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Oo nga po eh.

Matthew.

Ay, ang gwapo na ako po ng kasama niyo. Ay, gusto po ba siya?

No, manang.

Kaibigan namin niya ng chair mo. Si Matthew nga pala.

Ang gwapo.

Nalilis ko na po pala ang buong bahay. Tsaka yung mga kailangan niyo, okay na

po. Ay, tiyala pala. Ito po pala mga susi. Ay.

Okay, thank you, Ma 'am.

Salamat, Ma 'am.

Thank you, Ma 'am.

Enjoy. Ingat po.

Punin ko na yung mga gamit. Ay, kwano mo na utahala kay Matthew? Ah, sige.

Okay? Okay.

Hindi mo magugustuhan mo dito.

You know, Matthew, matagal na kami din nakabalik dito. Pero, tignan mo naman na

well -maintained pa rin siya gano 'n.

Diba, hon?

Yes.

O, doon tayo. Doon sa dulo. Sa dulo ba?

Hon,

nung kumakanta ko kanina, sumasabay siya sa pag -indo.

I think, mahilig siya sa music.

Tapos, now look at him.

Mahilig din siya sa art.

Alam ko na.

Di ba dala mo yung ear pads ko?

Parang nga.

Matt?

Try mo to. I'm sure magugustuhan mo to.

I told you.

Music lover.

Well, mukhang mana sa atin.

That's one of the best way para mabilis yung recovery ni Matthew.

And apparently, unti -unti natin nakikita yung character niya kung ano

yung pagkataon niya.

Ang bilis. Ang bilis ng process.

May nabasa nga ako sa internet about recovery from mental health disorder.

It's a process of change, not only through improving their health and

but live a self -directed life.

Well, there's no right or wrong way to do so.

And yes, it's a personal journey.

But some people call this process a recovery journey that recognizes foster

abilities, interests, and dreams, which enabling himself to live a meaningful

life while striving to achieve their full potential.

What's the title of this song?

Oh, that's Heartbreak by Sean Butler.

Nice.

You like that song?

Cool. It's nice.

Matthew?

I forgot to put some sand blocks to protect our scene.

Para man mag -enjoy tayo under the sand.

Diba? Parang hindi tayo masanbring.

At may back.

Thank you.

Okay, let's go.

Why?

Okay, stay there.

Watch me.

Hey, Matthew.

Nice to see you.

You know what?

Ang dagat is physical or emotional.

Ano ka bang nakalala sa nakaraan mo?

This is where I first learned to breathe.

Do you remember someone?

Your mom, your dad?

Or someone that you care?

Nothing.

I don't even know what's going on.

By the way, Matthew, makapunta ako ng sketchpad and also I bought a new one.

You can draw or write whatever you want, okay?

You wanna join us?

You sure?

Okay.

Where's he?

Where's Matthew?

Where's Matthew?

Dali lang dyan ka lang ha. Hanapin kita.

Matthew?

Mathew? Mathew?

Wala akong kibot.

Di mo ba nagustuhan niyang linuto kong chili garlic prawn?

Um, masarap.

Medyo, medyo maanghang lang.

O, sayang.

Huwag mo itapon.

Sipsipin mo yung ulo.

Nandyan lahat ng sustansya.

Sweeter and tastier.

Dahil sa kanyang hematopamkias.

That tastes like tamale.

Shrimpier and more liquid -like.

Bakit hindi kailangan sipsipin ang ulo ng hipon during Italian Christmas feast?

Dahil sa health risk.

Narakasira ng liver at kidneys.

Doktor ka, dapat alam mo yan.

Dahil masarap.

Dahil kung anong masarap, yun ang bawal.

But anyways, minsan lang naman yan.

Kapag inaraw -araw, pwedeng ikasira o pwedeng ikamatay.

We always long for forbidden things and desire what is denied us.

🎵 🎵 🎵 🎵 🎵 🎵 🎵 🎵 🎵 🎵 🎵

Ayaw pa!

Ayaw pa rin, ha?

Amanda?

Thank you for watching!

Thank you for

watching!

Thank you for watching!

I feel betrayed.

But I'm still trying to trust you.

But to accept it.

Amanda, I'm sorry.

I'm really sorry.

Di ko alam eh.

Confused ako.

Hindi ko maintindihan yung sarili ko.

Pero, bigyan mo ko ng pagkakataon na ayusin ko ito. Pinapromise ko sa 'yo.

Ayusin ko talaga ito.

Kaya pala, when you display strong homophobic behavior toward to myself

and you get furious when someone struggle to express

himself.

Warning sign na pala yun ng asawa ko.

Di lang pala man yung kinakain, pati titi.

Please, please.

But at least, now I know.

Nabawasan yung kaba ko.

Na hindi babae ang karibal ko.

Mas mabuti na to.

Ako lang ang babaeng pwedeng magmayari sa 'yo.

Wala nang iba.

Are you okay? Are you happy?

I want you.

And I want him.

I want the both of you.

Please don't leave me.

But you, we won't.

We won't leave you. I promise you.

Hindi mo na ba mahal?

Pwede ba?

I can't do this anymore.

You told me you won't leave me.

I can change, I promise.

I don't love you anymore.

I love you. I love you.

Please, don't go.

Please, don't leave me.

Please, don't leave me.

We're here now.

I hope this will be forever.

You, me, and Matthew.

I can't ask anything more.

Alam mo, Han?

Paano kaya kung tuwi ang gumaling ka si Matthew?

I'm sure marami na maghahanap sa kanya.

I don't know what will happen pag nawala si Matty sa atin.

Pero kung ano yung mas nakakabuti sa kanya.

Maybe I will have to accept it.

Han.

I'm here.

And I promise na as long as I live,

I'll make you happy.

Kasi mahal kita.

Mahal na mahal.

I love you.

O Mang Rodel!

Alis na po kayo.

Nag -enjoy po ba kayo, sir?

Oo naman. Hindi naman kami mag -stay dito ng one month. Hindi kami nag

Ay, salamat naman.

O basta, ano, mawapadala sa 'yo pagpunta namin dito, ha? So, ikaw ng bahala. Ang

gwapo naman ni Matthew.

Mamimiss kita.

Sige, ako na ba.

Nainat kayo. Sige, maraming salamat.

Alexa? Tagal kitang hinanap.

I was really hoping na magkikita pa tayo.

Thank God, now I found you.

On and off kami ni Carl for more than three years when we were in the States.

Artist kasi, kaya madalas, moody, idealistic.

chaotic and visionary.

Nangako pa nga kami sa isa't isa na no matter what happened, walang imunan.

Lumaki sa orphanage si Carl.

Lumaki siyang hindi nakilala ang ina at ama na parehong Pilipino.

Sa isang halfway house sa Minnesota kami nagkakilala.

During his art exhibit.

Naging tahanan niya yung halfway house na yun in the past six years.

Ayaw kasi sa kanya ng parents ko kaya we just decided to move here from the

States para magkasama na kaming dalawa.

Okay naman at first, but few months later, Naging unconfident siya.

Apprehensive and insecure.

Doon na nagsimula magulo yung relasyon namin.

Naging sexually abusive din siya.

Thorne! Ano ba?

Sofie! Naka -papasok natin kanina nandito sa kanan.

May gagawin pa ako?

May deptress.

May nakanggig.

Ano?

Parang naging outlet na nga yata niya yung sex to overcome all his

And whenever it happens, alam niyang anytime, kaya ko siyang layasan.

Kaya, nagpapanggap na lang ako na okay ako hanggang sa

mawala na lang.

Hanggang sa iwan ko na lang siya.

Carl?

Pero mas mabuti siguro maghiwalay muna tayo.

I might go back to the States.

Please.

Let me go.

Please. Don't leave me.

Hindi mo na ba ako mahal?

But your sexual aggression is a huge problem.

What can I do?

He told me you won't leave me.

I promise you, I can change.

Please. He told me.

Don't go.

Alexa, Alexa, please. Please don't leave me. I'm gonna die if I leave you.

Pwede ba?

I can't do this anymore.

Not with you.

No, no, no, no. I told you to.

No, no.

Hindi ginaya ng konsensyo ko, kaya... Ilang araw lang,

binalik ang ko si Carl doon sa condo unit na tinitirhan namin.

Pero, wala na siya doon.

Hingit isang taon ko siyang hinanap.

Kung saan saan TV, radyo,

At Jario ako nanawagan.

Pero, wala eh.

Hindi ko siya nahanap.

I almost lost hope.

Pinangako ko sa sarili ko na hindi ako babalik sa Amerika hanggat hindi ko siya

nahahanap.

Kaya,

Sobrang saya ko na, finally, nangyari na din yung inaasam -asam ko.

Na, makita ko ulit si Carl.

So kung ganun, I don't think, I don't think na tawag ka pala siya pag -aaral

nalatata.

Wait, did it have hit?

Matthew?

Do you remember?

I can't remember anything.

All I know is I'm alone and there's no other people

around me.

Namiss mo ba to?

This is our home.

We can start all over again.

I miss you so badly.

I miss you as much as I miss having sex with you.

May misko rin siya.

It's kind of sad but never in my mind.

One day is nothing.

That day, natatakot ako ng magbago ka.

Natatakot ako ng magbago ka.

But, now I know what you knew and you know.

Thank you.