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# The only, only, only

# The only way is up, baby

# For you and me now, oooh! #

MUSIC: 'Good Vibrations'
by Tensnake and Bobby Harvey

# Can you feel the good vibrations?

# Take this moment
For the friends you're making

# Don't matter
About the destination... #

THEY CHEER

Happy birthday, Amy!
CHEERING

Happy birthday, Amy!

# Good vibrations
Can you feel the good vibrations?

# Take this moment
For the friends you're making... #

Hey, look!
There's some sugar daddies, guys.

Sugar daddies with a boat!

# Can you feel the good vibrations?

# Take this moment
For the friends you're making... #

I just had to pluck a hair
out of my belly button. Why?

Dunno.

Maybe I'm getting belly button hair.

What, there?
I know.

Basically,
I'm getting a snail trail.

DIAGS LAUGHS
No, don't...

Hey, no, don't.

Cos it don't rub in.
DIAGS LAUGHS

I'm just worried
about your skin safety.

I can't get in this ring!

CHEERING

# As long as you feel
Good vibrations

# Can you feel it? #

Cheers, babe.

Cheers, my lovely.
Happy birthday.

Literally, when, like,
obviously, you invited,

I was thinking,
"Ah, I dunno if I can do it,"

but I've done it, done it again -
another milestone.

Oh, honestly, it's just...
it's just nice.

I just really wish
that everyone was a bit like us,

and then just, says it how it is,
and then they just squash things.

That's old-school Essex.

That's old-school Essex,
you're right.

There was no...
See, these new Essex lot,

they haven't got a clue.

We're the original
old-school Essex.

We know how to talk.
We sound so old, Lauren.

I know. But I am.

I'm 35 today.
Oh, babe.

All these young Essex lot.
I know.

No, they don't squash it.

They hold onto it,
and they just wanna keep on.

We're not like that.
No.

I do feel
a little bit awkward, Lauren...

Do you?
..around Joe and Junaid.

Like, you are constantly
always with them. I know.

I know Joe and Junaid
are your really good friends,

but also,
you have got all of us as well.

100%.
And there is...

I feel like
there is such a divide...

Babe.
..with you three and all of us lot.

Oh, I hate that.
I don't want you to be like that.

No, I don't want that.
I do feel, as a friend, Lauren,

I do feel like I can't come over to
you and go, "You all right, babe?"

I just feel awkward.
Don't ever feel like that.

I don't wanna feel like that,
but I do.

They know you're my friend.

I do feel awkward.
I don't want you to feel like that,

cos I wanna feel
like I'm everyone's friend.

There'll never be a divide
with me and you.

I thought I'd let you know
that's how I feel lately.

No, don't.
That I just feel...

Babe, if you wanna message me,
"What you doing?"

I'd come and see youse
and go in the pool with kids.

Course I would.

I do always go, "Are you OK, babe?"
and I feel like you...

No, you do.
You don't text me sometimes,

and I feel like...
I should.

I want you to text me.
Yeah, I need to make a...

You're right -
I do need to make more effort,

and it's not just with you.

I do with everyone.

# Let's do karaoke on the West Side

# I wanna hit every note with you

# You and me
Yeah, we could do it all night

# So, baby, what you think?

# You and me can sing it, sing it

# All night, all night

# Let's do karaoke, baby. #

I feel like we should maybe try
and learn, like...

If you think me or you...
..Spanish.

..can learn a language,
you've gone nuts.

I know,
you can't even speak English.

Let alone any other language.
We're blind leading the blind.

So I don't think you can ever think
that we can do that.

I can barely even speak,
let alone try and read or anything.

You can, babe.

Have you had fun so far?
Mm-hm.

So happy that I'm here?
Yeah.

So happy. You know what it is?

I think with the boys, they've all
got their couples as well.

Well, unless...
apart from Dan and obviously Sammy.

Oh, yeah. Not any more.

Now, obviously I've missed out
on, like, a day, but...

You've missed out on a day,

and you've already missed out
on all the drama.

I know. I missed out
on about seven arguments,

by the sounds of it.

We don't need to be in the drama.
No.

We hate drama, we're drama-free.

If I was on the other end
of some of the people,

and how they argue here,
I would just be a ball of tears.

Yo, gang.

S'happening, my boy?
Hi, my love.

S'happening?
What you saying? You OK?

You good?
Yeah, I'm good, I'm good.

Chat to me.
How are youse?

We're chilling, loving life -
good vibes.

You're just perfect, innit?
THEY LAUGH

Just rub it in my face.
I didn't need to say it.

Not to blow our own horn,
but, yeah, we are.

Just rub it in my face.
Little bit perfect, yeah. Sorry!

Sorry that we're in love,
Sam, sorry.

No, it's cool.
I'm very happy for you both.

How are you, Sammy?
How did your chat go?

Obviously, in an ideal world,

it would've been me and her sort of
getting back on track, but that...

sort of, I found out last night
that wasn't gonna happen.

Aw, Sammy.

Up until yesterday, it was like,

you know how it is
when you read the signs,

and it was like,
I was 99% sure it was done,

but it was like, yesterday,
I still had that 1%.

Hoping for a little bit.
Do you know what I'm saying?

It was like ripping
the Band-Aid off,

but now it's like, right,
I woke up this morning,

like, oh, it's actually done.
It was a tough convo.

I was dreading it all day.
That's so normal, bro.

A normal conversation
with a person you once loved,

do you know what I mean?
Yeah.

100%.
It's gonna be... It's easy.

Have you spoken to Elms
since last night, or...?

Yeah, I mean,
she text me after we left,

and just sort of said

that she didn't want it
to end in that way, like...

She didn't wanna see me upset.
Do you know what I mean?

But I just sort of texted her back
and just said, like...

I don't think she ever realised
how much I did care about her.

BOTH: Yeah.

I know she didn't realise that,
and it was...

She said to me, she was like, "Aw,

"why can't we just brush it
under the carpet?"

and I said, "Mate, if I brush
my feelings under the carpet,

"there'll be a lump about this big."

Do you know what I mean?

You can't do stuff like that anyway.
It's not healthy.

Yeah. Feelings don't just disappear
like that.

No, they don't.
They don't.

I haven't been like that in a while.

Sat there, all tearing up and that.
Did you cry?

I was like, "What's going on?"
Oh, man.

Aw, Sammy.
Love you, bro.

No, it was cool.
It was only a couple.

That's fine, bruv.
It's good you've had the chat now

and obviously you've cleared
the air, cos I know in your head,

you was thinking you have no clue
where you stand right now. Nah.

It's good you've got the closure
you needed. Yeah, that's it.

Yeah, bruv.
Just do you for a while.

Focus on Sammy for a while.
Yeah.

Should prioritise yourself,
do everything for you.

Mm. Give yourself the love that
you've been giving other people,

and that's all you need to do.

That's it.
And when the time's right, trust me,

you'll find someone that
deserves you and appreciate you. Mm.

As much as you should do.
Hopefully, brother.

Love you, mate.
We'll just adopt you as our son.

Yeah, we'll adopt you as our son.

I'm gonna go for a walk.
Love, my boy.

Love you.
Shout me if you need me.

Dap me up.
Love you.

Love you guys. Catch you later.

See you later.
Catch you later.

# It's a heavy load
We found our balance... #

ROMAN TUTS

I feel for him, man.
Sad for him.

He looks like a sad little puppy
right now. He looks sad.

# And we've come so far
But there's still so far to go. #

Oh, lovely!

Daniel!

THEY LAUGH

How you been, Daniel?

Freddie boy.
I've missed you.

Yeah, I've missed you.

Oh, say it with a bit of enthusiasm.
No, I've missed you. I have.

You have, in't you?
Yeah.

Deep down in your heart,
you've missed me. Yeah.

Oh, my dick is so small,
it's a joke.

THEY LAUGH

Like, it's shrivelled.

It's so bad, that.
That's the last thing you need.

Oh, it's terrible.
THEY LAUGH

We've hardly seen each other.
Normally, I'm in your pocket.

I know, yeah. It's strange.

It is all a bit strange,
though, innit?

I mean, this is
a completely different vibe to...

to what it has been the past couple
of years, I suppose, innit?

Obviously, I spoke to Ella
about your chat. Yeah.

I feel like, look,
it was an hard chat. Mm.

Needed to be had, obviously.

But I think we ended on
as good a terms as we could.

I know that you was hurt
just as much as she was hurt.

It's a sad situation, it is,
because one thing that's undeniable

is the chemistry
that youse two have.

Like, it even turns me on,
do you know what I mean?

Youse two gravitate towards
each other, I'm like, "Fuck."

But Ella can put on a front,
but she is completely devastated.

I think she naturally is gonna feel

like she isn't part of the group
any more.

Of course, do you know what I mean?
But...

She's heartbroken,
but I think over time,

hopefully,
youse can be around each other,

and it be a laugh,
and it not be awkward,

with the whole group,
do you know what I mean?

Yeah. Listen, I would like that.

It now feels like it's very much...

A divide.
..a divide...

And it is awkward, naturally.
..with everyone. It's awkward.

You've been having murders
with Jordan,

which ain't helped it even further.

Look, listen, I do think Jordan...

..ultimately is a meddler.

I think he likes to stir the pot
a bit

and getting himself involved
when he doesn't need to,

and I think that becomes
very frustrating for me.

I just think
he's a passionate person,

and I think sometimes
he feels the need to say things

and back situations
that probably doesn't...

at that time,
don't really need backing

to the extent
that he thinks it does.

Why don't you get in the pool
with me and play mermaids?

Aw, erm... Now?

Yeah, right now.
Oh, it's mad cos I had to, erm...

No, there's nothing else you can do.
I had to go and do something.

Come on, Dan! Come on!
I'll tell you what -

I'll swim over the other side
with you. Come on, then.

And then I'll get out,
and I've got something to do.

Oh, right. What you got to do?

I've got... I dunno,
I've gotta meet someone somewhere.

Oh, really?
Ugh!

Come on.
It's cold here.

Come on. Shall we have a race?
What? To the other side?

Yeah.
Right, ready?

Three, two, one...

# You can do whatever you want
Whenever you want

# Cos everything's yours tonight

# Whatever you want
Whenever you want

# Just open your eyes

# Just say whatever you want
Whenever you want

# But, baby, you've got to try

# Whenever I think of him
I always remember that night... #

Harry!

Ooh, ah!
Harry!

I got us our drinks, Amber.
Oh, stunning.

Don't spill a drop.
Careful!

Don't! This boat keeps rocking.
Thank you so much.

I'm like, falling. Oh!

How nice is this, though?

I feel like Amy's,
though, having the best time.

I can see her letting her hair down.

She was driving the boat
at one point. I know!

I was gonna say,
"Where are you driving us to?"

Probably driving to Southend-On-Sea,
back to Essex.

Yeah, going back to Essex.
Please don't.

No, but it's good
cos I said to Amy, like, "Look,

"no matter what, when you are a mam,
you still need to have you time."

Yeah.
100%.

Well, can we just talk
about the other day?

Oh, gosh.
Desperate and irrelevant girl.

Desperate, irrelevant.
Actually wild.

They owe you an apology
because you weren't involved.

Them words that they've said
are extremely personal,

and I don't get
where they come from,

because I'll be honest now,
girls, I'm very relevant.

Look, it, it does affect us.

Like, I will have a laugh about it,

but when people do say things
like that,

I can't forget that, cos I think
it's came from some place.

Thing is, listen,
Ella and Freddie are my best mates,

you've got to remember,
that group chat,

as much as it was about Ella,

it wasn't actually Ella
sending them messages.

It was Freddie.
Yeah.

What was Ella's opinions on
Freddie sending that on her behalf?

I actually...
Like, I think she agrees with it,

but against certain people.
She don't expect...

Amber, obviously,
you're not gonna post for her.

Courtney, I think the same for you.
And Chloe, no.

But I feel like there was
other people, maybe you, Soph.

I feel like she's a bit naive

to think that people
are gonna post for her.

I think
everyone's got separate reasons,

and I sort of feel like,
if you come out of that,

what she did,
and realise no-one posts,

I think you should take a look
at yourself and think, "Right,

"why did everyone individually
not feel like they can support me?"

Harry, you as well,
like, it's just...

Why would Harry...?
I'm sorry, but why would...?

I get why you didn't.

Why would Harry
after everything's gone on...?

I honestly...
I feel like with this group chat,

I feel like I'm the one
that's getting the bad treatment,

because I was the only one
that expressed my opinion,

and I don't regret my opinion,
like, babe...

Good on you.
Give me the mic, I'll say it again.

Know what I mean?
It ain't a problem.

You sat there and realised
you needed to say something.

Ella hasn't really been a friend
to me for the last year,

and there's a lot
that has been said,

and a lot that's been happening

that I will speak to Ella about
when the time is right.

Freddie, on the other hand,
like, his approach, sometimes,

Freddie, is so rude.

It's just sad cos I feel like
we got to such a place,

like, all of us.
Agree. In Bali.

For years, there was such a divide,

and then I felt like finally,
we were all mixing.

If she didn't make that comment
about Sophie,

I'll be honest,
she would've been here.

It's been amicable.

She would've been here
if she didn't make that comment.

Keep your mouth shut for once.

You don't need
to be getting involved.

# I don't need him, I need a drink

# I don't know why life
Is so tough-love lately

# I'm still bad, babe

# Who's bad?
I'm still bad. #

Hello. Mwah.
Hey, my baby.

BOTH: Mwah.
She's just great, isn't she?

How good is she?
How are you, babe?

I'm all right.
Yeah?

I feel better
now I've spoken to Dan.

Mm.
What was the chat?

Just, like, clearing the air,
and just, it was quite emotional.

Was it?
Yeah.

Dan's been more affectionate
with you than he was with Amber.

Mm. And from me seeing that,
that just says a lot in itself.

Yeah. There's so much love there.
Yeah.

But...

It's... We both still have
our walls up massively. Yeah.

So we sort of, like,
self-sabotage things...

and it don't...
it just doesn't work,

cos we just obviously
can't let our walls down. Mm.

Do you not think
he put a lot of effort into you?

I feel like he did put effort in,
but I feel like the effort is

what should be natural any...
to be honest.

You didn't have to train him,
did you? No, I couldn't.

He was in love with you
from day dot, babe.

Yeah, I know.
THEY LAUGH

I love it, cos you're like
best friends as well - it's great.

I've changed. I've actually
changed massively, innit?

Yeah, you have. You've grown, Ro.
I've grown, innit?

You've well grown.

I'm so mature now.
No, you actually are.

Shut up, babe.
He's in love.

What do you mean?
It's the compliment to you. Hello.

Yes, my boy.
How are we all?

Hi. You all right?
You OK?

Not bad, how we feeling?
Good, bruvva.

Can I speak to El, quickly?
Course you can, bruvva.

Sorry, guys.
Sort of just nicked your seat.

Now you're off.
No worries.

Catch you in a bit.

Yeah.
How are you?

Yeah, I'm all right. Are you?
I'm all right.

I'm all right.
Are you, though?

# No more words
Forget you for now

# No more words
Forget you for now. #

# The only way is up! #

# Oh, I want you so good
And I need you so bad

# Rip the shirt off my back
And turn this room to black... #

Let's take a picture of Fred.

THEY LAUGH

He's running away!

LAUGHTER CONTINUES

Running away from the drama.

# Yeah, you heard me say this before

# So let's just talk about it

# As we head
Straight through the door

# My roommate's gone
And I've been craving

# A little bit more
I need you... #

Give me a kiss, I love you.

# Shaking the floor
The floor

# Put your feet on my dash
I don't mind if we. #

How are you?
Yeah, I'm all right, are you?

I'm all right.
I'm all right, obviously.

Are you, though?

Yeah, I am, but there's obviously,

naturally gonna be a few things
on my mind.

You know, obviously,
I'm annoyed and upset

about the whole day went
the other day.

Do you know what I mean?

And I think, obviously,
first things first,

I don't appreciate
what you said to Soph.

I get that, cos you ride for Soph,

you're a team,
and I understand that,

but I think
what you've got to understand

is that comment wasn't made
in a way of, "She's desperate."

That comment is made in a way of -
if you're gonna put up

with that behaviour,
to me, that's desperate.

That's not calling Sophie desperate.
That's not what come out your mouth.

What come out your mouth was,
"You're desperate."

Whatever was said,
whether it was she was desperate

or it's desperate,
it weren't meant in that way.

It was meant in a way that if you
was to stand for that behaviour,

then to me, that's desperate.

And what I was thinking in my head,

is when she turned around
and she said,

"Oh, I'd probably
be with him still,"

that then made me question
my reasons

as to why mine and Dan's
relationship went down the pan.

And it made me think,
"Well, am I being pathetic

"for not sticking by
that behaviour?" Mm.

But all that said,
the bottom line of it is,

don't say that to her.
Do you know what I mean?

You owe her an apology,
like, big time.

Someone called her irrelevant.

I dunno whether that was you,
one of your mates.

I know what you're saying, Jordan.
I'm not gonna disagree with you

because I know
I have to speak to her,

and I'll speak to her
within my own time.

But at the same time, like,

I've come into a situation
where I've split up with my fella.

I feel like no-one's talking to me
because you've all heard his side

and obviously
you're all gonna back him.

Things, when people split up,
like, they're not easy.

They never are, and people...
It doesn't make it easier

when people think it's OK
to get involved.

My name was being mentioned
by Junaid and Joe

prior to you walking over there,
about the group chat situation.

Junaid has turned around
and said something to Soph,

which has already riled me up, so
I'm not in a good headspace anyway.

In that moment, I was very attacked.

I felt like everyone's heard
his side of the situation.

No-one's even asked me
if I'm all right, to be quite frank.

After that come out of my mouth,
I thought, "What the fuck?"

Cos that's not me as a person.
I don't ever make comments on girls.

I just don't do that.
That's not within my blood, Jord.

It escalated so quickly,
and it didn't need to go like that.

Because at the same time,

mine and Dan's relationship
doesn't concern anyone else... No.

..other than me and him.
Me and him know what really went on.

So I know what I've gotta do.
Yeah.

I'll speak to her when I see her.
Cheers?

Thank you. See you in a bit, yeah.
Cheers.

# What are you waiting for?

# Cos I've been standing here

# I've been standing here

# What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?

# Oh, I've been standing here
Whoa... #

JUNAID SIGHS

I hate sand so much.
I know.

Sand in the feet, like,
it's just not really a vibe, is it?

Let's be honest. Oh, really?
No, I find it very grounding.

D'you know why sand's called sand?
Why?

Because it's in between sea
and land.

Are you joking?!
Nah.

Is that actually true?

You've just made that up
on the spot.

Are you joking?
I'm full of knowledge.

Where?
What d'you mean?

Not just a pretty face.

Oh, stunning.
Oh, beautiful.

Have we all got the same?

Oh. So similar.

Cheers!
Cheers, baby boys.

Cheers, boys.
Love youse.

There's nothing better
than a fruit smoothie on a beach.

Now, boys, listen,
I don't want negativity.

You know I had no intentions

of arguing with Jordan Brook
the other day. Not at all.

At all, in the slightest. Yeah.
Well, we weren't even there.

Well, he wasn't even part
of what that was about.

He completely made it about himself.

He got involved,
and that is why it blew up.

Course.
And you know, I...

Jordan does that all the time,
though. Yeah, he does.

He can't help hisself.

He's a meddler.
At the end of the day,

me and Jordan
aren't gonna be friends,

then obviously, Harry D's a complete
different kettle of fish now.

Right, what's going on
with you and Harry D? Listen.

Obviously, when I put a message
in the group chat...

..to support Ella,

Harry took it upon himself
to play victim, like he does,

and make the situation about him.

Mm.
I was rude to Harry.

But I'm not gonna mince my words...

and adjust who I am
for people's sensitivity.

Mm. No.
I'm very direct speaking. Yeah.

I mean what I say when I say it.
Yeah, of course.

And I'm not gonna now back track
and be like,

"Oh, I should've worded it
differently."

Harry makes digs at people.

When there's no-one around.

When there's no-one around,
he makes sly comments. Yeah.

And then when confronted,
he claims it's from a genuine place.

I would actually respect Harry more
if he owned what he said,

because that's what's beginning
to grate on me.

Yeah. Least everyone knows
where they stand with me.

Listen, at the end of the day, we're
all in the same friendship group,

so I will be mature about it
and clear the air

and just outright ask him,
"What is your problem?"

God, Fred, I feel like Portugal

is gonna be a roller-coaster
for you.

I'm telling you now.
It is mad. I'm exhausted.

THEY SHRIEK
Oi, lindo! "Single" por favor.

CHEERING, HORN HONKS

Yes! Oh, they heard us.
They honked their horn.

Honk your horn
if you're horny for Livvy!

The sparkly one's single!

HORN HONKS

Hopefully we do see some fellas,

I've learnt some Portuguese
just in case. Oh!

Tell me.
Are you on the pull?

Obviously I've not got the accent,
so we'll do the Essex version.

Oi, lindo, venha a bordo
do meu barco.

"Oi, lindo." What does that mean?
"Oi, lindo!" Get in.

What does that mean?

"Hello, handsome,
come on board my boat."

Anyway, enough of that.

I wanna hear all about you,

cos I've heard that you and Sammy
went out for dinner last night,

and I just need to know
what is going on.

We went for drinks.
For drinks. Yeah.

How are you feeling?
When I woke up this morning,

I looked like I'd been stung
by two bees.

Why? You been crying? It was awful.
I cried myself to sleep.

Why? What happened?

When I got there,
he looked so broken. I'm gonna cry.

Oh, don't cry.
Don't cry.

Don't cry.
SOBBING: No, cos it was so sad.

So you think he's taking it...
You're so sweet.

So, he's taking it harsher
than you thought?

No, because he was sobbing.

Was he actually?
Sammy was crying?

He was crying his eyes out.

Yeah, but I...

I can't deal with people crying,
you're gonna make me cry.

But it's not like, and I know
it's really harsh, but you can't...

No, cos I just feel guilty.

You can't blame yourself
for something not working out.

But I'm so dismissive.
I'm so dismissive,

I'm like, "If that's not that,
I'm not gonna sit there

"and work on something,
because why should I?"

But it's because of my age.
It doesn't make you a bad person.

It doesn't make me a bad person,

but it makes me feel shit
because he was so upset.

Like, he was... he was so upset,
you don't understand.

Like, imagine seeing a geezer cry.

Like, he's so sore.
He's not typically emotional either.

I just feel like youse are
at different stages of life.

I need to respect the fact
that he's said he needs time,

and I was sitting there,
when he said, "I need time,"

I was looking at him
and I was thinking,

"Do I just say, like,
let's just see how things work out?"

I think that's the worst thing
you could do. I stayed quiet,

and I was beating myself up,
but realistically, in my head,

I was like,
"I don't wanna lead him on,

"because he's broken.
I've broken him."

He's upset, Elma.
He'll get over it, babe.

Time's a healer. Everyone deals
with emotions different.

I feel like you need a fella to half
tell you about yourself, Elm.

Yeah, I do. And this is where
I think the age comes into things...

And I don't wanna use that as an
excuse, cos I think it's a cop out.

It's not, babe,
but if you go from a boy to a man,

he is still
in the early 20s stages,

whereas we're more
in the late 20s stages.

And you went out last night
and you both spoke about it

and you laid it out on the table.
You've started the line now.

This is like the beginning for you.

But I wasn't meant to message him,
I told myself I wouldn't,

and I still messaged him.

I couldn't sleep like that.
Yeah, because you love him!

If you wanted to, you can do that.

No, but I couldn't go to bed,
like, angry with each other.

Do you know what I mean?
So I was laying in bed,

and I was like,
"I can't sleep like this,

"knowing that he's gone to bed
and he's upset".

So I messaged him like, "I know
I shouldn't be messaging you,

"but I want you to know
that I'm still here

"and I'm gonna always be here."

Listen, you've just gotta
give him time,

time's a healer,
he will get over it.

He will get over it.

Youse just weren't the right people
for each other.

But you need
to stop beating yourself up.

We're always gonna be here for you.
You've got all your friends here.

And for Sammy as well.

Cry on a fucking boat
for Amy's birthday...

Oh, cry on a boat,
I'll cry with you. Don't matter.

Can we liven up, please?

Let's have a group hug.
Let's have a cuddle.

We love you. We're here for you.

Love you so much.
Love you, girl. Love you so much.

Love you.

# Wake up in the morning
Oh, would you look at me now

# Like it's a memory of you. #

How's your day been, girlie?

LAUGHS

How's YOUR day been, girlie?
I've been on a boat.

How d'you feel? D'you feel like
you're still on the boat?

Slightly sunstroke.
Yeah.

Slightly rocking still.
My vision is a bit blurry.

You're welcome. Cheers. Enjoy.
Thanks.

It's obviously nice to be with,
like, all the girls,

but it's just, as much as it's nice,

it's like, in the ideal world
and the ideal situation,

you would've been on the boat
as well.

Oh, yeah, if it didn't happen
at the pool party.

Yeah. I mean,
obviously everything got brought up,

and I said, like,
I defended you as much...

I tried, but it was like
a pack of wolves going at me.

I feel like everything
that I said got shut down.

I kind of tried to explain it
to them,

even with the Jordan situation,

I said youse kind of have got your
reasons for falling out with Jordan,

whereas with Sophie,
you can probably agree,

like, it shouldn't have got
that far with Sophie...

Yeah. The name calling
shouldn't have happened,

and it did escalate.

Yeah, cos I bumped into...

I went down to the pool
with Roman and Matilda. Cute.

They're in love, it's really cute.
They are.

Jordan then come over, and I just
said to Jordan, in that moment,

when, obviously,
things were said to Sophie,

they're not cool,
they're not all right,

and they wasn't meant in that way
that they come out. Yeah.

It was just a reaction

because I felt like everyone was
on the attack where I was concerned.

Course, so you've gone on
the defence, naturally. Of course.

I think she feels like the comments
that were made,

like "desperate and irrelevant",
seemed personal. No.

So she was like,
"I just don't, I feel like..."

She said she feels like
you've been thinking that of her,

and then it's come up out of anger,

but I was like, "Honestly, like..."
No. "I get why you'd think that,

"but I would know
if she felt that way about you,

"and she doesn't."
No.

I honestly, hand on my heart,
do not think that of Sophie one bit.

No, I know you don't.

It just come out of my mouth.
You know what I'm like,

in the heat of the moment,
things are said that aren't meant.

Well, at least you've had that
conversation with him, though. Yeah.

And it's out of the way.

Yeah. And I've spoke to Dan,
which I feel so much better about.

I feel like coming out here,

I was quite apprehensive
of what it was gonna be like.

It could be awkward, couldn't it?
He is an ex.

If it's meant to be,
we'll gravitate back to each other,

but if not, we won't.
So that's not closing the door.

Well, I don't really know, Dan.
I'm still confused.

Are you still flirting?
Yeah, I'd say it's innocent.

You're gonna be in his bed
by the end of this trip, Ella Rae.

I'm not.
You are.

That would make me desperate.

THEY LAUGH

Oh, God.
You all right, Dan?

Hi!
Helloooooo!

You OK?

Mwah. Oh, my God,
deck in heels is not the one.

Yeah, be careful, Chloe.

We don't need you collapsing.
Oh, no, this is not good.

You OK? Yeah, I'm good.
How are youse?

Yeah.
Yeah. Did you have a nice trip?

Did you have a good day?
Yeah.

What did you do today?

Erm, what did I do today?
Had some catching up.

Just a bit of catching up,
as you do.

Just chilled by the pool.

We should, I dunno...
Maybe I should... We should talk?

Yeah. I dunno if you wanna talk now
or something?

Yeah, we can talk now.

Yeah?
Yeah, yeah. Course.

I just dunno,
it's just been horrible, hasn't it?

Yeah, but the-the...

But, listen, there's no issue
on my side with you.

Yeah. Like, there's no issue
on my side with any of youse,

I'm gonna be honest.
I know.

That whole group chat situation
made everything pretty awkward.

Yeah.
I was none the wiser of it.

I was in the house,

I didn't know what was said,
what was going on until I come out.

We haven't spoke since Bali.

I was trying so hard
to build that friendship again

and be fine with you, and I feel
like you have been shut off.

That's how I go, though.
You are shut off.

When I get hurt...
So, then don't be my friend.

Being selfish now, for myself,

I feel like I'm taking a step back
from you, Ella...

I took a step back from you
a long time ago

when you broke my loyalty.
Sweet, but you've done it a lot.

I feel like you're coming on
a bit aggy with me,

and it doesn't need to be like that.

I'm happy to be amicable.
I'm not being aggy.

I just wanted to say how I feel,

because I'd rather just say it
to your face.

It would've been nice to come out
to a bit of support

from people that I've been around
for a very long time.

Especially if you... But how do you
expect someone to support you

and you've just sat there and said

you checked out of a friendship
with me a long time ago?

Because I'm different. If youse two
was to go on a show tomorrow,

I would slap up something for you,
because that's just...

For me?! Yeah, of course I would.
I'm just different like that.

Mine and yours loyalties broke

on that day when you went
and told Amber my business

when I told you not to,

and then that's when
I had to take a step back

from my friendship with you cos
I thought, "If I can't trust you,

"what's the point in a friendship?"

Yeah. OK. Well... maybe in future,
don't forgive people

and still hold a massive grudge
against them.

I understand
where youse are coming from,

but I do think it's a bit of a shame
to leave the friendship completely.

D'you not feel like there's
any chance of building it a bit?

If she's checked out of
the friendship, I think we're sweet.

OK. Fine. We're sweet.
So there's no friendship?

Or is that a bit of a stupid
question? I don't think so.

I think that we've clarified that.

I think we've clarified it.

Anyway, guys, have a nice night.

See youse later. See you later.
And youse.

What the fuck?

At least youse have had that co...

I couldn't stop, sorry. I felt like
I couldn't stop laughing.

It's not to be rude,
it was just a bit uncomfortable.

I feel like he wanted a row.

I don't even know what to say,
I'm speechless.

I guess there's no friendship
with Harry D, simple as that.

I suppose youse have said
you can't even be civil,

so I guess you're not even civil.

Oh!

Yes. Thank you very much.
Ah, lovely.

Oi, lads.

Coming! En route.
Thank you, my friend.

Ah. Thank you very much.

Yeah, you need to drink beer.
Obrigado.

What one's this? What one's this?
Budweiser?

What? Budweiser?
Nah.

No, it's not a Budweiser, nah.
Oh.

Why d'you say that?
You really don't like beer, do you?

That's a beer, innit? Budweiser?
Yeah.

It's not a beer we drink,
but, yeah, it is a beer.

It is A beer, yeah.

Oh, OK, a Hei-Hei-Hei... A Heineken?
A Hei-Hei-Hei...?

No, no, it's not a Heineken.
It's a Sagres.

Sagres? Sagres.
Oh, is that a Portuguese beer?

Mate, just drink it.
Portuguese beer. Right, go on.

Just try it.
Yeah, I'm gonna have it.

Out of ten. I wanna hear out of ten.

Yeah, well nice, man.
And why. It's nice.

Is it well nice, man?
Yeah.

Boys, this ain't the trip
I've been expecting. Nah.

Ain't for me, either.
Nah.

Sunburn, terrible shirts.

Break ups.

Er, random attacks.

Two exes in the hotel. Crying.

Like, this isn't the trip
I thought...

I was not expecting this.

No, no, exactly.

Locked in a bitter feud
with Junaid and Freddie.

THEY LAUGH

Sometimes you've just gotta think,
"This ain't worth it for me, mate."

You know what I mean?

And it's true, if I could go back,
I probably would've thought that,

but I'm a very passionate person
towards...

obviously towards Soph,
she's my girlfriend,

but I'm very passionate
towards my friends,

including all youse lot,
I love youse all,

but especially you, Dan, like,
I'll...

With what's going on with you
and everything that went on,

maybe I have said too much,
but I'm passionately backing you

because you're my pal.
I know you are.

I've seen you when you weren't good.
I said that you are.

I know other people have obviously
got stuff going on out here,

and they...
they should be more depressed,

but you have been a sad, boring man,
it's pathetic.

Have you ever seen Dan
sad and pathetic?

Yeah. He does it
behind closed doors.

I've never really seen Dan's face
change, to be fair.

Nah, mate, when he's sad,
he looks pretty similar.

His bird just broke up with him
and went on Big Brother.

THEY LAUGH

You have to really delve into it

to find out if he's that sad or not,
d'you know what I mean?

That's why she thought
I didn't care. Yeah.

You can never tell!

No, listen, he's got a reason
to be down about something.

Oi, come on, whose round is it?
D'you want this?

Beer, beer?
Yeah, please.

Thank you, brother.
Fruit Shoot.

LAUGHTER

What you saying, mate?

I'm all right, mate.
How's things?

It's been a bit of a weird trip,
I'll be honest. Naturally.

Me and you both.

You know, yeah.
We're sort of in the same boat.

Obviously yours is a bit
of a different scenario.

Yeah, a bit fresher.
Yeah, course.

But no matter how much time passes,
it's, yeah, very abnormal

to be away with any of
your ex-girlfriends. 100%, mate.

Naturally, like, it's gonna be tough
for you being out here anyway.

Look, this is what I'm struggling
with cos, like...

like, see, if you're around Ella,

like, when you're around her now,

do you still get that sort of,
like, that feeling?

D'you know what I mean?

Cos Elma was like to me
the other night saying about how,

"Ah, I just want you
to be natural round me."

But it's like...

Personally, me, I dunno if it's cos
it's so fresh, but I just can't.

Mate, do you know what?
I think someone that you care about,

or have cared about
in a certain way,

I don't think you ever can be...

Nah, back to normal.
..really normal around someone.

It's... It's hard.
It's proper hard, mate.

Let's say, for instance,
on this trip, Amber's out here.

I would find it hard
to be normal with Amber

just because of everything
we've been through,

and because at one time
you had something,

and that was a big part
of your life.

So it would be weird to...

Go back...
..just be normal and chill.

This is what I said, mate, cos we
was chatting, and Elma was like,

"I just wanted to brush things
under the carpet." And, like...

Part of me thinks, like,
"Oh, yeah, just sort of let it go,"

and then part of me is like, mate,

"I just can't believe
how sort of easy she can..."

I dunno if she's just putting
a front on, this is the thing, like.

But just how easy she can sort
of just be like, "Yeah,"

like... "It's done."
D'you know what I mean?

Well, but I think maybe
you're coming to the realisation

that maybe she, er...
Wasn't that into it.

Maybe didn't feel the same way
as you did. Yeah.

That's the harsh reality of it,
innit, I suppose? Yeah.

I dunno, man.
But, listen, it's not ea...

Whatever the reason is,
it's never gonna be easy,

and the reality is, you've gotta
deal with it and be around her

and try and be normal, but it's...

it's all right
for it not to be normal, trust me.

Yeah.
Cos it's completely not normal.

It felt like I was being the one
that was sort of overreacting.

No, mate. Don't think for one minute

that it ain't normal
to feel how you're feeling.

Nah, I appreciate that, man.

Cos I promise you, mate,
I've been through it,

in terms of relationships and girls

and stuff that I don't always show
with people,

and I've got a good way

of sort of acting
like I'm cool with it, but...

I feel like you're very good
at sort of covering it up.

I try to,
but it doesn't mean on the inside

I'm not feeling the things
that all of you...

But you shouldn't, mate.
We'll get there, mate.

# Be good to you

# Be good to you

# Be good to yourself. #

# Standing right on the edge

# Lookin' into each other's eyes

# What if we just surrender?

# Surrender?

# What if we just surrender

# Baby, give me
Something to remember

# Think I'd rather get burned

# Than to never have loved
At all...#

Saf, I am so happy you're here.
Hallelujah.

You've been missed, girlie.
It's a relief.

Fresh face, fresh energy,
we needed you.

SAFFRON LAUGHS

Don't we just keep having
the best holidays, though?

Literally the best.
We do.

Where we gonna go next?

I think we just go back to Dubai.

It's just easy,
free accommodation. Gorgeous.

We can all stay at yours.

I feel like I don't have a holiday,
cos you know when you come...

Let's go somewhere for Amber.
I know where we'll take you.

Where?
Clacton.

I just said where that was.

H, we need to tell the girls
about seeing Ella the other night.

Oh, my God.
Yeah, it was awkward, wasn't it?

I was like, "Listen,
I feel like we need to speak."

She was like, "I don't have
a problem with you, Harry."

But then proceeded for the next
20 minutes to have a problem

about everything
that I've been like.

You've done so much to try and
get your friendship back on track.

She's shown you absolutely nothing.
She doesn't wanna be your friend.

When the whole group chat thing
happened, you were at your...

You were at your tether.
I was at the end, yeah.

So much had gone on, and it's, like,

there's no way that Freddie
can expect you to post

when so much has gone on
and you've tried. No.

I think she'd led you on
for a year-and-a-half, to be honest,

and so you thought
you were gonna be friends.

Been round to my house, I've rung
her, d'you know what I mean?

We've had a good friendship,

but she hasn't trusted me
for a year-and-a-half.

And d'you know what? All of
a sudden, it's all come to light...

and she's been my friend, but then
behind my back had the most to say.

It's just not been nice.

It's sad that you're not friends
any more,

but I do think that your friendship
has run its course.

Yeah.
You've tried.

I've seen that Freddie's here
as well.

Have you spoke to him yet?
I still haven't spoken to him.

I can sense there's... between me
and Freddie, that frosty vibe.

It's tricky
because one day I wake up,

and I'm a bit like,
"He's walking around on heat."

And then looking over there,
I'm a little bit like...

It's sad.
He's a very hot and cold person.

So, like, you don't know
what Freddie you're getting.

It's really inconsistent.

I really never know
where I am with Freddie.

D'you feel like maybe Ella
has an influence on that?

A bit similar like your situation?

Like, do you think maybe
that's her only frie...

Not only friend,
but close best friend. Yeah.

Where he's going wrong, he needs his
own mind, cos his own mind is great.

He needs to stop listening
to what people... the outside noise.

Just be yourself. Be completely
authentic and yourself,

and everyone will love you.

Yeah. I feel like he's so set
on having loyalty to Ella

and having her back

that he's kind of not actually
staying true to how he feels.

Friendship is not supposed
to be hard work. Yeah. No.

And it's been hard work
for me with them, so...

Yeah.
Mm.

# Feeling again

# I got that feeling again

# I got that feeling again. #

Oh, it's a nice feeling
to be wanted so much,

I've gotta be honest, but...
A lot's been going on.

So the time I ain't been here,
there's been friendship break-ups.

Yeah.
And break-ups.

Makes my problems seem minor.

Listen, you've told me that
you're having an hard time out here.

You're meant to be enjoying
Portugal, get what I'm saying?

I ain't enjoying Portugal one bit.
No, and why?

Cos you're falling out
with people left, right and centre

when really you don't need to.

Harry did say to me like, "Saf,
I feel like I'm being laughed at..."

He said, "..by the three of them."

I don't think Harry helps himself
in certain situations,

because he does things,

and he makes sly digs
and he doesn't own them.

It's a bit petty, like.
Youse two are not talking again.

You've gone from talking,
dating, not talking.

I feel like just as much
as he's on eggshells around me,

I do feel like I'm on eggshells
round Harry as well.

Prior to this group chat situation,

me and him were
making friendship bracelets. Mm.

Well, he said that he opened up
and spoke to you a lot.

I feel like I put a group message
out to everyone,

and I feel like he took it personal.
And...

Well, probably
because he was Ella's mate. Yeah.

And made that situation about
himself when it wasn't about him.

It was about
everyone as a collective.

I don't feel it needed to get nasty.
No.

He was literally only saying
why he's not supported Ella,

then you've took that as if he's
making the situation about himself

and bit at him,
and then he's got petty back,

and I feel like it didn't need
to go down that way.

I don't think
you wanna be friends with Harry.

No, I don't.
Oh, is that where it stands now?

Yeah, I don't.
You're not gonna make up? But why?

Cos I don't like the way
he goes about things, either.

I don't like the way
he makes sly digs at people

and thinks he can get away with it.
I don't like the way...

He's unfollowed me
on social media yesterday.

And if he's saying to everyone else
there isn't a problem,

there's quite clearly a problem
for him to unfollow me.

I don't even wanna have a row
with Harry,

and that's the God's honest truth.
I don't.

But I do feel
like certain situation...

The air needs to be cleared.

Yeah, yeah.
Yeah, it does.

It can go one way or the other,
but just maybe...

go in a bit more light.
Soft.

With your voice, er,
and soft because...

And even if someone makes a comment
or rows, you just don't back.

You just say,
"OK, sorry you feel like that."

You don't want it to go...
Then you're not adding to it.

D'you know what I mean?
It's just your delivery sometimes.

You might have valid points,
but the screaming and shouting

makes it look like your points
aren't valid - even with...

I'm not gonna scream and shout,
screaming's done.

Good.
Explain how you feel.

Tell him how you feel about him.

Youse might be able to just move
past it without it being a row.

I'm gonna be cool, calm, classy.

OK.

I think you need
to go over there now.

Yeah.

So, my single Pringles,
have we seen any sexy men?

We've seen a couple.
We did.

We've seen a couple.

Harry and I have the same type,
d'you know that?

I just love the moustache,
the mullet, I just love it.

You can be on the lookout for him.
Oh, I'm...

She scouts them out.
I'm scouting out all the time.

D'you know
what the problem with me is?

I am really shallow when it comes
to, like, fancying boys.

You are shallow, I told you earlier.
I fancy the most good-looking,

like, out my league type of boys.

You don't realise
how beautiful you are.

You're out of their league,
that's a fact.

It's a lot of pressure,
and I have to connect with them.

I wouldn't just be with a boy
cos he's good-looking,

he's got nothing else.
I have to like their personality.

Oh, I would.
HARRY LAUGHS

Hello.
Hi.

D'you mind if I have a conversation
with Harry, please?

Of course.
Thank you.

OK, girls. See you in a bit.

Hi.
CHIRPILY: You OK, Fred?

Yeah, I'm good, I'm good.
Yeah.

I feel like we needed a chat.
Yeah. So do I.

I do wanna address, like, what the
problem is, d'you know what I mean?

Yeah.

WHISPERS: Hello, everyone.

Come on, little dolly girl.

From my side...
Mm.

..I feel like
since we've got to Portugal...

..you walk around on heat, babe.

I don't know.
What's going on with you?

I dunno if you've got
other things going on, but...

the way you've walked around
this hotel has been uncomfortable.

Listen, the only reason why I lost
my head at the pool the other day

is because Jordan and Sophie
come at me like a Jack Russell.

I'm gonna defend myself.

But me and you,
there was problems way before then.

It was way before that, yeah.
And I honestly feel like...

..I've opened up to you
quite a few times now, Fred,

and I feel like I've give you
a level of respect

and trying to be nice,
even though we've had situations.

I've been really nice to you, Harry.

And I've been patient with you
as well.

I've been nice to you as well.
I've been really nice to you.

But the problem is,
I feel like you've run around

and gone to Joe and Junaid
and spoke a bit about my business.

Listen...
And that I don't like,

because you know they don't like me.

You need to get this Joe and Junaid
thing out your head.

They're not bothered about you.
I'm not bothered about them.

You brought them up.
I'm not bothered about them.

I feel like it's more so
for me and you,

cos I feel like
you're talking about me

to people that don't like me.

That's the truth.

Harry, I've been so respectful
when it comes to you.

I feel like you've come over here
like a bull in a china shop.

I'm very calm. I'm very calm.
There's not one part of me...

You can poke me as much as you want,
H, I'm not gonna explode.

I'm not poking you.
I'm not gonna explode. I'm calm.

Like, he's not.
I think they're both more calm now.

Listen, at the end of the day,
this stemmed from the group chat.

Yes.

I put a message in the group chat
about supporting Ella.

No, and I think...
You then...

Wait two seconds, let me speak.
I've let you speak, let me speak.

You've taken it upon yourself...
Mm-hm.

..to make it about you
and how you feel

when it wasn't nothing to do
with you. Mm-hm.

It was everything to do with Ella.
OK.

And I thought that everyone would've
come together to support Ella.

Mm-hm.
And you didn't want to.

Ella and Harry
don't like each other.

Then you wanna try
and mug me off...

No-one's mugging you off.
..in front of everyone. You did.

You've mugged me off as well.
OK.

Don't try and act like
I'm mugging you off.

I'm not acting like anything.

I'm speaking to you straight.
That's what you just said, Freddie.

You piped up to me
in the group chat, Harry.

You don't like the fact
I'm wittier than you,

and I'm always gonna
have the faster comeback.

I can't help straight talking
and no-one can handle the heat.

I don't think you're straight
talking. You're fucking rude.

That's absolutely fine.
That's fine. I'll run with that.

Oh, my God, it's getting heated.

I'm happy to be rude.
I don't care about that. Mm.

You was also rude to me.

Can you please explain to me
why I'm rude?

Are you joking? You literally
mugged me off in a group...

Please don't act stupid
cos you ain't a stupid boy,

you're very calculated.

I'm not calculated.
And conniving. Yes, you are.

That's exactly two things you are.
In that group chat,

the second I respond
to your message,

you've got the hump with me.

It was pity-party Harry once again.
It's not pity party.

Feel-sorry-for-me Harry once again.
It's not pity party.

That was not the time
for you to tell everyone

how Ella makes you feel.
It's the truth.

That's a private conversation
between you and Ella.

Instead, you wanted
to air out your dirty laundry

to the whole fucking group.
It weren't nothing to do with you.

It weren't me...
You should've swallowed your pride.

Don't make yourself busy.
Don't point your fingers at me.

Don't make yourself busy then.

You're giving it to me,
I'll give back.

Oh, dear.

You're so caught up in the fact
that I didn't wanna date you. No.

SCORNFUL SCREAM

Harry's so obsessed with you,
Freddie, it's a joke (!)

ALL EXCLAIM

Can I sit?
Yeah. Yeah.

But you said, "You are irrelevant."

In that moment, I did think
you were quite irrelevant. Mm.

If he walks into a room, I'll make
sure I walk out of the room,

cos he's made it like that.
It's been difficult.

If you've got feelings,

when they're around you,
it's fucking hard.

I had my back to you,
and you called me fucking "uncle".

I called you a grandma.
You're muggy. You don't realise it.

You're so rude to me.
I don't really understand.

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