All language subtitles for Are You My First (2025) S01E05.en

[♪ upbeat music playing]

♪ Childhood best friends,
sitting on your picket fence ♪

I wanna hear your first kiss stories.

-First was, I'm in junior year in college.
-[Deya] Okay.

Was your first kiss a good one at least?
I won't make you retell the story.

[Godwin]
Nah, it was, it was pretty good.

I think I was a junior in high school,
like, late at night outside my car.

I mean, it was like, "Finally, I got it!"

-Kinda like that.
-[Katya] Yeah.

[Rachael]
Alright, Katya, your turn.

Um, so I graduated from high school.

He kisses me, meteor shower
just starts happening.

Like, I'm not kidding.

It was insane. So, then,
it was just like the best, worth the wait.

[Rachael] Damn. So, like,
every kiss after this sucked, huh?

-Yeah.
-And there weren't many after so...

[Rachael] Oh, there you go.

[Kaitlyn Bristowe]
If this is your first time,

let me bring you up to speed, gently.

In the hopes of finding their person

or maybe even losing their virginity,

our virgins have dived deep
into a virgin-only dating pool.

[Noah] Mm!

[Kaitlyn]
So far, Ty and Jade are going strong.

Godwin shares a bond with Deya

and Jade.

So, I guess it seems you can
be an F-boy without any F-ing.

Other matches made in heaven:

-Sara and Jake...
-[both laughing]

...who both find the hammock hilarious,

Noah and Madi both groom
each other chimp-style,

and Andrew and Katya
both have an open-shirt policy.

But as soon as we unboxed
a twin pack of sexy new virgins,

Farha and Brooklyn,

our Mormon boys couldn't resist
knocking on their door.

Now Andrew's like, "Katya who?"

And Noah's hit the brakes
after he declared

he was not a fan of Farha's OnlyFans.

Virgin love is messy.

Thankfully, we've contained it
to just one island.

[Madi] You're probably
gonna sleep so well tonight.

[Katya] What was the date like?

What's going on with Brooklyn?

-[Andrew] I mean...
-[Katya] Initial vibes,

like, what are you feeling?

-Initial vibes are good.
-Yeah.

She's like silly, quiet, like,
you know, reser-- reserved,

but, like, she's so sweet and so secure.

And, like, girls like her usually
don't go for guys like me,

so it's just something
I would've never expected, like--

-[Katya] How does it make you feel?
-It makes me feel really special,

but I'm just like, I'm thrown for a loop

because I wanna spend more time with you.

-I wanna spend more time with her.
-Yeah. I missed you today.

Oh, thanks. I missed you too.

-Big time.
-Yeah.

-Um, wow, that means a lot.
-Yeah.

Um...

Am I crazy?

Were these things said to me?

Was I not told?

He said that I was his priority,

and now fast-forward, ploop.

-[tape whirring]
-Blonde-haired, blue-eyed Mormon.

What?

[Andrew] I'm still, like, so down for you.

Like, nothing's changed
in that sense, right?

But now the heartstrings are
just pulling elsewhere, too.

[♪ tense music playing]

[sighs]

I'm interested in these girls.

They're just so different.

I'm literally right now just
trying to decide for myself

which one matters most to me.

And it's very scary.

Checking in on Katya in terms
of, like, how she's feeling

and how I'm feeling.

Yeah, I'm in a tough spot.

-Dude, you-you gives--
-Lover boy loves.

You give love to the lover boy,

it's like I'm submissive
to that sense so...

-Mm.
-...yeah.

♪♪

What do you think they're talking about?

Oh... he's updating her on how
she might not be number one anymore,

but, honestly,
I don't think she even cares.

She was freaking out a little bit today.

-She was?
-Mm-hm.

Noah says that Brooklyn
is Andrew's number one now,

which is shocking to me.

I don't really trust Andrew,
so there's a part of me that's like,

"I don't know if he's gonna tell her."

But for now, I'm gonna let him handle it

and hope that he says something to Katya.

And if it gets to a point
where I realized he hasn't,

then I'm gonna say something.

♪ There's just no place to hide ♪

If you like her, then go for that.

-Yeah.
-Don't come back to me,

just because I'm here as an option.

-No, of course, yeah.
-Just so you know.

[Andrew] I'm not gonna, like,
try and keep you as a plan B.

[Katya]
I'm not a nervous person in general.

But I realized that I could lose Andrew.

Did I see it coming if I look back?

Maybe, sure.

Maybe that's why I was
so trepidatious with my feelings.

But maybe I'm just an idiot.

♪♪

♪ There's just no place to hide ♪

-[♪ sparkling flourish]
-[ocean waves crashing]

[♪ mellow music playing]

[Kaitlyn] Andrew's not the only one
with feelings for two.

Godwin has feelings for Deya and Jade.

But, thankfully,
he and Jade are keepin' it real.

Real awkward.

-What's up?
-You feelin' good?

-Yeah.
-Yeah?

-You wanna talk here, or...?
-[Jade] Yeah.

Yeah?

-No, trust me, she would understand.
-Okay.

Me and Godwin have been
like a roller coaster

throughout this entire process,

and then, like this, this romantic gesture
from Ty happened.

-[laughing]
-Can I steal a kiss from you?

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Am I torn between
the two guys, Godwin and Ty?

Absolutely.

You know, Ty gave this,
like, grandiose gesture.

And I'm, like, stuck in-between
a rock and a hard place

because, like, I don't wanna
give up on Godwin.

-[♪ dramatic music playing]
-Oh, okay.

Seeing Jade and Godwin talk,
clearly there's a vibe there.

I am curious about how it's going,

what they're talking about.

Sometimes you get a little jealous.

-I mean, like, I need--
-You got, like, something here.

Yeah, I got you.

-Ah!
-[♪ record scratch, music stops]

-Hey.
-[Godwin] I got you.

[Jade] Yeah.

Uh... yeah, you're good.

I got you.

[♪ awkward music playing]

Yeah, I wouldn't say that.

Well... [chuckles]
I see Ty kinda sittin' there.

It was kinda weird.

I don't know where to go from here.

-Oh, my God.
-[Godwin] Yeah... [sighs]

For me, the door isn't closed.

Okay.

I really like my connections with Jade.

We, we have something here,

but I have something great
going on with Deya.

I got Deya and Jade,

and I'm just trying to see, man.

I'm trying to figure things out.

[Deya] Right now, they're talking.

-And you're like... [barks].
-And-- Actually, no.

[Ty] No, yeah, yeah.

You're like, "No, actually,
you can feel that way,

-but no."
-But I don't.

-"But you little jealous ho--"
-No.

[both laughing]

-[Deya] "You jealous ho."
-[both laughing]

Ty, don't even sweat it.

You went on this romantic date,
she kissed you, you guys kissed.

So, I feel like now Godwin and I

are also just like
locked in on each other.

You guys got your person, I got mine.

With him, like, 100%,

like, the emotional connection is there.

Like, I've never had, like,
the conversations I've had with him

with anybody.

But, like...

-Yeah.
-Oh, wow.

[Jade] Like, me and him are from, like,
two different worlds, right?

Like, in the outside world,

he wouldn't be someone who
I, like, 100% like, "Oh."

Like, turn my head and, like, look at.

Ty, I think he's phenomenal,

but, like, when I look at him,

I don't want to, like,
rip his clothes off, you know?

With him, it's more like
the emotional side...

-Mm-hm.
-...not the physical.

But like, with me,
what about the physical?

Mm, come on now. [laughs]

[Godwin] What? Just...

[Jade] With Ty,
if the attraction hasn't built yet,

I don't know if it can grow over time.

Because, you know, sometimes
emotions come first

and then attraction can come later.

Of course, I wanna lose
my virginity to someone

who I have a strong connection with,

but I don't want just emotional.

I don't want just physical.

I want the emotional and the physical.

I want my cake and I wanna eat it, too.

I definitely have to have a--
some tough conversations.

So...

[Godwin] I'm physically attracted
to Jade and Deya.

But coming in here,
I needed a support system,

and Deya was the one that has been
providing me that support system,

and that's something
that I need in somebody

that, you know, I want to
move forward with.

So, like, it's really tough, you know?

-We'll talk some more, alright?
-[Jade] Okay.

-Alrighty.
-I'll talk to you later.

-Yeah.
-Yeah.

[♪ "Feel My Fire"
by Choppersaurus playing]

♪ I am not a dream ♪

♪ But I got inside your head now ♪

[Kaitlyn] After their kiss,
Madi's feelings for Noah

have survived the new arrivals.

-She's back?
-Hello. How you doing?

Thought you said you went to bed,
shmukums.

[Kaitlyn] But the big question is

can they survive Noah himself?

Wait, guys, I just have to start this off
by saying Rachel McAdams, everybody.

Yeah, literally.

[group exclaims]

-Right? Crazy.
-I can see it.

Awkward.

I mean, I haven't even talked to you.

-I'm Madi.
-[Brooklyn] I know. Hi, Brooklyn.

-Hi, nice to meet you.
-[Brooklyn] Nice to meet you.

♪♪

Guys, we should go in the pool.

-You wanna go right now?
-[Brooklyn] Do you want to?

-[Noah] I'll join you.
-Okay.

[Noah] It's a little bit hot.
Does anyone wanna put their feet in?

-[Andrew] After I finish this, I'm down.
-[Noah] Okay.

[Madi] I don't think Noah's
interested in Brooklyn.

I would not, like, pursue at all,
someone that Andrew is interested in.

You know, you have, like,
that respect for your boys.

But I do think, like, he has
been saying one thing to me

and saying things to other people.

And then I don't believe it.

I don't him that well.

-[Brooklyn laughs]
-[Noah sighs]

-Oh, it feels so nice and, like, warm.
-That's-- Yeah.

♪ Been waiting for a long time ♪

[Noah] I like Madi but, like,
I need to take the time

to get to know all
of the islanders on the island.

Tonight, I wanna be very, like, proactive

and kind of seize it a little bit.

You can't just hang out with someone
and expect romance to spur.

You still have to play a bit of a game
if you want to stay here.

So, I will go talk to other girls.

You know, there's a whole
drama thing with Madi,

but I still did reinforce,

like, I still am gonna get
to know, like, the girls,

-so we'll see what happens.
-Yeah.

I am definitely looking for,
like, a serious relationship

and I feel like the girls
might be worried.

I mean, it wasn't my plan
to shake things up, obviously,

but we're coming in to date guys.

We have to, like, meet them.

I really, really, really thought
Brooklyn was gonna pick Noah

-for sure.
-Oh.

But, like, that's my fear is
that she will fall for him,

because my whole life,
girls like her have only--

-[Madi] Have liked guys like Noah.
-They initially entertain me,

-but then they meet a Noah.
-I mean, listen, I definitely

-have a fear that too.
-[Andrew] Yeah.

Wait, did you kiss Andrew?

[chuckles] Nah.

So, who, if you hadn't chosen Andrew,

would you have chosen to go on your date?

-You.
-[gasps] Really?

-Yes.
-That's so cute.

[Brooklyn] Yeah.

-[Noah] Okay. That makes me feel good.
-Mm-hm.

And I think you're really
handsome and really cute.

-Oh, my God.
-So...

I didn't know you were interested
until basically just now,

so that is something I'm gonna sleep on.

Oh, okay. Yeah, that's good to know.

I thought you were, like,
only down for Andrew.

-No.
-So, I was like, "Oh, my God."

♪ We've been living with one eye open ♪

I know I'm here for, for a connection,

but if Madi's not the right person,

maybe Brooklyn is it.

♪ No, nothing's ever as it seems ♪

[Madi] I watched them just be all cute,

and I'm like pissed off inside.

I'm like, "What the fuck?!"

Like, that should be me!

It's like Justin Bieber,
like, "That should be me."

[Andrew]
I think too many times in my life,

I've put bro code before love,

and my friends have constantly
let me down, left and right,

and I'm-I'm not doing that anymore.

I, like, love my friends,
but I'm here to find love.

If he were to go for Brooklyn,

like, I would be extremely upset.

♪ Beyond the now ♪

[♪ "Beyond The Now" by Tom Evans
and Markus Hughes playing]

♪ Beyond the now ♪

-[birds chirping]
-[ocean waves crashing]

[♪ "Make Some Noize" by Clooney playing]

♪ Stand up, here come the boys ♪

♪ With their weapons of choice... ♪

[Colton Underwood]
The virgins rise after a crazy night

of going to bed super early,

but things got pretty wild in bed

for Noah last night.

[Ty] Bro, your hair is crazy.

You should wear it like that.

[Colton] I'm talking about his wild hair.

You want filth?
Watch one of those non-virgin shows.

I ended up telling Noah,
I was like, "I think you're cute."

-Uh... [laughs]
-Oh, my God.

But he was like, "I'm gonna sleep on it."

-[laughing]
-Sleep on what?

He can't just say "thank you"
and you're cute too?

"I'm gonna sleep on it"?

[♪ upbeat music playing]

-Ah! [laughs]
-[Andrew laughs]

-[Noah] 'Sup?
-What's going on?

What do you think we're gonna do today?

Mm, I don't know. I hope it's a chill day.

-Your hair looks good today.
-Thanks.

I took extra time to, like, shave, style.

[Madi] How you feeling about yesterday?

[Noah] Um, I definitely do
wanna, like, talk to you about it.

-Later, though.
-Okay.

-You know?
-Yeah.

-It's morning.
-And you just woke up.

I'm eating breakfast.

How'd you sleep?

[Noah] Um, probably not good.

Mostly like, anxious thoughts, actually.

♪ Maybe you'll say it ♪

♪ Maybe I won't ♪

But, like I said, we'll chat later.

Yeah, that's fine.

[♪ "I'll Say It Back"
by Sky M & Murphy playing]

I-- I'm just, like, confused.

I think the last few days
have been really hard for us.

Like, we haven't really had a chance
to, like, really just hang out.

But, yeah, I don't like--
I don't really know what's going on.

♪ We don't need to say it ♪

♪ No, we don't need to say it ♪

♪ But if you wanna say, I'll say it back ♪

[Colton] Comedian Michael's time
ended with an epic mic drop

when he literally dropped
himself off the show.

Michael's exit also left Rachael
as sad as influencers pretend not to be,

something Andrew noticed.

[Andrew] I, first of all,
wanted to pull you aside

and I just wanted to check in.

-Like, I know-- I know--
-Yeah, I was emotional.

I know, I'm sorry.
Like, how do you feel now?

I think it's hard, like, when
everybody's, like, being coupled up,

you know?

And, like, pouring into people
and I'm just like, mm, okay.

I just, like, miss Michael all the time.

It's just, like, so hard,
because it's like

what I've been dreaming of and waiting on

was, like, dangled in front of my face.

[voice breaking] And now it's just gone.

The hard part is, like,
there's still a "what if" about Michael.

Like, I'm waiting for him to get back.

I'm waiting for a new guy.

-That sucks, I'm sorry.
-Yeah.

[Kaitlyn]
I hate to tell you this, Rachael,

but in the two days since Michael's left,

he lost his virginity twice, got married,

and has about seven adult children.

Seek a support group,
like the one Katya and Jade have.

[Katya] So interesting. Okay,
I need your help on eyes today.

[Jade] Mm, in what sense?

-Andrew.
-Okay.

I just need you to s--
'Cause I'm seeing what I'm seeing,

-and I just need a friend's...
-A different-- Yeah.

-...perspective.
-Okay.

-[Jade] He's talking to Rachael right now.
-[Katya] I know.

It's feeling off today, for sure.

[Jade] Yeah.

[Katya] I'm feeling feelings,
real feelings.

Andrew, he can do what he wants.
He's a grown man.

He needs new energy, he needs excitement,

he needs adventure, dare I say.

I am, like, in my head today, for sure.

[Jade] So are you like, "Mm,
I don't know how I feel about this"?

It's definitely causing me to pause a lot.

♪ Somethin' tells me you ain't been true ♪

♪ I've been waitin' for you ♪

[Kaitlyn] When Farha revealed
her revealing social media account,

it was a hard no from Noah.

Let's see if Farha has more luck
with Christian Jake.

Someone called me a gold star virgin.

I don't know what that means.

I haven't heard that.

"Gold star lesbian" means,
like, you pride yourself

on the fact that, like,
you've never tried men.

So I wonder if a "gold star virgin"
means like you've never done oral...

-Probably.
-...you've never kissed.

-You've ki-- have you kissed people?
-Yeah.

[Farha] I think first base
is the best base, honestly.

Like, I've had guys who can just, like,
come just from making out.

And I think that's so hot.

I have had situations where I've cuddled

and the cuddle did turn
more into sexual, like--

It's hard to not get a boner, in cuddling.

♪ Oh wow, oh me, oh my ♪

Um...

Farha is just a comedian.

It's... kind of... shocking.

I think everyone thinks she's super cool.

But I don't know if anyone is kind of
actually having a connection,

like a romantic connection.

♪ With one spark, I can storm the night ♪

[Sara]
This is the fifth day here

and I have been guarding my heart.

I'm really just focused on Jake right now,

even though we haven't kissed
or held hands or anything yet.

I can't predict the future,

but I'm just gonna keep pushing myself

and hope that I get a date
or something. [chuckles]

Oh, my gosh, I just found something.

[♪ gentle harp music playing]

Woo!

[laughs] I have something! Oh, my gosh!

-Oh, my gosh!
-Oh, my God!

You guys, I found something!

-[♪ upbeat music playing]
-[group cheering]

-[Madi] It's a "V"!
-[Rachael] Okay!

So, I was in the boat,

and I was like, "What's that shiny thing?"

And I grabbed it and it says...

[♪ pensive music playing]

"Godwin,

"it's time to take
your journey to new heights.

Please ask out the woman
who makes your heart race."

[people gasp]

[group exclaiming]

-[Noah] Let's go!
-[Madi] Oh, my God.

-[Andrew] Yes!
-Oh, my gosh. Oh, my gosh.

♪♪

[Andrew] Let's go, bro!

[Sara] It's your turn.

Yo, now this is crazy.

-[Deya squeals]
-[Andrew] Alright, get up there, bro.

-Get up there.
-[Sara] Yay.

-[♪ tense, suspenseful music playing]
-[Godwin chuckles]

[Godwin] Uh... yeah.

I'm conflicted and torn a bit,

um, between Jade and Deya.

Like, it's really tough, you know?

[group laughing]

So, I would definitely
like to ask this girl out,

this woman out, on this date,

um, because I-I-I really genuinely believe

she's been there for me.

She's been my anchor.

Um, you know what I'm saying?

She's just been supporting me
throughout the whole race, so...

I would like to ask Deya--

[group cheering and shouting]

[group] Aw!

Oh, my gosh, this could
actually be a thing.

'Cause he could've picked Jade.

Like, it would've stung a little bit,

but then I think Godwin's at a point
where he is not going to pursue her.

Like, obviously, like,
I was taken a little...

like a little shock to the heart.

Like a, a mini shock to the heart.

But I also kind of understand,

like, we've been so, like, hot and cold,

and they've been very consistent.

Every time that they talk
and they get together,

they just further their relationship...

-[Rachael] Yeah.
-...so I'm excited to see where this goes.

Yeah.

[Katya] Do you think they'll
be back before sunset?

-Who knows?
-[Madi] I don't know.

I'm kinda like, eh, it feels like
they're, they're very close

to being, I don't know,

you know, for only each other.

[Deya] And now we go into
another, another level.

[Godwin] "New heights."

You think that we're gonna be
climbing something?

♪♪

-[birds chirping]
-[ocean waves crashing]

[♪ upbeat music playing]

[Kaitlyn] When Godwin got his V-card,

he gave Deya the gift of a date

and Jade, the gift
of bitter disappointment.

What do you think it's gonna be?

-We've never d--
-"New heights." Look at the view.

[Kaitlyn]
Godwin's biggest fear is heights.

Once he's back from the date,
it will be Jade,

but for now, it's heights.

-[Deya] Hello.
-[Godwin] Hello, hello.

-Yeah, we're ziplining. [laughs]
-Ziplining?!

I'm excited, but I don't know,
I feel like it's gonna be scary.

I think it's gonna be scary.

I'm nervous about the height.

Anything can happen
when you're on these things.

[Deya laughing]

I'm like an adventure junkie,

so I feel like I love stuff like this.

You're so excited,
but I'm out here worried.

-I'm like, "Oh!"
-I know. [laughing]

I can't wait to see his expression,

and his reactions,
'cause ziplining at first

is very scary.

[Godwin] You can go first, you can go--
Ladies first, ladies first.

-[laughs] Ladies first.
-Ladies first.

-He doesn't wanna go. [laughs]
-Ladies first. [laughs]

[instructor] Let's go.

[Deya squealing]

Hey, man.

[Deya screaming, giggles]

[Godwin sighs]

This is crazy.

I'm so up high,
I don't see nothing under me.

Everything is real scary,

[chuckling] and I got stuff
squeezing my junk, man.

[♪ dramatic sting]

[Godwin screams]

-[♪ upbeat music playing]
-[screaming continues]

[screaming continues]

Woo-hoo!

[Deya laughs]

I didn't expect to hear
a scream like that.

At least until the honeymoon.

[laughs]

[Deya laughing]

-Yo, I needed that scream.
-How did--

-I need--
-Wait, how did you feel?

-Yo, it-- Like, I felt free, like--
-Right?

Like, I felt release, for real. Like...

-Yeah.
-...it was crazy.

Godwin and I haven't kissed yet.

If in the moment it just feels right,

I'll go for it. It's fine.

It's not like I have to wait
'til marriage to kiss him. [laughs]

-I'm not even doing a break.
-Yeah, me neither. Just at the end.

-I'm not leaving.
-Mwah.

-I'ma see you, alright?
-You got this.

-I got--
-Oh, you got a kissy mark.

Ah, I'ma keep it on.

-[Deya laughs]
-Woo!

[Kaitlyn] A kiss on the cheek?

Godwin, take a hint.

She didn't wear all that protection
for a kiss on the cheek.

[Deya] He's Mister Zipline now.

-♪ I'm starting something new ♪
-[Godwin] Woo!

Oh, that's so cool.

-[Godwin laughing]
-♪ Feel the music feed you ♪

-[Deya screaming]
-♪ Gotta put the moments on ♪

♪ The start of something new ♪

♪ Start of something, start of something ♪

♪ Start of something new with you ♪

Yo, man. Yeah, man.

I think it's getting to the point where

this is looking like me and Deya
might be reaching that couple vibe, man.

To me, it's really intentional
with, with the kissing.

I want to make sure that
we have a commitment,

and I don't want it to be just like
in a moment just 'cause,

and we just kiss.

It's just like ziplining.

It's scary, serious, and fun.

But can also be deadly.

[♪ upbeat music playing]

[Ty] How you feeling today?

[Jade] There's a lot going on.

Like, this experience
is just so different...

-[Ty] Unpredictable.
-...and, and, like, unpredictable

and, like, complex.

Me and Jade had a really
good night the other night.

Uh, a little picnic.

And I feel very connected to her,

and I know that whatever happens,

that it'll unfold in a good, positive way.

How do you feel about
Deya and Godwin on the date?

I obviously knew he was gonna pick her...

-Yeah.
-...and I think he should have.

Like, she really has, like, st--
like, stuck beside him

and has, like, advocated for him

-when I was very, like, confused on him.
-[Ty] Yeah. Right.

[Jade]
When he picked Deya to go on the date,

I thought it made sense,
I wasn't surprised,

and I was happy for her.

But I did have, like, a little
concern in the back of my mind,

like, when they get back.

I was like, they might
be, like, 100% solidified

and the door might close for me.

-[Ty] Yeah.
-But like, I feel like I should,

like, not close the door with him

-like, 100%.
-Yeah.

Whenever I have a conversation with Jade,

it leaves me more excited
for the next thing that is in store for us

'cause there's so much
about her that I find fascinating.

But I understand that Jade and Godwin
both have feelings for each other,

that they are still pursuing that,

and I am feeling a little bit anxious.

I need her to choose me.

[♪ tense music playing]

[♪ "I'm Just Fine" by Tom Marlow playing]

[Deya] They got a picnic for us!

Wait, this is so cute.

♪ And I keep falling ♪

Alright, let me serve you.

[Godwin] Mm!

-That's for you.
-Thank you.

This one's for me.

[Godwin]
We being outside the villa, it's amazing.

This gives us a sense
of us living our own life

and a little taste of how
our life would be together

on the outside world.

-Mm.
-[Godwin] For real, like now it's like--

-Like going on adventures together.
-Going-- Yes.

-What it would be like.
-Like, us-- Yes.

-Like, without any distractions.
-You know what I like about

my relationship with you?

-Mm-hm.
-Is that I feel so comfortable.

-Mm.
-Like, I feel like,

maybe I shouldn't feel
this comfortable so fast,

-but, like, it just feels so natural.
-Mm-hm.

Like, the way we were just--
wanted to be hugging

and, like, just being close.

-Yeah.
-Even though we were sweaty. [laughs]

-I just like being close to you.
-Yeah.

And I like that we were being close.

[insects chirring]

[Godwin] I think, you know,
even in the villa,

everybody could tell,
like, you are that energy

that fills the room, that fills everybody.

Honest, like, you're literally that light
that shines for everyone, right?

And, you know, I feel like you give pe--

bits and pieces of
yourself out to many people,

and so, you know, you also
need a time to, like, rest.

-You know what I'm saying? And to--
-Oh...

Yeah, like, really.
Like, to be catered to.

I'm like, yo, she's there for everybody.

She's serving everybody.

You know, what about her?

-[♪ gentle music playing]
-[Deya laughs]

-Oh.
-Really.

You're okay?

Makes me feel seen.

[Godwin] Mm.

Because that is what happens. Like...

[Godwin] Yeah.

...I give and serve everybody,

but I don't--
I'm not expecting anything in return.

-Yeah.
-Like, it's a joy for me to give...

-Yeah.
-...and to serve

and to show people love and to be a light,

but it's cool that you see that.

Yeah.

Let's huggies.

-Ah!
-[Deya laughs]

This was great.

-This was great.
-This was so great.

This was great.

I'm like, wait, wait a minute. Wait...

[both laughing]

Oh, just kiss already.

I-- [laughing] I really want to so bad,

-but I'm, like, I don't know.
-I know. I know.

What do you think?

-[♪ music fades out]
-Um...

-What do I think?
-No--

Okay, this a conversation
we also really have to have, right?

[insects chirring]

-So, look, like--
-What happened?

-No! No, no, no, it's a real conversation.
-Okay, okay.

-It's a real conversation.
-Okay.

So, I can definitely go in for a kiss,

you know what I'm saying?
Like, I'm feelin' it,

-and I know you're probably feelin' it.
-Yeah, yeah.

I'm-- One of the main things why

I don't allow myself to do that is because

what if tomorrow there are
other sparks elsewhere?

-Oh.
-Right? You know me and Jade--

[gasps] Oh, dang!

-You're planning to have someone else.
-No! No, no, no, no, listen, listen.

No, no, no, no, no, no.

Wait, hold on. Let me try to process that.

Okay.

-[♪ dramatic music playing]
-He brought up Jade,

and I was like, "Oh, snap!"

Maybe he didn't mean to,
but that was sus to me.

So, now I'm like, maybe there
is still something there?

And now I'm guarded,

because it's like, I still think
the world of you, Godwin,

but I'm not doing that.

I'm not playing no games.

[Kaitlyn] I wouldn't call Godwin's fumble

a full-blown dumpster fire,

more like a trash candle.

Still, not great.

[Colton]
Back at the No-Body-Count Beach Club,

Madi's still on hold
after trying to get through to Noah,

but her call is important to him.

[Rachael] Oh, how-- Did you talk to Noah?

[Madi] I talked to him a little bit

and I was like,
"Oh, how'd you feel last night?"

And he was like,
"Oh, we'll talk about it later."

I hate when people say that.

-[Rachael] The waiting would kill me.
-I'm like just tell me now.

[Rachael] Yeah.

-I feel like--
-[Madi] Like, it makes me feel like shit.

[♪ tense music playing]

Now I'm freaking out.

Fuck me in the fuckin' ass.

I mean... I could.

I know you want to.

[both laughing]

We could, like, sneak off.
I don't even know where it's at.

[Madi laughs]

[♪ tense music continues]

He's like-- Huh?

He's walking somewhere,
and now I'm freaking out.

-Noah is?
-Mm-hm.

[Noah] Who's over here?

-Me and Rach.
-This is our hammock now.

Hey. Are you having girl time...

-[Madi] Why?
-...or can I-- Can I steal you?

-Yeah.
-Yeah, you can talk to me.

-[Noah] I'm not interrupting?
-[Rachael] No.

[♪ tense music playing]

I wanted to say first, like,
I do really appreciate,

like, the gesture of the...

-Yeah.
-...love boat and the poem,

like, that was cool.

-That was really appreciated.
-Yeah.

Um, I do feel like
I left that conversation

feeling, like, a ton of, uh, pressure,

which in the real world,
is something that I run from...

-Yeah.
-...really fast,

and it's, like, making me kind of

feeling like I need to run now.

Mm-hm. Yeah.

I mean, I don't know--

I don't know, like, what to do

or how to behave or anything.

-Around me?
-Yeah.

Probably, like, not kissing anymore,

'cause that's just gonna
maybe confuse feelings.

Yeah.

My goal here is to find love.

Right now, I'm not
interested in anyone else.

I'm fine to say, like,
I just wanna get to know you.

Like, what the fuck?

So, just putting it back into
more of a friend relationship

would be really appropriate,

and, like, I think would help me
actually get to know you.

Okay.

Yeah. I mean, if that's what you--

-Okay.
-I can't.

-I can't say anything to that, so...
-Yeah.

We kind of have to say, like, it's over.

Let's just take-- Okay.

Okay.

Yeah.

[♪ "You're No Good" by TIDES playing]

-I mean, okay.
-'Kay.

♪ I don't need a friend like you ♪

-♪ In your blood runs ♪
-Okay.

♪ Bad Intentions ♪

[Noah]
If the connection isn't there, it isn't.

And honestly, I think all of the pressure

that I was feeling during
me and Madi's time together,

that was the alarm going off
that helped me recognize

that maybe we're really
just not compatible

at the end of the day.

-Hey, Rachael.
-How you doing? You good?

[Noah] Yes, thank you for asking.

♪ I can see through all
the lies that you tell ♪

[Rachael]
Start from the beginning, because--

So basically, he was like, "I just
feel like there's too much pressure

and that we're exclusive
and we should be friends."

-What?!
-[Madi] Yeah.

-[Rachael] Shut the fuck up.
-[Madi] Mm-mm.

♪ You're no good ♪

♪ I'm not afraid to take you down ♪

I want him to go home

'cause he clearly is not here for love.

I'm just like, this is so classic me.

Like, I literally--
This always happens to me.

♪♪

[crying] And, like,
I had a reason to be anxious.

I should've trusted that.

♪ But I'm not going down without a fight ♪

-[birds chirping]
-[ocean waves crashing]

♪ With one spark, I can storm the night ♪

[Noah] I got no pleasure
out of that conversation.

That was horrific.

[Colton] Noah can barely manage two girls.

How he organized that ark
with two of every animal,

I'll never know.

I heard below deck, it was chaos.

Kind of like it is
in the girls' villa now.

When I saw him at breakfast,
I knew something was off.

He, basically, this morning
said like, "I'm done."

-[Jade] Right.
-[Madi] And so to me, it felt like

it was an end conversation when it
didn't need to be an end conversation.

And he had all these other things
that he wasn't telling me

about how he's feeling and he's, like,
talking to Andrew about it.

-But not talking to--
-[Katya] The way he loves

-talking to Andrew.
-[Madi] And not like bringing it up to me.

And I was okay with him wanting
to talk to other people.

I let him talk to Brooklyn last night.

-[Jade] Mm-hm.
-[Madi] Like, I'm not--

-I'm not controlling his every move.
-[Jade] Mm-hm.

I think it's, he's just so young.

[Madi] I don't regret
what I did last night.

I regret the person that I did it for.

-Mm!
-Oh!

I wish that I would've, like,
saved that for someone really special.

[Katya] I think there's an element
of he's just not there yet.

It's not my job

to, like, make a man be
emotionally mature and ready.

I also don't like fuckin'
Andrew and Noah together.

Like, they are fucking trouble.

They're immature little boys.

They don't know what
the fuck they're doing.

I'm, like, really starting
to question Andrew.

I'm like, "What are you doing?"

Like, Noah said to me,

Andrew said that he told Brooklyn

she was his number one on the boat.

[Katya] Wait.

Now I'm... worried.

What?

I built these protections and these walls

and I should've trusted that.

I'm so private about so many things.

Like, the one time that I'm vulnerable

about my vulnerability

and really actively trying to combat that

and trying to really
look at that and the why,

and then I get shown why.

That doesn't make me wanna open up more.

That validates me,

and why I've been the way
that I've been for 28 years,

which is safe.

[Madi] I think he's keeping
you around as an option.

Wow.

I am spiraling.

♪ Down you go ♪

[Colton] While Katya got stressed,

Andrew got dressed to impress.

Prepping to see Brooklyn by boldly
matching his necklace to his shorts,

and his shirt to his hair.

-[Brooklyn] Hey.
-Y'all look good.

Hey. Um,

I was gonna see if you wanted
to go on a walk on the beach?

-Yeah.
-You down?

-Yeah, yeah, yeah.
-Then we can come back and hang?

-Yeah, have fun. Bye.
-Okay, bye, girl.

Alright, this is the,
the swimsuit for the night?

-[Brooklyn] Yeah.
-[Andrew] I love it.

[Madi] My booty's gon' be out tonight.

[Katya] A woman scorned.

Andrew's doing the same thing
that Noah and Carissa and I.

-Where he had Carissa, he moved on...
-[Katya] This sucks.

-...he booted Carissa out.
-[Rachael] Mm-hm.

Andrew now has Brooklyn.

He's gonna boot her out
and try to get her out of the game.

-[Sara] Yeah.
-[Rachael] Yeah.

-[Madi] This is what they do it as a game.
-It's just a game to them.

-This isn't a game to me.
-That's what's happening.

[Madi] Yes.

My whole thing with Andrew
is open dialogue, right?

-Yeah, 100%
-Like, you wanna pursue her.

She represents this thing to you.

You're feeling confused, there are
core feelings that are involved.

Of course, explore that.

Go ahead. But if she denies you,
you're not coming back to me.

I'm not a second option.

I'm here looking for love.

I'm not here looking
for the next best thing.

♪ Welcome to the wild ♪

Someone will show you who they are,

and I've been shown who
Andrew is in relation to me.

In relation to Brooklyn,

I'm sure it's a very different story.

♪ No one fooled ♪

In relation to me last week,
very different story.

In relation to me 24 hours ago,
different story.

Will I tolerate that?

Absolutely the fuck not.

I got a little set up here if you wanna...

-Ooh!
-Yeah, yeah.

-Yeah.
-I wanted it to be a surprise, so...

-Oh, my gosh.
-[chuckles]

[Andrew] I'm not gonna close myself
on an opportunity to connect with Brooklyn

due to Katya,

but now that Madi and Noah
have broken things off,

in my mind, I think Noah
will probably take Brooklyn.

So, I want romantic time
with her first, for sure.

-You wanna take a seat?
-There's cookies!

Oh, my gosh, stop. Should we eat cookies?

-[Andrew] Yeah, of course.
-[Brooklyn] Yeah.

-Bon appétit.
-Thank you.

You have to tell me if it's better than
what you normally bake.

That's the real question.

[♪ "Forever Free"
by Flip Fantazia playing]

-It's good? Yeah?
-Mm-hm.

Yummy, yummy, chocolate chip cookie.

I thought that maybe Andrew
was kind of like,

"love bombing" me a little bit,

but I think he actually might be
being genuine, you know?

♪ It's a special feelin' ♪

♪ Stay with me ♪

I'm looking for a serious relationship

and, you know, I definitely
just want someone

who's, like, super loyal
and super, like, loving

and who's, like, only has eyes for moi.

-That's fair.
-Yeah.

Yeah, I think for me, it's like

I'm very focused on wanting
to make sure I can, like, find my partner.

I am prioritizing, like, pursuing you.

♪ Don't play with fire ♪

Well, I, like, sincerely appreciate
you, like, saying all of that to me.

I feel like this was, like,
honestly, like, super sweet.

And the fact that you got cookies too.

I-I don't know, I just wasn't
expecting this, like, at all.

♪ Fire, fire ♪

[Madi] This is literally, like,
a game to them.

This is so nuts.

[Rachael]
And they think virgins are boring?

-[Jade scoffs]
-[Rachael] Please.

You can do all this without having sex?

Holy shit.

[Jade] Just as messy.

Got virgin fuck boys around here.

Insanity.

This sucks.

[♪ "Don't Play With Fire"
by Jake Warren playing]

I can't stand men who use women

to feed their ego and then discard them

the second a shiny new thing comes along.

He needs to learn,

I will never be someone's number two.

♪ Don't play with fire ♪

♪ Fire ♪

♪ Fire ♪

♪ Fire ♪

-[birds chirping]
-[ocean waves crashing]

[Kaitlyn]
Eighteen virgins came to this island

looking for love.

Many hoped they'd eventually
enjoy a bumpy ride,

but the road to romance wasn't exactly
the one they had in mind.

[Farha] Do you feel like
most hated on the island

since all the girls' girls are
kind of anti-Noah today?

-[Noah] Yeah.
-[Farha] Really?

[laughs] I do.

[slurping]

[♪ upbeat music playing]

[all] Virgin girl power, unite!

[laughter]

Alright, let's go fuck some shit up.

-[Jade] Do I look okay?
-[group] You look great.

♪ Don't speak, shut your mouth ♪

♪ There's nothin' you can say ♪

[Andrew] Look at the girls!

We're women to you.

[♪ dramatic sting]

[slurping]

I know who I am, I know what I bring.

[♪ tense music playing]

Katya, you want a drink?

Oh, I'll get one later.

-Cool.
-[Katya] I'll get one later.

Having respect for people

is of the utmost importance.

And that wasn't shown to me.

And what I will not be,
is gaslit or led to believe

that that was the case.

[♪ tense, dramatic music playing]

-Let's go.
-Alright, well in that case,

-Mike, you wanna...?
-[Katya] Quick, Andrew.

What's up?

[Andrew] Okay.

♪♪

Ooh, the tension is thick.

-Yeah.
-You could

[sing-songy] ♪ Cut it with a knife ♪

[indistinct chatter]

See? But then it's like Andrew just
immediately pulled someone right now.

-[Madi] No, she pulled him.
-[Brooklyn] Oh.

-[Farha] Is that, um, the--
-[Madi] Katya.

They're also seeing each other, right?
Or, whatever. Talking.

Yeah. I mean, not for long.

[♪ tense, dramatic music continues]

-Okay, I have a question for you.
-[Andrew] Yes, hit me.

-And I want complete honestly.
-[Andrew] Of course.

Did you tell Brooklyn
on your date last night,

that she was your number one?

Like, in that-- in terms that
I'm pursuing right now, yes.

-Okay.
-[Andrew] Yeah.

'Cause last night, you had said
that I was still your number one.

[Andrew] Of deepest connection.

Um...

I-I told you, like, you're
my number one in deepest connection.

-Yeah.
-But then, like,

I'm number one pursuing her.

-'Cause I need to explore that.
-That, that was not said.

Okay.

Is she annoyed about, like, their thing?

Not with you.

She's annoyed the way he's moving.

Oh, interesting.

Andrew went to Katya, said,
"You're my number one."

-They made out. Like...
-Really?

[Madi] And now that you're here,
he's just like completely switched up,

but he's not telling her.
He's still saying, like, to her,

"You're my number one."

You gotta watch out 'cause he's saying
the same things to both of us.

Okay.

These girls seem so petty.

[Brooklyn laughs]

Like, they basically wanna
come for your throat already.

They're like, you're a shark
in blood water.

Why should we be careful
about guys pursuing?

-Like, what are you talking about.
-[Brooklyn] Yeah.

Like, that's what we're here for.

I do not appreciate that you told Brooklyn

that she was your number one,

regardless of if it's in pursuit

or deepest connection, I don't care.

If you're using numbers,
there's only one number one.

And she was number one.

And do you know how that makes me feel?

♪ Welcome to the wild ♪

I just wonder what he's saying.

It could be she's giving him hell

'cause her hands are moving a lot.

♪ No one fooled ♪

And I will not be played. I, I won't.

I'm not doing that.

I'm not playing games.
I'm here to find love.

And I'm not playing games with you.

I-I've never been in this situation

where it's like
I'm interested in two girls

and I have to figure out,
like, how to dial both

when we're all in the same place
at the same time.

You've done more for Brooklyn
in the past 24 hours,

than you've done for me
in a pa-- in-in a week.

And I told you last night,

that if you choose Brooklyn
as your number one,

I will never be your number one again.

I-- You don't get to come back to me.

Yeah.

♪ See the forest ♪

I've been so open
with you this entire time,

and I've given you so much freaking grace,

and this is like a slap in the face.

And the number one thing
I don't tolerate is disrespect,

and I feel disrespected.

You know that was never my intention.

I don't care about your intention.
That was the impact.

♪ Hear the void ♪

♪ Echoing ♪

-I'm disappointed.
-No, I know,

and I'm-- I am disappointed in myself.

Doesn't change how I feel about you.

Like I said, I'm a-- [chuckles]

kind of a...

Lover boy, but I think I need a man.

♪♪

I mean, I'd love to keep chatting.

♪♪

I'm not doing that.

♪ So do you know who's
your enemy or your friend? ♪

I had said very clearly from day one,

that I will never be a number two.

I am never someone's option.

I'm a priority.

I'm number one.

It hurts, but I'm not gonna settle,

and I'm not compromising
who I am or what I want.

You can continue getting to know Brooklyn

'cause that's what you need to do.

Right?

♪ You're never secure ♪

Anyways, I'm gonna get a drink.

'Kay.

[Katya]
I deserve love, I deserve care,

I deserve safety.

♪ Welcome to the wild ♪

[crying] And I don't appreciate that.

That does not feel good.

That is not how you take care of people.

♪♪

♪ Welcome to the wild ♪

[water lapping]

[Colton] Next time,
on Are You My First?...

Who's ready to play "Never Have I Ever"?

[contestants cheering]

...a new game gets everyone wet.

"Never have I ever been called a player."

[group] Oh!

[Colton] A love triangle
complicates everything.

[Andrew]
If Noah and Brooklyn end up together,

I will be so devastated.

[Colton] And the virgins...

I got oiled up.

[Colton] ...get horny.

[Madi]
He's literally my perfect body type.

He literally looks like a god.

[Katya] I would do nasty things to Mike.

♪ Don't have the words
to say to you right now ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm all for you ♪

♪ Yeah, I'm all for you ♪

[♪ "All For You" by Indigo Kxd
and Josie Man playing]

♪ Say that you're mine, hold me closer ♪

♪ Been saving love that
I want you to take ♪

♪ Your hand on mine takes over ♪

♪ Tell me that you're gonna stay ♪

♪ Tell me that you're gonna stay ♪

♪ Keep my loving safe ♪

♪ Don't throw my heart away ♪

♪ Do you feel the same? ♪

♪ No, I don't wanna wait ♪

♪ It's a give and take ♪

♪ Just tell me, I wanna know ♪

♪ I wanna know ♪

♪ Don't have the words
to say to you right now ♪

♪ I'm only happy when
you're mine, all mine ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm all for you ♪

♪ Yeah, I'm all for you ♪