All language subtitles for Thinking XXX [2004]_SDH

(Friday)
I mean, what's the use
of having a beautiful body

and beautiful breasts
or a beautiful cock

if nobody sees it all?

(Greenfield-Sanders)
25 years ago, I started taking
large-format portraits

with an antique view camera
in my East Village studio.

My first subjects
were New York artists.

Soon I was asked
to shoot actors

and then musicians,
writers,

and eventually even presidents.

Now I have a new subject:

porn stars.

Copyright: 2004
Home Box Office, Inc.

(Peaches)
♪ Here it comes. ♪

[techno music]

♪ ♪

(Patrick)
You can't just
come in this business

and think that you're gonna make
millions of dollars.

(Peaches)
♪ I like the innocent type,
deer in the headlight, ♪

♪ rocking me all night, ♪

♪ flexing his might,
doing it right, ♪

♪ keeping me tight, ♪

♪ taking a bite
out of the peach tonight. ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Only double-A,
thinking triple-X. ♪

♪ Only double-A,
thinking triple-X. ♪

♪ Only double-A,
thinking triple-X. ♪

♪ Only double-A. ♪ ♪

(Adams)
Everybody's fucking someone
to get somewhere in life.

We're just doing it on film.

♪ ♪

(Wattleton)
When you look at the range
of pornography

and the different characters

who have chosen the profession
of pornography,

just who are these people,

and why are they
so inaccessible to us?

We seem never to tire
of looking at naked bodies.

That is true.

(Greenfield-Sanders)
I'd been thinking about shooting
porn stars for a while,

and particularly nude,
because I'd never shot nudes.

And I imagine
that these are people

who would be comfortable nude.

This is a mock-up
for the book.

I've asked 15 writers
to contribute essays...

Nancy Friday, Gore Vidal,

Lou Reed--
all these different voices.

And then it kind of leads
into the portraits,

which are gonna be clothed

and then nude portraits
of each porn star

in the exact same pose,
like Goya.

And it's funny,

because when you see porn stars
in their everyday clothes,

it's almost more startling

than the way
the world knows you,

which is naked, I guess.

(Samson)
I worked at Scores,

the gentlemen club
in Manhattan,

before I started making movies,

and my husband really wanted me
to make a movie

for a wedding present,

and I was appalled at the idea
at first.

Closed.

22 1/2.

Great.

And that's beautiful.

Just stand like that.

Chin up slightly.

[camera clicks]

(Samson)
But then the more
I thought about it,

the more I watched,

the more I got turned on
by the idea.

And I figured, like,
no one would ever find out,

and I could do it and get
this little fantasy over with.

But I got porn fever, so...

[laughs]

(Jane)
I chose to be in this industry,

because I am comfortable
with my sexuality

and performing on film.

I was very sexually aware
at a very young age.

And 16 was more
watching pornos myself.

18--wanting to be a porn star,
just not knowing how.

I'm choosing to make myself
a sex symbol.

(Lynn)
I think every girl

defines herself differently
as a porn star.

I don't live the lifestyle
of a porn star.

I look at it as a business,

so I'm just an actress
having sex on camera.

But some girls are, you know,
addicted to sex.

I'm not one of those.

I can turn on and off
really easy.

(Greenfield-Sanders)
So just the way you are
is wonderful.

(Michaels)
You can have some redeeming,

credible presentation
of sex in America

even though it's through porn.

Remember,
if you're nude,

you won't have pockets,
so maybe--

what happens if you fold
your arms in front?

(Michaels)
Because I love women,

and you don't degrade
something you love.

In the old days, you know,

it was more about people
who really enjoyed sex.

A female, you know,
if she enjoys her sexuality

and it comes across like that,

she is a sex goddess.

But if she's there looking
at her watch and her nails

while she's doing double anal,

people are like,
"Well, she's just a slut,

and she needs to be
on some street corner,"

because, you know,
it's not about that.

It's about art, in a way,
and enjoying--

Okay, it's art--
the art of fucking.

(Hartley)
I got into porno

because I grew up
in a time and a place

where I was told
I could make my own happiness.

I was reading feminist text
in the early '70s--

Our Bodies, Ourselves
and The Joy of Sex...

and I knew that these things
were me.

They spoke to me.

For some reason,

I'm comfortable
with the idea of doing this

in front of thousands of people.

Right on.

So for me, the mental--

The mental awareness of SM

heightens the physical sensation
and vice versa.

Biggest problem about this house
is the electric stove.

It just annoys the hell
out of me.

We had some priorities
that were very firm

when we set out
to look for a place.

(Hartley)
I really like three-way sex.

I like sex with women.

I still have fantasies--
and I do it--

of rather extreme sexual acts.

The floor is rubber.

It's like a sex garage.
Everything slides.

(Greene)
We also like to go out to dinner
in nice restaurants.

We like to shop.

We're actually, in many ways,
very normal bourgeois Americans.

[both laughing]

(Hunt)
I'm actually currently

the biggest
gay male porn star.

There is nobody in the industry

who has a bigger penis
than I do.

I grew up in very rural Ohio

in a one-stoplight,
very Republican type of place.

One week, I may have
hooked up with a guy.

One week, I may have
hooked up with a girl.

I was married for four years.

(Greenfield-Sanders)
Beautiful shot.
Stay like that.

(Hunt)
For the past three years,

I've won Best Group Scene
at the GAYVNs.

I won Best Sex Scene also.

I've won Best Three-way.

I've won Best Oral,
Best Performer,

Best Supporting Actor.

So I've done quite well.

(Hunter)
I came from a family

that would be like
the Huxtables, the Bill Cosby--

The middle-class family.

I was Daddy's girl.

I mean, I really
could never do wrong

when it came to my dad.

My mother knew I was different

when it came
to expressing myself.

When I was 18,
I did my first movie,

and that was amazing.

We had a birthday party for me.

We had everything.

And I blew out my candles

after I blew out
the first sex scene.

When I first
got into the business,

there was only two other
black performers.

I was shocked.

And they weren't being portrayed
right, you know,

just within, like,
how Hollywood is.

Either they were playing
the gardener, the maids.

You would see titles...
Black Fudge Swirl.

You know, you would see
other movies

with the blonde girls

and their names
on the box covers.

When I started doing films,
all my films were interracial.

There were not enough
black people in the business

to do all-black film.

It was very important for them
to portray me as Heather Hunter,

not as black Heather Hunter.

To me, honestly, I think
I'm the Halle Berry of porn.

(Lucas)
When I was a student
in a law school,

I didn't think about becoming
an adult porn star,

but once I came to the West,

of course, I couldn't go on
and study.

I mean, I didn't have money
for that,

and I wasn't really interested
in that.

I had a body.

I had, you know--
I had a face,

so I started doing modeling.

Little bit too short--5'11".

So I decided, "Okay,
I will pose for nude magazines,

for adult magazines."

And then it went down the hill.

[laughs]

Hi!

Time to work today.

I studied a lot.

I was a real nerd in school.

I was 23,
and I had moved to LA.

I wanted to be
a nurse anesthetist,

so I was going to school
for that.

A Playboy scout said,
you know,

"Are you interested
in posing for Playboy?"

And I thought, "Playboy?

Take my clothes off?
I don't think so."

And they said, "Well,
if you become a centerfold,

you get $25,000."

And I said, "All right,
where do I go?"

I could do it like this,

you know,
just sitting like this.

(man)
Put the dog in.

That way,
you can see this,

or you can--I don't know--
can you see--

(man)
We can see everything.

(Patrick)
Everyone always goes,
"Oh, you're so lucky.

"You have
the most wonderful life.

"All the sex must be great.

You get paid so much money."

And, you know,
you come into this business;

you give up a lot,

and you kind of give up
your soul, in away.

Once you do porn,
there's no going back.

And there's still--

As mainstream as the industry
wants to go,

there's still
a really big stigma

attached to porn stars.

To be a porn star
would require a certain measure

of self-distancing,

an ability
to detach from your body.

They're narcissists.

They need people to want them
and desire them.

And whether they were abused--
and I think a lot were--

Nothing great happens to you

because you become a porn star
when you're 18.

(Ridgeston)
I didn't want to be a porn star.

It just happened.

I never said
I'm straight or gay.

I just always say I'm sexual.

I just love sex.

Just look at the lens now,
Lukas.

That's great, like that.

Good. And--

(Ridgeston)
I'm actually retired, finally.

I'm too old.

[camera clicks]

(Greenfield-Sanders)
I think we should try
for this pose that I kind of...

'cause it just...

it's sort of a play
on Cézanne.

So come on around here.
Okay.

(Banks)
I usually don't
tell people this,

'cause you know, all the girls
go on Howard Stern

and say, "I was molested."

I was put in foster care
three times,

and it was either a group home
or go back to my mother.

Looking right here.

(Banks)
I had to sit there
and look my mother in the eye

and tell her
that she was not capable

of taking care of my sister.

[camera clicks]

And I got custody,
got legal documents.

I lived on Top Ramen.

[laughs]

Me and my sister had Top Ramen
and canned olives.

Those were her favorite.

Good, okay.

And, Mark,
give me a bellows.

(Banks)
So I got this job
as an auditor.

I got fired,
and then I got home,

and I got evicted
in the same day.

So I'm like, "Okay, you know,
this just isn't my day."

And if the courts
found out about it,

they were going to take
my sister away.

They had their eye on me
like a hawk.

So I see this ad in the paper:
"Make $1,000 a day."

I answered the ad,
and it was a porno ad,

and there I was.

(Musto)
Porn stars were the lowest.

They were considered scum.

Nobody would elevate them
to celebrity status.

But then the hip-hop movement
started acknowledging them.

Music videos started using them.

Cable TV channels,
which are sex-obsessed,

elevated them.

And people like me took notice

and realized
they deserve their celebrity.

I just got invited
to a party recently

in, like,
some furniture showroom.

It had nothing to do
with porn at all,

and they just had, like,
Jenna Jameson

on the list of guests
that were coming.

I was almost gonna go,

but then I heard
she wasn't coming,

so I said, "Forget it."

And the bellows
is 3/4 to a stop.

(Banks)
Jenna Jameson is really
the only porn star

that's ever crossed over.

Look at the lens.

Good.
Okay, and I'm ready.

Okay, very still.

(Banks)
You know, she's done--

The E! True Hollywood Story

was the most-ever watched
E! True Hollywood Story

of all time.

So Jenna has really paved
the path for the rest of us.

[camera clicks]

(Patrick)
A lot of us have had to work

to kind of push the business
one way.

You know, Jenna worked
really hard

to get the business accepted
by the public.

(Hartley)
She is, by far and away,
the most successful

ever to come out
of this business.

Savvy, smart, sexy,
good at what she does.

Jenna had a vision.

She never wavered.

She just: "I want that,"

and she used her tools
and got that.

(Adams)
Jenna Jameson's
probably the one person

that I look up
to as an adult actress

more than anyone else.

I finally had the opportunity
to work with her,

and after our first scene
together,

I ran around and was yelling
at everybody to smell my face.

I was just, like,
"Oh, my God,

"I have Jenna Jameson's juice
on my face.

I'm never gonna
wash it again."

I was like, "Smell it. Smell it.
It's a hint of Jenna."

(man)
Who are your favorite
porn stars?

Me? My?

Jenna Jameson.

It used to be rock stars
and models went together.

And then suddenly it became,
you know,

"The heck with these models.

"They're skinny,
and they're not much fun.

Let's go for the porn stars."

(Lynn)
I've been able to do a lot
of mainstream work.

I've been
on Entertainment Tonight.

I've been in Eminem's video,
The Sopranos.

And it's just benefiting me
financially.

My goal is not to go
completely mainstream.

It actually gets me more popular
in the adult industry

going mainstream.

(woman)
♪ If I give you sugar,
will you give me ♪

♪ something elusive
on top of me? ♪ ♪

All the real porn people use it.

It's just their calling card.

Then they go and become dancers
or escorts,

and they travel, and they make
really a lot of money.

The porn is just
their coming attractions.

They got to go on the road.

(Greenfield-Sanders)
Stay like that for me.

(Canyon)
I was, like, 18
and really broke,

and it was, like, survival.

And it made me feel pretty

when I didn't,
at that time in my life,

feel it.

Beautiful.
Yeah, that's--yeah.

That's great.

(Canyon)
You know, now so many girls
are strippers

and then want to be a porn star

so then they could go feature
on the road as a stripper

and make more money

when that was not even an option
in 1984.

It was so different.

You got a couple hundred bucks
a day,

no rights, no royalties.

(Musto)
A lot of porn stars

don't make that much money
from making films,

so there's a kind of
side industry that's sprung up,

where they could do
strip joints.

They could sell merchandise.

It all adds up
to a pretty decent living.

(Lynn)
The last few years,

I've been making sure I get
residuals on certain things

like my adult video toy line.

(woman)
♪ Do you want to eat
at the all-night diner, baby? ♪

♪ Do you want to eat
at the all-night diner, baby? ♪

♪ Do you want to eat
at the all-night diner? ♪ ♪

Right now, there's about 30 toys
out there.

My handcuffs--
I have my whole bondage line;

my ass and pussy mold;

my doll, which is kind of
freaky-looking,

but the boxing and the packaging
is really beautiful,

and I think that's
what's selling well.

Sexual power for poor women

is literally tied
to economic survival.

I think it's sort of like
a big "Fuck you" in a way.

It's sort of saying,

"If I'm going
to be used sexually

"or this is what I'm worth,

well, then I'm gonna
make some money off of it."

(Hartley)
One of the reasons
they're in this business--

It's a very high
rate of pay legally

for people
with a high school education.

You could make a comparison
to how boxing used to be

for young men.

And I just need a bellows
on this.

(Patrick)
I remember getting
my first check,

and I remember thinking,
"The shoe's on the other foot.

"This is my money.

"I made this money,

and no one's gonna take it
away from me."

People always say,
"Oh, these poor women.

These poor women, oh."

And it's like,
"Well, no,

these women did not have
the choice of Harvard, porno."

It's porn, paper hat.

Porn, double-wide trailer.

Porn, five kids.

(Greenfield-Sanders)
No clothes now.

(Hunt)
My son has no idea what I do.

He just knows Daddy makes money,
but he doesn't know how.

Not being college educated,

it was the best course
for me,

but right now,
I am in school,

so this has helped me
get to that point

where I can afford
to go to school

plus have a living
on the side.

(Lynn)
My parents are so proud of me,

because, you know,
I have two nice cars.

I've never, ever asked
for any help.

They saved money on college.

(Lucas)
It's not about
that this is a last resort.

It's about this is opportunity
which you can achieve easier.

There is a big need
for adult performers,

and if you have what it takes,

you have a good chance
to make it big.

(Michaels)
In the porn industry,
it's ironic

that the women make more
than the men do,

since they have to produce less
than the men do physically,

in my opinion.

(Mylo)
♪ In my muscle car. ♪

(Michaels)
When individuals say that,

"Oh, yeah, males are just a prop
in the adult industry,"

that's like American society
taking schoolteachers

and not paying them
what they're worth.

(Mylo)
♪ Come on and ride
in my muscle car. ♪

♪ Well oiled. ♪ ♪

(Hunt)
Guys in gay films
absolutely make a lot more

than guys in straight films.

That's why there are
many straight models

who work in the gay porn
industry.

A guy in a straight video

is lucky to get
maybe $300 to $500.

I make almost five times that.

Straight women
actually make quite more.

For men, this is--

You know, this is as good
as it gets for us,

and gay porn industry
is actually the best way

to make the most money
if you're a man.

Whether it's through porn

or whether, you know,
you have a 9:00-to-5:00 job,

it's not ever too late
to go back

and make something
out of your life.

(Hunter)
You can get caught up
in the X-rated adult business,

because it's a world
where you're not judged.

You know, you can be yourself.

And you can get lost in that,
you know?

Because when you step out
of that wod,

And you can get lost in that,
that's the reality check,

and a lot of people
don't accept what you do.

I don't regret anything
that I did,

but I definitely learned a lot,

and I knew
when to cash in.

I've realized that there
was other talents that I have

that need to be expressed.

I'm a artist.

I paint, so I'm trying
to put together a show.

This one right here
is called Mind Fuck.

I'm also a writer.
I have a book coming out.

It's a black-black erotic tale.

And my music.

The sexy, the horny
Heather Hunter.

What's up?
This is Heather Hunter.

And I'm actually bringing
the passion,

but I'm also heisting.

I'm heisting the rap game now.

(woman)
♪ We party hard. ♪

♪ Pussy platinum.
Shit, I need a bodyguard. ♪ ♪

(Hunter)
With my music,

I have hip-hop albums
that I've worked on,

and I have, like,
DJ Premier, Wyclef.

And it's amazing, because people
put in my mind that--

'Cause of what I've done
in my life,

that society would not be able
to take me,

and all my life,
I wanted to prove them wrong.

(Lucas)
I was wise enough--
smart enough, I would say--

To understand
how poor my chances are

to become a film star
or runway model.

Now walk over to the wall
so it feels natural.

(Lucas)
I made this choice,

and this is as close
to this as I got.

And I'm very happy
with my choice.

Otherwise, I could still
wait tables.

(Greenfield-Sanders)
She can stay where she is.

Just stay in your position.

(Mitchell)
In the adult entertainment
industry, I started in 1975.

In 1996,
I went back to school.

I finished my master's
in public health,

and I'll be a PhD next year.

Okay, looking at the lens,

just where you are.

[camera clicks]

(Mitchell)
I run the AIM
Health Care Foundation,

and we're a nonprofit
organization.

We serve over 900 people a month
by monitoring everyone

for HIV and STDs
on a monthly basis in porn.

[camera clicks]

That's pretty great.

(Lucas)
Gay porn was always doing movies
with condoms.

You know,
there are so many clichés

and bad things said about porn.

Well, we always had
this thing, to say,

"Listen, we tell you
about how to have fun,

how have great time,
but still being safe."

Chin up a little bit.

[camera clicks]

(Lucas)
You know, straight industry,

they thought that AIDS
is a gay disease.

And--pfft--bad news:
It's not.

It's actually, you know,
very easy to catch and transmit

for straight people too.

And this is such a sham
that it's the year 2004

and they just discovered it.

Well, fucking without condom,
it's a big problem.

(Greenfield-Sanders)
Okay.

Bring your butt around
a little bit more to me,

but don't swing it this way
too much.

(Lynn)
I was dancing my senior year

in Catholic high school
in New Jersey.

My first layout
was a three-girl pizza shoot.

We had pizza all over.

It was a cute, fun shoot.

I was married before
and divorced.

He couldn't handle
the dancing.

He was just
a really jealous guy.

I'm actually pre-married.

My dad's a Baptist preacher/
missionary,

so when I was little,

we went on a mission field
up to Alaska,

and there was really
nobody there--

Some Eskimos and--

Got a job when I was, like, 14
babysitting,

and they used to have Hustler
magazine laying around.

It was, like,
my favorite thing.

One of my dreams
was to always be in Hustler.

And I actually was in Hustler
last year.

With me.

Yeah, with her.
She was on the cover, actually.

So is a really old camera,
right?

Do they even make
this camera anymore?

It's a antique version
of what they make now.

It shoots that size negative.

So it's kind of complicated.

You have to look at the image
upside down,

and it takes
some getting used to.

But I just love being

in front of the camera
when I'm shooting you,

'cause I can see everything
you're doing,

and I can really see
your expression.

And for me,
it's all about the expression.

Little smile.

[camera clicks]

A porn star is a person
who is famous for public sex.

(Greenfield-Sanders)
Put your hands up
a little bit.

Amazing. Just like that.

Let me see a tiny smile.

And now close your mouth.

[camera clicks]

Right there.

Nice, wonderful.

[camera clicks]

I think it's good.

I like it.

I feel more comfortable naked.
I'm so weird.

I have clothes on;
I'm like, "I look stupid."

I get naked; I'm like,
"Yeah, baby, go."

(Greenfield-Sanders)
I mean,
you're so comfortable nude

because you do it
all the time.

Right.

In the beginning
of this project, I wasn't.

It was very--
it was very awkward for me.

(Vidal)
Desire begins with taboo,

and taboo is against
the little boy

or the little girl
showing off their naked bodies.

They're told that
almost immediately.

So if they go into rebellion
of any kind,

they might be tempted
to take everything off

and just break the taboo

and then get paid for it.

[industrial music]

♪ ♪

(Lynn)
When I'm dancing onstage,

that's when I like
to get watched.

It's like a high.

And if everybody's screaming,
you know,

I get even happier, so--

I probably get more wet
onstage dancing

than, you know,
while I'm doing a sex scene.

That sounds bad, but--

(Adams)
Part of me being so excited
and loving this

is knowing that someone's
gonna be watching it,

knowing that someone out there

is gonna be seeing
what I'm doing

and getting off on it.

The camera comes on,
and I come to life.

(Waters)
There are people
that are truly exhibitionists.

They got to show it to somebody
every day.

Doesn't matter who they are.

If they weren't in porn,
they'd be flashers.

(Jane)
Being an adult star,
I get to act out my fantasy.

I have millions of people
watching me in my videos,

and it turns me on.

Hold it. Ready.

I want to bring it
a little there

so I see your eyes.

(Jane)
I love the fact
that people watch me,

you know, enjoy it,

so I might say.

You're allowed
to be looking at her

and that she's allowing you
to do that,

so it's very parental.

It's very comforting.

We begin life as exhibitionists,
because we're little;

we need to be seen.

You can't be fed
until you're seen.

You can't be kissed
until you're seen.

(Belladonna)
At first, it was really hard,
because I just was super shy.

And I've never done anything
like that.

Your whole body's naked,
and you're like, "Oh, my God."

Sure, that's what
you want to see,

you know?

But after, like, a year,
I got used to it.

And you have to, like,
find a way to enjoy it, I think.

Because not every time,

you're, like, super attracted
to the person.

My way of doing it

is to just go in there
with, like, an open mind

and see what you can do
to them

to make them enjoy you the most.

Now I'm, like, "Bring it on,"
to anybody.

You know what I mean?

I like intense sex.

I want a guy to, le,
be aggressive with me.

That's just my type.

I think we're over the top
in porn star beauty, as it were.

You're almost getting into

a kind of weird
science-fiction movie,

looking at women who've had
their bodies obviously altered.

When I am not working,
you know,

my job is to keep
my appearance good.

[techno music]

(man)
Reach down and turn those
deltoids up a little higher.

Eight, five.

Come on, take it up there.
It's only a minute.

(The Stooges)
♪ Now I wanna be your dog. ♪ ♪

To be a gay porn star,

you have to be
a good-looking guy.

You have to take care
of your body.

You have to go to the gym
at least four times a week.

(Greenfield-Sanders)
Your eyes right here.

Beautiful.
Don't squint.

Ready?

[camera clicks]

Male porn stars
used to be unattractive,

but they're really
not so much now.

There was a time
when the industry thought

the men wanted to identify
with a guy who looked like them.

This guy makes money
having sex?

But the fact of the matter
is that now

the really good-looking guys
sell better,

even in heterosexual porn,

meaning that it's a fantasy.

They want to see themselves

as those marvelously
improbable guys

with gigantic dicks
that stay erect

as long
as they damn well please.

So you're, like--
more like a real cool guy.

(Hunter)
Peter North--oh, my God.

Whoo!

I mean, his pop shots
were like--

They were like waterfalls.

I think he popped-shot, like,
10 to 12 times at one point.

(Vidal)
Boys were created to squirt
as often as possible

to fructify an egg.

Girls are there to take
nine months to lay an egg,

and they have to be
slightly thoughtful

about what they're doing.

(Hartley)
Porno is like
live-action cartoon--

Big penises, big breasts,

big parties, big orgasms,

more, big hair, long nails.

(Lucas)
It's only a plus
if you are well-endowed.

It's very, very, very good.

I can't lie about that.

It would be hypocritical
to say it doesn't matter.

No, it does matter.

(Michaels)
Some of the industry

is predicated on size,
obviously, of genitalia.

But being Sean Michaels

without a reasonably
large-sized penis,

I would have to say
yeah, I would have probably,

with the good graces
of the universe,

been just as successful,
maybe more so.

There's people that you see them
and think,

"They look like a porn star."

You know, there's
the country-western song.

What is it--too ugly for LA,
too stupid for New York.

Everybody in LA kind of looks
like a porn star to me,

and no one in New York does.

Well, in LA,

we think that John Waters
looks like a porn star.

(Jane)
Everybody considers

if you're blonde
and you have big boobs,

you're a porn star.

Yes, most girls
that are in the business

are blonde and have big boobs.

And if they're not,
they get their boobs done,

or they dye their hair blonde.

A little more.
That's good, Jesse.

Just in your eyes.

[camera clicks]

(Adams)
We want big boobs.

Men love breasts,
and it's just--

I don't know what it is.

It's just so womanly.

I've always just wanted them.

I always wanted
to feel confident and sexy.

Europeans think that Americans
are a bit gaga

on the subject of breasts,

which they put down
to the essential infantilization

of the American public.

(Finley)
Hypervigilant breasts--

It's really from the baby's
point of view,

the hunger of looking
at the nipple

or looking at the breast.

Breasts are mommies.

You don't really want
to have sex with Mommy.

That's why pornography
is so great.

'Cause if not, we'd just be
a bunch of motherfuckers.

[laughs]

Michael,

Dimitri.

(Lucas)
So what I need you to do

is to take your clothes off
and let me see your body,

and then you will go
to another room.

You'll get a hard-on.

I'll take one Polaroid picture.

You have to be
very sexually active person

and have strong sexual desires.

Otherwise, you will look
like you're getting a root canal

on the screen.

That's perfect.

That's perfect.

Don't worry about that.

Don't worry.

That's good enough.

You have to be real good.

You have to be
very concentrated.

You have to be disciplined.

And then you maybe will become
a porn star,

and maybe
you will be successful.

But you might not.

(Michaels)
When I'm performing,

I enjoy the fact
that people are looking at me,

but at the same time,

I pretend like
there's no one else there.

You have to produce an erection.

The blood
has to get there somehow.

So I'll think
about a great pair of feet

that were attached
to this great chick

that I knew back
in da-da-da-da.

And then there I go.

I'm back.

(Hartley)
People get a well-produced
videotape,

and they watch it at home.

It looks so smooth and easy,

and they're kissing,
and the skirt comes off--

He's erect!

What people at home
are not seeing

is that after
every oral sex position

and every intercourse position,

they have to shoot it soft-core
for at least four minutes,

hard-core
for at least four minutes.

Stop for stills:

penis near the orifice,

penis in the orifice,

hand close, hand away,

mouth on, mouth off.

Okay, next position.

(Patrick)
Camera sex and regular sex
are two very different things.

You're supposed
to make it look glamorous,

you're supposed
to make it look fun,

and you're supposed
to make it look enticing.

Swing slightly with your body
toward the light.

That's it. That's it.
Yeah.

Maybe not.
Just come back again.

Like that.

I think what it is, is, like,
somehow there's a space here.

(Patrick)
I always used to joke,

"Am I gonna get a bed today?"

Because you're always on gravel
or some rock.

You know how I have sex?

I have sex at home on a bed
missionary with the lights out.

And I think my husband,
when he married me,

thought, "Oh, wow,
I'm marrying Tera Patrick.

"This is great.

You know, she's gonna bring home
all these chicks."

Nope, I had to tell him,

"Let me tell you,
I'm really boring."

(Knight)
Our sex life at home
is a lot different

than in the movies.

I can't last as long.

On film, I do anal.

Which he would love to do
on me, but--

Not even in my personal life,
I don't do it.

I had a toy up there
a good seven inches,

and she didn't even know it,

and then she's like,
"Don't do it."

And I was like,
"It's already there," you know?

Sometimes it'll get
really weird, and I'm like,

"We're not shooting
a porno scene.

"Let's just, you know,
have fun doing this,

not make it last
a whole hour."

(Wattleton)
We all think
that we somehow come here

fully equipped
to enjoy sexuality

in all of its explicitness,

but, you know, we really do need
a lot of instruction,

just like we need to be taught
how to eat properly,

how to dress properly.

Every aspect of our lives,
we take lessons,

and we educate ourselves.

Early on when I was reporting,

as someone who had
nearly no exposure

to pornography at all,

my astonishment
that these young women

would watch porn as literally
instructional videos,

like, to learn how
to position themselves better

or how to give better blow jobs,

which I thought
was really great,

because for me, it was just
laced with such shame.

Sometimes you think,

"I never even thought
of doing that."

Or there are some things
that maybe would be disgusting,

but then you see it in porno

with, like,
great-looking people--

"Well, I never tried that.

Maybe I'll save that one
for the autumn of my years."

(Chloe)
I was, like, anal queen
three years running.

I was, like, the anal girl.

And it's funny, too,

because I never really
did anything

that was that outrageous
with my butt.

I never did a fisting
in my ass.

I never did, like,
a really huge penis in my ass.

It's just that my orgasm
from anal sex is just so intense

that they're usually
not even on my butt.

They're on my face.

My eyes roll back in my head
when I come, and I look like--

They've called me
the Linda Blair of porn.

[camera clicks]

(Musto)
Sex is a universal urge,

and porn is just saying,
"Here's people fucking."

We all do it.
We all want to do it.

We all want to watch it.

And if you say that
you're not interested in it,

you're just lying.

Those channels on TV

where they just show animals
mating endlessly--

There's no question that
that's what would be interesting

if you're watching human beings
either.

There's something
inherently interesting, I guess,

about watching mammals mating.

The fantasy of the porn star
is the ultimate fantasy,

because it's a sexual fantasy.

I think that's why
it's so disturbing to people,

because it really does defy
our capacity to control it.

(Patrick)
I actually really contemplated
leaving the business,

and it was because I had
a traumatic thing happen to me

on the set
with a male performer.

I literally just had
such a bad experience

that I didn't want to have sex.

I didn't want to have sex
at all.

And I went through this period
where I didn't have sex.

And then I got myself together,
and I realized, you know,

"I can't let one thing
happen to me.

"I've come too far
and worked too hard

to throw it all away."

When my husband and I have sex,
he'll want to turn on porn,

and I'm like, "Okay, fine,
you can turn it on,

but I don't want to hear
the sound."

Porn irritates me.

(Michaels)
I always wanted to be
a part of Hollywood

as an actor, director/producer.

But at the same time,
unfortunately, entertainment,

like everything else,

is filled with politics
and prejudices.

Sounds kind of corny,

but I do things
because I believe in them.

You know, I'm an artist,

so I kind of have to follow
somewhat of a calling.

Porn is one of the greatest
forms of art

that there ever was.

(Banks)
My dream was always
to be a runway model

or to be on the cover of Cosmo
or the cover of Vogue.

But, you know,
once you do porno,

you're never gonna be not known
as Briana Banks.

I couldn't walk into Elite
and say, "Hey," you know?

They would look at me
and turn their nose up.

I have big fake boobs,
to start with,

and second of all, you know,

everybody in the world
has seen me naked,

so there's no chance.

I mean, I made it,
just halfway.

(Hunt)
This business
has been great to me.

I'm not ashamed of it.

I've never been ashamed
of anything that I've done.

And, you know,
it was a means to an end.

(Greenfield-Sanders)
Steady.

That's it,
just like that.

(Hunt)
It helped me go back to school,

so I'm quite proud of the fact
that I did that for myself.

(Greenfield-Sanders)
And you have a coat,
or you don't?

(Hunt)
If my son became a porn star,
it would not bother me.

If that's what he wants to do,
more power to him.

(Lynn)
Girls shouldn't get involved
in the industry

until they're after 21,

'cause at 18,
you're still a kid.

And most of them don't survive
in the industry.

They're out right away,
you know?

A lot of them
are beautiful girls.

They just made
the wrong decision,

and then they regret it,
a lot of them.

(Hartley)
By getting older on camera,

I have not only brought
with me

a whole host of fans
for 20 years

who are perfectly happy
with the fact that I'm older;

I have new fans coming in

who like me specifically
because I'm over 40.

I'm here for my own personal
satisfaction, mainly,

but also to be able
to speak to people

about sexuality
from a place of experience.

[laughs]

(Lucas)
The American dream for me

is starting my own company
from scratch.

For me, my family
is very important,

and they brought
all my family here.

My grandparents, my parents,
my brother--

Everybody came
in the last three years,

and I was able to support them.

So that was my American dream,
and I feel like I fulfilled it.

I am ready.

(Samson)
I'm hoping that my choices

don't really hurt me
in the future.

I mean, I found my confidence
in the nude,

and I have to thank porn
for that.

Really, it's the most honest
business that I can think of.

But my family is really hurt
by what I've done with my life,

you know?

Like, embarrassed.

I come from a small town.

They wanted to move
when they found out.

But I continue
with my relationship with them.

Like, I keep calling and--

Because I'm the same person,

and I think I've got
a great career

and a great future.

And they just are gonna have
to accept it.

(Hunter)
When I was in
the adult industry,

I was a sex machine.

When I stepped
into the real world,

everything backfired on me.

Whenever I would jump
into the bed with somebody,

I would truly believe
that they loved me.

I was Heather Hunter,
the fantasy girl,

and I was like a notch
on everyone's belt.

I remember one time,
I was having sex with this guy--

A date, you know.

You know, we're doing it.

You know, we had a great time.
It was fabulous.

And we're laying in the bed.

He's smoking a cigarette,

and he reaches over
for this pad thing on his desk,

and he asked me
for a autograph.

And I was like, "Oh, my God.
Why did you disappoint me?"

But I signed it,
you know what I mean?

I signed that autograph,
because why?

I am Heather Hunter,
you know what I mean,

and I have to face that,
you know?

I am someone's dream,
someone's fantasy.

That's what my life
is all about.

That's the bed I lie in.

(Jane)
No parent actually
wants their kid

to become an adult star.

But, you know,
my mom flew out here

to see what kind of stuff I do,

and she was so relieved
and so comfortable.

And now when my mom and I talk,
she's like,

"So are you shooting
a new movie yet?

And I'm about to go to Tahiti
to shoot Island Fever 3,

and she's like,
"Wow, that's great."

So she gets into it.

I love it, and I'm proud of it,

and I've had a great life,

and I still am having
a wonderful life now.

(Lou Reed)
♪ If she ever comes now, now, ♪

♪ if she ever comes now, now, ♪

♪ if she ever comes now. ♪

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