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the tans you see might be fake,

but the people are all real, although some of what they do

has been created for your entertainment.

- Whoa!

- [Narrator] Previously, on The Only Way Is Essex,

- Nice.

- Mario'll come back on his own with that girl.

- I still love him.

- Dan actually spoke to Mario.

- And this whole thing is tearing everyone apart.

- This time, I'm honest, and I've done nothing wrong.

- I took a pregnancy test.

It's not positive.

- Me and you, we'll always have that chemistry,

because we were married in a past life.

- Still like your light, but it kills me.

I would have liked to have had a kid.

[dramatic music]

[intense upbeat music]

[intense upbeat music]

- I think everyone always has that one person

in their life that you always sort of go back to,

and I believe it's such a comfort.

- Yeah, someone else said this.

It's like going back to what you know, isn't it?

- I can't see Kirk being that comforting.

- It's all down to timing, isn't it?

If it was a few years ago, I would've wanted it,

but now, I don't know.

It's weird, 'cause it's someone that was

important to me at one point.

That's why I think it's weird.

- You think that's sort of it for you and Kirk now?

- I don't know.

- [Billi] There never seems to be a final-

- I know, that's the thing.

For some reason there's always something that,

I don't know, brings feelings back.

- You need to get the new one guy

that you're always gonna think about,

and the new guy that actually deserves you.

- The thing is, we don't need one,

and we need like three.

- [Chloe] Let's go out.

- We need three.

Yeah, we do.

- I think we should go to Luxe.

Darrell's hosting an even there,

but it should be quite good.

- [Chloe] Oh, yeah.

- We're having a girl's night out.

- [Chloe] Yeah. - [Lauren] Yeah.

- Haven't been out in ages.

- He does play tunes as well.

- [Chloe] Yeah.

[exciting upbeat music]

- You won't believe what Mario's done now.

He's only got some girl who was in the club

that night when it all happened

to come down to Essex to speak to Lucy

to back his story up.

- Really?

Well, no offence, it could be anyone, surely.

That could be anyone.

It's like he's massively trying to prove a point.

Bringing someone down to confirm his story

just makes him look more desperate.

- Exactly.

- Like Lucy said at mine, anyway,

I haven't even really heard from her a lot.

Since the day she left, I haven't heard anything,

so it's a bit...

When I texted the other day, saying,

"Could I have my keys back,"

because she hadn't text or anything,

I thought it was a bit strange.

- You know, the only danger of all this now,

what's gonna happen is, if it ever happens again,

no one's gonna really be there for her.

- Yeah, it's just a shame, really,

because people starting to lose respect, you know.

- So, you gonna come to Darrell's

Essex Shake Night, tonight?

- I'm not.

I'm gonna stay in tonight with Joey,

only because of the shop recently.

I've been busy.

We haven't had a night in together for ages.

[exciting upbeat music]

- I want Ducks.

- What, on the actual sign?

- Yeah.

The shop's called Fusey,

but I want to do a yellow duck somewhere.

Maybe we could do a graffiti that one in the shop.

- I'll get some colours, yeah?

- All right, cool. - Thank you very much.

- No worries.

- Cheers.

- So, ducks ain't yellow.

They first are yellow,

then they turn into other colours.

- So, you like baby ducks?

- Baby ducks is cute, in't they?

[laughs]

- You know that the duck's feet are waterproof?

These are called Duck Shoes.

- They're not waterproof.

- These are waterproof.

If you put water-

- Their feathers are waterproof, not their feet.

- Yeah, of course they are.

They're plastic.

Their feet are made out of...

[Kirk laughs]

They're not plastic, but like that material.

- [laughs] They haven't got material.

- No, but you know it's not skin, is it?

It's not skin.

- It is. - It ain't.

It's like rubber.

These are waterproof, these trainers.

- They're waterproof?

- I put tomato sauce on it and it won't go anywhere.

I swear on my life.

[Kirk laughs]

I swear on my life.

- Well let's get some sauce, then, and we'll do it.

You out tonight brother?

- No, I'm staying in tonight.

I'm gonna stay in with Sam and get Chinese take-away.

Everyone's going out tonight,

but we're not going out.

- So, yeah, me too.

I'm staying in.

- We're just having a cosy night in, mate.

- That's why I want a girlfriend,

'cause I wanna sit with my girlfriend every night,

chill in my house.

- That's nice.

That's what I do.

If Lauren was sleeping 'round your house every night,

you wake in the morning,

have your breakfast with each other,

have your dinners, going out at night time,

going to the cinema, you'd like that yeah?

- Yeah, but again-

- You just summed it up to me.

- I'm not sure if I'm feeling like this again

'cause of the pregnancy thing,

'cause that made my emotions proper come up,

do you know what I mean?

- It's brilliant that we're all back,

and that we're up for the next session of weight loss.

Today's activity is gonna be Aqua Zumba.

You know it's lovely that Charlie's lent us his pool.

How sweet is that of him?

- [Arg] Awww.

Oh, Charlie!

[laughs]

- I am a little bit disappointed

with the turn-out of the class.

How have you found your eating this week, Arg?

- [Arg] Um, I did have a kebab this week.

- Well, me and Billie are gonna admit it as well.

We also had a kebab this week.

- But yeah, but Gem, we had grilled chicken, salad and rice.

That's quite healthy.

- We had shish kebabs,

because we've now realised you can have a little bit

of this and that, but just a little bit.

- [Billie] Yeah.

- I think Gemma's got one more confession to make.

Me and Gemma had a big fry up today.

[laughs]

- Right, well...

- [Billie] Gemma!

- We also added black pudding and fried slice to it.

- No.

You added black pudding and fried slice.

In fact, James, I'd like you to come first.

[hands clap]

- Do you remember what I was last week?

- Yeah, I do.

- Well done.

You've lost two pound, James.

- I actually have.

Fucking yes!

Fucking go to diet club.

[exciting upbeat music]

- Ooh, so cute.

Look at the jacket. - Well you know

that I don't like dressing dogs up.

- But she actually gets really cold.

She shivers.

She's shivering now. - I know she's shivering.

She's scared that you're gonna buy her that jacket.

- Is it okay if you give her a little bit of a jijap,

and put that on her.

- That's fine.

Yeah, no worries. - Thank you very much.

- She shouldn't do that to you.

See, it's gonna be really weird, isn't it,

walking around a club with glasses on.

- I've been in a club with glasses.

- Well, I only wear glasses in bed.

You know that, hardly ever.

- What we gonna do?

We're gonna be two four-eyed geeks in the party,

like, "Hi, we're here!"

- I think we're gonna have to glam it up sort of thing.

- The dog's ready for you.

- Ohhh, how cute.

Look at you, so beautiful!

They are the best two looking dogs in Essex.

That is without doubt.

- I will give you that,

but she does look silly in a coat and bow.

[Ricky and Jess laugh]

[exciting upbeat music]

- [Instructor] Ready guys?

Let's go!

Let's move it!

One!

That's it, and turn!

That's it, really push it out!

And pump, come on guys!

Pump!

And Turn!

That's it, really push it out.

Now move it.

Move it, move it, move it.

Let's move them girls, and shake 'em.

[James laughs]

Now we come down, and pump, and pump.

That was fun, huh?

Brilliant, guys.

You've done really well.

Thank you.

- [All] Thank you.

- Well done, Linda.

- Hey.

[water sloshes]

[laughs]

[Gemma screams]

[water splashes]

- [laughs] Your boob!

- [James] Oh.

[Gemma screams]

[water splashes]

[exciting upbeat music]

- I've got three people telling me one thing,

and telling me another thing,

and most of them weren't even there.

So, I'm like, "What am I supposed to believe?"

So you were there.

- Well, yeah.

Me and my friend Abi were working on the night,

along with Amy and Sally,

and we were all dressed in the same dresses,

we were a bit excessive. - So Amy and Sally work there?

- Yeah, they were working that particular night,

first time we've ever met them.

Mario was there with his friends,

and he was literally sat in the same seat all night,

just with a group of lads.

She was fighting past people to sit next to him,

and he didn't look to happy about it.

He was getting a bit pissed off.

She would not leave him alone.

But, no, he was just literally...

He kept himself to himself.

He wasn't up dancing.

He wasn't doing anything like that.

- That sounds like Mario,

and Mario does that, when

we spend out nights. - [Lucy] He was sitting

up there.

I didn't even see him drink loads.

He was just sat there, keeping himself to self.

He wasn't holding any girls hands that night.

He didn't even have his arm on a girl.

- He doesn't walk 'round a club holding my hand,

let alone another girl's hand in a club

that's got 500 people in it.

- Exactly.

- Do you know Mario's friend, Ben?

- I don't know Ben.

No, I don't recall seeing Ben there.

- See, Ben said to me that he was there that night,

but he left early with the boys,

and then Mario turned up with Amy.

- No, I didn't meet anyone at all called Ben,

and, like I said, all I saw was Mario leave

with a couple of guys.

I don't know if he left with someone called Ben.

[Maz sighs]

- Oh, my gosh.

- Yeah, we were...

- Thank you so much.

- [Lucy] It's all right.

It's all right.

- It's like a relief that finally

his name's cleared at last.

- Yeah.

[exciting upbeat music]

- It's sort of like watching a playg'round argument.

You ain't gonna talk to Mario.

- No, I'm never gonna speak to him again.

- Right, and I'm on the neutral side.

It doesn't matter, even if Ben was wrong.

- He ain't wrong.

- [Ricky] Yeah, but I'm not-

- He's not wrong, 100%.

Rick, 100% he's not wrong.

- I'm not saying he's wrong.

I'm saying even if he was wrong, you're brothers.

You stick by each other.

So, whether you're best friends with Mario or not.

- He's not my best friend.

- Yeah, he was.

- He's even calling me a cheat.

The only reason why he's doing it, mate,

is to make more rumours so it goes away from him,

when really, the heat has got to stay on him.

- Aw, it's not gonna be one of them wars, is it?

- [Chris] I don't know, mate, but that's what I mean.

Why is he coming out?

- It's painful to watch.

- There's nothing that Ben can gain from this.

There's nothing that I can gain,

and I've covered so much for him.

That's what infuriates me.

- Yeah, but don't get upset about it.

- But it infuriates me.

Literally, this means, for me, closing a chapter.

Mario and me have had a brilliant friendship for 15 years.

But the thing is, I can't let people in Essex

think my brother's a grass, a liar,

'cause they're two things that the geezer ain't.

I'm not lying anymore.

[exciting upbeat music]

- Don't you find when you come out

of the swimming pool you're always starving hungry?

- Yeah, and always...

- Why is that?

- [Gemma] I always wanna eat chips-

- Why?

I'm always starving.

- You all right?

- Hello.

- I'm just gonna get a drink.

- Yeah, um...

- Just go and say hello.

I don't want an atmosphere.

- Bob, you all right?

- [Bob] All right, thanks.

- I am upset that we had a little fall-out,

and I wouldn't want to upset you for the world,

and I didn't mean it to offend you.

So, do you wanna make up?

- I'd love to make up, but honestly,

I feel that there was a couple of things in particular

that you was just digging me out a little bit

over and over again with.

- Bobby, I would never dig you out.

If I come up to you, and I said "Bobby,

"I'm going out to buy a Diamonte, size ten bikini,"

you would say to me, "You're not quite there, yet, Gemma."

Now, I could go and say, "Oh, I'm offended, I'm offended,"

but it's 'cause you hit a nerve.

- But I just think maybe there was a way of

maybe wording it slightly different.

- Sometimes the truth hurts,

and the truth hits raw nerves.

I would love to see you go,

"Oh, I've met the man of my dreams,

"and I've got a nice ring, and..."

Let us have the little fairy-tale for you, you know?

Are you gonna still go for the surrogacy appointments?

- I think so.

I think I'm gonna go speak to them.

- I don't necessarily think I'd be

the right person to come with you,

not because I don't want to be there to support you.

- I've been talking to Charlie about it a lot.

- Are you?

Okay.

- So, I think he might come with me.

- Brilliant.

I think he's the best person to go with you, Bob, because

he's quite gentle and stuff.

- He's so sensitive and gentle with things like that, I see.

Not that you're not.

- Bit exciting.

Little bit nerve-wracking, 'cause this is the first time

I'm gonna find out all the info,

and, I think, pick an egg.

[exciting upbeat music]

- Night care assistant.

They're gonna be asleep.

What can really go wrong?

- Yeah, but these jobs ain't really careers, are they?

I wanna go out there.

I want be at a job, like explore the world.

I wanna-

- You're dreaming so big.

- No, I'm not.

- You are.

- Dreams big, big dreams.

Do you know what I mean?

- What does that even mean?

Dreams big, big dreams.

- The bigger the dream, the more success you have.

When I had the cheese dream, yeah?

I know I keep going on about it,

and I know you don't care about it

and you think it's all rubbish,

but it was saying something about hope,

and it felt to me, it was like,

what if I come out one day,

and I'm Mr. fucking Cheese?

- Listen.

- I'm Mr. Cheese.

- No, you're not Mr. Cheese.

You've got cheesy breath and cheesy teeth,

but you're not Mr. Cheese.

- Ouch.

- I'm sorry, the truth hurts, mate,

and you need someone to help you out.

What do you like doing?

You like sitting down for most of the day, right?

- Yeah.

- Right?

Why not be a lifeguard?

- Who's gonna trust me with their life?

- Sitting in a high chair, watching over.

- I'm not in shape to be a life guard.

It's embarrassing.

- You went to uni, mate.

You started a law degree.

You could've been a lawyer.

Yeah, you didn't finish it. - Well, look where that went.

Straight on the pan.

It was all like a big downward spiral

where I just went blahhh.

And now, look at me.

- You know what we need to do about you?

We need to get you a whole new regime.

When you're up early, and you're doing something,

and you're losing weight,

and you've got new clothes on,

and you feel fresh, and you're mind's gonna be fresh,

you're gonna be able to get a job, trust me.

It works.

- I was a bit pissed off with Arg.

I thought he was going take me to a really nice restaurant

up London or something, and then he was like,

"Oh, sorry Jas, I'm double booked.

"We're going to Sam's."

I felt really uncomfortable,

because Jess was going,

"Oh, Gemma and Arg, you know you really fancy each other,

and you've got loads of chemistry."

The thing is with Gemma, I think she still

really likes Arg.

- Do ya?

- Yeah, but I think that Arg don't feel the same.

Oh, my God, he demolished the desire.

- Imagine going to a buffet with him,

or a buffet, whatever it's called.

How embarrassing.

He'd be going up like 100 times.

- [laughs] How funny.

- [Mum] Hi guys.

- You all right, Mum?

- Yeah.

- Danny's got an interview for a modelling agency.

- Really?

- Yeah, but I haven't really decided

what I'm gonna wear.

Now, what'd you think?

- He's not wearing that, tell me.

- No, get something how I usually dress you up.

Try the grey one.

- Yeah, I think that'll look really nice.

- I think you should wear that with maybe a flowery shirt.

- You gotta look a bit posh as well,

'cause moment you go for models,

they're like posh boys.

- Yeah, but the thing is, though, I want to be different.

- You need to pump out your body, as well.

- Can you stop saying that, please,

'cause it's not true. - [Mum] But you do.

- Do you think it'll make a difference

if I have a protein shake before I go?

- Not one protein shake,

because normally you have to have it for a few months,

and then actually go to the gym at the same time,

and then you get built up.

That's what they say at the gym, anyway.

- I'm just gonna have a large one then.

[intense bouncy music]

- Arg. - Hey.

- How are you? - How you doing, mate?

- Diags, how are you, boy?

- Well, this is it.

- It's a building site.

- What do you mean?

It's my brand new two-bedroom, luxury flat.

- What, that's yours?

You've bought this?

- Yes.

I bought it.

I bought it off plan.

- No way.

- I promise you, mate.

- You bought a flat?

- In the heart of Chigwell, Essex.

One of the poshest roads in Essex.

- Oh.

- Big Mark's the project manager.

I've bought it off developers,

and he's doing the project managing for it.

- Once the staircase goes in the next week of so,

we go upstairs, we look at the plans,

and you show me where you-

- I want a really fancy kitchen.

- Certain layouts, yeah?

- I want it to be a proper bachelor pad.

- Well, okay.

Well, then you show me what you want,

and we'll pull together and do it.

- Trick it out to the max.

- Who would have though your singing

could buy a luxury flat like that?

- You always say how crap my singing is.

I haven't done so badly. [laughs]

- Did I hear it was two bedrooms?

- Yeah.

- Two bedrooms, yeah.

- I've got a spare bedroom,

and I was actually gonna make it a walk-in wardrobe,

but then, I thought, you know what,

you're struggling at your flat at the moment,

you're a bit down, and you keep fancying being kicked out,

so I just want to let you know,

when this is built, when I move in,

it's got your name on it.

You'll always be welcome to live there

whenever you want.

- Oh, Jesus.

- [Mark] With 1,000 square feet, Arg,

you'd have room for him.

- And you don't have to pay rent.

- All right.

- Come in.

I'm always gonna be there.

You know that. - Cheers, mate.

- [Mark] That's a proper mate, you got there.

- [Diags] Yeah, good mate.

- Just don't outstay your welcome too much.

[laughs]

[funky upbeat music]

- Okay, cool, I think we've got enough.

Danny, do you want to come over here and have a chat?

- Yeah, of course.

How do you think that went?

- I think you did really well.

Did you feel nervous?

- I was nervous, but I don't think I'm ugly and stuff,

so I think it was all right.

My dream is really to be on a billboard thing.

- Okay.

- Obviously that would be really cool,

driving past and looking at myself.

I think that's a really good thing.

- And what's your situation at the moment?

Are you studying?

- I class myself as retired,

'cause I've not had a job and stuff.

- So, you're out of work at the moment.

- Yeah.

- Okay.

- I think, now, I've just come to a point in my life

where I need to do something constructive, I think.

- He's had that knack, posing, since he was young.

He's very confident, and I just think he's unique.

- [Danny] I've created some of my own poses.

- Okay.

- But, I've learned a certain one called the duck pose,

and it's like this.

It's like,

'cause obviously ducks have lips.

- I know it's tough competition,

and it's long hours.

- [Agent] Yeah, it could be.

- If he enjoys it, I think he'll do well.

- Okay, well, it's good that you're being

very creative with your expressions.

That's very important.

I think, for you, possibly, one of your limitations

will be your height.

- Yeah.

- There is a height restriction for the models,

and that's usually minimum of six foot.

- Six foot?

- Yeah.

- I don't think I'm six foot at the moment,

but I could always pad out my shoes and stuff.

- Or I could give you some high heels.

- Not high heels, Mum.

- [Mum] It's only like three inches, isn't it, more?

- I think that sometimes in life

you have to just accept your limitations.

- Everyone having a good night, yeah?

- [Crowd] Yeah.

- All right, so listen,

thank you all for coming, first of all.

We're all here for a reason tonight,

and what we're gonna do is,

we're gonna make a little bit

of Essex history, tonight, okay?

So, you've all heard of the Harlem Shake, right?

- [Crowd] Yeah.

- All right, so tonight, we're gonna do the Essex Shake.

[crowd cheers]

[bouncy upbeat music]

- Darrell has put on the most amazing night.

- The Harlem Shake, what's Harlem all about?

- It's not Harlem, it's Essex shake, Frank.

Get with it.

- Harlem's New York, isn't it?

- No, it's not.

It's America.

[lively bass music]

- I've got all my moves, Dan.

I'm all organised.

How 'bout you?

- Yeah, I hope you got the booty shake going on.

- What's the booty shake.

- Well, it's when you do that.

Booty shake, booty shake.

[Debbie laughs]

[lively bass music]

- All right, guys, everyone quiet, please.

Thank you.

Got a camera man whose gonna do it all for us.

Here's Harrison.

Right, we're gonna get changed a little bit,

do a little costume,

a few wigs, hats, et-cetera,

and then we can go completely bonkers.

- Okay, listen, when it drops,

we want to go mad, really crazy.

Ready?

All right, let's go.

[lively dance music]

- Three, two, one.

Let's go!

[lively dance music]

[crowd cheers]

[romantic piano music]

- Last time, we had like a boys night out,

but you weren't there.

It was with Mario, on his birthday.

And how much has changed now?

- I'm thinking about taking the next move now,

and actually getting in contact, and...

- What would you like the resolution to be?

- I don't know.

There's issues, obviously, you know.

- Do you want to be friends with Mario, or not?

- It depends if he can change.

Mario might not even wanna talk to me,

or he might wanna listen to me,

and then he might just wanna say,

"Do you know what, Chris, do one."

[dramatic slow music]

- You look beautiful.

- Thank you.

- How've you been.

- It's been horrendous.

- Yeah, I know more than anyone.

- It's just been going 'round and 'round and 'round,

and that's been the hardest out of everything.

- Before this all happened, I said to you,

"I wanna have kids with you.

"I wanna marry you.

"I wanna grow old with you.

"I wanna spend the rest of my life with you."

Even after this, that's still what I wanna do,

whether it be in two years' time,

or if it be in ten years' time,

those things I wanna do.

In the past, I know that I haven't been squeaky clean,

but you have to trust me in the future.

[intense bassy music]

[intense bright music]

- Don't, that tickles.

- Like your feet.

- Don't tickle.

Don't, 'cause I'm really ticklish.

- They're very cheesy.

- Just massage.

- They're very cheesy.

- They're not cheesy, just massage them.

[laughs]

Don't.

With the shop and that it's been hectic isn't it.

- It's so busy, babe, isn't it.

- It's nice to have a night in, just us. [laughs]

- Basically, I love you.

- Mm.

[lips smack]

I love you, too.

- Mm.

- So, what have you been up to, today, then?

Tell me about the, um...

- Nothing, really. - Where've you been?

Oh, getting your sign.

- I chose the colours, and I chose,

obviously I want a duck, black and white.

I want to say yellow, 'cause yellow ducks.

Ducks are only yellow when they're babies, isn't they.

- The chicks.

- Yeah, then why do they change colour?

- Well, it's like, when you were born,

I bet you had bright blonde hair when you was little,

didn't you?

That, sort of, I think.

When you was really little,

I bet you was a rascal.

Do you know what I mean by rascal?

- A bit annoying, but cool.

- No, rascal, as in, just sweet,

like innocent, but naughty.

Do you know what I mean?

- Yeah, so everyone still loved me.

- Well, obviously, you were a little boy.

You were like a baby.

- Obviously.

Let me get these photos out.

- Let's see.

- You've never actually seen these, have you?

- I've only seen a few 'round your dad's.

I've not actually seen many.

- All right, let me show you some.

[Sam laughs]

- That is so cute.

You look like a little monkey.

- Oh.

- No, like a... - Cute monkey?

- Cute one, yeah.

- Oh, I'm surprised that picture's in there.

- Yeah.

[Sam laughs]

- You know what?

If it's just me and you,

I could trust you.

It's everyone else.

It's everyone's opinions.

It's everyone saying their little piece.

I mean, I shouldn't care.

I do.

- They're little idiots.

That's all they are, just little idiots.

- Okay, I'll promise you now,

I'm gonna try my hardest to trust,

but it's something that I don't have in me.

I've been treated like rubbish in the past.

- Then I'll help you trust me.

- You know what hurts me the most

is that Chris has known all along this is rubbish,

and he hasn't even called me to tell me.

- He hasn't text me to see if I'm all right, either.

He's been more worried about his new self-image.

- It's hard because it's his brother,

and blood's thicker than water.

We all know that.

- But, I'm not water with Chris.

- But, you've been like a brother to him,

and I've never done anything against him,

and he's sat there and watched me be so hurt,

and he hasn't done anything about it,

and I'll never forgive him,

and I know you never will.

[restaurant patrons chatter]

- So, does this mean that we are, in fact,

boyfriend and girlfriend again?

- Yeah.

- Yeah?

Are you sure?

[Lucy laughs]

- How much do you love me?

- This much.

- How much do you love me?

How much do you love me.

- To the moon and back.

[lips smacking]

- My feet are killing.

- [Bobby] Take your shoes off.

No one cares here.

- I can't take my shoes off.

I can't do that.

- Why?

Why?

- 'Cause I've got the most disgusting feet ever.

- They are disgusting.

- All right, Chloe, that's a bit heavy.

- You said they was disgusting,

and I'm just agreed, "They are disgusting."

Get them out and show Bobby.

Frank, you might as well face it, they're bad.

They're clawing out over the top of your shoe.

[Bobby laughs]

- [Frankie] Bobby, it's not funny.

- They're doing this at the front of your shoe, claws.

- Oh, my God.

Bobby, it's not funny.

This is my foot life.

- Have you ever given a guy a toe job?

- What's that?

- Where you suck his big toe?

- No.

- No, I ain't.

Oh, my God, people suck 'em, rub baby oil in 'em.

I mean, it's enough to make you vomit.

- I've never done that to extreme.

I'm not much of a sucker.

- Oh, you're not?

- I think I just need a toe job.

[Bobby laughs]

Do you seriously want a baby?

- I seriously wanna be a dad.

- I was twenty-five years old,

and I don't know what ChloE's been through,

but as a single mom, and obviously, my mum died

when I was a little girl.

It's hard.

It's hard to even lead that life, being the child.

So, seriously think about it.

It's hard.

- You're mum would be so proud of the three of you,

you, Joey and Chlo.

- Joey was so young, weren't he,

that we kind of stuck together,

and Joey stayed at his dad's.

- If the conversation ever comes up about my mum,

he goes quiet, and he just goes a bit shy.

- 'Cause that probably just is his coping mechanism,

isn't it?

- He was really, really close to his mum.

He was a mummy's boy. - Yeah, he was.

- [Sam] You haven't actually changed one bit, have you?

- I look real weird, don't I?

I look cute there, don't I?

- Yeah.

See that one there?

You sleeping.

Aww.

You're mum's so pretty, isn't she?

Don't get upset.

Do you not like looking at her?

[Joey sniffles]

- It's just hard isn't it.

- I can't even imagine, to be honest, but

you and Frankie are so lovely.

Do you know what I mean?

Some people so don't handle it as well as what you do,

and if you look at that, then you had a lovely upbringing.

Look, everyone's smiling.

Do you know what I mean?

It's gonna be a hard time, though,

'cause it was your mum's birthday, wasn't it?

- Yeah.

Yesterday.

[Joey sniffles]

[lips smack]

[Joey sobs]

[lips smack]

- Don't cry.

[Joey sniffles]

- I wish I had a mum.

- Come on,

I know it's a hard time. - Every time

I think about it, or anything...

- But you was at such a sensitive age

when you lost your mum.

Do you know what I mean?

Frankie's a bit older than you,

and she deals a bit different to you.

You like to keep it in,

but it's good that you're crying.

It's nice.

- You're right.

- It's not a bad thing, yeah?

- Yeah, you know, Mother's Day's coming up.

I'm gonna go up and see my mum in that cemetery.

Do you want to come with me?

- Yeah, I'd love to.

- You wanna come?

- Mm-hmm.

I've never been.

You've never taken me.

- I used to go there by myself.

I sometimes go with my dad.

- Yeah.

Well, let me come.

I'd love to come.

You hold it in a lot.

You never talk to me about your mum, ever.

- I don't like talking about it.

- I know you don't, but sometimes it might help,

every now then talking about it.

[lips smack]

- It's so hard, isn't it?

It's so hard.

You don't understand.

It's so hard.

[Joey sniffles]

I miss her.

[Joey sobs]