All language subtitles for Rehearsal S02E03

Good evening.

Tonight, I can report
to the American people

and to the world that
the United States has conducted

an operation that killed Osama bin Laden,

the leader of Al-Qaeda...

I've been really trying
to take the human mind

really seriously.

The lives of everyone who flies
on a plane may depend on it.

...dismantle and defeat his network--

The nation's new princess
could look back with such--

But I've become increasingly concerned

about doing so much
unproven testing on pilots.

So, I thought it might be wise
to run some of my riskier experiments

on animals first.

After all, we did evolve from them.

Let's go.

Several months ago, I met a couple
who had recently cloned their dog.

The original dog's name was Achilles,

and his clones are named Apollo,
Zeus, and Theseus.

Hi, lovelies.

Like, just look at that and, like,

look at them, and you're like,
"Oh, yeah, that's the same dog."

Apparently,
this is an actual science thing

that can be done.

Never kissed a clone before.

Achilles was our child. He was it.

He was our everything.
And so when he passed,

- I just said, "Let's do this."
- Right away, "Let's clone Achilles."

Yeah. And we were blessed
with three of him.

Three of the same dog.

But I discovered that dog owners

who pay upwards of 50,000 dollars

for the procedure of cloning a dead pet

are often unsatisfied with the results.

No, no, no.

My impression initially was

that there were no similarities,
in personality

between Achilles and these young guys.

They all look just like him.

There's just some things
they can't control in a lab.

Which makes sense.

The DNA, or the "nature,"
might be the same,

but the original dog

had a completely different
upbringing than the clones.

The "nurture" was very different.

Present day, Monique and Bogdan
are raising their three clones

in the quiet and spacious town
of Lone Tree, Colorado.

But when Achilles was growing up,

the couple lived in a cramped apartment

in the bustling tech mecca of San Jose,

where Bogdan worked for Intel
and Monique mostly stayed home.

So, at the time, I was just a pet mom,

just taking care of Achilles
and my cats. They were, like,

my world. They were everything.

Back then, we could not
have afforded to clone him.

- Or clone anything...
- Clone anything.

...actually, back then. Yeah, not at all.

Sorry. I'm just saying.

So, yeah, this is all--

- What was that?
- That was just...

- Rubbing her?
- Yeah.

Now, I'm gone
from like 8:00 p.m. to 2:00 a.m.

Like, serious vampire hours.

She now works as a DJ,
and Bogdan works from home.

Life is different for them now.

Look. Look at all the hair
on Bogdan there.

- Yes.
- Is that-- what is that,

- a dartboard?
- Yeah.

You have darts still?

- No, I don't have that anymore.
- No, we don't.

So, you were playing darts?

Recreationally.

And this was the perfect opportunity
to experiment with a theory I had.

If you could have the clone of a dog

live the exact life
that the original dog had...

Welcome to our stage.

Oh, my gosh,
that's exactly the chair I had.

- It is.
- It's the same remote.

Same remote.

...experiencing the exact same upbringing,

would the personality of
the new dog match as well?

So, this is the set of their apartment

from back then.

All right, guys, I want to introduce you.

- The-- These are the actors...
- Hi.

- ...that will be portraying you.
- Hello.

Come on in.

Bogdan always gets up at exactly 7:30.

Achilles and I would go
for really long walks

'cause it was just quite pleasant.

I prepared coffee.

One, two scoops. You know how it goes.

We had talked about having
children a long time ago,

but he wasn't ready

because he was so new at the company.

And his ball would be right here
with the kibble.

It was like, "Okay, he's not ready."

Okay. So, I mean, either I fight it...

What-- I mean, what do I do?

The clone we selected
to experiment on, Zeus,

was still an impressionable puppy.

So, with actors working
round-the-clock shifts,

the hope was that with enough time

living the life Achilles did at his age,

Zeus would basically become the same dog.

For Zeus's experience,
setting this all in LA was helpful

because unlike the mountainous Colorado,

the altitude here
was nearly an exact match

to Achilles's original home in San Jose.

Achilles!

The only difference
would be the smell of the city,

which was easy to match

by regularly collecting
San Jose air using a compressor

and transporting it 350 miles
via truck to LA.

That way, on Zeus's daily walks,

he'd smell the same thing
Achilles did back in 2011.

And with period-appropriate cars
and actors portraying tech moguls,

it was your average
San Jose morning but in LA.

I'm so sad about Steve Jobs.

- He was a legend, huh?
- Yeah, I know.

I had to miss the funeral,
'cause I overslept.

That's right, your IPO was
at midnight. How'd it go?

I had planned to have Monique
check in every week

to see if Zeus was becoming
more like Achilles.

Her method of doing this
was to have a fake diabetic attack

because she said
that Achilles had a unique reaction

when she had a real one.

He barked and he barked
and he licked at me

and he tried to wake me up.

Come here. Call Daddy.

But no matter how many times
she pretended to die...

Zeus didn't seem to care at all.

You're not paying attention to Mommy.

And when I tried to have
the actors do the same thing

during the simulation, he cared even less.

We were several weeks in with no results,

and I was starting to lose hope
in this experiment.

Theoretically,
if everything was identical,

this should work.

- Maybe I was missing something.
- All right, good night.

That's when I started
to notice tension brewing

in the fake relationships.

I told you not to leave
your cups like this.

- I-- Yes.
- Which I assumed was based

on what the actors had observed
from the real couple.

You need my help?

No, it's okay. I got it.

Just enjoy the movie.

It seemed like certain subject matters

were charged for Monique and Bogdan
when Achilles was young.

Back then, I was ready to have kids,
but he wasn't ready to do that.

So, I was like, "I'm getting a dog."

I just knew that I needed
to step back until he was ready,

'cause I wasn't gonna
just have a baby by myself.

Well, I have to admit, I was...

absolutely just devoted to work.

And knowing how sensitive
dogs are to emotions,

I encouraged the actors to lean
into their instincts

to better capture the atmosphere
in the house.

Is this gonna be a regular thing?

You coming home this late?

- Don't start, Monique. I'm tired.
- You're tired?

I'm lonely.

We're working on a new microprocessor.

It's a big project.

I would tell you something,
but you wouldn't even understand.

- I want a baby.
- This again?

You need to get a job.

You have no structure.
Your brain is going crazy.

I'm a human being.

I don't want to fight.

Me neither.

It's hard to know what, if any of this,

had an effect on Achilles's development.

Come.

But it seemed like Zeus
was registering something.

No, wait. We're out of condoms.

Oh, my God.

I don't have time for this anyway.
Me and the guys from Intel

have tickets
to see The Hangover Part II tonight.

Whatever.

Hey. Not too much water.

And then, three days later,
I witnessed something fascinating.

Monique had mentioned

that because Achilles
had lived with two cats,

he would end up mimicking their behavior.

He learned by doing pretty much
everything that they did.

And like, he would just run
along the top of the couch

like the cats would.

Which was something Zeus would watch
our actor cats do,

but had never done himself.

- But then, this happened.
- What if I did something with music?

I've always loved it.

- You don't play instruments.
- I know, I know, but like a DJ.

Come see, come see.

Okay, so I would start with this song...

I didn't think it meant much,
but then when I showed Monique,

- she got sort of emotional.
- Oh, my goodness.

This is almost like watching Achilles
at home.

Thank you.

- Yes, this is amazing.
- Thank you.

- You okay?
- Yeah, I'm good.

If something scientific
was actually happening here,

it could be important.
Because I had a theory

about how all this could be applied
to the pilot's mind.

I've been banned from Tinder,
Hinge, Bumble...

Ever since I spent time with Jeff,

I've been thinking more
about airline captains

and how they might be contributing

to communication issues in the cockpit.

I think part of the reason
why I was banned

was 'cause I...
In my bio, I had "No T-girls."

- No what?
- T-girls? Like transsexuals?

- In your what?
- Because-- In my bio.

Like, I've been fooled

multiple times by girls
that were born men.

It was hard to say
if what I had experienced with Jeff

was typical of airline captains.

But in most of these crashes
where communication was a factor,

the captain had created an atmosphere

where the first officer's opinion
was unwelcome.

Why are you holding power levers?

I am pilot flying, idiot.
I should be holding.

But there was one captain
I knew of that seemed different.

US Airways Flight 1549
made an emergency landing

this afternoon in the Hudson River...

In 2009, US Airways
Captain Sully Sullenberger

safely landed a plane
in New York's Hudson River,

saving all 150 people on board

after it was struck by a flock of birds.

Birds.

- Shit.
- Yeah.

But something else happened
in that cockpit before impact

that is less talked about,

but perhaps more relevant to my interests.

We've got both of them rolling back.

- My aircraft.
- Your aircraft.

Captain Sully asked his first officer

if he had any ideas
on how to solve the problem.

- Got any ideas?
- Caution, terrain.

- Actually, not.
- Terrain.

Here, the first officer didn't need

- to overrule the captain...
- Pull up.

...because Sully invited feedback
at a critical moment.

If other captains could have
the instincts of Sully...

- Right there is good.
- ...his personality,

it's possible

the entire aviation issue
I've been obsessed with

would vanish overnight.

Going up.

In Sully's memoir, he writes,

"I've come to realize my journey
to the Hudson River

didn't begin at LaGuardia Airport."

"It began decades before,
in my childhood home."

"My entire life led me safely
to that river."

What made him the captain he was
wasn't his pilot training.

It was living his entire life.

Look, what you're about to witness
is going to seem weird.

Which is why I'm putting myself through it

before I invite any real pilots
to participate.

But if a personality transfer
can work on a dog,

then maybe, just maybe...

it could work on a human being.

Living someone's entire life...

from baby until present day.

If even just the tiniest bit of Sully
could become a part of me,

it would all be worth it.

Sully was born in 1951
in the small town of Denison, Texas.

Chesley! There's my baby boy.

His mother, Pauline,
was a first grade teacher.

They had an extremely strong bond

and some of his earliest memories
were with her.

"'Charlotte?' he said softly."

"'Yes, Wilbur?' 'I don't want to die.'"

"'Of course you don't,' said Charlotte."

Experiencing the genesis
of this bond was essential,

as her influence on Sully

factored into so much
of the man he would become.

She would be his very first passenger
when he started flying,

and they built a foundation
of mutual trust

that sustained a lifetime.

A little boo-boo.

It was difficult at first
to inhabit the mind of a baby.

I know so much more than babies do,

and it can be hard
to forget all that stuff.

So, I tried not to think about the fact

that I was a 41-year-old man,

and just did my best
to be present in the moment.

I was playing the long game here,
and I just had to trust the process.

After all, this did work on a dog.

Fuck.

I obviously couldn't live
Sully's entire life in real time,

so I focused on the areas

he considered formative in his memoir.

Sully writes...

I wasn't always the perfect older brother.

When I was five and Mary was three,

I once took her out to play
in the gravel on Hanna Drive.

Some of the stones
were smaller than a pea,

and I thought it'd be fun to feed
these tiny stones to my sister.

You should know better than that, Chesley.

You're her protector. She needs you.

You need to take care of people
in life, not hurt them.

What happened out here?

Chesley put rocks in his sister's mouth.

What the hell is wrong with you, son?

- Why don't you just talk to him?
- I don't know what to say.

My father and I were affectionate,

and we were close
in our own somewhat stiff way.

Here.

Play with this instead.

We never shared
a lot of personal feelings.

We kept a lot to ourselves.

Sweet baby.

When Sully was 16,
he learned how to fly.

He paid for the lessons with a job
working as a janitor at his church,

where his high school crush
Carole sang in the choir.

She was quiet, similar to me in that way.

And so it was often difficult
keeping conversations going with her.

Hi, Sully.

Hi, Carole.

I like your dress.

Thank you.

You been to the movies lately?

I don't like movies much.

Sully writes that
he took a flight with Carole

that turned out to be
a pivotal moment in his development.

Here's your seatbelt.

Safety first.

So, it was critical I experienced
the exact same feelings he did.

Picture me, 17 years old,
with this pretty girl next to me,

her leg touching mine for two hours,
my arm rubbing against her arm.

I could smell her perfume,
or maybe it was her shampoo.

Look.

Once in a while she'd lean over me,
her hair brushing against my arm.

It was a new experience for me,

realizing that flying could be
such a sensual experience.

The way Sully writes about this flight,

it was clear he was aroused.

But he says this experience taught him

an essential skill for a pilot,

how to compartmentalize.

He had to balance his sexual desires
with the safety of the flight.

The problem was I was too uncomfortable

to actually get aroused

with a professional actress
right beside me.

After all, this wasn't a performance
for you, the viewer.

It was an experience for me.

Okay. I think you should leave now
for that thing we talked about.

So, at a key moment in the flight,
I had the actress exit the plane

and swapped her
with a robot version of Carole.

Then, I had my crew mount
all the cameras on tripods

and exit the warehouse completely

to avoid any legal issues that may stem

from what I was about to do.

I'm not gonna show you everything,

but I basically just masturbated
in the plane while trying to fly it.

The challenge of focusing on a task

when your body is indulging
in its most primal urges

was really tough.

But I eventually got there,

and just like I assumed Sully had done,

I was able to ignore my erection
in order to fly.

Stand up straight! Suck your gut in!

Push your chest out!
Get those shoulders back and down!

You think you've done a good job
polishing your shoes?

- Sir, yes, sir.
- Both shoes?

- Sir, the right and the layuft, sir.
- The layuft?

Looks like we got ourselves
a Southern boy here.

Dirks! What is your thumb doing
in your pocket?

I noticed that accomplished people
on TV, especially newscasters,

enunciated perfectly
and seemed to have no real accents.

British Field Marshal
Lord Montgomery said,

"I am very distressed.
I want to be left alone now."

"I waunt to be layft alone now."

"I want to be leyft alone now."

I tried to sound more like them

and less like some of the people
in my town

who had thick Texas accents.

"Left."

"Left."

But the more of Sully's life
I experienced,

the more I wondered why he included
some of these moments in his book,

and why certain things would be left out.

There was a near complete omission
of his first marriage,

and for some reason,
he jumped straight to the second one.

- I, Lorrie...
- Take you, Chesley...

- Take you, Chesley...
- To be my husband...

But I had no choice
but to stick to what he wrote,

because this was the only guide I had
to what his life was actually like.

...and of the Holy Spirit.

It would be so nice if they gave you
your schedule months in advance.

Can you imagine?
We could plan a vacation.

At times, I felt trapped in scenarios
that seemed deliberately incomplete.

Any time with you is fun.

Lorrie, if something's not a problem,

why do we need
to talk about it so much?

Right.

I'm just sharing my thoughts with you.

It seemed as though he was trying
to present himself as someone

with challenges that were relatable,
but never more than he could handle.

Just remember, life isn't a checklist.

I'm just trying to be efficient.

But I kept going.

And as I lived through
heavier moments in his life,

I felt something happening within me.

When did you want to do the memorial?

There are some things
I wanna say about Dad.

I had a chance to say everything
I needed to say to him

when he was alive.

We don't need a memorial.

As Sully, I wanted to talk
about my feelings.

But everything I knew
was telling me I couldn't.

In his writings,
Sully was careful to stop short

of implying his emotions
ever got the best of him.

He suggests he's never cried,

even in the most emotional moments
of his life.

He keeps using phrases like

"I found ways to cope"
without getting into specifics.

The words "cope" and "deal with"
actually show up

over 15 times in his book
without referring to a method of how.

And I had a suspicion as to why.

One of the nights
when the pilots were at my bar,

a captain shared with me

that when a pilot talks
about their feelings,

they need to be very careful.

Pilots are genuinely intimidated

to talk to anybody,
healthcare professional,

in any way that it could get
to the FAA about,

"Hey, I've been feeling this,"

or especially like mental health stuff.

Like, "I've been struggling
with this." Because historically,

if you put something
on a medical application

or if you talk to a doctor
or the FAA finds out about things,

they can just revoke
your medical certificate.

And as soon as your medical certificate

is revoked, you are grounded.

Could this be why Sully

was always talking around his feelings?

He didn't want to publish anything

that could get him in trouble
with the FAA.

He was forced to portray himself as a man

who could magically cope with everything.

And I found myself starting
to read his writings

as a code of sorts.

So, to get closer to the truth,
I began inventing situations

that he probably experienced
but never actually claimed to.

Hey. Thanks, Doc. I feel so much better.

See you next week.

Sir?

I have an opening right now
if you'd like to try a session out.

I'm all right.

What would a guy like Sully do to cope?

Here we go.

Yeah.

Come on, man. My man, on it, my man.

Hey, Sully. Forget airplanes.

You want something
that's gonna help you really fly?

I can't do that.

And I'm gonna have to report you guys

for violating FAR 91.17
Alcohol and Drug regulations.

So, now you're gonna rat us out?
What about the pilot's code?

My only code is safety.

Fuck you, Sully.

Well, more for me.

But I kept thinking about
something Sully wrote.

After his father's death,

he started referencing bands
and songs he liked

for the first time.

I think of my father
when I hear Sheryl Crow sing

- "Soak Up the Sun."
- It was an odd connection to make

since Sully's dad died well before
that song was even released.

But I noticed a pattern forming.

Sully never referenced popular music
once in his book

until 2002,

when he was 51 years old,
and coincidentally...

just months after
the iPod was released.

It fits a thousand songs?

I don't even think I can name five songs.

Well, maybe it's time
to increase your dosage.

There's no medicine more powerful
than music.

A lot of people into music
these days, huh?

Yeah, it's everything, man.

All right, what the heck. I'll take one.

After his father's death,

the word "iPod" began showing up
constantly in his book.

With unlimited access to music,

it felt to me that for the first time,

he had a way to understand
his feelings through lyrics.

I'm gonna soak up the sun...

My dad lived a line
from that Sheryl Crow song.

"It's not having what you want,
it's wanting what you've got."

But the one band he mentions more
than any other is Evanescence.

And living as him, I could understand why.

How can you see into my eyes...

The lyrics to their hit song,
"Bring Me to Life,"

was described by the songwriter
as a cry for help.

It was about no longer
hiding your true self,

- as imperfect as it may be.
- I've become so numb

Wake me up

- Wake me up inside
- I can't wake up

- Wake me up inside
- Save me

Call my name
And save me from the dark

- Wake me up
- Bid my blood to run

- I can't wake up
- Before I come undone

Save me

Save me
From the nothing I've become

- Birds.
- Shit.

Is it possible
that Evanescence taught Sully

that it's okay not to be perfect
and ask for help

just in time for his fateful flight?

Cactus 1539. Hit birds.

We lost thrust in both engines.
We're turning back towards LaGuardia.

When you listen to the cockpit audio
from Sully's crash,

there's one long stretch of silence
I find particularly interesting.

Okay, which runway would you like
at Teterboro?

We're gonna be in the Hudson.

At 28 seconds past 3:29 p.m.,

Sully announces the decision

to attempt a landing in the Hudson River.

Okay, let's get the flaps out.
Put the flaps out.

Flaps out?

But when the co-pilot tries
to confirm the direction

to put the flaps out,
Sully doesn't respond.

The co-pilot proceeds

- to put out the flaps anyways...
- Terrain.

...which create drag

- to slow down the plane.
- Pull up.

This is the beginning

of a 23-second stretch of silence
where Sully doesn't say a word.

You also got Newark Airport...

Even though air traffic control
and his co-pilot

are both trying to talk to him.

- Hundred and seventy knots.
- Too low, terrain...

- No power on either one.
- Without cockpit video,

we can't be sure what Sully was doing
during those mysterious 23 seconds

before he asked his first officer
for help.

Got any ideas?

- Caution, terrain.
- Actually, not.

- Terrain, terrain...
- But after the crash,

Sully's iPod was discovered
submerged in the flooded cockpit,

which he confirms in his book.

Okay, which runway
would you like at Teterboro?

We're gonna be in the Hudson.

It might be nothing,
or just a hunch I have

from living as him for so long...

- Okay, flaps out, put the flaps out.
- Flaps out?

But the chorus to Evanescence's
"Bring Me to Life"

just happens to be
exactly 23 seconds long.

- Pull...
- Wake me up

- Wake me up inside
- I can't wake up

- Wake me up inside
- Too low...

Save me

Two hundred and fifty feet in the air.

Call my name
And save me from the dark

- Wake me up
- Bid my blood to run

Got no power on either one.

- Too low...
- Before I come undone

Save me

Save me from the nothing
I've become...

Caution, terrain. Caution, terrain.

- Caution, terrain. Caution, terrain.
- Got any ideas?

Caution, terrain.

- Actually, not.
- Terrain, terrain.

Pull up...

Nice landing, Cap.

Hey. When they ask us
about what happened,

maybe don't mention...

Pilot's code.

- Pilot's code.
- Clear!

- Blood pressure?
- 122 over 78.

We all want pilots to be perfect,

but maybe in some instances,

we actually want them
to know that they're not.

It doesn't mean you're a failure

just because you can't get a dog
to react to a diabetic attack

after four straight months of trying.

It's okay to admit
that you can't do everything.

Maybe every captain needs to find
their own Evanescence,

whatever form that takes.

When the FAA eliminates so many options,

there's no easy path.

Out of any group of real people
we've reached out to

to be on one of my shows,

to my surprise,
we had the highest response rate

from professional pilots.

- It is a lonely life on the road.
- And more often than not,

they were less interested
in talking about aviation

and more about themselves.

I spent a lot of time
this year trying to like...

figure out why
I was so stressed all the time.

Yeah, she was--
I've been doing a lot of reading,

the typical narcissist mother
type of thing...

I've kind of always known

there was something wrong
with me, even as a kid.

The divorce was really tough,
and I lost everything.

Was I too hard-headed?

Was I trying too hard
to be the drill sergeant?

I've gotten really good
at compartmentalizing.

- And, you know...
- After the interviews ended,

many kept following up
and wanted to talk again.

You're like my therapist now.

Even just talking about this stuff,
it's like-- it's nice, you know?

I'm not sure what it means,
but it's interesting.