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Do you wanna do it?

Do you want to have sex today?

Either way.

I guess we don't have to do it today then.

Okay.

SOMEONE SPECIAL

-Cheers! -Cheers, everyone!

AUGUST

Two months ago,

when I got together with my club friends from college…

Keisuke started talking about getting in touch with Kawabata.

Hey, do you remember? Ms. Kawabata.

A senior member of our club when we were freshmen.

-She didn't come often though. -The pretty girl?

Yes. We met her at work the other day.

And she might join us if she finishes work early.

I'd like to see her too.

-Have you met her, Asako? -Yeah.

Once or twice.

But the seniors were all chatting away with her

so we didn't get to talk much.

I see.

She was pretty popular.

What's up, Fujiwara? Did something happen?

Hm? Nothing.

He just broke up with his girlfriend.

Did he?

No, we haven't broken up!

It's just that we might break up.

Forget it, don't worry about it.

What do you mean? We haven't broke up.

Okay.

Ms. Kawabata!

-Hey! -Good evening.

It's been a while!

How are you?

I'm good.

Ms. Kawabata, please sit here.

-In the middle? -Yes.

Please sit down.

-Okay, excuse me. -Since you are here.

-It's been a while. -It has!

-I can take this. -Thanks.

Ms. Kawabata, what would you like to drink?

Let's see.

Well, I'll have a draft beer.

Draft beer, okay.

-Excuse me! -Yes.

-One draft beer, please. -Thank you.

I work in Sendagaya.

-Really? -Yes.

Maybe Kazuki's office is nearby.

Okay.

Kazuki, is your office in Yoyogi?

Yeah, Yoyogi.

She works in Sendagaya.

That's close.

Right.

Are you drinking?

Well, yes.

Did you break up with someone recently, Fujiwara?

What?

Well… No, we haven't broken up yet.

-Really? -Yes.

I'll listen if you want to talk.

No, it's fine.

You should talk to her.

Yeah, I wanna hear this too. It's Sachiko, right?

It's Sawako.

No, no, I won't talk about it.

I'll listen to anything, and I'll tell you anything.

What…?

Can I ask you something then?

Sure. What is it?

Do you have a boyfriend now?

Hey, do you have your eyes on her already?

It's not like that.

Do you?

Yeah, I do.

For a long time?

I don't know. About two and a half years, I think.

During those two and a half years…

did anything happen?

What do you mean?

Well…

Like cheating.

Have you ever cheated?

Did your girlfriend cheat on you?

Yes.

But she said it was not that she liked the guy.

Really?

Did you hear that from her?

Yes.

Why do you believe it?

Because she said so.

What, did she lie?

Well…

I don't know.

Even if she did like him,

would she go out of her way to tell you she has someone she likes?

See? I told you.

But isn't that weird?

She could've just said she wants to break up because she likes someone.

She doesn't have someone else she likes,

but she wants to break up.

I really don't understand that.

Were you possessive of her or something?

Not at all.

I never said anything like, "You have to come home."

Were you living together?

Well, we were kind of living together.

Maybe she wanted to concentrate on work or something?

Some people don't put love first.

Well, that's true.

But she's not that kind of person.

You mean you felt that love was her top priority?

Yeah, I did.

But if love was her top priority

and she doesn't have anyone she likes,

she wants to break up

because she simply doesn't like you anymore?

Ms. Kawabata, that's a little harsh.

-But you checked her phone, right? -No, I didn't.

Didn't you say you did because you suspected she was cheating?

No, I went to check it, but then stopped.

-You tried! -You suck.

-Isn't that being possessive? -That's not it.

I just suspected she was cheating.

And she was, after all.

What do you think about men who try to check your phone?

-That's not good. -I agree.

-There's no benefit to it. -Right.

-I didn't check it. -What are you gonna do with it?

I didn't check it.

Well, I guess I almost checked it.

You were worried. I understand how that feels.

Were you… Were you worried?

-I was worried. -Okay.

Yes.

Ms. Kawabata, are you working tomorrow?

I am, but only in the afternoon.

-Sounds good. -Yeah, I can sleep in.

Well, we're going this way.

-That way? -Thank you.

-Be careful. -Good night.

-See you. -See you. Bye.

-Bye. -Are you leaving?

Of course I am.

No, you're not.

What do you mean?

Ah, well…

So, have you?

What?

Ms. Kawabata, have you ever cheated on your partner?

Yeah, I have.

Huh? Why? Why did you do that?

Why?

What are you doing now, Ms. Kawabata?

Are you going home?

Let me see. What are you two doing?

I'm staying over at Kazuki's place.

He always lets me stay over after drinking and we drink a little more.

I see.

He was kind of living with his girlfriend, so his place is pretty spacious.

Hey, don't talk like it's your place.

You're welcome to come over.

If you're going home, I can get the next taxi for you.

Can I come over to your place?

Yes. Please.

I'll come then.

Yes! Let's go then!

-Okay. -Let's go.

It's not your place.

He's so drunk.

He is.

Is it nearby?

-Yeah, kind of. -Oh, really?

What do you think?

There are people like him.

People like him?

Yeah. Just the right amount of unreliableness. A lovable character.

-Sorry, I made do with some leftovers. -Not at all.

You cook.

Yes, I like to cook.

I see. Thank you.

Let's eat.

It's delicious.

Um…

Aren't things going well with your boyfriend?

Why?

Because I cheated on him?

Yeah.

It's not that things aren't going well.

It's more like… there's a difference in our feelings.

Huh?

Who has stronger feelings?

Who likes the other more?

Him… I think.

So, it's like you don't love him as much?

Don't you find it difficult to measure your love?

Are you sure about your feelings when you love someone?

Well, when you put it that way, it might be a bit vague.

But I did love her.

You mean your girlfriend?

Yes.

I see.

Your girlfriend cheated on you,

but she said she didn't really like the guy, right?

Yes.

I think I understand how she feels.

It was the same when I cheated on him.

Can you explain that to me?

Well, maybe,

I don't know if it's the same,

but maybe she thought she couldn't love you

as much as you loved her.

At times like that,

something casual…

or a more laid-back guy…

How can I put this…

If there's someone who likes me,

but not too seriously,

I think it's totally possible to sleep with someone like that.

What? Is that possible?

Yes.

Even if you have a boyfriend?

Even if I have a boyfriend?

Rather, because I have a boyfriend.

What? What do you mean?

Maybe it's about finding balance.

My boyfriend is a wonderful guy,

and he's not possessive or anything,

but…

I feel like he's just too upfront with me.

Too upfront?

It's like, "Wait, really?"

I mean, I'm not that attractive.

I'm not not even a good person.

So, when I cheat,

I don't feel that inadequacy,

there's no gap.

Between the perceived you and the real you?

Yeah.

And I wonder,

is sleeping with someone really that a big deal?

I think there are much more important things than that.

I don't think physical relationships are the most important thing either.

Isn't it more fun to talk like this… than having sex?

Aren't you having fun right now?

Yeah.

Well, it's kind of fun.

Or rather…

it's like I've encountered a new way of thinking I'd never known before.

A Close Encounter of the Third Kind.

What? Am I an alien?

Boyfriend?

Yeah.

Okay. I think I'm going home.

-Are you leaving? -Yeah, I'm going home.

I'll clean up.

It's totally fine. I'll do it.

No.

-Really! I'm really going to do it… -It's quicker if we do it together.

-Sorry, but it's fine. -I'll leave this here.

That's enough.

Can I put this in the fridge?

-That's mine, so please leave it. -Okay.

It's fine. Really, please leave that too.

-What about this? Shall I put it away? -Yeah, but…

-Okay, thank you. -I'll put it away.

Thank you.

Okay.

Okay, I added you…

I sent a sticker.

Oh, thanks.

See you again then.

Let me know when you go out drinking with Keisuke.

Okay.

Actually… I might break up too.

What? With your boyfriend?

Yeah. Well, I don't know yet.

I'll let you know.

See you later.

See you later.

Thanks for the food and drink.

Thank you.

Take care.

Thanks.

Wait, what do you mean?

She's already here.

Yeah, she's here.

I said she's already here!

Okay.

Yeah, okay.

Okay, bye.

Keisuke had a fight with his wife and can't come.

He's married?

Yes. He may not look like it, but he is.

I see.

What do you want to do?

Isn't it a bit weird if it's just the two of us?

Want to go out for a drink?

I'm fine here, but if you feel awkward, then let's go.

I'm fine here too if you are.

Do you want to eat? I can make something.

Okay, thank you.

Wait.

What is it?

Actually…

Do you want to order pizza instead?

That's true. Well, "That's true" makes no sense.

Well, it's better to just enjoy it, right?

Yeah.

I'll just fix some snacks then.

Thank you.

Is there anything you can't eat?

No, there isn't.

I've been asked to go to a hot spring.

By your boyfriend?

Yeah.

And maybe he's going to propose me there.

What? Aren't you happy about that?

Not really.

I see.

Yeah.

He might ask me to quit my job.

When you get married?

Yeah. He wants to have kids.

I see.

I didn't think there were still people who wanted their wives to quit their jobs.

You don't think that way?

No, I don't.

If I don't have to work, I don't want to work.

I'm not so sure about that.

But I don't really want to change my partner.

Do you want to break up with him?

You said that before you left the other day.

Well, no, not right now.

I have my ups and downs.

But if he proposes to me, I might want to break up with him.

Isn't that a little harsh? During a trip?

That's true.

From your perspective,

what's the moment when you feel that he loves you?

I mean, what part of him makes you feel that?

Like when he clings to me all the time.

Or when he's sensitive to the slightest change in my physical condition.

Also, whatever I say, whatever I do,

he thinks it's adorable.

And he often says he loves me.

So, it's like…

he prioritizes me above everything else.

Huh?

Do you think that's good?

Well, yes.

He's a great guy, really.

That's for sure.

Maybe I should marry him after all.

You make it sound so casual.

What is it?

Well…

What's wrong?

Well…

I think I have to properly break up with her.

Huh?

Um…

I was just thinking as I was listening to you talk.

I think…

your boyfriend and I are probably the same.

It's not for the other person, it's for myself.

I mean, I love my girlfriend, I do, but…

I feel she won't know my love, if I don't show it to her.

I guess it's just my ego.

I guess.

I think it's lame to give her a vague response

even though she said wanted to break up.

I mean, if I'm not clear about it, she won't be able to move on.

That's not what I want at all.

Right.

I…

feel like I have to break up with her properly for her sake too.

You're sweet.

Um…

I have a favor to ask of you.

What?

Could you please listen to the phone call with me?

I'll put it on speaker mode.

What? What?

-Now? You want to call her now? -Yes.

It would be better to call her alone, don't you think?

Well, I still don't really understand her mindset.

And I want to properly hear what she's thinking.

So, all you have to do is just be here.

Could you listen in with me?

All I'd have to do is to just be here, right?

Yes, that's all you'd have to do.

Okay.

Okay, I'll call her.

SAWAKO AOKI

Hello.

Hello.

Can I talk to you for a second?

Yeah. What is it?

You know…

how you said you wanted to break up,

but I said I didn't want to break up, right?

Yeah.

Yeah, right.

So,

I said I didn't want to break up, but…

I'm sorry.

I think that was selfish of me.

And, yeah…

So…

we should break up properly.

Sawako?

Sawako?

Can you hear me?

Yeah, I can hear you.

Yeah.

So, let's break up. What do you think?

Okay, got it.

Yeah.

Is that it?

What?

Yeah, that's it.

Do you have anything else to say?

You wanted to break up, right? Aren't you happy?

Happy?

I mean… I'm kind of happy, but…

"Kind of"?

Well, sorry, but

I thought we'd already broken up.

What?

Huh? Hadn't we already broken up?

What? We hadn't broken up.

Because I said I didn't want to.

You did say that, but it really doesn't matter.

Our relationship can't continue if I want to break up.

No, it can't. That's why I said we should break up just now.

Well, that's fine then.

I just thought we'd already broken up.

No, I thought we were still together.

That's fine, as I said.

But we hadn't broken up, had we?

I was hesitant and said I didn't want to.

Yeah, right. Okay, so let's break up.

We just broke up over this phone call.

There, is that okay?

Huh?

Isn't it a little weird?

Sorry, I'm really sorry, but it's annoying.

But we hadn't broken up.

You're being persistent.

I think that's enough.

I'm hanging up.

Sorry! Just one more thing!

There's just one thing I want to ask you.

What?

You know, when we were dating,

you told me you cheated on me once.

What? You want me to apologize?

No, it's not like that.

You said you didn't have romantic feelings for that person, right?

Yeah, I did.

What does that mean?

You slept with him even though you didn't have feelings for him,

because you felt I was burden on you, and you just happened to sleep with him?

Hm? What do you mean?

I mean,

it's not that you liked him more than me,

but…

you always liked me…

even when you were with him.

How can put this…

No.

Maybe I liked him more.

-So-- -Wait, wait. What did you just say?

I liked him more than you, Kazuki.

Huh? What?

No, no.

You liked me, but…

-that person-- -I'm sorry.

I'm dating him now.

What?

Sorry.

So maybe you should stop calling me.

Hello, nice to meet you.

What? Who is that? Is someone else there?

Who are you?

I know Kazuki. Nice to meet you.

Then why didn't you say you liked someone else

when you said you wanted to break up?

Huh? Who are you?

You lied. I don't think that's a good thing to do.

You were just two-timing him, right?

What?

Can you put Kazuki on?

I'm not a two-timer. We started dating after we broke up.

But you told him you didn't have feelings for the guy, right?

I'm going to hang up.

Okay? I'm hanging up.

I don't understand why I'm being blamed.

-Don't run away! -Wait a minute…

Wait…

Hello?

Sorry. Yeah, sorry.

Yeah, no, no. Okay.

I won't call you again.

No, no. She's not my girlfriend. Not at all.

She took my phone without asking.

Right, okay.

Okay, then. Bye.

Hey! You can't just do that!

I'm leaving.

It wasn't like what you said at all!

She just liked the guy!

What's "I know how she feels"? It's totally different!

What? Shut up.

Don't break up with your girlfriend on speaker, you idiot!

What? I wanted your support.

I did support you.

You broke up with her thanks to me. Good for you.

Bye.

Hey, wait…

Hey, hey, hey!

Wait a second…

This is the worst…

I'm sorry about the other day.

I'm sorry too.

I don't know why I said that.

But…

She pissed me off.

It's kind of refreshing to meet outside.

Yeah. Especially in the daytime.

Yeah.

Thank you for coming. You're working, right?

Yeah.

Shall we go to a café or something? Did you have lunch?

No, but that's okay.

What about you?

It doesn't matter to me.

Yes.

I'm sorry.

I could have just called or emailed you,

but I wanted to apologize to you in person.

No worries. I'm glad to see you too.

Okay, I'm going back to work.

Yes.

Bye.

Wait.

Um…

Are you going on that hot spring trip you mentioned?

Why?

No, nothing.

Yes, I'm going.

I see.

Yeah.

Well, I'll let you know later.

Bye.

SEPTEMBER

I'm coming.

-Thank you for the invitation. -Please come on in.

A souvenir from the trip.

Thank you.

Let's eat it together.

I'll make some tea then.

Thank you.

-Cute. It really looks like the picture. -I can't eat it.

Cute.

-Isn't it cute? -Yeah.

Do they have the same face?

-They're the same. -Not the same.

You're right. The eyes are different.

They are all different.

Right. I'll eat it from the face.

-From the face? -Yeah.

I'll eat it from the tail.

Yeah, it's delicious.

-Yummy. -Right?

It's comforting.

-Comforting? -Yeah.

I found them at the souvenir shop at the hotel.

-I see. -Yeah.

In September…

How was the trip?

Ms. Kawabata came over for the first time in a while.

She told me a lot about her trip with her boyfriend.

How the hotel was really nice.

How the stars she saw from the open-air bath were pretty.

How they had sex at night as if it was a part of their plans.

How the time she spent with her boyfriend was peaceful

and she had more fun than she expected.

How he didn't propose to her…

but he said, "I wanna come back here again when we get married."

"Bring the kids."

And she was a little confused by his words.

How she couldn't talk about breaking up with him.

While listening to her talk…

I was vaguely thinking…

why wasn't I the one with her…

on the trip?

I didn't show the slightest sign of that.

I see.

So, he didn't propose to you, and you didn't talk about breaking up, either.

I guess so.

I told you

there was someone besides my boyfriend I had been sleeping with, right?

Was that when you cheated on your boyfriend?

Yes.

After I came back from my trip,

that guy happened to contact me.

Yeah.

We went out for a drink together.

And we ended up going to a hotel.

What?

With that person?

Yes.

I see.

And?

And then we slept together.

Is that what you mean?

What I mean?

Yeah, that's right.

So, nothing's changed after all.

To that one… Oh, sorry.

To that person…

What… Do you talk to him about your boyfriend or things like that?

No, I don't. I never do that.

I only do that with you.

-Yeah? -Yeah.

What?

Well…

It's just…

Are you disillusioned?

No.

I just don't know what to say.

What? Tell me.

No, it's fine. It's hard to say.

Tell me.

Hey, what are you thinking right now? Tell me honestly.

Okay, I'll tell you.

Yeah. What?

Well…

To be honest…

I didn't think there was anyone other than your boyfriend

that you were… what, sleeping with.

I thought you were only seeing your boyfriend and me, so…

it came as a bit of shock to me.

I see.

Yeah.

Also,

I think I remember you telling me that you don't like it

when your partner loves you too seriously.

Yeah.

You feel like it's a burden on you.

Yeah.

Yeah.

That's why I couldn't really say it.

I'm very attracted to you.

Yeah.

I thought if you were sleeping with someone besides your boyfriend,

then I could be that someone.

I see.

Yeah.

You're honest.

Sorry, maybe I was too honest.

But that's what I'm thinking right now.

My true feelings.

But…

you're not my boyfriend, right?

Right.

But…

you don't want me to sleep with anyone other than my boyfriend.

Well, no, I don't.

I see.

So, you're being possessive.

Okay, then.

Do you want to have sex?

No, no. That's not it.

That's not how it is.

What…

Can I ask you something then?

What?

Well,

I just told you my true feelings.

What about you?

What are your true feelings?

Don't you have any feelings for me at all?

What do you think?

That's not fair to ask me.

I don't think you have no feelings at all.

Yes.

What do you mean by "Yes"?

Am I right?

Yes.

So, does that mean you like me more than a little.

Yes.

I'm embarrassed.

Of course, I like you.

You're fun to be with,

and you're the only one I can talk about anything with.

And you listen to me without denying me.

So, yes…

You're…

special to me.

Maybe that's why

I thought I shouldn't sleep with you

because you're special.

I see.

Also, I didn't think you liked me that much.

-Oh, right. -Yeah.

But you're popular, aren't you? To be honest.

No, hmm… yeah…

-Well… -What? Which is it?

No need to deny it.

I'm stumped.

"I'm stumped"?

That's kind of funny.

What should I do now?

I'll leave it to you.

Leave it to me?

Yeah.

Do I have to decide?

Yeah.

Oh, but I see…

What?

Nothing.

What? What is it?

-I said, nothing. -What? Say it.

What?

Okay, then…

Do you want to try just kissing?

What?

Don't you wanna do that kind of thing?

It's not that I don't want to.

So, it's not that you don't want to.

Wait a second. What should I do now?

No way.

What?

There's no way we won't do it since we've come this far. No way.

Hey!

Stop sighing.

What's that? Why are you sighing?

But you have a boyfriend.

What, you feel guilty now?

Oh, my gosh.

You're adorable.

I know.

After that, every time she came over,

she talked about how things were going with her boyfriend, and we had sex.

After a while,

we stopped having sex every time,

and we became more like friends who also have sex.

We are not in a romantic relationship.

We're just friends with benefits.

That's the relationship we have now.

OCTOBER

Sorry.

How are things?

Nothing's changed.

I see.

Yeah.

So, things are going well.

Yeah. We go on dates.

Go to the movies and stuff like that.

That's good.

Is it?

Yeah, I guess so.

Why don't you get married?

But he hasn't proposed to me yet.

If he does, will you get married?

Do you wanna do it?

Shall we do it today?

Either way.

I guess we don't have to do it today then.

Okay.

Hey.

-The air is hitting me. -Hm?

It's hitting…

Stop it! Hey!

Good night.

That smells nice.

Good morning.

Good morning.

What are you doing?

What's wrong?

I can make breakfast for a change.

Of course, you can.

We didn't do it last night, right?

Hm? Yeah.

That's why. There…

Huh? What do you mean?

There's no deep meaning to it.

You always give me advice about my boyfriend.

-Huh? Wait a minute. -Here you are.

So, you've been sleeping with me in exchange for me giving you advice?

No, that's not it.

That's not my intention.

I don't want you to sleep with me in return.

I know.

I just woke up early, so I made some coffee and breakfast.

Then stop saying things like

you did it because we didn't have sex.

Okay, sorry.

I'm sorry too.

What is it?

I meant well. I just made breakfast

for a guy who's not even my boyfriend,

but how did it end up this way?

Shall we just kiss for now, or have sex?

-Huh? -Huh?

Huh? What is it?

Thank you for the meal.

What's funny?

Well…

I knew you'd say, "Thank you for the meal,"

even in this situation.

Of course, everyone does.

My boyfriend doesn't say it.

He's a jerk.

You're right.

Why don't you break up with him?

Thank you for the meal.

But…

you are inconsistent.

Yesterday you said I should get married.

And today you say I should break up with him.

You're so inconsistent.

Even in this awkward mood, she washed the dishes before going home.

Then…

after that morning…

I lost touch with her.

I emailed and called her several times, but got no reply.

I just stared at the screen with my sent messages stacking up.

YOU DON'T NEED TO REPLY TO ME IF YOU'RE DOING WELL.

I'M HERE IF YOU NEED ANYTHING

It was actually only about two weeks,

but it felt like an eternity.

Hello?

Yeah.

What's up?

Yeah.

NOVEMBER

Hey.

Hey, long time no see.

"Long time no see"?

Thank you for having me.

Sorry about everything. I kept calling you and stuff.

No, it's fine.

Were you worried?

Well, yeah.

Right.

I'm sorry.

No problem at all.

You know…

He proposed to me.

I see.

It was his birthday on Wednesday.

He said he wanted to marry me.

And?

Yeah.

I didn't accept.

You didn't?

No.

And…

I talked about a lot of things.

Then I told him I wanted to break up with him.

I see.

Yeah.

Maybe…

I should've broken up with him sooner

if I wasn't going to marry him after all.

And how did he respond?

He said it was absurd.

He said we weren't gonna break up.

He said, "Why? Tell me the reason."

Sounds like me.

Yeah, that's true.

So, he's not convinced.

No.

Well, maybe…

it's good that you didn't force yourself to say yes.

It must've been exhausting to break up.

I'm tired.

You made it.

But…

it's good he didn't marry someone like me.

I'm not worthy of him.

He deserves someone better.

For sure.

Listen…

Why are you so nice to me?

Why?

Well, wouldn't most people say,

"You're terrible," or

"You should get married"?

But…

you know…

it has nothing to do with me.

Only the two of you know what's going on between you.

Honestly, it's none of my business.

Huh?

Well, it's none of my business, you know.

And…

what can I say…

I don't really care

whether you get married or not,

or whether you are happy or not.

What's that?

Huh? What?

Well, that's true.

You and I are strangers.

But you don't have to say it like that, do you?

Well, I suppose not.

Sorry.

What is it?

You're acting weird today.

Okay…

I'll tell you.

When you told me

I was special to you,

I was really happy.

But…

every time we met, I listened to you talk about your boyfriend…

and we ate together,

lazed around at home together,

and sometimes had sex.

We were basically living like a couple,

but not in a real relationship.

That was fun for me.

You might have enjoyed it too.

I don't know,

because I'm not you.

But…

the truth is…

I've always wanted you to break up with your boyfriend.

I've always wanted you to be my girlfriend.

But…

I knew you didn't want that,

and I've been feeling miserable.

Once you said,

"Isn't it good enough as long as we have fun?"

I've always remembered it like a curse.

It's good as long as we have fun,

that's true,

but it's not true.

If you were really happy as long as you have fun, you'd have gotten married.

But you're thinking about your future,

about what's to come, about whether you're the right person for his future.

You are thinking about it the most.

You're the one who is thinking about it the most.

And yet,

you continue to sleep with other men?

I know I don't have the right to say it, though.

But why do you say things like, "I'm not worthy"?

I think your boyfriend has always truly loved you.

Ms. Kawabata,

you're…

a much more decent

and a much better person than you think.

I don't know if you're marriage material or not.

I don't know that.

But… please…

stop saying, "I'm not worthy."

Fujiwara…

I…

I…

I like you

and I want us to be together.

Because I want to be with you.

But we might break up

if we become a couple,

and I know you don't want that,

so I couldn't say it.

So…

if we can't be together,

I don't want to see you anymore.

But if we can be a couple,

if I can be your boyfriend,

I don't mind you sleeping with other men

when you feel like it…

With your FWB.

If having FWBs like me makes it easier for you to breathe,

then that's totally fine.

I just want to be your boyfriend.

Is that not good enough?

Then…

I won't be someone you can talk about anything anymore?

I won't be special for you anymore?

I'm sorry.

I kind of knew it,

but…

I pretended like I didn't notice.

I felt that something like this would happen

once I realized your feelings.

I was afraid of that.

What do you mean by something like this?

You mean me telling you how I feel?

I've never had anyone I could talk about anything like this before,

and you're so important to me

that I didn't want to lose you.

But…

once you tell me your feelings…

and we become a couple,

it definitely will end someday, right?

Why do you think that?

Because that's how it is. Always.

You said I was special, so why do you think of me as one of the other guys?

This is not "always,"

or is it?

Then what's the difference…

from what we have now?

Would anything change if we were a couple?

I don't know.

I don't know, but…

it's not fine just because we're having sex.

It's like…

you're just passing through.

You say we shouldn't be a couple, so that we can spend time together forever

but I feel like

you could just leave at any time

with the ambiguous relationship we have now.

I can't take it.

I can't.

I wanna be your boyfriend even if we end up breaking up.

Is that no good?

We can go back to the way we are now if you feel it's not working.

Is that… no good?

We can't go back.

I'm sorry.

I just can't be your girlfriend.

I'm sorry.

You know…

What?

No.

Nothing.

I think it's a good idea.

What?

I think it's a good idea.

You're thinking about marrying him after all, right?

I think it's a good idea.

I think it's not too late.

Yeah.

Thanks.

Yeah.

See you soon then.

"Soon"?

I can come back?

Of course.

But…

it won't be cheating, it will be adultery.

What are you talking about? I'm not going to sleep with you anymore.

Huh?

We can have dinner together.

Yeah.

You can complain about your husband.

Yeah.

Okay.

Bye.