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[Narrator] This programme contains a big breakup,

tonnes of make-up and an unexpected shake-up.

The tans you see might be fake, but the people are all real,

although some of what they do has been set up

purely for your entertainment.

[yelling]

Previously on "The Only Way is Essex."

- Oh!

Oh mate, we're on a rock.

- Yes!

Yes!

Yes!

- He should be on my side.

He should be there for me, but he's not.

- She's asked me to ask you for her spare keys back.

- I'm gonna be a dad.

- You're gonna be a good dad.

- See, people shouldn't be saying things

when there's things that could be said about them.

You know exactly what I'm talking about.

[intense upbeat music]

♪ The only way is up

♪ Baby

♪ For you and me now

♪ Ooh

[exciting upbeat music]

- I really need to talk, can we meet?

[exciting upbeat music]

- Luce! - Hey!

- I feel like a real mix of emotions,

I feel like I'm really happy and excited

to be moving in with him, but I'm nervous, scared.

I don't know if it's the right to do,

I don't know if it's too much pressure on us.

And as well, Mario's gone and said this stuff,

and it's just put all this doubt in my head,

and I just don't know whether I'm coming or going.

- You've just got to ignore people,

whatever they say it's just jealousy with them all.

You and Ricky have a little word together,

you just don't take any notice of them.

Ignore them.

- Yeah.

What are you doing?

- I can't leave you.

You can't leave us.

Bella doesn't wanna go, do you Bella?

- I'm going round the corner, you make me feel so guilty.

- She doesn't want to go, do you Bella,

'cause she's gonna have such a lonely life there.

- No, she's not.

She's got Blake.

Haven't you?

It's probably just a rumour.

Mario's probably just doing it to take the blame off of him.

- Maybe, maybe you shouldn't be moving yet

until you sort it out.

- Feel sick thinking that it could be true.

I just feel sick.

- But you gotta get the truth first,

before you start arguing and rowing.

[exciting upbeat music]

- Three years, though, Charl.

- Mm-hmm.

It'll just be nice to have, you know,

everyone together celebrating our beautiful relationship.

And I love the theme as well,

I think it just shouts us.

"Charlie and Ferne's

Champagne and Gold Party." - Champagne and Gold.

- Guys in their suits and their tux,

girls wearing their ball gowns,

but nothing too chavvy.

Obviously I've invited the girls,

and I just really hope they come

because when I spoke to them

they was um-ing and ah-ing.

I think I'd be upset if they didn't.

- Yeah, it's all about us at the end of the day.

It's not about them anymore.

- My two little buddies not being at my eng... uh.

- You was about to say, "my engagement"!

- Oh, I've got rings on the mind.

- There's clearly something she's got

on her mind that she needs to say.

♪ Oh Ah La Da Da Da

♪ Da Da Da

♪ Oh Ah La Da Da Da

♪ Da Da Da

♪ Oh Ah La Da Da Da

♪ Da Da Da

♪ Oh Ah La Da Da Da

♪ Da Da Da

- So we got bookings today.

- That's good, though isn't it?

- It's good, yeah, mate.

- When are you gonna put yourself in?

- I'd say, everyone's gone for the Beckham thing,

now, aren't they? - Yeah.

- I just get a bit killed off.

That's what putting me off a little bit.

Everyone's got the same sort of tone.

- Hi there boys.

- Look who it is.

- You made it.

- Sunday sun?

- Yeah, not to bad.

- This is a nice gaffe, isn't it?

Is this where all the dreams happen, is it?

[laughs]

Well, congratulations.

- Oh, you heard.

- Of course, mate.

- We're still burning.

- Oh, and you must be happy about it.

- Yeah, I feel good.

- A new child.

Can't wait.

Just enough that I just want it to be born now.

- I can't believe it.

A kid, mate.

- Mini Dan.

- [Chris] Mini Dan.

It's gonna be a mini Dan.

- Mini Dan.

- Oh, yes.

- [Chris] You got names?

- Yeah, well no.

If it's a boy, I want to call it Jackson.

- Jackson, after the tattoos that's here.

After your idol.

- Are you drilling in long nights?

- No, mate.

I'm even looking forward to that.

- Wiping someone's ass?

- That's fine, if it's for my little baby, I'll do it.

- Awww!

You're gonna make a good dad.

- No, three men and a baby.

- Three men and a baby.

- That's really pushing a prap.

What about Lucy?

- She knows.

She's aware of it, but I'm gonna meet her later,

just so she can hear it from me.

So, she'll probably feel a bit better then.

Do you know what I mean?

- Bit of advice, don't wear that slop.

- Yeah, I'm looking to wear white top.

- "Sorry, mama."

This is probably what I'll say.

[laughs]

- I know it's really sad but you hate children.

You don't love children, do you?

- No, I'm not good.

- Whenever you come round my house

and there's children, you don't know what to do.

- Well yeah, there is that, but that isn't the reason.

Lyd, I've come out a serious relationship,

I don't want...

- A kid.

- Well, it's not gonna be my kid but...

- Yeah, but it'll be calling you mummy.

- No, it won't!

I'd be the wicked step-mum.

- This is a sign that you need to stay single.

He seems like a lovely guy,

I've never met him so I can't pass judgement ,

he's obviously a bit stupid

because he's got a girl preggers,

but at the end of the day this is a sign.

Just stay friends.

I feel sorry for him though, he's got a baby on the way.

- Do you know what?

I do feel sorry for him.

- Do you love him yet, or you

just really, really like him? - Whoa,

I just like him, and, do you know what?

He's really just a nice, genuine guy.

There was nothing fake about it.

Do you know what I mean?

- Ah, thank you.

- Thank you, it looks lovely.

Thank you.

- Why do you always get yourself in these pickles, Lucy?

- I know, why I can't I just have...

- Why can't you go out with a guy that doesn't cheat?

Thank you.

- Thank you.

That doesn't cheat on me.

- Doesn't cheat, that doesn't get girls pregnant.

- That's just me, Lyd.

I have one bit of bad luck after the other.

- The only thing is though, why I kind of

don't want you to be with him as well,

'cause he might seem like a lovely guy,

but I hate his tattoo.

- You hate his tattoo?

- [laughs] Luce, I'm not even joking.

That tattoo is so bad.

- He likes Michael Jackson quite a lot.

- That is the worst tattoo I've ever seen!

- He's a tattoo artist.

You can't say that.

- Is he? - Yeah.

- Oh, no.

Do you know what it is?

No, I know exactly what it is with both of us.

We both fall in love too quickly.

- Yeah, we do.

- And I don't know what it is,

but I have only gotta see somebody, like on the bus,

on the top deck, and fall in love with them.

Do you know what I mean? [Lucy laughs]

And we need to stop doing that,

like we need to start distinguishing the difference

between love and lust.

You lust for Dan, you don't love him.

- Every single thing in me is saying,

"Right, you don't wanna be in a relationship.

"He's got a baby on the way."

But I like him.

- Oh, little Lucia.

- You've done everything you can, now, Samantha.

I want to see you happy again.

You haven't been happy.

- I've wrote a letter,

'cause I feel like I can't get off my chest

what I want to say to him face to face,

because it'll either turn into an argument,

or he's not gonna listen.

Want me to read it to you?

- Yeah.

- Okay.

I don't wanna cry, so...

"To Joey,

"I have and will always love you, Joey.

"You mean so much to me.

"I want you to understand that I've always had

"your best interest at heart.

"It's a terrible shame that it has come to this.

"I really did think we were going to be together forever

"and live our fairy-tale slash Disney life

"that we always spoke about.

"And I don't know what the future holds,

"but please look after yourself,

"and remember your own person,

"and you have your own opinion.

"Love always, your mouse."

He used to call me his mouse.

Do you think that's enough? - I think it's really nice,

because it's kind of light-hearted,

and it's not too doom-and-gloom.

- No.

- It feels like only a few weeks ago

that I was sitting at that table with him,

and he was telling me that he wanted to get engaged.

- Yeah, I know.

- But you can't live your life unhappy, so...

- Yeah.

- [Billie] Oh, such a shame.

The thing is, like you say, you can't keep it forever.

♪ Feel so special

♪ Oh, I'm made to love

♪ I can't believe

[whistles]

- Mate.

- Oh. - Oh, missed you.

- Oh, if that'd hit me, you'd have been gone.

You would've been sacked.

- What do you want me to do?

- Tom, mate, them steps are a joke.

- I know, it's a good workout, isn't it,

every single day?

Looking smart, my man, for once.

- Are you helping him work? - A little bit.

- He's a new man since he's been on this date.

- What do you know about clothing?

- Folding.

I know how to fold. - [Arg] Is he good at folding?

- [Tom] He's all right.

Come on, spill the beans on this date.

- I thought it went well.

I'm not gonna lie.

- She's always liked you so much.

- Of course it went well.

He got a kiss.

You didn't get a kiss.

You took her out on a date, and she didn't wanna kiss you.

She kissed him straight away.

- She used me to get close to you.

I feel used.

- It must have been a bit awkward for you on your date,

'cause you didn't get on, but me,

we had a bit more chemistry.

There was a bit more something there.

- Yeah.

- He had more to talk about.

- Yeah.

Straight away, she's gone in and said,

"Oh, you've got to start being a one-woman man."

- What did you say, "Yeah, I might do that?"

[whistles]

- That's something I thought.

I'm not a commitment geeza, am I?

- Why are you so scared of commitment?

- I don't know.

- 'Cause he's a man-whore.

- No, it's not.

It's because I'm having a good time at the moment.

Do you know what I mean?

And I don't wanna change that and all of a sudden I go,

"Oh, my God.

"What have I let myself in for here?"

- Do snog her with saliva all 'round your mouth?

- [Tom] Mate, don't tell me

you turned into saliva boy again.

Whenever you kissed most anyone.

In school he was known as Saliva Boy for about four years.

- We did share a kiss, yeah,

and there was a little bit of saliva, yes, all right?

- Was it like this?

[all laugh]

- Oh, you're so cringey, man.

♪ I was so obsessed with climbing skin ♪

- That's lovely.

- It's really nice, 'cause of that wire,

and then that gold trimming.

- Yeah.

- It's not too much gold.

- What do you think of this,

'cause it's all gold.

- Yeah, I think that's really nice, though.

- Yeah, but it's a fine line between classy and chav.

- Oh, god.

- Do you know what I mean?

You've gotta play it right.

- [laughs] And you're gonna go chav.

- Do you know what I mean?

- I wonder who's gonna be there?

- Hoping Diags.

- Whoo!

We're not in love.

He's a fire safe.

- I'm not in love.

- Oh, calm down.

It's fire safe, fire safe.

- After the date, you think I'll be running the mile,

but I just don't know.

We had a proper laugh on the date,

but we always have a laugh.

Do you know what I mean?

You need to look really hot tonight.

- Yeah.

- And strut your stuff, 'cause you're coming to get Diags.

♪ Only inches

♪ There's no audience

- You all right?

Is Jess not about?

- No, she's not here.

- Been trying to get ahold of her, but...

- I think she's gone to see Argen.

As you imagine, we've got to

have a little chat, haven't we?

- Yeah, I think so.

- So, what you been up to?

- I mean, I appreciate your wanting to account for Jess.

She's your daughter, and obviously

that's the best thing for her,

but I just need to speak to her.

I'm fully, fully committed to us.

I really am.

I know what I want,

and I wanna have a family with her.

I wanna live with her.

I wanna have everything that we planned to do.

I'm a good person.

My intentions-

- Yeah I know that.

Have you cheated?

- You know how much I love her,

that she literally is everything to me,

and I don't want it ultimately ruined.

She makes me happy.

She makes me feel like I ain't by myself.

- Just be a man and just face it,

and tell the truth.

[bright upbeat music]

- You had a perm, Joe?

- It's all curly, isn't it?

[Chloe laughs]

Do you like my outfit?

- It's accentuating the perm.

[Chloe laughs]

- I will see you guys at the Gold Party, then, yeah?

- [Lauren] Yeah.

- I'm gonna go as well.

- Kind of gotta.

- I might dress up in all gold.

- What 'cause you're the golden boy?

[laughs]

- What're you doing?

- Just popping by to see how you are.

- Obviously, I'm still really upset.

I'm not gonna lie, and there has been nights

where I ain't been able to sleep properly.

All these family issues and that, it's damaging us.

Do you know what I mean?

All the arguments behind it is making me and Sam argue.

Do you know what I mean?

- You and Sam need to sort your shit out,

and kind of stop blaming both the families for reasons.

You need to decide if you need to be together

or if you don't.

- I think everyone just needs to slow down.

I've said to everyone now,

everyone just needs to stay out of it.

Do you know what I mean?

- I not going to this party for an argument.

I'm going there 'cause it's my brother's party

and if I feel uncomfortable, I will leave.

- You always know everything around here,

so I wanted to come and see you,

'cause I know I trust you.

- I've known Ricky for quite a while now,

and I've got close to him through you,

and when Mario was cheating on Lucy,

even though I hadn't seen it or heard about it,

I knew deep down straight away.

I knew 100%, even though he denied, denied, denied,

I knew Mario cheated on Lucy.

With Ricky, I just can't see it.

You're like a sister to me.

I love you to bits.

I wouldn't sit here and defend Ricky.

If I thought for one minute Ricky cheated on you,

or he'd done anything out of order, or he'd let you down,

I wouldn't want you to be with him.

- Why is Mario saying that, though?

- I just thing Mario can be a bit nasty sometimes.

- He can't go around saying things like this,

and then not backing it up.

In my head, now, Ricky's cheated.

- Do you actually think that, though?

- Yeah.

- I don't think he has, Jess.

- Why would Mario say that, though?

- And I'm not trying to defend Ricky 'cause you're my mate,

but I just can't see it.

He absolutely adores you.

He loves you so much.

- I know.

I'm not crying, sorry.

- Are you all right?

- Yeah, I'm fine.

- Don't get upset.

- I'm fine, honestly.

I'm stronger than this, now.

I'm more disappointed, I'm not...

I'm confused.

- Just honestly, I wouldn't get upset,

'cause I don't think Ricky's done anything.

Yeah, he's trying to make out that Ricky's cheated,

but we don't know for sure Ricky has.

We've got to remember at this moment in time,

he hates Ricky.

He thinks Ricky has told his ex-girlfriend

about all his dirty laundry.

- Or he might know something about Ricky,

and he's angry, and so he wants me to find out.

A lot of boys cheat on girls.

- I don't know.

Don't ask me.

- Why?

You should have the answers.

- I don't know.

People do silly things and make mistakes

when you're young and stuff,

but I don't think Ricky has, Jess.

♪ Whoa whoa

♪ Yeah Yeah

♪ Whoa whoa

- I absolutely hate Miley Cyrus's hair.

You think she can pull it off, don't you Bill?

- What, the short cut? - The short prat.

- Yeah.

Her face, I think she can get away with it.

- I'm so glad you still come in,

and I really appreciate you, as well,

because I couldn't have a had a party like this

without you two being there.

Do you know what?

You're wearing your ball gown tonight.

You're going to walk up looking shit hot.

- And the reason why I'm going to go out wearing the dress

is just to make sure Joey knows what he's missing.

- You've lost weight.

- Yes.

- You've been on the breakup diet.

You're looking good.

You're looking fit.

He's just gonna be like, "Damn."

[funky upbeat music]

- I'm not gonna be coming tonight.

I thought I'd come 'round to let you know.

- You're joking.

- No.

I wanna come, I really do.

But I've arranged to meet up with Lucy,

and just sort of get everything in the open,

and just see what's going on there.

- So are we going tonight, then?

- I'm sure there's plenty of people that

would love to

hang out with you, mate. - Blown off.

- Me, I'll be the loser at the bar on my own.

- You're not gonna be on your own.

You're never on your own.

- Didn't choose me anyway.

- You got no ride tonight, then.

- Yeah, I thought me and you was

gonna ride together to Bob's, you know?

- You'll look smart tonight, mate.

- I'll still have fun.

I'll still have a night, but I wish you was coming.

- The next party I'll be there.

- You better.

- And I'll even go to buy a tux to go with you.

- Being a baby, though.

[laughs]

[exciting upbeat music]

- I love how Arg has sewn

a load of Ferrero Rocher packets together

to make his shirt.

- A tonne of Ferreros. [laughs]

[intense upbeat music]

- Samantha and Joey,

I bet it's the first time they would have seen each other.

- I know.

- Obviously, there is a massive divide

between the two families.

- It's literally like the Capulets and the Montegues.

[intense upbeat music]

- Joe, how are you feeling?

I mean, you haven't seen Sam for like a week.

- Well, in that moment when I see her,

obviously it will be hard.

- You'll have to go with it.

- Yeah.

- I'll be able to when I see her smile.

I look forward to seeing her.

I missed her, man.

I really missed her.

[intense upbeat music]

- As long as you're happy, you're doing the right thing.

Do you know what I mean?

The kid's the most important thing.

- I know that.

It's just, I don't know.

We've obviously been hanging out and stuff,

and it's just a shame.

I mean, obviously it can't be helped.

I had no idea, but it's just, I don't know.

I obviously started liking you,

and I think you felt the same, a little bit.

[laughs]

Tiny bit.

I mean, it can't be nice for you, really,

because it ain't you having a baby, but...

- Don't worry about me, in this.

It's not that necessary. - What I worry about,

it is really difficult.

- I'm just used to this happening to me all the time.

- I would never plan to do this to you.

- No, of course.

Oh, my God, I'm not blaming you.

I am so not important in this.

You've got a baby, and that is the main thing here.

- You are still important.

- I'm just cursed.

- So, I don't like seeing you upset.

I don't want you to feel like-

- It's just my luck, Dan, that's all.

You're doing the right thing.

So, that makes you completely different

to anyone I've been with, and makes you a nice guy,

which makes it even more frustrating,

but this is more important than us, so...

[crowd chatters]

- It's difficult.

I don't know.

- This position sucks.

- I don't know.

Maybe just now ain't the right time.

- I finally meet someone that's really nice,

and then, you know?

I don't know.

It's just the way it is.

- Yeah.

I think we'll make good friends.

- I don't want to get upset, so I'm gonna go.

- Don't get upset.

- Give me a cuddle.

You're gonna make a really good dad, okay?

You're all right.

- Mm-hmm.

- Well, I'll see you soon, yeah?

- Okay.

I'll see you too soon, all right?

- See you later.

- Yeah.

[shoes thump]

♪ Dance

♪ When you walk the walls

♪ And you romancing with our hands ♪

- Girls, you all right?

- Hello, Diags.

How are you?

- I'm good, you?

- You look beautiful.

- Aw, thanks, babes.

- Are you enjoying the party?

- I'm getting my boogie on down.

I'm getting a little...

- You've finally got a suit on.

- I know.

I only just about fit into it, as well.

- You look really dapper.

- It looks really nice.

- I had to come smart, didn't I, to impress the ladies.

Or lady.

♪ If you'd have sewn a hole

♪ I would believe

♪ In

- With you, I tell you now, to your face,

even though you were swearing blind you hadn't cheated,

I knew you cheated.

All day long, I knew it.

- 'Cause you've done it, so you know as well.

- Maybe 'cause I did it, or maybe 'cause I knew you,

or maybe 'cause I just knew, but with Ricky,

I don't feel it as much.

I don't feel like I know.

It's only from what you're saying.

Of course, I love Jess to bits.

I've been part of her family, and I don't know.

I can't bear to see her being upset or broken-hearted.

I know how happy she is with Ricky at the moment.

I know how much he loves her,

and I'm really worried.

I'm concerned, 'cause it's gonna kill her.

- Obviously, she's friends with Lucy,

so she's found out all this stuff,

and obviously all this stuff's come out,

and Jess has obviously just slated me to the ground.

So, as far as I'm concerned,

I don't give a fuck about Jess.

♪ Oh

♪ Will you still love me

♪ When I'm no longer young and beautiful ♪

♪ Will you still love me

♪ When I've got nothing but my aching soul ♪

♪ I know you will

♪ I know you will

♪ I'll let you in

[knocks]

♪ Will you still love me

♪ When I'm no longer beautiful

♪ In the mind and in my head

♪ This is where we all came from ♪

♪ The dreams we had

♪ The love we shared

♪ This is what we're waiting for ♪

[crowd yells]

- I'm gonna say a massive "Thank you,"

on behalf of myself, and my better half, Ferne.

- It is just so nice to bring everyone together.

Friends, family, and I've loved every minute,

and I'm so glad that you're all celebrating

this lovely three-year anniversary.

And, in five seconds, I want us all to party.

Five.

- [All Party Guests] Four.

Three.

Two.

One.

- Let's go.

[everyone cheering]

♪ Hear me coming through your speakers ♪

♪ Hear me coming through your speakers ♪

♪ You see me blaggin' up your air waves ♪

♪ I know you can't get enough of my sound ♪

- You know it's a really lovely party,

but I haven't really been able to get the swing of things.

Usually by now if you're drunk and dancing...

- It's 'cause you feel on edge.

It's awkward.

It's awkward with the families.

- Yeah, weird with Joey being here,

because obviously I've not spoken to him,

and, I don't know.

We're at Ferne and Charlie's three-year anniversary,

but it's a little bit...

- What's going on then?

What's all this crap, these rumours?

What's going on?

Is it real?

Is it true? - I imagine...

Just let me talk.

- You've done something.

- Just let me talk, will you, for God's sake.

I'm not gonna sit there, and

I'm not gonna put you through lies,

and I'm not gonna put you through denial.

I'm gonna just fucking man up,

and I'm gonna just tell you what happened.

And it was true.

I did cheat on you.

I can't sit here and stay in a relationship with you

knowing that I lied.

I can't look at your face and say it didn't happen.

- I can't breathe.

[intense upbeat music]

- Have I told you how beautiful you look tonight?

- No.

- You do.

Really beautiful.

- Awww.

Thank you.

- I'm lucky to be with you three years.

- You're definitely punching.

[Charlie laughs]

- Fuck off, I'm punching.

[lively upbeat music]

- I've come to talk to you, and I had a lot to say.

Now I don't have anything to say.

How do you do that?

- It's just weird.

I feel like I don't even know you.

- Yeah, same.

- Which is a shame,

because everything that we have gone through.

Know what I mean?

Obviously everything's got really out of hand.

- It has got out of hand,

but I want you to understand this, all right?

When I said all these things,

and I said I'm gonna set you free,

and I wanted the break, I wanted the break, Sam.

I'm not making the decision about

what dinner we're having tonight, am I?

I'm making a decision about my future.

I never wanted this to happen.

I never knew I'd be sitting near you like this, Sam.

Obviously, it's hurting me looking at you, Sam.

I don't want it to be like this.

I really do want to be with you,

but it's just come to a point

where we always argue and stuff,

and it's just so hard, isn't it?

- You're just, I don't know,

one minute like you're proposing to me in Dubai,

next minute-

- You can't say that, Sam, because...

- Yeah, because there's mixed signals.

You can't just stand here now and say,

"I do want to be with you, Sam."

It's not...

- No, not like that, I don't,

I'm just saying I want to be. - I know what you're saying.

- I do want to be with you, but I can't.

- Yeah, I know.

- Well, I've wrote you a letter.

You don't have to read it now.

Also, I've got the ring with me, because-

- No, I don't want the ring, babe.

- I know you don't want it.

I know that you don't ever

expect me to give it back to you,

but with everything that's gone on, and how we are,

I can't wear it because we're not together.

- I bought that for you 'cause I loved you.

What am I gonna do with it?

- Well, I don't know.

- The ring don't mean nothing to me, Sam.

You mean something to me.

That don't mean nothing to me.

Do you wanna keep it?

- Well, I never wanted to give it back.

I never thought I'd be giving it back to you.

- Yeah, but you don't have to.

I don't want it.

I think it's horrible, Sam.

Honestly, it's been the worst three weeks of my life.

I'm so upset.

- It's one of those things where obviously

we still love each other.

We're not gonna fall out of love with each other

in a couple of weeks.

I don't know if it's gonna happen in the future, but...

- I don't wanna not be friends.

Give me a cuddle.

I'll never stop loving you, know that.

- Okay.

♪ Not be sure

♪ We will see another day

♪ After we won't plan

♪ Go down to the end

♪ Put your hands in mine

♪ Watch the sun

- I made a mistake.

You know I'm not a cheater.

You know who I am.

Don't forget the last 12 months,

because that's still me.

- You slept with someone?

- Yeah.

- Behind my back.

Oh my God.

- And I could easily sit here and I can deny it all,

and I can say, "Nah, no, it didn't happen.

"Nothing happened.

"It's all lies."

But you deserve more than that.

I don't remember who it was or where it was.

- You don't remember who it was?

- You can have a listen to me or not.

I don't remember where it was,

and I don't remember who it was.

It was insignificant to my life.

It wasn't premeditated.

I'd never, it wouldn't...

- If you've only cheated on me once,

like you're saying you've only cheated on me once,

it can't be that insignificant

that you can't remember who it was and where it was.

Please don't embarrass me by saying that.

You must remember at least who it was and when.

- You can either listen to me or you can't.

- I wanna know all the details.

- If I could tell you the details, I would.

I went out, got drunk.

I don't remember even what she looks like.

I don't remember what happened.

I just know it happened, and I honestly respect you so much

that I don't, I'm not gonna-

- Yeah, clearly.

I can't even look at you.

I can't even get my head around this.

I don't believe that you don't remember it,

and I don't know,

I absolutely don't believe that that was the only time.

- Can you just listen to me?

I could sit here and I could be a prick,

and I could say "No, it didn't happen.

"Why are you listening to them?"

- Why would Mario say those things?

- It doesn't matter what Mario's implying.

I don't care.

I could give a fuck.

- Why did you do that?

You really made me think I could trust you.

- But you can trust me.

- What's different then to now?

- What do you mean, "What's different then to now?"

We was a few weeks into our relationship.

I didn't know what was gonna happen between us,

and I fucked up, and I didn't...

- Didn't know you told me that you loved me.

- No, listen.

- But Jess don't be stupid.

Don't be so naive. - And you wanted to marry me.

- No, don't be so naive to think anyone

three weeks into a relationship could promise all that.

- Three weeks, or was it three weeks?

- Three or four weeks.

It was right at the start.

I can't put a date on it.

Stop treating me like that.

Just give me the respect that I'm trying to give to you,

because what I've done - What do you expect?

is made a mistake. - Congratulated?

- No, I don't want you to congratulate me.

I'm not sitting here, and I'm not lying,

and I'm not hiding anything.

I suppose I was being young,

and I was being a boy,

and I was thinking,

"Oh, this will never last." [mumbles]

And I fucked up.

I know how much I love you,

and how much I care for you,

and how much I respect you.

I know that we're gonna get married,

and I know that we're gonna have a family together.

I know all that, and I didn't know that then,

and I fucking made a big, big error,

but those errors are there.

I'm not someone that doesn't learn

from their mistakes.

- You know, at times we've had this conversation

about cheating, and you say, "I don't believe in cheating,"

and you would never cheat, and you did.

- I don't believe in-

- And you slept with someone, and then came home,

and probably slept with me.

- Jess, just listen to me.

Just because I've done that doesn't mean I'm a cheater.

[Jess sighs]

- Please don't cry.

Please.

Please don't cry.

Please, Jess, don't cry.

Please.

Yes, I made a mistake.

I made a mistake in the first few weeks.

- You made a mistake, but...

- Come here, come here.

Come here.

- All these questions in my head.

I don't know.

- But I'm ready to answer them.

This is what-

- How many people.

Are you just telling me this once because you've been

caught out, or...

- No, I'm not telling you this once because I'm caught out.

I could have left it.

I could have went, "Look, Mario's just saying that."

You've gotta believe me, all right?

♪ Won't be long

♪ The only way is up

♪ Baby

♪ For you and me now

♪ The only way is up

♪ Baby

♪ For you and me now

♪ The only way is up

♪ Baby

♪ For you and me now.

♪ Ooh