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Our guardian star lost all his glow The day that

I lost you He lost all his glitter, the days that know

And his silver turned to blue Like him I

am doubtful That your love is true

But if you decide to call on me, ask for

Mr. Blue.

I'm Mr.

Blue.

When you say you love me, then prove it

by going out on the slide.

Proving your love isn't true.

Call me Mr. Blue.

I'm Mr.

Blue.

When you say you're sorry, then turn

around and I'll fall the lights down, hurting me through and through.

Call me Mr.

Blue.

I stay at home at night.

Right by the phone at night.

But you won't call.

But I'm painting it blue Call

me Mr. Blue Call me Mr.

Blue Call me Mr. Blue

Leave.

Marry me, Muriel.

You promised me an answer by Christmas.

And it's Christmassy. I will give you one.

Right now, I need a shower.

You must be her Must

be Toss one of those down to me

It's gotta be freezing I'm Julius

I know

Hi. Hello.

I heard your mom lived in the place.

That's right.

Lucky you.

I like the country.

Oh, Terry.

Pass us the time.

Play a real game you want.

Real game like what?

Poker.

You'll have to teach me.

Liar.

I've only played a few times.

You know, you don't need to keep secrets. My brother's seen cars before.

It's no secret.

He never seemed interested in a car game, I thought.

Yeah, it's because you're not.

Not that it matters.

So the thing about poker is cards aren't just cards.

It's right here as pieces of time.

Okay?

There's what's on the table and then what's coming down the line follow me

is only certain amount of cards in each deck. So you got some idea. What's

already been dealt You got some idea what's gonna happen that

Can't know what's already been dealt

most certainly is frowned upon but that doesn't mean you can't know and if

memory fail

Truth is, real gamblers only got one solemn obligation.

What's that?

Stay in one of the blocks.

Watch out now, Meryl. He's coming for you.

Come here, you little shit.

You met this one already, huh?

Yeah, she's been spilling her secrets all afternoon.

Don't worry, Meryl.

That's just the way my little brother is.

I don't mind.

I'll throw you around.

They called it Hellfire Valley because that's exactly what it was.

And running out of ammo.

But we all know there's more in the truck. These stories have been told and

told. We all know there's more ammo on the truck.

Chinese bullets are flying everywhere.

But no one's crazy enough to risk it.

So we figure that's it.

When all of a sudden, I see this guy.

He's up there on this burning truck, throwing ammo down to us and pushing

wounded soldiers off.

It's this crazy -ass redneck right here.

I guarantee you, if it wasn't for him, you and I would have never even met.

How? Hero, this brother of yours.

Oh, you bet.

Nothing but a shoulder wound.

That's how they tell it.

I guess that's why they let me out.

Let you what?

I was discharged.

Last week.

Well, I got six months left. That means you got six months left.

Well, not anymore.

You can still fire a gun, can't you? You can still walk. We're still at war,

aren't we? Your separation payout? Pension?

Nope.

We had a plan, didn't we, Julius?

Pull our discharge pay and get us a place out in California.

That was the plan, wasn't it? I've got an idea.

This is what he does, Meryl. No, no, my idea. He's always holding something

back. My idea is that I want to dance.

I need a smoke.

Well?

Oh.

I was just trying to...

Smooth things over.

So let's smooth them over.

Yeah.

You think so highly of yourself.

Yeah, it's because I'm all he's got.

Besides you.

You ever been in love before?

No.

Not before now, I mean.

Have you?

You know what I think?

I think you see right through all of it.

All of what?

All it's supposed to.

All the stuff they tell you matters.

All the stuff the guys next to me in Korea cared so much about.

Right up until their brains got blown out the back of their heads.

Got room for a dumbass hick in the middle?

Let me on in here now.

You know what?

I got the two people that I love most in the world right here in front of me.

There it goes.

Muriel Jane Edwards.

I've asked before.

Lord knows I've asked.

And I'm asking you again.

I'm back to Korea in 72 hours.

It's Christmas Eve.

Come on, Nellie, get up.

I know you're worried about me.

But nothing's gonna happen.

And besides, if it does, Julius here will take care of you. Don't say that to

him. Won't you, Julius?

Of course I will.

I can make you happy, Muriel.

You mean it?

Yes.

Pardon me now? Yes!

Woo -hoo!

We can still do it, you know.

What's that?

San Diego, California.

I got money saved.

You serious?

I mean, that was the plan, wasn't it?

Sure.

But don't do it for us if it's not what you want.

Well, I like sunshine as much as the next guy.

All three of us out in California.

What do you think, Miriam?

Well, plan's a plan.

Yeah, but you gotta promise, Julius.

Promise.

No problem.

She's a gambling woman. I've got to let her go.

She's a gambling woman.

I've got to let her go.

It's your jewelry.

Maybe it won't last forever, but even Lee says there's something in the air

here. A feeling.

You should be sure what they say about California.

I mean, we both got jobs just like that. You believe it?

It's like that here.

You never know what's just around the bend.

Like anything is possible.

As if the odds are stacked in your favor.

I heard about a card game for you down by the dock.

Go get out here and make it all rich.

You sure could use it.

I hope that new job in Stockton's working out.

With love and I hope to see you soon.

And you will.

And me.

Hey, so, Rosie, what's your feminine intuition tell you about loan sales?

Track's running cuppy and he's all right out.

Smart money's on pastoral in the six.

Oh, shit. Ten to one?

Money like that solves anybody's problems. Ain't that right, Rosie?

Anybody who's got the stomach.

What do you got in the third?

You got mad sour.

Thank you, baby.

Those new houses going up in the valley.

Just something to think about.

We talked this through, Lee. We can't afford this right now.

I saw your mom's place back in Kansas.

My mother worked her whole life for that house.

Right, but that was her dream, you know?

This is ours.

So I don't have a choice?

It's the house I grew up in.

I shouldn't have said anything.

20 on pastoral and 6 to win.

I'd like an envelope, please.

Gotta take a game like yours out to the desert. Yeah?

Why is that open all night, no cops, $20 buy -ins?

Just like Korea.

Good parts, anyway.

Throne's on me.

Are you fucking kidding me? Classic hit and run.

You play a real tight game, don't you?

Feel like a night captain?

Probably not tonight, friend.

Probably not.

Hey, somebody's a little ginned up, huh?

You looking for company?

Twenty bucks, I could be.

Okay.

Easy.

Relax. Get your fucking hands off me.

Oh.

Now I'm impressed.

That's you, Kansas.

Julius?

Are you waiting on somebody else?

Where are you?

Yeah, how's that card game shaping up?

I've been playing horses.

You have not.

Yeah, I'm waiting tables at this old place. It's all horsemen, so I've been

taking notes.

Oh, shit, you remembered.

Yeah, real gamblers' only solemn obligation is staying well -informed.

That's a nice racket for a gal.

No, I bet nobody sees you coming.

Just for fun, really. Oh, be careful now.

Might be one of those things you can't ever get enough of.

We sure hoped you'd be here by now.

Lee sure does miss you.

Lee just wants that happy little home that we never had.

What's wrong with that?

Say, how about you?

Is that what you want?

I... I thought we had a plan.

I lost my share.

I got a way to make it back. I just gotta... I gotta go on my own steam.

I think you understand that.

I don't think I do, but... Give me your address and I'll... I need the money for

a bus ticket.

You can send it. Care of me.

Western Union, Stockton.

Don't tell Lee.

I don't want to surprise him.

Okay.

Okay, thank you.

Bye now, Nathaniel.

The neighbor boy checking on Ma's house for us.

To Mrs.

Lee Walker, Western Union, San Diego.

Muriel, I'm sorry.

Change of plans.

Unexpected opportunities come up.

Back as soon as I can.

Wish me luck in Sin City.

Julius.

Five bucks a month by the time we're 50, this could all be ours.

We'll be the first ones in here.

Developer says he can sell us this model here for 10 % off.

And this track, the best of them.

$2 ,000 for the land, build out to another $4 ,000, maybe $6 ,000.

That's hardly anything considering.

Considering what?

How fast this will go.

We'll get at least a few grand for your mother's place, right?

Rainey promised your brother we'd all do this together.

What is it with you and waiting on him?

See my brother around here anywhere?

You know what Julia said?

He said it was good that I was marrying you. He said that sad girl, she needs

someone to tell her what to do.

Muriel.

Muriel.

Stop. Stop there.

Stop there? Why?

I want to buy some olives.

You want to buy some olives?

Yes.

Sure.

Loss? Uh, no, your sign?

Olive?

That was the Garcia's next door before they tore the place down.

Oh.

You really want some, I got some.

Flipping out land, huh?

We are.

Now's the time, I hear.

That was real nice.

You were playing on the guitar.

It's not a guitar.

Get here.

Never had an olive.

There's a pit.

What do I do with it?

You on your own here, then?

Use some eggs. You're going to shop.

Got some laid fresh this morning.

How much will you be for it?

Doesn't feel right telling you the olives.

That wasn't what you really wanted.

Oh, then we'll have to overpay you for the eggs.

I've got money, Lee.

Thanks. You've got it.

Mind if I drive?

You're right.

Let's do it.

Let's get the house.

What?

Really?

You mean that?

Say, I got a question.

What do you working fellas do here?

You got any openings?

Entry level, of course.

What skills do you have to offer?

Well, I know how people steal, and I know why they do.

You yourself do not steal.

And partly I know how people steal, because I've stolen in the past, I'll be

honest with you.

Well, this doesn't really seem like the kind of place to steal from.

I might stay on the right side of that.

I've seen you around. You play above the board. You like that.

Blackjack's the only casino game where the gambler can get an edge over the

house. For that reason, it attracts cheaters of all kinds. Do you agree?

I sure do.

It's surveillance.

Simple. You see something, you say something. We take it from there.

Two -way mirrors looking down on the floor.

You can see them, but they can't see you.

Call box up top.

It's about as sharp as you phone it in.

Good.

You

are

new.

Yeah? Yeah.

Henry.

True is.

First time?

It is, yeah.

What do you think so far?

It's destructive.

Only maybe there's such a thing as knowing too much.

Yeah, maybe there is.

Okie dokie.

I'll see you around.

I'll wait for positions tomorrow.

Then I'll take that rest about cash. Put it all on flood.

Flood?

Too young.

Chubby is a virgin.

You boys do what you want, but it's six to one. That horse is a monster in

sheep's clothing.

Sounds like some people we know.

You're looking at my scar.

Why?

Why?

You didn't do it.

115 degrees today.

Tomorrow, too.

Oh, he's just firing me.

Okay? Okay.

Hey, ain't going home, are you?

Why not?

I owe you a drink for before.

What is this? Is this some kind of hustle?

Ain't no hustle. I got something to show you, that's all.

Yeah, what's that?

America.

Hey, man, put a gun.

Thanks, man.

Hey.

Mira.

Call this an atomic cocktail.

Hello?

Well, it was such a good idea.

What's that?

When boss men see us palling around, they'll all think we got angles.

This is Vegas.

So?

So they know we got an angle.

There's no other reason to be here.

They tend to poke it when someone's out of the bay.

We've got to throw real thin.

See? I told you.

America.

Hey.

Hey.

What's all this?

I was calling it.

You are, huh?

Yep. Give me a smoke.

Give me a light.

No any good jokes?

I bet you do.

Get out of here.

Sir, yes sir.

i can't say that i'm living it now

but someday

Fuck is that?

Morning, George. Hey, hey.

Thank you.

Hi, friend.

Can I meet you again?

Time lost and one and lost and one and then.

It took my life to get to you.

I'm a runner, I'm a runner. You're the lover I'm running to.

200 on Ralph's about to win.

Yes, ma 'am.

Put it all on flood and pebble.

All of it, ma 'am?

Yes.

Excuse me.

Is this table open?

Oh, yeah, it is.

Crowds always make me sweat.

Who's yours?

Oh, uh, Vlad.

No.

Me too.

Aren't we both brave?

Pick to one.

I like the look of him, though, don't you?

I do.

Very much.

It's Flood and Lost at Sea. Lost at Sea holding his lead. Flood coming at last.

Lost at Sea and Flood. Lost at Sea and Flood. Here they come.

Flood and Lost at Sea. It's Flood making one last break down the rails.

It's Flood.

There you are.

How did we come out?

Oh, darling.

We won.

Excellent.

Goodbye.

Bye.

Twelve thousand.

Do be careful, ma 'am.

Yeah.

Loser.

Someday I'm going to kill him in his sleep.

So... What are you supposed to be?

San Diego.

With my brother.

We planned that when we were overseas.

I think mostly he just wants to keep an eye on me though.

And how come you're not there?

We never had much in the way of a family growing up.

My mom died when I was small.

My dad pretty much lost his marbles.

We just moved around, place to place, you know, aunts and uncles.

My brother, he needs all that, I guess, you know, walls, windows.

Happy little home, woman waiting at the door for him.

What about you?

i thought this was not a good idea everybody makes mistakes

Where the hell have you been?

Lee.

Something happened, Lee. What? What is it? I called the heyday. They said you

left hours ago. This isn't farm country, Muriel. You can't just go out

wandering. Anything could happen to you.

Okay? Do you understand that?

What is this?

We did it, Lee.

You sold your mother's house?

$3 ,000?

$3 ,000?

Oh, my gosh!

I've never even seen money like this.

Muriel?

I know.

I know that house is the last piece of your mind you had left. I understand.

General delivery, Las Vegas, Nevada, to Julius Walker.

Dear Julius, Been a while since I've heard back from you.

Suppose you must have hit it big and forgot all about us.

As you can see, we went and bought ourselves a house.

Included in this letter is our new address.

Come on.

Come see us when your luck runs out.

Muriel.

Hello? God damn it, Julius.

Muriel.

It's my brother.

Thought you might like to know you're not dead.

So tell me all the news, then.

Well, we finally sold the house in Kansas.

Got us a little place here in the valley.

That ain't no news. Muriel already wrote me about it.

She did?

You know, I can't believe she let her mom's place go like that.

You know, truth be told, I didn't know a thing about it.

She got it all done on her own.

As a surprise to me.

Hold on. I'll put Muriel on for a minute.

Hold on.

Muriel?

Is that you?

That fat girl that needs someone to tell her what to do.

Oh, come on now. You know I didn't mean nothing by that.

So why'd you say it?

You know why.

Don't tell me what I know.

Say, piece of advice.

Don't spend all that horse money in one place.

Like on a bus ticket?

Well, I'd say I miss you, but you probably don't believe a word I say, do

Said you wrote him.

Think I'll come?

I don't think you ever planned to.

My brother is, uh... My brother's not what you think.

What does that mean?

The world Julius lives in.

It's a different world, that's all.

It's not like ours.

I love my brother. You know, I always will, but... He has

passions of his own.

You know what I mean?

He's just not like us.

Partners. That's a new one. I guess it is.

Instructive.

What's going on?

Got table 10.

Risk -reward, eh?

But you're diligent.

Did you ever think of tipping them off?

Those blackjack players?

I always do.

Think of it.

We could make even more money if we work with them.

I don't shit where he eats, but I think.

But maybe a place where you can take another man's money and get rich doing

Catch cheats and watch a bomb go off all in the same day.

Exactly the kind of place where the lines get blurred.

If you're saying there ain't no difference between cheating or not, I'd

you're crazy.

You have people, though.

It's my brother and his wife.

That's enough.

They probably love you.

I wonder where you are.

I don't see your point, friend.

All I'm saying is they know you. They don't know a thing about me. They know

more about you than anyone knows about me.

I've been dead a hundred years, my friend.

You can ask my father.

Well, ain't that just too bad for you?

It is. It is too bad for me.

Henry, you saw what they did to those boys back there.

I mean, we got a good thing going here. Why fuck it up? Enjoying everything

good.

You think this is it?

You're just leaving now?

We had a great time, right?

Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah, we always do.

All you can ask for, I guess.

Right?

Are you at work?

Some asshole always say, well, at least he took pills so he didn't suffer. And I

say, then you didn't know Gerald because if ever there was a sufferer, it was

him.

Cops put this picture in the paper like that.

Gee, there's no wonder he offed himself.

Lewd behavior.

Why did the cops actually pick him up?

Caught him in the bathroom at the Chester with another guy.

The Chester?

Yeah, the queer boy down by the dock.

I wonder what'll happen to that place, do you think?

Ain't the first time it's been raided.

Won't be the last.

Think all those pretty boys ran out into the sea.

Where's the other guy?

You got me, bud.

Dear Muriel, I saw a girl on the floor the other day who looked just like you.

But then she smiled back at me, and I knew it couldn't be you.

On most days, I think I made the right choice coming here.

Some days, I just don't know anything at all.

It's like they say.

Everybody's got an angle in this town. There you go.

I guess you just got to play the cards as they come.

But you and me really have it all, just like you planned.

Sure hope some of your luck rubs off on me.

Forgive me someday if you can, Julius.

What you want to hear, but I don't think other folks are going to feel any

different.

Hi. Hi, I was just telling your husband I'm collecting signatures.

Signatures? Yeah, county's enforcing eminent domain, and they want to build a

highway extension right through my family's land.

A highway coming this way seems like a good thing for everyone, don't it?

That house has been in my family for 60 years.

Right, but they'll give you a fair price for it.

It's your family's home, Lee.

Well, you sold off your mom's old homestead, didn't you?

Well, yeah, but that's different. Because you were looking toward the

It's the same thing here.

I'll leave you to your breakfast.

Hey.

Hey, Sandra.

I'll sign.

I mean, I want to.

Are you the property owner?

Well, yes, partly. So the house is under your name?

My husband's name, but... You're not the primary property owner.

Oh, that'll accept.

Hey.

Um.

What was it? Oh, you were playing the other day. It's not a guitar.

A bandurria.

Oh.

Bandurria. Is that Spanish?

Mm -hmm.

Oh.

Well, I like it.

I got eggs back if you need them.

How you been?

Calling sick.

Got myself on a lucky streak.

Worried about me? Yeah?

Not a lot of cats care.

I can take care of myself.

Do you get that in the cereal box?

Hey, I want it in a game of pitch in Tijuana.

Never go anywhere without it.

Why are you pulling this shit, man?

No, you gotta play partners with nobody.

You got me right here, you know that.

I got you here, in this room, but nowhere else.

So what, I go out and cheat with you, or that's it, we're done?

You don't get it.

Me and you, this is the one thing we can do out there in the world, together,

right in front of them.

And we can do something else. We can change.

No, you can change.

You think we're the same?

Look at you.

Look at me.

People like me, we want something, we gotta take it.

There's no other way.

If we do this, we do it smart.

And we play outside town.

Play quiet, small rooms. Nobody knows it's private games. That's it.

You don't have to do nothing.

But win.

Stop. No.

No.

Soul feels like a dream.

It could be it is.

Dear Julius, the houses around us are going up fast.

Soon we'll be completely surrounded.

Can I take 50 cents out of the can for lunch?

Big day off, huh?

What you gonna do?

To be honest, I can't see you here.

You wouldn't be able to breathe.

Lee says you have wanderlust and you'll come back.

But I'm letting go of the plans we made.

I hope you're happy wherever you are.

Muriel.

Singer, please.

I bet you don't remember me.

How much?

So how's your luck these days?

Gave all that up?

Just like that.

Made a promise to myself.

What sort of promise?

If you think too much about luck, it starts to own you, doesn't it?

We're all owned by something.

Or someone.

I'm Gail.

Oh, I'm Linda.

Nice to meet you, Linda.

You hear the news?

A poor Russian dog died.

The one they shot into space.

Sad.

You know, they ran odds on it.

20 to 1, he'd make it into orbit. 100 to 1, he'd come back down.

What about dying?

Nobody wanted to pay out that bit.

These days, people will bet on just about anything.

Endless possibilities.

Endless.

Funny.

I never made anyone.

Everybody quiet.

Coast is clear.

I can't get out any later tonight.

Me neither.

You're new at this, aren't you?

It's all luck, really.

You'll see.

We're all just a hair's breadth from losing everything.

All the time.

Oh, yes.

I'm looking for Sandra. Are you here for a book club?

Password is your favorite author. I'm sensing Willa Cather, maybe.

Oh, we're really big readers here.

You're not

wearing any shoes.

Over here, Mrs. Walker.

I wanted it to be quiet.

What?

I want it to be quiet.

You're a little drunk, I think.

Stop making fun of me.

Tell me why you want it quiet.

I wasn't sure about you.

Are you sure about me now?

I'm not.

You're really not afraid of being alone, are you?

Neither are you.

What makes you say that?

That you're here?

If we ever hit it big, where would you go?

I never really thought about it.

Always got to have yourself an exit plan.

Probably San Diego for you.

Got your brother there and all, right?

Easier time down in Mexico.

Big money with the sailors and the husbands down from California.

They're always married.

Anyway, why buy yourself a plain old house in San Diego?

When you can build a palace in Tijuana. No, if you ever had a beard.

If we ever had a beard.

We.

So?

Well, I'm wide open ideas, partner.

Yeah? Like what?

Taking five bucks a day from housewife from El Paso?

Yeah, what's your idea, though?

Easy.

I mean...

There's no rules against odd gambling there.

And our casino has the best odds in town.

We can make a grand in ten quick deals.

Are you insane?

You know they pay us to catch guys like us.

I mean, the minute you sit down at that table, you're pinned.

No.

Not with you upstairs.

Not if you don't pin me.

When are you going to see it?

And we got it good here.

I'm real good.

I've been in Kansas and L .A. and I've been in Korea.

And in all those places, I've been a thief, a faggot, and alone.

And you know, for the first time in my life, I can finally see around the next

goddamn corner. You know why?

Why? Because I'm with you.

How many things are different now, aren't they?

No, aren't they?

You really are something.

Aren't they? You know that, right?

Aren't they?

Aren't they?

You know they are.

No? I'm just gonna wear you then.

But you know that, right?

One day, you'll say yes.

Like this? Uh huh.

Open your eyes.

This is becoming a habit.

Yes, it is.

What is this music?

My mother liked this kind of music. Yeah? Mm -hmm. Well, not

this, but like this.

Anything you could dance to. A real honky -tonk girl.

Oh, yeah. She drove all those proper ladies in town crazy.

Do tell.

My mother was the...

First woman to own a car in Marshall County.

She was the first woman to get a college degree.

And the first woman to get a divorce.

All unrelated, I'm sure.

I wish I could have met this mother of yours.

You ever been in love before?

Yes.

Once up in L .A. before I moved back here to take care of my dad.

I think she figured I'd give up on this place once he passed, but I'm still here

and she's not.

What about you?

Me?

Yes, I love Lee.

Are you talking about someone else?

I don't know. It's like I

saw something no one ever told me was there before.

Never made any sense.

Still doesn't measure it all out. We spend maybe 24 hours in front of each

and that's it.

It's strange.

Like the minute he walked in the door, I could breathe again.

Oh, no, Henry.

Henry.

Henry.

No, no, no, no.

No, no, no, no.

You didn't finger this greaser. Why?

You were working tables all around town together is why.

You were part of it, ain't that right, greaser?

No.

I don't work with no dickless fancy boys.

Look at him.

Fucking shaking.

Go.

Go, cabrón.

Is that right, Barry?

Get the fuck out of here.

What are you going to do to him? Get out of here. Henry!

I'll be damned.

Well,

I'll be damned, Julius.

Look at that.

You really did it, didn't you?

That garden's coming in nice.

Jesus Christ.

Not even a postcard?

Tell us you're coming?

You can always count on me for a surprise.

Is that a horse trailer?

You want to bet or lose a bet?

It's funny, you're the kind of people who couldn't make use of a horse.

Hello.

I thought y 'all said you had a ranch.

God damn ranch house, Julius.

Well, I guess we're real westerners now.

Come on.

Get in there.

Where the hell did you get that animal from?

Lee, a fella wants to bet his horse, I'll take it for him.

Hey.

Got two bedrooms.

That one's all yours.

Figured this is a nursery.

We're still getting settled.

Miro's been working doubles at the cafe.

I've been picking up extra shifts whenever I can get them.

And, uh, this is ours.

It's cozy.

Mm -hmm.

Everything's looking real prosperous around here.

Come on.

I'll show you out back.

The build is here. It took just eight weeks.

Can you believe that?

Remember how long we took trying to fix up Uncle Jack's old place?

Burn the furniture for heat?

Imagine growing up in a house like this.

Stand out back here some nights, look at this house, and I think, there's a

place that makes sense to a kid.

Oh, well, we ain't kids no more.

I just wanted you to be here.

See it was possible.

Even for nobodies like us.

Only I ain't like you.

And we ain't the same, Lee.

You think I don't know that?

You think I don't know exactly who you are?

I ain't asking you to change, Julius.

I just want you to be safe.

I want to see you.

I want to hear your goddamn voice around this place is all.

Well, I'm here now.

Meryl! Meryl!

We're going out, Meryl! Grab a jacket.

Come on, come on!

Horse!

Horse!

Suppose you'll have to catch him first.

See, even your wife thinks that horse has got too much blood. Yeah, yeah.

Oh, he's making a run for it!

Come on now, get out the posse!

So this is, uh, this is paradise, huh?

Something like that.

It must have been hard letting your mom's place go.

It was.

I'm

sorry

you were coming.

Forgive me.

I wish.

Yeah.

I wish you came before.

Earlier.

Yeah, I wish all kinds of different things all day long.

Like what?

This gun belongs to a man named Henry.

And Henry would say it doesn't matter whether a thing's real or not.

What matters is that people think it's real.

It belongs to a man named Henry.

You remember once I asked you about love?

I didn't know anything about anything.

I'm not sure I know too much more now, but...

I am hurt, but this is Henry's gun.

I'm gonna get it back to him.

I'm gonna find him.

I don't understand.

I think you probably do.

goes into your life and nothing's ever the same again.

I need to borrow some money.

What?

I need money to find him.

That's why you're here.

Stop. Stop touching me.

You're never going to stay.

Lee was right about you.

What's that supposed to mean?

You're a coward.

And you're a liar.

Take your damn pit pony and go.

Hey, Kansas.

You got your secrets and I got mine.

I beg to sin.

He couldn't go far.

Chuck of his is about ready for the ark. We're not going to find Julius Muriel.

Not until the money's all gone.

We'll find a way, Lee.

Hey!

Hey!

You're a real swamp dancer, Mrs.

Walker.

Hey, what does your husband do at home? He's working late.

We've got hours and hours and hours.

Besides,

he knows I would never do something like this.

Like this?

You know what I mean?

Like me?

I love that song.

What are you doing?

What?

I'm real.

This is real.

God, Lee is real.

You get that, right?

I know that.

Do you?

Stop. Sandra, come on.

I'm just having fun. I get it. You're just having fun.

You're on vacation.

What are you talking about?

You go home every night where it's warm and safe and you go fuck your husband to

feel normal and then you come over here and you fuck me to feel alive and then

you do it all over again.

You knew exactly who I was when you let me in here.

Okay? You knew my situation.

You're too good at this.

What did you...

If that's all this is, there's a bar in town. The dozen other women have caused

me a lot less pain. Please just go.

I thought they had you on a double today.

I'm too full.

Can you eat me?

She was out of eggs then, your friend?

Oh, yeah.

She was out.

I'm not sure I realized before.

Not for certain, I mean, but...

You remind me of him.

Julius.

I envy him sometimes.

You know?

You do?

Yeah.

He gets to live like there's no tomorrow.

You think I'm like that?

Lee? Hey.

Don't, um, don't say anything.

I remember this girl from town.

She had two men.

One of them was a kid Julius used to run with.

Pool hall kid.

The other guy was a college type. None of us really knew.

Ran the sand mill across the river with his pop.

The girl, Sally, I want to say her name was.

Spent her afternoons with Julius and Pool Hall kid.

Went to dinner in a better dress, half -tilted on hams with Mr. Sandmill.

Pool Hall knew all about it.

Never bothered him because she always used to come home to him at the end of

night.

Baffled me when Julius told me about it.

Six months later...

Sally fits down pool hall, tells him it's over.

And a month after that, there was her name in the engagement section.

And Julius was just outraged.

I think Julius hated the fact that she picked what wasn't real.

Honestly.

Bothered him to no end.

She hadn't chosen what he'd thought of as love.

I didn't really know her, so... Who am I to say?

But I bet Julie thinks I'm on the other side of that story now.

I'm looking for my buddy.

Tall, skinny, scarred out in one eye.

Yeah, I think I've seen him around.

Not that I knew his name.

You know where I can find him?

I got a pretty good idea.

You think you can take me to him?

Did you ever want this?

Any of it I mean?

I'm sorry, Lee.

It doesn't matter.

You being sorry doesn't matter.

Not even a little bit.

Say, where is this place, bro?

TJ, it's a pretty small town.

Think I've seen them right around here.

Muriel? Lee.

You once told me that until we met, you weren't sure there was anything good

left in the world.

You're a good man.

Your dream is a good dream.

I know I've let you down.

And nothing can ever change that.

But I hope this helps you find what you want.

Please don't give up.

I hear you.

Okay, gringo. These boys will take your money now.

Waiting for someone?

I am.

Someone who owes me money.

Come on!

I'm waiting for someone to.

Been a while?

It has.

Same here.

Well, what do you say?

First time getting stood up.

Big part of this game.

Is it?

This has never been easy for people like us to find each other.

No, I guess not.

You think it's all your fault?

Maybe it is.

I guess when you're standing here, all on your own,

Doesn't really matter who did what or who hurt who.

Does it?

It's just the world getting in the way.

Just the world.

Well, whoever they are, they sure are missing out.

Tell him that for me.

Do you see him?

That's a promise.

Hello?

Dear Muriel, I don't know where you are, and I don't know if I'll ever send this

letter, but there's so many things I want to say to you.

Last time we saw each other, I was trying to say something about the two of

thought we already knew, even if we never said it out loud.

Well, how was Christmas Eve, ain't it?

I'm sorry I got it so wrong, and I'm sorry for stealing from you and all the

rest of it.

Everything turned out all right for me in the end, so I don't want you worrying

about me.

It's Christmas, and somehow I just bet you're okay.

Everybody deserves a chance to be happy.

I can just picture you saying that.

Everybody deserves a shot.

Even car sharps and liars and petty thieves.

Merry Christmas, Muriel.

Julius.

I'm slowly recognizing just outside of trying.

It's hard to give up trying.

Oh, but when I get there, if I get there, I get closer,

closer.

Lady Luck has done her best for me.

Can I find whatever's left of me?

Hi, friend.

Can I meet you again?

Time lost and one and lost and one and then.

I burned down the bridge over my life.

to get to you.

I'm a runner, I'm a runner, you're the lover I'm running to.

I'm a runner, I'm a runner, you're the lover I'm running to.

What you got to be made Don't be afraid

I'm not afraid I'm not

afraid I'm not afraid