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# The only way is up, baby

# For you and me now

# Ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh. #

# Wrap yourself around me

# Wrap yourself around me... #

What can you feel, El?

Well, from the soles of your feet,
I can feel stress.

Aw. That's right.
This is lovely, ain't it?

Yeah. It's really nice, actually.
I've needed the massage.

You're not really massaging -
you're just prodding me.

Oh, sorry, darling!
HE CHUCKLES

# Wrap yourself around me

# Go on
Wrap yourself around me... #

Good girl.
That's it. Good girl, baba.

Shall we...?
Oh, no, not in your mouth.

We don't drink it, do we?
Kiss Mummy. Kiss?

Aw, good girl.

Cuddle Mummy.

Hello, ladies.
Thank you so much. Oh, thank you.

Oh, stunning.

Thank you.
There you go.

Yeah!

Oh!

# So wrap yourself around me

# Go on
Wrap yourself around me. #

All went a bit pear-shaped
yesterday. You heard?

Well, obviously it all kinda got
more heated with Harry and Freddie

than we thought it was gonna get,

and I feel like
Harry did instigate that.

But then I've heard since then
you've been arguing with Girlband.

Like, what has actually gone on?

Listen, I was with the girls
at the pool yesterday,

and Harry believes that Freddie
started all of that in the club.

He come on strong. So I said,
"No, H, like, it was you.

"You come on strong. You was poking
him and he was saying to you

" 'I'm calm.' " It all got a bit
out of hand. Yeah, I felt the same.

Then Chloe was defending Harry,

and I turned round to Chloe and
I was like, "Look, no disrespect.

"You had enough to say.
Like, you got up,

"you were doing all of that,
'Freddie, I'm so obsessed with...' "

And I told her,
and she didn't like it.

Really? And, what,
it's escalated from then?

Well, yeah, it got heated.
Really?

Yeah, but she called me Uncle.
You heard?

Why's she called you Uncle?
What does she mean?

So the kids were there at first
with Amy before all this went on

and she goes,
"Go to Uncle Saffron."

And what did you say back
to the Uncle reference?

"Well, who are you - Grandma?"
Saffron!

No, but I had the hump,

because ultimately Freddie
come to me crying after the club.

So I thought, "Actually,
youse are being bitches."

You don't like being called
bitches, but you are being bitchy.

I hadn't seen her
till round the pool,

then I've called her out for it.

I have only relayed to her

that she has made someone feel
upset, uncomfortable and belittled.

And she didn't like it.

I feel like we're sat there defusing
it, and they're sitting there

kind of adding fuel to the fire
and digging Freddie out,

which, one, puts us
in a uncomfortable situation,

and, two, makes the whole
situation even worse. Yeah.

I was hoping Harry and Freddie
would sort it out.

I thought they would.
I can't believe

you've ended up arguing with them!

How has this got so big?
Dunno.

# Pretend it's not
The end of the world

# Let's pretend
It's not the end of the world... #

Oh, what you drinking?
Cheers. Oh, cheers.

Cheers, Daddy.
Cheers.

What have you got in there?
Have you got water in there?

Hiya.
Hi! Hiya.

Oh, this is nice.
Hi, baby. Can we join?

Hey, Mils.
You can indeed.

Oh. Right, Chlo, what happened
yesterday, honestly?

I didn't know it was brewing.
I had no idea.

I feel like all of a sudden
I'm the problem.

Why? Everyone's got a problem
with me all of a sudden,

and I'm like, "Wait, where did
that come from?" Like who?

Saff and Freddie, apparently.
I don't have a problem with Fred.

Listen, I feel really bad
on Chloe,

because this was
kinda like my problem,

and it's now
turned on to Chloe's problem.

Chloe's your friend.
She'll protect you.

Of course. Me and Freddie had
our disagreement in the club. Yeah.

And that's where
it's all stemmed from.

Me and Saff
always had this banter,

until I said a few things yesterday.

I was like, "Baby Billy gave her
a kiss" or she asked for a kiss,

and I was like, "It's the only
kiss you're gonna get this trip."

That's mine and Saff's banter,
always has been.

Do you think she's sort of picked
you out and she's gunning for you?

Yeah, like...
I honestly don't know why.

I really thought we were friends,
and I can honestly tell you now,

she is not my friend.

Like, that is not a friend to me.

You're done.
I'm so done.

I don't need a friend
where I'm walking on eggshells

trying to figure out her mood.

I'm not doing that.

I got rid of friends like that
years ago.

I don't need friends like that. I
don't need that energy around me.

No, it's not right.
It's not right at all.

You look really
just not yourself, Chlo.

I just...
Is it hard?

What you getting upset for?
Honestly, don't get upset.

Don't get upset.
Don't get upset, bubs.

Come on.
I just hate having to, like...

You're such a lovely friend.
Why justify yourself?

You're the loveliest friend to
have. You're only protecting him.

I just feel like they're trying
to make out like I'm...

like, not a nice person, and
I hate that I have to stand here

and be like, "Oh, I am."
Sorry.

THEY CHUCKLE

It is the worst timing!

That is the worst timing.
You were crying!

# And it feels like freedom
Feels like pure love... #

Well, from the soles of your feet,
I can feel that...

SHE SIGHS

..a lot of people haven't been
very nice to you on this trip.

Likewise, actually.
I can feel the same.

HE CHUCKLES
No, but on a serious note,

I know this trip
is very hard for you.

Like, being around Daniel and that.

Yeah, it's odd, ain't it, because
really, we'd always be together.

I know that it isn't easy for you
to see Dan walk around this hotel

and you're not gonna
gravitate towards him.

Like it isn't easy for him
to not gravitate towards you.

But the way you feel like
he's being

is like
where he's shutting you off.

That's probably why
you are getting frustrated

and probably are snapping,
because you feel rejected by him.

Yeah.

# As if our dreams never cave in

# Pure love will do the saving

# The saving, saving. #

Hello, girls.
Oh, hey.

Hello. We'll come join.

Youse look nice.
Oh, you've got the skirt on.

I've got the skirt.
Is it really heavy?

It is. How are youse?
Yeah, I'm all right.

We're just baffed, to be honest.
What happened yesterday?

I don't think Chloe deserved
for her to get...

Was it that bad? Youse know what
happened. Youse have spoke to her.

Why did you go for her like that?
Chloe, of all people.

Do you really think she
deserves...? I didn't go for her.

The way I've heard
that you've spoken to her

is outright disgusting,
I'll be honest.

What have you heard?
Screaming at her in her face,

saying she's saying nasty things
about Freddie

when she felt sorry for him.

She never said anything bad.

She was acting quite over the top.
I thought it was quite unnecessary.

She's trying to defend her mate.
Freddie was being rude.

So it's like she is just trying
to defend her friend.

Listen, Harry told me last night
she's a lot more sensitive than me.

I get it. The delivery maybe could
have been questionable, but...

I feel this is your excuse
for everything -

the way you deliver things.
No, it ain't my excuse. I own it.

You speak to your friends
like shit sometimes.

Well, like who? You did it to
Harry literally a few months ago.

You spoke to him
like a piece of shit.

He was treating me like shit.
And Harry is so sweet

that he's not gonna sit and
really voice how he truly feels.

Well, he did. He's hugged it out
with you and moved on,

and you've done it
to another person like Chloe.

You speak to certain people

cos you feel you can be nasty
to your friends... No.

..and they'll take you back.
I don't. Listen.

I think she had her back up
cos Freddie's come to her crying.

I don't care how my delivery
come across.

If you think it weren't great on...

You think it's OK to speak
to your friends like that?

I wasn't screaming at her.
That's upset Chloe the most.

You've had a longstanding
friendship with Chloe

for a long, long, long time,
like, a lot of years.

You've not really known Freddie
that much.

Is it worth you arguing
over Freddie?

Do you not give a shit
about Chloe's feelings?

No, I do care about Chloe.
It doesn't feel like you do.

I told her to her face.
I think you do care about Chloe.

That's why you was honest with her
about it.

I don't wanna sit there
and call her,

cos everyone else
goes for Chloe's personality.

I've always thought she was nice.
Then you've gone for her.

But...
The way she's spoken, you have.

I am sorry if she feels that way.
It's a shame.

It is a shame. I feel like
it hasn't gotta be this big.

It didn't need to be this big.
I think it's done now.

It's made it too awkward.

But it's, like, over what?

Like, this is silly

that it's even got to this,
cos all I feel like...

What I don't understand...
Freddie has said that he's upset.

I feel like you've relayed
to Chloe Freddie's upset...

Chloe didn't like what I said

because she doesn't believe
she did that.

Chloe's reaction was based on

the things Freddie
was saying to Harry.

She's not said it out of the blue.

She's responded to what's come out
of Freddie's mouth.

He needs to understand that...

Listen, we all do make mistakes,
we all do make comments.

I don't think it's that deep.

# It's not my fault
It's not my fault... #

This is ridiculous,
is how I actually feel like it is.

A problem
that was between two guys

is now really mainly
between you and Chloe.

You've upset Chloe so much,

I don't think she'll ever wanna
be friends with you again.

Which is a shame. I didn't realise
it was this serious.

Cos you've done it to her...
You've done it to her in Cyprus.

It's one too many times now,

and she just doesn't want
toxic friends like that.

Well, Chloe can tell me that
if she wants to. She will.

If not... She doesn't want
temperamental friends

where she doesn't know
what Saffron she's gonna get.

# It's not my fault

# It's not my fault. #

# The only way is up. #

# Cos you build me up
To break me down

# No looking back this time... #

Oh, this is beautiful. How have
we not been down here yet?

Oh, look at it!
Oh!

# No looking back this time... #

Have we got a new drink of choice?
This is the new drink of choice.

This is the truth juice.
Truth juice.

You have a few of these,
you can't stop spilling the truth.

# No looking back this time. #

Shall we put crisps in our
sandwich? Oh, yeah, why not?

I think that's a really good idea.
Let's just build it.

THEY LAUGH

This is exactly what we needed,
actually. Crunch, crunch, crunch.

Nice.
Mmm. Mmm.

Have you heard anything?
I've heard dribs and drabs.

Everything's just gone
up in flames, basically.

I thought I was in a position

where I could speak to Chloe
on a level and say,

"Look, you've made Freddie upset.
I'm just telling you this, Chlo."

She was like,
"He can't be upset cos of me."

She went on the defence.

So we've ended up having
this argument out of nowhere.

It was heated. Anyway, she made
a few snipy comments before.

She says these little remarks
and snipes and laughs

and thinks it's banter.

But the latest is, Chloe M
never wants to talk to me again

and the friendship's done.

She's told everyone.

It has upset me.
Yes, I've got a loud mouth.

Yes, I can be brash, but I ain't
heartless, and you know that.

No, I know that. It's quite a lot
in 24 hours, innit?

I don't think
it's dead in the water.

Oh, it is. It was acted out
of emotion... You think it is?

Yeah.
It's a shame.

It is a shame.
Youse were friends.

I'm not gonna feel isolated
by seven girls.

I don't work like that, Elm.
We're not in school any more.

No, I know. And she knows better
than that, and so does Courtney.

Courtney turned to me and went,

"You've made it awkward.
See you around."

I thought, "Hold on a minute."
I think that's just them being...

They're very loyal girls,
remember, so...

I'm loyal. I'm loyal.
I know you are. I know you are.

I know you would've walked away
from that and been really upset,

so it's just infuriating
and frustrating,

I think, more than anything.
I am upset, Elm. It's upset me.

Oh, don't cry.
Cos I ain't a monster,

and I ain't gonna
be made out to one.

I know you're not.
But that's the thing. You do...

Cos I've raised
my fucking voice, Elma.

I know, it's...
What world are they living in?

Under a rock? Cos we ain't
in fucking a fairy tale.

It's an absolutely liberty.

The way Amber and Courtney
come over to me yesterday

was like
I'd drawn blood out the girl.

I'm not a bad person.

I've been a good friend to her,
I've always listened to her.

I've had two girls
come into a cocktail bar

when I'm having a drink
with my friend

and lecture me about
the way I was and then tell me,

"By the way, she don't
wanna be your friend any more."

Oh, fuck off!

Can you not get upset, please?

Can you hold my hand?
Hold my hand. Stop it.

No, I'm angry.
And you're allowed to be angry.

Hold my hand. Hold my hand.
Come here. Hold my hand.

# So these tears dry tonight

# So these tears dry tonight... #

I've not been in once.
Why ain't you been in the pool, El?

You're usually a pool girl.

Yeah, I'm normally a mermaid.
Yeah. New hair extensions.

They'll go green.
Do they?

Yeah, it's hard with blondes,
isn't it?

Cos of the chlorine in the water.

It's the bleach, isn't it?
Yeah.

Reacts with the chlorine.
Cos it's porous.

That's a fun fact
I've learnt today.

Learn something new
every day, babe.

I learn something
every single day. Yeah. You do.

It's so nice to see youse two
in, like, unconditional love.

Aw, we really are.
Do you think you'll get married?

BOTH: Yes.
SQUEALING

OK, well, I've never been
a bridesmaid, so...

You can be one.

I don't know how long.

I can't even say how long,
cos I'll give it away.

No, don't give it away.

I know.
I always do this to her.

I said, "You need to stop
telling me stuff

"about how
you're gonna propose to me,

"because I wanna be
really shocked."

Know what I mean?
Yeah.

But he keeps just hinting.
No time soon, though.

But you know?
You've got a plan already?

It's in my head, yeah.

Oh, that is so cute.
That is so cute.

If only they were all like you.

How's the whole
Dan situation going on?

Yeah...
SHE STAMMERS

ROMAN LAUGHS
It is what it is.

Well, you two, you're civil,
ain't you? You're on good terms.

Yeah, but it blows hot and cold.

We do ten steps forwards
and ten steps back.

And when he's around you lot,
he's like completely different,

so I don't know where I am.

Do you know what I mean?
It's not fair.

I feel like the boys might have
an influence on that, as well,

by telling him
to try and steer away.

Yeah, from the boys' side,
we all know he cares about you.

We all know
he still has love for you.

We have just said to him,
"Try not to fall into the trap

"of being back how it used to be
if you don't wanna be together,

"cos if that happens,
someone's gonna get hurt."

It's still really fresh.
Yeah.

It's just literally
been two months. Yeah.

Listen, it's frustrating. It's like
when you and James broke up,

everyone had an opinion, but James
still done what he wanted to do.

He didn't listen to any of his
friends because it's his own life.

And, like, he was in love with you

and was obviously not happy
to let you go

and let you move on
and find someone else.

But is that not, like...
is that not quite telling?

Probably, yeah,
it is quite telling.

So therefore, I should probably
just find someone else.

# You won't find me
Crying waterfalls

# You won't find me waiting up
For you this time

# I'm not that person
That I was before

# You're the only one
Who's missing me tonight... #

Well, cheers, boys,
to the actual boys on the trip.

Yeah.

Love it.
Cheers. Do you know what I mean?

You're a good person to be around,
and we needed to replace Roman.

ALL LAUGH

Perfect replacement for Roman!

Even better, I'd say.
An improvement.

I would have been cooked
if it weren't for you boys.

What you're going through
right now,

you'll probably go through a lot
more times in life. Brilliant(!)

The reality. No, I'm being real.
Sounds good.

But... A few more times, at least.

Really setting the mood here, Dan!
Instead of doing what Dan does -

so make the mistake over again
and get the same results -

maybe change your attitude a bit
towards the lady.

Maybe learn from one,
change it a bit.

What you'll end up
finding yourself is

in a hotel with more ex-girlfriends
than you can imagine.

And it's hard work, which it has
been, since we've been out here.

It's not been smooth sailing
for you.

Far from it.
No relationship's perfect.

I've had that myself.

Do you reckon you've learnt
from your mistakes now? Nah, nah.

Never learnt from my mistakes.
Too old for that.

Do you know what I mean?
Yeah.

Good to pass on the information
that me and you know

to the younger generation.
At least I can sort of...

You know what,
you might find the one next,

but potentially, you'll go through
more scenarios like this.

It does get better. You get over it.
You learn lessons from it.

You also change your opinions
of what you want in someone,

moving forward, and you learn
a lot about yourself.

# I will try

# To keep my chin up

# Oh, my head is bent on

# Bringing me down

# Chin up

# I'm dancing
To the rhythm of it... #

After yesterday, I spoke to Soph,
and she was like, "Oh, come out."

So I went out with Soph,
Jodie and obviously the boys.

I see Sammy for the first time.
How is he?

Elm, I didn't realise
how bad he was.

Really? Yeah. And then I was like,
"Are you all right?"

and he went,
"No, I'm really missing her."

Honestly, he's gutted.

He said,
"I just can't understand it.

"She's my favourite person.
I thought I was hers."

He's mine. No, he is mine.

I said to him, "As far as I know,
you said you wanted time and space,

"but you're ignoring her."
Yeah.

He looked at me and he just paused.

All his eyes were filled up,
and he went to me,

"I don't date to mess about -

"I date to marry,
and she was the one."

Oh, don't say that. I wanna cry.
Honestly.

Oh...
Elm, listen.

I'm being honest. I don't think
you should let this all go.

I think he's a good person for you.

Are you scared?
Well, I was. I don't know.

Are you scared of a relationship,
scared of commitment, love?

I think I do have
severe commitment issues,

and I felt like it was gonna
be different this time round,

but maybe it's not.

Maybe I'm just
destined to be on my own, Saff.

Like, I actually think about this
all the time.

I'm OK with that.
But you're not.

SOBBING: I am.
You're not OK with that, Elm.

Elm, listen, he idolises you.

And I can't not tell you,

because it'd be wrong of me
not to tell you.

If you just took it slow,
but tried to focus a bit more

on, like, communicating, spending
time with each other a bit more,

your bond will grow and grow and
grow, I've got no doubt about that.

Even if I was to try
and rekindle anything,

it's like our feelings are not
the same, clearly, at the minute.

# For the first time in my life
To ache is to be alive. #

# The only way is up. #

# I believe in miracles, baby

# I believe... #

What a naughty beat!

# I believe in miracles, baby

# I believe... #

Party time with the girls.
To Portugal!

CHEERING

# You make me feel so good inside
That I realised I couldn't hide

# The feeling that came
When you failed to say

# I believe in miracles... #

Beep, beep!
BOTH: Hello.

Oh, my God. The traffic is crazy.

Honestly, I'm sorry we're late.
Hello, Billy!

You having a good day? Yeah!
Where's the other one?

Come on, then. Good girl.
Look at the carriage on the girl!

# I believe in miracles, baby... #

How do you feel like
Portugal's been for you boys?

I feel like people this trip

are actually starting
to get to know me for me -

I say things, and sometimes
they're a bit outrageous.

People are starting to understand
that's just me.

That's just the way I am.
You mean well, Joe.

I'm a good soul, deep down. I
kick off sometimes, but who don't?

Not me.
We just need to get back to Essex.

Come on, let's go.
LAUGHTER

# I believe in miracles
Don't you? #

Do youse believe in mermaids?

I do, but you know
they're meant to be evil?

They fucking are.
They're not meant to be nice.

They're scary. Do you not know it?

Yeah, I've heard this. And they
only protect women and children.

They hate men.
They've got swords down there.

Swords?
Swords. They've got weapons.

I swear, so many people
go missing on the sea as well...

Yeah, the oil rigs.
It's the Bermuda Triangle.

So that could be something
to do with a mermaid.

I don't remember
The Little Mermaid being like that.

No, because they sugar-coat things.
That's not the reality.

No, mermaids are, like,
vicious, babe.

Claws, long teeth.
Vultures.

Do they have hands like us?

A few people in this group
could maybe be 'em.

# I can feel the shiver

# Running up and down my spine

# My heart starts to quiver

# Your love is so divine. #

Hey.
HE CHUCKLES

You all right?
Are you all right? Are you good?

So awkward.

Yeah.
HE CHUCKLES

How have you been?

I'm all right, are you?
Yeah.

Yeah. Good times.

Erm... listen, I just wanna say,
from my point of view, yeah,

I've heard you feel, like,
a little bit isolated

and you feel a little bit on
your own with the whole situation.

I just want you to know
that I will never, ever want

to make you feel uncomfortable
in any situation

where you feel like
you're on your own.

Yeah, I probably felt like that

only because I don't know where
to put myself with the situation.

Listen, I live with Dan,
so I know when this all happened,

when you first went in that show,

something come out in the press
before it started,

and trust me,
it hurt him, like, a lot.

We couldn't even speak about it.

He was sitting there...
That's what's frustrating for me,

because when I went in
to Big Brother

and I done that experience,
I was sort of left with no choice

than to put myself first,

because when I ended it with Dan,
there was no fight there, James.

He was very much like,
"OK, you do your thing."

So I thought to myself,
"Well, I am gonna put myself first,

"then do what I want."
And I understand that.

I never left him
to go on a TV show.

There were so many things
before that.

I understand. I wasn't getting
anything from him that I wanted.

I completely understand
why you did what you did.

The problem with youse two, yeah,
you're so similar.

It don't work. Don't help.

You're like,
"Right, he's not showing me this,

"so, do you know what? Fuck him."

He's like, "She's not showing me
this, so, like, well, fuck her."

So you're both being stubborn.

But I feel like was he hurt

because I've hurt his ego
and his pride,

or was he hurt because
he wasn't with me any more?

Listen, I promise you now... You
probably don't have to believe it.

He was very, very open
to it being a thing.

Yeah, and he did say that.

He's very... Before...
I still didn't feel that, though.

I felt like when I was with him
in a relationship,

he was more of my friend,
cos that's how he made me feel.

He didn't make me feel special,
like a girlfriend.

Like, you make Jodie feel special
like a girlfriend.

You put her as first priority.

Dan put me as first priority. He
would be my priority over anyone.

Do you think genuinely
in that relationship

you made him your first priority?

I don't think you did.

No, I didn't.
No.

No, because I didn't feel as if
I got what I wanted from him.

There was a lot of lacking
a lot of things with both of us,

and I would just mirror
what he was doing to me,

because maybe I'm scared
of letting my wall down

and scared of him thinking that
he's got me where he wants me,

cos then I'm worried that
he's gonna take the piss out of me.

But you obviously had something.
Know what I'm saying?

In a perfect world, I would love
that it would all work out...

So do I, but I don't ever
think it will.

I can't see it at the moment, Ell.

No, neither can I.
If I'm being truthfully honest.

I don't wanna make you upset
or sad about it.

I'm also not gonna beg
for something,

because I have more self-worth
than that. You shouldn't.

Listen, if he loved
and cared for me that much,

and he wouldn't want anyone else
to have me.

I'm just probably
more disappointed

in the fact that something didn't
work that could be really good.

Yeah. And it is sad,
it really is sad.

But you're a really, really,
really lovely, beautiful girl

and you deserve to be
really, really happy with someone.

And he's a fucking lovely,
beautiful man...

And he's walking behind me
right now, isn't he? OK.

Hello.
All right?

Brother.
All right, brother.

Just having a chat.
Yeah?

Shall I...?
How's it going?

Yeah, no, cool.
It's all right.

Yeah, we were just talking about
how clear that water is.

Just so beautiful.

Anyway, I probably should go
and get another drink.

All right.
Yeah.

Clear water, though. Clear.

# I, I

# I miss you to death

# I, I

# I miss you to death

# The chemical imbalance, baby
Since you left... #

You all right?
Yeah, how are you?

Yeah, fine, thanks.

You seem a little bit off.

You've seemed off the whole time.

I wasn't off. I just told...
I told you...

I told you
why I was gonna be distant.

Yeah, you said you needed time.

Up until we had that chat,

there was still
a little bit of hope in me

that we was gonna revive things
or start again.

All I've wanted to do

the whole time we've been here
is be with you.

All I've tried to do
is respect the fact

that you don't want this,
and then I'm just trying to...

I'm trying to deal with that
and get over that.

Cos I genuinely care about you
so much. I still do.

I don't doubt that,
and I care about you too.

I really... I just feel like
this has got so silly.

Why have we waited until the last
day to have this conversation?

Listen, I really, really,
really, really don't...

want any tension
or bad blood between us.

Like, I really don't. I don't.

I apologise if I come off rude. I
really didn't wanna come off rude.

Like, that's not it.
That's not it at all.

I didn't wanna avoid you.

You found it hard
to navigate how to do this

and I've found it hard to navigate
you doing this, so I get it.

I thought a little "hello"
if we're walking past each other

or being in each other's company
wouldn't have gone amiss.

That's all I'm getting at.
I have said hello, but it's...

Listen, you can have all the time
in the world. I don't... You do.

And you need it.
That's fine. Not a problem.

Just not like we're gonna be
like this forever.

You'll have your space.
We'll both have space.

I think this trip was just a lot.
This was all a lot.

This shouldn't have happened
on this trip.

I think there's not really
much more to say

without going round and round
in circles, is there?

SHE SNIFFLES

I can't fucking walk in this dress!

SNIFFLING: I wanna go home.

I don't want to see you upset.

Once we've had a bit of time
and stuff, it'll be cool

and it'll be fine.

It's fine. Don't worry.

I just don't like
seeing you upset.

Yeah, I don't want
to see you upset either.

BOTH SNIFFLE

It's just hard.
Like, it's hard for me too.

It'll be all right
once we're back. Yeah, I know.

# Does it ever matter

# Does it matter what I do? #

Give me a cuddle.

# I can never seem to

# Get to you. #

What's he been saying?

Just being level-headed.

Being level-headed?

Is that to say I'm not?
No. It weren't a dig.

Are you sure?
Yeah, I'm positive. All right.

I'm not digging you out.
Can't be bothered.

It's not always the case.

I can't help it sometimes.

No, I know that, yeah.

You just know what I'm like.
You know I get defensive.

It just winds me up. Because me
and you can be cool for...

Me and you can be
having a nice conversation

and it be fine and getting along,

and then, in an instant,
it turns the other way.

It's only cos I care.

I dunno. Look, my guard was up,
your guard was up.

You've obviously never trusted me.

I, in the beginning...

..didn't fully trust you
or know what you was about

or know where it was going and...

I think the problems with me
and you go way deeper than that.

Because we're too alike.
Yeah.

You want me to be there for you,

but you don't wanna
show me everything

so that I can be there for you.

That was the problem.

Cos you was embarrassed
of show me certain sides of you.

Cos I didn't want you to think,

"No, I actually don't wanna
be with her if she's like this."

Why would I think that?
I don't know.

Cos it's happened before.

I wasn't judging you on your past

or your situations in life,
of course not.

SHE SNIFFLES

Maybe I'm just not ready.

Maybe I need to fucking go
and work on myself. I don't know.

But I am gutted, and I'm not
gonna lie that I'm not gutted,

cos I am.

But I just had to do
what was best for me,

and, dunno, hope to leave you

and to make you
fucking realise that...

I don't know.

We're around each other still.

We still gravitate towards each
other. I still care about you.

There's still an attraction there.

But it's like, what, we go home

and we get involved
in something again

that we end up going round
in circles and go backwards?

I just don't really know
how to navigate it.

I just don't know what's best
for us to do. No, neither do I.

I don't know
whether just to go home

and just completely forget
about it all

and just get on with my life.

Well, there's no reason
to fall out.

I don't wanna not talk to you,
but it's obviously...

We're finding it hard
talking still, ain't we?

I don't really wanna talk for you,

but I don't really think
it's necessarily

anything we really wanna be doing

and I don't really think
we wanna be friends. I don't know.

I don't know if you do, but...

I never wanted
to just be your friend obviously.

We always said this.

I just think the most frustrating
thing about it all

is the fact that I still
have a lot of love for you

and I do still really love you.

Well, obviously the same. That's
why we're both finding it so hard.

I was fine before I come out here.
It spun my head coming out here.

It's been hard being around you.
Of course I still care.

I wouldn't be sitting here
talking to you if I didn't.

It's not something
I have the answer to right now.

Me neither... to be honest.

But do you still love me?

Well, like you said,

you don't just switch things off
with someone.

We've spent
a lot of time together.

Yeah, but is it like the love you
had for me when we was together?

As much as I had love for you,
it was going a certain way,

and I just had to deal with that.

And the last conversations we had

after you come out
of that house was...

You didn't... You wanted different
things to what I could give you.

I think we just get home and...

..see how we feel
when we're back to normal life.

Yeah?

And stop getting angry with me,
cos we'll end up falling out.

Can't promise much.
HE CHUCKLES

Don't flick your hair at me!

I didn't want to flick my hair
at you.

You're lucky
that's all you're getting!

Oh, really, yeah?

# How can we go
Back to being friends

# When we just shared a bed? #

# The only way is up. #

# So give in to love

# To find where you belong

# So give in... #

Oh, hey! You went with the green!

The green? I went with the green.
Do you like it?

Yeah, it's nice.
Flattering?

Yeah, you look lovely.
Amazing.

What do you want done?
Can we hurry up?

I'm going out
to meet Amy for a drink.

Can we hurry up?! Take a seat.
Right, move over, then.

What's he doing to you?

Lauren, you need a glam squad
and staff.

Oh, I would love it.

Listen, you've come a long way.
Can you make it, like, loose?

Do you want a face lift an' all
at the same time? Go on, then.

# For the first time, I feel alive

# A real connection

# And nothing's
Gonna change my mind

# So give in
Give in

# To love
To love

# To find where you belong

# So give in
So give in

# To love
To love

# Where you belong... #

Ah, lovely.

It's nice of an evening.
It's not too hot.

Yeah, no, it's nice.

CMG.
My last drink of the holiday.

You look wonderful.
You look like a bride. One day.

Gotta manifest these things
nowadays.

It looks like it's your hen.
You look fantastic.

This trip has been so off.

The last few days haven't been
great. I just can't be bothered.

And honestly,
this has all stemmed from...

Freddie being rude
in a group chat months ago.

Tiptoes, tiptoes.

Danzi! I gotta make sure
I don't go down this decking.

Make sure
you don't go through the decking.

Hey, baby. We're reunited,
the three of us, at last.

Oh, it's been a while.
Missed you. I know.

I've missed youse.

Hi! I haven't even said hello
to everyone. Hi.

Where's Harry? I don't know.
Is he here?

I was just on FaceTime to him.
He said he's coming down.

I've not seen him.
Like, ever since...

Literally all I said to Harry was,
"Your approach was wrong."

I feel like the vibe has changed.

Like, no-one's messaging in 2.5.

I just think it's one big fat
misunderstanding. It is.

That's the only way to put it.

It's a massive, massive
misunderstanding.

It doesn't need to get to a point

where there's tensions
and there's, like, awkwardness.

What's upset me is that I've
been made out to be a nasty person.

Yeah, I get what you mean.

You know how she was saying to me,

"How dare you blow hot and cold
with your friends?

"Is that how you act?"

I thought,
"Hold on, check yourself."

We're not the biggest fans of maybe
Freddie at this moment in time.

Angel!
ALL: Hi.

Hi, Harry, are you OK?

This is the brownest
I've ever seen you.

Youse OK?
Yeah.

We were just having, like,
little chit-chatty catch-ups.

I'm gonna be honest,
I just feel really awkward

because I feel like
we had that club night

and it was lovely.
I had the best time ever.

And I had that conversation with
Freddie, and then since that...

I just remember
Dani coming over to us

and Dani being a bit like...

.."You know you're both as bad
as each other," da-da-da-da.

And that's fine,
do you know what I mean?

She's friends with us both,
and that's fine.

Since that,
we've been around this hotel...

Like, she's avoided me.

I don't get that vibe from her.

You should give her the benefit
of the doubt in this situation.

Cos she is... from the outside,
I think she's a good friend.

I reckon if you speak on a level,
you'll be fine.

I'm gonna just go and say hello.

You'll be fine.
We're here if you need us. Love you.

Holler over if you need
some back-up. You've got this.

Oh, love you, love you, love you.
You'll be fine.

Just be your nice, lovely self.
I am.

I'm lovely, but they're not...

People are not giving me
a chance to be nice,

cos everyone's just got
a stick up their bum!

I'm gonna go to speak
to Dani quickly.

Harry's got musical chairs.

Like, you ain't getting no pet,

if that's how you're gonna act
over a goldfish!

Hey, Harry.
Hello, angel.

Can I sit here?
Course.

Do you want us to leave you alone?

No, you don't have to leave,
do you?

We'll get another drink. Could you
get me a white wine spritzer?

Saff's not coming over here,
is she? Please, God, no.

I don't have the energy today.

I don't think she'd want round two,
ding, ding, ding.

Elma looks stunning.

Elma, whoop-whoo!
Wow!

You look incredible.

Are we OK?
I'm OK.

Same.

I'm OK, and that's where
it's got really awkward,

cos I feel like it's been awkward
since I think the club.

Yeah.
It has been awkward.

You know
that weren't my intention.

I wasn't aware that there was any
kind of awkwardness. I felt sweet.

But then obviously
I heard from the girls.

Like, Amber and Courtney said that
you felt like I was avoiding you,

which I wasn't.
You was.

Huh?
You have.

No, I wasn't.

I just give my opinion,
and it's done.

I feel like, if anything,
I was kind of pushed to the sides

because I didn't agree
with you girls and boys.

Not one person's
pushed you to the side.

OK.
That would never happen.

The only thing that I've heard,

and I'll be 100% honest
with you...

and it really upset me.
Go on.

You've gone around
and called me antagonising.

I probably have turned around
and gone...

I wouldn't say you're antagonising
as a person,

but in that situation
with Freddie,

I felt like you was antagonising
Freddie in that situation.

"Antagonising."

Oh. It's provoking someone.
Yeah, that's what I said.

Or make someone angry.
Yeah.

Or to act in opposite...
opposition to something.

It's got a big meaning, then.

How did I wind him up?
When you're saying,

"Calm down, calm down"
and they're calm, it's a low blow.

Look, babe, there was nothing calm
about him.

Well, I don't think there's
nothing calm about you either.

HE CHUCKLES
I don't.

But that doesn't mean I dislike you.
That's just my opinion.

I take it so personal because
I really fucking love you, Dani.

Yeah, and I fucking love you,
which is why I go against

some of my best mates sometimes
and say,

"Harry has not done anything wrong,"
because I love you.

I'm just honest with my friends,

because I'd want my friends
to be honest with me, that's all.

Hi, girls.
ALL: Hi.

Oh, God.

Oh, I can't deal with this.
What's going on now?

I'm gonna take a seat,
cos I feel like...

Come, sit. ..there's a lot
we need to talk about.

Let's unpick. And clear the air.
Yes.

Let's go.

So obviously at the club
the other day,

I didn't want the conversation
to go the way it did with Harry.

But I also felt, like,
very belittled by you, Chloe,

because there was...

What did she say
that was belittling?

Obviously she was screaming
and dancing about the fact

that youse were all obsessed
with me.

I wasn't screaming and dancing.

You was in a conversation.
You've heard it with...

But I heard what was said.
I'm not being rude, but...

Let's bring this back down.
Let's have a conversation.

OK, let's bring this back down.

Oh, God.

So, you said to Harry,

when it had got heated
and kicked off between you two,

you said,
"You're obsessed with me."

I said, "We're so obsessed
with you, Freddie(!)

"He's so obsessed with you."
I just repeated what you said.

I don't understand
how that's nasty.

But it was between me and Harry,

and I feel like when you fall out
with one of your group,

you take on the whole pack.
It doesn't need to be like that.

Don't call us a pack, cos
that's quite derogatory and rude.

But that's how it feels, though.
No, it doesn't.

You're trying to make that.

Gets very passionate, doesn't he?

They're all antagonising him.
Antagonising.

I feel like you've got
something in your head.

You've been absolutely fine
with me.

You haven't made any sly remarks
or digs, but youse two have.

I think that you have massively
got the wrong end of the stick,

because actually,
coming into this...

This all stemmed
from the group chat, right?

Mmm.
I thought you were rude to Harry.

And actually what I've gone around
since then saying is...

I actually think
you're not a bad person.

You had some valid points.

You just delivered it
completely wrong.

I don't think Chloe Meadows
understands

that when she says certain things,
how that can make someone feel.

Yeah.
And that's all it is. Yeah.

I was very direct in the group chat.

I haven't been rude
about any of youse either.

I haven't, like, said anything
about any of youse three.

But since the club night,
none of us have been rude about you.

I don't want you to have it
in your head... No, but...

I even said
I felt sorry for you after that.

I feel like you're saying
it's in my head,

but it's how youse
have made me feel,

and I think then when
obviously Saffron's pulled you up

on your mean girl behaviour,
you then wanna cry about it.

Mean girl behaviour?

It is mean girl behaviour. It is.
It's not.

Five people versus one.

I do feel like the mean girl
comments need to stop a bit.

I don't think they're mean girls.

I know you've had
different experiences with them.

It's not about
them being mean girls.

I think it's when they're
individually not with each other,

they're absolutely sweet
and the nicest people going,

but when they're together,
it's a different story.

It's just I haven't experienced
that side of them. Yeah.

Your problem is with Harry.
But, listen, the thing is...

And it should be kept
between you and Harry to sort out.

Thank you. It should have.

They're saying about Harry.

The comments in the club made
the other day wasn't necessary.

It was minor.
All I did was repeat you.

But it's minor because you're not
on the other end of it. I am.

No, but she's not directly
being horrible to you.

I didn't say anything horrible
about you.

But it's belittling, though...

How would you feel if someone
done that to you? It's not nice.

I didn't mock you. She was just
repeating what you said.

Which is impersonating me.
You said something really rude.

Impersonating me.
You said something rude!

Ain't no getting
to the bottom of this.

That was between me and Harry.
You said it yourself as well.

It should have been kept
between me and Harry.

You shouldn't have made yourself
busy. Fine.

I shouldn't have said
the things I said.

But I was sticking up
for my friend,

because I think that you got rude
to him. That's all.

Like, I'm not that person,
and it's really annoying.

But that's how it does come across.

I think you've decided who I am
and the kind of person I am...

It's not...
Anything I do now...

It's not...
No, anything I do now,

you'll make out
I'm like this horrible person.

I'm telling you
how you make me feel.

How comes your feelings are valid
but mine aren't?

What's going on over there?
..also rude to me!

It isn't one-sided.
It's like going round in circles.

I don't like that he's sitting
there with all of Girlband

and no-one's with him.

Ella, is it kicking off
or is it...?

Is it kicking off?

It's very back and forth,
ping-pong ball shit.

It's always victim playing with
all of you. At the end of the day...

I feel like you're sitting there
playing the victim.

I'm telling you how I feel.
We won't get this resolved.

I'm going over. I feel like
he's saying jack shit. You should.

I'm done with this conversation.

I thought I'd get a sorry off you,
Chloe, but you can't own your shit.

Sorry for what?
Are you joking?

Have you not listened to me at all?

Going round in fucking circles.
I'm not listening to it.

Is this not gonna get cleared up?
No! Is it fuck!

I'm not doing it.
SAFF: Fred, come here, please.

No, I don't wanna sit
with him either.

Oh, God.
What the helly?

I feel like
he just wants to storm off.

Can I just say that you literally
articulated yourself like a queen?

# Where do we go?

# Oh, oh, oh

# Whoa, oh. #

How is everyone feeling now
we're back in Essex? So happy!

We're very lucky to have you.
You're the best.

The best?
The best.

No, you're the best.
You love it.

I'm gonna be the mature one.

Hold out that olive branch.
Like that.

I don't think Elm's realised
how much feelings you had for her.

I like to think he thinks
we're on talking terms, yeah.

But have you ruled it all out, Elm?
It was pretty fucking clear.

Saffron don't sit there and cry.

I'm really struggling
to find sympathy.

DOORBELL RINGS
All right, I'll let you in.

This is gonna be fucking awkward.

I just feel like
I've been in a position before

where I've had to defend
my character,

and I feel like
I'm having to do it again.

I've had to go around
fucking Essex justifying myself.

I ain't gonna change.

But you shouldn't have to change.
Course you're not.

# The only way is up, baby

# For you and me now

# The only way is up, baby

# For you and me now... #

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