All language subtitles for Are You My First (2025) S01E08.en

[♪ "Falling For You" by Temmpo playing]

♪ I'm fallin' for you ♪

♪ You are the song from a melody ♪

[Kaitlyn Bristowe] Oh, what's that I see?

Is that decades of pent-up
sexual frustration?

Well, that must mean our virgins
are still trying to find their first.

The three new virgin super-studs

whipped out their massive V cards

to date Deya, Farha, and Brooklyn

who are dying to serve up
the spicy gossip, Salsa-style.

♪ I'm fallin' for you ♪

Wait, wait. Tell us about the date.
Wh-What did y'all do?

-We danced Salsa.
-[Madi] I knew it!

-Salsa? Wow. Okay.
-Yeah. It was Salsa dancing.

-[Madi] That's so fun.
-Yeah. There was a live band.

-Cool.
-[Jade] Oh, that's so nice.

-You're dressed perfectly for it, I feel.
-It was perfect, yeah.

Going on this date with Spencer was fun,

but it's made me realize
that Godwin is my guy.

That's the guy I wanna
go all the way with.

-[Godwin] Okay, okay.
-The hips don't lie.

-[Jade/Madi] Hips don't lie.
-The hips don't lie.

Spencer pulled Deya to go on a date.

But it's not a big deal because

I'm not ready to just let Jade go.

I'm going to have to make
a decision in the last sacrifice

between Jade or Deya.

I just don't know what's
about to happen next.

[♪ dramatic music plays]

-[♪ sparkling flourish]
-[ocean waves crashing]

[♪ chill piano music playing]

[Deya] We're just
listening to Brooklyn tell us

about her chat with Layne.

-[Brooklyn] Okay, cool.
-[Deya] It was nice.

He ended up like kissing me
and stuff at the end. Yeah.

-What?!
-[Brooklyn] Yeah.

[Farha] What the...?

-Yeah.
-I was not expecting you to say that.

-He moves fast.
-I know.

I'm really hoping for more
opportunities to kiss Layne.

I feel like there's a huge,
like, spark between us.

It makes me feel like this is
kind of working out for me,

this whole experience.

He was super sweet.

Like, it was like
a sweet gesture, you know?

I was totally, like, "friendship energy"
the whole time...

[laughing] with Spencer.

I like where I'm at with Godwin.

[♪ mellow music playing]

With me and Jade, like,
there's something like--

You know when you just feel something?

-[Ty] Yeah.
-[Godwin] How do you really feel though?

-Like, be honest, bro.
-[Ty] It's hard.

Like, obviously it's like, sad, you know?

If, if it didn't work out
between her and I

and if it's not her, then I'm at peace
with concluding this chapter.

Yeah.

[insects chirping]

[♪ "Rise Awake" by Peter Higher playing]

♪ Our life is in my dreams ♪

♪ Watch the pieces fall in place ♪

[Colton Underwood] With just one day
before the final Virgin Sacrifice

and the impending big finish,

the virgins are figuring
out their feelings.

For Layne, it's clear he's falling hard.

Through-- Oh, fudge!

-[yelps]
-[group] Oh!

[Colton] See? He's head over heels.

[group laughing]

[Rachael] How do you feel
about the new guys?

[Madi] I mean, I definitely
wanna talk to Layne.

I'm definitely interested in Layne.

I mean, his eyes are insane
and I think he's really cute.

I hope that he and Brooklyn, you know,

aren't really completely
locked into each other.

Yeah, now it's your turn.

-Let it out.
-[Rachael] [sighing] Okay.

So, we were in the Love Shack

and then in the bed, I just like--

something didn't click right for me.

Oh, really?

[♪ soft, pensive music playing]

It's like, I want to do things
and then like, I don't know.

I think I have just intimacy issues.

Yeah.

I'm starting to realize that
these physical intimacy issues

[voice breaking] that I'm having,

I really see how it's affecting
my relationships,

and I can tell that

[crying] it's gonna affect mine
and Michael's relationship.

It's really hard. [sniffles]

I just, I-- Like, I don't know
the next steps on getting past this.

Yeah.

[sniffles]

[emotional] Like...
I just wanna be, like, normal.

There's nothing wrong with you.

[ocean waves lapping]

It doesn't define you.

-Yeah.
-Or your value.

Or the fact-- Like, it doesn't mean
you'll never find love.

-[♪ soft music playing]
-[crying]

I really, really needed this.

[Madi] Yeah. Let it all out.

-[Rachael groans]
-You take morning shift,

-I'll get the night.
-[laughs] Okay.

[both chuckle]

Alright. Well, let's go, uh,

-join everybody.
-Okay. I love you.

-Good talk. Thanks.
-Good talk.

Good hammock sesh. I love you.

-I'm sure I'll have the night shift.
-Oh, my God, my face just came off

on you like so bad.

-Where?
-No, bad-bad!

-Um, where?
-[Rachael laughing]

[screams] I don't even care.

[both laughing]

I don't give a fuck. I have a piece
of you with me forever.

Oh, my God, that's so embarrassing!

-I literally--
-Don't tell anybody it was me.

-Okay.
-[Rachael laughs, yelps]

[♪ mischievous music playing]

[Kaitlyn] Rachael's not the only one
battling intimacy issues.

Sara's intimacy issue is
Jake's boundaries contract.

Clause one: Strictly no PDA.

I'm not really a fan of PDA.

[Kaitlyn] Clause two:

Unless Jake suddenly feels like it.

[laughter]

There's a difference between like
a peck because of a game--

That whipped cream
was not a peck. It was not.

-Don't, don't play with me.
-It wasn't. It wasn't a peck.

-It was not a peck.
-It was a peck. We did this.

-We did this.
-The whipped cream?

-Yeah, like this.
-Um, well, my lips were

-basically, like, closed.
-So, it was like-- It was like this.

-Yeah, your lips were closed. I know.
-My lips-- Yeah, I know.

And I just went for it like this.

[♪ tense percussion music playing]

[Sara chuckles]

[Jake chuckles]

'Cause your lip went here
and my lip over here

and then we would kinda like this.

-That's what I was thinking.
-Okay.

Oh, my gosh. [laughs]

Jake is 32 and he's had
more experience than me.

But for me, like,
if we're kissing, then we're kissing

and it's just further confusing me.

I wanna, like, hug you and hold
your hand as much as possible.

Yeah, of course. And we can hold hands,

-everything.
-Yeah.

Yeah. Do you wanna hold hands?

-Sure.
-Okay.

Yeah, it's just like... yeah.

[contestants chattering in background]

What do you think about Rihanna?

I love Rihanna.

-I could buy her makeup.
-Yeah.

You're giving me-- Well, I don't buy
her lingerie, but if I wanted to...

You nev-- You never wore one?

-No.
-No? Why not?

Uh, I never bought, like, lingerie before.

-Oh. Oh, really?
-Yeah.

I ain't got nobody to wear it for.

-I-I hear you. I hear you.
-I ain't got nobody to put it on for.

Okay. So, you--
If you had a boyfriend, you gon',

you gon' spice things up?

Sure, I would do that. Yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

That's cute. Okay.

-Do you wanna go to the hammock?
-Do you wanna go out there? Yeah.

Are you kinda sad?

[Deya] There's a lot of thoughts
running through my mind.

I came here to find my husband

and someone I can lose my virginity to.

And I thought it was gonna be Godwin.

You know, like, I even rejected Spencer,

so that I can continue building
this relationship with Godwin,

but when I got back,
he was hanging with Jade.

It just feels like
I'm being played with right now.

[♪ solemn music playing]

I feel like I want to give Jade and Godwin

the space to just be with each other.

Yeah. Like, if he wasn't all about Jade,

like, how would you
feel for yourself, like,

and where you're at with Godwin?

[Deya] I don't know.

I feel like my heart
is starting to shut down.

[Ty] Being vulnerable
and honest about my feelings,

I'm not feeling the most chosen.

-Yeah.
-But it's okay.

It's not.

[Ty sobbing]

[♪ "Heartache" by Joe Taylor playing]

Jade has mentioned that her physical type
is more like Godwin,

but I thought our connection
could just grow over time.

But the time is coming to an end

and ultimately, I just want
to feel validated and know that

I am in the right pursuit.

♪ I gave my all ♪

♪ What more could you take? ♪

♪ It's just hurting ♪

[Deya] I feel like I'm on guard

because I don't know what
Godwin's gonna choose.

[Ty] Yeah.

[Deya] [crying] I don't even feel
like being here anymore

-because of that, and that's crazy.
-Yeah.

-I didn't know I would feel this way.
-Yeah.

♪ Tried everything for you to stay ♪

♪ And it was too late ♪

[♪ somber music fades out]

-[birds chirping]
-[ocean waves crashing]

♪ I keep gettin' better ♪

[♪ upbeat music playing]

[Kaitlyn] Are You My First?
isn't just about losing your virginity.

If it was, we'd call it
Gone in 60 Seconds.

It's also about learning new things
crucial to finding true love.

Like the term "panty-dropper."

Layne is a panty-dropper.

[Deya] I don't know what
[laughing] panty-dropper meant.

...take off your pants.

[Deya laughing]

Do you know what accounting is?
'Cause I didn't.

Accounting? Like the job?

-Yeah.
-Mm-hm.

Like, bank accounting?

-Is that right?
-Yeah.

-Oh, okay.
-Yeah. In that, in that realm.

[Kaitlyn] Some lessons are trivial.
Some, profound.

Thanks to Jake,
Sara is learning that older men,

just like younger men,

are completely clueless about women.

[Rachael sighs]

-Are you confused about anything?
-Yes!

-Really?
-I just, I don't know. Like--

-[Rachael laughs]
-W-What the fuck happened?

-I think I'm a physical person.
-Yeah.

-Oh, really? And you don't think Jake is?
-And I'm struggling with-- No.

He doesn't wanna kiss and he wants me to--

[Madi] He doesn't wanna kiss
at all anymore?

-At this point, no.
-[Madi] You're like, "Okay, and...?"

-Where did that even come from?
-I don't know.

But he definitely says he wants
to take it slow in that way.

-That might be how you receive love too.
-True.

-I think so.
-Yeah.

I need a guy to be, like,
on top of me at all times.

Yeah.

[Sara] I'm following
all of his boundaries

and doing everything he wants to do.

[Madi] 'Cause that's what he wants,

-but you should also follow what you want.
-Exactly.

I am very super virgin.

I'm as, like, not experienced as can be.

I wanna be more intimate with Jake.

I wanna be able to hold his hand
and hug him and kiss him,

but I feel like he has this wall up.

You need to figure out what
you want and what you like.

And this is great experience for you.

Thank you.

[Kaitlyn] Sara, if your
Christian guy has a wall up,

follow the holy word of
the book of Miley Cyrus

and come in like a wrecking ball.

It's easy. Allow Colton
and me to demonstrate.

♪ I'm a tiger ♪

-[Colton] What's up?
-[Kaitlyn] What up, everybody?

[Colton] How we doing?

Colton and Kaitlyn are comin' through.

[overlapping greetings]

[Farha] I personally love when
Kaitlyn and Colton pull up to the villa

because I love to watch
these virgins squirm.

[laughs]

♪ Oh, uh-oh, oh, uh-oh ♪

♪ Oh, oh, uh-oh, oh-oh-oh ♪

I do have something very
important to ask all of you.

[♪ curious music playing]

[Madi] Oh, God. What now?

Who loves a good joke?

-Okay.
-Yeah.

-I like a good joke.
-I like a good joke. Yeah.

[nervous laughter]

[Kaitlyn] How 'bout you, Colton?
Do you know any good jokes?

Hm...

Yeah, I want to, like, say a penis joke,

but I don't want to come off as too cocky.

[cockerel crows]

-[Kaitlyn] Hey!
-[laughter]

Oh, my gosh!

[♪ comedy drum rimshot]

Ah, okay, okay. I see what he did there.
I see what you did there.

[Colton] Thanks. We got some laughs.
Alright, alright.

One slow clap.

-One slow clap for Colton.
-Yes.

It's great.

[Colton] Falling in love
should be fun and funny.

Tonight, you will be part
of the first ever...

virgin roast.

[overlapping reactions]

Yeah! I've been waiting for this!

[group laughing]

A roast is an opportunity
to bust one another's chops.

Just say whatever has been on your mind.

We think there are some
things going unsaid here,

so this roast should help you
move forward in your relationships.

I thought we should set
some, like, boundaries.

-No, definitely not.
-Oh, okay.

My hope is that people
disregard all limitations

and just really go for it.

If there's not tears tonight,
this is not a success.

We can't wait to see
what you guys come up with.

-So, we'll see you later, okay?
-[contestants] Okay.

-Bye, guys.
-Okay, bye.

-[contestants] Bye.
-[applause]

Wait, Kaitlyn.

-Can we talk?
-Yeah.

Love the girls who
are here and everything,

but, like, they are virgins.

[♪ curious music playing]

Kaitlyn is open about her life
and sex and everything,

so she's the perfect person for me to go
to about my physical intimacy issues.

So... I'm trying to, like, process
what's, like, going on with me.

-Yeah.
-And what I'm realizing is that

I have, like, physical intimacy issues.

Okay. Which is very valid.

Last night, me and Michael had a date.

-Okay.
-We went to the Love Shack.

-Mm-hm.
-When we moved to the bedroom,

-which was my idea...
-Yeah.

...just something didn't click,

-and it felt, like, wrong. Yeah.
-For you?

You still feel the same feelings for him,

you just, when it comes to, like,
any sort of intimacy,

-you kind of shut down?
-Yeah.

'Cause, like, I have vaginismus,

-so--
-So do I, by the way.

-You do?
-I do.

And for me, if there's any sort of
intimacy in that area...

-Mm-hm.
-...I completely freeze up.

-Mm-hm.
-Something tells me to stop

even if I feel safe with somebody.

But, I think communication is
like the most important thing

-you can do.
-Mm-hm.

Especially, I feel like
Michael would be so open...

-I think so too, yeah.
-...to communication.

[Rachael] And like, he makes me feel
so, like, safe and comfortable.

And so, it's like, whatever's going on
in, like, the intimacy setting

is, like, really throwing me off.

'Cause I'm like, I always thought like,

"Oh, it'll feel fine when
I'm with the right person."

I don't want to assume,
but it feels like you're, like,

on the way to falling in love,

there's just some-- something in your way

-and it might be just you blocking.
-Me. Mm-hm.

I mean, and, and not to blame you,
but that, that is what it is.

-We all get in our own way.
-Mm-hm. Yeah.

But we can't fall in love
unless we allow that person

to love us too, you know?

I think, like, prior to this, it's like,

almost like, feeling like,
something is wrong with me...

-Yeah.
-...because I'm not like everybody else.

I'm like, "Why does everybody
else feel comfortable having sex

or doing this or doing that,
and, like, I don't?"

So instead, it's like,
nothing's wrong with me.

-It's just like...
-No.

...it's just who I am,
and I just have to like, you know,

-grow through it and work through it.
-Nothing is wrong with you.

Really use this time
and this place to really think about,

you know, what's been blocking you and...

-Mm-hm.
...you know, your romance with Michael

-to get you where you wanna be.
-Yeah. Mm-hm.

He's definitely, like, the guy that
I'm supposed to be with right now.

[Kaitlyn] I know. I know.

I think I could totally see myself

falling in love with Michael,

but I think I've never
really thought too much

about someone falling in love with me.

[softly chuckles]

And I think that's the scary part.

[voice breaking] I didn't realize that
I have this fear of being loved back.

I know I'm deserving of love...

but I don't know how to receive it.

[chuckles]

One more big hug.

-Because I love a big hug.
-Oh, we're both so tiny.

-[Kaitlyn] I know!
-[laughing]

-I feel like I'm hugging me.
-I know.

[both laughing]

-Okay, girl.
-Thank you. [sighs]

I just need to trust that it'll be fine,

and I'll do the work,
and I can grow from this.

-I appreciate you.
-Love you.

[Kaitlyn] Okay, love you.

[♪ "Love Me Better" by
Henry Parsley playing]

♪ Love me better, love me now ♪

-[birds chirping]
-[ocean waves crashing]

[♪ "Tell You What I'll Do"
by Red Means Run playing]

[Colton] The virgins are super nervous,

because tonight, with everyone watching,
they'll experience their first time...

performing roast comedy.

♪ Joke's on you ♪

♪ I'll tell you what I'll do ♪

♪ I'll leave you high and dry ♪

♪ After what you put me through ♪

[Jade] Okay, Michael, I wanna
say something about myself

for being in a love triangle.

-How do I do that?
-I d-- I don't know. [laughs]

-[Spencer] This is hard.
-Yeah, it's really hard, man.

I can't come up with nothin'.

Oh! I just thought of the best.

I think everyone is nervous
about coming up with stuff

for the comedy roast tonight,

but I think it'll be pretty funny.

I think it'll allow people
to get things off their chest.

There's truth in every joke,
that's for sure.

I have no idea what to write.

Yeah. I don't think I've
ever, like, roasted anyone.

I don't think I have either.
So, I'm just spinning right now.

Oh, my gosh, who's gonna struggle?

Me! I don't know what I'm doing.

I'm not very good at,
like, roasting people

or being funny at all.

[shrieks in frustration]

♪ Hey ♪

♪ Joke's on you! ♪

[Kaitlyn] Time for the truth to come out.

Get the aloe vera on standby,

I think these virgins are about
to give each other some nasty burns.

[Jade] Can't wait to roast your asses.

[Deya] Yeah!

[Ty] Let the roasting begin.

♪ Everything is gonna blow ♪

♪ And now we gotta go ♪

[♪ music fades out]

Good evening, everyone, and welcome
to your first virgin roast.

Did everyone have a good time
coming up with your jokes?

[cheering and applause]

[Kaitlyn] Tonight's all about
getting things off your chest,

but please remember to enjoy yourself.

'Cause if you're like me,
if I'm not laughin', I'm probably cryin'.

[laughter]

Alright, so who's ready to get roasted?

[cheering and applause]

-[Colton] Alright.
-Michael!

You're up first.

-Michael!
-[contestants cheering]

I'm not feeling too much
pressure about this

because I'm a bad comedian, so I have--

I have nothing to--

no honor to protect.

I would like to start
with my betrothed, Rachael.

-[laughing]
-A lot of you probably don't know

that she's actually a philanthropist.

I learned that when
she fulfilled my Make-A-Wish

and started dating me.

-[laughter]
-[contestants] Aww!

A good roast needs to be a surprise.

So, Madi was, uh, saved when
Mike sacrificed himself.

It's, uh, pretty scary how far
some people are willing to go

to get away from you.

[laughter]

That was good.

So maybe it starts off, it's just like
a generic thing about the person

and then bam, outta left field,
they, they get 'em.

We have Godwin.

I think you're an inspiration
to kids all over Africa.

It shows that if you,
like, really work hard

and you're determined
you can come to America

and even get on a reality TV show

just to get your girl
stolen by a mid white guy.

[group screaming]

-[laughter]
-[Madi] So funny.

-Oh no!
-[laughing]

I'm like, "Huh?" "Who?" [laughs]

Wait, who's his girl?

I thought that was me.

Love that.

Farha, let's start with you.

Let's do it.

You look great tonight.

But, just wondering, do you
plan on wearing your boots

when you lose your virginity?

-[laughter]
-[contestants] Ohh!

-Good question, actually.
-[Ty] Yes or no?

Oh, yes.

[laughter, chatter]

There's nothing wrong with my boots.

These girls just don't have taste
and they equate style to less clothes

and, you know, more ass cheeks.

Okay. Speaking of boots, Layne,

will we be knocking ours
anytime soon or what?

[contestants] Ooh!

[laughter]

No, no, no. [chuckles]

How dare you, Madi?

She is literally flirting
with my man right in front of me!

Oh, my gosh, my hands are shaking.

-Ty.
-[contestants cheering]

You got this, buddy!

[Rachael] You got it. You got it.

There's plenty of things that
I'm feeling a whirlwind of emotion

towards Godwin and Jade,

and I could be throwing those things
out there at this roast.

But ultimately, I wanna focus
on having a lighthearted,

funny time with all the virgins here.

Spencer's skinny jeans he wore last night

were so tight they cut off the circulation

and he didn't have to wear
his chastity belt to bed.

[laughter]

I think Michael is in charge
of Rachael's laundry

because her bikinis are
shrinking by the hour.

[laughter]

Oh, my God, that's good.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

Would you be so kind as
to help me with the mic?

-Yes, I would love to.
-[Farha] Thank you.

[overlapping chatter]

And tell them to shut up.

Um... she would like me
to tell you to shut up.

-[scattered laughter]
-Thanks.

-[mouthing] She told me to.
-Hi.

I'm feeling very confident

because I hate most of the people here,

and I'm excited to let
my heart out and get away with it

because they'll be like,
"Oh, it's just comedy."

But these are just my feelings.

When I first looked at Michael,

I thought he was gonna be
some nerdy little loser weirdo

and sometimes first
impressions are correct.

-[laughter]
-[contestants] Oh!

When I first met Layne, I didn't
believe at all that he was a virgin.

I figured there's no way that
someone that attractive

is not running through chicks.

But then I found out that
Layne served for the Army,

so he truly does have
the highest body count here.

-[contestants] Ohh!
-[Jade] Ah, damn!

She gets how to roast! She gets it!

[♪ tense music playing]

Oh, gosh.

[Sara sighs into microphone]

I know you all think I'm so quiet
and have nothing to say...

and you're right.

-[contestants groaning]
-[Kaitlyn] No!

-[cheering and applause]
-No, what?!

[laughter and chatter]

[Madi] I think it would've been
really great if Sara would've

talked about her relationship
with Jake a little bit.

I know they've gone through it
a little bit with the boundaries,

but, you know, she's just so sweet.
[chuckles]

I am the youngest person here

and for all of these old people
who are still virgins...

-Watch it.
-...um,

I just hope we all find our people here

because I really do not
wanna be here for Season Two.

-Thank you.
-[contestants] Oh!

[laughter]

-[♪ mellow music playing]
-Before I start, um,

there's somethin' that I've been
thinking about sharing with everybody.

It's kind of really hard for me
to really let everybody know, you know,

but... I'm not really a virgin.

[record scratches]

[crickets chirping]

Psych! Joke's on everybody.

-[contestants] Oh...
-Oh, come on. Oh shit. [laughs]

[Godwin] Alright. Alright.

[Farha] So, Godwin can't
make up his mind about women

and he's also not funny at all.

Great pick, Deya and Jade.

[Godwin] Jake.

Oh, God.

I knew there were sloths in Costa Rica,

but I never seen a 32-year-old
man move this slow.

-[laughter]
-[contestants] Ohh!

[♪ tense music playing]

Moving slow as in like...

like, sexual? Or moving slow just 'cause

sometimes I actually do move slow?

♪♪

There's something that must be said

about our men, right?

They look at the Love Shack
as like one big vagina, right?

They're just too scared to get in there.

-[laughter]
-[contestants] Ohh!

[cheering and applause]

♪♪

[Jade] You know, trying to, like,
conjure up some sort of, like, joke

that's funny, but also,
like, not too mean,

but also, like, tasteful.

I feel like I'm doing
friggin' rocket science.

Growing up, I always excelled
in, like, English, writing, reading,

but I wasn't, like, too great at geometry

until I got here
and now I'm in a love triangle.

-[contestants] Ooh!
-[laughter]

[Deya] Oh, hell no.

I don't wanna be in no love triangle.

Madi's so single,
she can't even keep a roommate.

-[laughter]
-[contestants] Ohh!

Since Michael's a comedian,
I definitely like--

I want him to find me funny.

Um, but I know he will because I'm funny.

Michael's so broke,
his idea of a dinner date

is gas station snacks.

[speaker] Huh?

[laughter]

Alright. Jake's boundaries are so strong,

he doesn't even know how to respect them.

-[contestants] Oh!
-[laughter]

[Sara] Oh, my God.

Who's gonna tell Ty that
he's on "Friend Island"?

[contestants] Ohh!

[Madi] Oh shit!

Jade's so good at geometry,
she turned a love triangle

into a love rectangle.

[contestants] Ohh!

[cheering and applause]

-[Madi] Good job.
-[Ty] That was good.

[Michael] It was funny
watching her up there

just have a hoot and a holler.

But maybe when it comes to just
sitting down and writing jokes,

I'll take the lead on that one.

Deya, take the mic.

[contestants clapping]

[Deya] I'm going to take Colton
and Kaitlyn's advice

and I'm going to use
this roast as an opportunity

to get things off my chest.

[♪ tense music playing]

V, you're new here.

So we don't know what your intentions are,

but we hope they're more
genuine than your eye color.

-[laughter]
-[contestants] Ohh!

Who thought it was a good idea
to bring Johnny Bravo here?

-[laughter]
-[contestants] Oh!

[Deya] I 'm wondering, like, is what
Godwin has been telling me this whole time

about me being his first choice
actually the truth?

Because, like, why are all these
other people saying something else?

[♪ tense music playing]

Godwin...

[♪ music intensifies]

...I thought I was the only
one you had eyes for...

but I guess that's only when
I'm sitting next to Jade.

-[contestants] Oh!
-Oh shit.

It don't even sound like a roast.

It seemed like she trying
to get to the bottom of this, man.

Like, I don't think this is the time.

I honestly wish that she would've
brought this to me privately.

[♪ dramatic music playing]

[Colton] Alright. Honestly,
I think you guys exceeded

-our expectation for that.
-You really did.

So, give yourself a round of applause.

-[contestants applauding]
-[Kaitlyn] Very good.

[chuckling] Enjoy the rest of your night
and we're out.

[Colton] We'll see you all tomorrow

for the Virgin Sacrifice.

[Deya] At this point, it feels like Godwin
has been stringing me along

and I do not like that.

I will not be part of this love shape.

I will be part of a line
between me and my mans,

but if he's not my mans,

then I'm cutting the cord tonight.

[♪ dramatic music continues]

-[birds chirping]
-[ocean waves crashing]

[♪ upbeat music playing]

[Colton] The All Virgin Comedy Roast
resulted in some severe burns,

because it turns out
no one was wearing protection.

♪ No one's gonna get me,
no one's gonna get me ♪

What'd you think of all the roasting?

-Yeah, it was good.
-Good?

-Rachael's was... true.
-[Sara] Brutal?

[Jake] Yeah, it was brutal.
It was true.

[Sara laughs]

That was really funny when she said that

I have such crazy boundaries
I couldn't even-- [laughs]

[laughing] I can even fault--

-That sucks. Oh, my gosh.
-Mm-hm. [laughs]

I'm sorry.

What cheers to...? [laughs]

Well, I'm just-- Cheers to, "I'm sorry."

[♪ soft, pensive music playing]

I mean, they basically roasted exactly
what was going on, kinda.

So...

yeah.

I am kind of happy that
people made some comments

because sometimes I can get
in my head and think that I'm the one

who is, like, not right,

in a sense.

I do like Jake and I, I do want him
to make out with me...

but I'm still, like, annoyed with him,

[chuckles] so I'm not gonna
say all that right now.

I love spending time with you.

-[Jake] I know, me too.
-It's just, I told myself coming in here

that I would be as open as possible
because I haven't done anything.

[Jake] Yeah.

[Sara] I really like you. And that's...

-Yeah, exactly.
-...genuine.

And I, and I like you too.

I said once you kiss, like,
when you start to kiss

-every single day...
-[Sara] Mm-hm.

...I feel like there is a connection.

Okay, then we don't have to do that, Jake.

We can wait.

It's fine.

[Jake] I think Sara
is such an amazing person

and she really gives a lot of grace.

She's just so genuine and loving.

The thing is I'm not gonna
kiss her every second

if I know that we're
not committed together.

[♪ "Spinning Out Of Control"
by Vanacore Music playing]

♪ The future isn't clear ♪

♪ It's hard to love when
you're past your limit ♪

I think I'm just gonna have
a few moments to myself

-if that's okay?
-Yeah.

Okay.

♪ I'm crazy for thinkin' I have a hope ♪

♪ Thinkin' I have a hope ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm losin' my grip,
yeah, I know ♪

[Rachael] That didn't look good.
That doesn't look good.

-It doesn't?
-Nope.

Sara definitely could have used the roast

to kind of jokingly have
a conversation with Jake,

because I feel like Jake
needs to be called out

on the fact that he's not
sticking to his own boundaries

and it's giving mixed signals.

Maybe that's just not her, though.

♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ Somebody tell me ♪

♪ Spinnin', spinnin' ♪

[♪ song fades out]

[Kaitlyn] While some couples
try to cool down,

Madi is hoping she didn't put
out the sparks with Layne,

the only virgin she's interested in.

Who surprised you?

-[Madi] Um...
-I think you surprised me.

-[Madi] Really? You thought I was funny?
-Mm-hm.

The zingers were so much
better than I thought.

-Oh, good.
-'Cause you were just like

-so nervous about it and like, not sure.
-Yeah.

-And yeah, I thought that was really good.
-Oh, good.

What kind of drink should I get?
What's best?

[Madi] Now I feel like
I can't approach Layne. [scoffs]

-Why not? Because of what happened?
-Yeah.

I don't know if Layne understood

what "knocking boots" meant.

I definitely wanna keep talking to him
to see if the conversation is there

and if he can, you know, match wits.

I think, I think you
haven't said anything better.

-Do you want me to ask him to join?
-Yeah, we'll call him over.

-Yeah. You do it.
-Layne! Can I talk to you?

[Layne] Yep.

Oh, we're on
a double date right now. [laughs]

[Michael] Yeah, it's great.
Are you having fun?

[Layne] Yeah. It was a lot of fun.

-Yeah.
-I did not think it'd be as fun as it was.

[Rachael] Feel like it's such
a good ice-breaker for everybody.

-[Madi] Yeah, I agree.
-[Layne] Yeah. Get me in there.

Oh, my gosh. Anyhoo.

-Yeah...
-Interesting.

I think it was funny.

[♪ awkward music playing]

Yeah, Madi. [chuckles]

Yeah, it's tough. [chuckles]

It's tough. [chuckles]

I think she just needs to really try
to get out of her own shell

and that awkwardness.
Maybe she's standing in her own way.

So, what's your job?
Or you-- Do you work nine to five

or is it kind of like up to you?

-Me?
-Yeah.

Oh, yeah. Whatever I want,
pretty much. Yeah.

That's nice.

I've got a little ball and chain
of a nine to five.

-Yeah. Ooh.
-Do you--

I just work in marketing.

-[Michael] Oh yeah.
-[Rachael] Marketing?

Marketing girly.

Um...

[♪ awkward music continues]

-I'm gonna grab my drink...
-Yeah, go for it.

[Layne] ...that I've freshly made.

[Rachael] Where'd his personality go?

♪♪

[Layne]
Hey, sorry to interrupt or anything,

but would you like to go, like,
a little walk with me, or...?

[Brooklyn] Uh, yeah.

I think Brooklyn is probably the only one
I really wanna talk to right now,

and I feel a really strong
connection with her.

But initially, it was, like, the looks
and her personality is, like, amazing.

Yeah, it seems like a total package.

It's kind of nice.

-[Brooklyn] Yeah, this is.
-[chuckles] I guess.

[Brooklyn] You know that, like, game where
you, like, write something on someone

and then you have
to guess what I'm writing?

-[Layne] Alright.
-[Brooklyn] Okay.

[insects chirping]

I already lost.

I'm doing a very, very simple word.

It's very, very basic.

Oh, I'm just trying to guess the word.

-Let me think.
-[Brooklyn giggles]

Man. Was it "Layne"?

-No.
-Oh, dang it.

-Wait, that would've been good.
-I almost thought it was.

I-- I did "ocean."

I should have counted the-- Oh!

[Michael] He bailed.

[Rachael] [chuckles] We tried.

Well, it is what it is.

-I'm not even hurt.
-[Michael] I don't think you should be.

-[Rachael] Maybe he's just--
-[Madi] No, I'm not.

I think him and Brooklyn
are actually a very good match.

-[Michael] Oh, yeah?
-[Rachael] You think?

They're both the same.

-[♪ soft, romantic music playing]
-[Layne] How many kids do you wanna have?

[Brooklyn] I want, like, two.
How about you?

-Like, two to four, maybe?
-[Brooklyn] Yeah.

[Layne] At least one of each, right?
You wanna have a boy and a girl.

[Brooklyn] Yeah. It just depends on like,
how easy, like, the pregnancy is.

[Layne] Guess it'd be
pretty ease-- easy for me, but...

-[both laughing]
-[Brooklyn] Yeah.

[Layne] Yeah. I have it good.

[♪ "Heaven on My Mind" by Brandon Rogers
and Devin Hoffman playing]

♪ And I'm starting to think ♪

♪ That we have never been this high ♪

Who knew it'd be like...

-Hm?
-It's just like, really nice. Yeah.

Yeah.

-♪ And I should have known ♪
-♪ I should have known ♪

-♪ That it was special ♪
-♪ That it was special ♪

♪ It was an angel that I fell for ♪

[Brooklyn] I am feeling
so excited about Layne

because he has demonstrated things
that I would like in a partner

and I think we have a total connection.

Layne is somebody that I can
see myself losing my virginity to.

♪ Leaving heaven on my mind ♪

[♪ "Tear" by Yutz playing]

♪ Fade away ♪

I'm gonna be third-wheeling
with y'all for the rest of my time here.

-[Rachael] That's fine.
-[Michael] I'm cool with it.

-Cool.
-[Rachael] No, I'm chilling.

Sweet.

At this point, I could
just go into the ocean

and people wouldn't even notice.

Just don't have a connection here

and I don't know if there's anyone here
that would be a connection.

So, I feel like I'm just left,
like, alone and vulnerable

and by myself.

So, I'm expecting to go
home still a virgin.

[♪ tense, dramatic music playing]

-[birds chirping]
-[ocean waves crashing]

[♪ "Pulling Punches" by AamityMae playing]

[Kaitlyn] After Deya's
relationship with Godwin

was roasted in front of everyone...

♪ I'm gonna say what I wanna say ♪

[Kaitlyn] ...Deya is starting to feel
that this love triangle

is more like a love circle...

totally pointless.

♪ I'm done with pulling my punches ♪

We're building something strong, right?

-[Godwin] Yeah.
-But you're telling me

-that you have interest in someone else...
-Yes.

...and that you can't stop
thinking about them.

-Like, what-- where does that leave us?
-No, so--

-Yeah. I mean--
-Like, if you really liked me, truly...

[Godwin] Mm-hm.

...it wouldn't be a question in your mind.

-Of what?
-But because it is a question in your mind

that must mean, like, your feelings
for her might be stronger...

-No.
-...than the feelings you have for me.

See, it's complicated.

Like, it's, it's really,
really complicated

and that's where, me, I'm at a point
where I'm trying to figure things out.

And from what conversation
I've had with her

-has been building more clarity.
-Godwin, just be real with yourself.

There's just such a level of uncertainty

in him still wanting
to explore this with Jade.

He wants me to stick
around waiting for him.

At least just give me the decency
of being real about it.

[Godwin] Mm-hm.
It's just confusing. Like...

[♪ tense music playing]

I'm making it easier for you
by removing myself.

Then you can just focus on
your connection with Jade.

Because if you're not set on it,
then I'm not your girl.

♪ I saw the signs and I ignored it ♪

[♪ "Lose You to Love Me"
by Selena Gomez playing]

I'm not gonna cuddle with you
in the hammock or here

or, like, scratch your back
or, like, be all cute with you

when you're going out
and exploring with someone else.

♪ You promised the world
and I fell for it ♪

♪ I put you first and you adored it ♪

♪ Set fires to my forest ♪

We have spent so much time
building this connection

and I think that
our connection is so strong,

but for her to walk away so quick,
I'm perplexed.

[exhales sharply]

♪ This dancing was killing me softly ♪

I think we've had enough
deep conversations that it's like,

if you haven't found
what you're looking for here...

-So, what's-- What's the problem--
-...then go find it,

-you know what I'm saying?
-What's the problem

with us still connecting?

I understand my value, Godwin.

Whether you choose me or not,

that doesn't take away from who I am.

Yeah. I know.

Like, the prize that I am, you--

If you can't see it,
then someone else will.

♪ I needed to lose you to love me ♪

Honestly, since day one,

like, I felt this connection
with this man.

I've literally been so honest

and so clear with my intentions.

I'm done waiting.

I'm not doing this anymore.

♪ And now the chapter is closed and done ♪

♪ To love, love, yeah ♪

♪ To love, love, yeah ♪

♪ To love, yeah ♪

♪ And now it's goodbye,
it's goodbye for us ♪

[♪ song fades out]

[Kaitlyn] Being second choice to Jade

made Deya cut the tie.

Not virgin Ty.

He's still second choice for Jade.

[Jade] What's poppin'?

-Not much. Just a epic roast.
-You did really good.

I thought you did really good.
I knew you were gonna do really good.

Yeah.

My favorite was the one with Rachael

-and her clothes getting smaller.
-[Ty] Yeah, it was all good though.

Um... and I know there was all
the jokes about, like, the triangles

-and the rectangles and everything.
-Mm-hm.

And so, obviously, it's cool--

You know, just how you feeling?
Just checking in, you know?

-I mean...
-No wrong answers.

...the needle hasn't moved much
in the sense that

I think me and Godwin...

-[Ty] Mm-hm.
-...had to, like, start over,

-and we're playing catch up.
-[Ty] Right.

-Yeah.
-[Jade] As for, like, me and you,

the emotional connection

-is, like, so strong.
-Yeah.

But, like, I have been, like, struggling
with, like, the physical component here.

Right.

So, if I'm being, like, transparent,
like, that's where I'm at.

-Yeah.
-So, I don't know.

That thought or feeling maybe
you have towards Godwin, like,

it should definitely be explored.

But for me, I think my biggest green flag
in a girl is just being chosen, right?

And so, I obviously need
you to take the time

to clarify what you're thinking
and what you're feeling.

Yeah.

Okay.

[♪ soft music playing]

What I want is an amazing connection

that is both physical and emotional.

Like, in a perfect world, like,
I would want to, like,

have my cake and eat it too.

[kisses]

But maybe that's why I've
ultimately been a virgin this long.

-Are you okay?
-Yeah.

-Okay.
-Let's talk.

I've never had a man validate me

the way Ty validates me.

But physically, I am not there.

[softly sobbing]

[emotional] It is like I w--
I want to be there so bad...

[sniffles] but I'm just not.

[sniffles]

[exhales]

-I talked to Jade.
-Okay.

And she was like, "Physically,
I'm just not getting there."

I've always known that my pursuit of Jade

would be an open-ended pursuit.

And that's kind of how it is, right?
Being here in this experience.

No, that's not how it has to be, Ty.

-Yeah.
-It really doesn't have to be like that.

You're an amazing man.

-Yeah.
-Literally an amazing man.

Why the heck would you be open
with an open-ended anything?

-Yeah.
-You deserve to be chosen.

You deserve to be the first person
someone wants to be with.

You deserve someone
to wake up and be like,

"I wanna be with that person

-every moment of every day."
-Yeah.

[Godwin] It's been a crazy night, man.
How you feeling?

[Jade] Um...

kind of emotionally, like,

-overwhelmed right now.
-[Godwin] Yeah.

Yeah, like, I'm really going through

-so much emotions.
-I know.

-Where it's, like, confusion.
-I know.

It's, like, hurt. It's like--
It's, it's just-- Yeah.

-Me and you, both. I understand.
-Yeah.

Don't be someone's second choice, Ty.

[Ty sighs]

[♪ "Let Go of You" by Bleeding Fingers,
Devin Hoffman, and Holiday Rogers playing]

It's okay.

♪ And when I wake up and I'm by myself ♪

-♪ And you're not here ♪
-[Deya sighs]

♪ And there's no one else ♪

♪ That's the time that
it hits me the hardest ♪

♪ That's the time that
I know you're the farthest ♪

I think, um...

so emotional, but, um...

I...

um... [chuckles]

just the-- you know,
her being super honest about...

like,

uh... the ph--

you know, physical thing...

-Yeah.
-...Um...

like, I f--

I just wish it was anything but that.

-[chuckles] You know?
-I know.

It's just been, like--

like kind of my life crux. [laughs]

-Really?
-Yeah.

It's been a huge,
huge insecurity to overcome.

I just see myself falling in love

and losing my virginity to Jade.

But that thought
you're not good enough

is looming over me,
and it seems all too familiar.

In a lot of relationships I've been in,

I end up chasing them
for that full validation,

but I'm not receiving that full embrace.

♪ Can you say that it's the end ♪

♪ So that I can let go of you ♪

Don't worry about what others will think.

Like, stand in your truth.

-You are so handsome.
-Yeah. Yeah, yeah.

So, like, you don't have
to deal with someone,

like, wanting someone else

'cause they are more
physically what they want.

Right.

♪ I don't wanna just pretend ♪

♪ That I can still come home to you ♪

♪ You ♪

[♪ song fades out]

[Colton] Next time,
on Are You My First?...

Dang.

[Madi] You didn't know
any of this was going on?

I didn't know any of this was going on.

[Colton] ...Deya is caught off guard...

They're saying that you were blindsided,
you were not blindsided.

-[Deya] Why are you yelling?
-[Godwin] I told you what it was.

-I will not be disrespected.
-Oh my...!

This is gonna be so much fun. [gasps]

[Colton] ...Rachael and
Michael confront their fears...

[Michael] We're both gonna have
to face these fears together.

[gasps] You naughty boy.

[Colton] ...and it's
the final Virgin Sacrifice.

[Kaitlyn] So please take a moment,
and say goodbye

to all the amazing friends
you've made here.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

♪ When I'm out of breath ♪

♪ And there's nothing left ♪

♪ That even on the other side ♪

♪ You'll be mine ♪

♪ Long as the sun is in the sky ♪

♪ And the moon is bright ♪

♪ Until the rivers run dry ♪

♪ You'll be mine ♪

♪ Promise that I'll always be about it ♪

♪ Make sure that you never ever doubt it ♪

♪ 'Cause I don't know that
I could live without ♪

♪ You'll be mine, yeah ♪

♪ When I'm out of breath ♪

-♪ And there's nothing left ♪
-♪ Nothing left ♪

♪ You'll be mine ♪