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[Ray J] Previously on "Love & Hip Hop Hollywood"...

Everything that'’s in front of you right now, I'’m going to pay it.

Even-- even-- Okay.This one is past-due payment.

You came out here to support me and I got you.

And I want you to understand that

I'm not gonna fail you, I'm not gonna fail my kids,

I'’m not gonna fail me.

You went to Amber's house and you lied

and told me you was at your aunt'’s house.

There'’s nothing else for us to talk about.

Touch my [bleep]. All right, for sure.Get the [bleep] out!

You'’re mad because you've never escalated to a media [bleep]--Hazel! Hazel!

Or a high-end blog that people.The problem--

Eat that, bitch.

[Teairra] Princess texts me to go to Vegas.

What I am gonna do is send the text message to Ray

and [bleep] with his head.

You and Milan, you guys are running around here

with all these [bleep] hoes.

I used to be your little arm piece.Okay, we've fallen off.

Now who are you showing off?

I'’m just saying, you know we'’ve fallen off.

Is she outside?

In order for you to realize what you have,

you have to be without me.

So you don'’t want to be with me no more?

This [bleep] is foul, man.

You a bitch-ass [bleep].

♪♪

♪ We live that life, we live that-- hey! ♪

♪ We live that life ♪

♪ We live that life, we live that... ♪

♪ Life ♪

♪ Hey ♪♪ We live that life ♪

♪ Hey ♪♪ We live that life ♪

♪ Hey ♪♪ We live that life ♪

♪ We live that, we live that life ♪♪

♪♪

♪ Pack my bags ♪

♪ The blacken will gray ♪

♪ Feeling strong, nothing wrong ♪

♪ On my way ♪

[Princess] Thinking about all the chances I've given Ray continuously,

it's starting to make me feel like

he's just taking me for granted.

But once someone keeps taking you for granted

and takes advantage of the chances

that you keep giving them, it'’s time to move on.

♪ I got fire... ♪

♪ Watch me bust... ♪

I'm packing my things

and I'’m leaving this home that I shared with Ray.

For years, I've been standing behind this man,

putting him first.

And now I'm actually excited

about what the future holds for me.

♪ To another life ♪

♪ To another life... ♪

♪ Oh-oh-oh-oh ♪♪

[Hazel-E] Aside from bitch-ass Jason Lee throwing a drink in my face,

I'’d say life is treating me pretty well.

I got a hot new place in the Hills

and my music career is definitely on fire.

Here you go.Oh, thank you.

This view is everything.Thank you.

I'’m so, like, happy, like...I know you are.

I invited T.T. over to the new crib,

you know, I wanted to stunt a little bit.

And I also wanted to put her up-to-date to all the new moves

I'’m finna make out here in these streets.

And I'’m excited '’cause I'’m about to go to Dubai,

and I'’m finna hit that way.

What? Bitch...Yes, honey.

I'’m finna go-- I got a bookin' in Dubai.

Oh, I always wanted to go to Du-[bleep]-bai.

Yes, I got a booking out in Dubai,

so I'm finna go out there for the weekend

and go make this coins or whatever.Yeah. Yeah.

But let me tell you something.What?

Miss Nikki Baby, she wanted me to have, like, a little meeting,

so I link up with her and she with--

Remember old boy, Jason Lee?

Remember the big boy we was on the canyon with?

I know who you talking about, yeah, yeah.

Oh, okay, the little fake blogger?

He just went straight for like,

"You wasn'’t a publicist, you was never nothing, you--"

Shut the [bleep] up."You was homeless."

And I'm just sitting there, like,

why are you doing a history, credit check,

but you got your facts wrong, playboy?

Like, you don'’t know me.So where did you go from there?

It just heated, and out of nowhere,

he done threw Ciroc and pineapple all in my eyes.

Bitch, I'’m sitting there like--[laughing]

Like, what? Like, I broke my nail, honey. I was trying to grab, like--

Have you ever had alcohol thrown in your eyes?No.

No. It burns.

Like, I couldn'’t even open my eye.

And then by the time I could see, he was gone.

He was like...[laughing continues]

I've come across Jason Lee before, and I will say,

he has been known to be a little low-key messy in the past,

but throwing a drink in a woman'’s face?

That'’s just an all-time low.

You just don'’t do that, honey.

That is absolutely nuts.

You know that girl karma... she a bitch.

Speaking of karma, her name is mother[bleep] Teairra Mari.

Oh, no. Oh, no. Oh...[laughing]

Your girl Princess hit me up, inviting me to Vegas.

Oh.Mm-hmm, for a little party.

Yes.And I sent the screenshot of the message to Ray J.

'Cause I just felt like he should know.Ooh.

Like, '’cause y'’all humiliated me last year.

Now-- ha-ha-ha--

Who has the last laugh?

[Hazel-E] T.T. really is messy.

On top of that, she is a fire sign

and will torch this whole [bleep] to flames,

and thank God it's not me.

[laughs]

So I sent it.

I know he got it, I know his ass saw it

because then Princess hits me back,

like, Ray wants me to hang out with him and da-da-da,

so I'’m not gonna go.

I'’m like, oh, okay, so he saw it, '’cause he shut it down.

Oh, the games that we play.

[chuckling]

♪♪

Ooh!

Oh.

[Nikki] I haven'’t seen Brandi since she busted in on Max in the studio.

I gotta see how things shook out between Brandi and her man.

Oh, yes, flex.

And now that I got all this mess between Jason Lee throwing drinks

and Kamiah getting messy with me and Fizz,

I got a lot to tell my girl and maybe she can help me out this time.

The last time I saw you is when you made me act like a Robocop with Max.

Yes, you were a beautiful little decoy.Thank you, honey.

Girl, we've been trying to get it together.

You know, it's... up and down, but--

I'’m sure y'’all will work it out, you always do.

The truth is, things are not great with me and Max.

We'’ve been fighting like cats and dogs.

So I'’m focusing on my friends right now.

What is going on with you and your love life?

Well, you know, I'’ve been dating Fizz.

What?Yes, girl.

Everything been cool between us, except,

you know, we had this little run-in

with some girl he used to [bleep] with.

She starts talking about my plastic surgery to Fizz.

Bitch, sit down, go get your ass some plastic surgery.

Honey, she did, she got some fake titties

and they came out lopsided.And she still look a hot mess.

Exactly. And it's, like, girl, she starts talking about me

to her friend named Jason.

He's some messy little blogger, you know.

So I had this meeting with him, you know,

I decided to bring Hazel with me.Right.

I didn't even know that he had an issue with her.

And, girl, when I tell you this man had a drink full, he just--

right in her face, and I was--That's so childish, though.

Oh, my God, girl.That's so childish.

First off, you are a man, that's totally unfair, it's uncalled for.

Stop acting like a bitch. Period.Period.

[Brandi] Nikki is like a little sister to me.

No Boy Wonder, messy-ass blogger,

or a trifling-ass clingy female Becky

will ever come for my people.

End of story.

Anyway, I'm having this little beauty bar tomorrow.

I'’m hosting-- and nails, lashes, you know, my type of thing.

Okay.And I want you to come.

Okay.And, you know, I actually invited Jason's ass

'’cause I wanted to speak to him.

Oh...I mean, you know what?

I'’m gonna show him, this is the type of business I do.

Even though the petty B.S...Yes.

...I'’m still a boss and I-- Go ahead and come.Of course.

We ain'’t time for the B.S., okay?

At all.

♪ I be on my West Coast -- ♪

♪ Palm trees, good weed, little homie got it poppin' ♪

♪ Yeah, I be on my West Coast -- ♪

♪ 100 grand, Melrose, spending cash when we shopping ♪

♪ Yeah, and I be on my West Coast -- ♪

♪ Drop-top on Crenshaw ♪

♪ Hit the hood like what'’s poppin'’ ♪

♪ Yeah, I be on my West Coast -- ♪

♪ Keep a pistol in the stash for you -- who be watching ♪

♪ Cruising in the mirror while these bad -- staring ♪

♪ Got kush in the air and -- not even coherent ♪

Today, I'’m shooting my video for my first single, "West Coast."

And while it should be the happiest day of my life,

my mind is [bleep] up.

♪ And it's apparent that a -- probably puffin' ♪

♪ And -- is tryin' to feel it ♪

♪ What up? And I'’m the hottest [bleep] ♪

[man] All right, cut! Cut, cut.

[Miles] I'm out here trying to get my career poppin',

but I'’m still tor'’ up about the way [bleep] went down with Milan.

Him following me over to Amber'’s that night just wasn'’t cool.

I can see how he assumed the worst,

but that'’s not what it is.

And he won't take none of my calls

so we can clear this [bleep] up and make it right.

And it hurts like hell.

♪♪

♪ I get the feeling ♪

♪ You don't even care how I feel, seems like ♪

♪ You keep feeling sweet ♪

♪ That I feel so confused ♪

♪ And I don't know what to choose ♪

♪ But I know I don't want to lose me, yeah ♪

♪ Can't let you make my choices ♪

♪ I need to have my own voice ♪

♪ I just wanna be truly me ♪♪

♪♪

[Miles] I can understand why Milan is hurt,

but I haven'’t done right by Amber neither.

I can't even focus on fixing things with Milan

until I set [bleep] straight with Amber first.

I know Amber has hopes that we gonna get back together

and revisit our past,

but as hard as it's gonna be,

I just gotta tell her the truth about me and Milan.

Amber and I have talked about going to couples therapy in the past,

so if I'm gonna do this, I need to do this the right way,

so I reached out to a therapist.

[line ringing]

[Amber] Hello?

Yo, what'’s up?

What'’s up?

Hey, yo, I found a therapist.

You think you could-- Oh, really?

Yeah, you think you could meet me at counseling?

Yeah.

So we could talk about some things.

We'’re finally gonna go to therapy?

I would love that.

Okay. I'm gonna text you the address.

All right, let me know everything.

All right, I'’ll text it to you right now.

All right.All right.

Bye.Bye.

Something'’s going on, Amber.

I'’m gonna tell you to open your eyes.

We'’ve been talking about counseling.

And honestly, Angel, I do think that'’s the first step.

I'’ve had feelings towards the same sex.

You wanted to come here today, you want Amber to come,

and you want to be able to tell her all of this.Yes.

And so can you imagine what kind of a pill

that'’s going to be for her to swallow?

♪♪

[Amber] Clearly what I said to Miles at the restaurant

had a huge effect, because next thing you know,

my phone was ringing and we had an appointment for a therapist.

How'’s Zoey?She's good.

You know, she'’s good.Yeah?

But... it's Miles.

[Amber] My sister Angel is so close to me

that she grew up with Miles as much as I have.

She's been hearing both sides of our fights

for as long as we'’ve been together.

So hopefully, she can help me get my head straight

before I sit down with this therapist and have this talk.

What are y'’all gonna do?

Either y'’all gonna work it out, fix it, or grow up and move on.

I love him, you already know.

Like, this is not no little walk in the park.

This is not a little six month little binge

or a little prom date.

He's not the father of my child,

but it damn near feels like it.

Like, every-- since Zoey's been born,

even with her dad being dead, this man has been there for me.

Right.The whole family knows that.

And we love him for it, yeah.Of course.

So I know he loves me, that's not the issue.

Well, what'’s the issue, girl?Okay, with this whole--

with this whole entire thing, providing is not always the key to things.

No, it'’s not, but guess what?What about my heart and what about me?

Listen, we have our opinions,

but it's all about what you wanna do.

Like, you already know, like, I love him.

Like, everything about him.

We basically made each other, you know?

Like, he made me to his own Barbie doll,

I made him to my own Ken doll,

and we just love it, you know?

You know him, right?Yes.

You know his patterns, right?Yes.

Don'’t be stupid. You're not dumb.Right.

Something'’s going on, Amber.

And as your sister,

I'’m gonna tell you to open your eyes, baby.

I know you love him.But guess what...

we'’ve been talking about counseling.

We've been talking about going to handle our problems.

And honestly, Angel, I do think that'’s the first step.

[Amber] Angel is right.

This in-between [bleep] ain't gonna work for me no more.

I know what I want. I want this--

And you want him, right?I want to be with this man.

Yeah, I--But listen, girl,

that's why you guys go to counseling.

You'’ll be fine.I think so, too.

But, you know, who knows?

But if you guys are not fine,

you need to put your big girl panties on

and you need to roll.

♪♪

[Willie] Me and Shanda had a huge blowup the other day about money.

And unfortunately, the situation I'm in

with my current record label is even worse than I even let on.

And just the thought of my wife going back to jump on a pole

or do anything similar makes my blood boil.

What'’s poppin'’, Willie?What's going on, Screw?

[Willie] Today, I'’m meeting with my ex-manager Screwface.

He'’s known me since my time back with Day26.

Me and Screwface worked together for years,

but we parted ways a while back.

New spot right here, man.

[Willie] He recently got a job running the distribution arm

of a major record label and is making some serious moves.

And now that I'm in L.A., I'm hoping that he can help me

figure out a solution to this mess I'’m in.

What'’s up, man?Man, moved out here, man.

Here to lead a shot.So you just moved?

My wife, my kids, we left it.

Man, just being out here, man, it'’s been-- it's been good.

I mean, as far as the weather and getting the music done...Yeah.

...and everything like, that, man.

But on the flip side of it, man,

I ain'’t come out here stacked with a lot of money like that, you know what I mean?

So, like, the money that I got,

I've been having to save to the side for bills

and things like that and the important needs that we have.

I know Shanda gotta be stressed.

Oh, man.

She-- she killing me with it.

Does she know where you at financially?

She don'’t know exactly where I'’m at right now, man,

but, you know, I mean, I really can'’t even wear that on my face.

It's like, you know, I just gotta deal with it and figure it out.

That's why it's so important to me.

I gotta get away from this situation with the new label.

With Harry?With Harry.

[Willie] Screw and I go way back,

so he knows a little bit about my current record deal.

I got locked into a contract with this independent company.

And my man Harry, he dropped some serious bread into my new album.

The problem is, the money's dried up,

my album'’s been put on ice and I'’m starting to panic.

You gotta get those records heard by the world.

Man, bro, I mean...

If we could just--

I just want to find out what'’s the options of me coming--

even over this way.

There'’s nothing I won'’t do for you, at all, ever.

But this right here, in order for me to do anything for you,

you gotta get yourself up out of that situation.

[Willie] Man, getting out my record deal is really easier said than done.

What I'’m supposed to do? Sit down with Harry and say,

"Hey, man, thanks for dropping a quarter mil, but gotta bounce."

How do I get out of that situation?It's on you.

You need to go sit down and have that meeting with Harry.

And say, "Yo, I need to get out."

Because in order for me to do what I do,

you have to be out of that situation.

I can'’t do any-- I can't even bring you over here.

Right, right.And that's-- that's as real as it gets.

[Bleep], I got some work to do here.

It'’s on you.

♪♪

[Nikki] It'’s just another day of being fabulous.

You know how it is, they asked Miss Nikki Baby

to be the face of this beauty bar party.

And since I'm always looking for ways

to get my face in print out there,

you know I'm gonna work it.

This is really nice, I mean...Everything I do is nice.

Looks like you have some company, honey.

[Jason Lee] Nikki invited me to her event to cover it for Hollywood Unlocked,

but really, I need to talk to her about that Hazel drink thing

because that's not how I roll.

And I convinced my girl Kamiah to come along with me

because she's young in this Hollywood game

and she shouldn'’t be making enemies right out the gate.

So I wanted her and Nikki to have a chance

to put this whole Lil' Fizz thing to bed, once and for small.

Oh, there'’s Nikki. I'm gonna go over there...

It really took some convincing from my friend Jason

to get me to go with him to this event.

After feeling like I was completely blindsided

and disrespected by Nikki,

I didn'’t know how things were gonna turn out.

But, you know, Hollywood being this big,

it's inevitable that Nikki and I are gonna run into each other at some point,

so I figured, why not be the bigger person

and put what we went through in the past?

[Nikki] What'’s up, Jason?Hey, what's up?

What'’s up, bae?How are you? Jason.

Hello.Oh, okay.

I'’ve heard about you.

Have you?Hello.

Oh, okay.Hi, Nikki.

I haven't seen you in a while

so I just wanted to come over and talk to you.

How are you?I'm good, how are you?

I'’m good, I'’m good.

So, yeah, we haven'’t had a chance to catch up since--

Since Hazel.Yeah.

[Brandi] When I saw SpongeBob on steroids

waltz his little ass in the room,

I knew he was the type of clown to throw a drink on a female.

And I have zero tolerance

for that kind of bull[bleep].

I think that was really, really, really a sucker-ass move.But you weren't there.

It doesn'’t matter, you don'’t throw a drink at a woman.You weren't--

Listen, I'’m not gonna talk to your Chihuahua.

Chihuahua-- hold on, wait, whoa, whoa, whoa...

I know this little fluffy marshmallow boy

did not just call me a Chihuahua.

I'’m gonna show you better than I can tell you.

I'm gonna wipe that little stupid smirk

off your little silly-looking face.

Let'’s have a conversation and tone it down, honey.

You are at her event.This is the same [bleep] you did last time.

Did what? Did-- Last time, when?

Last time with the Hazel--What you mean?

That ambush that happened.Ambush who?

At the same time, if you take a business meeting with me,

then you shouldn'’t bring somebody there to ambush me.

What? I didn't say-- You-- you started this [bleep] with Haze.

I'’m trying to have a-- You wanna--

You like water thrown on you?That's okay, I'm not worried about that.

You like water thrown on you?That was unnecessary.

You walk up to me and say my Chihuahua.

Listen, you can scream in here, I'’m gonna kill you online.

Let'’s be mature about it. Let'’s be adults.

So I really thought that me and Jason were coming here

to make peace and be grown-ups about the situation,

but instead, Nikki and this girl who I don't even know

just started going off and throwing drinks out of nowhere.

I didn'’t even get a chance to talk to her face-to-face about our situation.

[overlapping shouting]Can I have a conversation with you?

You walked into my event, that'’s what it is.

I walked into your event and said hi to you, Nikki,

'’cause I'’m not a bitter bitch, okay?

Girl, you walked in--I walked in and I said hi.

You threw something at me the last time when I made you a gift.

That [bleep] was childish.

Honey, when I was your age,

I wasn't living the way you were, baby girl.

Okay, if you want to [bleep] and [bleep] your way to the top,

do what you gotta do.

Wait, wait, Fizz told me she was an appetizer

and every girl he's [bleep] with is an appetizer.

He wasn'’t talking about Miss Nikki Baby, baby.That's what he said.

Can I say something?No, you can't say something.

You gonna get your hand out my face.You-- Be quiet.

You gonna get your hand out my face, we gonna start there.Please do.

[Bleep].[Jason] This was just ugly.

And clearly, Nikki is the same as the company she keeps,

but it'’s all good '’cause this is what I live for.

I'm sure all my readers are gonna love to hear

about what went down.

Let me walk you out because you a bitch.You don't have to walk me out.

You my bitch. She my bitch.

And you'’re tired.Bye!

Guess what?You're a joke!

Everything about you is fake.

From body, everything.

If your [bleep] could tell stories, bitch,

we would really be having a conversation.

What you gonna talk about? Tell me, Jason.

And we'’re not talking.Jason!

Can'’t even have a conversation.

Jason, I'’m gonna give you some stuff to say, all right, babe?

I'’m gonna tell you what to say on your blog, honey.

Let me say this while he'’s walking.Oh, trust me, I got it.

Write your stories, honey.What was that?

So I'’m going to a day party.

I invited Teairra.

I want to pull her to the side and let her know

that I know exactly what'’s going on.

And that'’s gonna be hell.

Bitch, your word don't mean [bleep] to me

because you proved to me...And that's fine, that's fine.

...that, bitch, you ain'’t a genuine bitch.

Yeah, and I'’m glad you think that'’s funny, bitch.

I think it'’s funny that--

♪♪

[Princess] It's crazy to know

that I'’m actually done with Ray and all his bull[bleep].

You look cute.Thank you.

[Princess] Now, the one thing I can't get out of my head

is how [bleep] it is what Teairra did.

This two-faced ho lied to me in my face,

pretended to be my friend, while all the while

was setting me up this whole time.

And you know I gotta tell my girls all about this.

So how was Miami?

Well...That face.

I get to the set of Ray'’s video shoot.

And he end up bringing it up to me that,

you know, I invited Teairra to Vegas.

So he found out about Vegas?

She did exactly what I thought she was gonna do.

So he got the text.So it got back to him.

He's coming at me with it, you know, I don't trust you

because you been hanging out with Teairra,

you invited her to Vegas.

In his head, he was already done, so I was done with him.

That was just the icing on the cake.

I went to Miami in a relationship and I came back single.

What?[Shanda] Shut up.

Are you serious?

You know, me and Ray are done.Oh.

And any man who lets their woman go to jail, you don'’t love them.Yeah.

[Nia] I understand what Princess is going through.

I'm going through something similar with Dre right now.

And I'm in a place where

we're gonna have to get [bleep] right

or I'm gonna have to keep it moving, just like my girl.

When I came back, I moved my [bleep] out that house,

I got me my own place,

and this is where I'm at now.

And my problem right now is with Teairra.

So I gotta admit, I didn't want to believe

that Teairra would be going back and telling Ray information

that Princess told her.

I'm a little afraid for these two

to be having another problem with one another

because it can get really ugly.

What you-- what you gonna do? What you think you gonna do?

So I'’m going to a day party.

I invited Teairra, you know, a couple days ago,

and she doesn'’t know how I feel or--

she doesn't know that I wanna say anything to her,

but I want to just, you know,

pull her to the side and just let her know

that I know exactly what's going on.Right.

And I want you guys to come with me.

[laughing]

That'’s cool, but I just don'’t want to be in no [bleep].

Like, what are you gonna say? How do you want this to go?

I mean, I don't know.

If it goes left, it's because of her.

Please, keep calm at first.

I know it'’s very hard for you.

If I even see her flinch,

if I even see her blink the wrong way...

[Shanda] Oh, God.And that's gonna be hell.

♪ Can you save me from myself? ♪

♪ Save me from my soul ♪

♪ Can you save me from this misery? ♪

♪ Save me from this world ♪

♪ Can you save me from myself? ♪

♪ Save me from my soul... ♪

[Miles] I finally made the decision to keep it 100

and tell Amber the truth.

Now, the hard part is going through with it.

Because I know, once I open up that door,

it can never be closed.

♪ I played it and I payed it ♪

♪ I'm not proud, but I'm not through ♪

♪ I lost something beautiful ♪

♪ Blind and it was gone ♪

♪ Show me just what heaven is ♪

♪ God knows I was wrong ♪

Telling Amber basically means telling the whole world.

Because once she knows, that means telling my family,

telling my friends, telling everybody.

I'’ve been afraid of this moment my whole life.

Will the people in my life still love me

when they know the secret I'’ve been keeping from them?

I really don't know and it scares the hell out of me.

But I can'’t live my life afraid anymore.

♪ Save me from myself ♪

♪ Save me from my soul ♪

♪ Can you save me from this misery? ♪

♪ Save me from this world ♪

♪ Save me ♪♪

You gotta chill, you see what I'’m saying?

That'’s what I didn'’t want to tell you, look.

Why do you feel like--I'm gonna get out the situation.

I just can'’t see myself living off of an "if."

Well, if you want to go get a regular job...

We need more than regular money.

You'’re a [bleep]-up person.I'm a [bleep]-up person?

You'’re a [bleep]-up person. You're unloyal to everybody.

Bitch!Bitch, I will [bleep] you up!

Don'’t [bleep] with me!

♪♪

[Shanda] No matter how many times we argue about the bills,

they keep on coming.

But life has to go on.

We got kids that gotta eat and get dropped off at school.

And if we don't figure out something soon,

things are gonna get worse before they get better.

Bye, Daddy.All right, boy.

Love you.All right, kiss, Lela.

Fine, kiss.

[Shanda] But now that we have a moment to talk,

I want to make things right with Willie.

Because whatever trouble we're in,

we in this [bleep] together.

Let me apologize for the other night.

You talking about the bills?'Cause my emotions-- Yeah.

My, you know, frustration, my anger wasn't really toward you,

it was just towards the situation.Right.

These bills are getting high and [bleep].

I see bills, and, yeah, they high.

I get it, but I mean, like, they gonna get paid, so it'’s like...

We ain'’t got no income...

Nah, it ain'’t......right now.

You just gotta chill sometime, I told you I got it. I mean...

Do you feel like we should just go back to Chicago?

Who?Me and the kids and you just--

You gotta stop panicking.It's not a panic, it's real life.

It is, I get what you saying.

But you mean, like, it's a reason, like, even right now,

I got a situation going on with Screwface that I didn't want to

tell you about, because, I mean, I don'’t know--

I don't know what I'm gonna do,

so I don't even want to even tell you things

because I don'’t want you to get excited or...

I just want to feel like I'm a part, that I know everything.

Because with me, not knowing anything, it kinda like you--

It'’s-- it's frustrating.

He said that I could have a potential situation with a major,

which would be big for me right now.

That'’s amazing right now.

You know, that felt good.

Don'’t--I just want to--

Don'’t jump for goddamn joy just yet.

I'm saying, I gotta get out the situation

with Harry first, though.

Now, that'’s the bull[bleep] right there.

That'’s the bull[bleep] right there.

[Shanda] On one hand, Willie is telling me he has a shot

at this major label deal.

But in order to get it,

he has to get out of a contract that I know

invested a lot of money in him,

and I know they'’re not just gonna let him out of it.

So that major label sounds great,

but really, it'’s just wishful thinking at the moment.

You gotta pay this man back.You gotta chill. You see what I'm saying?

That'’s why I didn'’t want to tell you, look.Why do you feel like--

I'm gonna get out the situation.

I already know how I'’m gonna get out the situation.

I'm gonna go holler at-- I'm gonna set up a meeting with Harry

and I'm gonna get out the situation.

I just can'’t see myself living off of an "if."It's not about that.

But that'’s not even all. Okay, Shanda.

Well, if you want to go get a regular job...

I ain'’t a regular mother[bleep]. I ain't getting a regular job.

All right, then, so stop talking regular talk, then.

I'’m saying because we need more than regular money.

I understand, but it'’s-- we working towards.What the [bleep]?

See, this is why I don't tell Shanda about all of the moves that I make in this industry.

Nothing is definite until the check clears and it's in the bank.

If Shanda wants to help, I'm not opposed to her working.

But if she talking about grabbing them dancing shoes?

I ain'’t having that.

And you made a huge sacrifice for our family.

Man, that's big, for me and the fam.

And it took a lot out of you to do it.

Hell, it took a lot out of me to let you do it,

but at the end of the day...But, you know...

...I can'’t let you go back to doing that.

I just can'’t.I'm okay with it. I'm down to do that.

I get what you'’re okay with.

From now on, I'll just keep you in the loop, man.

Just let you know the stuff that'’s happening.Please keep me in the loop.

'’Cause that'’s what'’s gonna make me feel secure about everything.

And then I'’m also setting up this meeting with Harry.

I believe it.

I believe you'’re gonna make it happen.

♪♪

[Princess] After Ray and I broke up in Miami,

I've been doing me and it's been feeling wonderful.

But I still have some outstanding business

to deal with this bitch Teairra.

Oh. Como estas?

Is that good morning or what is that?

No, it'’s "how are you"?

Oh, okay. Hey. Como estas?

Hey.

I had my suspicions that she was stabbing me in the back

and feeding this bull[bleep] to Ray.

And she has no idea who she's been [bleep] with,

but she's about to find out today.

What'’s been going on?I want to know what's been going on, [bleep].

I can'’t lie, bitches, I'm slightly perplexed.

Why?

By this pairing here, Princess and Teairra.

'’Cause you haven'’t-- you weren't at the pamper party.

So you guys are friends?

I'm not saying we're friends, but we're not enemies, either,

so I just feel like, you know, we can coexist.Oh, we're not friends?

I mean, I look at friendship on a different level.

Have you been in contact with Ray?

Yeah, I sent him a text message.

Mm-hmm. Saying what?

That you invited me to Vegas.

You did?Mm-hmm.

Typical.You came at me last year.

So at the end of the day,

you can't expect for a person

that you came at so, like, viciously

to be your, like, real friend, off bat.

[Princess] I reached out to her at Apryl's pamper party

with no sideways intentions.

I was 100% genuine.

But Teairra thought that she could take that gesture

and use it to make trouble between me and Ray,

but that [bleep] ain't cool and she's gonna hear about it.

The moment we had at the nail shop--

We had some moments.I felt like--

I felt like you were being real.

And I was.I felt like you were being genuine.

But you know what? At the end of the day--

Princess, let me tell you one thing,

and I want you to take this with you for the rest of your life.

Sometimes, you have to brighten up in your head

because at the end of the day,

last year, you were my enemy.

So when you came to me and talked to me at her pamper party

and you broke down and you started crying, what was I supposed to do?

I would never kick a person when they'’re down like you did.

You were talking about, she a stripper, she took my man...

No! No!

First of all, let Ray claim you, then you can [bleep] with me.

Oh, really? It's fine.Because, you know what?

You'’re a [bleep]-up person.I'm a [bleep]-up person?

You'’re a [bleep]-up person.

You're unloyal to everybody

because you [bleep] everybody's [bleep].

Oh, and what do you do?You had sex--

Bitch, I will [bleep] you up! Don't [bleep] with me!

I'’ll--You're [bleep] nasty.

Don'’t [bleep] with me. You got me [bleep] up.

You want him to move me out the house so you can move in.

I never said that.Yeah, you did.

Wait, hold up. No, 'cause that's some bull[bleep].

Yeah, you did, yeah you did.'Cause who told her--

Ray did.Ray is a [bleep] liar!

Bitch, I will [bleep] you up! Don't [bleep] with me!

[Bleep], I'll block every shot you got!

You'’re [bleep] gross. You're [bleep] nasty.

Bitch, don'’t [bleep] with me. You got me [bleep] up.

You [bleep] ratchet-ass ho.

Teairra has been in my business for way too long.

She had no reason to sit there and poke her nose

in my relationship with Ray and try to [bleep] it up.

Why did you do all this?Why did I do all of what?

What'’s the point of doing all this? Like, you think for--

If you going behind my back--So what is your point?

And going to tell him some [bleep] that he's gonna

want to be with you?It wasn't about being your back.

I told you to your face.'Cause you know what?

He'’s not gonna want you.

That'’s fine, bitch.

He does not want your fat ass.

Bitch!Yeah. Fat ass!

He don'’t want you. You're sloppy.

You [bleep] all his friends.

Oh, I [bleep] all his friends?You a slut, you a slut.

Y'’all so emotional. Y'all so--

Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold up.

Yes, I spit at Princess,

only because she tried to come at me.

This girl is just pissed that she got played.

But to be honest,

this never should have got back to her in the first place.

But that'’s just Ray J.

Teairra, chill out. Chill the [bleep] out.

[Apryl] I'm always the peacemaker and I try to be as neutral

as I possibly can be, but I'’m tired.

I'm tired of offering advice and being sane

when I'’m around crazy mother[bleep] all the time.

Why did you tell Ray

that you want him to move me out the house so you could move in?

I never said that in my life.Yeah, you did.

Wait, hold up.You asked him to move me out the house, yeah, you did.

Nah, 'cause that's some bull[bleep] because who told her

that I would ever say [bleep]--Ray did.

Ray is a [bleep] liar![Bleep] you!

That cheat on you and do all this [bleep] to you!

Are you kidding me?The same [bleep] that you throwing me under the bus for?

Seriously?

I never told him anything like that.

Yeah, you did. Yeah, you did.

I swear to God on my grandmother's grave,

and I would never do that.Yeah, you did, bitch. Yes, you did.

So you need to listen to what the [bleep] I'm saying.No.

Or then we don'’t even need to have a conversation.

We don't need to have a conversation because, bitch,

your word don't mean [bleep] to me because you proved to me...That's fine, that's fine.

...that, bitch, you ain't a genuine bitch.

And I'm glad you think that's funny, bitch.

'’Cause I think it'’s funny that--

Bitch, I'll beat your ass, ho.

You ain't gonna beat [bleep], bitch, 'cause you a hippo.

Bitch, you can't move.I'm faster than you.

You an elephant. I'm gonna get you now or later, bitch.

And you, too. Both of you.Her too, that's funny.

I wish you would.Yeah.

Both of you. Both of you.

♪ My own reflection ♪

♪ Looks different than before ♪

♪ And when I scream loud ♪

♪ My echo comes back different than I know ♪

♪ Said I'm sitting here ♪

♪ Trying to figure out ♪

♪ Exactly who I am ♪

♪ But this time I think I went too far ♪

♪ I never knew I messed up with your heart ♪

♪ No ♪♪

Hold on real quick.

What'’s up, Harry?

[Willie] I get that Shanda's nervous about money.

And I'm feeling the pressure because I'm stuck in a situation

with this indie label and they got me here in the slow lane.

What'’s going on, man?How you doing, man?

I'm glad to see you.Sounds good.

[Willie] But Screwface is telling me he might have

a big deal on the table for me

if I can get out of this contract.

I gotta sit down with the label owner Harry

and try to hash this thing out.

Everything good?Uh...

it's going, you know.

I guess now, I'’m just really at,

you know, backed against the wall because I need the album.

I really need to know that it's going and it's not just me,

I got my family out here with me as well.

So it's like that pressure is just-- it's killing me.

'Cause I know what I'm supposed to be doing and so, like...

Well, you know we love the project.

Yeah, most definitely. I mean, it'’s a great project.

Everything sounds great.Thank you.

I think the best thing to do is to come up with a plan,

a detailed plan, a few different targets,

give ourselves a time frame.

My thing is like, I don't want to leave here

and still have everything in the clouds.

Like, okay, cool, we'’re gonna come up with a date.

I mean, how soon are we--

how soon can we get back in touch and even find out, though?

Well, I think I'’m gonna have to talk with my partner.

[Willie] With Shanda sitting at home counting down the days until the money run out,

I don'’t have time to be just sitting around waiting for a plan to come together.

If our partnership ain't working out,

then I gotta find one that is.

And that'’s just business.

On the flip side,

I've been given interest from other labels as well.

Where they're interested in picking up the project

and things like that, so it's like, you know,

with that being-- I mean, I guess the biggest thing for me

now is that we me being signed to the label,

it's kind of keeping them from wanting to jump in on a project.

I understand.

This is your career, it'’s your life,

but you can't let the pressure

of a family situation

push you into making a bad decision.

But, I feel like the time is now.

Those opportunities might leave the table.

And then, I mean, I'’m just sitting here--

How serious is this opportunity?

How certain?It seems to be very serious.

Why can'’t we just do the deal with them?

Because they'’re not doing a deal.

They want it to be artist to label.

They don't want to deal with anybody else.

They was very specific on that.

So it'’s like, you know...

is it possible to give me a release?

Well, I didn'’t really expect that, Willie.

That's a pretty tough thing

for you to hit us with right now.

My clock is ticking. I need it.

You know, that's-- that's something we're gonna have to really think about.

That'’s gonna be a hard position to get to for us.

[woman] All right, are you ready?Um...

As ready as, I guess, I'’m gonna get.

Okay, and I'’ll help you.Okay.

Okay.[doorbell rings]

♪♪

[Miles] The time has come for me to face my truth.

I've been keeping a secret from a woman

who has done nothing for me but love me my entire life.

I can'’t keep hurting her like this.

Go ahead and have a seat on the couch.Okay.

[Miles] I can'’t do this alone.

It'’s too big of a secret I'’ve been keeping.

So I reached out to a therapist

to help me tell Amber the truth about everything.

She deserves to know about my relationship with Milan.

I want you to first start giving me a little bit of backstory.Okay.

Give me a little bit of history of

what has led you up to being right here today.

Well, um...

I was in a relationship with my high school sweetheart.

Mm-hmm.And, um...

I've had feelings, um...

towards the same sex, um, since I was younger.

I've always just hid 'em and subdued 'em.

And I actually acted on them.

I met a guy and, um,

yeah, just where I'’m at today, um,

me and him are actually together.

Um, we'’re boyfriends.

Okay, so you've been kind of

walking around living a double life.Yes.

And it hasn'’t just been her you'’ve been hiding it from, right?

No. I've hid it from--

Well, my family doesn'’t know neither.

None of my friends know. It's just-- just me and Milan.

That'’s who I'’m with right now. His name is Milan.

And I know that the main reason

that you wanted to come here today

is because you want Amber to come

and you want to be able to tell her all of this

in a safe place where you have some support

and help and so does she.Yes.

Okay, so tell me a little bit about what you--

what you want to say to her or what you--

what you have on your mind to say to her.

Um, well, she wants to move forward

with our relationship.

Um, even though we were, you know, having problems

and on break, she'’s ready to move forward.

And...

she realizes that I have been pushing her away.Mm-hmm.

So I want to finally let her know why.

You understand, I mean, look, you're dealing with a lot of...

things to have to worry about, right?

What she's now dealing with is,

you're her high school sweetheart,

you're obviously the love of her life,

she wants to marry you, right?

And you're gonna tell her,

"I'’m not gonna be with you in that way.

"I have not been honest with you

even though you've been my best friend."

And so can you imagine what kind of a pill

that'’s going to be for her to swallow?

Mm-hmm.

It's gonna be your best shot

at saving something with her

if you own up to your mistakes.

So do you want to, like, practice with me?

What would you say your list of mistakes were with her?

Um... everything.

Hit me with them.

Lying to her...

Um...

I guess not treating her like my best friend.

It'’s okay, it'’s good you'’re doing this now.

It'’s hard to hurt somebody you love that much.

What'’s making you the most sad right now?

Just because, like,

it'’s really, really hard for me to...

And I don't want to, like,

hurt her or anything like that, so...

It's hard for me as well, like, dealing with everything.

It'’s just been-- it's been a lot.

Yeah, it'’s a big burden, isn'’t it?Mm-hmm.

[Miles] So many emotions is running through my body.

I don'’t even know how to feel.

A part of me wants to get up and run out.

But I know by hurting her

and getting everything off my chest and telling her my truth,

I'’m freeing her as well.

Today is going to be hard day for you.

And it'’s gonna be a hard day for her.

Mm-hmm.

But it'’s time.

It's-- it's what's fair to Milan,

to Amber, and to you.Mm-hmm.

All right, are you ready?

[sighs]

Um...

as ready as, I guess, I'’m gonna get.

Okay, and I'’ll help you.Okay.

Okay.

[doorbell rings]

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You janky as [bleep].You janky as [bleep].

You [bleep] as [bleep].You're shady as [bleep].

Why you lying to yourself?Why are you lying to yourself?

I feel like I should have been well aware of everything

that was really going on and I wasn'’t.

I said I'’m sorry. What else the [bleep] you want me to say?

Sorry'’s not fixing anything, ever.

I can'’t do [bleep] with a [bleep] sorry.

She invited me to her little event.

And I'm gonna go and tell that little girl,

"Go find another relationship to [bleep] up."

Get out my face, honey. Get out my face, baby.

No.Okay.

Now we really 'bout to have a problem.

I'’ve had feelings of attraction towards the same sex.

And I'’ve been in a relationship.

I wanna call my mom!

I wanna call my mom! [sobbing]

[woman] We have morals.

So what, you just saying [bleep] God?

Is that what you'’re saying?

Telling you guys is the hardest thing I'’ve ever done in my life.

I don'’t know why I have these feelings.

I don'’t know, I don'’t know.