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The Last Adventure

Trainee Officer Mattsson requesting a leave-pass.

Trainee Officer Mattsson requesting a leave-pass.

I'm not deaf. You needn't shout.

I'm not slow-witted either.

Name?

Mattsson. I'm requesting a...

Who is the "I" that's requesting?

Me...

Trainee Officer Mattsson.

Say that then.

Trainee Officer Mattsson requesting a leave-pass.

You haven't shaved today.

Yes, Captain, I shaved today.

I say that you haven't shaved today.

Yes, Captain, I have shaved today.

Trainee Officer Mattsson requesting...

Say no.

If I say "no", I'd be lying, Captain.

Say "no"!

"No", Captain.

So you see which of us is right, Mattsson.

That's what I wished to show by a bit of argument.

Has Trainee Officer Mattsson understood?

Yes, Captain.

Very well then.

Return to your unit.

Thank you sir.

So it was true, Mattsson?

Yes, Captain?

It's said that you regularly salute a lamp post. True?

Yes, Captain.

Is there a rational explanation for that?

We used the post in the beginning, when we learned about saluting.

I just kept on doing it.

Since time immemorial, men have trained in shooting with picture-targets.

Yes, Captain.

Would you also shoot at target pictures, even while the enemy was attacking?

No, Captain.

- Maybe you understood the comparison? - Yes, Captain.

Good.

Now you'll learn how to put together the sub-machine gun in the dark.

Wars are not only fought in daylight.

So we'll do it as quickly as possible, and first ready, call out your name.

Understood?

Eriksson, switch off the lights.

Ready? Go!

That was "Rock me Baby"...

Now for something quite different...

We'll put on some of the homeland tunes that many of you have requested.

We have Gosta Bergkvist and family

who are sending greetings to Anders at Faro...

If it's "Lily of the Valley's Farewell" I'll throw the radio out the window.

We'll put on some good old-fashioned Swedish music.

How about some genuine accordion music?!

What more authentic Swedish accordion

than "Lily of the Valley's Farewell"!

It has to be thrown out then!

Hey guys, what a direct hit!

Clever little boy! That really fixed you.

What devastation!

Who's responsible for this?

I am.

Come with me, soldier. You others put your caps on.

Unit...

Halt!

Mattsson and Holmlund change places.

Holmlund is leader in the next formation.

Ready.

About turn..

Dismissed.

What on earth, man...?!

I'm sorry... it was...

Yes, I said that if they played...

"Lily of the Valley's Farewell" I'd throw the radio out the window...

So they played it and I threw it. Nothing more to it than that.

On the contrary, I think there's a damned lot more to it.

Can you explain why you made such a promise?

I don't like "Lily of the Valley's Farewell."

So you didn't like it.

Did it not occur to you that other people may have liked to hear it?

No, Captain.

One more thing, Mattsson...

Why did you let your tray fall on the floor in the mess hall?

I didn't let it fall, I dropped it.

So you dropped it. Why did you drop it?

Because I was frightened of dropping it.

So...

You dropped the tray on the floor, because you feared dropping it.

Yes, Captain.

You're not making sense.

Perhaps you're making fun of me?

No, Captain

That would not be wise.

Wasn't my intention, Captain.

Has it ever happened before?

That I tried to make fun of someone?

What we were taking about.

That I dropped the tray on the floor?

What scared you enough so you dropped the tray?

The duty officer... was staring at me...

I think he wanted me to drop it.

So what you're trying to tell me Mattsson...

...is that it was all the fault of the duty officer.

Yes, Captain.

As you know... you'll be transferred to barrack duties.

You may go, Mattsson.

Since Mrs Bergstrom who takes the typing course is sick today...

so Mattsson, who's already done a typing course, will take over.

- Understood? - Yes, Captain.

We'll start by...

learning to type in the dark.

In wartime one doesn't always have daylight to type by.

So if you would kindly switch off the lights...

What a load of bullshit!

What shall we write?

Typing in the dark...

Why?

Why?

I thought it could be good, if there was a war.

So it's possible to typewrite in the dark?

Do you know my rank, Mattsson?

Yes, Captain.

So you say that typing in the dark is possible from the start?

Yes, Captain.

You're nuts!

Yes, that's possible.

There's nothing you can do here.

I thought there was.

That will be all, Mattsson.

What would Dad have said?

Lucky he's not alive.

Karl-Erik...

Yeah?

No, it was nothing.

Hi, Jimmy!

How are things?

Fine.

You would've heard from Mum?

Yes, she wasn't happy.

Come in.

I just called by as I was in town...

I'm looking for somewhere, and a job.

Aren't you going to continue with your studies?

Yes, but I need to work, and earn a bit of money.

You can borrow from me.

No thanks, not any more.

Yes, I think I'll take this... for the time being.

Mattsson... nice to meet you.

- Do you have time, Headmaster? - Yes, of course.

I wanted to ask if...

...there might be any temporary teaching posts...

or if there's anything coming up.

Could be something.

The headmaster was really great.

There'll be a biology-teacher position.

Karl-Erik, you can always live at home.

Think of the travel-time.

I can come home every weekend though.

It'd be cheaper for you here, or with me.

The flat I'm sharing costs next to nothing.

Karl-Erik...

Regarding the engagement...

Kerstin and I thought Saturday would be the best.

Saturday I'm on the door at the school dance...

Well, Sunday then?

After all the nice things that happened.

You're no doubt up on all the latest dances?

Shake it, baby!

I won't be dancing... Security... just like you.

What? No, I...

No... no!

No, I can't!

Can't hear a thing.

What's happened?

Looks like she's been hit by a car.

I live up here.

I live further down.

What about...

I've got some wine, if you want to join me.

Yes, love to.

Do you just have one room?

Yes... its shared.

But sit down.

A glass...

Cheers!

Are they strong?

Don't know.

Can I try?

Wow!

Take them back.

They make me dizzy.

Nice bed you have.

- Feel like some music? - Yes.

Up already?

Know what you are?

No. What?

A sly dog.

Why?

You bite.

- Do I? - Yes.

I have to go now.

Yeah.

- Bye then. - Bye.

Hey, how old are you?

Me...? 16, almost 17.

Karl-Erik... Please leave the vase alone.

Come and sit down.

You coffee's getting cold, Karl-Erik

That vase was won

by Karl-Erik's father for pistol-shooting.

So, was he into that?

Yes, he was in the army reserve.

I've also been a reservist...

with KA2 in Karlskrona.

I was constituted there in 1943.

What does "constituted" mean?

It means you're a reserve officer without going to officer's school.

It was pleasant in the army. I never felt unhappy there.

How is it in the school, Karl-Erik?

Fine thanks.

Majvor, would you please start on the cake.

It's a Black Forest cake.

This won't be a light one!

Dad... Black Forest is your favourite.

I get one every birthday.

So you recognise it!

It's the hardest thing, taking a piece of a cake like this.

I should fetch a proper knife, eh?

If you had a fork, it would help.

Take mine, I haven't used it.

It's yummy but it's so hard to manage.

Pity we don't have a piano, so Kerstin could play for us.

She's really clever.

Kerstin, I've heard you play.

You used to play a bit.

When I was a kid.

Shall I hold it for you?

Hilda's done us proud.

What wonderful flowers! They're so pretty.

Engagement cake.

A letter for you, Mattsson.

Thanks

See you at your place this evening Helfrid -- kiss

Shall we see who gets there first?

That'll be me, no risk.

- So you see, I won. - You won.

Did you see I went past you on the way?

What are you doing?

A butterfly.

It's a sort of butterfly...

...that I've been trying to catch for ages.

You've disappeared!

Did you miss out on your butterfly?!

How many have you had sex with?

How many have YOU had sex with?

I asked first.

Maybe so many, that I've lost count.

Do you know if it's one, or more than ten?

Why are you asking?

Just like to know.

How many? More than ten?

No.

More than one?

It's none of your business.

You think it is?

How come it's OK for you to stay out all night?

My mum is away on a business trip some nights.

But she'll be home tonight.

- Your dad then? - They're divorced.

Not only ferns... horsetail and clubmoss

like the dwarf-type here for example, grow.

Barrel of fun, this guy.

Should be in a circus.

Will you be quiet?!

Picasso's little brother.

If you're not happy, you can get out.

You can get out!

Get out, I said!

I told you to go!

I'm trying to do my job here.

Copy this drawing now.

I like you when you're angry. You're so cute then.

Your Helfrid

Now, sporophyll...

There's talk you're turned on by someone here in school.

There's always gossip.

You should hear what's said about you.

That tall kid down there.

- I don't recognise him. - Which one?

The one sitting down there.

So, Erik.

He's the school's big sports idol.

Clever in class, too. Good on the guitar.

Got it all.

Hello, Kerstin...?

I've been held up in town for a while.

There's a staff meeting. I have to...

Oh no.

I have to go in now, so I can't...

I'll call in the morning.

No, it's nothing.

Yeah... ' bye!

We can fix on one day a week, and sit down and work.

Can I see you tonight?

No, I'm busy.

Doing what?

I'm giving Mum a bit of a hand.

- Your mum? - Is that so strange?

So she's back home?

Odd. When's she back?

This evening. She's been away.

I already told you.

What did you do last night?

Last night? Why?

Yes, last night.

I was home.

On your own?

I told you that Mum was away.

I phoned, but no one answered.

I must have got home a bit later.

- So when? - 9... 9.30 or so.

Where were you before that?

Fucking inquest!

What? Inquest?

I don't have to account to you. Where were YOU last night?

- Nowhere in particular. - Nowhere?!

NO-where? Of course we have to be SOMEwhere.

I was at the movies. Is that so terrible?

Alone?

With some friends.

I rang at 10, 11, 11.30... and no answer.

I was asleep

Asleep?

Home at 9.30 you said.

Were you so deep asleep by 10, you didn't hear the phone?!

I was fucking tired and I'm a deep sleeper. You know that.

What if I don't believe what you're telling me?

I hope you'll excuse me while I go out for a smoke.

Shan't we see each other tonight?

I'm helping Mum, I told you!

A these sleeping tablets?

Do you think I can take one without getting dizzy?

It won't hurt you.

Cup of tea?

Yes... Sure.

I've had a terrible week full of hassles.

What am I doing wrong?!

Sometimes it's like...

...I don't know what I'm doing.

They tapped with their pencils.

One was chewing gum... Chewing and chewing and chewing.

Want something with your tea?

Jimmy?

Jimmy?!

I've heard you're engaged. You devil. I love you.

Time's up, OK?

Landegren,

the Swedish-teacher, broke his leg.

He fell off a ladder.

So what are you doing?

You sound frazzled.

You don't have visitors?

You wouldn't mind if I came up for a while?

What?

No, that got changed.

I'll come up now.

Hey...

Helfrid...

Helfrid!

Did your fucking finger get stuck?!

- OK if I come in? - Of course.

What the fuck are you snooping about for?

What? I'm not snooping.

The guy you see so much of...

Who's that?

The one you were in the car with.

Who do you mean?

You already forgotten?

You sit in so many different cars you can't keep count, right?

Is it Erik... Erik Broman... Is that who you mean?

That's the one.

- Top footballer. - That's possible.

- Don't you know? - No.

- Good looking, too. - Not bad.

"Not bad"!

Goddamned very good looking!

Yes, that could be right.

You must realise how pissed off I am when you spend so much time with him.

Can't I even be with school friends?

It seems more than just friends.

I don't like you spending time with him. It's fucking weird.

I spend time with Maggan and Kjelle and others as well.

You like him best, though.

They're still just my buddies.

Do you hold their hands as well?

Hold hands!

Why can't you tell the truth?

Can't I hold a buddy's hand?

- You're telling the truth? - Yes of course!

You're lying to me!

Do you think I'm that stupid?

I've seen you in town, holding that arsehole's hand...

That goddamned football star- cum-guitar-poofter!

You don't think I saw you go home with him,

and stay the whole night?

You think I'm that stupid,

I don't know what's going on?

Do you?

You needn't scream at me!

Don't you think I get it?!

I just went with Erik Broman and watched TV for a bit.

You can't scream at me like that.

Sorry.

You're not sorry.

You can't scream at me... you mustn't scream at me.

I just got angry. Sorry.

- Listen... - Yes?

I got so scared when you screamed.

I've never see you like that before...

Screaming like that.

- You were scared? - Yes I was.

Yes, I guess I screamed.

Yes, you did.

- Hey... - Yes?

- I was right, eh? - What do you mean?

That with Erik Broman...

That was right?

You did hold his hand in town.

Yes, isn't it.

In which case I'll come straight to the point.

Rumour has it that you're indulging in hanky-panky with a student.

I'm not suggesting that I don't think that you're a clever guy.

But it would be good if you could...

confirm or deny the veracity... of this talk.

So you want to know if...

these gossip-mongers are right?

Yes, that's what I need to know.

I need to know what they're saying.

As I said, hanky-panky with a student.

What sort of hanky-panky?

You know what I mean! Do I have to...?

You've heard a rumour and you want to know if there's anything in it.

Yes.

Why don't you say that then?

So I have to answer to this rumour?

Well the situation is...

The mother of a female student has been in contact with me...

and told me about a relationship between her daughter and a teacher:

Jimmy Mattsson.

I'm obliged to step in.

Yeah...

So what do you have to say?

Nothing.

I have no objections on moral grounds...

Well then... what?

There's the bell. I must be on my way.

You have to think about her age.

- She could be your... - My what?

I was going to say she could be your daughter.

If I had a kid when I was 10 years old...

Don't take this as a criticism of you as a teacher...

You need to understand my situation.

What do you want me to do?

Quite simply, listen to reason.

I trust you.

Listen...

I've a pal with a shack in the country, we could borrow if we wanted to.

It would have to be before the end of term.

Why is that?

I'm going to stay with my aunt and uncle in June.

- Will you be away all summer? - Yeah.

Before school finishes I was thinking...

of throwing a big party...

and asking you and some friends.

Are you nearly ready?

Sure. Soon.

Well hurry up.

Eh?

So, it was true?

So it was true!

Was that your fucking fiancee?

Can't you at least answer?

Yeah... right.

What was that she threw?

I guess it was the ring.

What fucking ring?

Engagement ring, of course.

But you'd broken your engagement.

Of course... we had... but...

She doesn't seem to have realised that.

So you've lied to me.

What am I supposed to believe?

You said it was broken, and it wasn't.

I tell you I had... but she didn't grasp it.

So it seems.

- I'm to believe she didn't grasp... - That's right! I thought...

She breaks in here and starts throwing stuff...

Go and sool the cops onto her!

Wasn't that the ring she threw?

Yes, I tell you... it had been broken off.

Hey, let's drop it now.

Fucking weird bird.

Do you think I can believe she didn't know it was broken?

That's fantasy.

Listen to what I say!

Hey...

Kerstin is here now.

Kerstin is here now.

She's sitting in the kitchen. She's in despair.

I'm also disappointed.

Not for the first time.

Aah...

What does "aah" mean?

I believe you're disappointed and that it's not the first time.

Get up and come down now.

I'm coming.

Do you think...

Do you think you can forgive me?

Do you think you can ever forgive me?

No, I don't believe so.

Do you want to have me again?

I'll wash up... no, clean up.

We have to go now.

Just a bit longer.

- Thanks for everything. - Thanks to you.

Bye!

I'll call you.

Have you...

Have you had sex with anyone else here at home.

Yes.

- Are you kidding me? - No.

Really?

Yes, really.

With whom, may I ask?

With Erik.

That damned Broman?

I know, it was damned stupid.

So you passed the evenings with Broman?

"Passed the evenings"? Sounds funny.

- Did you? - Pass the evenings?

Why have you always lied?

I know it was stupid.

But I like you and didn't want to hurt you.

You obviously liked that bastard Broman more.

I haven't said that.

Did he know about...

About us?

That there was a relationship?

Exactly.

I think so. But he wasn't like you.

- How not like me? - You just carry on nagging!

When did you start going with him?

Just before I met you.

I thought we loved each other.

You told me you loved me!

I now, I was stupid.

It was only sex with him.

We didn't love each other.

What the fuck are you saying?!

A you conscious of how that sounds?

Have you no concept of morality?

Listen to who's talking about morality!

You, who are at your bitch's place every weekend.

With my fiancee it was just a formality. Morality didn't come into it.

We broke up ages ago.

But you've deceived me!

Are you conscious of the fact that you've deceived me?!

Yes.

Jimmy, you fainted

- You fainted. - No I didn't.

- Yes you did. - No, listen to what I say!

Yes, you've been drinking and you fainted.

Everyone who drinks, faints. Sure!

Can I ask you something?

Yes, what?

That bastard Broman...

- Was he better than me? - Better, how?

Yes... better... if it was better with him.

How can I talk about that?

Can't we just go to bed and talk in the morning?

Talk in the morning, OK.

We'll talk about everything in the morning.

So it would have been here...

in this bed... where you had sex with him

Where the fuck should I have sex with someone...

Of course we had sex in this bed!

And so you know, from the front, from the back and every other direction!

We fucked and fucked and fucked, and it was fantastic!

Are you satisfied now?

Don't you understand how it is?

I can't take any more of you going on and an, Jimmy!

I just can't take it any more!

When's your mum home?

She's home this evening.

Does she know about...

about us.

Yes, she knows.

- What does she think about it? - Nothing.

- Can I ask you something? - Yes.

- Don't get mad. - What is it?!

With Broman...

When you were having sex, did you come a number of times?

I don't remember.

You'd have to remember...

if it was once, or 15 times.

Wouldn't be that crazy.

Well, 10 then.

Don't be ridiculous, Jimmy!

Just answer a simple question.

We had sex together a couple of times, so what's the big deal?

Does he have a bigger prick than I have?

Does he? Eh?

I'm sorry.

I didn't want to...

I didn't want to ask that.

So why did you ask?

I just wanted to know if it was good.

- Good what? - Good when...

Good when you had sex... a couple of times.

You mean as good, both times in the same evening?

Yeah.

Of course it's best the first time. It's the same with you and me.

We only do it once.

We've done it several times.

Was it better with him?

- What better? - Yes, better, more beautiful.

More beautiful?!

A better experience.

Stop repeating my questions and answer them!

Yes, Sir!

So was it more beautiful?

Will you stop nagging if I answer your question?

- So it WAS more beautiful? - I didn't say that.

- You said so. - No I...

Well answer me then, was it?

Answer me!

Answer: Was it more beautiful?

One time perhaps.

In what way was it?

- Can't you answer a simple question? - No I can't.

Goddamned slut!

You're fucking crazy!

Jimmy!

Howdy, Jimmy.

I tried to get onto you, but you were busy.

And I've been looking out for you.

There's been so much to do.

Yes, it's about your appointment here...

and what we discussed a few weeks ago.

Time just flies.

Or "trots away with me on its back"

as Sjoberg says somewhere.

Who?

Sjoberg

Birger Sjoberg...

The poet.

Of course.

Yes, so it's like this...

We've had a bit of...

...amazing luck that we found a teacher,

for the next...

...lessons...

that are requisite for geography...

and... biology.

That solves a huge problem for me.

You mean... that I'm fired?

Fired...? We...

We have an applicant with the qualifications that you lack...

So in actual fact...

You promised that I could stay next term.

Out of the question.

I'm at a loss to understand.

Perhaps I didn't make myself clear.

Tell it as it is instead.

Get to the point!

Yes, that's what we should do.

Is this about the situation with Helfrid?

No, you should not assume that.

It's simply that we've obtained a qualified professional...

...for a post where you were just a party-qualified substitute...

You told me before that it was best...

that I finished the relationship with Helfrid.

Oh no...!

There's no way I would have expressed myself so badly.

In fact, you promised.

I may have given a vague verbal assurance

What I say now is how it is.

On paper it states... "for the present"

So now...?

A free position can always crop up.

So that's it then.

All the best.

And good luck!

E... O... L

F... C... T

B...

T... P

Is this better or worse?

Worse.

Is that better or worse?

Worse.

It seems as though you need stronger lenses.

I already knew I needed stronger glasses.

I can only confirm that here.

I know what's best, myself.

Karl-Erik...!

I have to talk to you.

Have you been upstairs?

I've spoken to the headmaster.

You can't teach there anymore. Is that right?

Why do you ask, if you already know?

It was about that young lass, wasn't it?

- What young lass. - That Helfrid.

Mum, you know I don't like you saying "that Helfrid".

You know.

It was a misfortune with her.

Mark my words... it was a misfortune with her.

I assure you, Mum, she had nothing to do with it.

It's obvious that she did. You must realise that. A child!

They can't have a teacher who gets involved with students.

It's nothing like what you think.

Is that for me?

No.

Did anyone phone for me at home?

What the hell are you doing?

How are you?

You're not the one to be asking.

Your eyes are all black.

I'm dreadfully tired.

Maybe you realise.

Should I realise...

that you're tired?

Karl-Erik...

Don't you remember?

You committed break-and-enter...

were taken by the police...

And then...

Don't cry.

Mum...

This is nothing to cry about.

Hey...

To think that...

our Karl-Erik...

could be arrested by the police.

Do you actually know what happened?

Do I have to come and defend you every day?

You came here, it seems.

Where do you think you are?

Where...?

It's a hospital, isn't it?

A mental hospital.

Karl-Erik...

they think you're mentally ill.

You're exaggerating aren't you?

The patients here aren't normally sick.

What's "normally sick"?

Mentally ill then.

Imagine if Dad were alive...

What he would have said...

Who told you you could get up, Mattsson?

I thought he was dead.

You have to lie quietly. Aren't you tired?

Not particularly.

I have to see an eye doctor.

The doctor will be here soon.

But I have to see an eye doctor.

Did you hear me?

Can I I see you a moment?

Davidsson, psychiatrist.

Mattsson, anxiety neurotic.

Who told you you were that?

Someone here.

A nurse or a doctor?

No.

So what's an anxiety neurotic?

Someone with anxiety.

What's anxiety?

When you...

have difficulty breathing...

The air freezes.

You're throat's full of ice and you can't breathe.

If you don't mind, I'd like to be left in peace.

Are you tired?

We'll stop bothering you.

My eyes...

I need to have stronger glasses.

We'll talk about your eyes, next time I see you.

The fish are getting ready now.

Mattsson, you have a visitor.

Karl-Erik Mattsson, I know all about you.

How are you feeling?

Hello!

Don't you recognise me, Jimmy?

It's Helfrid!

Can't you at least answer?

Say something... anything!

Hey...

He doesn't recognise me.

He should.

Don't you know each other?

He was my teacher at school.

Last term.

I think he should recognise you, then.

Mattsson, do you recognise her?

Don't you?

He's probably a bit tired.

He doesn't look tired.

It's not always evident.

Maybe it's best you come another day, when he's feeling a bit better.

They're for him.

Bye then, Jimmy.

Aren't you going to lie down now, Mattsson?

I can't see!

Help!

I can't see!

The fish are attacking!

I knew it!

- Who's that? - Katerina

Katerina, hold me!

The fish have attacked! I can't see!

I have to talk to a doctor!

I have to talk to a doctor!

Think of the other patients.

Aren't you listening?!

I have to talk to Alec!

Alec!

Where's Alec?

Where's Alec?

The fish are attacking... it's dark...

It's dark... Alec!

Mattsson... think of the other patients!

He promised to talk to me about the fish!

I can't see anything!

It's dark! Eternal darkness!

Hello.

How are things?

Thanks...

Not too bad.

Not so good yesterday.

No.

And even worse the day before.

You were calling for someone named Alec.

Who's that?

That's you.

Me?

I had a pal in school called Alec...

...who looked like you.

That estate I told you about...

Would you like to go there with me?

A manor the hospital has use of.

You get to be outside a lot.

And we get to talk a lot...

both in groups...

and individually.

It's totally voluntary...

So if you don't want to... we'll forget about it.

I can't see it helping with anything.

If I wasn't quite convinced that it would do good...

...I wouldn't have asked you.

Can I go there now?

Yes.

- Can I go there now? - Yes, of course.

Like me to come with you?

Yeah.

- Shall I call direct? - For sure.

Nice place eh?

Yeah, maybe it is.

Think you'll like it here?

Maybe.

I was wondering if I could use some of this stuff to make a bird house.

Of course you can.

Are there any little fish that have caused you trouble?

No.

Sure?

No.

So they've bothered you?

Yeah.

Have you had other dreams?

Favourite dreams.

When the guys slapped me on the back when I threw out the radio.

Why did you like that so much?

Because... I was happy.

That dream was just a rerun of what happened in reality.

Do any dreams make you sad?

Yes.

I dream...

that a girl is sitting in a car with another guy.

Is that Helfrid and the school friend?

Broman.

Do you see them clearly?

Yes.

And it makes you sad?

Yes.

You know what materials you need. Take whatever you want.

Want to help make a bird house?

I just wanted to say goodbye and thanks for everything.

You're going?

Yes I'm going to stay with my sister.

I'm quite well now.

You're not going home, are you?

But I'm quite well.

Come inside and we'll talk about that.

But I really am quite well.

Could I borrow the rowing boat and set this up?

Sure.

What do you and Davidsson talk about in private?

All sorts of things.

How things used to be?

Yes, a lot of it would be that.

Do you think it does any good?

Good for what?

I mean, do you get anywhere with these discussions?

I don't know...

But you find out about things.

About what, for example?

About yourself.

You become a bit more self-assured.

That seems to be the point.

In my case, I don't get anywhere without medication.

Maybe it helps with some things, but not all.

Have you told him that?

No... I hardly say anything.

Tell me, Jimmy...

There was something I was going to tell you...

I don't know quite...

how I should say it.

Just try. What?

It's about this little boat trip.

It feels...

at least for me...

...like an adventure.

Well it's...

it's an adventure for me too.

Can you understand that I mean it's something completely new.

Untried.

Never experienced before.

I understand.

It's just like that for me.

No...

Now I think I'll say something.

That this is an experiment.

I know this is a good method.

You'll better gauge how good things are...

if you have more places to experience.

We have greatly reduced the need for medication.

And I want to reduce it even more.

What do you think about that?

I become more uneasy and tired from another point of view.

- How about you, Linnea? - It's fine.

What do you think makes it fine?

Now it's stopped again.

What did you say?

I said it's stopped again.

Linnea's heart.

It does stop sometimes.

Then she runs to the toilet, then jumps around

and it starts again.

Poor of the doctor not to know that.

You know so much!

One has to maintain a certain style in this place.

What style is that?

Don't worry, it wasn't your style I was thinking of.

I was thinking of people in general.

People who are...

like they're specially selected, including their bodies.

Like Linnea and her heart, for example.

You must also admit to something else.

You have to become that.

She's become schizophrenic

and will stay schizophrenic.

And you, Bruno...

are manic depressive...

and will stay manic depressive.

And Valdemar...

suffers from paranoid psychosis...

and will stay with it.

Don't bother about it.

That makes it easier, doesn't it, Dr Davidson.

You left out Jimmy and me.

How will we be?

How about you, then?

- Me? - Yes.

I'm well.

Jimmy!

I spoke with your mum this morning.

I spoke with her the other day.

Have you spoken to her often?

Yes, a couple of times.

According to her you haven't spoken once since you last saw her.

Your glasses...

Did you always wear them?

Or did they nag you to make you wear them?

They nagged, even if I was wearing them.

What did they nag about?

That I needed to be careful not to break the glass or the frames.

It was mostly Mum who was so anxious.

Why was she so anxious about?

That I should get sick and die, somehow due to her.

Did she say that?

Yes.

I remember I thought that sickness and death were...

...a punishment.

She worried I'd catch cold and get rheumatism.

Did they ever beat you at home?

Sometimes she pulled my hair or tugged my ears.

And when we had visitors...

she used to pinch my arms hard so that I'd...

be a good little boy.

She'd be talking, like... normally...

at the same time she was pinching me.

It hurt like blazes.

Didn't you ever scream, so the others would know you were in pain?

That happened, but...

...it only made things worse when we were next alone.

You say "she" the whole time... Was it only your mum who abused you?

It did happen...

...that Dad hit also, but...

...it was only after she'd threatened.

Threatened?

She was always threatening with...

"Just you wait and see when Dad gets home."

Then you got a beating from him?

Yeah...

It was quite severe... but didn't happen often.

Only after your mother threatened?

Do you have to go on and on nagging about that damned woman all the time?!

Won't you ask anything now?

Nothing more you want to know?

There's a great deal I want to know.

So fucking-well ask it!

Sorry, I...

I just got mad.

I've hurt my parents dreadfully.

Especially Mum... I've hurt her so much.

What's up, Bruno?

Why are you so unhappy?

Why are you crying?

Bruno...

I'll tell you something, Jimmy.

I'll tell you something.

I'll tell you...

...that I want so terribly much to die.

What for?

Because I WANT to die.

I'd appreciate it...

...if you didn't try to make me change my mind.

Everyone I've ever told this to, has tried to.

I've no intention of trying to.

I have this incredible longing to die.

Did you have the longing when we were...

out on our adventure?

Yes.

I have the longing when things are at their best.

Oddly, I have the strongest longing when things are at their best.

Who are you giving the flowers to?

They're for my sister Anita.

What happened with Bruno?

Attempted suicide.

He's saved up the tablets that he got at night.

- Will he be alright? - I think so.

Did he say anything to you?

Yes, he told me that he wants to die.

Would he have managed to, if you hadn't found him?

Most likely.

How do you feel about it?

Very sorry.

He said he wanted to die.

Wouldn't it have been best to let him do it?

No.

For Bruno it was the only option last night.

Those of us who know better options, have to get Bruno to see them too.

Don't you agree?

Do you think I'm ever going to be well.

How do you want me to answer that?

Obviously I'd want...

...that you'd say that you thought so.

It's much more important than my answer.

It's for sure.

But you have to try to be a little more alert...

...to your own and other people's reactions.

Like with Bruno...

you have to find other options...

...apart from polishing your spectacles.

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