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I got into the bathtub, I cried.

It was as if he was washing the man off of me.

The shame was back, and I welcomed him wiping me clean.

I knew I was forgiven, we didn't speak of it for months, but my heart had changed.

I needed excitement, it was a requirement, just as important as air and water.

I also needed to love my husband, but I lusted for someone new.

I don't get it, you felt ashamed, but you did it again?

Well, I've started to kind of see the shame as a turn on, you know, it's hot because it's wrong.

What?

I understand, I totally understand.

Mm-hmm, there are things that you, like, live through to understand.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

I mean, you're not judging me or thinking any less of me, are you?

It's not my secret, and it's not my place to judge it.

I, besides, I have my own secrets.

I had sex with Chad, and I've been trying for over a year to make it all right, but India, it's not all right.

I know what I did was wrong, and I can't take it back, and like that night that you had with that man, it's changed me.

You had sex with your step-son?

I didn't judge you when you were playing your husband as a cuckold.

No, no, no, I'm not judging you, I'm sorry if it came off that way, I'm just surprised.

It's like you have this dirty thought, and it's appalling, but you get off to it, and it makes it less appalling, and then the thought comes again and again, and pretty soon it's like this dirty fantasy that you have, and then it just keeps going and going, and it turns into, like, an obsession.

But still, you never think that it's going to go anywhere, nothing's going to happen until it does.

Well, your husband left you, and that gave you an opportunity.

No, you got it wrong.

I left him, and it was at Chad's insistence, and then Chad pursued me.

Do you think he's in love with you?

Well, he thought he was, but I don't think he could love me as he could love a girl his own age.

Oh my god, that's crazy. People fall in love with whoever they fall in love with.

Yeah, but think of this, I'm twice his age, so when he's my age, he'd have to be, like, my nurse.

Hmm, guess that's right. So, what happened with your husband?

Joe and I were in love, or at least I thought we were.

He was never very affectionate, but we were best friends, and hey, every girl wants to marry her best friend, right?

We were content, not so much head over heels in love, like some fairy tale,

until his old friend from college moved into town, Alex.

That's when Joe changed.

There were signs, and I ignored them.

I just...

Dad is seeing someone else. I hope you know that, right?

No? What? Every time I talk to him, he's hanging out with his friend Alex.

Yeah, Alex. Alex is the reason my birth mother left my dad.

What?

Mom? Dad is gay.

He, Alex, is his old college girlfriend.

I never imagined that he was gay, but I did suspect that he was seeing another woman.

He never came home when he said he would. There were credit card bills for hotel rooms.

He always had a perfect excuse, and he made me feel crazy.

I kept questioning Joe, calling him, and his irritation towards me turned into anger.

We didn't even talk anymore. We were just like roommates.

The relationship was over, regardless if he was having an affair or not.

I think he resented me.

Chad had seen it before with his mom, and he showed me proof.

Listen, I want you to understand that this has nothing to do with you.

It's him, okay? And you're a beautiful woman.

And I thought that you would be the one to change him.

But he'll never admit it, and he'll never leave you.

So you're going to have to leave him.

I can't. I don't believe it. I don't even...

I know. I know.

Your father and I, we...

Yeah, I know. I know.

Oh, my God.

I know.

Come here.

I know.

My marriage to Joe was falling apart,

and all I was doing was worrying about what other people would think of me.

Like, my mom, who thinks it's a sin to get divorced,

and there's my dad, who thinks I can't keep a man satisfied.

And then my friends.

I never judged you or thought anything negative at the time.

I know. I know, but...

Divorce is failure, and it's painfully sad,

and I felt so responsible the entire time.

Like, there's something I could have done to keep my husband happier.

And Chad. I'm sure he told you how absurd that is.

I know. I'm here for you, okay?

I'm here for you.

I got you.

I know. I'm here for you, okay?

I'm here for you.

I got you, okay?

I got you, okay?

There was a ringing in my ears.

I couldn't hear him.

I was overwhelmed. I don't know who kissed who.

I think it was him that kissed me.

It felt so right.

I'm sorry. Is that okay?

No.

I'm so sorry.

Do you want me to stop?

No.

Okay.

Are you sure?

Yeah.

Oh, my God.

You're so wrong.

I know.

I know.

Oh, my God, baby.

I can't help it.

I can't help it.

I know. I know.

I know.

Mommy loves you so much.

I'm here for you.

I know.

I know.

I know.

I know.

I know.

There we go.

There we go.

Take it out.

I know. I know.

I know.

I know.

It's done.

It's done.

I just want to go.

I like that.

It's okay.

I know.

I shouldn't.

I know.

He's never gonna know.

It'll be our little secret.

Baby, baby.

Just between us.

Yeah. No one else.

No.

It's our little secret.

Come here.

Come here, baby.

Come here.

Oh, God, baby.

I know.

I know.

You're like sucking on mommy's big tits.

I know.

Yeah.

I know.

I know.

I know.

I know.

I know.

I know.

I know.

I know.

I know.

I know.

I know.

I know.

Suck it.

Fuck.

That's it.

Mmm.

Mmm.

Oh, God.

Oh.

Wow.

You're looking good.

Mmm.

Come here, get all that shit off me, huh?

Okay.

Oh shit.

Oh, you're so wet.

Yeah.

I'm so bad at you.

I watch you so bad.

Oh, fuck you.

Oh, fuck.

You have some fucking big heartaches.

So old, man.

Oh, yeah.

Yeah.

Oh, my God.

Oh, man.

Oh, yeah.

Are you going to do this?

Yeah.

I don't want that so bad.

My mouth.

Yeah.

Oh, my God.

Come on.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh, God.

Yeah.

Oh, fuck you.

Oh, girl.

Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Yeah.

Oh, you needed this so bad.

Yeah.

Look at those tits bouncing.

Look at those fucking tits bouncing.

There you go.

That's it.

Oh.

Oh, shit.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

I feel like your mommy sucks that bucket of dick.

It's so wrong.

Oh.

Yes.

I don't know what you say, mommy.

I'm going to need a stepmom for this.

Yeah.

That's how it used to be.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

That's so big.

Perfect fucking dick.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Yes.

Yes.

That's it.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

I want to fuck those tits.

You're going to let me do it?

Yes, baby.

Whatever you want.

Oh, fuck.

Yes, good girl.

Oh.

Yes.

Get those balls.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Fuck those tits.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

That's it.

That's it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh.

Yes.

Yes.

That's it.

Just like that.

Oh.

That's it.

Oh.

Oh.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh, you.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Shit.

Yeah.

That's it.

That's it.

Here we go.

Here we go.

Yes.

Uh huh.

Oh fuck.

You okay baby?

Yeah.

Let me fuck that.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Just like that, good boy.

Yeah, she's a good boy.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yes.

Yeah.

That's it.

Oh fuck yes.

That's it.

I'm gonna fuck you.

Get it all fucking speedy.

Yes.

That's it.

Oh my god.

Oh.

Yeah.

Yeah.

That's it.

Oh fuck.

Oh my god.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You gonna give it to me?

Yes I want the fucking to give me sugar.

Oh.

Yeah.

Oh fuck.

Yeah.

Yeah.

That's it.

That's it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

That's it.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh my god.

Oh.

Oh yes put it back in.

Oh.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Good boy.

Oh.

Oh yeah.

Oh my god.

Yes.

Oh.

Oh yes.

Oh yes.

That's it.

Fuck me.

That's it.

Oh.

Yes.

Oh yes baby.

So good.

Oh fuck.

Oh my god.

Yes.

Oh.

Oh fuck.

Yes.

Yes baby.

Yeah give it to mommy like that.

Oh fuck.

Oh.

Oh yes.

Yes.

Oh.

It feels so good.

Oh.

Yes.

Oh my god.

Like that pussy.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh fuck.

Yes.

Oh.

Oh yes baby.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Yes.

That girl.

Yes.

Oh yes.

Oh yes.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh my god.

Yes.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Yes.

Yes.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Yes.

Mommy's so good baby.

Oh.

Yes.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh yes.

Right there baby.

Yes.

Give it to mommy what she fucking needs.

Oh.

Oh fuck.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Yes.

Oh yes.

Oh yes.

Oh.

Oh yes.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Yes.

Yes.

Yes.

Oh.

Yes.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Yes.

Oh.

Yes.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Yes baby.

Oh.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh shit yes.

Don't you go nowhere.

I'm not.

Yeah.

Give it to me like that baby.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

God you look so fucking so sexy.

Oh.

Oh yeah.

That's it.

Yeah, right there.

Right there.

You like that, baby?

Yeah?

Oh, my God.

Yeah.

Oh, yes.

Oh, yes.

Oh, yes.

Oh.

Yeah.

Oh, good boy.

Just chill.

Yeah.

Oh, yes.

Oh, yeah.

Yes.

So good.

Yes.

Oh.

Yeah.

Oh, yes.

Oh, yes.

Yes.

Oh, yes.

Oh, yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Yeah, I love it.

I love it.

I love it.

I love you.

I love you, baby.

Yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh.

Yes.

Oh, my God.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh, my God.

Yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Just like that, baby.

Such a good boy. It's just that mommy likes it.

Oh, yeah. Yes.

Oh, yeah.

Mm-hmm.

Oh.

Oh, yes, baby.

Yeah, yeah.

Yeah, I like that.

Oh. Oh.

Oh, it's so funny.

Yeah.

Mm.

Mm.

Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Yes. Yes, baby.

Yeah.

Oh.

Mm.

Mm.

Yeah.

Mm.

Mm.

Mm.

Mm.

Oh, yes.

Oh, yes.

Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Mm.

Oh, my God.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Mm.

Mm.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh, yeah, I like that.

Yeah, I like that a lot.

Mm.

Oh.

Yeah.

Just like that, baby.

Oh, shit.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

So feel good, baby.

Oh.

Oh.

Mm-hmm.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Mm.

Yes, right there.

Right there. That's what I fucking like.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Yeah.

Yes, you're my baby boy.

Yes.

You'll always be my baby boy.

Oh.

Oh, I love you.

Oh, you're such a good boy.

Mm.

You're taking such good care of me.

Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yes.

Oh, Chad.

Oh.

Yeah.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

Oh.

Mm.

Oh.

Wow.

Mm.

Oh.

Mm.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Mm.

Oh, yes.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Mm.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Mm.

Oh.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Yes. Yes, yes, yes.

Yes. Oh.

Yeah.

Give it to me, good baby.

Yeah.

Mm.

Oh.

Oh.

Take me.

Mm.

Oh, yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh, good.

Oh.

Oh, good, yes.

Oh, yes.

Mm.

Oh.

Yeah.

Oh.

So good.

Yeah.

Mm.

Mm.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh, fuck.

Oh, get it all wet, yes.

Yeah.

Oh, my God.

Yes.

Oh, fuck, yes.

Get it all speedy.

Yes.

Come here, get on top of me.

That's it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Mm.

Oh.

Oh.

Mm.

Oh.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Mm.

Oh.

Oh, my God.

Oh.

Oh.

Yes.

Yes.

Mm.

Oh, yes.

Oh.

Oh.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh, my God.

I feel so good, baby.

Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Mm.

Yeah.

Oh, my God.

Oh.

So good.

Oh, wow.

There you go.

There you go.

Yes.

Yes.

Mm.

Oh.

Mm.

Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Oh.

Oh, my God.

Oh, yes, right there.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

You're such a good boy.

You give mommy what she needs.

Oh.

Oh, my God.

Oh, yes.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh, yes.

Mm.

Mm.

That's it.

That's it.

Mm.

Mm.

That's it.

Mm.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

Oh, fuck, yes.

Mm.

That's it.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh, fuck, yes.

Mm.

Yeah.

Oh, good girl.

That's it.

Oh, fuck.

Oh, yes.

Oh, fuck, yes.

There you go.

That's it.

Oh, fuck, yes.

Yes.

That's it. Bounce that fucking ass, mom.

Come here.

Oh.

Yes. I want you to ride that dick.

Yeah.

Come here.

Yeah.

Look at that ass.

Yeah.

Mm.

Yeah.

Yes.

Oh, yeah.

Just good, baby.

Yes.

Mm.

Mm.

Oh.

Oh, yes.

Mm.

Yeah.

Oh, yes.

Oh, yes.

Oh, yes, baby.

Yeah. Yes.

Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Yes.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh, my God.

Yes.

Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Yes.

Oh, yes.

Yes, baby.

Yes, that was so good.

Oh, my God.

Yes.

Yes.

Yes.

There you go.

Watch out.

Yeah.

Come on.

That's it.

Yes.

Yes.

Oh, yeah.

Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yes, baby.

Oh.

Oh.

Yeah.

Yes.

Yes.

Oh, yes.

Oh, baby.

Oh, yeah.

Mm.

Mm.

Oh.

Yes.

Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Yes, baby.

Oh, yeah.

Mm.

Oh, my God.

Oh.

Oh, yeah.

Yeah.

Come for me, baby.

Come for mommy.

Mm.

Oh, yes, baby.

Oh.

Please come for me.

Come for mommy.

Yes.

Oh, my God.

Yeah.

Oh, yes.

Yes.

Oh, yes.

Yes.

Oh.

Oh, yes, baby.

Oh, fuck.

Oh, my God.

Fuck.

Oh, God.

Look at you.

Look at you.

Oh, what do you want?

Mm.

Mm.

Yes.

Yes.

Mm.

Mm.

Fuck.

Fuck.

I want to taste it.

Mm.

Mm.

Mm.

Oh, fuck.

Wow.

I know.

It was like a dream.

Everything felt so surreal.

We only had sex at one time

even though Chad,

he can be so persistent.

Dana,

I don't know what to say.

You're

disgusted with me, aren't you?

Yes.

But it's, look, it's okay.

Everybody makes mistakes.

You're human.

And as long as you pray to God

every night and ask for forgiveness,

I'm sure you'll be okay.

Look, Dana,

I've had fantasies about

Jake, too.

But

I mean,

I know, I'm sure if I gave him

any idea that we could be together,

he would jump at it.

But Dana, there's just some lines you don't cross,

okay?

Dana,

are you even listening to me?

Look, I appreciate that you confide in me

and you probably feel this

tremendous amount of relief to get this sin off your chest.

But

if you don't do something about this,

your soul will be in jeopardy.

Well, how sweet

and moral of you

to practice such restraint.

It's late.

I'm gonna go home.

You know, only God can judge you.

Oh, but you, you would never

judge me, now would you?

Stop.

Come, sit down. What?

Please.

What I'm trying

to say is that I've had

the same kind of fantasies

and I understand your conflict.

I have an idea.

But

it's important that we keep

this between us and never touch up.

I'm listening.

So,

we both want excitement.

Look, Dana,

I trust you.

You're my best friend.

We both know each other's deepest, darkest

secrets and

I just want you to know that I would never

judge you or have any negative

thoughts towards you, okay? I love

you.

I love you too, but, India, you can

be so judgmental.

I'm sorry.

Okay, so, what's this

idea?

Now, I suppose that it's wrong

for you to have your stepson.

But what about mine?

Maybe we could just

swap sons.

What? That's ridiculous.

I mean, come on.

Don't tell me you don't think my Jake

is a handsome young man.

And if you would trust me with

Chad.

Well, honestly,

I would love to see him with someone like

you. I feel the same way

about Jake.

Okay. So, how does this

work? We just swap sons and they just

go right along with it?

No. First, we plant

a little seed.

Okay.