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I got into the bathtub.

I cried.

It was as if he was washing the man off of me.

The same was back, and I welcomed him wiping me clean.

I knew I was forgiven.

We didn't speak of it for months.

But my heart had changed.

I needed excitement.

It was a requirement, just as important as air and water.

I also needed to love my husband.

But I lusted for someone new.

I don't get it. You felt ashamed, but you did it again?

Well, I've started to kind of see the shame as a turn -on. You know, it's...

because it's wrong.

What?

I understand. I totally understand.

Mm -hmm. There are things that you, like... Live through to understand.

Mm -hmm.

Yeah.

I mean, you're not judging me or thinking any less of me, are you?

It's not my secret, and it's not my place to judge it.

Besides, I have my own secrets.

I had sex with Chad.

And I've been trying for over a year to make it all right, and yet it's not all

right. I know what I did was wrong, and I can't take it back.

Like that night that you had with that man, it changed me.

You had sex with your stepdad? I didn't judge you when you were playing your

husband as a cuckold.

No, no, no. I'm not judging you.

I'm sorry if it came off that way. I'm just surprised.

It's like you have this dirty thought and it's appalling but you get off to it

and it makes it less appalling and then the thought comes again and again and

pretty soon it's like this dirty fantasy that you have and then it...

Just keeps going and going, and it turns into, like, an obsession.

But still, you never think that it's going to go anywhere. Nothing's going to

happen.

Until it does.

Well, your husband left you.

And that gave you an opportunity.

No, you got it wrong.

I left him, and it was at Chad's insistence.

And then Chad pursued me.

Do you think he's in love with you?

Well, he thought he was, but I don't think he could love me as he could love

girl his own age. Oh, my God. That's crazy.

People fall in love with whoever they fall in love with.

Yeah, but think of this. I'm twice his age.

So when he's my age, he'd have to be, like, my nurse.

That's okay.

So what happened with your husband?

Joe and I were in love, or at least I thought we were.

He was never very affectionate, but we were best friends. And hey, every girl

wants to marry her best friend, right?

We were content.

Not so much head over heels in love like some fairy tale.

Until his old friend from college moved into town, Alex.

That's when Joe changed.

There were signs and I ignored them.

I just... Dad is...

Seeing someone else.

I hope you know that, right?

No.

What? Every time I talk to him, he's hanging out with his friend Alex.

Yeah, Alex.

Alex is the reason my birth mother left my dad.

What?

Mom, dad is gay.

He Alex's his old college girlfriend.

I never imagined that he was gay, but I did suspect that he was seeing another

woman.

He never came home when he said he would.

There were credit card bills for hotel rooms.

He always had a perfect excuse, and he made me feel crazy.

I kept questioning Joe, calling him, and his irritation towards me turned into

anger.

We didn't even talk anymore. We were just like roommates.

The relationship was over, regardless if he was having an affair or not.

I think he resented me.

Chad had seen it before with his mom, and he showed me proof.

Listen, I want you to understand that this has nothing to do with you.

It's him, okay?

And you're a beautiful woman.

And I thought that you would be the one to change him.

But he'll never admit it. And he'll never leave you.

So you're going to have to leave him.

I can't. I don't believe it.

I don't even... I know.

I know. Your father and I, we... Yeah, I know.

I know.

My marriage to Joe was falling apart, and all I was doing was worrying about

what other people would think of me. Like, my mom, who thinks it's a sin to

divorced, and there's my dad, who thinks I can't keep a man satisfied.

And then my friends.

I never judged you or thought anything negative at the time. I know, I know,

divorce is a failure, and painfully sad, and I...

I felt so responsible the entire time. Like there's something I could have done

to keep my husband happier.

And Chad.

I'm sure he told you how absurd that is.

I know.

I'm here for you, okay?

I'm here for you.

I got you. I got you, okay?

I got you, okay?

There was a ringing in my ears.

I couldn't hear him.

I was overwhelmed. I don't know who kissed who.

I think it was him that kissed me.

It felt so right.

Mommy loves you so much.

I know.

I shouldn't. I know.

He's never going to know.

Don't be horrible, sir.

Just between us.

No one else.

Yeah. Oh shit.

Oh, fuck.

He has a fucking big heart attack.

It's so awful.

Oh, God.

Oh, fuck you.

Oh, God.

Oh, God.

Oh, God.

Oh, God.

Oh, God. Oh, God. Oh, God. Oh, God. Oh, God.

Oh,

God.

It's so wrong.

What do you say, Mommy?

I'm going to get a stepmom for this.

That's how I'm going to show you.

Mmm.

It's so wrong calling you mom. I know.

Dad would be so fucking pissed.

He doesn't give a fuck anyways.

Yeah.

Oh.

Oh my god.

Yes.

Yeah, right there.

You like that baby?

Yeah?

I love it. I love you.

I love you, baby.

Yes.

He's such a good kid.

Oh yes.

Oh, my God.

Oh, yes, right there.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, you're such a good boy. You give Mommy much to eat.

Yeah.

Oh, good girl.

That's it.

Oh, fuck.

Yes.

Oh, fuck yeah.

There you go.

That's it.

Oh, fuck yeah.

That's it. That's it. That's it.

I want you to ride that dick and scare that ass off. Yeah.

Come here.

Yeah.

Look back at her.

Look back at that ass.

Oh, yeah.

Yeah.

Oh, yes.

Oh,

yeah.

That's good, baby.

Oh yes,

baby.

Mwah.

Oh, yes, baby.

Please come for me.

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

I love

you.

Wow. I know. It was like a dream. Everything felt so surreal.

We only had sex at one time.

Even though Chad, he can be so persistent.

Dana, I don't know what to say.

You're disgusted with me, aren't you?

Yes. But, look, it's okay.

Everybody makes mistakes.

You're human.

And as long as you pray to God every night and ask for forgiveness, I'm sure

you'll be okay.

Look, Data, I've had fantasies about Jake, too.

But, I mean, I know I'm sure if I gave him any idea that we could be together,

he would jump at it.

But, Dana, there's just some lines you don't cross, okay?

Dana, are you even listening to me?

Look, I appreciate that you confide in me, and you probably feel this

amount of relief to get this thin off your chest.

But if you don't do something about this, your soul will be in jeopardy.

Well, how sweet and moral of you.

I practice such restraint.

It's late.

I'm going to go home.

You know, only God can judge you. Oh, but you, you would never judge me, now

would you?

Stop. Come, sit down. What? Please.

What I'm trying to say is that I've had the same kind of fantasy, and I

understand your conflict.

I have an idea, but it's important that we keep this between us and never touch

on.

I'm listening.

So, we both want excitement.

Look, Dana, I trust you. You're my best friend.

We both know each other's deepest, darkest secrets.

And I just want you to know that I would never judge you or have any negative

thoughts towards you, okay? I love you.

I love you, too, but, India, you can be so judgmental. I'm sorry.

Okay, so.

What's this idea?

Now, I suppose that it's wrong for you to have your stepson.

But what about mine?

Maybe we could just go out then.

What? That's ridiculous.

That's hot, right?

I mean, come on.

Don't tell me you don't think my Jake is a handsome young man.

And if you would trust me, it was Chad.

Well, honestly, I would love to see him with someone like you.

I feel the same way about Jake.

Okay. So how does this work? We just swap sons and they just go right along

it?

No. First, we plant a little seed.