married a Black man.

My sister's the same color as you.

We came out the same [bleep].

There's not a racist bone in my [bleep] body.

I'm just as Black as probably all of you.

- I was super disturbed.

Erica, being a mother of two Black children,

will quickly learn how this world

treats people of color with a darker skin.

Colorism is a real thing,

and I never want to be a person that furthers that divide.

I would more so prefer to bring us all together.

- "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta" star Erica Mena won't appear--

- Erica Mena will not appear in the next season

of "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta"

after hurling a racial slur at her castmate, Spice.

- Announced today that Erica Mena will not appear

in future seasons of their show, "Hush."

- When you step across that line,

you have to deal with that.

- You're saying racist words.

And the way the world is today, they cancel you.

It's only fair, and it would happen to anybody.

- She shouldn't have been making no damn monkey sounds

at no Black person-- bottom line.

- I know my ancestry really well.

So that's why I'm hurt.

- We're not going to accept it.

And it's just wrong.

- We need to start having these conversations

so that the lines aren't blurred

and people aren't confused.

- Slave masters would call us monkeys to dehumanize us.

The history, the burden, the blood,

and everything is attached to this word.

- Yes.

- We are here with some of the cast

of "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta"

for a candid conversation about racism and colorism.

- I walk into the bank, and I'm not respected

until they log into my account.

- It makes my head hurt and my blood boil.

- It's different shades of Black.

- Yeah. -You know what I'm saying?

And they matter.

- My nickname growing up as a child was Blacky.

Every time I love someone,

they all hurt me or betray me.

- That's the go-to for someone that is a racist.

"I've got Black friends. How can I be a racist?"

You can like a Black person. - Yes.

- It doesn't mean that you won't use your power

to degrade the race.

- But that's why these conversations are so important.

This is needed because we gotta shake up

the Black community.

♪ ♪