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♪ ("Just Like a Woman" by
Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Rebecca: I've
actually done my best

to really not think about this
for 30 years... (chuckles)

...let alone talk
out loud about it.

Society has a weird
view towards women

in these relationships.
There's so much misogyny.

You're sort of pigeonholed

into this girlfriend,
or ex-girlfriend,

or you're... these roles,
and you're supposed to...

um, sort of be cut as a
pathetic figure. (chuckles)

I've gone as far
from being an artist

in New York City,
as one can imagine,

and I think that is a
lot because of his death.

♪ No ♪

He heard the whole of
his person in the music.

Writing his second
record was so daunting.

♪ Tonight, as I stand ♪

Joan: It was a huge
step forward for him.

But I haven't been
able to listen.

(scoffs)

That might sound crazy, but...
(voice breaking) ...I can't.

♪ Just like a woman, yes... ♪

Mary: I certainly
was a flawed parent.

♪ Just like a woman ♪

But he sure got me, you know?

And he got exactly
where I came from,

and understood...

why I made the choices
I made in my life.

(inhales deeply)

No one has ever loved
me more or better...

than he.

♪ ("Last Goodbye" by
Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Jeff: Every human
being has music

that only they can make.

And it's my deepest form of
communication with people.

It'll always keep on changing,
it'll always defy anything

that tries to put
people in a box.

♪ This is our last goodbye ♪

♪ I hate to feel the
love Between us die ♪

-(crowd cheering)
-♪ But it's over ♪

♪ Just hear this
And then I'll go ♪

♪ You gave me more to live for
More than you'll ever know ♪

Jeff: There's things I wanna
do that I've never heard of.

It's my life.

♪ Yeah, this is
Our last embrace ♪

♪ Must I dream And
always see your face? ♪

I just love when men use their
voice so unselfconsciously.

I mean, he was literally the
best singer I've ever heard.

And he was so amazed by what
female singers could do.

Feminine, masculine, he
was and is my favorite.

♪ Kiss me, please kiss me ♪

♪ But kiss me Out
of desire, babe ♪

Ben: When you really
dig into the lyrics,

it's so sacred, him
recognizing his own...

I guess, you could
call it "mortality."

♪ I'll only make you cry
This is our last goodbye ♪

Jeff: I wanna be
songwriter Jeff.

Jeff Buckley, songwriter.

♪ Oh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

He had a way of playing

the most beautiful
songs you've ever heard.

He could have literally been
doing anything musically

that he wanted to do.

♪ Signs that it's over ♪

♪ Oh-oh, ooh ♪

♪ It's o... o... over ♪

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♪ (song concludes) ♪

Mary: First time I
heard Jeff sing...

he was in the bassinet. (laughs)

♪ ("Ain't No Mountain High
Enough" by Diana Ross playing) ♪

Mary: One time I came
in, and I could hear him.

He was vocalizing to the radio.

♪ Ah, ah, ah ♪

♪ Ah, ah, ah ♪

Jeff: The day I heard "Ain't
No Mountain High Enough,"

boom, boom, boom, boom, boom.

I thought, "Ooh, damn."

(sighs) "He's a singer."

Jeff: Music charged my life.

Interviewer 1: A good childhood?

-(reel whirring)
-Jeff: Uh...

It was a childhood.

(locomotive bell ringing)

♪ (woman singing in Spanish) ♪

Jeff: (over recording) My mom's
first-generation Panamanian immigrant.

Very good girl, brought up
with Voodoo-Catholic values.

You know, brought
over to Anaheim,

you know, that hellhole in Southern
California, where Disneyland is.

♪ (joyful fair music overlaps) ♪

♪ (music distorts,
turns ominous) ♪

-♪ (Spanish song echoes) ♪
-♪ (music intensifies) ♪

♪ (music abruptly stops) ♪

Mary: My parents had
high hopes for me.

You know, immigrant
parents, their eldest child.

I wanted to be an actress,
and sing and dance,

and play the piano,

but I had soiled
the family name,

and dishonored them
having premarital sex.

♪ ("Sweet Surrender" by
Tim Buckley playing) ♪

Mary: I met Timothy
in French class.

He would do things like
pull one hair on my...

(chuckles) Right? And
I would turn around,

and he would be
looking up. (chuckles)

We were two kids from
abusive, crazy homes,

and we just knew the world
better than anybody else.

♪ Now, you wanna
know The reason ♪

Mary: Seventeen at the time,

I was already a
teenage pregnant mom.

♪ Why I cheated on you ♪

My parents thought
maybe I should give

the baby up for adoption.

But there was no choice for me

but to go through
with the pregnancy.

And I knew from the fifth month

that I was never going
to see Tim again.

♪ This little man had to try ♪

Mary: First of all, he
was with somebody else.

♪ To make love feel new again ♪

Mary: Plus, he was determined
to be a singer-songwriter.

This child was on me.

♪ 'Cause there's just
A few things, honey ♪

Jeff: He split
before I was born.

You know, he decided not
to be a father to me.

You don't serve
your country, man.

You serve life,
you serve people.

TV, from the very beginning,
and also public schools,

have been the great lobotomizer.

(groans)

Everything in the outer
world is not the world,

the cars, how much
perfume you wear.

The world is what's inside

and what cats pull
out of themselves

-all through time.
-Mary: I said to him,

"You gotta go
pursue your dreams,

you go."

But... my dreams of
being an actress,

or being a concert pianist...

-that was all gone.
-(baby wailing)

Mary: Jeff and I sort
of raised each other.

♪ ("Mama, You Been On My Mind"
by Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Rebecca: Well, his
father wasn't there,

but this woman loved
him with all her heart

and didn't hesitate

to make him feel loved
at every chance she had.

He would come and put his
little hands on my face,

and say, "We're gonna
be okay, mommy, right?"

And I'd go, "Yes, we are,
honey. We're just fine."

He... had to take care of her.

And he was feeling like
she had been hurt...

and feeling horrible about that.

♪ Perhaps it is the color
Of the sun cut flat ♪

♪ And covering the
crossroads I'm standing at ♪

Mary: Jeff was like having a
grandfather watching over me

and telling me who
was okay to date,

and who wasn't.

♪ But Mama You've
been on my mind ♪

Jeff: When I was a kid, I
always felt really proud

if I could roll a joint for
all the grownups at the party.

I never did it, but,
like, I always...

"I wanna do it, let me do it."

I now remember the day
that my mom called me over

to the reclining chair,
and tried to explain to me

that if I told anybody
that they did this stuff,

they would go to jail.

♪ ("The Man That Got Away"
by Judy Garland playing) ♪

♪ And all because of the man ♪

♪ That got away ♪

Mary: When Jeff was little,
before I even made coffee,

music would go on, constant.
Constant, constant, constant.

Jeff: Judy Garland. Huh!
"The Man That Got Away."

I love that song.

And it was very important to us.

♪ ("Whole Lotta Love" by
Led Zeppelin playing) ♪

♪ Oh, I want A
whole lotta love ♪

Jeff: My stepfather, Ronald,
he was a car mechanic.

He was the one that
introduced me to Led Zepplin.

That changed my whole life.

Mary: Ron would turn the
stereo on loud enough,

the whole block could hear,
and there would be Little Jeff

laying on top of the speakers

with his little body
vibrating to the music.

Jeff: Music, it was my
mother, it was my father.

It was the best
thing in my life.

Mary: I see in the newspaper
this quarter-page ad.

Narrator: Tim Buckley
made a name for himself

as one of pop music's
genuine innovators.

Over the course of nine albums,

he incorporated the
prettiest of folk music,

the most extreme
of free-form jazz

and the raunchiest
of rock and blues.

Mary: And I thought, "Wow,
maybe this is an opportunity"

for my son to get
to know his father."

I looked at Jeff and said,
"Hey, would you like to go

see your dad perform?"

(indistinct chattering)

♪ ("Sally Go Round The Roses"
by Tim Buckley playing) ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ I'm singin' Sally go round ♪

Mary: Jeff was rocking
to the music...

♪ Saddest thing In
this whole wide world ♪

Mary: ...and looking
up at his dad.

Tim had his eyes closed, but
he had to know he was there,

had to be aware of his presence.

♪ Sally, don't you go down ♪

(crowd cheering, applauding)

Mary: When he went
back to the green room,

I looked down and said, "Do
you wanna go see him now?"

And I could feel Jeff
clutching my skirt...

(laughs) ...you know,
kind of hanging on,

pressing close,
and looking around.

I couldn't see Tim at first,
and then I heard, "Jeff!"

"Hi, bud. How are you doing?"

Jeff sat on his lap,
and he started talking,

what his favorite color was,

"My dog's name is King,"
what grade he was in.

♪ ("Calling You" by
Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Mary: About ten minutes
later, Tim said,

"We'd like to take him
home with us tonight."

(sighs, chuckles)
I'm going... (grunts)

"Yeah, you can take
him home right now,

but you better not fuck up."

Jeff: I stayed with him
a week. Easter vacation.

He had an adopted son,
he had a new wife,

he had a whole other family.

Mary: Four days later,
I got a telephone call.

Tim had to get back
into the studio,

and put Jeff on a
bus in Santa Monica.

"It was so much fun. My
dad has a lot of friends."

"And he gave me this."

I said, "You save that, buddy."

♪ ("So Real" by Jeff
Buckley playing) ♪

Jeff: No calls were returned.

It was two months before.

I have a great deal
of pain and anger,

but I have a great deal
of love and compassion...

for Tim.

Some things that he did
completely embarrass me to hell.

But the things that were great
hold up against anything.

Mary: Jeff wasn't even mentioned
in any of the obituaries.

Jeff: By the time I
was in high school,

got my first electric guitar.

It was a black
Memphis Les Paul copy.

Yeah, just fell in
with the wrong crowd

and got a band
together, of course.

♪ ("Eternal Life" by
Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

♪ Eternal life Is
now on my trail ♪

♪ Got my red glitter
coffin, Man ♪

♪ Just need one last nail ♪

♪ While all these
Ugly gentlemen ♪

♪ Play out their foolish games ♪

♪ There's a flaming red horizon
That screams our names ♪

(scattered crowd cheering)

♪ (melodic guitar strumming) ♪

Mary: At 15, Jeff was practicing

Al Di Meola every night.

Jeff: That was a fixation
I had up until the time

I was, maybe, 16. And I
can play anything I hear.

♪ ("Your Flesh Is So Nice"
by Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Jeff: My high-school
bullies called me "faggot."

And their fucking new-wave
girlfriends stenciled, "Geek,"

on my fucking Ovation
Viper electric guitar case.

♪ Roxanne ♪

♪ You don't have to
put on The red light ♪

Mary: Jeff had an ability
to mimic the vocal cadences,

and the inflections of
people he was listening to.

♪ Roxanne ♪

♪ You don't have to wear
That dress tonight ♪

♪ Walk the streets for... ♪

It's in exact album... It's...

'Cause, you know,
a lot of people

would tune it down a step,
so they could hit the note.

This is the exact...
It's... It's album pitch.

♪ Put on the red light ♪

It's the same key. (laughs)

♪ (upbeat guitar playing) ♪

Jeff: I used to wanna
be a guitar aficionado.

But the thing I was gonna learn
to do best was songwriting.

Music and words.

I decided to make
a woman of music,

and give myself to her.

And at another point,
I decided to make

a man of music and
give myself to him.

When you're a kid, people assume

that you have no
mind of your own,

which, at a very
early age, I did.

♪ ("So Real" by Jeff
Buckley playing) ♪

Jeff: I put so many things
onto music for me...

so that I wouldn't
shrink into a black...

universe.

(church bell tolling)

Mary: St. Ann's in Brooklyn
wanted Jeff to sing

at a tribute to Tim.

♪ ("I Never Asked To Be Your
Mountain" by Tim Buckley playing) ♪

♪ Oh, I never asked To be your
mountain I never asked to fly ♪

Jeff: I said, "No."

♪ Remember when you came to me ♪

Jeff: "I will never,
ever perform that music."

-♪ Told me of his lies ♪
-Jeff: "I've got my own music."

(soft guitar scratching)

Mary: I said, "You
know what, son?"

"Give it some thought."

"There's gonna be some
really amazing artists

in the lineup."

Jeff: So, I said, "Okay,
but I just wanna come on"

and sing, and come off."

"This is not a springboard."

"This is something
really personal."

Mary: And they told me, "Well,
we don't know how good he is,

so we'll put him
with other artists

to fill in any gaps
in his talents."

Hal: Dangerous
situations appeal to me.

There had been a bit of buzz

that Tim Buckley's
son would be there.

I figured, "Hey,
what's the worst

that can happen?"

♪ (soft music playing faintly) ♪

Jeff: (on microphone) Um...

Mary: The luminaries
of downtown were there.

This could be exactly
what I dreamed for him.

Jeff: (sighing) Uh...
(chuckles nervously)

Rebecca: I didn't know who
he was, and I'm working

doing sound and lighting,

but he was so
nervous. He was so...

Like, his hair was just
in front of his face,

and he seemed so awkward.

Jeff: Long time ago,
when I was a little kid,

my mom sat on a bed, and
she put this record on,

and I heard my father's voice.

Rebecca: He had on
his father's coat,

and he started to play...

It was his dad's song about
leaving him as a child.

♪ ("I Never Asked To Be Your
Mountain" by Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

♪ I never asked To
be your mountain ♪

-♪ I never asked to fly ♪
-Mary: And he was weeping.

♪ Remember when you came to me ♪

♪ And told me of his lies ♪

♪ You didn't
understand My love ♪

♪ You don't know why I try ♪

♪ And the rain Was
falling on that day ♪

♪ And that's the reason why ♪

-♪ Oh ♪
-(crowd cheering)

♪ Sweet ♪

♪ Sweet ♪

♪ Sweet lover ♪

♪ (song concludes) ♪

Hal: It did become
Jeff's concert.

(crowd cheering, applauding)

Rebecca: I was like,
"This can't be real."

(applauding fades out)

He told me he walked away

with no less than
60 business cards

in his pockets.

Jeff: My friend,
he said he heard

Tim Buckley's haunted voice.

It's not his voice,
and it's not my voice.

It's the voice that's
been passed down

through every man in the family.

Rebecca: He came out, and
sat next to me, and said,

"What did you think?"

I was thinking, "My opinion
here does not matter,"

but that was really stunning,
like, just so beautiful.

♪ ("Hymne à I'Amour" by Gary
Lucas & Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Rebecca: He was asking
if he could walk me

to the subway, and gets
on the train with me,

and took it all the
way into Manhattan,

and we're talking and talking.

And we stayed on that train,

and we went all the way up
to the last stop. (chuckles)

Jeff: Besides
reading and movies,

what I really like
is night prowling,

finding out-of-the-way
places where the misfits go.

(Rebecca laughing)

You're making me laugh so much.

(Jeff laughs, sings)
♪ Yeah, mean ♪

Rebecca: Then we
got in the downtown,

and we went all the way
to Coney Island and back.

(laughs)

♪ I will take to any task ♪

♪ I'll do anything you ask ♪

♪ If you really love me still ♪

Rebecca: He was so
interested in what I did,

which really surprised me

'cause I was doing
experimental theater.

It was really less
about money and fame,

and more about pushing
the boundaries.

Nobody I knew my own age

was really interested
in any of that,

but he was someone who drank
up the world like a sponge.

♪ ("You Make Me Feel So Young"
by Nelson Riddle playing) ♪

(siren wailing)

♪ You make me feel so young ♪

Jeff: Thank you.

♪ You make me feel like
Spring has sprung ♪

Michael: I was in a
play with Rebecca.

I was in high school.

And Jeff just felt
very electric to me.

♪ The moment that you speak ♪

Michael: Jeff had a
real lust for life.

♪ Go play hide and seek ♪

Rebecca: The East
Village at that time

was such a collection
of every eccentric

that did not fit
in anywhere else.

(crowd cheering, applauding)

♪ You and I ♪

Rebecca: And he
saw so many people

breaking down the status quo.

Artists were being banned.
The NEA was being censored.

Jeff: New York was the place
for this amazing stuff,

stuff I can't even
describe to you.

Sometimes he would
just disappear,

and I'd get a call from
a friend later going,

"Jeff showed up at my
house today." (laughs)

Every moment was so spontaneous.

He would make very
elaborate outgoing messages

like old-time radio shows.

♪ (dramatic music playing) ♪

Jeff: (over tape) And now,
the continuing adventures

of Spinach the Cat.

Michael: His most famous
being Spinach the Cat.

Jeff: (over tape) ...house
cat falls on the edge.

-And now, your host, Quentin Snobbery!
-(laughs)

Michael: Jeff didn't have a job,

so he had a lot of
time on his hands.

Jeff used to look specifically
for Michael Bolton tapes,

so he could put
the piece of tape

over the top, and
record over it. (laughs)

He would line up tape recorders
'cause there was no samplers,

there was no digital
computer, nothing.

Michael: He basically
created this little studio

all for this... (chuckles)
...outgoing message.

Pressing this sound effect

-for when the crowd cheers.
-(crowd cheering)

(laughs) And this sound
effect when the cat meows.

-(meows)
-It was an hour long.

And so people... (laughs)

...they had to listen to
this hour-long soap opera.

♪ (soft jazz music playing) ♪

Michael: He asked me,

"Do you think this
part is too much?"

I thought, "The whole thing
is too much." (laughs)

Jeff: (over tape) Join us next
time for the continuing adventures

of Spinach the Cat.

(indistinct chatter)

(whispering) I love
you. I love... (kisses)

Rebecca: I think
Jeff had this desire

to be liked and loved, and
to connect with people.

♪ (ethereal music playing) ♪

Jeff started calling
me Butterfly.

I think he saw me at that point
of coming out of a cocoon.

♪ ("Opened Once" by
Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Rebecca: We were these
two sensitive young souls

searching for where you fit in,
and feel empowered and loved,

and found each other.

♪ I once was open ♪

♪ And one With a
traveling heart ♪

But I called him... (chuckles)
...the Scratchy Fish,

'cause he was always not
shaving, very bristly.

(laughs) And he started
making these stories,

almost like children's stories.

This is Scratchy Fishy,
this is their home,

and this is Butterfly, and
they're getting married.

The story he wove about
a butterfly and a fish

was that they could
never be together.

♪ Just like the ocean ♪

♪ Always in love With the moon ♪

♪ It's overflowing now ♪

♪ Inside you ♪

Michael: You could see in his
eyes that he would sometimes go

to this place that I think
was very inaccessible

to anyone but himself.
He just would check out.

♪ In the half-light ♪

♪ You saw me as I am ♪

♪ (music concludes) ♪

(acapella) ♪ The stars
have lost Their glitter ♪

♪ The winds have grown colder ♪

I wanted to be a... you
know, a chanteuse. (chuckles)

♪ Don't know what happened ♪

♪ It's all a crazy game ♪

Jeff: Secretly, I think I
wanted to be Nina Simone.

♪ I love all things about you ♪

Jeff: Although she would advise
against this strongly, I'm sure.

-♪ Your heart ♪
-♪ Your heart ♪

Sometimes, I think I wanted
to be Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan.

♪ (singing qawwali in
foreign language) ♪

Jeff: He was my Elvis.

♪ Oh ♪

♪ (soft piano overlapping) ♪

-(vocalizes)
-(vocalizes)

♪ (Jeff singing in foreign
language, vocalizing) ♪

(crowd cheering, applauding)

(singing, melodic
vocalizing continue)

(audience members cheering)

Ben: To be a scrappy, young
White kid from Orange County,

covering Nusrat Fateh
Ali Khan or Nina Simone,

you just have to give it up.

He must've been
working his ass off.

♪ (Jeff continues singing
in foreign language) ♪

Kate: There was a
tiny little club

in the East Village
called Sin-e.

You could probably fit in

maybe 30 or 40
people at the most,

and it would be
super, super crowded.

And Jeff was washing dishes,
he was serving people coffee,

and then every now and then
he would just get up and play.

Jeff: (over microphone)
Check. That's cool.

-I'm a ridiculous person.
-(crowd members laughing)

Jeff: And you're lucky you've
paid no money to see me.

♪ ("Night Flight" by
Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

U2 member: It was an
Irish-run coffee shop.

A great little place to
see somebody in the raw.

(Jeff vocalizing)

This is a perfect
place for music lovers.

It's not like playing
at a rock club.

It's not like playing at a ball.
This is good place to get real.

(on stage) Turn it up.

Michael: It was
so homey in here.

It just smelled
of, like, espresso.

He'd be in the middle
of some, like, ballad

and you just hear that...
(imitates machine hissing)

-("The Way Young Lovers Do" plays)
-♪ And we sat on our own star ♪

♪ And dreamed of the
way that I was... ♪

Rebecca: The Sin-e
community became a place

of such encouragement for him.

♪ Oh, baby, baby ♪

It really became a home

-where he could experiment.
-(crowd cheering, applauding)

Jeff: (on microphone) ♪ It's a
fabulous time For a Guinness ♪

-(crowd laughing)
-♪ You know the brown liquor ♪

♪ (high-pitched scat-singing) ♪

-♪ (funky guitar playing) ♪
-♪ (scat-singing continues) ♪

♪ ("Smells Like Teen Spirit"
riff playing on guitar) ♪

-♪ (riff stops) ♪
-(crowd laughing, cheering)

Jeff: The Buttocks of
Steel tour, Jeff Buckley.

Michael: In the beginning,
there were just a few people.

Then all of a sudden,
it was, like, packed.

Jeff: (on microphone) I'll
play the seat-finding song.

Michael: Crowds, you know,
spilling out into the street.

♪ (whimsical tune
plays on guitar) ♪

-Jeff: Everybody, stop.
-♪ (tune stops playing) ♪

(crowd laughing)

He was really an
entertainer there

as much as a musician.

Jeff: By the way,
all these songs are

for the lovers in the audience.

-♪ (soft guitar playing) ♪
-Rebecca: He mostly did covers.

Michael: And then he
started introducing

some of the original material.

Andy: It went from laughing to
jaw-dropping, you know? (chuckles)

Jeff: This is a
song about a dream.

♪ (hums tune) ♪

-♪ (guitar strums chord) ♪
-♪ (vocalizes melodically) ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh ♪

(vocalizing) ♪ Whoo ♪

♪ Oh, Oh ♪

♪ Whoo-ooh ♪

♪ ("Mojo Pin" by Jeff
Buckley playing) ♪

♪ (gentle humming, vocalizing) ♪

♪ Oh, oh ♪

♪ (continues vocalizing) ♪

♪ Ooh... ♪

♪ (plaintive vocalization) ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

That was the first time I ever
saw Jeff Buckley at Sin-e.

♪ When I'm lying in my
bed The blanket is warm ♪

♪ This body will never
be safe From harm ♪

♪ I still feel your hair
Black ribbons of coal ♪

♪ Touch my skin
To keep me whole ♪

♪ (vocalizes melodically) ♪

I mean, you know,
a pin could drop.

I wasn't thinking about
being a music executive.

I was just a fan.

♪ Oh, if only You'd
come back to me ♪

♪ If you laid at my side ♪

♪ Wouldn't need no mojo pin ♪

♪ To keep me satisfied ♪

Michele: I was
there with Columbia.

I think we were
all sort of stopped

in our tracks that night.

♪ (continues vocalizing) ♪

♪ Oh, precious, precious
Silver and gold ♪

Jeff: (interviewed) The
whole record company gauntlet

started infesting
my gigs. (chuckles)

They were all there,
the people from Elektra,

Arista, Sony.

♪ And pray to love ♪

Jeff: (on microphone) Hmm!

It was a bit of a cotillion.

But that's the way it goes.

♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

Rebecca: We'd all heard
so many nightmares

about large labels, and
lack of creative expression,

but I think he went into it

feeling like he'd been reassured

that he was gonna get that.

♪ Well, it's you I've
waited my life to see ♪

♪ It's you I've
searched So hard... ♪

Jeff: I knew that they
were just sitting there

with bated breath, waiting
for the new Tim Buckley

to come up and pick up
where his father left off.

I hated it. I couldn't
stand it. Fucking bullshit.

Interviewer: What do you think
you inherited from your father?

People who remember my father.

Next question.

♪ (percussive music playing) ♪

Jeff: I went around and
sampled record company people

to find where I fit in.

Michael: Jeff had a
little bit of fear

about the fact
that he didn't have

more original material.

I would never tell
him what to do,

but I was like, "Go small."

Jeff: I went to
Sony. Well, Columbia.

When you walk in,

the first thing you
see is Bob Dylan,

on the wall, looking beautiful.
A foot away is Miles.

Foot away is Monk,
Duke Ellington,

Chambers Brothers, Mahalia.

♪ Sometimes I feel ♪

It was purely emotional, I
was like "Yeah, this is...

I wanna be... here."

♪ ("If You See Her, Say Hello"
by Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Michele: Columbia has
such a storied legacy

of Leonard Cohen and Bob
Dylan and Bruce Springsteen.

What we all felt sitting
in that room was that

he would one day be
in that pantheon.

Jeff: I said, "Gentlemen,
you won't be able to dictate"

anything to me,

"I'm just gonna make something
I've never heard before."

And the people
that I settled with

were pretty fine with that idea.

Rebecca: He was told
that it was, like,

one of the biggest deals

an unknown person
had ever gotten.

Rebecca: He brought home the
contract. It was, like, 40 pages long.

(chuckles) I'd never
seen anything like it.

♪ ("Sky Blue Skin" by
Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

It should have been just joy,

but I think suddenly
things changed.

I would come home from work,

and I'd come up the
six flights of stairs,

and I would get to the door,
and put my key in the door,

and I'd hear him stop.

Before the record contract,

he would sing and play
for me all the time.

I said to him, "Do you
need a place to work?"

The pressure to write songs
and not be interrupted

was so intense.

Jeff: I'm going to write...

a hundred songs in five weeks.

Means 20 songs a
week. (chuckles)

Ugh...

Michael: He struggled
with the lyrics.

Jeff: I'm a horrible critic.
I'm my own worst critic.

Michael: He was obsessed
with Morrissey and Dylan.

So, he had a very high standard.

He didn't wanna be known as
the guy who only does covers.

Rebecca: My hope had been that

we would work on
the relationship

and live together,

but he would find another
space where he could get

this record contract fulfilled.

That was naive to
hope... (chuckles)

...'cause he moved
out completely.

♪ ("Grace" by Jeff
Buckley playing) ♪

Jeff: People are, like, saying,
"Look, I'll give you all this money,

look, I'll be your manager,
look, I'll be your agent."

"Look, I got this place I want
you to play. Blah, blah, blah."

And I just wanna make
something special,

not even care about
anything else,

money, or prestige,
or a tour, or nothing.

♪ There's the moon
Asking to stay ♪

♪ (continues singing lyrics) ♪

-Try it again.
-(record rewinding)

(metronome ticking)

♪ There's the moon
Asking to stay ♪

♪ Long enough For the
clouds to fly... ♪

Rebecca: Coming up with a
record's worth of material

with musicians and a producer
and engineers waiting,

and everybody is
dependent on you,

you know, it's like,
tick-tock, start making magic.

Let's try it again.
(whispers) Come into my world.

(over recording) My journals
are the lyrics for the albums.

The songs just
come out of poems,

and sometimes poems
come out of dreams.

♪ And she weeps on my arm ♪

♪ Walking to the bright
lights In sorrow ♪

♪ Oh, drink a bit of wine
We both might go tomorrow ♪

Jeff: (interviewed) This
is a song called "Grace."

It's basically a death prayer.

♪ Ooh ♪

I always describe
it as, you know,

not fearing anything,
anyone, any man, any woman,

any war, any gun,

any sling or arrow aimed at
your heart by other people.

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ It reminds me of the pain ♪

♪ (continues singing lyrics) ♪

Because there is
somebody finally

who loves you for real.

Jeff: You can achieve
a real state of grace

through somebody
else's love in you.

Jeff would say, "Oh, we should
bring strings in on this song."

Karl: We had this idea to
write interesting backgrounds

that fit the voice,
actual lines,

you know, counter lines.

Andy: Karl came
from the jazz world.

He was more appealing to Jeff

than somebody who does
pop string arrangements.

Britney Spears would
call, and I said,

"No, that's... you're
calling the wrong person."

Jeff listened to Bill Evans.
He listened to Shostakovich.

♪ (music stops) ♪ -Have you
heard of any pop singers

even knowing who
Shostakovich is? (laughs)

-♪ (music resumes) ♪
-♪ And the rain is falling ♪

♪ And I believe ♪

Don: It was the same way

that Led Zeppelin
used orchestrations.

Any orchestra leader
would have loved

to have had their day with Jeff,

to be able to just
go to the moon.

(chuckles)

People who sing high lose power.
Jeff actually gains power.

Michael: His range
was like four octaves.

Karl: You think you're
coming to a peak,

and then he goes
one step further

and then he goes
another step further.

♪ Oh! ♪

♪ Oh! ♪

♪ Oh! ♪
(vocalization intensifies)

♪ Yeah, whoo ♪

"Grace" is one of those songs that would
inspire me to pick up the guitar and play,

and then I'd start to

kind of... find something
that made me feel like that,

and fail miserably at
it, put the guitar back.

♪ Oh, oh! ♪

Merri: Jeff said, "I want
you to shoot my album cover."

I had all the contact sheets,
and Jeff just went... boing,

"That's it. That's the cover."

Michele: It's completely iconic.

He already looks
like he's Sinatra.

Merri: The folks at
the company didn't like

the glittery gold jacket.

"Yeah, that's a little
too effeminate."

And Jeff's like,

"You gave me creative
control. I choose that."

♪ And I feel them
Drown my name ♪

♪ Was so easy to know ♪

♪ And forget with this kiss ♪

♪ Well, I'm not afraid to go ♪

♪ But it goes so slow ♪

Jeff: (interviewed) Seven
originals, three covers.

(vocalizes) ♪ Wait in the fire ♪

♪ Wait in the fire ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪

Ben: He made a record that
no one else could ever have

come close to making as a
first record, it's uncanny.

Karl: Now, it's like
a legendary album.

People know me better for
that than for my own music.

(chuckles)

♪ Oh, yeah, wait in the fire ♪

-♪ (vocalizing) ♪
-♪ (song concludes) ♪

-That was all right.
-Man: It was great.

Mary: I remember...

putting it in the CD
player in my car...

and I was...

overwhelmed with the mastery,
and the musicianship...

and the poetry.

And...

and the vocal performances...

were beyond anything

I had imagined he
was capable of.

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ ("Mojo Pin" by Jeff
Buckley playing) ♪

(Jeff vocalizing)

Don: Boy! France,
Australia, UK, huge.

"Grace" was huge! It
was a monster hit.

US, moderate.

(Jeff vocalizing)

♪ Oh ♪

Jeff: (interviewed) As a
child, I lived in Los Angeles.

I mean, you see
people getting signed,

dreams totally inflated falsely.

But I really admire
artists allowed to fail,

are allowed to be human,

allowed to make the
most glorious dances

they could ever imagine,
and totally fall,

and get back up
'cause it's all human.

But if you're like this side
of, you know, Danny Partridge,

it's just, like,
totally impossible.

♪ ("Hooker With A Penis"
by Tool playing) ♪

Artist: It's the era of grunge.

And Jeff was a real
counterweight to that.

He was part of this
downtown New York scene.

-♪ (gentle piano playing) ♪
-♪ (Jeff vocalizing) ♪

Michele: Back then
Jeff defied genres.

Jeff tested boundaries.

Jeff challenged traditional
male, female roles.

So, his music was
not easy to fit

into the dozen radio categories.

♪ ("Rusty Cage" by
Soundgarden playing) ♪

Michele: And yet Jeff
was also influenced

by some of the
artists that came out

in the late '80s and
early '90s from Seattle.

Soundgarden was
playing in London,

and I don't think
I quite realized

what a huge Soundgarden
fan Jeff was.

♪ You've been taken ♪

Oh, my goodness, this
is where he could be

like a little, you know,
annoying brother, like,

"You have to take me.
I'm coming with you."

♪ (gentle music playing) ♪

He just magically
showed up one day,

and it was on.

It was a beautiful,
beautiful friendship

between he and Chris.

There was a sense of
mischief with this...

almost soulmate understanding.

Jeff: Chris Cornell
does it really well.

He's, like, the one of
the few people I've met

that makes his life
work, his ordinary life,

'cause without ordinary
life, there's no art.

♪ ("Mojo Pin" by Jeff
Buckley playing) ♪

Interviewer: How would you
like your fans to think of you?

Jeff: (over recording) Just
as a... Really as a guy

that's just, like, a
really good storyteller.

Just somebody who does
a job that they enjoy.

Joan: Of course,
it was incredible

that so many people
reacted to his music,

but the fame that
went along with that

was not the fun part.

Even when he acted confident,
it was kind of an act.

It was him channeling that
bravely as a character,

but I still think that
really insecure person

was always there.

Jeff: (interviewed) Well, everybody
is sensitive, but sometimes,

men don't wanna recognize it.

I don't even want people to
really think of me as a face,

or a name, or a body, or
anything, just the music,

'cause when I'm dead...

that's the only thing
that'll be around.

(Jeff vocalizing)

♪ ("Lover, You Should've Come
Over" by Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Rebecca: How he was being
examined under a microscope

was so intense,

'cause that quality he had
to disappear in the moment...

ultimately amounted
to not showing up

where I was. (chuckles)

One night, he didn't come home,
and this was Valentine's Day.

By 03:00 or 04:00
in the morning,

I was calling hospitals
around New York City.

And then he just sauntered in.
He had been out with friends.

♪ Maybe I'm too young ♪

♪ (continues singing lyrics) ♪

♪ But tonight... ♪

Jeff: (over voicemail) Hi,
Rebecca, it's nine o'clock

and I fucking couldn't
get into your show,

'cause I got there too
close to eight o'clock.

I'm so disappointed. I
really wanna see you.

♪ Too young to hold on ♪

♪ And too old To just
break free and run ♪

Rebecca: During his
record-release party,

I had a backstage pass. He'd
handwritten my name on it.

His manager was at
the door, and he went,

"You can't go in
now. Sit over there."

Two hours went by,

I went to the door, and
I turned the handle,

and I walked in... (chuckles)

...and it was a
mostly empty room.

♪ Gets carried away ♪

Rebecca: They said Jeff
left, like, over an hour ago.

He must have gone
out a back door.

The next morning, he
was so apologetic,

and really upset...

but I felt resigned.

I didn't wanna be an appendage,
I didn't wanna be in his world

if he didn't really
want me there.

♪ So, I'll wait for
you And I'll burn ♪

♪ Will I ever see
Your sweet return? ♪

The hard part about
letting go was like,

"I hope he will
have good people,"

because he didn't have
any self-protection.

♪ It's never over ♪

♪ She's the tear that hangs
Inside my soul forever ♪

♪ Love, lover ♪

♪ Lover ♪

♪ Lover, lover, lover ♪

♪ Love, love, love ♪

♪ Lover ♪

-♪ You should've come over ♪
-(crowd cheering, applauding)

♪ 'Cause it's not too late ♪

(crowd cheering, applauding)

Michael: When Rebecca
and him split,

he just kind of looked like a
different person for a while.

-(indistinct chatter)
-(traffic rumbling)

There was a time when
I was in New York

and we spent some time together,
and... we met at a bar.

And this jazz band
is really loud,

so it was impossible
for us to talk.

We started writing
each other messages.

For a lot of it, I think he
was trying to be seductive...

but... (chuckles)

...it was, like, really
not where I wanted to go.

♪ ("So Real" by Jeff
Buckley playing) ♪

There was a very boundary-less
kind of liquid feeling to him.

He felt very desperate
to self-medicate

with, you know, making us
into a sexual relationship.

I remember getting
kind of frustrated,

and writing, "You
need love, not sex."

Generally, I love
to rush in there,

and try to fix a broken guy,

but that liquid, watery quality
just felt very tidal-wavy.

Michael: He was very
hard on himself.

Like, sometimes I
got the sense that...

he felt that there were
good and evil forces,

you know, at play within him.

♪ (song concludes) ♪

(indistinct chatter)

Jeff: Music, I don't
know, it'll save you.

One, two, three!

♪ (country-style guitar
playing) ♪ -(woman laughing)

♪ Lover, you
should've Come over ♪

♪ Lover, you should've
Come over, whoo-hoo! ♪

♪ Lover, don't forget To
bring the Coors, whoo! ♪

Jeff: Matt Johnson on drums.

The bass player, Mick Grøndahl.

-I'm Mick Grøndahl.
-And I'm Jeff Buckley.

And you're watching
120 Minutes on MTV.

He asked me to
join the band too.

Sometimes I think
Jeff wanted me,

because I was a
connection to Rebecca,

and those memories.

Gene: I think that it was
clear that Michael didn't know

how to play the guitar. (laughs)

Yeah, all right,
there were tube socks.

They were tube socks.

Gene: But it was
about personality.

It was about people.

Michael: I would have
my amp really quiet.

Jeff would slowly
turn it back up,

you know, and I'd get all tight.

He always told me not to
be afraid of the mistakes.

Don't use your brain the
way you were using it

30 seconds ago. You know? In
fact, don't use it at all.

Matt, in particular,
was just so good

at following Jeff
wherever Jeff was going.

(screaming, laughs)

That musical chemistry they
had is very hard to come by.

My name is Jeff Buckley,

this is my band, and
this is our tacky abode.

On the outside, it looks like
a huge black phallus of death.

It's a Velcro clock.

Gene: He's like,
"Okay, I want you."

Until I got sober,

drugs and alcohol had been
a big part of my life,

which we connected on,

because of, you know,
his father's situation.

Jeff: So, it just fell
out of your pocket?

(indistinct chatter)

Michael: It's a huge
cliché that, you know,

bands are like
families. But they are.

Whoo!

-(laughs)
-♪ Thank you! ♪

♪ (song concludes) ♪

Mary: The infamous American
Legion Hall concert...

was the first one
that Jeff was in town

-since he started the tour.
-(crowd cheering)

Mary: All of the relatives,
the friends of the relatives,

the relatives of the
friends of the relatives,

all wanted to go to the concert.

(baby giggling)

Mary: We filled the last
two rows. (chuckles)

The Tasmanian devil was...

(chuckles) The...
the pack showed up.

And there was no beer left,
there was nothing left.

Everything was, like,
wiped out before the show.

Mary: Let's just say that

as soon as there
was an opportunity

to become part of
the inner circle

of a rock star, it
was very attractive.

Gene: The promoters came to me,
and said, "We have a situation."

I go outside and I...

(knocking on window)

...realize it's Jeff's
mother... (chuckles)

...sitting in a car with
her... one of her girlfriends,

just... smoking pot.

You know, "Hi, Gene.
What's up, hey?"

"Well, Mary, listen,
you gotta, you know...

you gotta curtail this.
You're gonna get arrested."

And I go back
inside to tell Jeff

that the show's
gonna be canceled

'cause his mother was
outside in the parking lot,

smoking pot. (laughs)

Jeff: Hey! Are you there?
This is your big, sexy son.

I think you should really not,
like, set yourself up like that

when you're, like,
"Fucking light up a doob,

light up a fucking joint."

"What? We're in the parking
lot. It's like over there..."

"It's California. What?"
(chuckles) "No, no, no, no, no."

-♪ (rock ballad playing) ♪
-(indistinct chatter)

Jeff: We ended up in Iowa
City, and opening up for us

were The Dambuilders
and then the Grifters.

David: My booking agent said,
"Tim Buckley's son, Jeff,

who had taken New York by storm

was going to be on this
tour as the headliner."

Parker: Joan Wasser was
one of the heavyweights

in the music world, being
a tough-ass cool female

coming up in the '90s
through the music scene.

♪ Control! ♪

♪ ("Teenage Loser Anthem" by
The Dambuilders playing) ♪

♪ Wake up... ♪

Parker: Lots of
power, lots of shiny.

You know, lots of shiny.

When I saw him, it
was definitely a vibe.

We were just sort of
checking each other out.

(indistinct chatter)

♪ ("Everybody Here Wants You"
by Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

♪ And I'll rise like an
ember In your name no... ♪

Joan: Well, Jeff stood right
in front of me the entire show

-and watched me.
-(crowd cheering)

♪ I know everybody
here Wants you ♪

Joan: He was rocking a, like,
I'm-worshipping-a-goddess vibe.

♪ Everybody here
thinks They need you ♪

-Not subtle. Not subtle.
-(indistinct chatter)

Joan: And then hearing him,

the thing that I thought of
was, "That's Nina Simone."

♪ I lost myself ♪

♪ On a cool damp night ♪

♪ (delicate guitar
plays chord) ♪

♪ I gave myself In
that misty light ♪

♪ I was hypnotized By
a strange delight ♪

♪ Under a lilac tree ♪

Joan: He sang the
whole show to me.

Joan: It was like,

"Man, this... this guy really
knows how to work." (chuckles)

Work me right now.

♪ ("Lilac Wine" by
Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Joan: I was feeling
like, "Oh, I got this,"

and then being like,
"Oh, I don't got this."

This person is too powerful.

♪ Lilac wine ♪

♪ Is sweet and heady ♪

♪ Where's my love? ♪

♪ Lilac wine ♪

♪ I feel unsteady ♪

♪ Where's my love? ♪

♪ Listen to me ♪

♪ Why is everything so hazy? ♪

♪ Isn't that she Or
am I just going ♪

♪ Crazy, dear? ♪

Joan: That night
these jocky guys

were, like, making fun of me.

I had this very
cartoony type of hair,

so I was pretty used to that.

But Jeff leapt up and said,

"You wouldn't know a woman if
she slapped you in the face!"

I was like, "Oh, God, that's
so romantic. I love it."

And like, "Fuck that. I
don't need defending."

But I came to learn that
he was someone who was...

a really staunch
defender of women.

♪ I feel unsteady... ♪

Joan: All people are sensitive,

but his sensitivity
wasn't crushed...

like some men's
sensitivity has been.

♪ Listen to me ♪

Joan: It stayed intact.

♪ I cannot see clearly
Isn't that she... ♪

David: You're talking about
two amazingly talented people

who immediately connected.

First thing I thought
of, "Oh, my God,

they're gonna become a band,
and it's just gonna... rule."

♪ Yeah! Yeah! ♪

♪ ("Kick Out the
Jams" playing) ♪

♪ I know how you like it child
Of mine, quick and tight ♪

♪ When girls can't stand it
When you're doin' it right... ♪

David: Jeff toured a lot.

It was a slow growth
of that following.

♪ Doin' it right ♪

Michael: We toured almost
consistently for two years.

Interviewer: What's life been
like since "Grace" came out?

Jeff: Work, work,
work, work, work.

♪ I gotta kick 'em out! ♪

His label, they wanted
him to be their...

And he was like, "Well,
I have another idea

of what that means."

Being famous without
content, that really irks me.

He did get discredited by
certain, like, "cool" musicians

because of the branding.

Joan: He was chosen to
be in People magazine's

"The 50 Most Beautiful People"

or whatever the hell
that was called.

The poor relatives, I think
one of them walked up to him,

"Look, Jeff! Look
what I've got!"

And he took her Sharpie
and just went...

Joan: We went to
every news stand

and bought every single one.
He spent hundreds of dollars

so that no one would see
it in his neighborhood.

The entire show is dedicated
to People magazine.

♪ Let me kick out
The jams, yeah ♪

It was becoming an increasingly
stressful environment.

♪ Done kick'em out! ♪

Interviewer: You're very much a
public person now. How does that feel?

Well... I'm public
with the camera,

but, uh, don't like TV.

What does your TV station
wanna know about me?

♪ (delicate music playing) ♪

Michael: Once we got to Europe,

I remember we felt a little...
(chuckles) ...sense of relief.

(news reporter
commenting in French)

News reporter 2: Jeff
Buckley is being hailed

as the next Bob Dylan.

(announcing in German)

He has talent to
burn, and we recommend

that you give this
album a listen.

♪ ("Je N'en Connais Pas La
Fin" by Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

♪ People came there from... ♪

Michael: The album was
doing better over there.

♪ (bass drum beating) ♪

Michael: Radiohead came
to a show in London

and was so inspired by Jeff

that they left the concert
and went right to the studio

and recorded "Fake
Plastic Trees."

♪ Fake plas... ♪

Michael: In Paris,
we went to the opera

and walked along the Seine

and went to every
café that we could.

-(man speaking in French)
-(chuckles)

Don: They fell in love with him.
And who wouldn't fall in love

when you do justice
to an Edith Piaf song?

(Jeff singing) ♪ Oh, mon amour ♪

Interviewer: What
about Edith Piaf?

-What's your attraction to her?
-Jeff: To her sound, her voice.

♪ A toi toujours ♪

Jeff: Her sexiness, the romance.

Her tragedy.

♪ Dans tes grands yeux ♪

Ben: No one could
rock like Jeff.

But once you do "Hallelujah"...

-(siren blaring)
-...God help you.

(announcing in French)

(crowd applauding)

♪ ("Hallelujah" by
Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

This is for Leonard,
wherever you are.

And this is for Nina Simone.

♪ And I ♪

♪ Heard there was
A secret chord ♪

♪ That David played And
it pleased the Lord ♪

♪ But you don't really
care For music, do ya? ♪

♪ But it goes like this
The fourth the fifth ♪

♪ The minor fall
And the major lift ♪

♪ The baffled king
Composing Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

Joan: We were both on the road.

You know, it was,
like, so romantic.

Like, impossibly romantic.

But when we were together,
we created a space

where nothing was too
scary to talk about.

We both needed that so badly.

♪ And she tied you To
her kitchen chair ♪

♪ She broke your throne
And she cut your hair ♪

♪ And from your lips She
drew the Hallelujah ♪

Interviewer:

Jeff:

My high school bullies
are undoubtedly living

-a completely pathetic life.
-(crowd cheering, applauding)

♪ Maybe there's a God above ♪

♪ But all I've ever
learned From love ♪

♪ Was how to shoot
somebody Who outdrew ya ♪

Joan: We felt like
we found the person

that we felt the most safe with.

Nothing was off-limits.

♪ And it's a broken... ♪

We could just be free,
really, for the first time.

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelu... ♪

♪ Jah ♪

-♪ (music concludes) ♪
-(crowd applauding, cheering)

Thanks a lot.

Interviewer: What is the connecting
thread? Because you'll do a cover

of Bad Brains or of The
Smiths or of Edith Piaf or...

Um... Probably, my
mindless hero worship.

(chuckles)

(Robert Plant) ♪ Hey, hey,
mama said The way you move ♪

♪ Gonna make you sweat
Gonna make you groove ♪

This is Jimmy Page
and this is...

Uh, I'm Robert Plant and, uh,
we're at the 99th festival

of this tour Europennes.
And it's, uh...

-Woman: Sorry, "Eurockéennes."
-I don't care.

We're at the Eurockéennes
festival, eh?

Vive le rock!

♪ ("Black Dog" by Led
Zeppelin playing) ♪

Michael: I don't think
Jeff had ever seen

Page and Plant live.

Jeff: My main
musical influences,

love, anger, depression,
joy and Zeppelin. (chuckles)

It was like he was going
to Mecca or something.

♪ My life happily without ya ♪

Ben: Backstage at the festival,

I felt something
over my shoulder.

It was like heat.

And I turned around, Jeff
was walking towards me.

He put his hand on my
shoulder, said, "Hey",

I love your
slide-guitar playing.

"Could you show me some
slide-guitar stuff?" And I said,

"Well, Jeff, you
can probably show me

some... some
slide-guitar stuff."

He said, "No, please,
show me," you know?

And he said, "Hey, Page
and Plant are playing."

"When I... When I get off,
if we go straight there,

we'll make it. We'll meet
at the side of the stage."

And we were both really
excited, obviously, to see them.

(crowd cheering, applauding)

Ben: After Jeff's show,

I go around, where
I'm in the pit.

♪ (rock music
playing on stage) ♪

We're looking for
Jeff constantly.

Trying to watch the show.
We're trying to look for Jeff.

We looked up.

He's just out of my periphery.

Oh, shit!

There's Jeff, hanging,
all the way up,

off the scaffolding.

♪ Oh ♪

Zeppelin is at full throttle,
and Jeff is with every decibel

coursing through his veins.

-You can call it death-defying.
-♪ (music continues) ♪

(crowd cheering)

♪ Oh-oh! ♪

Matt: The volume of music
as it passes into your body

turns you into an instrument
that your own ears hear.

There's a great deal of
comfort, in the same way

that a baby's greatly
comforted by their mother.

♪ (Jeff singing indistinctly) ♪

He looked at us and
gave us a wave, like,

like... said,
like, "Come on up."

-Like, the water's warm.
-♪ (music concludes) ♪

(crowd cheering, applauding)

Jeff: Music, it was my
mother. It was my father.

♪ ("Dam Mast Qalandar" plays) ♪

♪ (singing in
foreign language) ♪

Joan: When he was
back in New York,

we went and saw Nusrat
play at Town Hall.

♪ (song concludes) ♪

Joan: After the show,
we went backstage.

Nusrat, very, like, placid.

And here was this, like,
bouncing-around Jeff.

Nusrat did not
speak any English,

and Jeff was trying
to connect with him,

and then he just
started s... Oh.

(inhales sharply)

♪ (Jeff singing "Yeh Jo
Halka Halka Suroor Hai") ♪

♪ (singing in
foreign language) ♪

Nusrat, like, looked
at him, like...

(chuckles) "What the
fuck is going on?"

♪ (Jeff continues singing
in foreign language) ♪

Joan: The smile
came on his face,

and it was just instant
respect and love.

♪ (Jeff continues to sing
in foreign language) ♪

Joan: That is a
universal language.

♪ (soft instrumental
music playing) ♪

Jeff: I didn't only
just listen to things.

I totally, absolutely
lionized everybody

having anything to do with it.

(crowd cheering, applauding)

Some of Jeff's heroes
eventually became fans of him.

I was at a show at Roseland
where Paul McCartney

and Linda McCartney came.
And it was just amazing.

There is this one shot where
he's looking at me going like...

(in deep voice) "Can
you believe it?"

Merri: But some of those heroes

also recognized his
father's work as well.

That was difficult for him
'cause, like, Linda McCartney

knew his father
better than he did.

Jeff: In these situations, I'm
hoping that I'm understood.

But with comparisons,
I'm not understood.

I have my own way.

Joan: Jeff would buy all of
Tim's CDs at Tower Records,

listen to them and
then throw them out.

♪ If it keeps on rainin'
Levee's gonna break ♪

Michael: Led Zeppelin
was being inducted in '95

into the Rock &
Roll Hall of Fame.

♪ If it keeps on rainin'... ♪

Michael: I'd never seen
Jeff so starstruck.

And he just started pointing,

"You're the one that's been
in my head all these years."

"It's you."

Don: At one point
during the evening,

Robert Plant said
something to Jeff, like,

"You're the greatest new
singer in the world."

It freaked Jeff out.
He turned white.

Got up, I don't know what
he did, where he went,

but he was missing
for, like, two days.

Mary: (on voicemail)
Hi, it's me. Uh...

Where you've been?
Where are you?

Man: (over voicemail) Hi, Jeff.
I haven't heard from you. Um,

I assume you're blowing me off.

Mary: It's like
you've disappeared.

Woman 2: Where could you be?
Where... where could you be?

Mary: (on voicemail) This is
your mom. You can call me.

♪ (quirky, uneasy
music playing) ♪

Mary: (on voicemail) I
need to hear from you now.

Michael: I noticed
Jeff's depression started

started to kick in.

Automated voice:
Your mailbox is full.

Michael: There was
so much on his mind,

but he wasn't talking about it.

And he just felt heavy.

♪ (uneasy music continues) ♪

Michael: We all, like,

experimented with
taking drugs and stuff.

It was sometimes a
bit crazy, but, like,

he... I never got, like, an
addict vibe from him at all.

Yeah, there was dipping
and dabbling and stuff.

Some more than others.

(in foreign accent) I teach
you no more karate! You...

Gene: But I couldn't
be around it.

(indistinct chatter)

Next year, then, will that
mean a new Jeff Buckley album?

I have to work on it this year.

-Mm.
-So, something will be out...

No. You know what? I can't
make any promises now.

(groans) I'll be
a corpse by then.

(chuckles)

Ladies and gentlemen,
Jeff Buckley.

It's a great... Thank you, sir.

(thunder rumbling)

Michael: I feel like,
as his fame grew,

the demands of success
started to irritate him.

The label was kind of
breathing down his back

for the second album.

I think he was weighed down
by the debt that he owed them.

Parker: Millions of dollars
in debt with no hits

on your next record, yeah.

Aimee: Well, you're never
gonna get out of the hole.

No one ever gets out of
owing a record label money

because that's how
it's structured.

Matt: That probably
would've been very scary

to Jeff, and maybe he thought

-that the type of deal that he had may have been...
-♪ (dark music playing) ♪

...a little bit of a deal
with the devil, sometimes.

Jeff: That's your bed.

Jeff: And you made it and
you have to lie in it.

Matt: Jeff started to spiral
around this fear that he has

of the loss of his
artistic freedom.

Jack: Columbia Records'
meetings would be very...

full... full of
pressure, you know,

when Jeff didn't
wanna do something.

Every parasite needs its
host, and we are them.

-I'm Jeff Buckley.
-And I'm Michael Tighe.

We've been guest-parasite
hosting tonight.

(crowd cheering)

Gene: The label wanted the
next record to come out,

but they were still touring.

"Make another... album."

(scoffs) "Please." Oh, my God.

(indistinct chattering)

Interviewer: You've taken
your time, haven't you?

I mean... You haven't rushed

into recording the
follow-up album.

Jeff: Only because of
being on the road so long.

Interviewer: Do you anticipate
that it's gonna take...

-months and months?
-Jeff: If it takes any longer,

you'll find me
swinging from a noose.

Matt: Get in the van, eight
hours a day, every day,

for, like, two-and-a-half
years, bro.

Like, can I just have
some fucking space?

♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ (rock music
playing on stage) ♪

Then? I was nuts.
I was fucking nuts.

And the last thing I need

is another nuts
motherfucker next to me.

Matt: All right!

And obviously
Jesus on the drums.

Matt: Thank you!

Michael: You could really
feel the disconnect

between Jeff and Matt.

And I think Jeff felt...

like he was being
abandoned by a brother.

♪ Sometimes I feel Like
I don't have a partner ♪

♪ (electric guitar
playing on stage) ♪

(Matt laughing)

Michael: So, Matty quit
the band, said he was done.

Jeff: I myself am
erratic. Music is erratic.

If people look upon music

as something to
have control over

or something to be... (inhales)
uniform and... and predictable,

then it's their funeral.

-(indistinct chatter)
-♪ (gentle music playing) ♪

I'm gonna come home. (chuckles)

I'll record, definitely,

I just wanna come
home and experiment

and get all these ideas out.

Interviewer: Where would you like
to see yourself in ten years?

Ten years from now.

I don't see myself ten
years from now. At all.

(Mick chuckles)

-(chuckles)
-Mick: "I just don't."

Just a blank movie
screen. Just a void.

What can I tell you?

Parker: I heard "Grace"
in the summer of '96

and within two weeks,
I would meet Jeff.

"We need a drummer. We'd
love... You come, try out."

(Jeff singing) ♪ You and I ♪

Parker: Jeff had so much...
fear around this record.

He wasn't ready.

Joan: He is
questioning everything.

"Was the first album a
fluke? Am I an imposter?"

♪ ("Dream Brother" playing) ♪

Joan: "Grace" was a compilation
of everything that he had done

until he was 27.

He wondered, "Do I have
another record in me?"

"Do I need another 27 years?"

Then you have the
record company guys

coming down to check in on
us and see our progress.

I was like, "Are
you kidding me?"

Michael: We wanted to be able
to supply the inspiration

that would get him
to the next level,

but I think he felt he
had to do that on his own.

♪ Sleeping with his arms
Around the hips of fate ♪

♪ And his tears Scattered
round the world ♪

♪ Angel, go give
him His dreams ♪

♪ And my cold, black visions ♪

So many of the people
he admired had...

somehow self-destructed.

People think that, mm...
my father and the EP

is all there is to talk about.

Rebecca: And then to have
Jeff come from a father

who had died young,

he was really trying
to be healthier.

On his 29th birthday, Jeff
turned to me and said,

"I've now outlived my father."

It was a really strange
reality for him to face.

♪ Eyes to the burning... ♪

Joan: He said... "I have to
tell you something about me."

I'm not gonna last that long.

I just have to tell
you what it feels like,

"because I wanna warn you."

And I said, "I'm
not going anywhere."

-(number pad dialing)
-(line ringing)

Joan: And because of
his father dying...

(indistinct chatter)

I thought, "Of course,
you think that."

"That makes all the
sense in the world."

♪ ("Dream Brother"
continues playing) ♪

♪ Don't be like the one
Who made me so old ♪

♪ Don't be like the one
Who left behind his name ♪

♪ 'Cause they're waiting for
you Like I waited for mine ♪

♪ And nobody ever came ♪

♪ Nobody ever... ♪

Jeff: At the end of three years
of touring, who do you know?

What sort of life do you have?

It's a little corrosive
and a little frustrating.

And, uh, that's why
I have to go away.

I have to find someplace
and really sink into it.

(cawing)

(birds chirping)

♪ ("Untitled - The Man I Am"
by Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Joan: Jeff found this
house on Rembert Street.

He didn't have a lawnmower,
so it became overgrown.

I would visit him
for a week a month.

I remember lying with
him in the grass.

No one could see us.

Tammy: Joan had said to
me, "Take care of Jeff."

"Keep his feet on the ground."
And I took that seriously.

There seemed to be... some
normalcy, some grounding.

-Some cooking.
-Uh, some cooking, food.

Tammy: And I feel
that Jeff came here

where there's not as much
external stimulation...

in order to process...

and not just to create.

♪ Take the pain Until
it all rings hollow ♪

♪ (song concludes) ♪

Jeff: Without ordinary
life, there's no art.

♪ ("Lilac Wine" by
Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Jeff: Balanced meals. Reading,
sleeping, relationships.

♪ Lilac wine ♪

Love.

♪ I feel I'm ready ♪

Joan: It felt like
he felt safe there.

He would wear my dresses
in the house sometimes,

and loved wearing them.

He just wanted to be anonymous

and be able to talk to
anybody in the bookstore,

not worrying if they
were talking to him

because they knew who he was.

Tammy: Early one morning,
I went to pick him up,

and he was crying.

I said, "We wanna talk
about what's going on."

And he said it had
to do with his mom.

Yeah, well... (clicks tongue)

(dial pad beeping)

Mary: One day, I went to
visit a friend in Los Angeles.

I didn't have
Internet at the time.

And she had a computer
all set up, and she said,

"Oh, you know, here's a
chat room all about Jeff."

So, I sat there and read
some of the comments,

and they were just
a bunch of bullshit.

♪ (dark music playing) ♪

Mary: So, I said,
"Hi, I'm his mom."

"I want you to know
none of that is true."

Well...

(hands thud)

...that did not go over well.

It got back to his
manager that I was,

you know, "dealing
with the fan club"

and saying things that
he didn't want me to say,

et cetera, et cetera. And
he got really pissed at me.

-(voicemail beeps)
-Oh, hey, mama.

You've gotta fucking
grow up, all right?

You can't be a girl anymore,
ma, you gotta be a woman.

I had to be the man.

I had to be the
man in your house.

Just get the anger and the
pain that was rested upon you.

-You get rid of that shit.
-♪ (dark music playing) ♪

Jeff: 'Cause that's in me.

Everything you experienced
at home, it's in me.

(voicemail beeps)

We never had a "falling out."

And it was serious.

And we didn't spend
Christmas together that year.

He went to Northern California
and spent it with his stepdad.

♪ (reflective music playing) ♪

(birds chirping)

Tammy: Jeff got real serious
and turned, took my hands,

looked down, very dejected,

and said very quietly, "I
don't know how to be a man."

Jeff: (on phone)

Tammy: He was looking
at who raised him

and formed his ability

to deal with life on
a day-to-day basis.

He was looking for
answers, really,

from a ghost, from his father.

♪ ("Once I Was" by
Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

♪ Once I was a soldier ♪

♪ And I fought On
foreign sands for you ♪

Tammy: Jeff could shift
gears, though, very quickly.

His mind worked like a... radio

that was tuned to all
frequencies at once.

♪ ("Manic Depression" by
Jimi Hendrix playing) ♪

♪ Manic depression... ♪

♪ (discordant piano overlaps) ♪

Jeff: (echoing) How you
doin'? Hi. Hi. Hello.

I wanted to, uh,

share a little bit of
what's happening with me.

We're in big trouble over
here. (voice distorts)

-♪ (music abruptly stops) ♪
-Joan: He said,

"I realized something."

"I think I'm manic depressive."

I didn't know what that meant.

I thought immediately of
the Jimi Hendrix song.

♪ Yeah ♪

We know so much now about
chemical imbalances and stuff.

And we just... I didn't.
And nobody did then.

♪ ("Kanga-Roo" by Jeff
Buckley playing) ♪

Joan: He was in a
really heightened state

and was having really
disturbing visions,

like visiting the devil.

He took me into the attic.

There was a dead bird
laying on the floor

and his black skull candle.

Man: He sent a fax to
the office and he's like,

"I got the cover
for the next album."

We comment, "And
this is too X-rated."

"We can't send this to Sony."

Tammy: He said that he
dreamed he had a brain tumor

and he thought that
he was going to die.

Joan: It was what
I understand now

to be a psychotic break.

Parker: The same thing
was going on with Hendrix

and Joplin and Morrison.

Chemical imbalance mixed
with some sort of trauma

that's only sustainable
for so much time

until either it gets
fixed or it fixes you.

Man: I'll never
forget, he always said,

"I'm not gonna end
up like my father,

with a tag on my toe."

(birds chirping)

Tammy: Jeff had gone to
the zoo numerous times

and loved the butterfly house.

♪ (ethereal music playing) ♪

Tammy: But he felt
like the guy working

in the butterfly house was
mistreating the chrysalis.

He felt he could be more gentle.

-(voicemail beeps)
-Jeff: Hi, Rebecca. It's Jeff.

Sweet dreams and, uh,
play lots of music.

Sing beautiful songs.

Rebecca: The last
conversation we had,

he woke me up with a phone call.

Jeff: (on voicemail)

Rebecca: He was wanting
to clarify the past.

♪ And in that orchard
There was a hold ♪

Rebecca: He was apologizing.

I remember saying, "It
takes two, you know,

to... to mess things up the
way we did, and this is...

It's all good."

He said he was doing
work on his childhood

and, uh, that they were looking
for someone to help him,

presumably a counselor.

Jeff: I'm gonna work
my ass off, baby.

And, uh, I'll see you
on the other side.

Parker: For, like, two weeks,
he, like, just called everybody

he knew, just to,
like, have... contact.

Aimee: I remembered him
calling me and saying,

"I realized that you were
right about stuff and..."

I, you know, I wasn't even
sure what he meant by that

and I didn't know how
to follow it up and...

It's sad.

Tammy: Jeff was very quiet
and didn't say anything.

I told him I loved him.

♪ And in that orchard
There was a hold ♪

I said to him, "I have photos
of you from your childhood."

"Would you like me
to send them to you?"

And, like, in a really
soft voice, he said,

"I'd like that."

Dave: I said, "You just got
to let go and not care..."

If mistakes are made."

(birds chirping)

♪ ("New Year's Prayer" by
Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Joan: Barristers became
his second Sin-e of a kind

where he could go
and work out music...

♪ Fall in light ♪

...without having
the entirety of, say,

New York City find out about it.

♪ Feel no shame
For what you are ♪

Jeff: I have been everything
on stage. I've been wrong.

I've been completely
ugly. I've been stupid.

I've been angry. I've
been totally in love.

I've been beautiful.
I've been hideous.

I've... I've lost my pants.

Uh, but I've... I've
never been bored.

I've never been dead on
stage. I've never been dead.

♪ Feel no shame
For what you are ♪

Michael: He left that
on my answering machine.

"Michael, it's
starting to click,

it's starting to feel like the
way the 'Grace' songs felt."

♪ Fall in love ♪

Joan: He hadn't played
anyone any of it.

His band was joining
him really soon

to start recording the record.

Just sometimes a... a
song gets into you and...

and just gets into you.

You know, it just happens
to you in a moment.

♪ ("Everybody Here Wants You"
Jeff Buckley by playing) ♪

Parker: Me, Michael, and Mick
each got a four-track tape.

♪ Twenty-nine pearls
In your kiss ♪

♪ A singing smile ♪

♪ Coffee smell and lilac
skin Your flame in me ♪

I could feel that those songs
had come from a very pure place.

♪ A little bit
young And hassled ♪

Joan: He was doing it all
on headphones. I said,

"Jeff, you could get speakers,
and it would fill the room."

♪ ("Vancouver" playing) ♪ - ♪
Lady, all the troubles are my fright ♪

♪ I disgust you ♪

♪ Feel the power You cut
the truth into you... ♪

Joan: He got where
he needed to go.

♪ I could kiss you ♪

♪ With lines of
escape In my mouth ♪

Gene: He's like, "I wanna
open up a bank account,"

buy this house, and
I wanna buy a car."

Joan: He was really
happy and having so...

much fun.

♪ (song concludes) ♪

(acapella) ♪ They say
Everything can be replaced ♪

♪ But every distance
Is not near ♪

Gene: Jeff was supposedly on
the way to the rehearsal space.

Michael: He was with
the guitar tech, Foti.

Gene: They ended up
going down to Wolf River.

It was typical Jeff.

He thought, "Oh,
it's so beautiful."

"I'm gonna go in fully clothed."

Mary: No one swims down
there. It was muddy.

I don't know about
currents. There were boats.

♪ From the west
Down to the east ♪

Michael: He was listening
to "Whole Lotta Love"

by Led Zeppelin.

♪ Any day now ♪

Jeff: Love, anger,
depression, joy...

♪ Any day now ♪

...and Zeppelin.

-♪ I shall be released ♪
-(echoing chuckle)

♪ (suspenseful music playing) ♪

♪ Any day now ♪

♪ Any day now ♪

♪ I shall be released ♪

Parker: He probably
went in the water

as soon as we hit the tarmac.

We got to the house, and
it was kind of in disarray.

-(birds chirping)
-Parker: I kept thinking

I was gonna hear the screen
door squeak open in the back

and slam, you know,

and then he'd come to the
kitchen and we'd be like,

"Yo!" And he'd be
like, "What's up?"

-(telephone ringing)
-(birds chirping)

Gene picks up the phone and...

just said, "Let's go."

Parker: I thought
he just swam across.

Michael: It was very quiet
and peaceful down there.

Parker: And the sun's setting.
You know, it's gonna be dusk.

(thunder rumbling)

Parker: Now, there's,
like, helicopters.

(helicopter whirring)

(line ringing)

Mary: I picked up the
phone and said "Hello?"

And someone said,

"This is Memphis
Police Department."

And I said, "I'm coming."

The car pulled up in front...

and it was Sergeant
Mary Grace Johnson

of the Homicide Department.

"And she said," You know... we
have to have the sunshine...

'cause that'll
bring the body up.

"If we wanna find him, you
have to stop the rain."

♪ (acoustic guitar playing) ♪

Michael: I was sitting in
his attic two or three days

after he went into the river.

And I just remember
breathing in,

and my breath, like,
just kept going in.

Like, I just, I had the, like,

the biggest inhalation
that I've ever had.

And I just felt like
my lungs puffing up

with air and, like,

my spine straightening,
you know?

And, um... something
switched in me,

and I kind of felt
like he was... gone.

(birds chirping)

♪ ("Hallelujah" by
Jeff Buckley playing) ♪

Singer-songwriter
Jeff Buckley's body

finally surfaced late
Wednesday afternoon

at the foot of Memphis's famed
musical corridor, Beale Street.

As a friend watched
helplessly from shore,

Buckley disappeared under
the wake of a passing boat.

TV reporter: The irony
wasn't lost on anyone

that a man who
lived for his music

would be found dead at
the foot of Beale Street,

where he'd performed before.

Matt: I was in Texas
visiting family.

I was staring at Brays
Bayou, watching the water.

That was the same
time when Jeff died.

It was more than I could bear.

♪ Well, I heard There
was a secret chord ♪

♪ That David played And
it pleased the Lord... ♪

Gene: It was an undertow.

The Army Corps of
Engineers had actually

specifically dug
that viaduct area out

to keep it clear of
debris, so it dropped off.

And, obviously, being
fully clothed and weighted

and out there for
about 20 minutes,

plus an undertow, his
drowning made sense.

♪ Hallelujah, Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

Gene: The autopsy report said
he had a beer in his system.

That's it.

I asked Rolling Stone
to please publish

the report to show that drugs
had nothing to do with it.

What's a shame is that the story

was very sensationalistic.

It was very much like,
"Well, we don't know."

And, unfortunately, I can't
tell you how many people

I've ran into in the
last 20-something years

who are like, "Oh,
yeah, he died of drugs,"

or, "Oh, he followed in
his father's footsteps."

♪ And from your lips She
drew the Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah, Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

Michael: Jeff was one
of the greatest singers

of all time.

♪ Well, baby I've
been here before ♪

♪ I've seen this room And
I've walked this floor ♪

Michael: I didn't
fully comprehend

how dope he was
when he was alive.

It was my first band,
and he was my boy,

and everything
just felt natural.

It was... a perfect
example of, you know,

youth is wasted on the young.

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah, Hallelu... ♪

He had said, "You should
come out to Memphis."

"It's beautiful here."

And I said, "When
your record's done,

I'd really love that."

♪ Well there was a time
When you let me know ♪

♪ What's really going on below ♪

♪ But now you never show
that To me, do ya? ♪

We were so young.

(scoffs) Like...

we'd... you know,
all of those things

that felt so urgent and
scary, those fall away.

(sniffles) And...

you know, I would have
loved to see him...

have those things fall away.

♪ Hallelujah ♪

♪ Hallelujah ♪

-(voicemail beeps)
-Jeff: Hey, Maruka. Hey, mama.

This is your son.

There are somethings
I have to tell you.

It's very special to me...

that you are a person
that a child came from.

And you are a person that
fought for their child.

You know, you fought
for the child.

You got some fuckin' cojones...

-(laughs)
-...baby.

Ma... you know...

-anybody can be famous, Mary.
-♪ (song concludes) ♪

Anybody can be
fucking famous, baby.

But it takes a real
spirit, you hear me?

It takes a real
spirit... to raise a kid.

You know, you brought
me into the world.

(laughs)

Jeff: A lot of my phrasing
is from you, you know?

A lot of my phrasing
when I sing is from you.

I'm glad you're my mother.

I'm glad you gave me
the things you gave me.

-Yeah.
-Mary: Yeah!

Jeff: You know how
much I love you, ma.

I love you too.

Jeff: I love you.
I love you so much.

-I love you.
-(inhales deeply)

♪ ("Lover, You Should've
Come Over" playing) ♪

Jeff: Thank you.

♪ Well, maybe I'm
just too young, oh ♪

♪ To keep good love
From going wrong ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ Yeah, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ Oh, lover You
should've come over ♪

♪ Well, I feel too
young To hold on ♪

♪ And I'm much too old
To break free and run ♪

♪ Too deaf, dumb, and blind
To see the damage I've done ♪

♪ Sweet lover You, you
should've come over ♪

♪ How long Will I wait for you ♪

♪ Lover, lover, lover ♪

♪ Lover, love, love, love ♪

♪ Lover, lover ♪

♪ Lover ♪

♪ You should've come over ♪

♪ 'Cause it's not too late ♪

♪ (song concluding) ♪

(crowd applauding, cheering)

Jeff: Thanks a lot,
everybody. Goodnight.

Jeff: You were beautiful.

Thanks a lot. And I love you.

♪ ("Vancouver" by Jeff
Buckley playing) ♪

♪ Lady, all the troubles ♪

♪ Are my fright, I disgust you ♪

♪ Feel the power You
cut the truth into you ♪

♪ Why do you think I
did not On this rely ♪

♪ I could kiss you ♪

♪ With lines of
escape In my mouth ♪

♪ Ah-ha-ha ♪

♪ Please, let me bring back ♪

♪ These gifts of
mine To the woman ♪

♪ Stars shined on my back ♪

♪ As I slept and knew you ♪

♪ You didn't leave it all ♪

♪ You made an even call ♪

♪ My belly released the stars ♪

♪ And tears between the scars ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Below this we'll end here
Until the end of time ♪

♪ Beyond the moment
That ends our bondage ♪

♪ I am your failed
Husband contender ♪

♪ I'm your loan shark of bliss ♪

♪ This dream you've ridden on ♪

♪ Turns your world
To explosions ♪

♪ I need to be alone ♪

♪ To heal this bleeding stone ♪

♪ Now, smell The
rain of London ♪

♪ It still insists ♪

♪ That we beg for our ♪

♪ Purity ♪

♪ As if we are pure ♪

♪ In the reign Of
our contentment ♪

♪ As if I can think of ♪

♪ This ♪

♪ No more ♪

♪ (song concludes) ♪