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Adam and I were like brothers.

Best friends since nursery school.

We grew up in the city
and spent our summers

at his parent's
country house in Stockbridge.

Dad used to say
we were like two olives in a martini,

but we weren't.

Not really.

Adam was always the golden boy.

A kid destined for everything.

When I think about that day at the tower,

sometimes I wondered if I'd actually paid
attention to what he was saying.

Really paid attention.

Maybe he was reaching out.

But I doubt it.

I mean, in all the time I knew him,
I never saw him cry.

Even after the accident with his eye.

When we were kids.

He had such a strong will.

Can he get used to the idea
that nothing could hurt him?

But I never had any sense that.

Maybe I did somewhere down deep.

Because when I woke up, it was like I knew

what had happened.

I just knew it.

Kitty.

Maybe

they.

Met up.

To me.

After eighth grade. Yeah.

Man and I were both packed off
to boarding school at Andover

for years of cold showers
and tuna casserole.

Christmas
break was always a long time coming.

They parachuted into my $500 Chrysler
New Yorker Mass Pike at home to the city.

Supposedly,
I got a letter from Columbia yesterday.

Really?

When my dad not to open it.

And you have a heightened sense of drama.

I don't like people opening my mail.

Okay.

You just make yourself comfortable.

I'll drive you relax. Sure, I can drive.

You like

it? Sounds silly.

I'm a dad. I'm fair.

I shouldn't.

Acting weird.

He's got a little attitude on me that.

That explains kind of a bad.

Like it was a face time.

It's not the first time.

Really?

Yeah.

I like your mom

about it.

Does she now.

She has to know me.

And it's not something
she's going to talk about.

Obviously, with the man anyway.

Can I say that to any.

That's fucked up.

Your dad doing that?

You serious?

Yeah. I'm serious.

This guy's been married for 30 years. So?

So you have sex with the same woman
for 30 years?

You married her?

Sad. Me?

I think you mean something.

Well, I guess they should stay together
so they don't rock your little fantasy.

The the ground.

I can see that.

I'm gonna get you.

If I had got into Columbia, of course,
and through some clerical error

or something.

Or that we're both back on home turf.

The Abbey pub on 105th
and Broadway was our official hangout.

That was where I met Nina.

Alicia croaked.

Now check me out next week.

I got this waitress up.

That nice ass.

Nice ass.

She transcends my sense of up.

Okay.

All right.

Felicity.

What can I get you?

Oh, the Jack Daniels on the rocks.

And, she's with a medium rare.

Oh. How's that?

you know, Belushi died,

right? Like.

Oh, wow.

You won't let that have me?

No. Never.

And you okay?

Yeah.

Not bad.

Not much bad.

You're insane.

It's your eyes.

A ponytail is perfect.

The rest.

She's so fucking cute.

God, I thought deeply in love with her.

I like this one. It's my one.

I am deeply in love with.

Not my type.

Yeah. Or I. You hold that.

Okay. Really?

I mean, that's the quality of club.

Must I continue tennis courses on them?

Lots of James Taylor. Definitely.

Now she's working here
because daddy wants her

to get in touch with the common.

One on the rocks.

Thanks.

Hey, listen, I have a question.

Are you on the swim team?

Yeah.

100 meter butterfly. Why?

Calm down.

I'll be right back with a cheeseburger.

Mike, you're such a prick.

Just processor, just like that.

Come on.

You got a minute?
She's a touch for her. I'm sorry.

She's not some
chain smoking. You're a fag.

Cover me.

I'm gonna

dig your own grave.

I'm. Lived in Kansas.

Carve our names in the tree.

With a big heart around it.

Got any keys?

Keys?

Okay.

I send you a request for this.

51 to 35.

15 across and five down.

Five across.

No, 15 across and five down.

Do you know what?

What I'm always going to be to remind you.

Would you read to me?

You all could.

It was barely
just light enough to see the pine trunks.

And they left to burn.

Careful not to wake Katherine.

No. Hemingway shoots.

And went.

To the Polynesian,

however, having spent the time
up until midday laying waste the land.

So, And about nightfall,

we're informed by fire signals.

One fine day,

Pou had stumped
up to the top of the forest

to save his friend Christopher.

Robin was interested in bears at all. Yes.

At breakfast
that morning, a simple meal of marmalade

spread lightly over a honeycomb or two.

Hello?

Yeah. Ben?

Yeah.

Come on up.

Sorry. Hi.

Come in.

Where's the man?

Oh. He went,
He went to Concord for the weekend.

It's interviewing
that guy for his piece of shit.

I totally forgot that I was this weekend.

Oh, God.

I'm sorry.

I'm gonna take off.

Hey. Hey, Ben,
why don't you hang out for a while?

I'm just studying for my midterms.

Could do with a break.

You sure? Yeah.

Come on.

Sit down.

Have a drink.

Of course not.

I don't know.

You know, we've gotta.

Yeah, sure.

I think I've got some wine in the fridge.

What are we drinking to?

A celibacy.

Then won't last long.

To I will.

I don't need this shit.

Ben, are you okay?

How much have you had to drink?

Not. There.

A better time to hit the streets.

Have you had anything to eat?

Could I make you something to eat?

Scrambled eggs.

Toast. Would you eat that?

I'm fine. Ben.

I'm gonna go.

Ben. Sit down.

Ben. Sit down.

Eggs are awesome.

This is a time honored family recipe.

And there is one crucial
but controversial ingredient,

which is mushrooms.

You okay?

Mushrooms. Ben.

you do that.

A bucket.

Just thank God for that.

No, David, the fucking frigerator.

Who would you do that?

I'm serious.

Would you do that?

Would you ever do that?

Yeah.

I was very unhappy, Ben.

She was an unhappy person.

Together.

You weren't happy to.

Yeah.

What am I now?

Like an ass.

No, no.

You have every right to feel
the way you do.

I swear, all I want
is a normal relationship, you know?

I mean, is it too much to fucking ask?

Just gotta find the right person.

I'm your right person.

Yeah.

Yeah, definitely.

I don't know if you know this, but

I didn't really like you at first.

Yeah, I kind of got that impression.

Well, he told you? No.

No. Adam
always told me how much you liked me.

You know, I was a jerk, but I was lucky.

Oh. Are you making yourself a pretty.

Ben's new girlfriend?

She could be the one
he spends the rest of his life with.

Ergo,

the woman we spend the rest of our lives
with.

That's rather momentous, wouldn't you say?

No. You don't think that you're

just putting a little bit
too much pressure on this girl?

She could be the one

I sent her.

Is this music?

Adam sent it to me.

I realize I never listen to it.

A little last minute cramming.

No, thanks.

It's pretty weird.

See? Weird.

I met Kat at Stanford Law,

the first school I'd ever attended
without Adam as a classmate.

He and Nina had gotten married and started
spending a lot of time up at his parents

country house.

This is scary.
And being thrown into the deep end.

You guys have known each other
for so long.

And love you.

That's good.

That's all that matters.

Give me a kiss.

Oh oh, oh.

Those New England winters.

Hey, if it isn't John Cheever himself
made it.

Hey, how are you doing?

Good to see you, buddy. Hey.

I didn't know you guys already.

Ben talks about you.

well, constantly.

That much for the crap
out here at the ad man.

Hey. Welcome.

We're absolutely thrilled to meet you.

Yeah, she's too good for the likes of you.

I mean, you know, you just met her.

I can tell.

You have a good drive up.

Oh, yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Hey. Inside, people.

You bring her to us.

a little. We'll see about that.

Yeah, I got that.

This is great.

You know, I promise.

He's attractive.

Adam is very attractive.

I can see why women would like him.

Nina was his first serious girlfriend.

Really? Yeah.

I guess he's all around
girls around over. But.

Yeah.

Neighbors especially love.

He was a virgin.

Yeah.

That's great.

Can't believe that. That.

That's so romantic.

What?

Oh, no.

It's.

He's never been hurt.

I mean, never.

He's never developed any kind of,
like, emotional scar tissue or anything.

Why is it so important?

I don't know.

I mean, and I know it isn't I sports.

What are you, jaded stud?

Hey, I'm not around.

You know.

Because it's lonely.

Oh, yeah? Yeah.

Let me show you.

You never told me an eye patch.

Sure I did.

I didn't.

What happened?

We got hold of a basket.

4th of July.

And I let him, but he was leaning over it.

Yeah.

How old were you? So.

I mean, I'm telling.

I could've sworn I did.

You poor baby.

That must have been awful.

I never saw him cry.

Okay.

They would wear long black coats.

And I gotta tell you,
they looked ridiculous. I,

What do you mean?

We look ridiculous.

What about your little uniform, missy?

The suede clogs and the perfect jeans.

The Brooks brothers?

Sure.

Rich girls slumming at Unique boutique.

Oh, and what you spend
your time is selling potatoes from Ohio.

That's right.

I walk 25 miles through
snow over mountains to promote fashion.

Nothing came to me.

My friends and I used to walk through Palo
Alto in these,

and these tie dyed peasant dresses.

It wasn't even dead.

You were.

Dancing. Girls. I can't.

Imagine it. Was awful.

This is what. Photos
from that period should be destroyed.

Nina hated me.

Back. Oh. You're right.

Okay. It was the other way around.

You see, Ben thought that I was stealing
his little playmate.

What do you mean?

He was a Yoko Ono of Columbia. Oh.

Oh, my little Yoko.

Thank you.

And then we had this very bonding moment,
which.

Nina was very kind to me in hour of need.

And made you eggs.

You made me eggs.

Eggs, Lawson. Yeah.

And you were so sad.

Oh, that. I was so pathetic.

Don't tell me.

Don't tell me,
don't tell me. It's the famous,

And then this asshole

or this asshole raisin
what I play about it.

right, what I know. Yeah.

Nothing's so painful that Adam Miller
can exploit it for his own game.

Careful. This from a law.

And on top of it,
you fucking thing wins the

the drama prize and is performed
in front of 200 people or something every

look at my life.

Change the names.

Yeah, you change the names.

I became kid.

It was really beautiful.

People wept. Yeah I. Did.

What's wrong with those are happening
or two happening silhouettes.

It's called.

It's.

Okay, I see it.

See what.

You did.

What do you think? Hey. Needs a beer?

No. Are you sure?

Are you sure you can handle it?

Yeah, I wanna see it.

Gaze into the abyss.

Ben never told me.

Everyone always felt so sorry for me.

Well,

I always felt kind of sorry for him. Oh.

Everything that happens in life.

People are gonna blame somebody.

And it could have been

the other way around so easily.

So you weren't pissed off?

Adam.

It's an accident.

And he's still carrying it around.

So the way that he disappeared

and you brought it up. Sam.

What are you gonna do?

I like.

Yeah.

She's nice.

Strenuous.

It's good to see you.

I miss you too much.

I miss you guys.

You do not belong in California, ma'am.

You should move back here.

I mean it.

Come back when Kat.

Well.

What?

Chet. No.

I mean, I think so.

You know, along really well.

I could be good.

Could really?

Good.

You deserve to be happy.

Thanks.

Oh, my God, why are you here again?

Amen. Nostalgia.

You know sentiment.
You're like an old man.

Kat and I got married
our final year of law school.

And after graduation,
we moved back to New York.

She started working for the mayor, and
I got a job at a big corporate law firm.

It was a very late 80s yuppie existence.

How's your work on strong?

Good?

Yeah, yeah.

Finishing up that thing for the magazine.

Well, still.

Yeah. Ben, take my word for it. Seriously?

I'm like, show me everything

I know and love.

I write, like, two briefs a day.

I mean, what's the right briefs?
Like where? Briefs.

You're gonna try for a camel
through the eye of a needle?

I can't say I've done that.

Takes a while.

It's all here, baby.

Trust me.

I mean, before us, baby.

We can go home again,

Nothing's changed.

Supplements here are grist for the mill.

Oh my God.

Jesus.

Oh, yes.

Hello.

Thanks.

We're doing fine.

Good for us.

We'd like a pinch of your cheap,
watered down draft beer.

You know. Excuse me.

You're not on the swim team, are you?

Tucker has a brain tumor.

Don't know.

Okay, I done that.

Working all the fucking time.

Hardly see each other.

Just pack form

and then get that laminated

office of the mayor card.

We can park anywhere we want to and do.

Guys, in this great.

Come on.

Does this have good feelings for you?

I met Nina here.

That's a good thing.

That's a fucking good thing.

You gonna be all right?

Anything else?

I think that'll do.

Okay.

Ticket.

Cash, man.

Cheers, buddy.

I was thinking about Emily the other day.

Just.

That intensity.

You know,

I mean, I haven't the same

feeling of romantic love.

I swear, ma'am,

I don't even remember what that felt like.

You're lucky, you piece of shit.

You know that, don't you?

I mean, think.

So. What do you do?

I mean, are you still madly in love?

Yeah.

Then the same thing goes.

Something takes its place.

We find those things that make you happy.

All right.

Anyway, hindsight's always fucked up.

And he was not smart.

And she drove you insane.

Yeah.

Yeah, she was fucking cute.

I can still smell her perfume.

Tatiana.

It's not fair to compare people to ghosts.

I'm not gonna measure up.

Thanks.

Yeah, okay.

Remember to book those chairs.

The thing Tuesday in Staten Island.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Thanks, Nancy.

Oh, and in.

The, the mirror. And also.

I know.

I know. I just wanna make sure

I'm going
to get the Stockbridge number of this one.

Okay.

Have a good Thanksgiving.

See you Monday. Bye.

I mean, what are you, his babysitter?

He's a very busy man. Yeah. His honor.

You can suck me off.

Would you like that?

Desperately.

Okay.

You know, I mean, I've been in the car
for half an hour. It's almost 5:00.

It's going to be a fucking nightmare.

Sweetie. I'm sorry.

I don't know what else I can say.

I'm sorry.

Sex. God.

Yeah.

You think that's gonna work? Yes.

Well. You're right.

God damn it!

Lifesaver.

Okay. You got.

Nana.

Oh, yes.

So how was your day?

My dad was grunt work.

Took a deposition from a guy.

I swear,
I looked exactly like Charles Laughton.

You know.

Mr. Christian.

This from Joey Adams.

Hiram says so.

I had a girlfriend once for 11 days.

That's a strange amount of time, I said.

Hiram shrugs.

Took that long to chew through the ropes.

I can't believe you can get the post up
here.

It's like an invasion.

So who's up for a walk?

Got about it.

Then?

Sure.

Why the hell not?

Ma'am.

And I really want to get this crap done.

I don't want to think about it. It's okay.

Sure.

You sure?

Yeah.

All right.

See what I mean, kid?

Have fun.

I think they said
it was going to snow tonight.

Yeah. Yeah, yeah, just be great.

Cold.

Wet enough to do anything?

Yeah. Cozy.

Smells like snow. I'm.

Just like the bridge in Oregon. So.

My sister Josie
and I bought a whole village under it.

Oh, yeah.

The Great Falls,

Want to hear a secret?

This trumpet.

It's been so. Long. Yes.

Cinnamon.

Cause.

It's,

Okay.

What?

Pick a stick.

Oh. What? Come on. Pick a stick.

There's a few sticks and some figures.

Favorite game.

All right. You.

Everyone comes out the other side.

First is the winner.

Wait.

How do we know which?

Which

comes out first is mine.

Yeah. Okay. You ready?

Yes. One.

Two. Three.

Come on.

Seabiscuit.

Three.

Four.

Moving.

Sorry.

I'm sorry.

No. It's okay.

Yes. Well,
I think this is the time where you say

we should be
heading back to the house now.

Right.

That's not a bad idea. I'm.

You know, I'm sorry.

I mean.

I totally.

No, it's it's it's
not anything. It's okay.

I don't know.

It's okay. Can.

Sex maniac.

Third down and long.

And the rest.

Wayfarers return.

I smell so
good. That's making banana bread.

And it's complete.

Oh, man.

Hey. Good work.

Darren. Yeah, it was great.

Rookie out of Cal State, long Beach.

Activity score 2117.

Rams performance last. Week.

And they still find time to lose it.

What do you think? Full blitz.

It was a safety blitz.

They brought everyone in.

Cowboys fans
six fucking turnovers on the top.

Since when do you give a shit
about the Cowboys.

Safety blitz can't tolerate incompetence.

Another first down.

You like what you see
every time you look at the sheet.

Hey Dickerson.

Picks up three in tangerine.

Gimme zone for the day.

The rich baby rams.

Would you guys go inside?

Counsel? Oh.

I don't know the onions, but bridge.

The troll bridge.

Yeah. See the bastard.

Get it up. Mr.. Thank you, ma'am.

Anyone want a beer?

Put you back.

That, ma'am.

Yes, ma'am.

I kind of avoided it for months
after that.

I still hung out with Adam,
but I made excuses

not to go to their apartment,
not to see her

work.

Until one night
I was walking home off Broadway.

Yo, spare some change?

Hey, hey.

How are you?

Hey, stranger.

Oh, nice to see you.

What are you up to? Thanks.

you know me.

I'm just, Working for the man here.

Oh, yeah.

All grown up, Oh, no. Please.

Everybody.

I know they're having kids
getting a performance in Park Avenue.

Feel like I'm getting left behind?

well, Come on. I feel lucky.

That's not.

Christmas.

I say,

hey, what are you doing now?

Right now?

Freezing
my ass off. Let's go have a drink.

I gotta get home.

I can't. Why?

I'm taking jeopardy.

Get out of here! Hey.

Promised. Adam, you don't have a timer.

Yeah, well,
I gotta be home. Fuck! Jeopardy!

I'm talking about real human interaction
here is not more important.

Anyway, it's, It's a high school
tournament.

Really? This whole week.

Baby questions?

And so you guys went skiing?

I haven't talked to you since then.

Ben, you do not need to feel weird about.

The Trowbridge incident.

I mean,

I wanted you to know
that I didn't take it badly.

It just happened.

It's no big deal.

Okay?

You didn't tell him?

No. I'm here with,

I'm here with the great Kathy Birkeland.

No. Probably about an hour.

Is that okay?

Okay, great.

All right.

You want me to bring you home? Anything?

Okay.

Have.

Yeah.

I love you, too. Bye.

Okay.

I just told Adam that I was,

I told Adam I was with Cathy Berglund.

With Kathy Burke.

Girl, I went to school with.

Adam and I did that.

For fun.

I mean, why would I do that?

Because you're having a good time. So.

because I think you're
having a good time, and.

And I don't,
you know, want to change anything.

You are having a good time, right?

It's like this

weird cross between nostalgia and anxiety.

I know it doesn't make any sense.

I don't know. I'm with you.

It's just.

It's impossible to explain.

It's.

You know, when you're a kid

and you go to the supermarket
and for the first time, you lose your mom,

and you get that,

you know, you get the kind of rush that.

Yeah, yeah, yeah,
I see something like that.

When I was little,

I would stare right into a mirror

until I was utterly terrified.

I think it was this realization

that I was this solitary thing,

physically alone.

Right? Yeah.

That that I was
that I was ultimately alone

in the universe.

Oh, what did you do?

I stopped looking in the mirror.

Oh. I'm serious. Oh.

It's like,

Like forcing yourself
to wake up from a nightmare.

It's the same principle.

I wish I could describe it better.

These feelings,

feelings of longing, you know,

longing and a kind of fear.

Here.

That I've lost something.

All right.

You tell me one.

I might.

memory and image

a piece of you.

Okay.

I got one.

All right.

It's summer.

It's boat club beach.

It's night time,

Frisbee.

Bonfire night.

Sparks flying around.

Adam and I.

We're entertaining the martini drinkers.

He's too honest.

It's Tom Jones impression.

You know what's new, pussycat?

And I was wearing my dad's

big black wool sweater.

It's not like him.

Like English leather.

Bacco.

My mother's laughing.

Everything's perfect. God,

I wish I could have seen Adam at that age.

You guys must've been so cute.

I had to face that moment for eternity.

I just take. It.

Oh. Oh.

Here you go.

Oh. My.

oh. Oh.

Oh! Go!

Come on.

Come.

You leaving me all alone?

Why don't you come with us.

To Mondrian exhibit? Yeah, right.

It could be fun.

We could eat at Blimpie.

Ken, sweetie.

I'm fine.

When I grew up here.

Adam.

There he is.

You're.

Abby.

So I can't convince you.

So what's up with you?

Nothing

gets done in DC again.

In another fucking conference.

The bachelor? Yeah.

Having a wildlife.

Ride.

See you later, sweetie.

They make up a section.

the three on the table.

Hey, you see what's at the Thalia
next week?

Yeah, yeah.

A yearly viewing.

Touch of evil effort.

Yeah. Sneak in.

We're there.

Okay.

Right.

Have fun.

You know that.

Modeling shit is annoying. Yeah,

I've seen this movie 50 times.

I still don't know what to say.

or all whatever.

Martial arts.

Oh, fine.

But, Honey, we're going to get weird.

Oh, drink.

I don't drink.

How about a bunch of drinks?

Bungee.

Bungee Expressway.

That's not happening.

Too bad. Come on. It's in good shape now.

From the Belt Parkway, right up the middle
of the promenade to the mall.

Just a little sluggish.

So why are you back?

When are you coming back?

that's a Tuesday.

Temperature.

You. Me?

For the whole weekend.

To say that I'm

marrying one of Boston, a grandfather.

What?

Would you say?

Nothing.

Hello?

Oh, yeah. This is Adam and Nina.

And we can't come to the phone.

But won't you please leave us a message?

Where the fuck are you?

It's,

It's gone on 11.

My grandfather just called me Flo,
so I have a feeling

the party's about over.

I don't know what you are.

Are you being dead by now?

Okay.

I will try again.

I love you. I.

Hey. I'm sorry.

So that I didn't wake you up today.

No, no, not at all.

I can't find. Nina.

You wouldn't have to know where she is,
would you?

Well, that was a matter of fact.
She's right here.

Oh, I'm. It.

Hello?

What's wrong? Hi.

No, we were just hanging out.

I guess I lost track of time.

Yeah.

How's Boston?

Same as always.

Yeah.

How's Peter?

Charming.

give him.

Give him a hug from me.

Yeah.

You know, I was.

I was leaving now anyway.

I have, I

promise.

Good.

All right.

I love you, too.

I'll see you tomorrow. Bye.

Well.

Well.

Adam.

That wasn't good.

what? It was.

It was totally
innocent. What are you doing?

I have to go.

Oh, my.

She said you weren't gonna fall asleep in.

Excuse me.

Yeah.

This is insane.

What? What?

Nina.

Come on.

What the fuck's my other shoe?

Oh, so I can accommodate. No.

It's fine.

Just,

Stay away.

Hello?

Oh, yeah.

This is Adam and Nina.

we can't come to the phone, but won't you
please leave us a message?

Okay.

I want to go to bed

because I gotta get up early
so I can just traffic.

All right.

I'll see you tomorrow.

Ben. You.

Okay.

Adelaide Stevenson's running mate
ahead of New York Crime Commission.

Kiefer. Yes.

Five seconds.

The greatest director
in the history of film. Yes.

We got time. Bullshit.

Come on. Oh, please.
You guys are pathetic.

It's the same fucking clues every time.

Just get over Orson Welles. Oh. I'm sorry.

Last legs down by five.

No problem. Yeah.

Would you like to give or receive?

So you're trying to get rid of. See, Alex.

And let him go?

Okay. He was the.

Old mayor of New York who used to read
comics over the regular guardia.

Okay, good.

Oh, Modern painter drinking dripping.

Jackson Pollock? Yeah.

Okay.

Novelist, died in a car accident.

Nathaniel West.

good. But, Existentialist French.

Okay, okay. Okay.

Okay. Okay.

Okay, good. One of mine.

Can't say that. Can't say.

That. Shut up. Architect.

He was the director of the bar house.

He, designed the Seagram Building with,
for the giant.

Falling on your own sword there.

32nd. Chicago
Federal Center. Glass. Glass?

Yes. Oh, fuck.

Did you get the,

Well, I don't know who this is.

15 seconds.

I know this. Is,

Oh, God. Okay.

first name rhymes with the daughter
and family affair.

Buffy. Coffee? Coffee? Crap.

Duffy. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. Okay.

Last name, he said.

And Matt.

So close, ladies.

What is he, some hockey puck?

Donald.

Robert Duffy, DIYer,

second string catcher for the 1969 world
champion New York Mets.

You said you were going to do that
anymore.

There's a cultural
icon he called Nolan Ryan.

Who the fuck is Duffy Dyer?

Who the fuck is Mies van der Rohe?

Moonlit room.

Curve of a naked woman's back.

Kind of like Manson.

Motels.

With ice machines.

Lots of towels.

Big towels.

After the past.

An imprint.

Rainy Saturday.

Trying to buy a pumpkin.

The throb of the windshield wipers.

College football game on the radio.

Roxy music. So.

The Sierras in winter.

Who are hiking up the tower tomorrow?

They're.

First time.

Not the first snowfall.

Gosh!

Snow.

15 across.

Five down.

Diving into a pool.

Side down.

Then looking up.

Farmer.

Signs.

To come.

Ask. Beautiful.

It's like being on a boat
when it's raining.

You know something weirdly
great about that.

It's cozy.

It's like a good roadhouse.

What do you know about
being in a roadhouse?

Been.

Are you trying to sound like a beer
commercial?

Does it just come naturally?

Would you like to talk about,

you know.

Well, we could talk about what

a shit that you are.

Want more?

Jack?

Why not?

Do you remember when we used

to come up here with my dad?

You should be that guy down the bottom.

So those little cartons of orange drink.

I used to love all that fake shit.

Instant iced tea.

Slim Jims.

Nothing feels that way anymore.

That intense.

The wind.

Right.

Now. Kind of dazzling.

I feel like I can't smell anything
anymore.

Yeah.

You find new things and make you happy.

Unless what

you said to me, once
you remember, you lose certain things.

You gain certain things.

Oh, 30 year old male

who fell 40ft, gets severe head injuries
on responsive, gets a rigid abdomen.

Pelvic fractures.

We're going to be there in about 3
to 4 minutes due to trauma protocol.

He just fell.

How does that happen?

I do this.

Where's Nina?

She's trying to find Adam's mother.

What?

Well, there's the little cat.

There was no look.

You can't.

Okay, don't do this to me tonight.

Not tonight. Just.

Please, Ben.

I can't take care of
both of you right now.

You don't have to take care of me.

Please, just don't get drunk tonight.

Did you get through?

They left early.

I left a message for them
in the hotel in Providence.

But they're not going to be
until tomorrow.

Did you call your mom?

No. I can't handle her right now.

Well, I,

I've had some crackers and cheese.

As to kill.

Yes, please.

You okay?

Want some dinner?

You don't have to.

No, I should probably something.

You know, I haven't eaten since,

you know, before.

I'm just gonna make some spaghetti. Okay.

That's great.

So that's it,

Yeah. So.

Remember the complet class that we had

when. Hamilton.

Professor Randall.

Turner?

And every Thursday, Adam
had the overlapping class.

You sneak out 15 minutes early.

Oh my God. Yeah, yeah.

And, Kat, one day, Adam is,

He's trying very hard to sneak out of
class, and I have to leave.

But it's Adam, right?

So he's bumbling
along and he's wearing this long the.

Remember the long Red Army coat,
and it's dragging along the floor,

and he's knocking
everybody's books over this.

He goes in, the teacher is in the middle
of this profound

thought,
and without missing a beat, he goes.

And now it became clear that, he,
he knew this preternaturally.

Just as I know that something

very shattering important happens
every Thursday afternoon at 345.

That necessitates
this gentleman's leaving.

So then we just start laughing,

and Adam
just stops and he looks at the floor.

He smiles and he looks up and he goes,

I'm actually it's 340, so.

But, I was really into that story.

And then he just smiles and he,

like, shuffles out of the room. So.

it was so beautiful.

God, we laughed for days. oh.

We can, you know, you know, stay.

I'm going up.

Why don't you come and sit
with us for a minute?

I'm gonna keep my eyes open.

You okay?

I that's really.

I mean.

We love you.

I know,

you can listen.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Hey. Thanks.

You okay?

Gonna read?

Yeah.

You don't mind if I stay up for a while,
do you?

No. No.

Take care of her.

I'm soon.

In Benji.

I need you to

lock.

I love you.

I love you.

I want to go back to the hospital. And.

some middle of the night.

I don't want you drive me.

I, I mean.

I know he's not gonna even know
we're there.

We'll

I just
I think we should go in the morning, go

first, and.

This is insane.

I don't think I'm going to be able.

To handle this.

The baby's calendar is.

My baby's day.

No no no no no.

I really don't think
that I'm going to be able to handle this.

Because I feel like my head's
just going to explode

or something,
and I don't know what to do. Oh.

Do. I.

Love you.

So much.

I love

you. So.

I'm here.

I am so.

His best friend in

every probably doing

that.

What the fuck are we doing?

I'm sorry,

but do you mind if I go in there alone?

Just wait.

No, I'll take a cab.

Okay.

Benji.

Come on.

Yeah.

Sorry.

Listen, Brad,

can you get a loaf of that olive bread?

Is this how you cope?

Cooking? Shopping?

I mean, what do you. Martha Stewart?

We just get out of here.

What, you think I'm enjoying this?

Do you think this is
what I want to be doing right now?

We have no food, Ben. Okay.

Can we just get this over with? Sarah?

Yeah.

Jesus.

So there's such.

A chore to be with me.

So I'm not Nina.

What do you want to do?

Kill you.

Can't you want to leave?

Leave.

Why the fuck should I leave?

I'm not the asshole.

I'm not the one who's fucking his best
friend's wife.

Do you want me to leave?

how could you do this?

Yeah,

yeah, you have wheels.

You fucking terrify me. Kat, please.

What is this, a bad time?
What do you want to say?

I don't know why I did it.

What are you, a two year old?

You just take whatever you want.

Fuck everyone.

It was a. Horrible thing to do.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I hurt you.

If you hurt me. Are you. Insane?
Want from me?

Don't fuck other people.

Don't break my heart.

My heart has that.

Cut! You piece of shit! No!

I can,

I can almost.

I can almost.

Understand you doing this to me.

But how?

I mean, did you want to possess him?

Somehow, some.

Some part of him you couldn't have.

So you say you fuck his wife, is that it?

You killed him.

I hope you know that.

I mean, you know what it was like.

Fuck off.

I don't know you.

You're shit.

You are fucking shit.

I know what I did.

I know I fucked.

Ed! I'm sorry.

I love you.

What do.

You. Do.

With.

Two wild animals.

Hey. Hey!

Oh my God!

It's you.

You look great.

So do you.

How are you?

Okay. Yeah.

You made partner.

Oh, actually, I quit.

You're kidding.

You know.

Well, what about you?

You, I heard you were in London.

Yeah. How's that?

It's great. Yeah. Yeah, I love it.

I heard about you and Kat.

I'm sorry.

Yeah, well.

Keep in touch.

Yeah, she's doing good.

Just getting married in April. Really?
Yeah.

He's a good guy, actually. Man.

That's great. Happy for him.

For how long?

You in New York?

ups. Hi. Hi.

Nah. I'm good.

oh. I'm sorry.

Hey, this is Ben. Ben.

Oh, Mike.

I'm Ben. Good to meet you.

You must tell me so much about you.

This is my husband, Chris. This.

This is, We announced.

Hey. Hi.

And how you doing?

Oh, God.

He's, He's beautiful, isn't it?

Yeah.

Just like

when we sit down, you know, have supper.

This, Oh, well, I mean, I'd

love to, but,
I gotta be somewhere at eight.

Are you sure?

Oh, come on. Yeah. Yeah. Great.

But, Thanks.

Yeah, actually I should.

I should probably get going right now.

All right.

I'm gonna walk you out. Okay.

It's good to meet you. Yeah.

Nice to meet you.

So when do you go back to London?

Oh, day after tomorrow.

I was going to go.

Don't worry.

Oh. How are you, Ben?

You okay?

I try to do good things.

I know,

I do too.

Oh. It's beautiful.

Looks just like you.

Yeah.

I can't believe how much I love him.

I'll call you next time,

I promise.

You better.

Spend my time on the long.

Never with anyone for too long.

She came to me in the thought of a touch.

Turned my head.

Feeling the same about me.

That's what made me see.

I wasn't all alone.

I could feel this change inside of me.

I sat on the end.

I've been

the look in her eyes.

And nothing's unsaid.

Moving so close.

We were totally lost in the moment.

And in mine.

The man

you mentioned.

There was never a room to say.

That this kind of sick tuition

could never happen to me.

I told you to wait for a while.

She looked up at me with a smile.

Holding my hand so close.

She knew what I was going through.

I was taking a chance, being kind.

Now she's always on my mind.

Calling my name out loud.

You know, it made me realize.

Something's happened to me.