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EDDIE: Previously on "The Path"...
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What if we're wrong about
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our exemption application
being recalled?
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We don't have any money, Cal.
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- SARAH: Please, take a seat.
- Who the hell is that?
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That's Sarah Lane.
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SARAH: And that is why the exemption
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is so very important to us, Lisa...
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'cause what you did
will never, ever go away.
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I need you to get in
the car, sweetheart.
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Sean, listen to your mother.
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Sean, my name is Wendy Kennair.
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She's gonna help you, Sean...
you, Mary, and our grandchild.
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You're getting out.
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Jacqueline Richards?
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You contributed on behalf
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of your daughter, Noa, to our cause.
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- I'm a friend of your son's.
- My son?
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I'm afraid he's out of town.
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Your doctor, Steven
Meyer... he hurt him.
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I picked a son, but
he was the wrong son.
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You will build The Garden,
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and we will follow you there.
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[suspenseful music]
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♪ ♪
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The Path 2x09
Oz
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Sync and corrections by Albanda
www.Addic7ed.com
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DON: Sometimes I was with
both of them on the same night.
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Some nights, I would have
dinner with Katie and the kids
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and then make up some excuse,
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like leaving for a business trip,
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and then go back to Tracy
for the rest of the week.
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[tense music]
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♪ ♪
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Why are you doing this?
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♪ ♪
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It's something I'm dealing with.
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It's my life.
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Your lives, plural, Don.
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Fuck you.
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SARAH: You came to us drowning in guilt,
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overwhelmed, and talking
about taking your own life.
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We helped you.
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We asked you to search within yourself
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to figure out why you were
doing what you were doing
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and why you started
two separate families
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both built on lies;
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to ask yourself why
you felt so compelled
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to deceive so many people.
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And we talked you off
the ledge of suicide,
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but you weren't willing to
uncover the mystery of you.
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We talked to you, but you
didn't want to do any real work,
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and now you've made
a very successful life
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built on Transgressions.
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And it's all very delicate.
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Your fragile house of lies...
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it could collapse at any moment.
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♪ ♪
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Sorry for the delay.
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No problem.
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♪ ♪
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I'll get you a receipt.
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♪ ♪
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[exhales sharply]
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♪ ♪
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[church bell tolling]
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You look like you want someone
to come over and talk to you.
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I'm Father Cates.
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You know, I used to come to
this church when I was a kid.
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- Really?
- Yeah.
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Welcome back, then.
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Ah, 20 years, so...
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Father Deans.
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Yeah.
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Wow, Father Deans.
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Jesus, I never would've
remembered that name.
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You weren't here then, were you?
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No, I was still a kid
in Washington State,
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thinking I wanted to
be a doctor like my dad.
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How did you decide to join the church?
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Are you considering
entering the priesthood?
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No, no, I was just, uh...
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just curious.
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I mean, did something
happen that made you sure
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that you were supposed to work for Him?
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Uh, no is the short answer.
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Would it be helpful
to tell me what it is
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you're deciding to do or not to do?
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[exhales heavily]
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Ah, I guess you could say that...
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I'm hearing a call.
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Well, listening can be terrifying.
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But the thought of not
listening can be even worse.
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I don't know.
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Just feels like a crapshoot either way.
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Well, certainty that
this is my life's work
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is tested every day.
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But if it's a mistake,
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I'd make it again.
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SARAH: Faith is inspiring
divisiveness, destruction,
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hate, and greed.
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And the tragic irony is that faith
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is meant to inspire compassion
and empathy and love.
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And would this Dr. Meyer
himself be speaking,
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were we to find room in the schedule?
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No, uh, my colleague and I
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speak on behalf of the Movement now.
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But we are deeply
interested in participating
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in your conference.
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We... we have much to contribute
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and much to learn, as well.
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ABE: They must have squeezed
some of their donors.
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MCCLUSKY: No shit.
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And just like that, any leverage we had
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with them up to their
ass in back taxes is gone.
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And you had no idea they
were coming up with a plan
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to wiggle out of the noose.
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You're inside,
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and yet we learn about
this before you do.
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Do you even recognize
any of these people
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who coughed up cash to
pay off their IRS debt?
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ABE: Don Hendren, Martina Bill,
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Pete Gilchrist...
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all of these people are
level 3R at the highest.
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They're practicing
Meyerists, but they...
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they're not living it full-time.
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Just figure out what
the hell is going on
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and how we can use it.
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Listen, I-I don't
know how this happened,
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but I will figure out what's going on.
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Damn it!
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[solemn music]
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♪ ♪
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[sighs]
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♪ ♪
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Felicia, what are you...
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Richard told me everything.
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But I need to hear it from you.
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♪ ♪
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EDDIE: I just can't
keep running from this.
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He bears its mark on his back.
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Or it's just a wound...
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a wound from the lightning.
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Well...
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He's meant to lead us, Felicia.
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I'm convinced.
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Well, that must be nice.
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I-I'm sorry.
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This is difficult to process.
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Three days ago, I had
every reason to believe
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that Steve had fulfilled
his work for us.
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Now I have to accept this new story
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that you're meant to guide us.
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EDDIE: I get it.
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Certainty is a white whale.
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There's only one way to know.
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Climb.
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You need to continue the climb, 8R.
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[foreboding music]
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♪ ♪
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MAN: Excuse me, sir?
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What?
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We're here.
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This is the address you gave me, right?
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[sighs heavily]
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[folksy acoustic music]
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♪ ♪
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Have you read it?
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Uh, no, but I saw the movie.
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- It's black and white, right?
- Yes.
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Well, Kansas is black and
white, but Oz is in color.
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The land of Oz is entirely green,
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but the inhabitants are wearing
these green-colored glasses,
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and they don't know that
their world is the same colors
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as everyone else's.
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Their "leader" is
called the Wizard of Oz,
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but really, he's just a
regular guy from Kansas
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that has everyone fooled.
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Thanks for letting us
throw you a baby shower.
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Uh, how do you two
know each other again?
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- Oh...
- College.
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We're old friends.
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I hope you enjoy the book.
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I'll be curious what you see in it,
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living how you...
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well, where you do.
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They don't tell you what you
can and can't read, do they?
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Can we be done, please?
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I'm tired, and this food is terrible.
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I'm ready to, uh, move ahead
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with the sale of the
center in... in New York...
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- I have news.
- Humble myself to the Council.
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And if they feel they
need me to step aside...
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- Cal...
- No, no.
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That is the best course
of action right now.
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It's over.
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I made a few phone calls,
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and a few donors stepped up.
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What?
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I paid the back taxes on this place.
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I-I...
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How... how did you
get donors to do that?
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I didn't sugarcoat.
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I let them know how
dire the situation was.
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It's a Band-Aid, but
it buys us some time.
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- [chuckles]
- Cal?
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No, no, um...
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uh, I just, um...
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Everything's gonna be okay?
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I mean, we're far from
being in the clear.
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We still need to put other
sources of revenue in motion.
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Yeah, of course, yeah.
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And there's the World
Faith Conference in Boston.
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Very mainstream.
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Deepak Chopra, Tony Robbins...
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and we'll be speaking.
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That's exciting.
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I got us on the schedule.
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Main stage, second day.
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Wow, you...
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[chuckles] Wow, that's great, Sarah.
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This could be the beginning
of something new for us,
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you know, a way to...
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monetize our message.
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Open it up to corporate events.
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You know, uh, executive
training, you know.
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Yeah.
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We can do this.
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Yeah, absolutely.
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You know, we have to
face reality, right?
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We've certainly had a...
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a good dose of that recently.
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You're gonna be great
with this audience.
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We'll be great.
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[both chuckle softly]
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Uh, so, I, uh... I'll just, uh...
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I'll just settle back in,
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and I'll catch up with you later.
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Is there anything that you
want to talk to me about?
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All... all the... these
donations, they were...
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they were voluntary, right?
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Of course.
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Yeah.
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[tense music]
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♪ ♪
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[exhales sharply]
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[power tools buzzing]
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Hey. Did you hear?
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The IRS stuff...
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it's over.
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I heard Cal might've had
to go to jail. Is that true?
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I don't... don't think so.
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Who said that?
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Please.
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Stop.
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You're out of shape.
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Chasing after you is exhausting.
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I like it, though.
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I'm sorry that I-I was a...
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- Dick?
- Dick.
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I am.
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It's all right.
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I was wondering if you...
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if you want to come to dinner with me.
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Yeah, fine. Where you thinking?
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My mom's?
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You're really doing
the "bring the girl home
268
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- to meet the family" thing?
- Yeah, yeah. I am, yeah.
269
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Why? I've met your family.
270
00:13:51,096 --> 00:13:52,534
I know. I-I just...
271
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I want you with me when I go home.
272
00:13:57,936 --> 00:14:00,272
You're so "aww,
shucks," it's incredible.
273
00:14:06,862 --> 00:14:09,239
Yeah, I'll go.
274
00:14:20,417 --> 00:14:22,960
ABE: This is a token of our appreciation
275
00:14:22,961 --> 00:14:25,087
for your incredibly generous donation.
276
00:14:25,088 --> 00:14:26,631
The Movement thanks you.
277
00:14:28,925 --> 00:14:31,469
Uh, you are an inspiration.
278
00:14:31,470 --> 00:14:33,763
Honestly, thank you.
279
00:14:33,764 --> 00:14:36,557
What do you want?
280
00:14:36,558 --> 00:14:38,267
I've done enough.
281
00:14:38,268 --> 00:14:40,640
My family is in there.
282
00:14:41,354 --> 00:14:43,189
They blackmailed you too, didn't they?
283
00:14:43,190 --> 00:14:46,192
[somber music]
284
00:14:46,193 --> 00:14:49,278
♪ ♪
285
00:14:49,279 --> 00:14:51,614
They played you your
unburdening sessions?
286
00:14:51,615 --> 00:14:56,615
♪ ♪
287
00:15:10,258 --> 00:15:11,509
Welcome.
288
00:15:11,510 --> 00:15:13,219
Thanks so much for having me.
289
00:15:13,220 --> 00:15:15,387
Oh, I'm just so happy that
Hawk wanted to bring you.
290
00:15:15,388 --> 00:15:17,681
- She's a good one, this one.
- I know she is.
291
00:15:17,682 --> 00:15:19,225
- Hawk's back.
- Hey, kid.
292
00:15:19,226 --> 00:15:20,810
I missed you.
293
00:15:20,811 --> 00:15:22,520
Hey, I got someone I want you to meet.
294
00:15:22,521 --> 00:15:25,189
- Noa, this is my sister Summer.
- Nice to meet you.
295
00:15:25,190 --> 00:15:27,858
- Are you Hawk's girlfriend?
- [laughs]
296
00:15:27,859 --> 00:15:29,652
HAWK: You've got something on your face.
297
00:15:29,653 --> 00:15:31,570
What you got on your face?
298
00:15:31,571 --> 00:15:33,531
No, on your face.
299
00:15:33,532 --> 00:15:35,699
SARAH: You are Light in your world
300
00:15:36,280 --> 00:15:38,285
because you are your world.
301
00:15:38,286 --> 00:15:40,704
You are capable.
302
00:15:40,705 --> 00:15:43,052
- You are...
- [cell phone beeps]
303
00:15:43,792 --> 00:15:45,168
[sighs]
304
00:15:45,193 --> 00:15:46,800
_
305
00:15:46,837 --> 00:15:50,131
Sorry, hon, I should have turned it off.
306
00:15:50,132 --> 00:15:51,465
Uh, where was I?
307
00:15:51,466 --> 00:15:53,509
Uh, "You are capable of summiting
308
00:15:53,510 --> 00:15:55,052
the mountain of your spirit."
309
00:15:55,053 --> 00:15:57,513
Okay, um, you guys
don't have to do this.
310
00:15:57,514 --> 00:15:58,848
I can get Cal to run it...
311
00:15:58,849 --> 00:16:00,891
Just relax. Remember your breath.
312
00:16:00,892 --> 00:16:02,726
I want to summit the
mountain of my spirit.
313
00:16:02,727 --> 00:16:04,478
HAWK: You don't have to do this, Mom.
314
00:16:04,479 --> 00:16:05,771
You saved the city center.
315
00:16:05,772 --> 00:16:07,064
You don't...
316
00:16:07,065 --> 00:16:08,858
have to go pump up a bunch of CEOs.
317
00:16:08,859 --> 00:16:10,693
Well, it's not just
a bunch of CEOs, Hawk.
318
00:16:10,694 --> 00:16:12,278
Look, I'm just saying,
319
00:16:12,279 --> 00:16:14,446
we can focus on the real work now...
320
00:16:14,447 --> 00:16:16,532
the important work we're doing.
321
00:16:16,533 --> 00:16:18,701
Hawk's right about one thing, though,
322
00:16:18,702 --> 00:16:20,828
and we should take a moment to, uh,
323
00:16:20,829 --> 00:16:22,454
acknowledge it.
324
00:16:22,455 --> 00:16:24,373
Sarah saved our asses.
325
00:16:24,374 --> 00:16:26,083
And I-I got to say,
326
00:16:26,084 --> 00:16:27,626
I was pretty nervous there.
327
00:16:27,627 --> 00:16:29,420
- Yeah, he couldn't sleep.
- No.
328
00:16:29,421 --> 00:16:31,130
I'd come downstairs; you'd
just be sitting there.
329
00:16:31,131 --> 00:16:32,339
HANK: No, I honestly thought
330
00:16:32,340 --> 00:16:33,591
it all might be coming to an end.
331
00:16:33,592 --> 00:16:35,304
They're heartless gangsters.
332
00:16:35,760 --> 00:16:38,387
We're just happy that
some people stepped up.
333
00:16:38,388 --> 00:16:39,930
You got them to do that.
334
00:16:39,931 --> 00:16:42,308
You dragged us back from the brink.
335
00:16:42,309 --> 00:16:43,517
We're lucky to have you.
336
00:16:43,563 --> 00:16:44,929
And not just the family...
337
00:16:44,954 --> 00:16:46,177
the entire Movement.
338
00:16:46,202 --> 00:16:47,730
Although we really should be thanking
339
00:16:47,731 --> 00:16:49,148
the people who wrote the checks.
340
00:16:49,149 --> 00:16:50,709
All right, Nicole, just...
341
00:16:51,276 --> 00:16:53,680
Nicole is right, Russel.
342
00:16:53,862 --> 00:16:55,607
Thank you.
343
00:16:55,739 --> 00:16:57,948
I don't know; maybe that
was wrong of me to say,
344
00:16:57,949 --> 00:17:00,784
but I feel like you're
awfully critical of me lately.
345
00:17:00,785 --> 00:17:01,952
What are you talking about?
346
00:17:01,953 --> 00:17:03,579
I don't have a family.
347
00:17:03,580 --> 00:17:05,122
- I gave mine up.
- They gave you up.
348
00:17:05,123 --> 00:17:07,625
- We're your family, Nicole.
- They did. They gave me up.
349
00:17:07,626 --> 00:17:08,876
We love you like our own.
350
00:17:08,877 --> 00:17:11,674
Nicole is absolutely right.
351
00:17:11,922 --> 00:17:15,674
The people who wrote the
checks made the real sacrifice.
352
00:17:15,675 --> 00:17:17,301
But you worked for it.
353
00:17:17,302 --> 00:17:19,637
[sighs] Sorry you have
to watch us like this.
354
00:17:19,638 --> 00:17:20,888
Not fun, I know.
355
00:17:20,889 --> 00:17:22,598
You kidding?
356
00:17:22,599 --> 00:17:24,516
I'm always impressed when I see a family
357
00:17:24,517 --> 00:17:26,310
actually say anything to each other.
358
00:17:26,311 --> 00:17:28,479
My family doesn't ever talk.
359
00:17:28,480 --> 00:17:31,100
We just hate each other silently.
360
00:17:31,399 --> 00:17:33,150
You should take the compliment, Mom.
361
00:17:33,151 --> 00:17:34,277
You deserve it.
362
00:17:36,905 --> 00:17:38,155
SARAH: I'll be right back.
363
00:17:38,156 --> 00:17:41,158
[tense music]
364
00:17:41,159 --> 00:17:46,159
♪ ♪
365
00:17:51,044 --> 00:17:52,754
[retching]
366
00:18:05,517 --> 00:18:07,394
[cell phone buzzes]
367
00:18:09,938 --> 00:18:12,940
[soft dramatic music]
368
00:18:12,941 --> 00:18:17,941
♪ ♪
369
00:18:29,708 --> 00:18:31,747
I'm going to Boston...
370
00:18:32,627 --> 00:18:35,922
going to, uh, speak
at a conference there.
371
00:18:40,635 --> 00:18:42,424
My mother died.
372
00:18:42,846 --> 00:18:44,848
- I'm sorry.
- Yeah.
373
00:18:47,392 --> 00:18:49,518
[chuckling softly]
374
00:18:49,519 --> 00:18:51,812
It's just over, then, huh?
375
00:18:51,813 --> 00:18:54,857
Once they go, that's... that's it.
376
00:18:54,858 --> 00:18:55,858
Done.
377
00:19:00,071 --> 00:19:01,906
Have you read "The Wizard of Oz"?
378
00:19:05,910 --> 00:19:07,745
Um, I watched the movie.
379
00:19:07,746 --> 00:19:09,795
Mothers are like Oz.
380
00:19:10,248 --> 00:19:12,583
Everyone expects them
to be able to give you
381
00:19:12,584 --> 00:19:14,877
a home, a heart, and a brain,
382
00:19:15,391 --> 00:19:18,756
but mostly they're
just fucked-up people.
383
00:19:18,757 --> 00:19:20,050
[chuckles]
384
00:19:23,595 --> 00:19:25,971
Why are you reading "The Wizard of Oz"?
385
00:19:25,972 --> 00:19:27,514
Why are you here?
386
00:19:27,515 --> 00:19:29,930
[exhales sharply]
387
00:19:30,644 --> 00:19:35,644
♪ ♪
388
00:19:36,524 --> 00:19:39,152
I'm a husk, Mary.
389
00:19:43,615 --> 00:19:45,408
I want to be vapor.
390
00:19:49,537 --> 00:19:51,706
I want to metamorphose.
391
00:19:55,251 --> 00:19:57,503
We could do it together.
392
00:19:57,504 --> 00:19:59,713
You know... [sighs]
393
00:19:59,714 --> 00:20:01,860
Swim in the sea.
394
00:20:02,425 --> 00:20:04,558
What do you say?
395
00:20:04,969 --> 00:20:06,262
He's kicking.
396
00:20:08,390 --> 00:20:11,684
Oh, holy shit, he really is.
397
00:20:11,685 --> 00:20:13,143
Does he do that all the time?
398
00:20:13,144 --> 00:20:14,354
Yeah.
399
00:20:19,859 --> 00:20:21,569
You're tired.
400
00:20:24,406 --> 00:20:25,573
Yeah.
401
00:20:28,451 --> 00:20:30,580
So am I.
402
00:20:31,663 --> 00:20:34,220
♪ ♪
403
00:20:47,345 --> 00:20:49,888
[Eddie breathes deeply]
404
00:20:49,889 --> 00:20:51,640
The Eighth Rung of The Ladder
405
00:20:51,641 --> 00:20:54,644
is devoted to the pursuit of mending.
406
00:20:56,938 --> 00:21:00,524
There's a tapestry that is
our collective existence,
407
00:21:00,525 --> 00:21:01,859
and it's frayed.
408
00:21:01,860 --> 00:21:03,068
Find a tear,
409
00:21:03,069 --> 00:21:05,487
and think about ways to sew it up.
410
00:21:05,488 --> 00:21:08,490
[tense music]
411
00:21:08,491 --> 00:21:13,491
♪ ♪
412
00:21:26,885 --> 00:21:29,743
Has the 27 bus come yet?
413
00:21:30,013 --> 00:21:31,430
You know, I-I don't know.
414
00:21:31,431 --> 00:21:33,847
I'm just... just sitting here.
415
00:21:34,517 --> 00:21:36,810
Not waiting for a bus or...
416
00:21:36,811 --> 00:21:38,854
anything, specifically.
417
00:21:38,855 --> 00:21:42,734
I'm not sure if that sounds
wonderful or horrible.
418
00:21:44,944 --> 00:21:46,821
Yeah, me neither.
419
00:21:54,913 --> 00:21:56,979
Hey, sir, it's right...
420
00:21:58,124 --> 00:21:59,458
Sir?
421
00:21:59,459 --> 00:22:02,377
[eerie music]
422
00:22:02,378 --> 00:22:06,299
♪ ♪
423
00:22:39,374 --> 00:22:42,293
[indistinct chatter]
424
00:22:49,342 --> 00:22:51,385
Uh, we have time to go over our speech,
425
00:22:51,386 --> 00:22:52,761
grab some lunch.
426
00:22:52,762 --> 00:22:54,721
I'd love to see Mata Amritanandamayi.
427
00:22:54,722 --> 00:22:56,348
She comes on the main stage at 4:00.
428
00:22:56,349 --> 00:22:58,308
If you have an M. Div.,
what degree is that?
429
00:22:58,309 --> 00:23:00,018
Is it Master of Divinity?
430
00:23:00,019 --> 00:23:01,562
Uh, I believe so. That
sounds about right.
431
00:23:01,563 --> 00:23:03,021
M. T. S.?
432
00:23:03,022 --> 00:23:05,274
Theological Studies, I think. Master.
433
00:23:05,275 --> 00:23:07,568
- Master.
- Yeah. The shuttle's this way.
434
00:23:07,569 --> 00:23:09,695
Uh, I think I'm just
gonna walk around a bit,
435
00:23:09,696 --> 00:23:11,280
maybe take in some of the lectures.
436
00:23:11,281 --> 00:23:12,698
We should probably go
over this at least once.
437
00:23:12,699 --> 00:23:14,241
- No, best to keep it fresh.
- But, Cal...
438
00:23:14,242 --> 00:23:15,993
Don't want it to sound
rehearsed, you know.
439
00:23:15,994 --> 00:23:17,452
That's the worst thing we
could do with this crowd.
440
00:23:17,453 --> 00:23:18,973
Call me when you're heading back over.
441
00:23:24,711 --> 00:23:26,670
EDDIE: It's hurtful, it's hateful,
442
00:23:26,671 --> 00:23:30,048
not to mention counter-fucking-productive.
443
00:23:30,049 --> 00:23:32,634
It's a big idea, certainly.
444
00:23:32,635 --> 00:23:34,845
This wasn't some idea
445
00:23:34,846 --> 00:23:37,222
I came up with out of the blue, okay?
446
00:23:37,223 --> 00:23:38,874
This was a vision...
447
00:23:39,142 --> 00:23:41,630
same as when I saw that Steve was sick.
448
00:23:41,978 --> 00:23:43,979
You are either with me, or you are not.
449
00:23:43,980 --> 00:23:46,565
Envisioning faceless people
doesn't necessarily mean
450
00:23:46,566 --> 00:23:50,059
unraveling a policy
that's been around for...
451
00:23:51,654 --> 00:23:54,698
See, you don't even remember
when the Denier policy started.
452
00:23:54,699 --> 00:23:57,142
'81 or '82.
453
00:23:57,410 --> 00:23:59,202
No, when The Movement started to grow,
454
00:23:59,203 --> 00:24:02,331
Steve realized that
he needed to find a way
455
00:24:02,332 --> 00:24:04,249
to contain the people... that is it.
456
00:24:04,250 --> 00:24:05,918
You're suggesting he was corrupt?
457
00:24:05,919 --> 00:24:08,086
It was never a policy to shun Deniers.
458
00:24:08,087 --> 00:24:10,714
Some of us chose to say
good-bye to people in our lives
459
00:24:10,715 --> 00:24:13,091
because they became
toxic to our growth...
460
00:24:13,092 --> 00:24:14,092
to our climb.
461
00:24:14,093 --> 00:24:15,385
EDDIE: Really?
462
00:24:15,386 --> 00:24:16,845
So that's why you said good-bye
463
00:24:16,846 --> 00:24:19,014
to Jeremiah when he stopped believing?
464
00:24:19,015 --> 00:24:20,933
Because he was toxic to your growth?
465
00:24:20,934 --> 00:24:22,184
Yes.
466
00:24:22,185 --> 00:24:23,779
That is bullshit.
467
00:24:24,646 --> 00:24:29,149
Once we decided that even our
own loved ones were dead to us
468
00:24:29,150 --> 00:24:32,778
because they didn't believe
exactly in what we did,
469
00:24:32,779 --> 00:24:36,531
we probably stopped truly...
470
00:24:36,532 --> 00:24:38,075
loving then too.
471
00:24:38,076 --> 00:24:39,868
I can see why you want this.
472
00:24:39,869 --> 00:24:42,120
You've suffered by that ideology.
473
00:24:42,121 --> 00:24:44,039
This has nothing to do with me.
474
00:24:44,040 --> 00:24:46,041
You sure about that?
475
00:24:46,042 --> 00:24:48,377
Don't forget it's ego of the individual
476
00:24:48,378 --> 00:24:51,744
that always threatens
the good of the whole.
477
00:25:03,393 --> 00:25:05,540
Fuck!
478
00:25:06,479 --> 00:25:09,065
- Fuckin' shelf.
- You okay?
479
00:25:12,068 --> 00:25:14,904
- Hey.
- Hey.
480
00:25:21,202 --> 00:25:23,078
Are you okay?
481
00:25:23,079 --> 00:25:25,059
Uh, I don't know.
482
00:25:26,499 --> 00:25:27,899
No.
483
00:25:30,003 --> 00:25:33,578
Sorry, maybe it's just postpartum.
484
00:25:34,173 --> 00:25:37,009
Ugh, that's such a shitty excuse.
485
00:25:37,010 --> 00:25:38,344
Excuse for what?
486
00:25:41,764 --> 00:25:44,433
- It's all Russel.
- Mm.
487
00:25:44,434 --> 00:25:46,870
His family, his world.
488
00:25:47,311 --> 00:25:49,896
My family disowned me
when I left their church,
489
00:25:49,897 --> 00:25:51,815
The Scent of Jesus in Flushing.
490
00:25:51,816 --> 00:25:53,984
What does Christ smell like again?
491
00:25:53,985 --> 00:25:56,236
- You're not a member.
- Mm-mm.
492
00:25:56,237 --> 00:25:59,031
[both laughing]
493
00:26:00,099 --> 00:26:02,200
Sometimes I wonder if every
move I've made in my life
494
00:26:02,201 --> 00:26:04,150
has been to spite them.
495
00:26:05,246 --> 00:26:08,206
Yeah, I've felt like that.
496
00:26:08,207 --> 00:26:12,586
Have you ever felt like
the choices you made
497
00:26:12,587 --> 00:26:14,337
were never choices?
498
00:26:14,338 --> 00:26:17,257
Like the life you have has been...
499
00:26:17,258 --> 00:26:19,339
assigned to you?
500
00:26:19,927 --> 00:26:22,555
Yeah, I have felt like that, yeah.
501
00:26:24,724 --> 00:26:26,267
Kind of feel like that now.
502
00:26:33,232 --> 00:26:34,691
You know, Nicole,
503
00:26:34,692 --> 00:26:35,979
I, uh...
504
00:26:36,444 --> 00:26:37,983
Yeah?
505
00:26:40,198 --> 00:26:42,058
You know, I...
506
00:26:43,367 --> 00:26:45,452
I like you.
507
00:26:45,453 --> 00:26:47,733
I really do.
508
00:26:47,872 --> 00:26:49,831
I-I just, you know...
509
00:26:49,832 --> 00:26:52,459
I-I can't, um...
510
00:26:52,460 --> 00:26:53,795
I just...
511
00:26:57,507 --> 00:27:00,300
Sometimes I want something...
512
00:27:00,301 --> 00:27:01,676
one thing...
513
00:27:01,677 --> 00:27:03,540
that's just mine.
514
00:27:03,971 --> 00:27:06,808
Not the family, not The Movement...
515
00:27:08,744 --> 00:27:09,995
Just about me.
516
00:27:17,985 --> 00:27:19,069
I want you to know,
517
00:27:19,070 --> 00:27:21,863
whatever happens in this moment...
518
00:27:21,864 --> 00:27:23,990
it's real...
519
00:27:23,991 --> 00:27:25,034
for me.
520
00:27:30,122 --> 00:27:32,707
[both moan]
521
00:27:32,708 --> 00:27:34,501
Okay, okay, okay, okay.
Wait, w-wait a minute.
522
00:27:34,502 --> 00:27:36,670
You're not gonna go
and unburden out loud
523
00:27:36,671 --> 00:27:38,797
about this afterwards, are you?
524
00:27:38,798 --> 00:27:41,424
This is not the kind
of thing I want on tape,
525
00:27:41,425 --> 00:27:44,970
hanging around the archive room.
526
00:27:44,971 --> 00:27:47,139
The unburdening tapes
are in the archive room?
527
00:27:48,224 --> 00:27:50,016
[both chuckle]
528
00:27:50,017 --> 00:27:53,019
[Jason Collette's "It
Don't Matter Anymore"]
529
00:27:53,020 --> 00:27:58,020
♪ ♪
530
00:28:00,027 --> 00:28:03,363
COLLETTE: ♪ It don't
matter anymore ♪
531
00:28:03,364 --> 00:28:07,200
♪ Who's keeping score ♪
532
00:28:07,201 --> 00:28:09,619
♪ Nobody wins ♪
533
00:28:09,620 --> 00:28:12,080
♪ When the hurtin' stones begin ♪
534
00:28:12,081 --> 00:28:13,373
♪ I'm too tired tonight ♪
535
00:28:13,374 --> 00:28:15,918
[sewing machine clanking]
536
00:28:18,754 --> 00:28:20,338
♪ I'm too tired to fight ♪
537
00:28:20,339 --> 00:28:23,008
- Hey, uh, Tessa?
- Yes?
538
00:28:23,009 --> 00:28:26,463
Hi, um, my name's Eddie Lane.
539
00:28:26,804 --> 00:28:29,097
I, uh...
540
00:28:29,098 --> 00:28:31,776
I married your sister, Sarah.
541
00:28:32,643 --> 00:28:34,144
- Wow.
- Yeah.
542
00:28:34,145 --> 00:28:35,395
You're the one, huh?
543
00:28:35,396 --> 00:28:38,023
Holy shit. [clears throat]
544
00:28:38,024 --> 00:28:40,275
Listen, I'm sorry, but I'm
gonna have to ask you to leave.
545
00:28:40,276 --> 00:28:42,068
I'm done with Meyerism
and all its bullshit.
546
00:28:42,069 --> 00:28:43,878
I left too.
547
00:28:44,238 --> 00:28:46,364
You left... out?
548
00:28:46,365 --> 00:28:47,949
Yeah.
549
00:28:47,950 --> 00:28:50,036
[sighs] Well, shit.
550
00:28:53,205 --> 00:28:55,498
Um, why don't we go downstairs?
551
00:28:55,499 --> 00:28:56,875
I'll buy you a cup of coffee.
552
00:28:56,876 --> 00:28:58,209
That sounds great.
553
00:28:58,210 --> 00:28:59,962
One cup of coffee.
554
00:29:09,764 --> 00:29:12,683
[indistinct chatter]
555
00:29:20,024 --> 00:29:22,944
[bell chiming]
556
00:29:25,196 --> 00:29:27,264
Cal, where the hell are you?
557
00:29:28,032 --> 00:29:30,952
[chiming continues]
558
00:29:37,541 --> 00:29:39,000
What have you been doing?
559
00:29:39,001 --> 00:29:40,293
I've been looking everywhere for you.
560
00:29:40,294 --> 00:29:43,338
Sorry, uh, um...
561
00:29:43,339 --> 00:29:44,339
I can't do this.
562
00:29:44,340 --> 00:29:45,715
Um...
563
00:29:45,716 --> 00:29:47,300
you're gonna have to go on alone.
564
00:29:47,301 --> 00:29:49,010
Cal, listen.
565
00:29:49,011 --> 00:29:50,679
I know losing your mom...
566
00:29:50,680 --> 00:29:53,598
No, no, no, Sarah, you
should do this, all right?
567
00:29:53,599 --> 00:29:54,975
You're the one who saved us.
568
00:29:54,976 --> 00:29:56,601
You're the real Guardian of the Light.
569
00:29:56,602 --> 00:29:57,894
You... you can do this.
570
00:29:57,895 --> 00:29:59,104
I don't want to do this alone.
571
00:29:59,105 --> 00:30:00,605
Yeah, but I can't do it.
572
00:30:00,606 --> 00:30:02,232
I can't do it. I can't do it at all.
573
00:30:02,233 --> 00:30:04,484
- That's not fair.
- It's not a choice.
574
00:30:04,485 --> 00:30:06,069
It's not for me either.
575
00:30:06,070 --> 00:30:08,530
I can't articulate my
conviction right now.
576
00:30:08,531 --> 00:30:10,449
Well, I'm...
577
00:30:13,244 --> 00:30:16,414
I'm not sure I have any
conviction left to articulate.
578
00:30:20,584 --> 00:30:22,711
[chuckles] Quite the pickle we're in,
579
00:30:22,712 --> 00:30:25,130
being that we are at the
World Faith Conference.
580
00:30:25,131 --> 00:30:28,759
We're scheduled to go
onstage in less than an hour.
581
00:30:31,971 --> 00:30:34,973
[grim music]
582
00:30:34,974 --> 00:30:38,184
♪ ♪
583
00:30:38,185 --> 00:30:39,899
I blackmailed them.
584
00:30:40,646 --> 00:30:42,313
All of them.
585
00:30:42,314 --> 00:30:44,342
The donors.
586
00:30:45,109 --> 00:30:46,777
You knew that, though, right?
587
00:30:49,113 --> 00:30:50,822
So do this for me.
588
00:30:50,823 --> 00:30:52,907
Do this for what I have done.
589
00:30:52,908 --> 00:30:54,826
Do it for me, if for nothing else,
590
00:30:54,827 --> 00:30:57,696
or we have nothing.
591
00:30:58,539 --> 00:31:01,667
Make people believe.
592
00:31:03,836 --> 00:31:07,797
Make me believe. Okay?
593
00:31:07,798 --> 00:31:09,591
Okay?
594
00:31:09,592 --> 00:31:14,592
♪ ♪
595
00:31:18,642 --> 00:31:20,936
- First...
- Yes?
596
00:31:23,147 --> 00:31:25,274
I want to be clean in your Eye.
597
00:31:27,193 --> 00:31:29,236
[whispering] Yes. Yes.
598
00:31:31,280 --> 00:31:33,199
I want to wash away our Damage.
599
00:31:42,500 --> 00:31:44,293
I want to be clean in your Eye.
600
00:31:49,799 --> 00:31:52,416
Because I...
601
00:31:53,344 --> 00:31:55,253
I see myself...
602
00:31:56,055 --> 00:31:58,099
reflected in you.
603
00:32:00,851 --> 00:32:02,939
With my Eye...
604
00:32:04,188 --> 00:32:06,440
I see you anew.
605
00:32:10,861 --> 00:32:13,197
With my Eye, I see you anew.
606
00:32:17,785 --> 00:32:20,779
I see you anew.
607
00:32:21,413 --> 00:32:26,413
♪ ♪
608
00:32:36,178 --> 00:32:37,428
KODIAK: It's over.
609
00:32:37,429 --> 00:32:38,763
What's over? Us?
610
00:32:38,764 --> 00:32:40,266
We never were, Kodiak.
611
00:32:42,810 --> 00:32:44,978
I wish I was referring to us, Gab.
612
00:32:44,979 --> 00:32:46,938
I mean this...
613
00:32:46,939 --> 00:32:48,815
what Steve built.
614
00:32:48,816 --> 00:32:50,358
But Sarah saved it.
615
00:32:50,359 --> 00:32:52,361
We're gonna be fine.
616
00:32:54,697 --> 00:32:57,407
Things are gonna get ugly.
617
00:32:57,408 --> 00:32:58,871
What? Why?
618
00:33:00,161 --> 00:33:01,452
Tell me.
619
00:33:01,453 --> 00:33:03,339
You're scaring me.
620
00:33:04,206 --> 00:33:06,166
Did Sarah do something?
621
00:33:06,167 --> 00:33:08,918
It's all smoke and mirrors, Gab...
622
00:33:08,919 --> 00:33:10,545
all of this.
623
00:33:10,546 --> 00:33:13,047
I needed Steve to be a God,
624
00:33:13,048 --> 00:33:14,799
and so he was.
625
00:33:14,800 --> 00:33:16,801
He needed me to be this madman,
626
00:33:16,802 --> 00:33:19,512
a...a victim he could save,
627
00:33:19,513 --> 00:33:20,930
and so I was.
628
00:33:20,931 --> 00:33:23,766
- I don't understand.
- Escape.
629
00:33:23,767 --> 00:33:25,949
Don't go down with it.
630
00:33:27,229 --> 00:33:28,906
Come with me.
631
00:33:29,356 --> 00:33:32,358
[slow music]
632
00:33:32,359 --> 00:33:36,182
♪ ♪
633
00:33:39,366 --> 00:33:44,245
Don't you want to just
scream in your family's face,
634
00:33:44,246 --> 00:33:46,581
"I exist. You can't ignore me.
635
00:33:46,582 --> 00:33:48,082
I'm a fucking human being"?
636
00:33:48,083 --> 00:33:49,417
Of course I do. Don't you think I do?
637
00:33:49,418 --> 00:33:50,919
I've obsessed about this for years.
638
00:33:50,920 --> 00:33:53,129
I've had hundreds of hours of therapy.
639
00:33:53,130 --> 00:33:54,964
But you can't change other people.
640
00:33:54,965 --> 00:33:56,633
You cannot get them to see what you see.
641
00:33:56,634 --> 00:33:58,009
No, no, I don't... I don't buy that.
642
00:33:58,010 --> 00:33:59,886
Okay? That's giving up.
643
00:33:59,887 --> 00:34:01,763
This needs to be fixed.
644
00:34:01,764 --> 00:34:04,265
All those broken families...
it's not fucking fair.
645
00:34:04,266 --> 00:34:05,809
Grow the fuck up.
646
00:34:07,394 --> 00:34:10,104
Hey, Tessa, I'm... I'm sor... Tessa.
647
00:34:10,105 --> 00:34:12,106
Hi, I'm... I'm taking over for Andrea.
648
00:34:12,107 --> 00:34:13,839
Can I get you a refill?
649
00:34:18,197 --> 00:34:20,949
- Ashley?
- Hi. Oh, my God.
650
00:34:20,950 --> 00:34:23,785
- Wow.
- Uh, how's Hawk?
651
00:34:24,620 --> 00:34:25,995
I don't know.
652
00:34:25,996 --> 00:34:27,997
We're not talking right now.
653
00:34:27,998 --> 00:34:30,250
It's a long story.
654
00:34:30,251 --> 00:34:33,310
Uh, I do know he's living in the city.
655
00:34:34,046 --> 00:34:35,130
Did you know that?
656
00:34:38,050 --> 00:34:40,343
A clear sensorium
657
00:34:40,344 --> 00:34:43,471
and complex perceptual processes
658
00:34:43,472 --> 00:34:47,433
during a period of
apparent clinical death
659
00:34:47,434 --> 00:34:49,477
challenge the concept
660
00:34:49,478 --> 00:34:51,187
that consciousness
661
00:34:51,188 --> 00:34:54,122
is localized in the brain.
662
00:34:54,191 --> 00:34:57,568
This is a concept shared
by every faith tradition
663
00:34:57,569 --> 00:34:58,987
around the world.
664
00:34:58,988 --> 00:35:00,863
- And yet today...
- I don't want this.
665
00:35:00,864 --> 00:35:04,117
BRYCE: Science is proving it as fact.
666
00:35:04,118 --> 00:35:07,037
[applause]
667
00:35:18,799 --> 00:35:23,553
How can this really be all there is?
668
00:35:23,554 --> 00:35:24,887
[chuckles]
669
00:35:24,888 --> 00:35:26,806
How can there not be more?
670
00:35:26,807 --> 00:35:28,850
And how do we not find ourselves
671
00:35:28,851 --> 00:35:31,296
on the fast track to the grave?
672
00:35:31,812 --> 00:35:35,320
We only have five
minutes on this planet.
673
00:35:35,482 --> 00:35:38,443
How do we make the most
of those five minutes?
674
00:35:38,444 --> 00:35:41,321
It's possible to take the
best parts of ourselves
675
00:35:41,322 --> 00:35:44,907
and take the five minutes
that the universe has given us
676
00:35:44,908 --> 00:35:47,619
and break it down into seconds,
677
00:35:47,620 --> 00:35:50,538
into milliseconds, into nanoseconds
678
00:35:50,539 --> 00:35:53,082
and live in between those seconds
679
00:35:53,083 --> 00:35:57,712
content, happy, and free.
680
00:35:57,713 --> 00:35:59,714
My mother,
681
00:35:59,715 --> 00:36:02,800
who died recently,
682
00:36:02,801 --> 00:36:05,470
never once told me she loved me...
683
00:36:05,471 --> 00:36:07,972
never once.
684
00:36:07,973 --> 00:36:11,351
How do I make the
most of my five minutes
685
00:36:11,352 --> 00:36:13,686
knowing that?
686
00:36:13,687 --> 00:36:17,065
Acceptance, that's how.
687
00:36:17,066 --> 00:36:19,817
I-I accept that I have no...
688
00:36:19,818 --> 00:36:23,196
I had no control over my mother
689
00:36:23,197 --> 00:36:25,099
or her love.
690
00:36:25,908 --> 00:36:27,940
And I-I let her go.
691
00:36:28,702 --> 00:36:32,331
And I surround myself
with people who do love me.
692
00:36:34,708 --> 00:36:38,294
Loving begins with you.
693
00:36:38,295 --> 00:36:40,505
Love begins with you,
694
00:36:40,506 --> 00:36:43,591
but it rarely ends with you.
695
00:36:43,592 --> 00:36:46,886
It will lead you into your own heart...
696
00:36:46,887 --> 00:36:49,180
into yourself.
697
00:36:49,181 --> 00:36:52,100
And you will love yourself,
698
00:36:52,101 --> 00:36:54,700
and you will love others.
699
00:36:55,979 --> 00:36:59,982
And you will realize just
how much more there is
700
00:36:59,983 --> 00:37:02,110
to this existence.
701
00:37:02,111 --> 00:37:05,030
[applause]
702
00:37:29,179 --> 00:37:32,933
Your mother said some
things before she died...
703
00:37:34,393 --> 00:37:36,311
Things that were hard to hear.
704
00:37:37,855 --> 00:37:40,983
Yeah, well, she tends to do that.
705
00:37:43,152 --> 00:37:45,320
Sorry you had to suffer her venom.
706
00:37:48,574 --> 00:37:49,991
[elevator dings]
707
00:37:49,992 --> 00:37:53,662
- Thank you.
- Thank you. Yeah.
708
00:37:56,123 --> 00:37:57,624
That's me.
709
00:38:23,484 --> 00:38:24,902
I just, um...
710
00:38:27,237 --> 00:38:29,698
I couldn't let you walk away.
711
00:38:32,951 --> 00:38:34,739
You're everything that...
712
00:38:36,580 --> 00:38:39,207
Everything I said up there
713
00:38:39,208 --> 00:38:40,793
was about you.
714
00:38:46,298 --> 00:38:49,300
[Gavin Clark and Toydrum's
"The World That I Created"]
715
00:38:49,301 --> 00:38:54,301
♪ ♪
716
00:39:02,022 --> 00:39:05,733
CLARK: ♪ This is a
world that I created ♪
717
00:39:05,734 --> 00:39:07,610
♪ ♪
718
00:39:07,611 --> 00:39:11,739
♪ I created light ♪
719
00:39:11,740 --> 00:39:13,449
♪ From sweetness ♪
720
00:39:13,450 --> 00:39:15,284
♪ And darkness ♪
721
00:39:15,285 --> 00:39:16,702
♪ Created light ♪
722
00:39:16,703 --> 00:39:20,623
♪ This is a world that I created ♪
723
00:39:20,624 --> 00:39:22,375
♪ ♪
724
00:39:22,376 --> 00:39:24,982
♪ I created light ♪
725
00:39:26,630 --> 00:39:30,259
♪ Created light ♪
726
00:39:31,593 --> 00:39:35,888
♪ This is a world
that has been spoken ♪
727
00:39:35,889 --> 00:39:37,557
♪ ♪
728
00:39:37,558 --> 00:39:40,385
♪ I created light ♪
729
00:39:41,311 --> 00:39:43,628
♪ Created light ♪
730
00:39:43,939 --> 00:39:47,733
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
731
00:39:47,734 --> 00:39:51,487
♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪
732
00:39:51,488 --> 00:39:55,116
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
733
00:39:55,117 --> 00:39:58,995
♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪
734
00:39:58,996 --> 00:40:02,456
♪ Oh-oh, oh ♪
735
00:40:02,457 --> 00:40:06,210
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
736
00:40:06,211 --> 00:40:10,256
♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪
737
00:40:10,257 --> 00:40:13,843
♪ Oh-oh, oh ♪
738
00:40:13,844 --> 00:40:17,138
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
739
00:40:17,139 --> 00:40:20,975
♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪
740
00:40:20,976 --> 00:40:24,478
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
741
00:40:24,479 --> 00:40:28,316
♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪
742
00:40:28,317 --> 00:40:33,317
♪ Oh-oh, oh ♪
743
00:40:33,906 --> 00:40:38,906
♪ ♪
744
00:40:43,832 --> 00:40:45,792
♪ Well, here it comes ♪
745
00:40:51,006 --> 00:40:54,008
[suspenseful music]
746
00:40:54,009 --> 00:40:59,009
♪ ♪
747
00:41:27,125 --> 00:41:28,418
[knock at door]
748
00:41:39,304 --> 00:41:41,259
Hank.
749
00:41:41,682 --> 00:41:43,933
Why are you contacting Tessa?
750
00:41:43,934 --> 00:41:45,476
Wait, she told you?
751
00:41:45,477 --> 00:41:47,186
She's my daughter. I talk to her, Eddie.
752
00:41:47,187 --> 00:41:49,298
Why are you contacting her?
753
00:41:49,690 --> 00:41:50,690
Come in.
754
00:41:57,168 --> 00:42:02,077
Look, our families
need to be mended, Hank.
755
00:42:05,122 --> 00:42:07,206
I'm doing 8R.
756
00:42:07,207 --> 00:42:08,290
What? Why?
757
00:42:08,291 --> 00:42:09,917
And with whom are you doing 8R?
758
00:42:09,918 --> 00:42:11,544
You've left The Movement.
759
00:42:11,545 --> 00:42:13,180
I have.
760
00:42:14,715 --> 00:42:16,717
But I haven't left everything.
761
00:42:19,845 --> 00:42:23,223
Steve chose me.
762
00:42:24,975 --> 00:42:27,351
I'm climbing the rungs
with Richard and Felicia,
763
00:42:27,352 --> 00:42:30,605
and when I am ready, I
am going to replace Cal.
764
00:42:32,607 --> 00:42:36,528
Things can be better, Hank.
765
00:42:38,405 --> 00:42:41,141
We can all be back together.
766
00:42:41,324 --> 00:42:43,284
Where did you get that?
767
00:42:43,285 --> 00:42:46,538
Steve wanted me to have it.
768
00:42:49,583 --> 00:42:52,900
We can put all of this back together.
769
00:42:54,046 --> 00:42:56,048
[exhales deeply]
770
00:43:05,307 --> 00:43:09,185
[Andrew Judah's "Better & Better"]
771
00:43:09,186 --> 00:43:11,103
Are you bleeding?
772
00:43:22,214 --> 00:43:29,261
Sync and corrections by Albanda
www.Addic7ed.com
773
00:43:29,331 --> 00:43:33,334
JUDAH: ♪ Every day ♪
774
00:43:33,335 --> 00:43:37,171
♪ In every way ♪
775
00:43:37,172 --> 00:43:41,884
♪ I'm getting better and better ♪
776
00:43:41,885 --> 00:43:46,885
♪ Despite what you say ♪
777
00:43:47,099 --> 00:43:50,559
♪ I know I will ♪
778
00:43:50,560 --> 00:43:54,188
♪ Climb up to heaven ♪
779
00:43:54,189 --> 00:43:59,189
♪ And never look down ♪
780
00:44:01,196 --> 00:44:05,074
♪ ♪
781
00:44:05,075 --> 00:44:08,578
♪ Never coming down ♪
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