All language subtitles for Sam S2 Ep. 1 - A New World (1080p) (1080p_25fps_H264-128kbit_AAC)

When I went down the pit in 38,
I was 14 years old.

We had a war coming,
and they opened skeleton pit

again because they
wanted coal to fight it with.

It came in 39, so I did my national
service underground.

When the war ended, this country had lost
350,000 dead and we were broke.

In the pit village where I lived,
we'd always been broke, and the chances of

death and maiming were as high as they'd
always been.

By and large, in 1947, in villages like
Skeleton, Goodie and Galwick, nothing much

had changed, except that for the first
time most of us could remember,

there seemed a chance, a hope.

You can spend your life hoping,
me grandad once said.

But when the time came, he was on fire
with it.

Me, I remember something he said to me,
ma'am.

Life gives not for expectations,
it gives what you hold in your hand.

Morning.

You can take that off for a start.

What?

You know what, in best bloody suit,
you're going to work, my lad, same as

everybody else, even if it is New Year's
Day.

Happy New Year to you and all.

Who said I wasn't going to work?

I shall leave it in me locker at
Pittbaths.

I'm going to see Dentist Sir Goodie when I
come off shift.

Have you got an appointment?

If he says I have to have an appointment,
I shall make an appointment.

I'll tell him it's aching bad.

You'll be lucky, he'll not be there on New
Year's Day.

Well, I'm not changing now.

All right for a moment.

I have to go to work, but not him.

Ah, well, he's not a coal-loaner like you,
is he?

Eh?

Well, it's today you take over,
isn't it?

Oh, I shall want some extra money while
we're on about it and all.

Extra money?

What for?

New curtains.

I've had them blackout curtains up since
war ended and I'm sick of the sight of them.

Oh, where's your post office boot?

I forgot.

It's in a safe place somewhere.

Here.

Ten bob.

Another.

Bloody hell.

And another.

You what?

Look, I've got last week's rent to pay as
well as this.

We can go back to the old system if you
like.

You give me the lot and I'll give you your
spends.

You made enough fuss about changing back
though, didn't you?

Fair enough.

You wouldn't like them by dozen.

It'll do for now.

It'll do for now.

Ethel in?

Ah, she's in there.

Counting.

Me dad off to work?

Screen implants stopped for repair,
he says.

Ethel, I'm off.

You're off.

Well, I'll see you later.

Goodbye then.

Have a nice time.

Good luck at the dentist.

See you later, Mum.

Aye, see you later, lad.

And why did I say that?

What?

Goodbye.

I've never said goodbye to him in my life
before.

Not when he's gone to pit.

I shall worry all day now.

Morning, George.

Morning.

Hey, lad.

What on earth are you looking for this
last half hour?

My Russian book.

It'll be in the kitchen with the others.

You should ask.

No, it's not.

I took it with me when I went for them
collars.

Oh, well, get out of the way then.

Let me look.

I get out of the way, aye.

That's right.

Get out of the way.

What are you smirking at, eh?

Get out of the way.

They're cutting sugar, Ashen.

Them that wants it'll get it.

If they've got the brussel, they know
where to go.

Think I need sweetening, do you?

There it is.

What do you want from it?

Sweet coupon.

There is none.

There must be.

I promised young Les here he could have
them.

It was him you gave them to.

You promised him twice.

Did I?

Aye.

But why have you said no?

He thought he'd be lucky twice,
didn't he, love?

You can have mine.

They're in cupboard in scullery.

Thanks.

Got brass to play for them, will you?

Not until next Saturday.

Show that in your pocket.

He'll get bad teeth.

Thanks, Linda.

Thanks for bad teeth.

Bad teeth, aye.

I've got bad teeth.

I'll take them out and show them to you if
you don't believe me.

Telegram.

I shall hang on for a new
set till Nye Bevan gets

his health service going
if after starving process.

It's from Toby's missus.

He's sinking.

He wants to see Sam.

We can't deny him, I suppose.

Deny him?

He's not up to us.

He's not a lad, Jack.

He's a man.

If he wants to be thought of as a man,
he should behave as a man.

Isn't it that he behaves too much like a
man?

Beer and women, they're his main interest
in life.

Does it make him unique, does it?

He'll come a cropper any time now,
another bastard in family.

Jack, that's enough of that.

Aye, that's right, Jack.

Shut up, Jack.

And what ideas is Toby going to give him?

What's he going to have to tell him?

We don't know, do we?

We've hardly had anything
to do with him for years

now and you've encouraged
Sam to do the same.

We don't know and it's not our concern
anyway.

It's my concern.

I haven't brought him up all these years
to have his mind twisted at this stage.

His mind's his own and what he does with
it.

I heard he was in America, Sam's dad.

Who told you that?

Lawrence.

He used to be a mate of Toby's.

America, eh?

It'll be Chicago then, where gangsters
come from.

Hey, it dies hard with you, doesn't it?

Hard?

Aye, hard.

Till the day I die.

See you, Barney.

Sam!

Sam!

Ian.

It's a short shift, eh?

Aye.

Is it right that two out of three's not
turned up?

That's why we've been sent home,
lad.

Skeleton's not working either,
they say.

George'll be glad.

Were you the only fitter?

Aye.

I thought there'd be work for us.

I see all you Bevan boys turned in.

We've got to.

It was either join the army or this.

Oh, I see my head.

Couldn't you have told
the Sergeant Major we

weren't coming then because
it was New Year's Day?

With Miss Skeleton bust, we'll have a bit
of a wait on.

I suppose we could walk.

Aye.

Come on then.

See they haven't got the flag out today
then.

Tomorrow.

They're having the band out.

Hey, they put a board up over there.

Come on, let's have a shufty.

Lift that end.

We'll have the manager after us.

Off with the old, on with the new,
eh?

Hello, George.

Beady.

Where's Taylors then?

We took over Monday, didn't you know?

I knew they were going like, but I didn't
know you were taking over.

Pan?

I'll have a pan, Beady.

Who's at Jubilee now then?

Barrett's from Cass.

How long have you been supping this end,
George?

No, just passing the notes.

There you are.

It's happening more in there.

In there?

Oh, there's a friend of Ethel's in there.

I'll have them go in there then.

Thanks, Edie.

Hello.

You're early.

Not much.

They know me.

It's Edie Mason from Jubilee.

She knows me too, if she cares to
remember.

But then it doesn't matter to me,
does it?

She thinks I didn't recognise her.

It's Jeanie Tufton.

Used to live in Mathekin Street.

You know, next door to Skeleton Club.

Her husband were killed at Torbrook.

Poor lad.

If he could see her now.

They say she'll go with anybody that'll
buy her a drink.

Couldn't have thought it of George
Bartleff, though, would you?

You put in lights where browns ought to
go.

Where are we going then?

Pictures at Cass, you said last week.

Dead-end kids are out at Wakefield.

Wakefield'd be safer, you mean.

Aye.

You wanted to see Magic Board,
didn't you?

No matter.

It does matter.

If that's what you want.

It matters to me.

We shall risk it.

You're a fool.

Always.

You are messing about with me.

Risking.

Don't you know her?

You know me.

We're going by Colwick.

A shortcut, you said.

Opening time at Brown Cow.

If winded, you'll never make a collier.

They don't give the men's jobs to bathing
boys.

Not at Cuddy, anyway.

When do they let you out?

Eh, next month.

What then?

Back to Edinburgh University and the
church.

And a charge, eventually.

Charge?

Yeah, charge of swords.

A parachute, call it.

When did you take your school certificate?

This year, at Wakefield.

How are you getting on with the set books,
mate?

English lit, eh?

Bloody hard work.

Begging your reverence's pardon.

Nothing I'd read from choice.

Hardy sends me up the wall.

I learn it like a parrot.

I'd have soon read Lawrence at Dickens.

It's funny, I thought you'd
have taken your S1 and your

Higher National rather
than your school certificate.

Because of Pitt, you mean?

Yeah.

Oh, I started to.

That's what I went with Pitt as for.

Had a mate went to see as an engineer from
fitting shop.

I fancied it for a bit.

Frank says I've got a grass upper mind.

You stuck in very well at the swatting.

Hey, what comes after that?

I just fancied taking it, that's all.

No great ambition, eh?

Oh, aye.

Stop single and live forever.

Listen, there's a... there's a...
a bus goes on Saturday from

the church I go to to see the
St. Matthew Passion in Leeds.

Do you fancy coming?

Nah, they're a funny lot at Top Church.

I'd not get on.

Anyway, fat swallows more in my line.

Well, I've got some new records.

Do you want to come over my digs and I'll
play some of them?

Any piano stuff?

I do some Beethoven, why?

My half-brother, young Les, likes
classical stuff.

Hey, you'll know his dad, Alan Dakin.

Is that the deputy in two?

Aye, I live at their house.

Oh.

Getting on well with piano, young Les.

Gets an exam this year.

Bring him round to our place.

I'll carry the gramophone if you're not up
to it.

Hey, listen, there's some very good
classical music on the home service.

Did you ever listen to that?

His dad likes the light programme.

I used to come up here when I were a lad.

Get away from it.

From what, Sam?

It.

Don't try and make sense of me.

My granddad will tell you.

There is none.

Alan?

She's in there.

I'm off to club then.

Aye, all right then.

Still in one piece then?

What?

Oh, was it you shouting at Alan last
night?

Yeah, who was he out with, Sam?

Nay, they never go out together,
them two.

No, it was one of them tailors from George
Street.

Decided not to work today, has he?

Well, only one in five turned up,
he was sent home.

Didn't George tell you?

No, George has not come back.

Did Alan say they'd all been sent home?

That's what he said.

Oh, he'll have gone to dentist's.

Oh, half would have done.

Get it down you while you can.

You'll lock me up in this when you get
that dog collar on.

Oh, aye, I don't suppose I will.

You'll be called on to do what's expected
of you.

Aye, aye.

Listen, why did you turn up for work
today?

I mean, it's different for us bathing
boys.

I had reasons.

Tell me one.

I like to fight with a clean shirt on.

And when I'm tackled, I've somebody to
blame for mucking it.

Your nephew's in there.

What do you want me to do then?

He's sitting behind the door.

We can get out without being seen.

I'll go on me own if you like.

Nay.

We can go to pictures another time.

We've got to get there.

Morning, George.

Hey, dear.

He didn't see us.

Poor George.

It were thee, not me.

Where shall we go then?

I could give you something to eat.

Can you find your way back from here?

Are you not coming with me?

I've to see a man about a dog.

Pictures then?

Not seen enough of me.

You wanted to go, didn't you?

You heard what they said in pub.

She's been sent home at Skeleton.

She'll be expecting you, won't she?

I said I'd go to dentist's.

You can't spend four hours at dentist's.

Anyway, your nephew might have seen you.

Some?

Nay.

He'd have come up to us, open like.

He's not sneaky, some.

He's me mate, any road.

They named him after me.

George Samuel's me full name.

Another day, we'll go another day.

Happen you're right.

Don't go drinking tonight.

I worry when you drink too much.

Do you?

And I don't like you taking it from others
like.

Because it gives me a name.

I've got a name, George.

You can never live it down.

I'll come and do this out for you one day.

I can wallpaper, you know.

What can't you do, eh?

I'm sorry it's such a mess.

You get not to bother.

Nobody sees it but me.

And you.

Don't they?

Not since you've been coming anyway.

I don't want you to go with others.

I've got no right to ask I don't know but
it'd pain me if you did.

Easily pained aren't you, George?

Happen.

Happen.

Am I right for you then?

You're a real man.

And a lad at the same time.

I couldn't wish for more if I deserved it.

You do?

Nay.

I wish I could turn clock back for you.

Do you?

So Tobruk never happened.

So he'd be here with you.

Arthur.

You'd be happy then wouldn't you?

You'd wish that for me?

I would.

Even as I feel about you.

I'd wish it for you.

Is your water off?

Aye.

Managed to get some done though.

It's got out from under your feet I see.

I noticed he'd stopped off work same as
everybody else for all his principles.

I'm not at work because machines broke
down.

Who is all these others that suppose he's
stopped off?

Skeleton's closed and so is Cuddy.

They're working at Martin with about half
turned up.

It's good to tell we've been nationalised.

Nobody wants to work anymore.

Get stripped off, get down there and get
at it then.

It's New Year's Day.

Should be holiday if you're right.

Except for women that have washing to do.

You have a bloody hard life you do.

Talk about what you know about.

I know what me eyes and ears tell me.

And your memory does that tell you no?

One of them shortens is it?

A bit of money and the post office stops
it working.

One of that kind is it?

As good as yours I'm better.

It remembers what it was and not what's
convenient.

You can't get near a dam of fire if it's
closed right.

I'm off out to the allotment.

I wish you wouldn't rub him up the wrong
road Ethel.

It does no good.

I had to get it in about Pitt.

It's all a nonsense to me.

Well it's not to me.

Makes me feel safer somehow.

Safer I am.

But look at us.

Five years of war and rationing is worse
than it ever was.

When there were plenty
we'd know to buy it with and

now we have a bob or two
there's now to spend it on.

And it'll get better.

It's bound to.

I suppose some things will get better.

Some things will get worse.

Like George and me.

Go on with you.

Don't you listen to us through it all
anymore.

Bit like watching the same picture twice I
suppose.

Wouldn't be so bad if there was some
profit in it.

We'd have made a fortune on it while us.

Murgatroyd and Winterbottom with knobs on.

Has he been behaving badly?

Oh no worse than usual.

Not him any road.

It's me of course I am.

Always have been I suppose.

Bossy.

It's a habit now.

Anyway give him an inch and he'll take a
mile.

Look at the time he spends boozing.

Are you sure you're not driving him there?

Driving him?

Like a dog to a big juicy steak.

When he comes home he sits there.

Not a word.

Staring into fire.

Lost in himself.

When we go to bed he rolls over gives me
his back says goodnight and that's it.

I know what I could do.

I could ring Browncow at Galwick.

He's bound to be there.

If he knows I'm chasing him he'll have to
spend less time there.

Oh I wouldn't Ethel.

Well I've got to do something Polly.

I'm losing him.

I know I am.

Grant day for fishing George.

You're a deep old bugger aren't you?

Spying on me.

I wasn't.

Yes you bloody were.

There's another word for it.

Curiosity.

And there's an answer to that and all.

Mind your own bloody business.

What have I said?

Said?

What have I said?

What have I said?

Have I said I'm going to tell on you?

I'd obey you by God it would.

Have I said I will?

Well have I?

Why did you follow me?

Ah sweet mystery of life.

You are?

At last I've found thee.

You're bloody mad.

George I'm happy for thee.

Happy?

Aye I'm happy for thee.

Happy?

I think you're the bee's knees George.

You've found the secret.

What secret?

You're such a quiet old sod.

There's hope for the human race and thee
doesn't know that.

It's never too late.

I haven't the forking of an idea what
you're on about.

Too late for what?

To seek a bit of funny life and find it.

Women George.

What about them?

Well I don't have to tell you do I?

Bloke with your experience.

You're on wrong track Sam.

George I think a lot about Ethel.

Does that?

You know I do.

I'm going to tell her what I'm up to.

Ah you'd thank me for that wouldn't you?

No I wouldn't but she bloody would.

She'll never know George.

Unless you tell her.

Well she doesn't know and that hurts her.

Won't it?

And what about me?

What about my hurt?

Will that not rub off on her?

Hurt?

My bloody hurt.

For her and for Tuther.

For both of them.

George women are to be enjoyed.

Are they?

Are they not like us then?

Does no one want to be enjoyed?

Well why not?

Enjoyed?

Well appreciated like.

You know nowt about it do you?

Me?

Nowt about it.

Big talk, big performance.

Nowt about it.

What was you so chuffed about when you saw
me?

Saw you what?

With another woman.

What was you so chuffed about?

And you thinking such a lot of Ethel like
you said.

What was you so chuffed about?

It doesn't alter anything between you and
Ethel.

Doesn't it?

How do you know?

Suppose I was thinking of slinging me
hook.

You wouldn't do that.

Wouldn't I?

Wouldn't I?

Now listen George.

How do you know?

How do you know what I do?

George I know that woman.

I've heard her talked about by chaps I
work with.

I shall tell you to come outside if I says
I'll do it in that line.

That's what I shall tell thee.

George listen.

Now if you're going to tell on me,
tell on me.

If you're not going to tell on me,
bloody shut up.

You shouldn't have had your hair cut off.

I liked it when you let it grow after we
were wed.

You looked different about it.

You think I was bald or something?

You sounded like me mam then.

Did I?

She did a lot for me your mam.

She took life as she found it and made the
best of it.

That's one lesson I owe her.

One I never learned eh?

Don't you like me hair like this then?

When it were down to your waist.

In summer.

Summer nights.

Lying there just a sheet over us.

That's when I liked it best.

It's easier to keep tidy like this.

Well I'll grow it again if you like.

Aye have it as you want it.

Well if it pleases you.

Don't live your life to please me.

Well I live it as I am don't I?

Like we all do.

As we are.

Dad.

Yeah what have you been told about wiping
your feet?

Sorry dad.

What do you want then?

Can I have a penny to buy some marbles off
Jacky?

He'll play with me if I do.

Have you got no marbles of your own?

I've got some.

But he'll play with you if you buy some
off him?

Yes dad.

Here's twopence.

Thanks dad.

What's the waiting for?

More?

Thanks dad.

Aye we live it as we are.

As we're made.

Aye but who makes it?

Do they still plague him as a bastard do
you think?

Oh I'm sure they don't.

Doesn't have to happen more than once for
the damage to be done though does he?

And if they're looking for somebody to
plague there he is with his label on him.

You take more hurt from it than he does.

Nay.

Yes you do.

Then you take it out as Sam.

Siding for Sam I mean.

Nay.

He rubs you at wrong road of purpose
sometimes I know.

Every bloody day you mean.

What is it that makes you two like you are
with each other?

I'm off out to club for an hour.

Don't drink too much Alan.

Where do you think you're off to?

What's there?

You live here?

Oh aye.

Go on then.

When you don't you ask.

I say right then.

Can I go to Uncle Frank's room Grandad for
a book I want please Grandad?

No you can't.

You can ask Frank at his room.

He told me to get it when I wanted it.

What you been so bloody stroppy for?

What's going on?

Where have you been?

Guess.

You've done no work.

You're a damned disgrace.

The lot on you.

First day we're nationalised after the
bloody pits closed.

You know how long it's taken.

You know what blood, sweat and tears it's
taken and what more it'll take.

You and Churchill, you're a right pair.

We ask for a bread and you give us a
stone.

You make the stones for other folks to
chuck at you, you do.

I was one that turned up Grandad.

You what?

I turned up for work.

I turned up.

I'm a hero of the mine workers union,
first class.

Now kiss me on both cheeks and I'll
forgive you.

You let me go on, didn't you?

Aye.

You know why?

It's a lot of codswallop to quieten us.

Who's in charge?

The same bloody lot that always was.

And then they've been pensioned off the
size of the bloody pension.

The owners are better off than they've ever
been on the compensation they've been paid.

How shall we make it pay with that rang on
us necks?

We should be carrying them forever.

We've to make it work.

We've got to.

To prove what?

That we was right to want it.

Oh, we need to prove that, do we?

You're not straight with me, are you?

You never have been.

Straight, straight, straight about what?

About where you bloody stand in life.

Asking me to stand up and be counted,
Grandad?

Make a change if I got it.

Cuckoo in the nest, is that what you think
I am?

You behave like a bloody cuckoo.

Can you take notes serious?

Is this what I brought you up to?

You do know what life's about,
do you lad?

Fun and fancy.

I'm wasting my breath, aren't I?

When I have to stand up and be counted,
I know where I'll stand.

Hey, Toby Wilson's dying.

Grandad Wilson?

You knew he was ill?

Didn't know it were that bad.

You didn't feel to go and see him?

I just said I didn't think he was serious.

He wants to see you.

I shall go then.

Aye.

You'll go.

You'll want to talk.

You'll happen to want to say things that's
best forgotten, you understand?

Yes, Grandad.

We did what we thought was best in them
days.

Best of a bad job it turned out mostly.

We didn't agree much, Toby and me,
I'll tell you that.

Yes, Grandad.

What you make of it is up to you.

You asked me to do that.

Aye, I know.

What, you said I would?

Needed doing, I didn't like to... Put your
weight.

Alan!

What's going on up there?

Sam's got a friend in, they're playing
some records.

Did he ask?

Well, yes, of course he did.

They've gone up there to keep out of your
way.

Must be frozen.

Can't they turn it down?

Of course they can't, it's a gramophone,
not a wireless.

Go and play it somewhere else then.

Alan!

Cut that racket, will you?

Do you hear me?

Cut the racket!

Did I hear little voices?

I said cut the racket.

Racket?

Racket, that's bloody bark.

Racket, I said.

What a plank you are.

You know what?

It sounds better than you do on Saturday
night with ten pints of bitter inside you.

I don't like Bach or whatever his name is.

I don't come home to listen to Bach or
whatever his name is.

I come home for peace and bloody quiet.

Shout it again, peace and quiet.

Go on, shout it again for the street.

Let's have a bloody show.

This is my bloody house, mate,
not yours.

Aye, but you'd miss my share of the rent,
wouldn't you?

You'd have to work a full bloody week now
and again.

Sam!

Full marks for trying, Alan.

But don't try again.

I loved... I loved your mother.

That's why you're here.

I'll take no more rent from you.

Have some respect for Eileen.

I can speak for myself.

Oh, don't go out again, Alan.

I'm off out and back, that's all.

You'd better look for somewhere,
Sam.

You're chucking me out?

Death to each other.

Aye, death.

You need my share of the rent,
you know you do.

You're not bloody work.

It's not work he's feared of.

It's the pit.

Always has been.

Didn't you know that?

He only goes to keep us because there's no
one else for him.

You go because you like your friends round
you.

Oh.

Well, that is well.

Do I?

What is it between you two?

What is it you feel that makes you go on
like it the way you do?

We don't get on, that's all.

Never have done.

You should try to understand his feelings.

Feelings?

People do have feelings, you know.

Aye, and don't they rant on about them?

What feelings is he for you to talk about
me mum like that in front of you?

Nothing about that ever been hidden
between us.

He made no secret of it.

I took him for what he was able to give
and I was glad of it.

Because those were my feelings.

People let feelings get on top of them,
end up wishing they hadn't.

That happens.

It's not what you want or don't want.

It happens.

Has it ever happened to you?

Nor ever will.

What you don't have you can't lose.

I'd not have wished to have felt any
differently than I have.

You want me to go then?

Death to each other, wears him down.

Doesn't mean much to you except a place to
live, does it?

Are you there?

Yeah, I'm in here Polly.

Where's Pat?

Oh, she's down at the allotment making
herself some bookshelves.

Hey, it's to be hoped
they're better than that

cot her father made for
her when she were born.

Remember?

Aye, I remember.

Not feeling so good?

No, I'm not so good.

You've been weeping.

What's up?

It's not that will not pass.

Where's me boots?

Where you put them?

I know where I put them.

I mean, have you seen them?

They're under mangle in schoolery,
or were.

Is it his lordship?

They're not here.

I said they're not there.

You've a hole in your sock.

What's up?

Hasn't she told you?

She said not to me.

You'd better ask then, hadn't you?

Nay, I'm not.

If she's got so much to say, then she'd
better say it.

Like it?

You should have been a lad.

I've marked those school cert papers you
did.

Have you?

Why do you always choose the easy ones?

I don't.

You do.

And your answers are only half as long as
they should be, you know.

I know why.

All right, clever clogs.

Cos you can't wait to get out to the pub,
that's why.

Would I have passed?

With some you might, but not with me.

If you've come to feed the pigeons,
don't bother.

I've done it.

Thanks.

You're welcome.

Dan, I've been looking for you.

Where's the drill?

In the kitchen drawer.

It's always kept.

Fetch it for me, will you?

Fetch it yourself.

George Fetch this, George Fetch that.

Give us this, give us that.

Oh, go on.

You've got legs the same as me,
haven't you?

Thanks.

Why am I supposed to be at everybody's
beck and call?

I've a life to live too, you know.

Grandad, have you been here long?

No, not long.

Can you see your grandma?

Aye.

She said you're not to talk too much.

She's been saying that all her life.

If I'm out to say now's the time to say
it, isn't it?

How's the other grandad?

Same as always.

Aye.

Minded you come in, did he?

No, not that I know of.

Tried to get him to let you stop here when
you were a little lad, the knows.

When times were bad and they couldn't
manage, reach.

You not remember that?

Not altogether.

Thought I'd spoil you.

Make the end of summer to see if you
didn't fancy.

I'm that now, it seems.

You not get on?

Some ways we do, some not.

Ain't no time for me, you know.

Well, you know why.

You blame me for your dad going off.

Your dad not being here to blame his son.

I suppose it goes on about that,
does it?

No, we never talk about him.

Never?

He's never mentioned.

Not between the two of us, any road.

I see.

So he's dead to you.

Grandma said you'd not to talk too much.

Have you no feeling for him?

No.

Not even a bit curious?

No.

Two years since I heard from him.

We were in South Africa then.

When he were a little
lad, my heart would be

in my mouth for fear of
any harm coming to him.

I learned to live with his mother,
just to give him a sure home all his life.

You were a better man than him then.

He were what I made him.

Jack Baraclough used to say that.

You raised him, he said, up when he were
eight.

If he were, your dad went off because I
made him into that sort of chap.

I never taught him to face his
responsibilities.

We make who we are.

Us.

I wish I could think so.

If I'm to blame for him, I'm to blame for
where you were brought up to.

I've no complaints.

It shaped your life.

Is it what you wanted then?

It's as it is.

I tried to make it right for you,
be it your dad's fault or mine.

I want nothing on his behalf.

He's nothing to me.

I'm going to die and I'll not see him
again.

You'll know what that's like one day when
you're one of your own.

I shall not marry.

I shall not bring kids into this world.

It happens to you mostly.

It's not according to what you want,
what you don't want.

It happens to you.

And when it does, you shape yourself round
it.

Take this envelope.

Don't look at it now.

Put it in your pocket.

Grandad will not thank me for that.

Shape yourself round it.

Just shape yourself.

What use is Latin, huh?

You've got to take it for some things,
that's all.

Mind you, it's a dead language.

Depends what you want it to be.

Now, isn't it time you did some thinking
in that direction?

My father will out-age you since...

Well, you've never said anything to me,
your dad.

Have you worked it all out on your own,
have you?

Well, yeah.

It's me that's got to do it.

Oh, me and your dad don't know enough to
advise, is that it?

Oh, Mum, I don't need advice.

I just know what I want.

I'm off to club.

Here?

Or at Galwick?

Galwick?

I said club.

Here it goes.

You'll be back then?

Of course I'll be back.

You mean, will I be late?

You'll please yourself about that,
won't you?

It's a dead language now.

Just shut up.

What is?

Latin.

Your mum asked me what use it is.

Where have you been?

Came from your French dictionary.

You weren't in.

Do you know what's going on?

You wouldn't tell me if you did,
would you?

Happen I would.

That's right.

Go on, humour me.

Nothing for you to worry about anyway.

Or to be told about.

Until the day of judgment, when all things
shall be revealed.

You'll be in trouble then, won't you?

Now you're there, are you?

You been then?

Aye, I've been.

How is he?

Dying.

You talked?

Aye, we talked.

She thought a lot of you, me mum,
didn't she?

You think she'd no reason to?

Is that what you're saying?

No, no, I'm not saying that.

She'd tell me things you said as if they
were gospel.

Your grandad says this, your grandad says
that.

What are you after?

You told her once.

You said, you learn that life gives naught
for expectations.

It gives what you hold in your hands.

Did I?

Didn't you?

If she says I said it, you've remembered
that.

Get on to it then.

I don't understand what you're after.

Happen I'd tell you.

Happen.

If I knew.

He's got your blood in him too,
Jack.

You think I don't know that?

Would I care if he hadn't?

You don't act as if you cared.

What do you want of me, Polly?

A soft tongue?

A pat on the head, a penny for spice for
being a good lad?

And then have him turn round and cheat me?

Is that what you want?

Happen.

Happen he'll get that from you.

But when the devil's in him from me,
he'll get the hard word, a belt on his

arse and a kick up to bed and he'll love
thee all the more for it.

He'll kick you back one day, Jack.

Aye, well, he'll be a man then,
won't he?

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