All language subtitles for 2001 - Voyeur Confessions

Hi. Hi.

Hi. Hi.

Hi.

Hi.

I really think we should go inside.

Let's go here.

See, Laura, I wouldn't see us. All
right.

You don't have to make the first move.

Oh, my.

I'll be worth it.

Take your pants off. Come here

and give it to me.

Bye.

I gotta go.

I gotta go.

Study on voyeurism.

I don't know. I'm not sure.

Dr. Taylor, granted, I've been here only
a week.

But of the information that I've looked
at, of all the sexual problems that

human response associates sees,
voyeurism is the one that we're least

treating.

I'd like to recruit some subjects and
then do some preliminary clinical

observations.

As I remember, there's not much work
that has been done in that field.

No, I think it's a really rich area for
research.

What's your working definition of
voyeurism?

The act of secretly observing
unsuspecting people who are naked or in

process of undressing or participating
in sexual activity for one's own sexual

pleasure.

First stage, I'd like to hold in -depth
interviews and then look over the

information, and then I'd like to
propose a program of therapeutic

recommendations.

Have you talked to Dr. Brand about this?

She's the clinician that designs the
treatment protocols.

Well, I thought that I'd run it by you
first.

My only concern here is you might be a
bit too ambitious.

Well, I'll take that as a compliment.

But I must say that when you hired me,
you did say to think outside the box.

Fast track it.

I think it's a home run.

Thank you.

Well, I'm looking forward to what you
come up with because so far I have been

completely ineffective with the lawyers.

I think what we need to do is just see
how much you can get them to disclose to

you. You know?

Mm -hmm.

Well, why is that an issue, though?

Well, women classically have had
difficulty getting the subjects to

sexual intimate information in their
lives.

Oh, well, that won't be a problem. That
was my strong suit in grad school, so...

Oh, okay.

I didn't mean it that way. Gee.

Why are you so interested in doing this?

Well, I guess... I guess I'm

interested because I want to find out
why I'm so interested in doing it.

All set.

We're on.

Hey, you. Hey.

Well,

I wish I could be there, but I can't. We
have another gig tonight in San Luis

Obispo.

So I just wanted to wish you luck on
your first subject, so you're going to

knock them dead.

I know you will.

I hope you don't actually knock them
dead, though, because that wouldn't be a

good thing.

I don't know what else to say.

I was going to do this entirely naked,
but I figured that if people were

watching, then that wouldn't be a good
thing.

I don't care about these guys, though.

Yeah, rock on.

Good luck.

I miss you. I love you. I miss you. I
can't wait to see you.

We all miss you. Oh, my God.

Yeah. Watch me climb up a truck.

I love you.

I love you. I'll see you soon.

Bye.

Okay, I'm going to put this microphone
here.

There you go. Let me plug it in over
here.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay, why don't you start by telling me
a little bit about you.

My name's Dave.

I'm 28.

I'm single.

Never been married.

College graduate.

I work in advertising.

I'm a media buyer.

I'm the second of three brothers.

I like to play golf. I work out and
watch basketball.

I'm a voyeur.

I haven't never told anyone about this.

Jesus Christ.

I just, I must have kept it inside me
since I was a

child.

And why did you apply for this study?

I think my voyeurism is keeping me from
being intimate with women.

Thanks for telling me that.

I appreciate that.

You're pretty easy to talk to.

That's good.

So how long ago was your first
voyeuristic experience?

I was a teenager, and it was, man, I can
see it as clear as when it happened.

And it was like being hit by lightning
or something.

I mean, after that, I was hooked.

And what did that incident touch

in you?

I don't know.

This is all so mysterious to me.

But here are answers.

It's breasts and pussy.

So that's what everything looked like.

Moving, nakedness.

And she never knew I was watching.

There's something about that combination
of things that I'm associating that

with the pleasure of my own.

Orgasm.

That's all she wrote.

And you masturbated when you saw that?

Yeah.

And later, too.

It lasted me for months.

You know, I really appreciate how
articulate you're being about this.

It's really helpful.

Well, it's a major deal for me.

You know, giving us a lot of thought.

I mean, there's so much time spent
searching for voyeuristic opportunities.

If I cannot be as obsessed as I am, I
don't want to go through my whole life

doing this.

Sometimes it just gets to be too much.

So tell me about the second time.

Second time?

We had to move because of my father's
job.

It started two days after we got there.

It was August, and it was hot. I mean,
sweltering hot.

There's no accident here. I mean, I
believe she came out to fuck that guy,

she did.

And after a couple minutes, they were
going at it hot and heavy.

She was going nuts.

She kept rubbing up on him and... He

had this giant heart on him.

It was an amazing event for me.

I was watching people have sex and do
the thing

that I had never done.

Even though I'd never seen it, you know
what I mean?

But there it was.

It was so primitive.

Prime on.

Dirty and sexy.

But it was right in front of my eyes.

For me, I was alone.

It was amazing. They didn't stop.

And he went down on her.

She went nuts.

I always thought that that was the first
time that it ever happened to her.

Because she went crazy.

She came.

Okay, let's do it. Okay.

All right, so just tell me who you are.

And you're going to get that. I'm
pulling on it.

Tell me who you are and why you're here.

Okay.

I'm Christopher. I'm 30.

I'm a website designer.

What else?

And why you're here.

Well, you have to be somewhere, right?

Look, I figured maybe I could learn
something.

You know?

You never know.

So tell me about your family, about your
relationships. Are you single?

Yeah, I'm single.

I grew up in a middle -class family.

My mother was a social worker.

My parents split up when I was young,
sixth grade.

I don't know, I answered your ad because
I guess I'm what you might call a

voyeur.

Look, it's not an urban myth. I was the
kid with the mirrors on my shoes looking

up girls' dresses, okay?

I don't know, the things that I remember
from my life are the things that I saw.

What most people might call dirty things
I call beautiful things.

Those are the images that shape me.

Listen, it's the moments in life with
truth.

Those are the images that turn me on.

Stealing images from life is my life.

You see?

Look,

I don't...

I don't have what you would call normal
relationships with women, okay? But I do

have relationships with them.

There was this woman once who used to,
she used to live close to where I used

work.

And she knew everything about me. She
knew when I got off and everything.

And she would put on these shows for me.

In front of her window, she would take
off her clothes and she would play with

herself.

I don't know, we must have done it maybe
a dozen times over a three -month

period.

But in that whole time, she never once
acknowledged that I was even there.

I would just sit in my car and... Wow.

I don't know, I used to wonder if she
would do that for anyone else.

I kind of like to think that she didn't.

I'm so happy that you're back.

Good to be here.

I'm so glad.

Tell me about the voyeurism business.

Well, it's going good.

Yeah? Yeah.

Are you, uh...

Becoming a voyeur?

Well, actually, yes.

Yeah. Yeah, I am.

Really?

Yeah, really.

And?

And... It's wild.

It's really wild.

Really?

Yeah, really. What is really?

Well, has it really affected you?

I mean, sexually?

You want to find out?

I guess.

You guess?

Yes. I really missed you. I really
missed you.

And there's someone else who hasn't seen
it.

I really have.

Really?

I like your video.

Did you like that? Yeah, you should have
been making it.

Everybody was making fun of me.

I miss you.

Oh, yes.

They think in very specific images of
sex.

Very visual.

Yeah, I'm treating a woman, Stephanie.

26, an exhibitionist. We should get your
two guys and her together.

Yeah, joint research.

Yeah, exactly.

I'll tell you what, you pitch it to Ken.

Well, actually, he's got a lot riding on
your project.

And how it's apparently... the board and
really slammed him for okaying your

study.

I know.

How's it going?

Good.

I'm beginning to think that voyeurism is
just an extension of what gets you off.

Okay, I have this sometimes boyfriend
that I see occasionally.

Okay, we'll get back to that.

And when we make love, he likes me to
wear like a tank top or a t -shirt so

So that when we're making love, my
breasts are hidden and then eventually

they're just revealed slowly, right?

And that sort of thing turns them on. Or
I had this boyfriend in high school who

just had this thing for my butt, you
know? And so I'm thinking that voyeurism

just these guys' preference of how they
like to experience sex.

Nothing more and nothing less.

So, thank you for coming.

Tell me a little bit about yourself.

My name's Steven.

I'm a psychotherapist.

I have a very successful family
practice.

I'm married.

My wife Judy is a patent attorney.

I went to Golden State University in
Whittendale for my grad studies.

I run, work out.

I collect fine art.

I enjoy antique pottery.

And I do work with the Special Olympics.

Why are you here?

I'm here because I want to have a better
understanding of

this whole behavior I seem to be swept
up in.

I think...

My life can be a good deal more relaxed
if I can...

I don't know. Control is the wrong word,
but I

guess just have a better understanding
of why I'm doing what I'm doing.

It seems to be coming between

Judy and I.

It's a real problem for us.

Tell me about your first experience.

It all started on a Friday night.

My parents were out at the movie.

My brother Mark was downstairs with his
girlfriend.

I've never seen that before.

I knew I shouldn't be looking, but I
couldn't help it. I couldn't take my

eyes off of them.

I became very excited.

It was a very strange feeling.

They started having intercourse.

I could see everything.

And then, the most amazing thing
happened.

She saw me.

And she smiled.

It was like she was making love to me at
the same time Mark was making love to

her.

My brother dated her for about another
year.

Were there no other incidents?

Just one.

It was one night.

My brother and Kay were sitting at the
dining room table.

I was in the living room.

Mark left.

I'd seen that smile before.

I became very excited.

Very excited.

She spread her legs so I could see her
panties.

And then she smiled again.

And she reached out and pulled her
panties to the side so I could see her

vagina.

That was the most amazing thing.

To this day, I can picture it exactly as
it happened.

I don't know.

Whether it was the fact that it was a
taboo because it was my brother's

girlfriend, but it still gets me so
excited.

It's interesting how Stephen K., even
though he's a psychotherapist, seems to

blind when it comes to his own behavior.

I was particularly impressed by the
strength of his memories. He gets lost

them.

Voyeurism is this strictly visual,
therefore probably strictly male

It's a, quote, safe, unquote, behavior
because they don't have to commit to

another person on any meaningful level.

I had the dream set up in college.

Everyone there was pretty cool, so I'd
set up some bathroom cams, and I had

three of them, and I put them in
strategic locations.

I think that was one of the first ones
ever done, actually.

I saw some incredible stuff. I saw this
girl playing with herself.

And it was beautiful.

Why was that exciting to you?

Oh, I guess that's why I'm here, right?

And what other incidents stand out for
you?

I was at this party once, and I showed
this girl some

tape that I had shot of her playing with
herself.

She was kind of a freak because she
liked it.

So I shot some of her sucking me off.

And what was it like looking at yourself
on tape?

I don't know. I mean, I didn't really
think of it that way. It wasn't, you

it actually wasn't, it didn't quite work
for me. She knew she was being taped

and it fucked up the whole thing.

I told her the cameras were butted, and
I ended up getting the all -time best

tape anyhow.

It was incredible.

Yeah, it was so good.

Yeah,

it was so good.

They've done it like ten different ways.

They refer to that tape as the decathlon
tape.

My last girlfriend, Della, and I tried
to incorporate my voyeurism into the

relationship, but it was less than
satisfactory.

Meaning?

Got out of hand.

I lost control.

Not that I was ever in control.

What happened, Stephen?

I became obsessed.

With the idea of watching Della show
herself off in

public.

I took her to this nudie bar, you know,
the kind with amateur nights.

And at my urging, she entered the wet t
-shirt contest.

It's extremely exciting for me seeing
other men watching her.

She kept looking at me.

It was crazy. I gave her the thumbs up
and she went nuts.

She took off her t -shirt and exposed
her breasts for all the guys.

I became terribly excited.

I began touching myself.

Della saw that and she started touching
her tits and her breasts.

I thought they were going to pull her
off the stage.

They were yelling, take it off, take it
off.

So she removed her pants and her
panties.

Telling you about it, it makes me a
little uncomfortable, but being there,

seeing it, doing it, taking part of it,
the high, the adrenaline rush, it was

the best.

The best.

How did that incident end?

She masturbated herself on stage and we
had simultaneous orgasms.

Everything was fine for a while.

Then... I really don't know how to
describe it, but... It sort of builds up

inside of me to have to do something.
Something with an edge.

It's like taking a drug.

In any event, I... I asked Della...

To have sex with another man while I
watched.

And Della did this willingly?

Totally.

And how did it work?

I got two motel rooms right next to each
other and I set up a tiny video rig

between the two rooms.

Look, we talked about this. Everything's
going to be fine.

This is for me, baby.

Okay, I got the camera right here. He's
not going to see anything.

You just act normal, okay?

Bella got dressed up very provocatively
and went down to the bar in the hotel

room. Thank you, baby.

Okay, you ready?

Yeah. All right, let's do it.

A half an hour later, she came back with
this guy.

I'm just here overnight on business.

Damn, you're some fine -looking woman.
You know that, don't you?

And you are one hunk of a man.

That's why I invited you up here.

Because you look like the type of guy
who could fuck my legs out.

Oh, shit.

I want you to take my dress off.

No problem.

I can't believe this is happening.

You know what? I want you to put this
on.

Oh, man, I hate those things.

Here, lay back down.

I want to suck you off.

Come on, I want you to go down on me.

Yeah. Take your brass off.

Afterwards, after the guy left, I went
into the room.

Babe, that was incredible.

I came so hard.

What's wrong?

We never...

Truly ever recovered from that.

I thought it was going to be okay, but
it wasn't.

I've come to think about my behavior as
being addictive.

Because I say I'm going to do one thing
and then I end up doing another.

I just feel like I've lost control.

I just wanted to say that I really
appreciate the opportunity to come down

and talk about this part of my life.

When the researcher called me, at first
I said no.

But then looking back on all that, I
just thought if I came

down here and talked about it that I
might be able to let it go.

I think looking back on it now, which is
a hell of a lot easier than trying to

gain perspective in the middle of it,

I lost my self -respect.

I did things that I didn't think were
right for me.

Desperate things to keep me and Steven
together.

Then you didn't enjoy it.

I wouldn't say that.

It almost gave me permission to do
things that I wouldn't have normally

I think about those days.

Is this going to work?

Yeah. You know, what's interesting is I
found that two out of the three men felt

that no matter how much sexual
gratification they got from their

experiences, that voyeurism still had
this oppressive hold on their lives.

They felt in the grips of it. You know,
they felt victims of it.

And so did the people in their
relationships.

Well, maybe it's just those two guys.

Well, that's my universe.

My working theory is that the sexual
visual procreation genes were necessary

man's survival and not so much for
women's. And that's why voyeurism didn't

develop so much in women.

It's a little far -reaching for a
clinical observation, isn't it?

Of course, but, you know, I can't help
but go there.

I'm open to anything.

You never seem to set anything in stone.

I like that.

I like your process.

Thanks.

You know, I'm pretty much not into
talking about the voyeurism thing all

Okay, Michael, so we can talk about
whatever rock star all night long, but I

talk about my work and you freak out.

You want to know if I'm a voyeur?

I'm not.

Okay? I mean, I look at girls, okay?
Guys look at girls. That's the deal.

I just want a normal date, you know?

A nice dinner, some casual sex on
occasion.

You know?

But until you're done with this project,
I think I'm shit out of luck.

You know what? I am starting a new
project at a new job.

You think I'm under a little bit of
pressure, maybe?

I'm sorry.

Can you just give me some time, Michael?

Please.

Yeah.

I think I'm just getting a little
sketched about you

dealing with guy sex problems all day.

It's part of my job.

I know. And I know that you're totally
cool about it.

But still, what would you like me to do?

It's not you.

It's me.

I just think that the best thing for the
both of us is to just give each other a

little space.

What you need to do right now is this
study without me being all over you. You

know what? This is just, we're just
going through something.

I love

you.

I love you.

I'll call you.

I just feel so unprofessional.

There's no reason to be so hard on
yourself.

No, it's just, it's affecting my
everything.

It's affecting everything.

I think about sex.

I've driven Michael completely away. I
just, I feel obsessed. Why are you being

so tough on yourself?

I'm changing.

You know, I'm learning about myself. I'm
discovering new parts of myself and

experiencing new things. And Michael's
treading water.

And you don't want him bringing down
where you can't breathe. Right.

Right. Does this work affect you?

Yeah, how can it not? I mean, God.

It's a matter of finding a balance, like
having an outlet or other interests.

And we should continue talking for the
movies.

And we should make a point of it, huh?
Okay.

Thank you.

Next time I get this way, just hose me
off and send me on my way, okay?

You're doing all right, kid. You're
doing great.

Last time we talked, I asked you to try
to bring some intimacy into your

voyeurism, some humanity. What did you
come up with?

I hired an escort.

Call girl.

Whatever you want to call him.

Go on.

I took a hotel room.

Come on.

I'd like to see the money.

Oh, sure.

Sure.

No, no, um, I just want you to stand
here.

Right here.

And I want you to take your clothes off
slowly.

I have a camera over here.

Oh, well, you didn't pay me enough money
to take my shoes off. No, no, no, no,

I, um, I don't have any film in it.

You just want me to stand here?

Take off your clothes.

Slowly.

Slowly, slowly.

Nice and slow.

So you like tits?

Yep.

Do you want to suck on them?

No.

Do you like asses?

Why don't you come over here?

I don't think you should worry about me.

Do you want me to keep taking my

clothes off? No, don't touch me. No.

Get back here.

So you just like to watch?

Do you like to watch me play with toys?

Sure.

Take your top off.

All the way? Yes.

Is this turning you on?

Just take your panties off.

That's it.

Nice and slow.

Do you just want to see my pussy?

Want to see Epic?

Why don't you play with yourself?

I'm okay.

You're making me really hot.

Oh yeah.

Do you want me to come for you?

Mm -hmm.

You sure you don't want me to suck you
off?

Don't worry about me.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Where are you going?

Well, isn't that what you wanted? To
take pictures of me?

Paid for 45 minutes.

Yeah, but you said you just wanted to
take pictures, right?

Yeah.

That's right.

Aren't you happy?

Yeah.

No, no, no, don't touch her.

Thank you, that was great.

Thanks, baby.

Thank you.

So what was it like when she touched
you?

I didn't see her because I was looking
through the camera.

So when she touched me, I was completely
surprised. Because it's not about that.

Watching and getting off afterwards.

Remembering what it looked like and
bringing up all the little details.

So her touching me made it something
else.

And so did the reality of your
experience,

did it live up to your expectations?

Oh, yeah.

Yeah, it was.

It was expensive, but hey, we're here
for a short trip, you know what I'm

saying?

So did it not matter to you that what
you were looking at was set up, that

were bought images, that it wasn't real?

Real?

Well, that they were staged, that they
weren't reality.

It was real enough.

Hopefully you can use their voyeur
skills and apply them to their therapy.

Skills?

Skills, patterns, behaviors, call them
what you want, but use them as a tool to

bridge the emotional blocks they're
having with trying to have a quote

normal sex life with their partners.

Lisa?

Hi!

How's it going?

It's going so good. This is so
fascinating, you know?

Good. Well, if you need anything,
anything I can do to help you, let me

Okay. Okay, thank you.

I'm a little nervous being here.

I know that. This is going to be good
for us.

What we're hoping to do is re -divert
Stephen's sexual energy into his

relationship with you.

Sounds right.

So what I'm going to want the two of you
to do is I'm going to want you to use

some strategies that will enable this
process. I'm sorry.

The part I'm not sure I'm comfortable
with is doing with the cameras.

Right, I understand. Well, we do that
purely for clinical purposes.

There will be no way anyone can identify
you.

And no one will be watching. We simply
turn on the camera and leave, okay?

In addition, we use video fuzz blocks so
that all identities will be kept

hidden. And we do that right here in
-house so you can be assured there will

no gap in security.

Okay? Thank you.

You're welcome. It makes me feel a
little better.

Lisa and I have also spoken with Stephen
about some techniques that might be

helpful. And I thought that maybe it
would be best if you just be

Okay?

Okay.

All right.

So...

Why don't you stand by the bed?

This is exciting.

You're so beautiful.

I'd love it if you'd take your clothes
off.

Okay.

I love watching you.

Baby, you got a beautiful ass.

I want you to take your panties off for
me now.

Real slow.

Here I come, baby.

Hello?

Okay.

I'm gonna look in the mirror, Angel.

Okay.

Oh, you're so beautiful.

Oh, yeah.

Ooh.

Are you doing okay?

You're doing great.

I think it's good. I think everything's
going to work out really... Hold on,

Smet.

I'll call you back in about 15... In
about an hour. Let me call you.

I'm going to fuck you.

Take your pants off.

I want you inside.

It was fantastic.

It sure was.

Let's pretend it never happened.

You know, that's a very good idea.

How are you going to look back on all
this experience?

Well, look, I lived my life as a voyeur,
okay? I always have.

I've always just done it.

But I don't often get a chance to speak
with someone intelligent like yourself

about it.

And I'm very grateful to you for that.
It's been very helpful.

Thank you.

And your future?

My future? Well, I'm going for it.

You know?

I'm an escrow on this small apartment
building. It's got 15 units.

I'm going to completely outfit it with
optical fibers, surveillance cameras.

Look, nobody's getting hurt, okay? It's
for my benefit alone.

There's no harm. There's no foul.

Well, besides the fact that it's
illegal, I'll have to ask you why.

Because I've come to realize that my
life as a voyeur makes me happy.

So you're just going to manage these
apartments for your life and the rest of

your life?

Look, I'm going to be the guy who
decides who stays and who goes, okay?

I mean, I could have college girls in
one apartment building. I could have

lesbians in another.

You know, I'm going to have some real
variety here.

I mean, come on. I mean, I'm set for
life.

Set for life?

Yeah.

Uh -huh.

Who's getting hurt?

Who's getting hurt?

Nobody.

I'm not hurting anybody. I'm, you know,
I'm just, uh... I'm just having a little

bit of, uh... You know what I'm doing?

I'm giving blood to my fantasies.

There's nothing wrong with that, right?

It was great.

The use of those visual techniques, the
distance between us,

framing the image as much as the
reality, the mirrors,

playing to the image.

They worked really great.

But three months from now, when Judy and
I are both very busy, will it be

enough?

I don't know.

You know, with voyeurism, it's enough.

It's only me.

And each time, I'm satisfied.

Am I willing to put the energy into Judy
that I put into being a voyeur?

It's your choice.

Spells it out, doesn't it?

It sure does.

So I'm going to quit.

Totally.

Totally.

That's very brave of you.

I don't think I have a choice.

You know, if I want to have a lasting
relationship with a woman.

Well, I wish you the best of luck.

Thanks. Thanks. It's been interesting.

Yeah, thank you.

Yeah.

That night when I saw that menage a
trois, it

was a watershed event in my life.

From that moment, I

became a voyeur, an

obsessed voyeur.

Suddenly in my life, I just focused on
finding situations

where I could spy on people and

masturbate.

I would find hotel rooms that had

apartments across the street.

so that I could set up my telescope.

And then, one day, I was cruising in
Beverly Hills

adjacent. I had a lot of luck there.

I came up with my own system.

I'd shoot with a digital camera, and
then I'd put them up on my computer.

It delayed the sexual satisfaction.

It extended the exquisite tension.

I could see into a bedroom.

A man was handcuffing a naked woman's
wrist to a bedpost.

And he was putting a blindfold on her.

This was the most exciting thing that I
had ever seen.

I could barely shoot. I was so excited.

He was putting himself in her mouth.

If you'd like to see the description,
please.

Almost getting caught scared me.

It scared me a lot.

So I went into therapy and stopped being
a voyeur.

Totally.

I figured I was happy before the whole
thing, so why couldn't I be happy again?

I knew what Stephen K. meant when he
said addiction.

There's nothing inherently wrong with
being a voyeur, as long as there are no

victims, as long as your life is in
proper balance.

But I went a little overboard, to say
the least.

I've been dating.

He's a terrific guy. It's been going
really well.

I'm not going to say that I don't miss
the rush, but it's an even better rush

being in a loving relationship.