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Female Narrator: Previously on 'Forgive Me':

You have no idea what it is like

to be at the end of the road with no options.

Brain tumor.

Oh shit.

Why do I have to keep fighting?

I am not stuck on this world.

I'm looking forward to the next one.

You've been trying for months

to make me decide between my daughter and the priesthood.

It's not up to you.

I want to be both.

What exactly is your plan?

What plan?

About this girl.

My daughter.

Uh, uh, ow, ha.

They're back?

They never went away.

You lied to me?

I just, I just didn't want you to worry about me.

If your bosses see the letter, they're gonna just--

they'll cover it up more.

They wouldn't. I don't think that they would cover this up.

Mr. O'Leary is alleging sexual abuse

in his history in the diocese.

Do you know anything about that?

Did you give him the letters?

You're negotiating with me.

I don't need to negotiate with you.

You're just like mom.

- No. - Yeah.

No. Fuck that and fuck you

for always blaming everything on her.

I don't blame her for anything.

You don't want to see me because I remind you of her.

You're drunk. You're drunk right now so there's no point

in me trying to have this conversation with you.

I'm not doing this again. We do this every time!

I made mistakes. I was a terrible person.

I was a terrible mother.

There is a difference between accidental mistakes

and what you did, which is deliberate cruelty.

I'm begging for forgiveness here.

I'm not capable of that level of generosity, I can't.

I, I need your forgiveness.

Can I give him a kidney?

Don't even think about it.

Even if you were healthy, no.

I decided to kill him.

It's not the same.

I unplugged him.

want me to stay.

No! No! Listen, listen to me!

When your brother was in the hospital

and the doctor went over his options

I realized things had to change.

I'm your father.

Well, that's not how I expected it.

You need to go back to the other side.

Why?

Because this is really inappropriate.

Aw. Mmm. Mm!

Do good people go to war?

I mean sign up to go fight?

Do good Christians enlist to fight?

♪ "Ave Maria" by Christopher Francis Mitchell ♪

Asshole.

Oh.

I was hoping you'd be here.

Yeah, just got in.

This is it.

I'm off Padre. Back to Los Angeles.

En route to the airport. I made the cabbie stop.

Greedy bastard kept the meter running.

How you feeling?

Uh, jury's still out.

I think I'm okay. Better.

Probably have you to thank for that.

All I did was sit here.

Yeah, yeah.

It was more than that, you know it.

Certainly look a bit more chill.

Ch--

you're a good guy.

I wanted to tell you.

Most people wouldn't have put up with my bad behaviour this week.

It's no trouble.

Bit uh, awkward maybe, but y'know.

That's par for the course.

I wouldn't have realized all this shit

if I never came in here.

Just would have stayed fucked up.

I'll be grateful to you for a long time.

Oh you know.

You win an Oscar someday just be sure to thank me.

Mmm.

I worked things out with my mom.

Started to anyway.

Your father'd be really glad to hear that, I think.

Hopefully.

I'd like to think he can at least see I'm trying here.

Do you believe it's possible for people to change?

Yeah, I mean if I didn't I think I would have stopped doing this

a very long time ago.

Why do you do it?

Besides all that stuff about it being a calling.

My grandmother told me once that my heart

was bigger than my brain.

Yeah, that might have something to do with it.

I dunno.

I think I've had my fair share of demons in the past.

I guess I'm always just trying to stay one step ahead of 'em.

What kind of demons?

You'd be here all day.

I guess that's my cue Padre.

Take good care of yourself.

I hope that you find what you're looking for.

Thanks again. For all of it.

It-- sorry for trying to make-out with you.

Oh no, y'know I never kissed a movie star before

so at least now I got a uh, a story for the grandkids.

I thought you guys couldn't have kids?

Don't miss your ride.

Come in here for a second.

Who's this?

This is my daughter, Noelle.

Your what?

Noelle's my daughter.

Uh, well, this is Father Gene.

Well hello.

Hi.

What's going on here?

Noelle's just going to stay with us for a little while,

I made up Phil's old room.

Is that so?

Yeah. It is.

Are we foster parents or something?

No, she's uh, she's my actual daughter.

I'll explain it to you later.

C'mon I'll show you your room, it's upstairs.

Does this have to stay?

Uh, yeah. For now.

Y'know, we'll uh, we'll get you some more stuff.

Eventually.

I'm sorry.

It's-- my Gram won't keep her anymore,

I can't... leave my own daughter out on the street

or put her up in a foster home.

Well, it doesn't matter that you defied me.

It won't be for long.

The bishop's been in touch

and he has other plans for you.

What plan? Humph.

What other plan for me?

You'll find out.

You're back.

Yeah, not for long.

You're heading out?

You're my last stop. Clean the slate.

I'm ready.

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit,

Forgive me Father, for I have sinned.

It's been five-- couple of months since my last confession.

I've been distant from my wife. Holding back.

I know she needs me now, more than ever, before I go back.

But I can't.

I'm a bad husband.

What about the kids?

I ain't hit 'em since the last confession,

so lots better in that department.

That's good.

It really is 'cause they've been some real a-holes.

Forgive me.

Mmm hmm.

I figured out a way... how I can go back.

Back to, back to war?

Where are they sending ya, I thought the war was... over?

New war.

Well where?

Can't say.

Or you'll have to, have to kill me?

'Cause I don't know.

I know I'm being deployed, and I know it's combat.

Yeah. I figured that they'd have to tell you.

No, it's a secret sometimes.

It'll be on the news eventually. Usually.

So, what'd you figure out?

Iggy... About going back?

- About going back! - Yeah.

I figured out a way that I can redeploy.

Y'know, fulfill my duty, but do it;

live within the doctrines of my faith this time.

This time I'll be better prepared

for the types of decisions that I have to face.

I've thought about what Christ would do

for every one of those situations.

What would Christ do?

He'd turn the other cheek. Spread the Gospel.

If the enemy shoots at you,

you're gonna turn the other cheek?

Yeah. That's what I'm gonna do.

They'll kill you.

Yes, they will.

Or maybe they'll come around, be saved.

Now see, I can't tell if you're being serious.

As an airstrike.

You're going to deploy into a war zone and be a pacifist?

That's the plan, y'know, save souls don't destroy them, right?

Okay, sure, but you can be a missionary

in a lot of parts of the world but not,

in a war zone, not carrying a gun.

I'M NOT SAYING IT'S GOING TO BE EASY!

I just know now, I'm not cut out to be a soldier.

Why did you enlist, then?

I thought I was going to be a peacekeeper.

That's what guys do in my family.

I dunno, wh, why'd you enlist?

In the church?

I wasn't following in anybody's footsteps... it's a calling.

Well, I didn't have a calling--

No one being called now.

and I don't want to go, but I gotta.

I don't think you should.

I'm thinking about it, I don't think that--

It's against the law.

I know... conscientiously object? Change your mind?

It's not the, it's not the prison time.

Y'know, it's my family.

They'll come around. No.

What you're planning, is crazy.

You can't go to war and turn the other cheek at the same time.

You'll be killed, right?

Christ wouldn't have lasted a day in Operation Desert Storm,

Christ would'a got his head blown off.

It would'a been a lot easier than the cross.

Is that what you want?

You want to be a martyr? C'mon.

Listen. If you're going to go to war, go as a soldier. Fight.

If you refuse to fight then don't go.

I'll fight in God's army.

You got the wrong orders then.

Because you, have to do your duty.

You gotta protect your platoon, Iggy,

you gotta protect your fellow soldiers.

You just-- you don't endanger them by having them protect you.

God will protect me.

God won't protect you.

How can you think that and be a priest?

Because I don't have to be na ïve to be a priest.

It's na ïve to ask for God's protection?

Sure. Sure. Go ahead. Ask.

This church has flood insurance, Iggy,

and fire, and theft.

Think about it, if God isn't counting on his own protection,

why should you?

And I've got life insurance.

Look I just wanted to come say goodbye before I go.

So I get to leave with a clean conscious, clean soul.

There's a time to love and a time to hate.

Time for war and a time for peace.

The Byrds?

It's Ecclesiastes.

I thought it was The Byrds. I love that song.

Sure, sure, but I mean, think about it, right? Listen to it.

A time for war, a time for peace.

You don't mix 'em together.

Alright, it's one at a time.

You don't know what it is.

War?

We're not fuckin' Centurions walking around with swords

and helmets and miniskirts.

We take down a building, everyone in it,

in like, three seconds.

Or a school.

I'm not doin' it.

No, I agree with you. Just don't go.

Christ didn't just not go.

Christ didn't just not show up.

Christ was a volunteer.

He died voluntarily.

He had countless opportunity to; say what they wanted him to say,

do what the authorities wanted him to do

and he didn't obey, and he didn't fight.

It's good to want to do the Christian thing,

it's really good, but if you can't reconcile your religion

and your military service, then I think that maybe

you're gonna have to make a choice between one or the other.

If following Christ's teachings, turning the other cheek

leaves me exposed, gets me killed, shot, tortured,

then that's God's will.

Okay.

Anything else you wanted to confess?

I'm gonna masturbate when I'm over there,

trust me, it's the best case scenario.

Understood.

I had indecent thoughts about Kate Hudson.

Yeah?

Kate Beckinsale and--

Kate Bosworth and Blanchett.

All the Kates, I get it.

All the pretty girls in movies, I'm tryin' to say.

Okay.

And on the internet.

Okay!

I tried on a burka.

Is that a sin?

It's technically cross-dressing.

Well, I'm wearing a gown right now.

Let's just leave - that off the list for now. - Yeah.

That's all I got.

Well, let's pray then.

God, the Father of Mercies, through the death

and resurrection of his Son, has reconciled himself

to the world and sent the Holy Spirit amongst us

for the forgiveness of sins.

Through the ministry of the Church, may the Lord

grant you pardon and peace and I absolve you of your sins

in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.

Amen.

Iggy...

I'm begging you here, just don't, don't do this.

Don't do this plan of yours, please.

I'll see you when I get back.