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You know, I just never got anything they were trying to do for me.

All they were trying to do in general.

I mean, once my father made me collect up all my

toys, you know, my kind of macho toys from my bedroom, and

he took me downstairs and made me burn them all in the garden.

Yeah, I mean, he must have bought the stuff for me anyway, because I don't

about that.

I mean,

I just didn't get it.

Every day, constant contradictory.

That certainly seems like a pretty heavy thing for him to do to you, Art.

But I don't know why you're telling me this now.

I just thought you ought to know something about my childhood.

Something about where I really came from.

And then maybe you could reconsider.

But this is about us.

Now.

It's just not working.

When we first met, you seemed so elusive and brooding and intense.

An enigmatic poet.

What I took to be deep and mysterious has just turned out to be really sad and

unhappy.

sarcastic laugh.

I'd like to be a part of the global game,

but I'm left behind, choking on death.

Choking on death.

Choking on death.

Choking on death, choking on death.

It's not finished yet.

It's a work in progress.

Hello?

Hey, Ronnie, it's us.

Come in, you jerk.

It's that time again.

I just feel like I'm going through some kind of quarter -life crisis.

Arthur, could you go over to that deli and get me some things?

Why?

I've been looking over there and some of the delicatesseries look delicious.

Why don't you go over there yourself?

I've been using this internet home delivery.

Where's the kitchen?

If you go over there yourself.

London is perilous, Arthur.

Oh yeah, this is that CD you lent me.

They're not very good, are they?

What?

First off, he is not a they, apart from session musicians.

Oh, right.

And I obviously like him, otherwise I wouldn't have lent you the... I

like him, otherwise I wouldn't have lent you the CD.

What?

So why are you saying that?

What?

You're such an idiot.

Do you think I should go into therapy?

No, Jesus, why would I think you needed to go into therapy?

It's cognitive.

Therapy was invented in the 60s. Do you know what invented means? It means it

doesn't exist.

Well, what am I supposed to do then?

Do your music.

I am. I just had a gig. I told you I had a gig the other day. Gig, gig, gig,

gig. Do more music. We should do some music.

On the computer?

Yeah, well, yeah. Me on the computer, you on the guitar.

It'll be good for you. It'll be a new thing for you. We could form a band.

We could form a band and I could get Nicky Fierce to come and play some

Who's Nicky Fierce? Do you remember Nicholas Dwyer from school?

Yeah. You changed his name?

Nicky Fierce.

Nicky? Yeah, Nicky.

I don't know. Maybe drums are a little bit too loud for my acoustic sound.

They're electronic drums, you halfwit.

We can make them as quiet as a mouse.

Be like, usually be like electronic fusion, electronic music, electronic

acoustic version, electronic digital.

Come on, do you want to do this? This is a good thing for you to do. This is the

worst thing for you to do. Do you want to do it? Should we start this band?

Should we start a band?

Should we do a jam? Should we do one jam? Should we do one jam? Should we do

jam? Should we have a jam? Should we have a jam on Tuesday?

Should we have a jam on Tuesday?

Tuesday. Should we do it? Tuesday.

Come on.

Tuesday. Do you want to do it? Tuesday.

Should we do it on Tuesday? Should we have a jam on Tuesday?

Is that clear? Yes.

Yay!

Real heroes.

I don't know what I've been told.

I'd like to find a way to break away

I'd like to find a way to break

away

I just wanted someone to comfort me, you know, just to ease my anxiety.

Right.

But I'm still really anxious.

Yeah, well, we all have to die, aren't we? Yeah, I know that, Jeremy, but...

I just feel so unhappy all the time. Yeah, so you keep telling me.

Look, Art, I mean, you've got to remember, you don't actually have things

that bad.

I mean, there are so many people in the world who are hungry or oppressed, and,

you know, they'd do anything to be in the position that you're in. I know.

That's why I'm voluntarily giving my time to help the community.

Yeah. Look.

Oh.

Um... I can't help feeling that maybe your main reason for coming here is, you

know, to make yourself feel good.

I mean, this is... It's quite a...

Quite an unpretending environment, wouldn't you say?

I have absolutely no idea what you're saying to me.

I just don't feel that I'm ready for this kind of commitment.

No, you're not ready for this kind of commitment.

You can't do this to me.

I don't understand why you care so much all of a sudden.

It's not as if you've paid me any attention so far.

Look, we're not breaking up.

Yes, we are.

I'm adopted.

Those folks out there, they're not my real parents at all.

Well, that might explain why they hate you.

They don't hate me.

So what happened to your real parents?

They died.

In a house fire.

And where were you?

I was staying with my grandmother.

She had cancer.

She was painted with a cancer brush.

Tumour. You're lying, aren't you?

Yes, but you... A little bit.

But, um... You made me.

It won't take long to move your stuff out, will it?

Will it?

I really think you should talk to someone.

About what?

Your family.

Your parents.

It's not normal.

Listen to what you're saying, Art.

Um, I'm so sorry.

I've got to take this.

I'll be right back.

Arthur? Mom?

I don't know how you knew to call me here.

I rang dad at the uni.

He was busy, so he told me to call this number.

But how did he know?

I don't know.

You don't know?

No, I don't know.

No,

neither do I.

I've moved back in for a while.

Back home.

I know.

How did you know?

Well, it was just a matter of time.

Life is a stage on which we all play.

Rule is a game that we love.

I'd like to be a part of the global game.

Joking on the dot.

Joking on the dot.

Tobin on dot dot dot dot dot do

Can I come and read with you?

Yeah.

I suppose so.

I'm reading this book by the Sky Doctor Levi Ellington.

I'm just going to sit here then.

So this is what makes you happy, then?

Sitting and reading?

I suppose.

No, not really.

Great car. You're gonna love it.

Fantastic. Big eight performance.

Walk around the gearbox and tell you about the airbags. Who needs airbags?

Red line on the right side of that.

Your Uncle Jerry's money?

Invent your Uncle Cherry's money?

I just wanted to do something good with my inheritance.

Your father won't be at all happy.

You're always saying there's something wrong with me.

So now I'm going to get fixed.

I wonder at you sometimes.

You know, what I love most about you, Arthur, is your naivety.

Right.

Nicky? Get the fuck out of my city.

It would probably be advantageous if you could escape from structures.

What do you mean, structures?

Well, consumer structures.

Society structures.

Just try and escape from the consumeristic materialisticness of it

You know, buying ego cards.

Morning. Arthur.

Art. Yeah, my nitrous oxide.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, wow.

Sorry.

You know, just try and find something with peace.

Help.

I don't know. Your own way.

Alexander Technique.

Organic sleep.

I mean, you could sleep, motherfucker, for a start.

Sleep.

Sleep. Those little slices of death.

How I loathe them. To quote Poe. You just got that from the beginning of

Nightmare on Elm Street 2.

Well, it's the beginning of Nightmare on Elm Street 3, but I knew it anyway.

Whatever. Look, the whole thing is about women, okay?

Women. Yeah?

Okay? And if I share a few of my pearls of my wisdom and offer them to you...

then getting laid might actually seem like a possibility not so much for you

yeah i was just um i was thinking of something a little bit yeah i know what

you're saying tai chi yeah yoga lesbianism ceramic shoes i've done all

the best thing i would do would probably get be born it was amazing the whole

thing hilarious

Yeah, I had a similar experience actually when I was driving on the

between Leeds and London in a van and I stuck my head out of the window for

about 45 minutes.

I managed to get myself pretty bad cold.

Yeah, good one.

Tell me, Ronnie, do you actually like yourself?

Yeah. Really? No.

Oh.

Me, you, London, come with me.

I'll open your eyes.

Um... I need you on the phone with me.

No.

I have a balance of self already.

And I also think I'm probably getting a migraine.

The thing is, I have a way different approach to life than most people, okay?

Like, you ever heard of that dude Nietzsche?

Right, he had this amazing philosophy.

Basically, you say, you know... You go around London and you stick your dick in

anything, you know, and the whole world just loves you for it for some reason. I

can't figure it out, but it totally works for me.

I'm just so unhappy at the moment.

I don't care about that for some reason.

I'm not sure.

Why are you so different to how you were at school?

I admit it. I was a geek. But check me out now. It doesn't matter.

You can be like me, yeah, if you just embrace your freedom.

If you did something mental now, like got an old lady, told her to...

She's stupid or something or run this doorbell. Ring this doorbell.

Yeah, and then we'll leg it and just go mental in London. Ring the doorbell.

Ring the doorbell. Go on. Don't be a cunt. Ring the doorbell. Ring it and run

with me. You'll be hilarious.

You've actually done that. What? Are you just stupid?

What? Just run away quickly.

Idiot. You're an idiot.

I appreciate the gesture, Mickey.

I mean, what do you think about things like therapy,

self -help?

Oh, that was close.

Real close. Keep watching.

Just sort of motivational stuff.

I'm going to go now.

No, no. One more, one more. Watch this.

Check it.

Check it, watch it.

It feels so much better.

I'm gonna go now.

No, no, come on. Just hang with me.

I'm gonna make a call.

We need some Tamina and Indulgence.

You with me at this point?

You with me?

Okay. Hey, kid.

Hey, look at me.

Hey.

Hey.

You alright?

Come on.

Give me a smile.

Give me something.

Tonight, I'm like the karate kid, yeah?

You are my protege. I'm going to teach you every single move, yeah?

Clean you up, yeah?

You know everything.

Okay. Yeah?

Doesn't that make me that karate kid and you're Mr. Miyagi?

I don't even like the sound of that.

but they're coming okay follow my lead yeah do what i do you've done right no

can defend no conduct what am i just don't do yourself don't do yourself

have anything to do with yourself

i'm

having such a good time

I've got an erection.

What did you put in

that? Just Pepsi?

Trust me.

Okay, come with me. Show me where the alcohol is.

I don't know. Can I just show you one? I want to show you one thing. Let

me show you one thing. All right, but you're not going to pay for that

when you burn it.

Hello.

I'm Dr. Levi Ehrlich.

Perhaps by now, you're aware of my latest book.

It's not your fault.

Sometimes we all need a little help.

And with my new revolutionary, systematic approach, you too can say

goodbye to niggling doubts and fears.

Feel more at ease in social family gatherings.

Be more loving and communicative with your parents.

Have better job prospects. Make more friends.

Set realistic goals and achieve them.

Want more and need less.

Rid yourself of the cloying thoughts that you disappointed your parents.

Have free time and make better use of your ambition.

Most of all, we have to understand everything.

Are you sure you know what you're doing?

Yeah. It's a macrobiotic, low -glycemic index meal.

Sounds very scientific.

Yeah, apparently it'll detox our livers and make us more calm and communicative

and stuff.

Arthur, try not to make a mess or electrocute yourself.

And please don't wear your sunglasses indoors. You look ridiculous.

I wonder about you sometimes, Arthur.

Why don't we have proper meal times like other families?

Your father and I are very busy people. You've had a perfectly normal and

satisfactory upbringing, and you know it.

I suppose so.

In my parents' household, mealtimes ran like clockwork. It was downright

oppressive, and I never felt the need for us to live like that.

Why are you smiling?

I've got a surprise for you and Dad.

Don't say that, dear.

Mom, Dad, this is Dr.

Ellington. He's come away from Canada to party.

Party stands for Pragmatic Analytical Relationship Therapy Exercise.

He's going to make me be more normal. Very, very famous. Very, very

I'm really looking forward to getting to know you and your folks.

It must be so satisfying to know... All these deep, complex problems, these

psychological problems that you're trying to alleviate.

I think it's amazing.

It sure is.

Tomorrow's going to be an extra, especially exciting day on...

He's leaving

the house.

Where are you going? You haven't even had your breakfast yet. Not hungry.

When are we going to do something as a family? Maybe at the weekend.

Saturday.

Saturday, right. I'm going to go home.

I don't understand what you mean, Arthur.

We could go to the cinema.

Or for a walk or something.

Why?

It's like a family activity or a bonding experience.

Sounds a little forced to me.

What do you want to do?

Haven't you already planned this?

No.

I think we should go for a walk or something.

Fine. Look.

Do you mind? I really got to get to work.

Now,

Arthur, what I need you to do is to show me the areas in the house which have

either a happy or an unhappy.

spatial memory for you.

Visualize a time and a place.

How did you feel?

Nothing at all.

That's my memory from my old house. We only moved here eight years ago.

You remember the address of your old house?

Hello.

I'm Dr. Levi Ellington.

Perhaps you've read my book?

This young child is ours.

He and his parents.

used to live in this house.

Okay, right.

As part of an intensive therapy program, it is essential that art finds its

mental state within a physical.

What would you like to see?

Well, statistically, most traumatic experiences take place in the lower

of the house.

Can I go and see my old room?

Oh, I suppose so. I've seen it. It's the room opposite.

Is it your room?

Can I come in?

This used to be my room.

That's the window.

That's the garden, isn't it?

Did you live here before?

Yeah.

This is so strange. This seems more spacious, but it's actually smaller than

remember it being.

It's exactly where my bed was, but it was over there and it was different.

What kind of vibe did you get from this room?

Did you ever get the feeling there was a kid who used to live here who was just

very unhappy?

It's probably not like that now, though, is it?

Could you get out of my bed?

I wish I was you.

Why are you here, Art?

I just wanted to talk to you.

About what?

Just talk.

I don't know what you mean.

I'm sorry, but I don't know what this is about.

Well, I guess that's what I'm here for, too.

Would you excuse me for a minute, Art?

Um, Jessica, uh, would you say the way your parents treated you has made you

treat me? Art, what are you doing? Neither the kids lose.

What are you in here, then? Uh, what, uh, did you say your parents loved each

other? I said get out of the toilet.

Did they? Please.

Did they love you unconditionally? Oh, no, your parents divorced me.

Uh. What's this book, Art?

What isn't it more like?

Um, well, well, before, uh.

Did they argue much before? Please, don't try and draw me into this.

It's over.

Hey, shut up in your face. All right, don't do that.

I've got a jam session later on.

Just working through some ideas.

You know, composing and writing myself music.

I think we need to try to achieve a state of conciliatory, objective, future

-focused...

introspective, nurturing.

Or coffin, if you will.

Is he with you, Aunt? Don't let him. What has he got to say?

I don't think we should see each other anymore in any way.

Well, I'm not totally happy with things.

I don't get on with my parents all that well. Please, don't do this again.

What? Did you see what I did with those letters?

See where they're at?

Yes.

Just wait, hold on.

We kick it off with something like this.

That kind of intro thing. Sounds like an electric didgeridoo.

You kind of join in.

I'm playing you a chord, so just join in when you're ready.

Play E.

Play E. No, the note E.

Do you know how to do single notes? Play a note.

What's E? E, this one, E.

Arthur!

I don't know how to do it. Play a sequel.

We've moved. Play whatever you want.

Do you not have free will?

Do you not have any free will?

What can you play?

I'm not playing kids anymore.

I'm giving you loads of golden opportunities to join in.

Play your thing.

Can you hear stuff? Come on, that's an amazing guitar line.

I've thought of something that might appeal to you, Ronald.

Do you know what iPod stands for in my system?

Individual, personal, observational discernment.

In your system?

That's right.

Now tell me, can you dig that?

Can I speak to you for a minute on the roof garden?

Jesus.

Look at this place.

Yeah.

Fifteen million single women in London.

Keep your eyes on the prize, my brother.

Your eyes on the prize.

Think I'm gonna go home?

I call it my home base, no.

Yeah, well, why don't you move out?

Do you own this place?

Yeah, well, my dad.

My dad pays for it.

It's in my dad's name, but I'm just going to pay him back when I get a job.

I think it really is time we were going now, Lars.

I like to make a habit of being clean and in bed by 10 .30.

How did you get in? On door.

When? Hmm?

Before any of you woke up.

I was out all night, then. Got hungry.

You didn't put a sign.

Can't remember it.

OK.

Er... Thing is, Nicky, I've got to go to work in a second.

This care centre thing...

work at sometimes.

But if you want to do something today, I'll cancel it.

Figures show that people who are intrinsically motivated gain a greater

satisfaction. And in turn, greater self -esteem.

Self -esteem.

That's good, right?

Okay, uh...

Are you going to be okay by yourself?

Holocausted. I'll make myself busy.

Go ahead.

Work hard.

And I'll see you later.

All right.

Okay, bye.

Oh, who would have seen me? This is disgusting.

Did you say you had an untidy mind?

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Come on, I'm dominating.

It's one against all of you.

It's like chess.

It's like chess. You've got to think it through.

You've got to think about the moves before he does it.

Yeah, yeah, pass it back, pass it back, pass it back, pass it back.

How do you feel things are panning out with this game here?

Gareth...

Very straight -laced.

I mean, when we were doing the disco, you kept putting a damper on things.

Gareth's one of the senior organisers here. That's his job. I know. I don't

how liberal you guys are, but sometimes people need putting in their place.

Are we talking staff or residents now?

I don't know. You tell me.

I think you're trying to fog things now.

The fact is, after today's embarrassing episode, I think we've really got to ask

some questions about you working here.

Well, yeah.

Good. Do.

But, uh, I want my personal therapist here during any forward discussion.

You've got a personal therapist?

Yeah. Um... Look.

Why don't we just forget this whole thing happened and get back to what

supposed to be doing here, which has got to be worth a whole lot more than this

hunk of junk.

Art,

I'm really sorry, but you just can't work here anymore.

I'm an volunteer.

Well, I'm giving you back your free time.

Pricks, don't hurt her.

Jeremy is a backstabbing prick.

And I hate them all.

And Dareth, that smiling, smug, self -satisfied...

He knew I wasn't very good at my job.

I baked a cake, Art.

Things are getting worse, not better.

I think I'm passive -depressive.

Now, don't let's get morose.

Don't be hesitant to look inward.

It will provide reward.

Part of self -esteem is well -being.

How is your physical fitness?

So -so.

Three times around the block.

Hey, cool kid, don't care about anyone.

Anyone don't care about you. Hey, cool kid, don't care about anyone.

Anyone don't care about you. You're a savage.

You're a nightmare.

You're a warrior.

You're a warrior.

You're a nightmare.

Look, I decided I don't want to work here anymore.

I've got a lot on my plate at the moment.

And I'm more interested in other stuff.

I've got a degree.

I just want to spend more time concentrating on my music and finding my

core.

So I quit. I resigned.

If you think of a problem as an unknitted jigsaw puzzle, try

to imagine the fragments of your lifestyle are the individual pieces.

Now... When they lie scattered in the box, they may seem random.

But remember, each piece has its place.

They will knit.

So if the picture that the puzzle makes is of a mountain, you'll know what it is

you have to climb.

In summation, an unknitted puzzle makes for a cluttered mind.

Now, Art, I hope this session has made things clearer for you.

This weekend, with your parents all together, will redefine the parameters

what is possible.

Is it?

Granddad's grave?

We're all here.

At this point.

Looking right at it.

So how's your career at the supermarket progressing?

Okay, it's not really a job anymore.

Um... I guess I'm just biding my time just trying to let my music develop.

Which, incidentally, my friends are saying sounds really interesting at the

moment. They dumped all that voluntary stuff as well just to ease the pressure.

More time for jamming, composing.

Do you have any realistic career options?

I've got a gig next month.

Do you want to come, Dad?

No, I don't really think I can.

Why?

Well, I'm very busy.

What about you?

No, I'm very busy too.

What, all month?

Yes. Now can we please drop this?

I find it incredibly offensive that neither of you give me any support in

anything that I try and do.

True, I'd give you a lot of support.

I'd give you even more if I thought you were doing something of note.

In fact, not even that. Just something that didn't make me feel so

So that's what I am to you, then? Just a disappointment?

You know what I mean.

No, I don't know what you mean.

What do you mean? Stop being so babyish, Arthur.

I wonder about you sometimes.

Where did your father go?

Touching everything, Arthur. This is not a playground.

My father told me I was made in the garage, out of plastic.

No, no. He told me if I wasn't to become a more manageable child, that he'd mold

me into one.

And that terrified me for years.

For years. I was always on edge. That's a joke, Arthur.

Were you so babyish you couldn't see that?

No. No.

No, no.

Jokes.

Jokes. I just disguise forms of aggression.

Positive presence.

Arthur, your father and I have decided enough is enough.

I'm afraid Dr.

Ellington will have to move out.

What? No.

It's only the start. Why don't the two of you get a flat somewhere together and

you can ruminate on your problems all day? I couldn't even if I wanted to

because I spent all my money getting him over here and getting a car.

Dad?

Dad, why don't you say something?

Arthur. Your existence is an oxymoron.

What are you saying that for?

I think that you have so many contradictions going on in your head

can't think in an undeviating course.

Both of you always criticized me at school, but you never helped me, not

You see, this is why we're calling this to an end, because this is turning out

to be nothing but a series of bitter recriminations dressed up as therapy.

Well, you would say that, wouldn't you?

Oh, good night, Arthur.

Is that all for you?

No.

Me.

Hello? Ronnie, it's Arthur.

You want a drink?

No, please.

No, it's my flat.

Yeah, well, I no longer have that luxury.

You're preaching to a saint in the know, Arthur.

Well, I've got this pad.

Yeah, because your dad doesn't want you living with him and his new girlfriend.

Your point being... Look, at the end of the day, I'm fully self

-sufficient. Did your dad pay your rent?

Did he pay for my computer?

I don't know. Did he?

Stop trying to analyze me, Garfunkel. You're not a counselor.

Why are you even here?

I just thought I'd comment.

Hey there, buddy.

Wow. Hi. Me again.

Why are you wearing a suit?

Have you been to a funeral or something?

No.

Peacock day, my friend.

Dressed to impress.

Girls love this bullshit.

I don't know why.

I have to despise them.

Falling at my feet.

I have to walk all over them.

Live my life.

A shadow in the wind.

Okay.

Luke.

What are you kids doing tonight?

We need to stay here.

No, let's go out.

We are out. We're on a roof guard.

We're practically indoors and there's only us up here. Luke, don't be like

It is fine.

Ronnie, you never go out, so... You never go out.

So let's go out. Why don't we just stay in? We could watch a film.

Look, I'll get you both pop girlfriends and I guarantee you that bullshit.

Ronnie, I'm going to go out for a drink. Why don't you come out with me?

You've got a drink problem.

No, I don't.

I just don't usually drink.

You've got a serious drink problem. Face facts.

Ronnie, you've got a drug problem.

Are we here for you, or are we here for me?

You're coming out on me, Ronnie.

I think I'm probably getting a migraine.

No!

Ah!

I didn't mean to do that!

You know, I wasn't always like this.

Well, I was a very happy child.

And in actual fact, I was pretty popular.

But I became increasingly worried about heart attacks.

And I asked my dad if kids could get heart attacks. And he said they probably

could.

Anyways, so what's going on?

It's good to see you.

I was thinking about Dr.

E. I mean, I don't know. Do you think it maybe could have worked?

I don't know.

Sometimes I just look at him and I have a lot of love for the guy. I have a lot

of respect.

A lot of love?

Yeah, a little admiration for him.

He had a really systematic, sure approach, and he really believed it

and when I just didn't do it. That's like me. I've got loads of structures,

like that guy.

I'm all over that.

What do you mean?

Me, I've just got structure. I've just got structure in my life. What does that

mean? He had a purpose.

Like me, I've got a webpage, which actually you should check out, because

got loads of advice for picking up chicks.

The thing, I really think we should do this music thing. I mean, I think we

could be really good at it. I think it could be really good.

All right?

We could almost consider it like they are.

We could do it like our main thing that we do. Like our thing, the biggest thing

in our lives could be this band.

You know? We could really sort of focus on it.

And if we've got potential.

I know, I think we're really talented.

I think we're really good. I think I saw Jessica over there earlier.

Forget it, man. Make new ways to surf.

Surf those waves away from that girl.

I want to be back with her. It's so annoying.

Take your own life. Forget about it.

What?

Take your own life, forget about it. That's the thing. That's what they say

film.

You upset about a girl, you say, take your own life, forget about that.

Take your own life.

That's his voice.

He needs to go back up there, take his position.

Right. Well, because he wants to get laid with this girl.

Yeah, yeah.

Break him down. Break him down my friend. Break that down.

Break him down.

Break him down. Move over.

Why? He considers himself an alpha male. Go over there and depositionalize and

rationalize him out of the alpha male. You go back in.

Yeah? You take that out.

Why? Well, you sort it out with verbalisation.

I think the barman wants to be here.

Hmm? I think the barman wants to be here. I think he probably does. You've

one of those faces that you just want to hit. Do you think we should go?

Let's see. Let's see.

Go on.

Jessica.

Jessica. Hi. Oh.

Hi, Art. How are you doing?

Yeah, yeah, pretty good. Pretty good, yeah. Good. Art, this is Jane. Hello,

Arthur. Nice to meet you.

Musician?

I want you back. That's not going to happen, Art.

You and me, we love each other. We're just two souls looking

for something.

We're disconnected.

Depressed. No, that's not true.

I'm perfectly content. I'm really quite happy at the moment.

You should come down to a club night in Soho, I do, with a couple of mates. We

do all the jazz sort of stuff. I play sax, and I've got two mates. One's a

drummer and one's a double bass player. We do a lot of standard music and modern

stuff as well. Two guys I met out on the Patagonian Trail in my gap year when I

was at university.

But bring your guitar down. If you don't want

to play, you can just sit and watch. It's a nice place to chill out.

Beer, Spanish beer, French beer.

All those cloudy sweet beers, all that kind of stuff. And then after seven,

serve food.

A lot of kind of Mexican stuff, you know.

You know, like nachos and tacos and guacamole and all that kind of stuff,

know. It's good stuff and you can just sit and watch the music, you know,

munching on some dicky snacky snoo, you know, just having a good time.

Why?

Why?

Seriously, I think you've had a bit too much to drink.

It's completely embarrassing.

You're just being rude.

Just calm down.

You're embarrassing yourself in front of all these people.

You're embarrassing yourself in front of me and the lady as well.

I think it's best if you leave. You clearly had too much to drink, all

Okay.

Hey, Dad.

What?

What are you doing?

Brother, what is it? What's wrong?

Nothing's wrong.

I just feel like we've never done anything like this before.

What utter trouble.

No.

Apparently, sharing a space like this is a...

It's a sign of unconditional love. Oh, I suppose you were guided towards this

mystifying gesture by Dr. Ellington. Both of you are quite clearly non

mantis. Well, what if he's right?

It's you with the problems, Arthur.

You've always been an awkward child, but is this necessary?

Well, well, I think we should be more affectionate like other parents. So,

I guess that it is. Well, don't guess, Arthur. Don't guess.

because this notion is perverse now get out of the bed okay don't shout there's

no i've got to shout it seems to get a word in edgeways with you following any

perverse sordid idea that comes into your mind just wanted to talk to you in

bed no the bed was a different thing i just oh nothing you are saying makes any

sense whatsoever the important thing here is why you should think getting

your parents' bed will help in the healing process.

You just told me to do it.

It's hard to metaphorically get into bed.

It's a metaphor.

A metaphor for what?

It's said in your book.

This is a horrible thing to do to us.

I'm sorry, I didn't mean... A philic thing to do. Odious, repulsive, and

harrowing. I'm just trying to make... Oh, Arthur, sometimes I wonder about

Wonder what?

What is it that you wonder about me all the time?

You don't give a shit about me and you never have.

Of course we care about you. What else are we going to do? Well, then love me

properly and I'll promise that.

Arthur, you're being hysterical. You have got to stop blaming us for

Have you ever felt guilty about producing such a pathetic, useless

course I feel guilty.

I don't feel that went as well as it could.

You've given me nothing!

Me,

when I die, is it the Evan, Evan, Evan era? Uh -huh, dear. Now go to sleep.

Over you my mom made me feel like

Always

belittling like

I could never achieve anything worthwhile

My parents did I was always

playing second fiddle to my older brothers our idea of relating to each

a family with points scoring against each other. We're always trying to catch

each other out.

One of the things that makes me most uncomfortable about Arthur is that he

reminds me of my older brother.

He eats like him, he walks like him, he constantly demands attention and

symbolizes like him.

She said I'd never make anything of my life.

That I'd never amount to anything.

When I was about nine or ten, my father suddenly decided to take an interest in

me.

He decided that I was to read a book, and then, when I finished it, we would

stand right there in front of the fireplace and discuss our thoughts on

text.

The books were hopelessly inappropriate for a child of my age.

And try as I might, I couldn't figure out what it was all about.

I dreaded having my ignorance exposed to him, leaving him disappointed.

But though I read those books over and over,

humiliation beckoned.

Where are we going, Arthur?

I don't know. I don't know. Where am I going?

Where am I going?

Shouldn't we be going back into the house now, Arthur?

I can't go back in there now.

Why don't you stick up for me back there? What am I going to do now?

Where have you been all evening?

Have you been drinking?

He doesn't say anything in your book about what to do if you've alienated

everybody. If you've been drinking, you should not be attempting to drive.

Fine!

This all may prove positive.

Yeah? But since you've arrived, I've got fired, and my family hate me even more.

I had nothing to do with you getting fired, Art.

And your parents certainly don't hate you.

Well, you haven't helped me at all.

Well, maybe I can't.

But you know how many people I have helped. There's a chapter of it in your

book.

There's certainly stuff in your family that needs to be worked through.

Well, I think I might go out alone, you know?

Well, fine.

That's all we are, eventually.

Alone.

If you can learn to accept that, you might be able to go through life without

being so disappointed in everyone.

Try to be systematic in your approach.

I'm going to sell this car and get a flat.

Going back to Canada, then?

Yes, probably

If you go down to heaven...

Great thing.

You know what, not

exactly full circle, but...

You know what I mean?

I feel like I want to help people.

That's great that you're thinking about others, but, I mean, not at the expense

of, you know.

I'm trying really hard not to focus so much on

myself.

And I'd really like to try this again.

I thought you would approve.

Well, yeah, but the point is, I like this job. It suits me. I'm good at it.

And frankly, I don't think you'll cut out for this kind of work.

I mean, I'm sorry if it sounds cruel, but... Just another

destitute child of Thatcher's Britain. Good for nothing.

There is definitely something to you. You've got a tenacious spirit.

You just need to channel it and keep it in check.

Don't give up on yourself.

I mean, all that stuff you were involved in, that's got its place, but you do

take things to extremes.

I mean, this sounds too simple, probably, but what gives you a buzz?

What do you really want to be?

Sorry I had to leave like that.

I just had to get away for a while.

I hope you don't mind me saying this, Arthur, but I feel that your father and

have been put under a great deal of stress and anxiety from the guilt caused

your upbringing.

Thanks for telling me, but I'm really over all that stuff now.

Well, yes, but it's good to try things.

Your father told me to tell you if I spoke to you that I should inform you

he loves you.

I don't think I'm going to be around for a while.

I don't know.

Maybe I'll see you at Christmas.

You're not a nobody.

You're somebody.

One of the greatest songwriters has ever lived.

They're all gonna love you for it.

Okay.

Listen.

You've got as much right to be out there as anyone else does.

Alright?

Yeah,

I know.

I know.

We're just going to... Okay.

Yeah.

Yeah, just do it.

This song is called, I'm Doing Fine.

I was 15.

Yeah, I'm the one, the favorite, the second first child in the East Coast.

I was in a great big closet too.

I was lost and I was found, found and lost again.

It's a mystery to me.

Oh, yeah.

And I tried to bridge the gap. My hands could see my crap.

I could call me found inside a book. You have to look inside and go.

And I died still, crawled through red.

Thank you.

Don't think things fuck me up inside.

I'd like to be a part of the global game.

Jogging on dots.

Jogging on dots.

Jogging on dots.