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# Only, only, only, only, only

# The only way is up, baby

# For you and me now

# Ooh, ooh, oooooh. #

MUSIC: 'SPACE!" by Ivory Layne

# Honey, I can't hold no space For that

# Got to find another place to crash

# Honey, I can't hold no space For that... #

Hi. Can I have three small Cokes, please? Thank you.

Please don't sting me, cos I will swell up,

but you're quite cute. THEY GASP

Girlies!

Freddie! We're fighting with the wasps, Fred. Look!

Oh, my God, look, he's having a drink.

He's actually a thirsty little boy!

I've got us a Coke. Be careful.

Oh, my God! Honestly...

Oh, don't worry about them. They're not gonna hurt you.

No, I'm allergic, so I will swell. Really?

I'm being deadly serious. She does swell.

I'll swell up. Oh, no!

# Whoo! Good luck finding somebody else

# Honey, I can't hold no space For that

# Got to find another place To crash... #

If you'd like to place your eye mask on top of your eyes.

We're just gonna take a moment now

to just start sinking into relaxation.

GONG SOUNDS

And just start feeling your entire being relaxed now,

from your head all the way down to your toes.

And just feeling a sense of wellbeing and balance.

SOFT RINGING

RAINSTICK TRICKLES

Cheers to sober Freddie!

Three years sober, girlies! Three years!

I'm so proud of you. Thank you. I'm proud of myself.

I can't believe I made it this far. Has it gone quick,

or has it been, like, a slow three years?

The first year was the most difficult. Mm.

Only because I feel like you grieve the old life that you had.

Yeah. Do you know what I mean?

It's adapting, ain't it?

You was used to drinking and partying, and then it tamed.

I put the Y in "party". To be fair, you did.

Do you know what I mean? That's when I met Fred.

Yeah, I was an animal. Yeah.

See, I've only ever known you sober. I know!

I couldn't imagine you drinking. Like, I couldn't.

Fred is exactly the same. Really?

Yeah. Just more rowdy.

Yeah. No, I feel like you're a bit more composed.

Oh, really? Yeah, cos you remember things.

Yeah. You're a bit quicker with things.

Do you know what I mean? Yeah, yeah.

Like, being sober is the best thing I ever did. Yeah.

Tell me about how the conversation went with you and Courtney.

Oh, yeah. So, obviously, at Saff's nan's thing the other day,

I did see her so I thought, let's just address the NFI party,

clear it up.

It come to a conclusion that I was sorry,

there was no malice behind it.

I done it to be a good friend to Saffron,

and that was the bottom line, really. Yeah.

We're finally getting somewhere.

People are clearing the air. You and Courtney...

I spoke to Courtney, and she said

she wants to bring Chloe and Saffron together,

so I think they're doing something together.

I feel like, once they are face to face,

I do feel like it will be squished.

I do. I do. Listen, neither of them wanted the argument

to go to the extent that it went to.

That is the bottom line, I know for a fact.

I feel like I caused all this carnage.

Saffron's picked up the pieces a little bit. She has.

She's got the slack for majority of you.

Yeah, yeah. I've walked away scot-free.

Yeah, you have. You and Harry made up, and everyone else...

Everyone else was falling apart. Yeah, you threw in the grenade,

and it blew up, and then youse walked away from it.

Oh, yeah, with not a bit of dust on me. No, no.

JOE: Hey, hey! ELLA: Woohoo!

JUNAID: Hi! Oh, hi!

Freddie Bentley! Hi!

Congratulations! Thank you!

Mwah. You OK?

Go on, it's... Argh! No, he's... he's drowning in there.

SCREAMING, BUZZING

No, don't! They're everywhere.

This is a huge thing for you.

Three years. I know.

Can't believe it. How do you feel?

That's such a milestone, Fred. Sober!

THEY LAUGH Sober and free.

You've got such a larger-than-life personality, Fred,

you don't need it.

You are just you, and three years of being you is huge.

So, congratulations!

Yay! Thank you for all coming. You're welcome.

I'm gonna get a drink.

Do you wanna get a drink? Yeah, yeah.

Oh, lovely. Yeah, do you want one?

Yeah, go on, I'll have another Coke.

How is everyone? JUNAID AND JOE: Good.

We're so proud of you, Fred. I actually can't believe it.

Three years is such a long time. What's 365 days times by three?

Three, six, nine... Go on.

Old bank manager over there. It's, like, a thousand something.

It is, 1,060 days.

1,060 days. Sounds like a film.

1,060 Days Of Freddie Bentley.

Oh, don't... I'll be switching that off.

Yeah. THEY LAUGH

It would drive you... It would drive you potty!

THEY LAUGH

Anyway, it's my birthday week.

Oi, oi! Whoo!

Birthday girl! Whee! So I'm throwing a tea party.

Lovely! Who's going? Oh!

Everybody. Everybody?

Everybody is invited.

Ella... Whether everybody will come or not, I don't know.

Inviting the whole group is a recipe of disaster.

That's gonna be carnage. What could possibly go wrong (?)

# You got my number But you never call

# I say I don't want it Cos we don't get along

# How do I love it... #

It's gonna take a moment just to start connecting

back into our physical body.

# Cos baby, we don't get along. #

COURTNEY: That was amazing. SAFFRON: It was needed.

What did she say about, like, what she felt?

She said I'm a worrier. "I don't know how you're walking around.

"You're a worrier." Oh, did she?

She said I was away with the fairies.

You're joking! That is you. In your own Courtney world.

She said, "I've grounded you."

Oh, really? Yeah.

A little Courtney fairy.

What did she say about you?

She said I'm living in the past and get things off my chest. OK.

Come on, then, let's chat.

Yeah, let's get it off. THEY LAUGH

Look, Chlo, obviously, I am sorry that I upset you at the time. Yeah.

Everyone has give me a very thorough check on my delivery.

I mean, listen, at the time, Chlo, I called you out for something.

Yes, my delivery may have been off, and I can own that and say sorry.

My delivery is different to you.

We are so different as people, but yet...

we get on as peo... we do get on.

Yeah, we've always just got each other. Always. Yeah.

But the last thing I want is our friendship being on eggshells.

I am a passionate person, I am quite brash,

I am quite loud.

And if I can't be accepted as me

then I know that's not a personal thing.

That's just that some people can't handle certain people

and their approach.

Listen, I accept you, and I accept the way you are

but, like, I, for a few weeks after,

was really in my head and was really quite upset.

I want my friends to call me out on my shit

and tell me if they think that I behaved wrong

or did something wrong or could have done something better.

I want my friends to do that, so I appreciate you.

If you thought in that situation

with Harry and Freddie that I said something wrong

or behaved badly or something, I want you to tell me that.

Yeah, I just think that the delivery was wrong.

You could have just pulled me aside and been like, "Come on, Chlo."

Do you know what I mean? I want that from you

cos I appreciate that, and I respect your opinion.

But I do think...

I mean, listen, I'm no angel. Like, I'm absolutely no angel.

I've maybe said things

like I didn't wanna be your friend in the beginning,

acting off emotion.

It was more of an impulse thing.

Like, I am sorry for saying those things, and I am sorry

if I made you feel any certain way.

I would never want you to feel like that, I really wouldn't.

I thought I was doing the right thing

by just not having the conversation.

I didn't want it to get worse, and I didn't know how I felt. Yeah.

So I was just like, "I don't know." I wanted to get to where I am now,

which is... Yeah. Calm.

..calm and fine.

Like, you know... I know you're a good person.

I know you're not a bad person. I was just... upset,

and you were upset as well, so I just think... Yeah.

I don't know.

I'm happy that we can move forward. Yeah.

The healing worked.

Yeah. Oh, yeah. CHLOE LAUGHS

I missed you at Courtney's birthday.

It was weird you not being there, to be honest.

I know! You would've loved it.

Oh, I would have loved the Court Fest. Yeah.

# Who made you so flawless? I just wish you could see

# The way That you question perfection

# It's crazy to me, oh-oh, ooh

# Mirror, mirror on the wall... #

Danielle!

Have you heard?

Are you talking about the Dan thing? Mm, mm.

How do you feel about it? ELLA INHALES

Shocked. Pfft.

Well, I didn't think it would be that quick.

Ugh, I dunno. Have you spoke to him?

You have spoke to him. THEY LAUGH

You've sent him abuse, haven't you, Ella? Mm.

It's hard. Yeah, but the thing is...

I can't not! I don't blame you.

To see your ex with someone else... It's still quite fresh.

You haven't really seen him with another girl.

Like, you are gonna be hurting over it.

I would be as well. It is normal. I just think, like...

Everything that you've been saying to me and all the lovely things

and telling me that you still have so much love for me,

and if it could be what he wants it to be, then we'd be together and...

It's sad when he's putting it like that, as well.

Like, you've moved... on, so... You're seeing someone.

Do you feel like youse are gonna have a friendship now

off the back of this, or do you just feel anger about it? No.

There won't be no friendship, cos if you were gonna move on,

then you should have just let it be what it was

from when we left each other in Portugal. Yeah.

Like, asking Elma to move seats on the plane

so I can go and sit with him. Yeah, it's all the little...

There's just loads of things that I'm now questioning in my head.

Like... Did you genuinely mean them things,

or is it just because you wanted me to hear them from you

to make you look like this really nice person? Yeah.

Hopefully, youse can be OK and it not be awkward.

But if you're saying youse have already had a row...

Don't get me wrong, I'm not just, like, a cold-hearted person,

where I'm just gonna fly off the handle

and give him a load of abuse.

Like, I did cry. And then I think to myself, like...

If you can move on that quick and you can give someone else

something that you couldn't give me, then what was wrong with me?

I think you gotta remember he gives everyone the same thing,

and that is just not enough. TEARFULLY: Yeah.

And I don't want you being upset about it either.

I knew you was gonna be, like, actually upset about it, Ella.

ELLA CRIES

But you've... I think you've gotta remember

that he's not gonna be right for you, and he never was.

I hate seeing you cry.

I don't even wanna cry, because he's not worth my tears.

I've cried too much. No, but it's OK to be upset.

You've just found out that your ex is with someone else.

Everyone would be in bits. We're girls. It's not nice.

And it weren't like I left him

because I wanted to leave him cos I didn't wanna be with him.

I left him cos I wanted to feel something. Yeah.

A bit of want from him, and I never had that,

and now you're wanting someone else.

# Is she younger and hotter Than me?

# Is it all in my head?

# Should have moved on instead. #

# The only way is up. #

# We say, we say, hey now

# Say, say, hey now

# We come together

# Generation love

# Life so good That you wanna feel it

# So we drink it up In the morning sun... #

Hello! Hello.

Mum! Bear, look!

That's James's mummy! Hello!

Hey. You all right, darling?

How are you? All good, thank you.

You look lovely. Thank you.

Mum, Julie. Julie, Mum. Hiya.

You know me already.

Oh, sorry. You OK? You all right? Nice to meet you.

Right, how many animals do you want to see today, Bear? All of them.

All of them. And which is gonna be your most favourite to see?

The elephants. The elephants.

Elephants! LAUGHTER

Hello, everyone. How we doing, mate?

I'm Dom, I'm one of our rangers. Shall we go for a safari?

Yeah! Let's get going, then.

Let's do it. Come and get on board.

Dom likes me. You think he likes you?

Hello.

So, this is a male black rhino on the left side.

His mum is the one that's on the right side over here.

Do the mum rhino and the son rhino get on?

For a black rhino, they generally want to live on their own.

They're quite grumpy. That would be natural in the wild.

Like you, Mum. Thank you.

LAUGHTER

Comparing me to a black rhino, but, yeah, true.

LAUGHTER

DIAGS: Bye, rhino. See you later, alligator!

Good to see you, rhino, bye!

So, our camel girls have come over to say hello.

You all right, ladies?

CAMEL GRUNTS JODIE: Ah!

Hi. Hello!

So, these are our three girls.

They're called Gucci, Hermione and Tuli. Hi.

Aw! So, as you can see, they're very friendly.

Aw. I don't know what you've got in there.

I want one! What's she doing?

GRUNTS

Oh, my God, look at the giraffes!

This is Luna.

Oh, the giraffe's coming over to see us.

Do you want to hold with me? Hold it with me. Hold it.

Hold it with me, and we'll hold on tight.

You can feel how strong he is.

Wow!

Luna, over here.

Is he coming, Bear? Oh!

Bye. Right, she really is, when she's done, she's done.

BEAR: Bah! Yeah.

That's it. Bah! Fair play to her.

I wanna see the tigers!

THEY CHANT: Tigers, tigers. Tigers, tigers.

Lion. A lion?

Oh, yeah. Rarr!

Rarr! Elephant.

Two lions.

Well, this is lovely, guys. It is.

This is two lions. Two lions?

Cheers to a lovely morning, guys.

Yeah, cheers. Oh, let me cheers me.

Cheers.

Lovely to meet you, Deborah, today.

Mm. The first time mums meet.

Mm. Yeah, it is.

It's been good, though. Lovely.

And what a nice way to meet.

I know, on a safari. We've done something really fun.

You know what, it's the first time mums meet here,

and it's the first time I met Bear, I brought him here.

Mm. Oh, crikey.

It's a good meeting place to meet people for the first time.

Cos that clearly worked out. So, yeah.

Yeah, we'll do this again. We'll do it again, yeah.

Maybe this is a special place where you could propose in the future.

JODIE LAUGHS

Oh, yes. You've ruined it, I was just about to do it.

LAUGHTER You've ruined it now.

Mummy, can I do a little zoo over there?

Of course you can. Yeah.

You do a little zoo, Bear.

You can do a little zoo, that's fine. Mm.

So, what was our favourite animals in there?

We know Bear's was the rhino.

I did like the rhino, I liked the rhinos.

I liked the giraffes. The giraffes were amazing. Yeah.

And I liked it when the camels came up to the...

Yeah. I found them a little scary, actually.

Did you? Well, they was looking, yeah,

cos they was kind of looking like they was gonna spit in your eye,

and I was thinking, oh, please don't do that.

Do camels spit? Or is that a llama? No, llamas. And camels.

I think camels can. Can they?

Yeah. It was great to see that, though. Yeah.

In a way. Yeah, it was cool.

We'll have to do this again.

Mm. We will.

We were saying, didn't we, that we need to now make this

more of a regular thing.

A regular thing. Yeah.

We know we've been neglecting our mums in a sense, we have. You have.

We've been neglecting our mums and doing the meeting up together.

It feels... We should have done more in the last two years, yeah.

I've made you feel this.

We have been a little bit selfish. Yeah.

To be fair, I see Jodie all the time, but not you so much.

Exactly, yeah. So we need to change that.

I can't even say I see you all the time.

No, I know, Mum, but this is not about that right now, so...

# I'm a Elastigirl Try it on me, I'm flexible

# Wrap my body Right round your world

# La, la, la, la, la, la I'm a, I'm a Elastigirl... #

Inhale towards the bars.

Ooh, cha!

HARRY: Ooh, cha! Ooh! Ooh! LAUGHTER

Oh, yeah, I love this, actually.

Oh-hoo! It's like the relaxing bit.

This is everyone's favourite.

I don't think I'm doing this right.

You are. You're doing amazing.

# Wrap my body Right round your world

# I'm a, I'm a Elastigirl. #

I was crying, seeing your legs in them loops.

I've never seen legs so long in the air!

Touching the ceiling.

I've not had my legs up like that for a long time.

Maybe come here more so you can get 'em up more often.

I'm gonna need to. Yeah.

In case I meet someone.

I feel like this is the perfect way to keep a fella.

What, going to Pilates? Yeah, it just makes you extra flexible.

It does. Extra. You can just do it all.

That's where I've gone wrong. LAUGHTER

"Whoo!"

What have youse been up to? I feel like I've not seen you.

Have you got any gossip? On the way here, I bumped into Courtney.

She just said that she's just come from a sound bath...

They had healing baths, didn't they? ..this morning

with Chloe and Saffron, and...

What, Courtney, Chloe and S...? Yeah.

Stop. Yeah, so...

How did it go?

How did it go? She said... I think sound bath's worked.

Did it? Well, everyone's friends.

So, Chloe and Saff are fine?

Apparently so. Apparently.

I feel like they needed a bit of time to let the dust settle.

They were both upset with what went on for different reasons.

I said, "Once the dust settles, you have a conversation."

Yeah, they'll clear the air.

I'm glad everyone's gonna make peace, move on.

I don't think she wants to make peace with me,

by what I've heard. I know. I've heard this as well.

What have you done wrong?

I've heard she wants nothing to do with you,

and it's finished, never gonna be sweet again.

How do you know this? I don't know this.

That's cut-throat. Sorry. Sorry. No, sorry.

That was well cut-throat. Sorry. Sorry, angel.

If she wants to chuck away a long friendship over my opinion

and the way it makes people feel,

and you wanna just be silly about it,

then listen, I'm gonna just be like, whatever.

Courtney also told me that apparently,

this week is Ella's birthday,

which apparently, everyone's invited to.

So everyone's invited? Apparently. That's what Court said.

What would your stance be on going?

I dunno. I'm quite unsure, to be honest.

I've not made my mind up. It's a weird one, isn't it?

We were friends, but then we had that conversation in Portugal

and was both like, "Listen, we're not mates, are we?"

So I just find it weird that you're gonna say

I'm not your mate and then you don't...

Then you can't go. And then you don't trust me,

you don't trust me, but then go, "But you can come to my birthday."

I think that's strange. That's weird, yeah.

It sounds like more hassle than it's worth.

I can't be arsed to be in, like, bitchy energy.

I feel like every time I keep seeing Freddie Bentley,

there's, like, daggers...

Bitchy energy.

Well, I just find him... But to you?

Yeah, I just find him a bit like a yo-yo.

He's rubbed me up the wrong way, I'll be honest, since Portugal.

Like... MIMICS: "All right? All right?"

And do you know, it's like, who you all righting?

Is that all you've got? Yeah, you know like...

You never know what Freddie you're getting. Yeah.

That makes sense, why him and Saffron are now best friends -

they both don't know whether they're coming or going,

so it's like they just work.

I just feel like he's so far up her arsehole, I'm not gonna lie.

Who, Freddie up Saff's arse? Yeah.

Even on the way home from Portugal.

"Do you want me to take your bags?"

"Do you want these?" It's like, oh, my Christ.

Like her skivvy. Maybe he was trying to...

We don't know what you're gonna get.

Why do we want friends where you don't know where you fucking stand

or what mood they'll be in?

At least we know we've all been friends,

and it's been solid for X many years,

and there's not been dramas.

I'm gonna get you!

I'm gonna get you! Whoo!

Aw. Bear looks like he's having the best day.

It's so lush, though, isn't it? I know.

And James is so good with him.

He is, actually. Isn't he?

I've totally noticed a progress with how James is with Bear.

I know. So have I.

But seeing that with my own eyes, and seeing them together...

He loves him.

He actually loves him so much, and it just, it melts my heart.

Sometimes, when I'm, like...

They don't know I'm watching, but I just see them playing together,

or just little things,

like James will just grab Bear and just start, like,

attacking him and kissing him, and it's just like,

I dunno, it just really makes me feel confident

in everything that I'm doing.

They're definitely connected. Oh, 100%.

Yeah. So it's definitely going in the right direction.

I think at the beginning, James was...

So what are you saying, Jodie?

Are you seeing a ring coming up soon, or...? Well, I bloody hope so!

I mean, I think two and a half years is, like, the time to propose. No?

# I wanna be loved by you. #

# The only way is up. #

# I know what I want this time My baby

# Please understand this time My baby

# I know what I want this time My baby... #

JODIE: Coming to get you! JULIE: Coming to get you, mind.

DIAGS: Not if I get you first! THEY SQUEAL

Go, go, go, go, go, go! Ha-ha-ha, got you.

Yay! I win.

I win.

Where's the animals? Over here.

The animals are there. Let's grab 'em.

# Let me know When the day is dawning... #

Yeah. Yay!

Mummy, come here!

Let's go and see the secret passage.

# And it's you. #

So, you're happy? Yeah.

Yeah? You can see I'm happy.

Yeah, I can, actually.

It's quite nice to see, for a change. Yeah.

For a change? Well, you've not... Yeah.

Oh, yeah, we won't... We won't talk about the past, no.

The trouble with you, you've always made a bit of a joke out of it all.

You rely a lot on your humour...

Yeah. ..to wash, like, side swipe stuff.

However, there comes a time when you've got to put that to bed

and think seriously about what you're doing.

And I'd love to see this work. Yeah.

But I want you to take it seriously, stop the joking,

stop the messing about.

No, I understand. I do get that.

People have said that to me in the past.

Sometimes, I make light of situations

which don't need to be made light of.

No, cos this is not a light situation. Yeah, I know.

I don't want you to lose your sense of humour cos I love it.

And I always want you to be the joker because I love it. Yeah.

You and your brother are the same.

But there comes a time when you have to think seriously about stuff.

I think I've matured. Just about. It's taken a while. Crikey.

People mature at different rates, Mum.

I thought you would mature at 25, we're now at nearly 35, come on. No.

34.

But, yeah, nearly 35.

I'm in my early 30s.

You've taken ten years longer than I thought you would, which...

Everyone develops at different rates, Mum.

Right. Cheers, Mum. Cheers.

I love sitting here. Give me a hug. I haven't had a bear hug from you.

Oh.

Oh, my neck!

THEY CHUCKLE

# Didn't I swear You were dead to me?

# Didn't you scream That I had to leave?

# Didn't I slam your damn front door

# Sayin' "I ain't never Gonna come back no more"? #

All right, darling girl.

Just wanted to let you know that it's my birthday party tomorrow,

and I'd love for you and James to be there.

Obviously, Dan's invited, so just let him know that too,

and he's more than welcome to bring a plus one.

So, dress to impress and look beautiful and let's party.

'Elle-Belle.' Saffron.

Birthday baby. 'What you doing for it?'

Tea party.

'As long as there's a Vicky sponge there, I'll be there.'

Stunning.

I'm inviting everyone, so let's see who turns up.

SAFFRON LAUGHS

RINGING TONE

HARRY: 'Hello?'

All right, H?

'You all right?' Yeah, you?

'Mm, good. How are you?' Yeah, fine.

Just ringing cos I thought,

shall we start building a bit of a bridge?

HE LAUGHS

'Where's this all come from?'

Positive vibes. It's my birthday.

'That... Well...' HE LAUGHS

Are you in shock? 'I thought you couldn't trust me.'

Listen, we can find a bit of trust somewhere along the line.

'It's just... It's just been a shit situation, innit? It's sad.'

Yeah, it is shit, but look, at the end of the day,

I'm only gonna hand out an olive branch to people

that I think that deserve it, do you know what I mean?

Not saying that everything's gonna go back to normal,

but how do we, like... how do we know if we don't try?

'Well, that's very kind of you, Ella.'

All right, then, love. 'All right. Well, I'll see you.'

All right. Bye, bye, bye. 'Bye.'

Oh, God. Don't know whether he'll be coming.

# Didn't I swear You were dead to me?

# Didn't you scream That I had to leave?

# Didn't I slam Your damn front door? #

Lorena's send off, picnic in the park.

Aw, it's beautiful.

Hello.

Saffy! Saff.

Hello.

You OK, gorgeous?

This is so cute.

Yeah. Isn't it nice? I love it.

Shall we do a little cheers?

Yeah. Shall we do a little cheers? To Lauren and Lorena.

Yeah. And Larose. Cheers.

And Larose. Can't forget Larose.

No. My little baby. Cheers.

Thank you, everyone, for coming for me, I really appreciate it.

It's really sweet and obviously, it's a really hard day for me.

Erm, obviously, three years ago...

I lost Lorena in labour.

She should be here, and I think it's harder

because it's Larose's birthday in two weeks.

SAFFRON: Oh, so you've got a low and then a high again. Yeah.

And it's like... it's a hard month for me.

Yeah. And I hold this pain inside

because she hasn't got her sister when she should have her sister.

Yeah, she should. It's cruel.

It's so cruel. I don't understand any of it.

But Lorena's with you every day, Lauren, do you know that? Yeah.

She's with you, like...

Yeah, and this is why I've sort of done this,

because I think it's important.

Last year, I stayed in with Larose in the garden,

and now I have to get out and talk about her rather than hiding.

Yeah. Mm.

Yeah, and I think that's why it's even harder for me

because I am on my own.

Lauren, but you're so strong, girl, and you need to remember.

And you've got all your friends, your close friends,

everyone in the family.

So that's why I've done this,

and it means a lot to me that youse have come.

We all love you.

Of course. We'll always support you, Lauren.

Lauren. I know.

But I'm strong. I don't do this in front of Larose.

I don't do it, I don't let it out, do you know what I mean?

You have to. You've got to release.

We're all here for you. You've got lovely friends and family.

Yeah. Like I said, if you ring me up at 3am,

I'm gonna always be there for you. No, I know. I appreciate that.

Unless you've been through a bereavement,

you don't know how much it hurts. Yeah.

No, I know. You feel like you don't know how to talk about it,

and people grieve in different ways. And I block it a bit.

It's sometimes easier to suppress it rather than speak about it.

Oh, much easier to act like laughy and jokey

than actually deal with it. Mm.

Have you looked more into that charity yet? Definitely wanna do it.

100%. I feel like this is your calling.

AMY: Tell me, Lauren.

So, I wanna do a charity called Lorena.

Oh, like a foundation? Yeah.

To help other mums that... had a loss

and just to, like, help other mums get through it,

do you know what I mean? Cos you know how it feels.

Yeah, and to be that person, "If she can do it, I can do it."

Yeah. To talk, you know, like this.

Imagine if it was all mums grieving, you'd be able to relate.

And answer questions and support them.

And I feel like I've got a big enough voice to give them support.

And a legacy for your daughter, keep her name going. Keep her name going.

Oh, my God, there's a butterfly. Oh!

There's a butterfly that's just flown past. Oh, my gosh!

Just as you said it.

Do you know, butterflies are always around you at the minute.

Oh, my God. No, sorry, did you see?

As you said it, yeah.

The black and orange are the spiritual ones,

that's what that was. That's what come in my house.

And that was black and orange. I'm gonna cry.

Aw. Oh, my God!

It's a sign, Lauren. I know.

She's with you all the time. Literally.

Oh, don't.

You're so strong, you are.

You're so strong. Oh, God.

It's lovely. This is all for you and Lorena.

Shall we lay down and do these balloons? Yeah.

Cos I really wanna let them off now she's here,

in the spirit, do you know what I mean? Hundred percent.

Hundred percent.

OK. To my beautiful Lorena.

Happy birthday. Love you always.

These balloons are for you to fly high in the sky.

Aw. Love you.

# Darkness Even when it's hard with you

# It's a little bit Little bit better. #

# The only way is up. #

# And all the days We were high in the moment

# Had our head in the sky We were floatin'

# We didn't choose one another

# We're not meant for each other

# That's just how it's gonna be... #

Welcome to my buffet! What do I want to eat?

Happy birthday, sweetie. Thank you.

You love a macaroon.

All right.

DANI: This one actually does smell nice.

Roman! DANI LAUGHS

Thank you. CHEERING

Make a wish, though. Make a wish!

Give it a good old blow, girl.

Good at that, ain't I?

# All the days we were high In the moment

# Had our head in the sky... #

All right, who's had half a bite of a samosa and put it back? Not me.

Honestly, animals, everyone.

Right, what's the time? 20 to four.

Hide. She's gonna be here, hide. Are we hiding?

What's going on? What?

Hide?

Where?

I'm hiding!

Jordan!

Guys, it's well hot down here.

SQUEALS Oh, my God.

What's going on?

Surprise for your birthday!

SQUEALING

Oh, my God! 21 again!

21 forever.

Hi, everyone. Love the hat. It's for you.

Oh, my God, it's for me?!

Cheers. Cheers.

Not our usual cheers. I know.

It's a bit cold.

Nasty brew.

Everyone's come, most people have come.

That a positive? But I don't know if the girls are gonna come.

What do you reckon? You did message them?

As soon as I got off the phone to you,

I messaged them saying, "Ella's throwing a party,

"everyone is invited, all of you girls are invited."

And they said, "Thanks for letting me know."

But they didn't tell me whether they was or wasn't coming.

And then they're throwing a bit of a surprise party for Elma.

So I reckon that's what Becks and Livvy must be going to. Oh, yeah.

Yeah, cos me and Elma are both Cancerians.

How are you feeling about if Dan turns up here, though?

Er... Cos you've invited him. Did you hear a reply?

No.

I didn't get a reply. Right.

I said I didn't invite him, like, personally,

I sent Jodie a voice note.

I said, "James is invited." Course.

And I said, "Also, tell Dan he can come if he wants,

"and he can bring a plus one."

Is that the new bird? Yeah.

THEY LAUGH No, for God's sake.

Cos what if they turn up?

"Hi!" "Hi. Nice to meet you."

"Did you get me a present?" Yeah.

"Where's my flowers? Where's my card?"

No, I think he's gonna come, surely.

I don't think he will.

Well, you have kind of sent him, like, aggy messages. A bit of abuse.

So I understand if he's a bit too scared to come.

Yeah, and I sort of feel like now,

I'm being treated how he treats Amber.

Right. Do you know what I mean?

Mm-hm.

# Just a shadow of love

# It's all that I want

# Don't let me go

# Into the dark

# Then for-forget about me. #

Cheers. Love this.

This is oozing elegance.

I feel like we need to put our little fingers up. I always do.

Look at me, drinking out of my china with my little finger out.

This is very, like, high-class Essex tea.

Yeah. It's nice. Do you know what I mean?

High class? Ahhhh!

Are you joking?

I ooze elegance. Pfft!

Please, let's just not pretend that we're high class.

Darling! Let's not pretend, eh?

I'm from Chigwell. I've always been high class.

Ah! Not any more, darling.

Oh, a little spilt milk?

THEY LAUGH You made me nervous.

Spilt milk!

I want one of these.

This is right up Ella's street, innit?

Yeah. Pastel balloons, roses, little cupcakes.

Pretty, the pastels, the flowers. Dainty.

Is the vibe gonna be dainty and classy, though?

Who do youse think won't be here? Girlband.

Yeah, that's obvious. All right, given. Dan. Given.

Who else? Do you think Harry will make an entrance?

Yeah. I've not seen him since... obviously, Courtney's party.

I met him on that morning of Courtney's party.

But Courtney invited me to a sound bath,

so it's floating in the pool, very zen.

Love. What you need.

And I think Courtney's been through quite a bit lately,

so I think she wanted to just clear her head.

So, she brought Chloe along. Right.

That was the first time I'd seen her. How did that go?

Did you talk to her? Calm.

She was calm? Yeah. The whole thing's resolved.

Just like that?

Basically. Why the hell did it go on for so long?

Her point was she removed herself from the situation

so it wouldn't escalate if we'd spoke too soon,

which I half understand cos I think she was angry, and I was angry.

Yeah. She apologised to me, and I apologised to her.

I can't sit here and say the friendship's gonna go back to normal

straightaway because things take time. Yeah.

Hey, guys. Roman!

How are you? You all right?

You're so loved-up, you ain't got time for any of us.

What do you mean? You're loved-up as well.

No, I know. Not like you, you're, like, disappeared.

How's life? You and Tild. Life's sick, man.

How is she? Any news with you two?

No. Our year's coming up, when's your year?

We've been together nine months. Oh, my God.

That's gone quick. That has gone well quick.

What you gonna do for the year, though?

We're going Bali. Are you?

You love it in Bali. It's the best place ever.

Where is Matilda? She's ill.

Oh. Ah, she's not well?

I ain't seen her in ages. I know, we ain't seen a lot of people in ages.

Yeah. Can I just say, you know you do all that lovely romantic stuff

for Matilda? Yeah.

Where did you learn that?

Did you go to, like... That's his heart.

That's just me. Yeah, but...

That comes from Mum's upbringing, innit?

Yeah. I had a good upbringing of knowing how to treat a girl.

But it's cos you only know... Yeah. Can I lend you?

What did you just say? Can I just lend you for a day?

LAUGHTER

# It's not like I'd Ever change a thing

# Cos I'm right here Where I'm meant to be

# Not that I'd call you, I won't

# Sometimes I just can't believe

# You happened. #

Court, well done for putting the birthday party on.

You didn't have a clue, did you? It's a gathering.

Well, I kind of sussed, but I didn't realise

there was gonna be so many people here.

Well, you do live here. You've probably seen things around.

I'm so bad at keeping secrets. It's my worst trait.

It's Courtney's face. You catch her in the act, and she goes...

I can imagine that as well. Is that your inconspicuous face?

I'm so bad. And then she'll look around

to find something to, like...

"Tissue, have you got toilet roll, actually?"

I'm like, yeah... Make it very, very obvious.

It really suits you living here.

I think so too, I'm really glad you said that.

I don't think you should ever move out.

Ever. I don't I don't plan on it.

Right... This has fallen off.

Leave your hat off. Shall I leave the hat off?

We make a good team. It's so good.

What is going on in the dating scene, then? What's the update?

Erm, yeah, so I went... It was really good.

It was a really good date.

OK. I really fancy him.

Where did you go? Went to Sabrina Carpenter concert.

Did he not fancy today? Cos I'm the only bloke here today.

No, it's too early.

It's a bit much. Is it?

I always say, like, this time round, because where I'm older,

and the next person I'm with is gonna be my husband,

I need to take it slower than I have in the past. Yeah.

I get it. And it's one date, it's been one date.

When your phone says his name, do you get buzzy? Yeah.

I'm like this. And do you leave him on read?

I actually reply within 0.2 seconds. Pathetic.

Really? You can't do that. It's too much.

But we don't like games. Don't.

You used to do it. I was on the dating scene.

Tell her straight, you replied in 0.2 seconds,

you kissed me on the first date, tried to come back to mine,

I didn't let you. I give advice, but I don't listen to it.

Did you try and come back to mine, I didn't let you?

No. LAUGHTER

I was busy that night, I had other things to do.

She had to wash her hair, Jord, all right? No, she didn't.

I'm going on a second date,

I'm gonna kiss him on the second date.

Where are you going? I feel like I've forgotten how to kiss.

Practise with a mirror. That's what I used to do.

At what point do you add the tongue? First date for me.

I think there's always a couple of pecks first

and then the tongue goes in. Yeah. Do you wanna see?

No, that was a really bad one. LAUGHTER

Don't look at that.

I feel a bit uncomfortable. That was really bad.

It's like watching mum and dad kiss.

Oi, you both just went... On Love Island, the kissing challenge!

You both just went...

You both just completely stopped and went, "Right."

Yeah, oh, maybe I'll watch a tutorial.

Yeah, that can work.

What's an update with you guys? What's happening? Do the girls know?

No. Positive, positive news. Tell me.

So, me and Soph have actually booked our fertility treatment.

You've actually booked it? Done? When are you going?

Summer. We're going the first week of September.

And for us to, obviously... It's been two and a half years.

That's crazy. Time goes so quick. Yeah, since we actually started.

So it's like 27 times or something we've tried.

27 times and it's not worked.

But anyways, yeah, so, it's all booked.

So, from now till then, we are just gonna have fun.

Yeah, we've got a wedding,

going away with my dad, which is great.

So we can really just enjoy the end of our summer now as us two

cos we know there's a light at the end of the tunnel.

And then we'll see you at Christmas, and Soph might be out here.

I can't wait to tell you girls one day.

I'm gonna be the crazy aunt, but I'm happy to do that.

I've been the crazy aunt for a long time, it's really fun.

I don't mind. I know, I don't mind.

Crazy Aunt Elma. Yeah.

It's got a ring to it, ain't it? It has.

# In a room full of people I look for you

# Would you avoid me Or would you look for me, too?

# Tell me, is our story through?

# Or do our hearts Still beat in tune? #

Well, well, well.

Hello, mate.

Respect. Respect. Nothing but.

Always.

So, I could be partying right now.

Could you? Yeah.

Oh. At the tea party, like that.

Loving life. You could be, but...

I chose friendship first, and that's what matters.

Well, I thought it was best if I didn't go.

You could have gone still, I don't mind. Nah.

Me on the other hand, in love, talking about a future,

met the family.

Well, about time, yeah. Two... Yeah.

No, I've met her before, but two families collided.

Finally coming together. Yeah.

It was actually a really good day out.

Everyone really enjoyed themselves. Mm.

Got dug out a little bit by both the mums, but it was...

But also, you're going in the right direction, clearly,

everyone can see that.

You two seem as good as you've ever been. Yeah.

When we was at the safari park,

I went, "You go, see the girls and that." Jodie's going?

She's gonna go, yeah. Yeah, good.

She should do. Yeah.

It's not her business, do you know what I mean? No.

It's to do with you, so... It's not that I didn't want to go,

it's that I felt it was right for the situation not to. Yeah.

Things have not been great the last few days between me and her,

so the last thing I wanna do is go there and cause a scene. Yeah.

She's caught wind that we was out with a group of people. Yeah.

And that potentially, I've been talking to other people.

Which is fine.

We split up three months ago.

She initiated that three months ago.

So what do you expect me to do? Yeah.

The reason why she's finding this so hard now is,

it's not actually what she really wants,

and I feel like Ella, a lot of the time, gets what she wants,

and what she really, actually wants is you.

I tried to be her friend.

Listen, this friendship thing's not gonna work. Clearly not.

It's never gonna work because there's been too much between us

over a period of time

for us to just be cool with each other and both move on. Yeah.

I can't believe you got an invite.

Well, a couple of weeks ago, it would have been fine

because we was cool then, but...

..things have happened, people start talking.

You know what it's like round here.

Rumours start flying around, and people think they... A lot of lies.

People feel like they know everything about someone else's life

when really, I don't think any of them really have a clue.

All of a sudden, Dan's seen to be talking to other people,

and he's moving on.

Well, yeah, what did you expect me to do in the end? Yeah.

I wouldn't overly like it if I hear about her with anyone else,

she's not gonna like it if she hears about me with anyone else.

It's natural for us both to feel like that.

No-one is gonna like to see when their ex moves on.

No-one wants to hear it or see it, do you know what I mean?

There's nothing you can really do,

other than, like you said, remove yourself from the situation.

Like today.

I just think it needs a bit of time to settle down.

# I wish I could release you

# Wind it back and never be with you

# Then I'd be happy just to meet you

# One heart could bleed For the future us

# If we were young But this is done. #

Hey. Darling.

Hey. You look lovely.

Hey, Dan. Hello, bubs, you OK?

Happy birthday. Thank you.

Hello! Hi, you OK?

Thanks for coming. I come.

I know. You're here.

Happy birthday. Thank you.

I'm shocked he's turned up

because I didn't think Harry and Ella were...

I thought they weren't getting on at the minute.

Well, civil from afar, they left it in Portugal.

But this is nice, though. I'm glad that you've come. Yeah.

Cos I feel like...

Well, for me, it was... This needed to happen.

..one of them things of, like, in this group,

everything's getting very tedious,

and I know there's certain people that are here today

that you've obviously had agg with...

Yeah. ..of late, and I wanted to try and put everyone together

to try and squish it because life is so short.

Do you know what I mean?

Honestly, when you called me yesterday, I was in shock.

Literally, I couldn't remember the last time I've seen "Ella Wise"

come up on my phone. I bet he thought....

I was literally looking at it, and I thought, I'm not gonna ignore it,

so I answered, and I was... just, yeah, it was a shock.

There's so much going on in life these days,

and then obviously, your situation with Saff,

like, that's upsetting, that's upset us all

because you and Saffron were so close.

I think everyone's quite upset by it, but listen...

And not everyone agrees with things that, like,

obviously has happened on your side of things.

I'm not gonna sit there and say that I ain't said things about you,

cos I have, just hold my hands up, I'm not a liar. Yeah.

And I do just want youse two just to squash it

cos youse two had such a nice friendship, and she's been so upset.

For me, it's just got really silly now

because I feel like I've tried to give out an olive branch

a couple of times now and tried to move it and squash it

and get it moving forward, and I just feel like I'm not...

no matter what I do at the minute ain't right.

It's not working. It ain't right.

Oh, put the violin away.

Put the violin away.

I feel like it was just raw at the time

youse were having them conversations.

I do feel like youse can build the friendship back up again.

Mm, I do, but I don't think yet.

Not yet, I agree, just not yet. Not yet.

So, I'm happy to be here.

Listen, I'll be honest with you,

obviously, Elma's got a party today as well,

so we're literally gonna pop in, we'll be here for an hour or so.

That's fine. Course. Then we're gonna go to the other party.

Yeah. I think that's nice, that you've come anyway. It's a step.

You know there's no bad blood now, that youse can say hello and stuff.

Nothing that serious has happened between you.

Do you know what's really sad, though?

You were so close, you and Harry, you were actually so close.

I remember ringing Harry, and he was like, "Ella's like my sister."

I was probably a bit put out because obviously,

me and Harry are like brother and sister, El. Yeah.

But how did it get to not be like that? It's mad, isn't it?

Today's a good step in the right direction. Yeah.

And listen, you know I'd never hate you or anything,

it's just, we've just clashed and gone separate ways.

Drifted a little bit. Sometimes, you go away from each other,

you do drift apart,

but it's lovely to be here today, and I'm here, honey.

Thank you for coming. Aw. Yeah.

Well, that's sorted. When are you gonna sort it, then?

I think she's been more wound up from hearing that conversation.

More wound up? It's always that I'm wrong.

Yeah. And you're not in the wrong. But you are wrong, Saff.

Roman!

Roman, she's gonna fall out with you next.

A wrong 'un. A wrong 'un!

LAUREN: Erm...

I think you need to say that, though, when you do have a chat.

She doesn't even want the chat. Not today.

I'm surprised you've stayed here, though. Wait.

Are you all right, though?

Yeah, fine. Yeah?

Yeah. Cos it's a lot, isn't it?

Oh, with him?

Mm. Er, yeah.

But look, I split with him, what can I expect him to do?

I can't expect him to sit in his bedroom every day

and be on his own. Yeah.

Listen, if he's moved on, and he's met someone,

and he's happy, then lovely.

Yeah. Just leave me alone.

Listen, it's like no skin off my nose, but I did see him,

and it was Dan, Diags and Jodie, and they were, like, double dating.

Double date?

Oh, my God, what is going on?

Double date.

But Dan's been lying to me cos he told me nothing's true.

Yeah, well, there you go. Weren't no double date, nothing.

You've just dropped a bomb there without even realising.

# I have a secret no-one knows

# Turning my heart to stone. #

Whoo!

I feel like everyone knows,

and I'm the only one that doesn't know.

Ella's just being "pick me".

She just now wants him because he's moved on and met someone else.

Soph, this is my brother... Yeah. ..Billy.

Throw another birthday bash. Yeah.

Do her 30th properly. Am I invited to this one, then?

Of course you're fucking invited.

ALL: Surprise!

You have not said to my face that I am up Saffron's arsehole.

You're up Saffron's arsehole.

Look, I'm exhausted, Dan. I feel like I just need a break.

All I know from Jodie is that you've dropped the information

that you seen me out with someone.

Fucking my big mouth.

Is it just Dan keeping his options open again?

Is the sky blue?

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