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emily owens m.D.:
I like you.

I-I don't know,
I don't see you like that.

Don't you recognize me?
Emily:
Do I recognize you?!

You were my tormentor,
my nemesis.

I'm so bad with names.

Cassandra kopelson.
From high school.

Anyone but cassandra.

She is awful!

I'm going to date
your friend.

Do you bake?
I'm thinking lemon bars.

So, you're friends
with my daughter.

Chief dupre. Yes.

Whatever you did, you
had good intentions,

Because that's
just who you are.

I take it back.
Ask her out.

In the year 2000,

There was a hotly contested

Presidential election--
and I'm not talking

About the one
gripping the nation;

I'm talking about

The one gripping
our debate club,

The west wilton wordsmiths.

After careful deliberation,
I decided

To throw my hat in the ring--
but then,

A new student joined debate.

The fact that
cassandra kopelson

Was way too pretty
and way too cool

To be a debater was lost
on my classmates.

So they voted for her,
every last one of them.

I let it go.

I'd lost.

Accept it.

You lost.

Oh, will looks happy.

Good for him.

Ugh, who am I kidding?

I hate that
she's making him happy.

So, I wanted
to talk to you.
Yeah? What's up?

Well, he...
Me.

Says that I've been
a little bit of

A bitch to you.
I didn't say "a little bit."

The point is,

You guys are
friends, and...

I like him,
a little bit.

Not a little bit.

So I want things
to be good with us,

And I'm really gonna
make an effort.

Good.

Me, too.

Oh. Hey, sunny.

What a waste of time

Anything other than "dr.
Bandari's a brilliant teacher.

It's such an honor
to learn from her."
I did.

You did what?

I wrote an honest critique
of dr. Bandari in my evaluation.

Uh... I wrote that
she's brilliant, of course,

But... I took issue
with some of her methods.

I think that strength
in a mentor is admirable,

To intimidate, some students
are reluctant to ask questions,

And it impedes
the learning process.

(titters)

Will:
Hilarious,
(laughing)

Owens.
Fine, you're right,
she's funny.

Okay, why are we laughing?

(laughing):
Why wouldn't I offer...
Constructive criticism?

(laughs)

Are you serious?

Oh, pits.

Uh...
Uh, e-emily.

Once she reads it,
she's gonna wonder
who went negative.

She'll totally
smoke you out.
She gets them?

Yeah. They go to
the chief, and then
they go to dr. Bandari.

Excuse me.

Wait.

Wait.
Dr. Owens,
we need you in 512.

Um, yes. Can you just give me
two minutes? I just have

To grab something.
Yeah, no problem.

Okay, thanks.

I was kidding.

Hi. Kyle putnam.

Dr., uh, owens, was it?

Kyle putnam!
He's kyle putnam!

Yeah. I'm sorry, I didn't
realize it was, uh, y-you.

We need you to play
interference, dr. Owens.

Got a patient who delivered
about three months ago,

And she's suffering
from a pretty bad case
of postpartum...

World-famous pediatrician,

Published in every journal
of consequence,

Speaking engagements
all over the country.

...Past three months.
Just in and out...

And rumor has it he's slept
with half the hospital.

Why was she admitted?
She wasn't.

Her baby was-- jake.

This time,
there is something.

Three-month-old admitted
with slight fever,

Unexplained abdominal pain
and vomiting.

Now, I'm monitoring
the baby,

But the mom
is driving me crazy,

So I need you
to keep her away from me.

Okay?

Oh, do you have
the test results yet?

Because I was looking up jake's
symptoms on this web site,

And it said
that it could be

A heart condition
or leukemia or a stroke...

She'll answer any
and all questions you have.

Okay, but do you think that...

Dr. Owens--
all your questions.

Bonus points if you
can get the mom on meds.

Early detection
is really important

In disease, right?

Uh, yes, definitely, it is,

But we don't know that...

Um... Jake, is it?

We don't know that
he has anything.

All the tests
are still pending.

I didn't know if we
should come back.

We've been to
the hospital before,

But this time he's really sick.
I mean, you even said

That he's really sick.
He is.

He's been throwing up,

And now this fever...
And when I look

On the internet,
I see all these things...

I know, it's... It's awful.

And there's always a small
chance that it's something
serious, but there's

A much better chance that it's
not one of those serious things.

And you're at the best facility,

And we're running
all the right tests. I promise.

See? Look, he's doing
that thing with
his legs again now.

Man: Honey, come on,
you can't focus on every
little thing like that.

I mean... Kids,
they move their legs.

Right, doc?

Has... Has he been
doing that a while?

The mother never mentioned
contortions to me.

In fact, she mentioned
just about everything

Except for contortions.
The husband thought it
was normal baby stuff,

And she was so focused
on cancer and...

I think that we should
do an ultrasound...

Medicine should
remain inaccessible.

...To check for
intussusception.
You know, we should invent

A private language
for doctors.

You're in charge of that,
dr. Owens.

Kyle:
Yes, on the
ultrasound.

Add it to the labs.

So, we're adding
an ultrasound.
I heard.

Um, also, I wanted to ask you
about the attending evaluations.

I'm assuming you already
gave them to the chief.
Are you sleeping

With dr. Putnam?

God, no.

I...

No offense if you have.
He can be

Very charming, and yes...

...I gave those evaluations
to the chief.

Peace offering?

Thanks for telling me.

Yeah. Well, I figured,
if you were free,

You might want to watch.

Nervous? The first
cut's a big deal.

You know, it's funny,
I thought I would be.

I'm not.

All right.

Make a diagonal incision
on the abdominal wall

In the right lower quadrant,

Parallel to the edge

Of the external oblique muscle.

Good. Now dissect

Through the
subcutaneous tissue.

If there's any
significant bleeding...

Cautery. Got it.

He's just so
freaking sexy.

No, please don't talk about...

It's funny, I was
actually nervous

About sleeping with
him the first time.

And there it is.

Thought it might
be a letdown.

It's not.

Cool.

Oh, I know, I know,

It's weird that
I'm talking to you.

(laughs)

But, um, well, I don't really

Have any girlfriends here yet,

And... Will wants us
to get along, so...

Yeah, it's fine.

(clears throat)

We'll just take it slowly.

The whole friendship thing.

Cassandra:
Sounds good.

(moans) I'm gonna go
crazy on him tonight.

(beeping)

Okay, just say you haven't
handed in your evaluation yet.

Someone must have been
imitating your handwriting.

Yes. That's perfect.
Good plan.

What am I saying?
That is terrible.

That makes no sense.

Oh, thank god.
I thought I was in trouble.

What are you doing here?
What's going on?

I'm ready. Or at
least part ready.

The other part's freaking out,
but I thought I'd take advantage

Of the part that's ready.
To come out to your dad?

I feel stuck-- I want
to move forward. It's time.

Like you said.
That's great.
You have to tell
me how it goes.

When I totaled my dad's car
and made my friend mandy come
with me to tell him, because

My dad's a proud guy,
and I knew he wouldn't freak out

In front of mandy...
I am not your mandy.

You're my mandy.

I am absolutely...

Emily: The evaluations.
I have to get mine back.

Why? What did you write?

This crazy critique
of dr. Bandari.

Oh, mandy.

I'm not mandy.

You are so mandy.

Listen, I'm really proud of you

For being honest with your dad,
I really am,

But-- oh,
this must be it--

You have to do it alone.

(door opens)
dad.

We have to talk.

Dupre:
You told?

No, I didn't.
I didn't.

You didn't what?

Hmm?

The hospital
fund-raiser.
This case we were...

What?
Nothing.

I was speaking
with dr. Owens

About the hospital
fund-raiser.

So, how come you said
it was about a case?

Okay, this is
freaking me out.

What's going on?

I should go.
No, no, you're
not leaving.

What's going on?

You're overreacting.

Are you sick?

No.

I'll call mom.

Tyra, stop.
Mom will
tell me.

I made a mistake.

What kind of mistake?

An indiscretion.

You mean... An affair?

Dupre: Dr. Owens
saw me with...

The other woman.

It's over now.

It was a mistake, tyra.

I'm s...

Tyra.

Wait.

When did you
see them together?

My first day.

I'm so sorry.

I...

(beeping)
I feel terribly.

It's me, dr. Owens.
Answer your pager.

(sighs)
yes, okay. Sorry.

You took a few inches

Off your hair.
Like?

Mm-hmm. Love.

Hi, peter.

Hi.

Peter: Mmm.
They look scared.

Have you been mean, gina?

I am guessing they will be
as glowing as always.

Dr. Owens, present.

Peter:
Oh, no worries.
I got it.

Male, 28, long history
of coarctation of the aorta,

Open-heart surgery

At 16, and again at 17,
balloon dilation at 17,

Two times at 19 and 21.

All performed by the highly
esteemed dr. Bandari.

Admitted today
to repair

The swelling of my aorta

Before it ruptures.

Oh, and I was also her first--
heart surgery.

Yeah, yeah, you never
forget your first.

'course not. That means
she'll take good care of you.

Well, it's in god's hands.

My hands.
It's in my hands.

Through which god works.
Woman:
Be warned.

Gina: You think
god's a micromanager.

No. But he has a plan.

Woman: All right,
enough, enough.

No one is
going to win.

Which is god's
will, as well.

(peter chuckles)

Dr. John fitzgerald.
Sorry I'm late.

Oh, so you're the guy

Who's done
this crazy thing before.

Yes, but I will be
breathing down his neck
during surgery, I assure you.

Peter:
They... Look confused.

Mmm. Always.

Peter has developed
an allergy to anesthesia.

His reactions seem to get
worse with each surgery.

What? Uh,
then how will we...

I have successfully
done the repair

Using an epidural
to block the pain.

Awa... Awake during
open-heart surgery?

You know, if you
looked less shocked,

It might help with my nerves.

Sorry.
Yes, of course.

It says here
that fitzgerald's

One of three surgeons
to do this procedure.

Apparently, he can perform
end-to-end anastomosis
in under seven minutes.

(phone rings)
(laughs) you do realize this
is a bad-ass case we're on.

Oh, totally.

Oh, I have to get this.
Oh. Okay.

Wow, I think cassandra and I

Actually just had
a normal conversation.

Maybe we can start over. Huh.

Didn't see that coming.

Looks like dr. Owens was right.

It iintussusception.

That sounds serious?
Is it serious?

Let him explain it, hon.

Emily:
Um... If you think

Of the small intestine
like a sock,

It's supposed to be
pulled up to your knee,

But in jake's case,
it's pushed down to his ankle,

Obstructing his bowel--
so we just need

To stretch it out
to its normal shape.

How?
We give him a barium enema.

It's a minimally
invasive procedure,

And in most cases,
the problem's solved.
You see that?

I told you not to worry.

Dr. Owens.
Uh, you guys can go ahead

And pick up jake.

Call social services.

Emily:
We all have faith in something.

What kind of abnormality?

God, science,
our partner, ourself.

And... Why
is shhere?

We need certain things
to be true.

All our plans depend on it.

I'm a social worker.
Sometimes this type

Of diagnosis
can be difficult to process.
Woman: What diagnosis?

What's wrong with jake?

Because, in the absence
of that...

There's nothing wrong
with your child per se,

But jake is an intersex child.

(jake grunts)

...Chaos...
Externally,
jake has

Male sex organs; internally,
jake has female sex organs.

What?

How does that happen?

In about one percent
of all births.

You can fix him, right?
Do a surgery?

Kyle:
If you decide to,

We can surgically
assign a gender.

What do you mean, if?
Of course we're gonna
do it-- he's a boy.

Why wouldn't we?

The surgery to remove
the male sex organs

Is more simple,

But the surgery
to remove

The female organs
could pose a significant risk

To jake's health.

Are you telling us we
should turn him into a girl?

The decision is entirely yours.

But we would
like to run

Some more tests to determine
jake's chromosomal composition.

It'll help to shed some light
on a prognosis

For gender identity.
What are you talking about,
gender identity?

The idea of
male and female,

It's much more complicated
than we originally thought.

We don't know yet
how jake will identify.

How his...
Or her brain

Will be wired.
Kyle: Mapping
jake's chromosomes

Might give us a better picture
of who he or she may become.

This is crazy.

He's a boy.

(cooing)

Run the tests.

Just...

At least let them run the tests.

Consider yourself
lucky, dr. Owens.

You may find yourself in a
very interesting surgery soon.

Or you will, dr. Dupre.

My case got a little
more complicated.

I'll need one of you
to deal with the mother,

And the other to assist
with the child.

Get her up to speed.

I'll read the chart.

Tyra, I am sorry.

You're not even
gonna talk to me?

Can you run these labs
down to dr. Collins?

I just got a page.
Yeah,

Sure, okay.

What's going on
with you and pits?

Nothing.

Come on, what did she do?

Actually, never mind.
I keep forgetting.

What?
Emily and I are trying out
the whole friendship thing.

It's important to will,

And she actually helped
me out with him, so...

What?
Nothing.

(laughs) no.
What's going on?

What do you know?

Will. I like that name.

Was I really
your first, will?

You really were.
Good.

You never forget your first.

Now, listen,

I got the runs.

Hope that doesn't scare you off.

Don't just stand there.

Join the party, sweetheart.

Emily: Sorry
to interrupt.

These are for you.
Thank you.

Good job in the o.R.

Will:
Thank you.

So, about how many times

Have you been to the bathroom?
Looks like

I got some competition, huh?

Oh, no, we're, uh...
We're just friends.

On the can
every other minute,

Feels like.
She know it?

Dr. Collins, what's
the likely diagnosis?

C-diff.
In english,
for the common folk, honey?

It's a bacterial infection
that could be caused

When the antibiotics
kill all the good bacteria

In your intestines.

And I'd agree.
Just run the test to be sure.

Man: Like hell I can't.
His name is jake.

We painted his room blue.
He has a p...
What if

He wakes up when he's ten
and he feels like a girl--

Then what happens?
What happens is,

He won't be a freak show,
that's what happens.

Who wants
some good news?

Sock's back
at the knee.

His intestine's returning

To its original shape.
(woman sighs)

That's great.

When will the chromosome
tests be back?

Not for a little while.

Where are you going?
We have a surgical meeting.

Oh, bandari's running
20 minutes behind,

So I'm gonna grab
something to eat.

Oh. Great.
I'll catch up on e-mails.

I'll see you there.
Okay.

Page-turner?

(chuckling):
Oh, yeah.

I'm guessing it's gonna end
with my appendectomy patient

Getting a bolus of saline
and then going home.

Or she'll just turn
into a vampire.

For the record,
I loved vampires

Before everyone else caught on.

Is this a point of pride?
Mmm, just a fact

I am proud of
because it happens to be true.
So...

You and bram stoker, huh?

Pioneers of
the genre?

(sighs)

See, that line

Really would have worked
had you said polidori.

(whispers):
Look it up.

Wha...?

So...
Oh, I didn't
see you there.

I was
thinking...

About that
barbecue place,

'cause I have never seen
anyone inhale ribs like that.

Okay, okay, I told you
I lost control for a minute.

You licked the plate.
I didn't lick the plate.

I swept it with my finger.
Which you then licked.

Mmm.

What's up?

I thought maybe it was time

To talk about things
non-barbecue-related.

What... Kind of things?

Eight-to-ten-week things,

Depending on when
you start counting.

Oh, when do you start counting?

Ten weeks ago.
Got it.

Okay, sure,
let's talk

About ten-week things.

(beeping)
mmm.

Ah.

To be continued.

Couldn't be bothered
to show up,

Dr. Owens?

Figure out
what you missed.

What? I thought you said
the meeting was pushed.

And I thought you helped
me and will get together,

When, in fact, you told him
not to date me.

Tyra told me.

So why'd you do it?
Were you trying

To screw with me
so I'd be off my game

And you could one-up me
in front of bandari?

No. No, of c...
Of course not. That's...

Stop. Stick to the plan.

You cannot let on that you
have feelings for will.

She will destroy you
if given that information.

I'm sorry.

No, you're not--
but you will be.

Here's what you missed--

I'm assisting,
you're babysitting.

(clears throat softly)
I'm s...

I'm sorry. Uh,

We're ready for you.

Honey, it's in god's hands.

I know.

I just hope god knows

How much I want you here.

Woman:
I'm in hell.

Like I keep telling her--
my tush

Is on fire.

And not in a good way.

I know you're in a lot of pain.

We're just, um,
waiting on the labs.

You got to give me something.

I'm up and down
every five minutes.

I just had surgery.

Come on, cutie.

I'm an old lady.
I can't take it.

(sighs)
I'm sure it's c-diff.

Start her on loperamide
and vancomycin.

Have you feeling
better in no time.

(exhales)

C-can you see my heart yet?

No, not yet.

Peter:
Wh-what's that smell?

As they cut, they burn the wound
to eliminate bleeding.

Okay. Shouldn't have asked.

Weitlaner.
Peter:
Is that some kind of a knife?

Are they still cutting me open?

Yeah, let's focus
on something else.

(exhales)
well, open to advice.

Desperate for advice.

Well, uh, when I want to escape,

I think about julie andrews
in sound of music,

On top of that mountain,
just totally free.

(whirring)

Not working.
Is that a saw?

Let's talk about hannah.
Where did you meet?

Uh, in, uh...

In b-bible study.

And did you know right away?

W-well, we were, uh...

Both a little shy and...

Let's be careful
retracting.

Multiple sternotomies
will have left scarring.

So... You were both shy.

Uh, uh, right.

So it took way too long
to ask her on a date.

(chuckles)
best thing I
ever did, though.

She's everything to me.

Fitzgerald:
We have a bleeder.
Cautery gun, please.

Peter: Bleeder?
Wh-what does that...?

(mechanical whirring)

Peter?
(rapid beeping)

Blood pressure's dropping.
Beginning cpr.

(rapid beeping continues)

(steady beep tone)
gina:
Paddles.

Give me paddles.

Paddles.

Five joules.

Nurse:
Charged and ready.
Everyone clear?

Clear.
(thump)

(rapid beeping continues)

Fitzgerald:
He's been down a minute.
We need some epi here.

Charge to ten.
We're losing him.

Come on, peter.
Charging at ten.
Charged at ten.

Clear.
(thump, whirr)

(rapid beeping continues)
gina:
Come on, peter.

Come on, come on, come on.

Clear.

Nurse:
Total time for cpr
is two and a half minutes.

Charge to 20.
Charged at 20.

Clear.

(thump)
again.

Clear.

(thump)

(sharp inhale)

(exhales)

(peter breathes, gags)

(relieved sighs)

(groans)
what happened?

Suction,
please.

You're gonna be fine.

(fluid suctioning)

When I asked her why,
she said to ask you.
(groans)

I just... Want
this to end.

What's going on?

Tyra told cassandra that I
asked you not to date her.

I know. I'm sorry.
I feel terribly.

Especially considering what
I have to ask you now.

Seriously?

Please don't tell her

About the crush part.

She thinks that
I asked you

Just 'cause I don't like her.

(sighs)

(frustrated sigh)

You know, you really
got to quit asking me
to do all this stuff.
I know.

This is the last time.
I promise.

You ordered medication
for dolores

Before her labs
came back?
It wasn't c-diff?

It was.
That's not the point.

She was in a lot of
pain, and I figured,

Since it was just
loperamide and antibiotics,

Which wouldn't hurt...
Procedures are there
for a reason.

You wait
for results, period.

I knew what it was.
You didn't know.
You guessed.

Which is how mistakes are made.
I was right.

Mistakes are the reason
people die.
I didn't make a mistake.

Because you were lucky.
No, the patient

Was lucky, because she

Was in pain and now she's not.

You're off the case.

(groans)

Stop judging me.

I'm not judging you.

Hmm.
If I was, I'd be

Thinking that you should
have waited for the results.

But you're not.
Judging?

Yeah.
No.

What was that all about?

Nurse:
Your post-op is awake.

Were you scared?

(sighs)
no.

Terrified.

(laughs)

Understandably.

Yeah, you know

At one point, it was
almost like I blacked out.

What happened?

Um...

It was kind of a miracle,
actually.

Your heart stopped...

And dr. Bandari
brought you back.

I... I died?

You're gonna be just fine.

(loud breath)

(peter gasping)
hannah:
What's happening?

Honey,
are you okay?
He's hyperventilating.

We need oxygen.
Just try and take
deep breaths, okay?

I know this news
can be a shock,

But everything
is gonna be fine.

There was no
damage, I promise.

(breathing steadies)

Two x chromosomes?
What does that mean?

Kyle:
That jake is genetically female.

However, when
chromosomally female infants

Are delivered
with male genitalia,

It means the infant
was exposed

To abnormally high amounts
of testosterone in utero,

And unfortunately,
there's still no conclusive data

On what effects hormones
have on the brain

At such an early stage
of development.

So, you're saying
you still don't know

What-what he is?

What are we supposed to do?

Gloria:
Well, you can wait.

Allow your child to mature
with both sex organs.

Jake will identify, and then
you can do the procedure.

He'll be a freak.

Kate: He needs
to be something.

He is-- he's a boy.

End of story.

He'll have the
surgery now.

All right,
we'll schedule it.

Please wait.

(gasps)
the evaluation,
I have to rewrite it.

No. (gasps)
this isn't mine.

Hannah...

Peter?

What happened?

She had to leave the room.

She couldn't look at me
after I told her.

After you told her what?

What's happening?

I've always known
that when I die,

Something was gonna happen,

And I'm not talking

About white light
or angels singing,

But something...

Deeper.

Warm and loving.

A, uh, julie andrews
on the mountaintop moment.

But then you
told me I died,

And everything changed.

Near-death experiences
can be very unsettling.

Unsettling?

Everything in my life
has been based on one fact,

That there is a god,
that he has a plan.

But then I died,
and there was nothing.

So maybe there is no god
and maybe there is no plan.

I've never felt lost, dr. Owens.

My whole life,
I've never felt...

Never felt lost.

(sighs)

What did you say to him?

What you told me to.

I... About a month ago,

You described
a similar situation,

And you said to give a clear
and concise answer

That emphasized the positive.

I wrote it down.

Okay, keep breathing.

You are on the mountain,

Leading seven
delightful children in song.

You're an
excellent student,

Dr. Owens.

Thank you.

She didn't mean it
as a compliment.

Sorry.

And have you
also heard me

Say that patients
aren't textbooks?

You should've asked me.

He's a religious man.

He's had
a near-death experience.

For all
your supposed sensitivity,

You didn't think
that might be traumatic?

I thought he would see it
more like a miracle.

Well, apparently,
you were wrong,

And you better fix it.

Sure, no problem.

I'll just prove there's a god.

No, I should've known that
peter would react like that.

Off the record?

Always.

Dr. Bandari
should've prepped you.

She's not always
the best teacher.

Exactly.

That's what I wrote
in my evaluation.

I said that she
has a lot to offer,

But it's always delivered
with so much negativity

That it's hard to process.

What about you?

You believe in god?

Please tell me you didn't
really write that, did you?

Not really.

(chuckles)

I've actually been thinking
about god a lot lately,

Since my mom got sick,

And I want to believe
a higher power exists.

You?
Yeah.

Sometimes.

I mean,
this certainly wasn't my plan.

What plan is that?

I planned on being
a together person,

Past all the crap,
but I'm not past it.

I keep finding myself in
the exact same situations,

And I don't know how to
stop it from happening.

I gave up the illusion
of control...

When was it?

Oh, yeah, about halfway through
my first year as an intern.

Doctors can't plan, can we?

We just react.

The one thing you can control

Is how to react better.

So we learn
from experience, right?

Next time,
just do things differently.

Can I just say you are a much
better teacher than dr. Bandari?

Hope you didn't put that
in your evaluation.

Emily:
You can say something.
You can totally say something.

I mean, it's a little
inappropriate, but...

What?

This might be

A little inappropriate.

That's okay.

Will knows that he screwed up.

He gets all defensive
in the moment,

But then, right after,
he knows that he screwed up.

Good to know.

Come on.

We, uh, got to get back.

(bell dings)

Tyra,

Can we...

Tyra, please wait.

I really don't care
how sorry you are.

Good, 'cause I'm not.

I'm very, very sorry
that you were hurt,

But I was

In an impossible situation.

You and I had just met,
and your father

Is my boss,

And he is intimidating as hell,

And you, of all people,
should know that.

So, how'd you go
from "I'm sorry" to that?

Most times, when I'm
in an uncomfortable situation,

My knee-jerk reaction
is just to apologize,

And I'm trying
to do something different.

And now's the moment when you
apologize for telling cassandra.

(laughs)

You're forgiven.

So we're clear,

You're counting
from dinner at arcadia?

Yes, I am counting from
dinner at arcadia.

Could've gone nowhere.

Okay, look, I didn't want
to have to get

All technical on your ass,
but here's the deal.

Okay.
You go on a date, and if it
turns into a relationship,

You retroactively count
from the first time you kissed,

Regardless of what your
dating status was at the time.

So we're clear.
Which means that

The eight- or ten-week question
is actually predicated

On our relationship talk,
which is still pending.

You make a good point.

So, can we just agree

To skip the talk
and count retroactively?

We can do that, yes.
Yeah?

Mmm.
Okay.

If we weren't in a hospital
right now, I'd be kissing you.

Just so we're clear.

Emily:
If you don't want
me here, I can go.

It's okay.

We met in
bible study.

Yeah, he told me.

But I bet there were a lot
of men in bible study.

You fell in
love with him.

But if he's questioning his
faith, then it's already gone.

Faith in god--

It's the basis
of our life together.

And if we don't have that,
I don't know what we have.

I might not be the best person
to talk about god,

Considering,
before today,

The last time I was in church
was in college.

Maybe ninth grade.

But...

You guys talk
about god's plan a lot.

Maybe peter

Questioning his faith

Is part of
it, too.

(pager beeps)

(baby crying)

Fever's spiking
and there's rectal bleeding.

Dr. Putman is on his way
to the o.R.

Surgery? He needs surgery?
I don't understand
what's going on.

There's been a recurrence
of the intussusception,

And we have to
remove a segment

Of the intestine
that's folded over.

Otherwise, there
could be an infection.

Will he be okay?

Someone will be up as
soon as there's news.

We'll do everything that we can.

Kate:
When can we hold him?

As soon as the risk
of infection subsides, but

Jake's gonna be fine.

When I was watching him
being taken to surgery...

How can we put him
through this again?

Risk losing him.

(coos)

We don't have to.

So, what, then?

We just...
Leave him like this?

Part girl, part boy?

Kate:
Till he's ready
to choose for himself,

And that's
the recommendation, right?

But what about... School?

I mean, kids, you know,
they can be... Mean.

It's not the other kids'
acceptance he'll need.

It's yours because
you're his dad.

Dads can cast a
pretty big shadow.

We got to give him
a new name, then.

Something... Neutral.

So that if he

Indentifies... Girl,

It'll still work.
(baby crying)

'cause you don't want
to get involved

With new names
when they get older.

Okay, we'll find a new name.

Okay.

(exhales)

Okay.

Okay, look, I don't know
if god exists.

Or if she does,
what she's like.

But that doesn't change the fact
that I see miracles every day.

And you coming back
from the dead,

That was a miracle.

How much did it
kill you to say that?

(groans) you have no idea.

(laughs)

(quiet laugh)

Oh, well,
I appreciate the effort.

What can I do?

(crying): Convince hannah
not to leave me?

Hannah:
I'm not.

I just needed a moment.

I'm here,

And I have faith in us.

(quiet sob)

I'm gonna leave you two alone.

Hannah:
Go easy on that intern, okay?

She was helpful.

Gina:
Oh...

I'll be sure
to thank her profusely.

Hey. Micah put you
back on the case?
Nope.

I'm here as a visitor.

Dolores here is special--
she's my first.

Dolores: We're
doing an extra lap

To celebrate my freedom
from the can.

(laughs)
I'll leave you to it.

See you tomorrow.

Bye.

Really, you two
have never...?

Just friends.

Well, see, I don't believe men
and women can just be friends.

Used to think I had some.

Over the years, slept
with every last one of them.

(laughs)
come on.

You never ever wanted
to get horizontal with her?

Um...
I knew it!

Once.
Lay it on me, baby.

(clears throat)
I was drunk.
Classic.

And, uh, emily and I had
been, you know, hanging out.

And I'd just broken up
with this crazy girl.

Emily and I had such
a great time, laughing,

Talking, whatever.

And I remember thinking
when she left...

Why am I not dating her?

So you went after her,

Pushed her against
a wall and screwed her.

(laughs)

Uh, no, I called her

And then I remember thinking,
"well, this is a terrible idea.

I don't want to risk our
friendship," so I deleted it.

But your version... Wow.

(exhales)

I am just so sick of it.

This whole dynamic.

You know what I'm sick of?

Your whole
innocent act.

You're the one who's
perpetuating this dynamic.

You hate me so much,
you asked will not to date me.

No, that's not because I...

Be careful--
don't expose your weakness.

No, no, new plan.

React differently.

(exhales)

What? It's not because of what?

It wasn't because will is my
friend; it's because I was...

Or maybe I still am
in love with will.

And I told him that,

And he rejected me.

And when he chose you,
it was incredibly painful...

Trying to get over him and
seeing the two of you together.

I didn't think
that I could handle it, so...

I asked him not to see you.

And I realized
it was wrong,

And I took it back, but...

I'm trying not
to apologize for things

That I'm not sorry for, but...

I am really sorry about that.

Well, at least you
were finally honest.

Well, no apparent bleeding.

I saw emily go in,
you came out.

She told me.

That she was in love with
you and you rejected her.

Look, I didn't
know you that long,

And emily and I
had been friends for...
No.

I get it.

You can make it up to me.

Yeah.

(gasps) but, uh,

Let's keep it
professional at work.

Have a seat.
I'm gay.

That's what I came here
to tell you this morning.

And I've been so worried
for so long about telling you

Because I was scared
that I would disappoint you

Or you wouldn't accept me,
but really,

And I don't really care
what you think anymore.

Now I need a drink.

(laughs)

Sold.

We make all these plans about
how things will turn out...

...But life happens,

Plans change, so we adapt.

We draw on strength
we didn't know we had,

We give up any illusions
of control,

And we deal head-on with
problems that come our way.

I'll be right back.

Dr. Bandari.

I have been so
stressed all day

About your evaluation,
but you know what?

I stand by what I said.

Because it's how I feel,

And if you have
a problem with...
(coughs)

(whispers):
I got yours back.

...Reading about

How brilliant of a teacher
I think you are,

Then I'm sorry.

I'm not even
going to ask, dr. Owens.

(quiet laugh)

Do you think
she bought it?

No comment.

I mean, what the hell
were you thinking?

Give that to me.
Give it.

(laughs)
"dr. Bandari's voice

Practically drips
with condescension"?

I thought it was
anonymous!

(laughs)

Unsatisfactory.

(both laughing)

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