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Sometimes the smallest thing can turn the world on its head.

Change everything.

Forever.

A look.

A touch.

A smile. And you feel everything.

Everything captured in a moment.

It's been a summer of firsts for me.

First crush, first kiss.

The first taste of fear it leaves behind.

Now for one final year of school and I'm just about terrified.

But God, it's exciting.

I'll make some of this special... I can't, Lee. Love you. Right, yeah.

Hey, love, breaky.

Coffee.

It's about time, you heartless bitch.

Been out here so long, I'm starting to fuss a lot. Yeah, you are looking a bit

ancient.

I got you something.

All the way from San Fran.

Mother of God, it's fabulous.

You don't drive our Shane nuts.

Sorry I called you a bitch.

I'm the best.

Those things will kill you. What are you, my mother?

I was. I'd smack your hole for you.

Are you with me? Are you kidding? I'll never forgive you for abandoning me with

these socks for the past three months.

Hey, Lil. Welcome home.

Hi.

You asshole, it's only 20 humans. You heard her. Can we not? Come on.

Oh, I hate this assigned seating bullshit.

They couldn't even change the desk.

I have to stare at this laminated piece of shit every day for the next year.

I feel sorry for the poor desk.

Haven't looked at you for the year.

See you later, Ellie.

Sure, yeah.

Look at my new haircut.

Piss off, Taylor.

Hey, Lily.

Do you want to, like, catch up this weekend?

I think everyone's finally dying out, yeah.

Oh, yeah, I know. I mean, just you and me, like... Why?

I don't know. I thought maybe just... Oh, uh... Yeah.

Yeah? Yeah, great. I'll give you a shout and... Yeah.

Yeah.

Canteen, coffee right now.

Don't get caught.

All right, seats, no messing. Until that Americano is in my hand, stimulate your

mind and body, you would be well advised to visit.

It's like they go out of their way to make us look like manky old women.

I mean, is this for real?

You should be in a combat with this shit.

Bless me, Father, for I have sinned.

Shut the fuck up, Julie.

I was joking. Relax.

Well, You look like a spastic.

You can't say that anymore. It's not politically correct.

You should know then.

Because I'm black?

No.

No, I mean... You have to get a diaper in bed.

For Christ's sake, I'm a bloody period again.

Girl, there's something wrong with your plumbing.

Lily, you always have to spare something.

I do.

Look at this.

It's nothing. I didn't picture you and the girl in bed.

It's not violent.

Oh, my God.

It's nothing. It's just from, like, last year, you dope.

Like the school trip.

What's the hold -up in here?

Miss, Lily fancies Violet. I do not.

Miss, you should give her some tips.

I'm sick of telling you, Eimear. I'm not a bloody lesbian, Nick. Lensible

haircut, comfortable shoes and a voracious appetite for rugby did not a

make. Neither does being a PE teacher, for that matter.

Now, get out on the pitch, all of ye, or I'll have ye all running laps until ye

puke.

Well,

if it is me, only fair I shall have coffee too, right?

Ye've all heard what they say.

The camogie is nothing but hurling played by girls. A lesser,

weaker form of the game.

Well, anyone who says that has never stood on a pitch full of weapon

-wielding banshees tearing up to them, screaming murder in their eyes.

You girls have the blood of Celtic warrior queens running through your

I don't mean either, miss. You do, girls.

In spirit, if not actually.

Literally. My point is that come Monday week, we've a new season in front of us.

And we have to show these feckers how strong we are.

Are you with me for Camogie?

Yes, miss!

We work together as a team, right?

Yes, miss! And we have each other's backs, yes?

Yes, miss!

I love you, girl.

I can't lie.

I'll be fierce proud of you no matter what happens.

More proud if you win.

Just putting that out there.

Right.

Drills.

Violet, Lily, pick your teams.

So, come on. I've been yapping all day. You haven't told me a thing about San

Fran.

It was great.

Oh, I'm going to need more than that.

Did you go to any gay bar? It's the gay capital of the world, you know. Where do

you think I got your badge?

This came from an actual San Francisco gay bar.

They loved you. They all thought you were very handsome.

I'm wasted on this little backwater country.

Here, I'll catch you later.

What about you? Any romance?

Did Sandy meet her Danny?

Any summer loving happened so far? What are we talking about?

Just trying to get Lily to tell all about San Fran.

There's nothing to tell.

I thought the whole point of you going to America was to get the ride.

Look at him crawling out of his skin to get some juicy gossip.

Yeah, well, those of us who are stuck at home all summer, Violet, have to live

vicariously to other.

Vicariously? That's a big word for a small man.

Well, I've a very extensive vocabulary.

And I'm not small.

I'm going through a growth spurt.

Be looking down on you bitches soon enough.

Come on, Lily.

Thanks for that. Now I have to listen to this all the way home. Well, you have

been very quiet about your trip.

Haven't seen a single picture yet.

I should catch up with him.

I'll see you tomorrow.

You will.

All right, how are you getting on there? Make sure you cut them nice and thick.

Watch your fingers. Dad, I know how to cut vegetables. Hang on, don't get

snippy. I'm only trying to teach you some life -essential skills, you know?

And when you meet that special young man, you'll be able to teach him how to

the perfect digital housewife, like me.

Dad.

Well, you're not going to be the breadwinner like your mum.

Going to take the old traditional route, eh?

Stay at home, popping out babies.

I'm only joking.

You're not allowed to get pregnant for at least another 40 years, you hear me?

I don't give a shit what he said, Caroline.

It's technically ready.

Yeah, it's ten minutes, love, yeah. Hurry up, will you?

Then buy a bloody horseback then. Just figure it out, Caroline.

Speaking of horses, what do gay horses eat?

Hey.

You get it?

Hey.

I'm starving.

Hey, you not working?

No lights this week.

The dinner's on the table. I got to train, Mum.

Nice one.

What's on?

Owl fame.

Celtic and Rangers.

Celtic, yeah.

Have you not got work later?

Yeah.

Late, so I told you.

There was a magic spark from the very first hello

Those familiar eyes that I felt had been

before

Sorry, sorry, love. Listen, I'm off to bed. Mam's on a conference call

downstairs, so best not to disturb her here. Okay.

You all right?

You look very flushed. Dad!

Okay,

okay, I'm off.

Night, love.

Hey.

Hey.

Could be me.

What?

She does look a lot like me.

It's just some girl I met in the States.

Just the girl you met and got into bed with?

It wasn't like that.

Well, like I said, could be me.

All right, all right. Will you please just try and get through this?

Miss? Yes, Simon.

Will we be covering gay sex this time, Miss?

No, Simon, we won't. That's discrimination, Miss.

Well, you might be right, Simon, but we're going to stick with what's on the

curriculum.

That's very homophobic of you, Miss O'Shea.

Stop trying to disrupt the class, Simon. I'm not homophobic. I have lots of gay

friends. Do you know what you need, Miss?

You need one of those diagrams, but with a willy up a bum instead of a gee.

That's enough. And the fella in front, if he's into it, then he should have a

hard -on.

And if he's not, like, if it's a mercy shag or something.

But then it should be all floppy.

That's it, down to the Prince of the Goblet.

Everyone else go on a break. The talk is over.

I was just standing up for my constitutional right. We are not in

Simon.

How bad was it? She handled it quite well, actually.

But a six on the record scale.

I'm going to get her up to an eight next time. You can't be provoking the

teachers. I'm going to draw one of those diagrams on the board before she gets

in. I'm deadly at drawing penises. They're dead realistic.

I do the veins on them and everything.

Stop it.

You're not to do anything to set her off.

I can't make any promises.

Right. Sit there for 20 minutes.

Quietly, mind.

And then get back to class. And at least make it look like you've been given out

to.

He's such a freak.

Admit it, you like him.

He's just so gay.

I don't know how you put up with him the whole time. I'd be worn out.

He can push Miss O'Shea's buttons.

Jesus, if I have to watch her put another condom on a banana, I'll vomit.

You could show her how to do it.

Ha ha.

To be honest, I've only had a few shags.

I actually prefer kissing.

Less messy.

Not that you'd know either way.

I'm winding you up.

Look, don't worry, I'll get Paul to score you.

I don't want to shoot Paul.

Why, what's wrong with him?

Nothing. Well, whoever, they'll be queuing up for you.

You're a stunner.

I don't want to kiss any of them.

I don't think I like boys.

What, you like girls?

One way to find out.

Come on.

What? Well, I was planning to wait until I got to college, till I got my lads

on, but... No time like a present?

You want me to get you?

Don't feel so bloody offended.

Get over here.

Well, I love being packed like a chicken, but... No wonder you're so

Come here.

Shut up would you?

Are you two queer?

Don't be tick. We're just having to talk.

Little slut has her eye on Paul. We're just setting a few boundaries.

Well, it looked like something else was going on.

Well, it wasn't.

I was putting some manners on the bitch.

Tell them.

Yeah, Lily.

Tell them. Is that what happened?

O'Shea is coming.

Don't touch me.

Come on, you mad bitch.

Excuse me!

Excuse me! What the hell is going on here?

Violet. Emer.

Ladies. Would somebody please explain what's happening here?

I don't know.

I couldn't put it.

I heard the racket and came out.

Yeah, me too.

Go to class.

Lily, you alright?

Yep. Time of the month. I'll be grand.

Did you see what happened out here?

An argument or something.

Okay, look, there's the second bell.

Get back to class, yeah?

Yes, Bev.

Okay, settle down.

Sir, Miss O'Shea's looking well today, isn't she?

Yes, Miss O'Shea always looks well, Aisha. Do you fancy Miss O'Shea, sir?

When you get to my age, Simon, you don't fancy people. You fancy a nice long

nap, a good cup of tea and a quiet classroom.

Where's Lily?

Dunno, sir.

Violet?

Does anyone know where Lily is?

Maybe she's in the toilet.

Shut up.

What happened?

Yeah, Violet.

What happened?

What happened, you little cow?

Mind your own business, you little faggot. Hey, watch yourself.

Simon, she was way out of line.

Where are you going?

Simon, get back.

Simon.

That's you, love?

Yeah.

You're home early.

Yeah, we...

Now?

Yes, now.

We can stay here as long as it takes for me to get it out of you.

Eimear, it's no surprise that you're here today.

But Violet, you brought us in.

Why did you have an altercation with Simon in Mr Murphy's class?

You'd have to ask him. Oh, I will.

We have an obligation in the school.

protect the children who belong to more vulnerable groups.

Something to say, Eimear?

Vulnerable just isn't the first word that comes to mind, is all, Miss.

I want you to read these before you come in tomorrow, yes?

Say, yes, Miss Carter.

Yes, Miss Carter.

Yep.

Go on.

What is it?

Can I come in, love?

No.

What are you doing?

I think there's something wrong.

Lily?

Hold on.

Open the door.

What happened?

Some girls in school had a go at me. What did you do?

Nothing. A bunch of girls just randomly attacked you for nothing?

Easy, love. I didn't do anything.

It is your fault. You babied her. You raised a victim.

You deal with it.

You know you can talk to me, don't you?

I'm your dad.

You're still my little girl.

I can't, Dad.

Were you fighting over a boy?

No.

Whatever it is, Lil, we can talk about it.

You and me, yeah?

If you need me, I'll be... I'll be right there, okay?

a nice turn on a boot, you call?

Shut your hole.

Listen, if you're a dyke, you can tell us. Nothing wrong with it, just a bit

weird, you know? I'm not a leather.

Here, next time, give us a shout, yeah?

Yeah, we'll take some pictures.

Here, do you fancy me?

Because I'd be a bit offended if you didn't like. Shut up. I told you we were

fighting over Paul. Paul?

Me all.

The two of you are practically over each other. Oh, my God, shut up, okay? She

bloody grabbed me and started kissing me and, like, touching me up, and I didn't

know what to do. She's got some serious issues, obviously, so just drop it.

Oh, my God. I told you.

Violet? Leather!

Tiny.

Hey,

it's Lily. Leave a message.

Lily, pick up the phone. We're talking about this whether you want to or not.

I should have known you'd be caught up in this. You can forget about coming in.

Can I at least give her back her bag and coat, please?

Du Bois is your friend. Maybe he can help.

You want to talk about it?

You want to talk to me?

It was just a joke.

It didn't mean anything.

Beautiful things are so easily broken by this world.

What? I read it in English.

Look, if anyone gets it, hon, it's me.

You could have told me you were... What the hell is that?

Right. I'm using my GBF card now. Get up.

There's someone I want you to meet. No, I don't want to go anywhere.

Well, talk, you're going.

You can find me something to wear for it because I'm not going into town looking

like this.

Come on.

Goodie, social worker Simon.

Just give me two seconds.

You can't keep doing this to me. Doing what?

Treating me like some dyke Morpheus helping kids transition into the gay

The matrix?

Morpheus?

You take the blue pill, you take the red pill. Yeah, I'm not a big fan of pills.

I have a delicate constitution.

You have a horrible knack for making me feel old, you little baller.

Go on then, what happened?

Tried to get thrown, frog.

What are you bobbing there?

Right, you piss off.

No bus.

And this is the last time, Simon. You can't keep coming to me every time you

find a bird with a broken wing.

Fine.

Chill.

Wait, where are you going?

Don't worry.

I don't fight.

Baby oil.

What? Baby oil for the cup.

It'll help it heal, stop addiction.

You don't have to do that, you know?

The world is changing.

This thing.

Who we are.

It's changing.

Not always for the better, I mean.

Sometimes I get a bit weary of the whole thing.

In some ways it's gone from the love that dare not speak its name to the love

that won't shut the fuck up.

But it is getting better.

Like... I can walk down the street now, holding hands with the girl, knowing

that's an eyelid.

Ever since the vote, it just seems like people are more tolerant.

Disinterested. Whatever, it's good.

I don't think the girls in school see it that way.

Fuck them narrow -minded little geebags.

You want something?

Look, find a way to get through whatever's left of school and you'll be

street. How?

We all have our own ways.

You could be like Simon, getting people's faces with it.

Make them laugh. They tend to forgive a lot.

I'm not much of a comedian.

You could get aggressive.

Go full -on Liz the Salander.

Freak people out with your appearance. They tend to leave you alone.

Black isn't really my colour.

You'll have to find your own way.

But if you're going to have a happy life, you can't hide from who you are.

Trust me.

I've watched enough friends disappear down a black hole trying to change what

they are. It doesn't work.

We all have scars.

Some are physical.

Some are spiritual.

You can choose to cover them up.

Or you can wear them with pride.

Like battle scars.

I've got nearly a year left in school.

I have to sit beside these girls every day. I can't even change my desk.

The way I see it, you've got two options.

You can be a man about it, bury your head in the sand.

Or you can woman up.

Face things head on.

And find an ally.

A fellow misfit to hold your hand when things get hard.

Someone who doesn't give a shit what other people think.

Know anyone like that?

Spend a bit of time with that creep this evening and figure out what your next

move is.

And talk to someone.

Your mom, dad, a teacher. It doesn't matter.

Just promise me you won't do anything stupid.

Come here.

Right, go on.

And tell that little prick I never want to see him again.

Thank you.

I hope you're not sexting.

I'm on a laptop.

And no one says sexting anymore except old people. As long as there are no

pictures of boys' willies on their lips.

Mom, back in the day when you were in school, did you ever get in a fight?

Back in the day?

Wait, are you being bullied, my darling?

No.

No.

There's just this girl in school, and I don't know whether to say anything.

But you want to help do the right thing.

Okay. Well, school is like... It's like a reality TV show.

You have the freaks and the weirdos, the ones everyone laughs at.

Then there are the normals.

You know, ugly people with nice personalities.

And then you have the stars.

They're better looking, more intelligent.

They're just better.

Now, do you think the stars bother themselves with the freaks and the

No, of course they don't. They just get on with being stars.

It's a popularity contest, my love.

And right now, you're winning.

Where'd you find her?

She found me.

Got into a fight in a bar. She stepped in and sorted it out. What?

A gay bar.

What were you doing in a bar?

What were you doing in a fight?

I'd been very active on the scene while you were away.

Active like?

Like going to pubs and chatting with fellas.

Sometimes other fellas' fellas.

So what did you two talk about?

Stuff. You know you can talk to me any time about...

Anything. Yeah, and within five minutes the whole school will know about it.

Excuse me. I know to keep a secret.

Okay, fine, I don't.

Still, everyone knows now, so you might as well spill.

I heard there's a photo of you and some girl.

Or a sex tape or something.

We were in this bar, like I said. It was the only place I could get any crappy

idea.

I met this girl.

Oh, she's gorgeous.

She just came up to me and started talking to me.

Like she knew me.

Like, really knew me.

And the weird thing is, I felt like she did too. Like, we just clicked. I can't

explain it.

I just kept going back to see her. I couldn't stop going back.

Because it felt like she was seeing me, like, the real me.

And when she kissed me for the first time, everything stopped.

I thought, well, it feels right.

Finally, it feels right.

serious hell too.

Seriously, Simon, you've known who you are for a long time, but I didn't see

this coming.

I'm still trying to make it fit with me and my head.

I don't know if I can.

What does she think of all this?

You haven't talked to her.

You just said I had nothing serious.

Are you serious about Violet?

Oh, come on, you can't blame me for being curious.

You go away for three months, and when you come back, you're suddenly all over

Violet. Like, Violet. No, I wasn't all over her.

She came on to me.

Sorry, what?

Okay, just Violet.

The biggest man -eater in school just came on to you. She wanted to get her

on or something.

Did you always fancy her, or is it just something you figured out? What in God's

name is that hideous thing you're wearing?

Do you like it?

Straight off the catwalk of Milan.

It's so bad, it would actually be amazing.

This is Lily.

She's recently out.

Like today.

Hot off the press.

She kept it to herself, the little villain.

Even from me. And I would love to hear all about it, but right now, I have got

to show Instagram the thing you're wearing.

You're hovering.

I'm a bit worried.

I told you to leave it.

She had a row.

It's happened. They can't fight all her battles for her.

I haven't seen her this upset since the cat died.

The cat died when she was six.

Exactly.

She's normally so together.

I think there's something really up.

Like what?

I don't know.

She's showing signs for eating disorder.

Drugs.

Maybe she's pregnant. Jesus, Dermot.

Does everything have to be a catastrophe?

Is your life that boring that you have to make everything into a drama at every

turn?

Look, I'm sorry.

I'll talk to her, all right?

You will? Yeah, I'll talk to her in the morning before you go to school.

What? Hi.

What do you want?

I figured we should talk about what happened.

Look, I'm sorry, all right?

I got out of hand with Eimear and... Did you hurt yourself?

What?

When you fell, did you hurt yourself?

I'm fine.

It's just... Eimear's got a big mouth.

He's just gonna give a shit that we were just messing about.

You know how she twists everything?

Yeah, sure.

Have you seen this Lily -Leslie shit online?

Yeah, I don't care about that. Well, I do.

They've got my face on there now, too.

I know exactly who's behind it.

She's a bitch. She's going to be sorry she ever started it.

Where are you?

I'm in town.

Really? On a school night?

Felt like a bit of an adventure.

Just a rebel all of a sudden.

You could come in if you like.

Talk about what happened.

Where are you heading?

I don't know.

Simon's with some friends. I could ask him.

Simon's with you?

Yeah.

Curious.

Look, I'm tired. I think I'm going to go to bed.

Okay.

See you tomorrow?

Let's not turn this into a big thing, all right?

Do you want to give the city bitches any more ammunition?

Okay?

I guess.

I'm being called. I've got to go.

Bye.

Hey.

Got a light?

Sorry, I don't really swell.

Is everything okay?

Yeah, fine.

It's tough.

You're Simon's friend.

The baby dyke.

I guess.

I do.

He and my brother Alton are close.

Is that your brother?

No.

They're different.

Got a name?

Lily. Like a fresh flower.

Am I right?

Never been plucked.

Relax, I'm teasing you.

AJ.

Hiya. These guys are heading back to a house party.

The fella there is hoping to see.

Oh.

I told him we should probably be getting on the... Yeah, we should go home.

That's a shame.

We've got a hell of a view.

Oh.

This is incredible.

Curious little thing, aren't you?

Nothing wrong with being curious.

And how do you usually satisfy your curiosity?

Google?

I don't know, the usual stuff.

Book?

Films? You can get a few tips, I guess.

It's straight as everywhere.

Book, TV, fuck fiction.

Not exactly helpful when you're stumbling out of the closet.

Am I right?

You're not going to find what you're looking for in there, though.

There is no substitute for the real thing.

The first time you kiss, I mean really kiss a woman, you find out it's even

I kissed a girl like that.

In school.

When I do this to you.

I knew someone in school.

Quiet, got bullied a lot.

By one guy in particular, fuck fucker.

Used to laugh when he kicked him about.

Then one day, the boy took his dad's razor.

Daddy was a barber.

And he cut fat boy.

Deep.

Fat boy stopped laughing.

No one ever bullied that kid again. I'm not gonna cut violet.

Have you ever, what, defended myself?

Of course.

You're a victim or you're not.

I don't regret it, you know.

What, getting slapped by a school rat?

Kissing her.

Is she that good?

She was, when no one was watching.

It can be fun to have people watch.

It can be a turn on.

God, I envy you.

You do?

I'm all ahead of you.

There's a creepy old fucker watching us.

It's just Jules.

He's like part of the furniture.

Yeah, well, your furniture's creepy.

And old.

How's the boys?

Great.

So let me sup you.

Are you?

No.

You

like

that?

I can watch from over there if you prefer.

I'd prefer you didn't watch us at all, to be honest. Sorry, sorry, Joe. I

realise you were such a prude. It's fine.

I'll go get us some drinks. You guys relax.

What's your problem?

I don't like being stared at by dirty old perverts. Well, he's a rich pervert.

And he looks after me and my sister, so mind your fucking manners.

I have to go to the toilet.

Simon.

Brittany, bitch.

Leave a message.

No, quit.

Sorry. Jeez.

Jeez. They block up the whole fucking island. I'm only going too strong. Why

don't give a fuck? Sit down, you faggot.

Oi!

Do you want to get off?

No. One more word out of you and you'll be out in your ass.

The kid in your story that cut the other boy, that was you, wasn't it?

Sometimes you have to leave a mark. Remind people there are consequences for

messing with you.

Why mark yourself when you can do it then?

Give me your phone.

Now, I don't give my number to choose anyone.

Is this her?

The one who slapped your face in?

Violet.

I can see why you'd want to hit that.

It's not like that.

Oh, what? She's different from the other girls.

Special. No.

I like that you think romance is real.

Good night.

Good night.

Come on, we're going.

Can we not just stay a little bit?

There you are.

I thought we'd lost you.

So are you enjoying your little pad?

Yeah, it's lovely.

Will you be staying the night?

There's plenty of room.

I can't. We have school.

Oh, yes.

Of course.

But you look fabulous in a school uniform.

We have to go, last bus.

Of course. Fly away, little birds.

But you come back.

The doors are open.

She said she likes it when I turn off my phone and get on your bike.

You don't like it when you talk like that.

You don't like it when you...

See you tomorrow?

Careful now. The news straightened me out.

Thank you.

Where's mum?

She's gone to bed, love.

You okay?

Yeah.

You know, when you were a little girl, it was my job to help you believe in

magic.

You know, Santa, the Tooth Fairy.

Seahorses. Seahorses are real, Dad.

Yeah, like a fish with a horse's head.

As much as I don't like to admit it, you're growing up.

You're a young woman.

So now my job is to just be there.

You'll always be my little girl.

No matter what.

You'll be the same to me today as you were yesterday and as you will be

tomorrow.

I have school in the morning.

Okay. Well, if...

My phone died.

Who are you with?

Lily.

She put you in that gear?

No. Look at that coat of hair.

Can I go to bed?

It's Gildan in the morning.

Stop making it easy

for them.

That's private.

What's this?

Everything is nothing, therefore nothing must end.

It's a quote from Christie Brown.

My left foot, Christie Brown?

Yeah.

Why is it written in here?

I thought it was sad and beautiful.

I read a book of his once.

Before I met your dad.

Before I...

Look, I got you this.

Put it on before you go to school.

It's extra coverage.

And try to keep your head down and keep out of people's way, all right?

I like the little leather account you set up.

Very clever.

What? I didn't. I thought that.

Then I remembered you banging on about Photoshop for all of fourth year.

When no one gave enough of a shit about you to listen.

Could fake just about anything you said.

Hoping we'd all be impressed.

This one's my favourite.

The giant strap -on and Lily's face between my tits. I'll delete the

You'd do that.

Now.

Does anyone else here think I'm a dyke?

After hearing some of the shit you get up to with the lads?

Not a chance.

It's gone.

You immature little geebag.

Here, let me do it.

Leave it.

Don't make a big deal.

Did I tell you to stop?

No. Well, then.

I'm sorry to interrupt.

Simon, Mr. Terrell wants a word.

I'm grand.

We made a deal, you and I, that we'd always tell each other the truth, no

what. I'm telling you the truth.

Simon, if the girls are bullying you because of your sexual orientation...

They're not.

And if I was to bring Lily in here now, would she say the same?

Look, sometimes we say things about each other, call each other names, but it

doesn't mean anything.

Honestly, Miss Violet and Eimear couldn't care less who would stick me

into. Jesus, Simon!

Sorry. That was a bit much. Sorry.

Well...

Since we're on the subject, I've avoided bringing this up, but... Simon, are you

practising safe sex?

This fits me nerves.

No, I know you probably don't want to talk to me about this kind of thing, but

you do need to talk to someone. Would you prefer discussing it with your

No, he'd have a bloody heart attack.

Look, I haven't done it yet.

Had sex?

Just kissing and, you know... Petting?

I'm not a bleeding dog.

No, I know you're not. I just... Look, don't ever be afraid to come and talk to

me about anything, OK?

What, were they fighting?

No. Just rolling around, hugging each other like a pair of cranes and eating.

Jesus. This girl was going mental, lads. A pen, you homo sensu.

Sorry, he didn't mean it. He was talking about hurling.

Lily. Lily, hey.

Sorry, I just wanted to say...

You know I like you, but if you're not into lads or whatever, it took me and we

still can't hang out and stuff. I want you and your little friends to make fun

of me some more. No. Do you ever think that maybe it's just you I'm not into?

Jesus, he's off the game.

back out there. I'm not going back out. What are you doing? You're making it

look like there's something going on between us.

Why can't you just be normal? Why do you care so much what they think? I don't

give a shit what they think.

Then why hide from them?

You kissed me.

I didn't.

You kissed me.

It started off as a joke. I know that.

Something happened.

He wanted it as much as I did.

They're coming.

You said you don't care what they think. I don't want people to think I'm like

you.

You can lie to yourself all you want, but I know what you are.

So do they.

I just want to see if you're all right. Do I look all right?

Just piss off. Go.

Yes? Hi.

It's me.

Lily from last night.

Flower. I didn't expect to hear from you so soon.

Can I see you? I really need to see you.

That sounds ominous. Did I get you pregnant?

No, I just... Do you mean me no?

Ah, sure. Why not?

I'll pay you my location.

Okay.

What happened? Nothing.

Roisin said you were... Roisin had a big mouth.

Lily, wait. I'll go get my bag. No, Simon, just go back inside.

Just stop!

I can't be seen hanging around with two little virgins.

I'm not a virgin.

Crazy man. Let's see if that doesn't count.

Shut up.

What are you doing, buddy?

on when you're screwed shitless for it whatever give me a minute

What happened to you?

I made a mistake, a big one.

Violet, I can't go back to school. I mean, and if I can't go back, I can't go

home because Mom would kill me. So I was wondering if maybe I could stay with

you for a bit just so that I get my head together.

Oh, easy there, Bambi. I go down on you once and suddenly we're moving in

together. No, I didn't mean that. Like, last night was great and all, but the

truth is it was just a hookup. Yeah, sure. Sorry.

What do you think was going to happen?

You'd kiss this girl, you'd fall in love and run away together and get matching

tattoos.

Lily and Violet forever.

Look, you might not want to hear it, but this might save you a lot of pain in

the long term. It takes most people years to figure out the truth. You just

a crash course.

What truth?

That love is a lie.

It doesn't exist.

Or if it does, it's not the picture -perfect bullshit you get on a

card. It's the needy, clingy bitch of a thing that makes everyone who looks for

it miserable.

I don't believe that.

How many lesbians do you know who are in happy relationships?

I don't know many lesbians. Maybe we eat each other, maybe.

How many people do you know who are in happy relationships?

So what? Just give up on ever being happy. Of course not.

You just have to be practical.

Live for the moment. Take what you can from who you can and move on. So you're

happy.

I'm not miserable.

I shouldn't have bothered you.

Well, hold on.

I can't have you wandering the streets in a school uniform. That's just asking

for trouble.

Media place to stay tonight. You can crash at mine.

As long as you don't mind sharing a bed with me and my friend.

I'll pass.

Hey.

Have you changed your mind?

She won't.

Look at you.

Two days out of the closet and you've already got your own pet bull dyke.

Better than a scumbag who pimps her brother's arse for money.

Why do they always spit?

The last resort to the inarticulate. Simon sent you? Come on. Where?

Just fucking come on.

Well, any luck?

Yeah, found her. Where was she? Don't worry about that. Just get your arse

to the centre. Did you go up to Celine?

Mm -hmm. Time to bring in the big gun.

Where are you taking me?

You need help, love. Do not.

If you're hanging around with the likes of that... parasite, then yeah, you do.

She's not a parasite. She's what?

Your friend?

There are people out there who live for nothing more than the thrill of chewing

up kids like you and Simon and spitting them out.

You're gonna have to learn to spot them.

I'm not a child.

Not anymore, you're not.

Get in the car.

How are you, Donnie?

Oh, God.

Is something wrong?

Someone's died. Someone's dead.

No, no one's dead.

Did you let her know you were coming? No.

Bit of an emergency.

Right. The last time you had an emergency, it worked out so well for

Speak of the devil.

He is barred. You're barred. Donny, that incident was a complete

misunderstanding. Which one?

All of them. Donny, I've had a look at that report and I can't seem to find

the... I, uh...

It's a terrible ordeal you've been through, Lily.

Unfortunately, it's nothing new.

It is to me.

What I mean is that we get so many kids coming through here looking for support

that have been through something similar.

It might be good for you to have a bit of a chat with them.

Or at least listen to them speak.

How do you two know each other?

We, uh... had a thing.

I think.

Is that what the kids are calling a seven -year relationship these days?

I heard yous were like the ultimate lesbo power couple.

What happened?

I got older.

Boring. Less glamorous.

Don't sell yourself short, Celine. You're bleeding gorgeous.

That's not what happened.

We've got a session starting later on.

Lily, I'd like you to sit in on it. Not to participate, just to observe.

And if you feel like it might benefit you, then we can get you back and get

involved. And if not, we'll figure something else out.

But we will figure something out.

I promise.

Okay? Yeah.

He's right.

Hmm?

Simon, he's right.

You do look good.

You look tired.

Are you sleeping?

Sorry. I just want to grab enough of this.

Do you mind? We're talking.

Don't let me interrupt you.

It's fine.

I'll be fine.

He's just being protective.

What's he thinking going to do to you?

So, you seeing anyone?

Had a thing a little while ago.

But it didn't work out.

You? Yeah.

No, I mean, not in series. Lots of little things.

Still taking in strays, I think.

Against my better instincts.

I should... Yeah.

Yeah, go do your thing.

We were best pals.

Me and my dad.

When I was a kid, we even had our own secret handshake. We never showed it to

anyone, not even Mom.

Anyway, I had a girl over.

We'd been trying to get a bit of time together for ages.

Finally had a free house. You know how it is.

It had been so long.

We weren't listening out for, you know, for anyone.

Just each other.

And the next thing, the door opens and he's standing there looking at me.

He didn't say anything.

He was just looking at me with this horrible expression on his face.

Go on, Naomi.

He stood down in the room and... I chased after him.

I, uh... I tried to talk with him.

I grabbed hold of the door, but he slammed it shut.

We won't be doing our secret handshake anytime soon.

Guess you'll have to figure out how to finger left -handed, so... What

With your dad?

He rushed me to hospital.

He said all the right things, but... He hasn't talked to me properly since.

It's like he thinks I'm a totally different person.

Lily. Lily!

Is this it?

Is this how it's going to be? One miserable experience after another just

because I like girls? No.

Why aren't you with Celine?

What? It's obvious you're both mad about each other. Why aren't you together?

Sometimes... Sometimes you fall in love with someone because of how they are

with other people.

You look at them and think, I want a piece of that.

But it's no fun being home alone while your other half stop being amazing with

strangers. Everyone keeps telling me it's going to be fine. Just get through

It'll be fine.

Bullshit.

Simon. Go on, it's fine. I'll look after her. Listen, not everyone can come out

in a blaze of glory the way you did.

Excuse me, I'd have very dignified coming in.

Yeah, all the dignity of rhinoceros jumping out of a cake.

I know you're happy, but let her take things at her own pace.

Hi. Thanks for calling.

You're grand.

I don't know what good I can do, though.

It's worth the show.

Yeah.

Okay.

Hey, Lily, right?

Naomi, from the center?

You mind if I sit?

You should have seen the other guy, right?

All that stuff back there, it's not what that place is really about. It's not

all split your wrists and vomit your pain into a group hug.

It's mostly just hanging out.

Speaking in therapy is voluntary.

It's the first time I've ever spoken about... Did that really happen with

dad?

Yeah.

But, hey, my dad's not your dad.

Does he know about you?

Liam would know how to handle this. I don't need to be handled. No.

I mean... That's one of their principles in there.

They don't force you to do anything.

You can take your time.

You can do whatever you want.

Say whatever you want.

It's safe.

I don't belong there.

Why not?

You didn't deserve what happened to you.

And what you did.

No one deserves that.

Because I know what I want doesn't mean that I have the right to blow up her

life. I keep thinking if I just hadn't pushed her... If what Simon says is

then it sounds like this girl is just as messed up as the rest of us.

And, okay, maybe you pushed her too hard, but that doesn't give her the

Wait, how did you find me?

Shit.

He's only trying to help.

I think I've made things worse.

Thanks for showing up.

Do you want to go after her? I know where she's headed.

I'm just up the road.

At the end of the story. No, up the road.

Didn't think you'd get rid of me that easily, did you?

Look, you may as well accept the fact you can't shake me. I've a bachelor's

degree in stockology here. Stop it, Simon. You're like a whipped dog

me around.

Back in time today, someone's compared me to a dog.

Don't you get it? I don't want to be like you or Una or any of them.

No, Violet was right. You are a freak.

No, I'm going to stay with him.

His dad's coming in too.

Okay. When will you be home?

I don't know. I'll call you.

All right. I'm here if you need me.

Love you, Dad.

Love you too.

I remember a time before I met Simon.

Boring.

Lonely.

Uneventful.

I miss those days.

What I said about you being a freak, I didn't mean it.

Where's my dog?

He's on the way.

You know, if you tried really hard, I reckon you could get through a whole day

without a major disaster happening.

Jesus.

I'm all right, Dad.

Look, I brought your clothes.

Come on, get dressed. We're going home.

I think the doctor's going to hang on to him for a bit. Yeah, will you?

She's my friend, Dad.

Yeah?

You're the one filling his head full of shit. Excuse me? You just get dressed.

You call helping a young man to express who he is filling his head full of shit?

He doesn't know who he is yet.

And you're going to tell him, are you?

Look, I don't give a shit who he fancies or what he wears.

But until he's old enough... He's not a child. He's my child.

And while he's under my roof, he'll do as I tell him, and he'll say who I tell

him to say, and he'll be... He'll be what?

You tell me what he'll be. Safe!

He'll be safe!

He wasn't beat up because he's gay.

It was a drunk driver hit him, you hear that?

You want to stop it? Oh, look after him.

That's my job. My job on me own. I know you think you're helping him, but you're

not. You're putting a fucking target on his back.

And I don't want you hanging out with me either.

You're worse than she is.

Encouraging to wear nail varnishing.

He came in in women's clothes the other night.

Your clothes, yeah?

Come on, sit back.

Una!

I can't, love. I can't.

I didn't ask for any of this.

But Simon needs you.

I need you. You want to know why me and Celine broke up? The real reason?

She wanted to start a family.

Wanted to have a baby. But she couldn't.

And I wouldn't.

So I gave her a choice. Either she could have me, or she could have a baby.

She didn't choose me.

You don't want kids?

I don't know. Maybe.

But even if I did, I'd blown it now.

That man in there is right. I'm toxic. You don't want me anywhere near you. I

do. You don't.

And I don't want you anywhere near me.

Hey, it's Lily. Leave a message.

Hey, it's me.

I wanted to say this to you in person, but you're not at school, so... Look,

know what? I'm only thinking of you, don't you?

What's funny?

Just remembering something Mum said to me once.

She said anyone who tells you they're only thinking of you is really only

thinking of themselves.

What did she tell you that?

I don't know.

I was about ten.

I was wearing one of her dresses and we were putting lipstick on and dancing

around like agents to Leona or something.

I'm so hurt. She was crying.

But she gave me the biggest hug ever and told me never to let anyone tell me not

to be myself.

It's so quiet at home without her.

I have to go and find Lily.

It's me.

I wanted to say this to you in person, but you're not at school, so... I

realized last night that you're becoming a toxic friend.

And I tried to figure out why.

And I'm pretty sure it has something to do with you deciding that you're gay or

whatever.

And that's fine. You know, I'm cool with all of that. I just...

I don't need your drama spilling over into my life.

So I'd appreciate it if you don't...

Talk to me again, or come up to me at school or anything.

And if you get your shit together, maybe we can hang out again, but... Until

then, I don't need this kind of negativity in my life.

Okay.

That's it.

Excuse me.

Sorry, love, you can't sit there.

And we need to keep the corridor free.

Yeah, you can't go up there either.

No!

You can't be up here.

The door is open.

Yeah, it's for stop only.

Can I bum him?

Yeah.

You don't like the official smoky areas?

No. Nobody's sick people.

No offence if you're sick, Flecky.

Don't look like there's anything wrong with you. Perfect.

There is something wrong, Billy.

Good.

Is it serious?

It's competitive.

At the rate I'm going, probably.

We're going to get back to it, yeah?

Just pull the door.

They're coming in, OK?

Sure.

Billy, where are you?

Call me back when you get this.

Sorry. You haven't seen a girl go past in a school uniform, have you?

Face like a bruised banana.

Ah, for Jason's sake.

Go away, Simon. What the hell are you doing?

Nothing. Just go back to bed.

Oh, mother of God.

Will you get back in?

Right.

Simon! Simon!

That was stupid!

Sorry,

but what the hell?

I got you back in, didn't I?

I wasn't going to jump.

Yeah? Then what the hell were you doing up there?

I just... I wanted to feel in control.

Like I could decide myself not to jump.

Not to jump.

And you couldn't have told me that before. I climbed over the wall like

Leo in Wolf of Wall Street.

But you didn't give me a chance, did you?

Yeah, well, if you'd have gone over, I'd have gone right after you, and then

you'd have to live with the guilt.

Yeah, for the whole two seconds it would take for me to fall to the floor. I

think we could have dealt with it.

We would have left gorgeous corpses.

With our heads splattered all over the concrete.

I had a big speech prepared for you, but you kind of ruined it by nearly jumping

off a building.

Let me hear it.

No, you'll only laugh at me now. No, I won't. Come on.

Right. Okay.

Here it is.

My big gay feet. You wrote it down.

Yeah, I'm concussed.

If I try remembering, I'll just shut up and let me get through.

I know you want to be normal.

I'm not doing it if you're going to take the piss out of me.

No, I won't. Sorry.

Come on.

I know you want to be normal, but you're not.

We're not.

The doc doesn't give people the right to hurt you.

You're special, and when people who are normal look at you, it makes them feel

less special.

And that's why they hate me sometimes.

Back when I was coming out, before you even knew who you were, you were the

person who didn't make me feel like a freak.

I'm so sorry.

Don't look at yourself too there, Aya.

Okay?

That's it.

That's all I've got.

And you and Mrs. Fitz are right, I am like a dog. No, I didn't mean... Not one

of those yappy little fuckers that you stick into a handbag. No, I'm a

Rottweiler. If anyone goes near you again, I'll rip their throat in.

Come on.

There's someone I want you to meet. No, I don't want to go anywhere.

Tough. You're going.

Jase, it's wet. Can you not give me two minutes, Pete?

We have to talk to you. No, you don't. I told you to leave me alone. Just hear

him out. No. Get out, both of you. Look, my dad was wrong.

I don't care. Get out. You're both barred.

Tony, can you do your job here?

I'm on a break.

Look, he was wrong. You're not putting a target on my back. You're the first

person since my mom died that made me feel like things could be okay. I'm not

your mother.

Look, I don't want you to be.

I just want you to be my friend.

My angry, scary, mad -as -fuck friend who makes me laugh and scares the shit

of me at the same time.

I'm tired, Simon.

I don't have the energy for it anymore.

That's why you have to go back.

To Celine.

You have to go back to her. You need to mind your own business.

I don't know you two at all, but even I can tell you're both mad about each

other.

I need it.

I need to know that it can work.

You want me to get back with my ex to prove to you it's possible to live the

lesbian life of Riley?

Basically, yeah.

You once told me to woman up to face things head -on.

It's pretty good advice.

I'll take it.

Don't let her do anything I do. When did I become the responsible one?

You're not going to do anything stupid, are you?

Maybe. Could use a Rottweiler as backup.

I just got run over. I don't get a day off school.

If I don't tell you I love you enough, it's because... Well, you know where

What to do?

To go home.

You're going to tell them. Can I be there? No.

Come on, I never got to come out. Mam knew I was gay from the minute I could

talk. First word was Gucci. It's not going to happen.

I'm gay.

Oh, thank God.

No, you're not.

I thought you were pregnant.

No, just gay.

You can't be gay. I am. That's great, love.

What's great about her daughter being a lesbian?

Gay girls don't get pregnant.

Do they?

Dad.

What did I do?

What did I do wrong?

Nothing. You didn't do anything.

I wanted a life for you, Lily.

I wanted a wedding.

Babies. All have a life. Believe me.

Just not one you'll stitch onto your designer bloody cushion. He didn't raise

victim. He raised me, and he raised me loved.

He deserves better than you give him.

And you, enough with the gay jokes, okay?

Yeah.

Got you this.

I'm not wearing that.

It's by your arm.

I'm grand. I don't need that.

Just put it on, will you?

Do it for me, please.

Fine.

Now,

there you go.

You'll have me looking like the cripple of Inish, man.

What do you know about the cripple of Inish, man?

We did it in school last year.

There. Now, don't you worry where anybody thinks of you.

Fuck the big goodgers.

Fuck them.

Go on.

Will you please just shut up?

Thank you.

Jesus. Lily, Simon.

Just us two today, sir. Jesus, it doesn't.

Sit down, Simon.

We should step out into the hall. I think you should get me a shater.

This is more of a woman's problem.

Right.

She's a woman. I mean... Right.

Don't move.

Look at me.

Look at what you did to me.

Have you nothing to say?

My face will heal.

But I want you to remember every time you sit at this laminated piece of shit

desk, look at that mask and remember what you did to me.

What you are.

You're a bully and a coward.

Will you take this from me?

Yeah, sure.

Sorry about what I said.

I hear Grant.

Just don't card me up with this thing, yeah?

Just don't give me a reason to.

What is that? What is that?

What the hell is going on here?

Oh, my God, Liz.

Are you all right?

Yes, Miss.

What happened?

Nothing, Miss. Just a misunderstanding.

Has anybody got anything to say?

Violent?

Lily.

I'm fine, miss. Lily.

It's okay.

I'll be fine.

I don't know who I am yet.

I'm not normal, whatever that is.

I figure that much out.

But I don't want that to mean that I have to live on the fringes, in fear.

Hiding who I am, hurting everyone around me, hurting myself.

Hiding all the good in me, in the prophet.

But if I can surround myself with people who teach me to be brave, who show me

that I'm surrounded by all kinds of love, maybe I can find a way to be

To not lose who I am in anyone or anything.

To hold on to hope.

To accept love when it comes.

Because love always does.

Even if it's not the way I want it.

Even if it doesn't come easy.

I don't know what life has in store for me.

But whatever it is, I know I won't face it alone.

Because I've found my tribe.

They call us freaks and queers, leathers and dice.

Words like weapons that wound with every strike.

But whatever they call us, the ones who discriminate, we can take it in our

stride. Because we don't live by words of hate.

We listen to the voices of the people who we love.

Tell us hold tight to what we're made of.

We are strength.

We are pride.

We are passion. We are alive.

We are love.

I need to be dark right now.