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LA MAMI, 2019 DOCUMENTAL BY LAURA HERRERO GARVÍN [SPANISH]

Such small eyes.

I forgot all my make up, so my eyes look smaller.

And I just realized after I came out of the shower.

I said, ''Oh, I forgot them!''

-I did something stupid today. -What?

I bought a bicycle and I don't know how to ride it.

You're kidding me!

I don't have earrings! Do you have any?

-Mami? -What?

Do you have earrings?

Yes? Lend me some.

I don't have your number.

-Mami. -What?

Can I take my heels?

Saul chided me. He said they were too small.

-Candy. -Hello there.

-How are you? -Fine.

Their shape really hurts.

I can't.

Do you have any oil, Mami?

-What? -Oil.

No. What for?

-To loosen the zipper. -Bring it.

Holy Mother!

My new look. Nobody has it.

I don't like these.

The heel is unstable.

-Good evening. -What's up, beautiful?

My God!

My eyelash fell off.

The price of beauty, girl.

The things we do for men.

What?

The things we do for men.

So they think we look beautiful.

Good evening.

-Hi. -Good evening.

I wanted to ask for information about the job.

They have already give you the information downstairs, my love.

-You'll begin to work. -Yes.

What's your name?

I'm Carmen.

Is that your real name?

Yes.

Why don't you change it, my love?

Most girls change their name.

Alright.

Do you have a hair tie? Or a hair clamp or something.

I always bring my things,

but I use them on the girls when I comb them

and now I don't have any.

-Yes. -Any.

Thank god I did well last Saturday, Mami.

-What? -I did really well on Saturday.

I paid my rent on Sunday.

That's good. You are always complaining.

Fernando really helps me out when he comes.

Complaining right away.

-Good luck. -Thanks.

-What's your name? -Priscilla.

Is this your first time here? -Yes.

I am really nervous.

-Why? -I don't know how to work.

Well, that's obvious.

The first time I was very nervous, too.

But I learned.

How did you work?

It's normal. I didn't know anything either.

What do you mean by normal?

We sit at the tables.

You wait for them to ask you to dance.

If the customer buys you a drink or a bottle, you charge him.

A lot of them try to cross the line, but it's up to you

if you let them or if you want to, but they don't have to.

So there is control.

-Sure. It's up to us. -They take care of us.

No. You have to look after yourself,

but don't let them take advantage of you.

Or us of them, right?

That's right.

We can't disrespect customers just because we work here.

And they can't, either.

-What happens if you get drunk? -You get a hangover.

Very funny.

No!

Do you get easily drunk?

Yes, because I...

You are not used to drinking.

I sometimes drink two glasses

and I already feel like...

Dizzy.

-Lend me your pencil. -Sure.

But

sometimes I drink two or three bottles, not alone, of course,

-with customers, and I can hold it. -And then...

I end up shitfaced.

And I guess you drink all week, right?

Yes, all week.

Do you have a sharpener?

It's just drinking and dancing, right?

-Well. -Of course.

I have a lot of expenses.

Do you have children?

Yes. I came from Tijuana because my son has cancer.

And we are here in Mexico City's hospital.

-The General Hospital? -Yes.

-How old is he? -He's 22.

-Very young. -Yes.

He's really young.

Yolanda.

You have fifteen minutes left.

You are always rushing me.

I don't care. I don't care.

The master wants you downstairs.

-Are you sick, Mónica? -No, Mami.

You are very quiet.

I am focused.

-Or you will yell at me. -What are you focused on?

On going downstairs.

On getting ready, Mami.

Hurry up girls! You should be downstairs!

-We are running as usual. -You've taken more than 15 minutes.

That's because everywhere you go there is a lot of traffic.

-But we are here. -Hurry up, girls. Please.

-Good luck! -Thank you.

Zoe tells me, She's the baby. Zoe is four years old.

She says, ''Mom, don't go. Stay.''

''I have to go, baby. Sorry.''

The band started playing. You should be downstairs.

Go ahead. I'll be down in two minutes.

Good luck!

If it was up to you, you'd stay here in the bathroom.

You're kidding me! You are too much!

I am comfortable here, okay?

What are you eating tomorrow?

-It's impossible! -Mami, I came nosing around.

Mami, can you store my jacket?

-Good luck! -Thanks, sister. You too.

-You have all the fucking make up here. -You are rushing me.

Hurry up, sweetie!

Of course you are nervous.

I was nervous all through!

-Good luck! -Good luck!

I'll go running!

-Good luck. -Good luck.

Mami, I was distracted!

I'm going away. See you later.

You have to go down, my child.

-I'm coming. -You are the last one, child.

I'm coming.

Yes.

Everything will be alright.

-Yes. -Good luck, my child.

Thank you.

LADIES

I know you don't want me

To want you

You are always avoiding me

In some way

If I look for you over here

You come out the other way

The only thing I want

Is for you To not make me suffer, rumbera

Shake it! Shake it! Come on!

-You will regret -Let's go.

Your bad behavior

You will pay dearly

For all my suffering

You will cry and cry

With no one to comfort you

And that's how you will realize

That if someone cheats on you It hurts

Come on, my people! Enjoy!

Be crafty.

And then you will come to me

Asking for forgiveness

But my heart will already

Have forgotten you

And you will cry and cry

With no one to comfort you

And that's how you will realize

That if someone cheats on you It hurts

Hit that kettledrum.

That's it! Let it roll!

-Priscilla. -Yes?

-What is it, Mami? -How's your son?

It's been two weeks since his surgery.

Now I have to...

He's about to start chemotherapy.

-He is... -But he hasn't had any complications?

Since he had surgery... He first had chemo.

And he had surgery.

The doctor says he will have chemo again.

-Yes. -He's fine. He looks stable.

Now I have to save 27 thousand pesos.

-Yes. -And that will cover some expenses.

Have you adjusted to this place?

I can't. It's hard for me but I need to work.

I see the other girls feel the same.

Have you had problems with any of them?

No, I haven't. They're all cool.

When I'm downstairs, sometimes they call me over to their tables.

And then they tell me how to work.

No problems at all.

-I think they are very considerate. -Great.

-Yes. -That's good, at least.

Well, some of them, when they drink... They don't drink holy water.

-Right. -But...

It's hard to drink every day, right?

-Good evening. -Good evening.

I lost the customer who'd give me money.

We have to save for the holidays.

Otherwise, no presents.

And children ask for a lot.

If we get three thousand it will be enough.

-That will do it. -We're not asking for more.

Remember the guy from last year that left us a lot of money?

Remember that... I think he did it to not feel lonely.

He'd say, ''Don't go,'' and he'd just throw two grand,

and then another two grand, and so on. You remember, right?

-500 pesos bills. -The bastard had like 50 grand.

It was good.

Hurry up, girls.

I'm hearing the seven trumpets, anyway.

Really?

I don't know if it's trumpets or the men are coming,

but I hear something.

Wendy is hearing the trumpets of the Lord in heaven.

My God.

Hello?

I just arrived at work.

No. I work in a nursing home looking after elderly people.

Until tomorrow morning at 9.

From 9 to 9.

Yes, that's right.

Call me tomorrow and we will meet somewhere to eat.

Goodbye.

Don't you get he is my ticket out of poverty?

-I can't tell him I work here. -Where did you meet him?

It's your chance.

I don't want to come here anymore, I am tired.

I want to stay with my kids and watch TV.

Especially now that it's cold. They say to me,

''Mom, don't go.'' But we need money.

What do you think?

You are right. We have a cause to work for.

-Sure. -Family.

I'm a widow.

-I have been for eight years. -Really?

-Yes. -Did you ever remarry?

No.

No guy has been brave enough, or what?

No. I think I should be careful

because I have children, and it's risky despite their age.

-You never know what kind of person -Sure.

you may find, and their safety comes first.

Because they may show you one face and your children another one.

-Of course. -And if they threaten them

or hit them or something.

-It's not good. -Sure.

I mostly do it for them.

Let me check on my friend. I think she had a problem

and she can't stay to party.

-Wait for me. Excuse me. -Yes.

I'll see what's down there.

You are once again in your show center ''Blue Beard.''

And one, two One, two, three, four

I have grown tired

Of all this falsehood

And I don't want to hear

Any more of your lies Nor see your evil eyes

Be crafty.

Play, play, play.

Let the kettledrum roll.

Take them.

If you touch, you give.

Delicious.

Play, play, play, play.

Hello. Good morning.

Hello. Excuse me. Good morning.

Mamita, I'm drinking tequila. It's so gross.

Tequila and what else?

Sparkling water.

It's better straight up. With lemon.

Straight tequila?

With sangrita, right?

With sangrita. And lemon.

-Yuck. -Lemon keeps you sober.

We order four sodas and he says, ''Stop it.

I don't know if he has money to pay.''

Just like that, Mamita. ''Stop ordering.''

He got mad because he said, ''Order all you want.''

Guess what he does? He pours the glasses like this.

Before she's done, he pours from his glass.

I think it's disgusting when they do that.

When they mix my drink with their drink.

It's gross! It's disgusting!

And that girl is furious.

-She says, ''I'm leaving.'' -Cool.

We'll plan something when I get down.

Because he is so flippant.

He is a 20 year old brat, girl.

He is one of those rude, annoying, ugly, horrible brats.

You better learn that the men here are good for two things.

''They're good for nothing and to give money.'' That's it.

To put it lightly, Mamita.

Obvious.

-I'm going, Mamita. -Careful.

-How are you doing? -I call them, and they play dumb.

They pretend not to see me. So I charge less.

It's 100 per glass.

And they're like, ''Sure. Right away. Don't worry''.

Then charge him at once.

Charge him now or those girls will win, my child.

I don't care. He has to pay me, Mami.

That's what I'm saying. Charge him now.

-Make them pay for the two bottles. -Of course I will, Mami. Come on!

But I told Denise and Xochitl, ''No, you go first. Wait.''

And yes, but I want to go. I don't want to get punished.

-Then tell Saul that they didn't... -Yes!

-Yes, Mamita. -My makeup is a mess. My hair is a mess.

-My poor child. -Yes, Mami.

She's in the middle of...

What can we do?

What do you call those devouring fish?

-Like piranhas, right? - Piranhas.

That's what they are.

My poor daughters. They're like demons.

I have to go, Mamita.

-Keep working. -That's how this is.

The big fish eats the small fish.

-Mami. -What is it?

I'm sick of him.

-Who? -That man I'm with.

I can't stand him.

I can't stand someone for more than an hour.

-Did he pay you? -No.

I'll go get paid and I'm done.

I'm off.

See you later.

How are you feeling, Mamita?

Do you want some coffee?

Tea? Water?

Some cookies?

Your bed?

I can't help you with that, Mamita.

That makes two of us who miss our beds.

I'm sleepy.

I want to sleep.

I'll sleep in the taxi.

-She's being weird. -Why weird?

I don't know. She's weird.

Probably saw her and said, ''She's weird''.

-She saw her. -Will you go home?

Take care.

A bottle and a glass.

Very good.

I drank like eight glasses.

I make love with the love of my life.

Are you finished?

-Fuck you. -Have a life.

Take care.

Bye.

Enough! Shut up, please.

Fucking blondie.

Don't make a ruckus in here.

-Denise, someone's looking for you. -Who is it? I'm coming, guys.

-Don't be grumpy, Mami. -Holy Mother!

Tell them you're coming.

You need to hurry now.

He's fat, indeed.

He's gross!

He's my pal, man. Fuck off.

-He's disgusting. -You haven't paid.

Nothing. Nor the tanda nor the wardrobe service.

-I paid you. -You did.

Mami, I already paid for the wardrobe.

-Maybe I paid for the wardrobe. - No, my child. You haven't paid.

Stop it!

That guy is gross.

That's why I've never been with that fucker,

because he is really gross.

Dirty asshole!

Excuse me, please.

I wish it was five. I sleep by that time.

I cook for them, I feed them and I'm done.

-Just a while. -Yes, sister.

I tell them, ''Come on! Let me sleep.''

-I turn the lights off... -And straight to bed.

-Straight to bed. -You barely sleep, Tania.

Yeah, but I'm used to it.

It was hard, but now I'm used to it.

I get sleepy, but it goes away when I get here.

Sleeping four hours is not enough for me.

I get a headache.

I can't sleep less than four hours or else...

I can't stand myself.

Go figure!

I can't let my kids stay up. I have to tuck them in.

I give them milk, bread,

and when their eyes start closing, I'm finished.

Oh, well...

-Can I borrow a brown pencil? -Yes.

Thanks. Do you have a sharpener?

How you've been doing?

Kind of weird.

Sort of strange

because I arrive drunk at the hospital

and the doctor thinks I'm an alcoholic.

And I'm not. I need to work like this,

so I can afford certain situation.

Of course.

And it's embarrassing, because the other day he asked me

if I wanted to go to AA.

That he could help me get clean.

He thinks that I'm an alcoholic. I haven't told them that I work here.

You better be honest, right?

And all your expenses?

The other day they made me a socioeconomic study

and he asked me where I was working,

but I was a receptionist at Fiesta Inn.

And they think that I'm a receptionist and that I'm drinking,

because sometimes I reek of alcohol at the appointments.

I get there like a fumigated spider.

And it's a horrible feeling when others think you're an alcoholic.

And I feel bad for my son because I guess he notices it.

I hope I don't arrive drunk again.

I have to be there early by 7

-and I leave from here. -Chew some newspaper.

-What? -Chew some newspaper.

-Really? -Or brown paper, right? Brown paper.

Is that true? Sometimes I have arrived drunk to the subway,

and they won't let me in. They say I might fall into the rails.

And I told them...

it was the Franchie I sprayed in the morning.

The perfume. They escorted me out.

I used to arrive very tipsy

when I visited my son's father in jail.

And I'd chew some brown paper

and I ate a yogurt.

I didn't believe it either, but someone told me to do it

-and it worked. -Seriously?

Miriam.

-Hi. -How are you, sister?

I'm fine.

I didn't see you yesterday.

I came on Tuesday. I can't go through all week.

Well, you took your break.

Not really. I have to go to the hospital.

How are you, blondie?

How is she? Guess how hungover she is.

-Someone asked about you on Tuesday. -Who?

-Who? -The baker.

-He asked about me? -Of course.

The other day he was with another girl, so I sat somewhere else.

Really?

He asked about you.

He came yesterday and I said hi,

but I have been busy too, thank God.

I kissed him a lot for you.

-What? -I kissed him a lot for you.

-I believe you. -I'm kidding.

I'm only making fun of you because you kiss a lot.

Yes, I do.

You would have kissed him.

-No. I saw him yesterday. -''Miriam's gone, but I'm here.''

I'm kidding.

Good luck.

I'm leaving, Mamita.

Good luck.

Goodbye.

Stay safe.

-Prisci. -Sharon.

Are you drunk already?

I'm not!

I'm with the black one and he's being an asshole.

Why? You know the black ones are like that.

He was being mean. I told him to pay me or fuck off.

I'll kick your ass.

They piss me off, Mami!

I'm wasted.

I said, ''No problem''.

I get drunk for 500 pesos.

I don't want you to marry me. No, I didn't get up.

Irlanda, you witch!

Why, Mami?

Who are you working with?

With Domingo.

Gee.

Fabiola sat me at her table.

No wonder you're both drunk.

What did you expect, Mami?

Because I didn't drink any alcohol.

-I didn't drink either. -Remember when I started?

I'm international. I drink everything.

I drank for ten years straight.

But working all the time.

-Yes, of course. -In this.

Because I don't...

But I never went to...

-In fact, when I... -A lot of them go out.

They go meet one of those...

Sometimes I do.

I never went with them.

I used to party, but always to make some business.

It smells horrible. Like pussy.

Oh, Mami.

Mami.

You are sleeping.

Don't fall asleep, Mami.

I look really drunk.

My guy at the table was okay,

but I was sick of it. I wanted to leave.

I told him, ''Pay me, please.''

What did I do to you, Priscilla?''

''It's okay. But pay me now. I'm sick of you.''

And Alex got mad.

He said, ''Don't be rude, Prisci.''

''I'm not being rude. I'm just being honest.''

And he got mad.

Is it almost time to go?

Guess what I'll do now.

I'm going to break up a marriage.

I love being a home wrecker.

It makes me happy.

I'm kidding.

But I'll take him away from her.

I'm drunk.

And the Son. Amen.

And the Holy Ghost. Amen.

In the name of God.

In the name and blessing of the Lord.

Thank you, Father.

In the name of God. Amen.

Of Jesus Christ, your only son. Amen.

In the name of God. Amen.

In the name of God.

In the name of God. Amen.

In the name of God. Amen.

We'll start working. Amen.

In the name of God.

I wear anything I get my hands on

You lent it to me the other day.

This one?

-Wasn't it that one? -No.

Then it's...

-The double one. -This one's fine.

No, it's this one here.

Yes.

Good night, Mami.

I won't make it.

I'll fall asleep.

How are you?

Fine, my child. And you?

Are you still saving?

I still have seven grand to go.

-Don't give up, my love. -Yes.

-You're right. -Because...

It's a lot less now.

-Right. -Right.

You have less left.

And you don't get that much in a regular job.

-Yeah. -So fast.

I'm happy that you are here.

Not because you came to do this work. That's what you...

-Like the least. -But I'm happy because

you do it for a noble cause.

Yes. You do everything for a child.

Until the end of time.

Even if he is the worst murderer, he is your son.

Yes.

You remind me that...

this is why I got here, too.

Really?

-Really? -For my daughters.

Most girls here are single moms, right?

Well, but I had two of them...

with pneumonia.

Like me?

Yes. They were in the hospital, too. I had no money.

It's hard, right?

Yes.

I was in the subway, just looking where to go,

where to get money and all that.

Then a girl saw me so desperate and in tears

-that she came to me and asked... -What was wrong with you?

What was wrong with me.

I told her all that and she said,

''You want money?'' And I said, ''I really do''.

She goes, ''You want to earn money?'' I did.

She said, ''I can take you where I work.''

''And you'll earn money there.''

And I was like, what the hell is this about?

-Yes. What is it? -Right.

''You only have to dance and drink.''

And I was like, ''God, what do I do?''

-I had no choice, right? -It was dubious.

And I told her, ''Yes, take me.''

I put myself in God's hands.

When I got in, I was like, ''God, what is this?''

-What do I do now? -What am I doing here?

And then she introduced me and I met this waiter.

His name was Hugo.

And he tells me, ''What's your name, my child?''

I told him my name

and he says, ''No, my love.

Don't expose your name. Your name is too pretty to be known.''

He says,

''From now on, you'll be Olga.''

That's how I started.

But I've done everything.

Floor girl, waitress,

manager,

mostly as song seller.

And a Mami.

Here in the wardrobe.

That's something, right?

Pretty

Like those toys

That I had in the childhood days

Of yesteryear

Pretty

Like the stolen kiss

Like the cried tears

For a deep pleasure

The sincerity

Of your loyal mirror

Placed vanity in you

Shall we dance?

You know my anxiety

And you make the pleasure

Out of the sorrows That your pride forges for me

Pretty

Shatter your mirror into pieces

To see if I stop

Suffering your arrogance.

Good evening.

I need some paper and she does, too.

Tip as much as you like.

I'll do it later. I didn't know. This is my first time here.

I'll be right back and tip you.

-I'm sorry for asking. -I'll tip you.

-But that is my income. -I'll be right back.

Don't forget to. Is that enough?

Yes, that's enough.

Please, dump the paper in the trash bin.

-Yes. -Thank you.

There's a lot of people out there.

Is that true?

Hurry up, I need the money.

-Fatty. -What do you want?

What is it?

Is there people?

Yes, a lot.

They're in line.

Fuck you.

Fucking customer doesn't answer me.

-Voicemail... -Fucker.

He won't answer me.

I hope we do well. They reserved a table for 40.

Yes, but they are...

No. That girl who was in the bathroom, it's her birthday.

-That's bad. -They're the kind

who don't call you over. That's bad.

No, no.

They're here to party, don't dream they'll ask us to sit.

No.

They only dance with each other and have fun

and all, but they won't dance with us.

They steal our guys.

The blondies steal them.

Hey, girls.

You can tip as much as you wish.

Where do I wash my hands?

Good evening.

-Good evening. -Was it a long night?

-Rough. -Rough?

Don't they ask you to dance?

-I don't dance. -What do you mean?

-I don't dance. -You don't like it?

Where do I dump the paper?

You know? Dancing is my only catharsis.

THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIP

That's what you come for. To dance.

Sometimes. The boys can't dance anymore.

Not rock & roll, nor salsa, nor...

They only come to drink.

Leave it. Don't pour any water.

I was thinking about it.

Is there no running water?

They shut off the valve on purpose...

because they clog the toilet with the paper.

You should have told me.

We have little signs behind the doors.

The need is more urgent.

Tip as you wish.

That's alright, I'll flush it.

Do you have any paper?

Tip as you wish.

I don't have any money right now.

How old are you?

25. Why?

Please, put the paper in the trash bin.

-Do you have any paper? -Tip as you wish.

Thank you. I'll come back to pay you.

Sure, ''you're welcome''.

-My friend. -What's up?

''She is in the house''.

-It's empty. -Really?

-Are you serious? -It's like...

''What will I do?''

Who will I rob?

Who will I rob?

My bathroom will be a mess.

You're right.

Mami, can I have some paper?

It's dead, Mami.

But I have to pay the rent.

I have three days to get the money.

Not all of them are working, or what?

No. Not everyone is working.

Don't tell me that.

Really. Not all of them.

But are they dancing.

No, not a lot.

-Not even that? -Not even that.

A lot are sitting next to the...

What's it called? The bar.

It's terrible.

The work.

-Look. -I say terrible because

-there are couples. -I'll tell you one thing.

-You look after yourself. -Yes.

And let them be. If they want to, they'll move.

If not, let them stay there.

Well. I'll be right back.

Because you help them and then...

Then what?

-Wonder Woman comes? -You are always helping them.

Wonder Woman is out.

We are lucky to work.

Enough.

It would have been less money than I expected tonight.

But the customer bought another one and talked to me, or else...

Leave that.

Leave that. Don't flush it.

-I'll do it. No problem. -Don't stand up.

I'll flush it.

Let me.

-Sorry. -Read there.

I did it because I didn't bother you, ma'am.

-Don't worry. -That's why I did it.

-Just do me that favor. -No, but I did it because....

I won't go to a dirty toilet.

It's done.

I am telling you why.

I get it. I'll do it.

-So you can't come in. -I won't go in a dirty toilet.

She's shaking her ass.

-I'll wait for you. -Twerking, twerking.

Yes, yes, yes!

Mami is cleaning.

Come on, get in.

But give me paper, Mami.

-My God. -You are rude, Mami.

I mean it, Mami.

You should give as you ask.

You should tip nicely.

When have I owed you?

When have you tipped me?

When have you tipped me?

You only pay for the wardrobe.

That's all you ask, Mamita.

No.

I'm not going to tell you how much you have to give me.

You better shut up.

Sure. Get drunk.

-That's right, it's Thursday. - No. Today is Friday.

But this is the Thursday shift.

-That's right. -Thursday?

Ready, sister.

You all look beautiful.

The man looks at you like a dish.

Love comes at first sight.

We must give men what they want.

-Once you have him. -I have a question.

-I want to be taught. -What?

How to become a whore.

-No, wait. -We are not whores.

I'll tell you something. That's not even the right word.

I tell you something. There are girls working here.

But they are not whores to us.

-But I... -They are social workers to us.

Yes? Or hostesses.

Hostesses because they have to humor men.

And they put up with a lot of things.

Social workers because they put up with the most elegant,

decent, educated men and the crassest ones.

Mami, can I borrow your bucket?

You are so sweet.

When you are not angry.

When you are mad, all hell breaks loose.

See? She's angry because she didn't even answer.

Enjoy, my people!

Sugar!

I feel this loneliness

I feel this loneliness

I feel a void

A hole in my feeling

And I feel like what is mine

Escapes with the wind

I feel this loneliness

I feel this loneliness

I feel that my life

Leaves my soul And I feel

That the sunlight is cold

Let my cry be heard.

I pray for all my coworkers.

For all the girls that work here.

The men, the women, all the people.

I pray that we do well.

So that we are safe.

That no home, clothes or food may ever be lacking.

Okay, okay.

Will you share your milanesa?

What?

-Give me milanesa. -Yes.

Milanesa.

-Did Xochitl come, Mami? -Yes.

She had just arrived, my child.

Just when you got here.

She went downstairs.

She just arrived and went downstairs.

Today we are a lot, right, Mami?

-What? -Did they all come?

-Almost. -Yes?

We used to be a lot, right?

When I got here... No, the first time I got here

-we were like 30 or 28. -More.

Yes. -Like 40.

On Fridays the ballroom was packed.

On Fridays, there were almost 50.

-The ones who came. -We were a lot of girls.

-But they all worked. -That's right.

-Will you wear makeup today? -What?

-Will you wear makeup? -Later.

I forgot.

I'll do it fast.

In five minutes.

You get ready?

Makeup is bad for me. My eyes turn red.

-It irritates me. -How's your son?

More or less.

He's fine.

And your children, Mami?

They are fine, my child.

One of them took me in

and I didn't last a month there.

No. I didn't last a month.

One month later I tell him, ''I'll be right back. I'll go downtown.''

-''I'll go downtown''. -In Mexico City?

-Yes, but downtown... -Of my house.

Downtown Mexico City, because I don't feel at home here.

And I came with just the clothes I was wearing.

They used you as babysitter, or what?

They used you as babysitter, or what?

Looking after grandchildren? What happened there?

No.

They didn't let me do anything.

-Come on, Mami. -Nothing. Not even...

And I don't like to be inactive.

I told my children:

''Don't make me quit work. I'll keep working

as long as God gives me strength to do it.''

-Don't you miss them? -Who?

Your children.

I do, my child, but...

-But they already... -Have their own life.

They have their own life.

It's different.

But family is essential.

I want to see my grandchildren, my children.

That's true.

I have three of mine, and one my husband left me. That's four.

I have four.

Just like me?

They'd be five.

Why were they five?

They killed one of my girls.

I'm sorry.

It's really pretty, actually.

I love it.

She was skeptical.

You were skeptical, too.

No, I wasn't.

But I was shocked about the ''ficheras.''

I'll tell you.

I arrived here because she told me.

I talked her into it.

But this place has, like, a glorification

-of women, right? -Yes, exactly.

I fought with my husband before getting here.

He had a trauma about ''ficheras.''

She was like, very intense.

Then I told her, ''Dude, chill.''

It's a relaxed environment.

We arrived and it's cool. We've had a great time.

I'll tell you this.

I like that there are no prejudices.

-Sure. -That's what I like.

You arrive here and you know that...

Stop it.

Leave that.

-Then... -The problem is to arrive.

Leave that.

Leave that.

-Sorry. -Leave that.

-Leave that, please. -I left it!

See you later, sister.

Bye. Are you coming tomorrow?

There were few occupied tables.

Yeah, right?

-So late and so little tables. -Yeah.

I owe you for the night?

I told you.

I told you.

Sad.

We've been like this for three weeks.

What will we do?

This is the season, Ma, but...

But it was never like this, my child.

-No. -Good night.

No, you're right.

See you tomorrow.

-Take care, girl. -Good night.

Same, gorgeous.

Good night.

Give us work, my beautiful girl.

My white girl, my life.

I pray to you for the well-being of all of them.

For their comfort, take care of them, protect them, help them.

I'm leaving, Mami.

-Don't you want to come to Tijuana? -No, my child.

-Come on! -No.

You cook so well, you'll get rich.

We don't cook that well over there.

I'll spend a while in Las Vegas

because I need rest from all the stress I've felt here.

To rest because they discharged him.

I don't believe in miracles but now it felt like one.

Yes.

Let me tell you that I'll go straight to hell.

I thought Jesus would punish me through him

for all I've done, but I better shut my mouth.

Yes.

But no, that didn't happen.

Look,

at one point

we all pay for something we did.

Then I have so much to pay.

That's tough.

But also...

-Also what, Ma? -You must repent of everything.

No, I don't regret anything. It's done.

What's done is done.

Those who repent are in heaven.

So sorry.

Let's go, Mami.

Let's see.

Let's see what happens.

Is that the incense?

Incense. Let's see how the night goes.

There it is.

-Pass it around. -See you later.

Pass it around.

Around the aura.

Let me see.

Pass it on your aura.

The aura? Is it all over the body?

Yes.

It smells funny.

It smells funny.

-It smells nice. -Really?

Well, see you later.

-Take care. -Good luck.

Bye.

Okay.

One, two, one, two, three

Let me satiate myself

Of looking at you whole

When he sees your eyes Drunk with distress

When he kisses your sleepless And sanctimonious mouth

They rob you a kiss

Your whole heart

I don't want you to roam Those corners anymore

By the very fact That you may abandon me

I feel sorrow I look for you and I can't find you

I will go crazy Crazy with passion

I don't care

If you are the stray

If you are a tramp

I know it well

If pain stained with blood Your broken life

You must still have

Your white soul

I don't care

If you are the stray

If my fondness turned your stigma

Into happiness

If you are the stray

If you are a tramp

Nothing matters to me

I love you like that

And I don't care

If you are the stray

I don't care

If my fondness

Turned your stigma into happiness

If you are the stray

If you are a tramp

Nothing matters to me I love you like that

And I don't care.