All language subtitles for Alone.S12E09.1080p.WEB.h264-EDITH

I've got lots of orange greens.

Even if I'm not eating protein, I want to eat every day.

I haven't looked in season as anything else around here.

But I know that there's an expiration date on being on a survival trip and only eating

plant food.

We saw.

But I won't reject it.

No freaking way I see a war hog way the F down there.

Oh my god.

I shot low.

I can't draw my bow back all the way.

This might be our last day hunting.

I admit, just from a calorie perspective, this shelter is overkill.

But it's something I want to do.

They call this place the land of great thirst.

The Great Crew Desert, South Africa.

We are in one of the most inhospitable places on earth.

Ten participants.

Whoever can stay the longest wins.

It's pretty simple.

Oh, I found the baboons.

There's ten of them, but I only have five arrows.

This place is dry, dry, dry.

The sun's beating down on you every day.

I'm so tired and I'm so thirsty.

Oh, man.

I really don't feel safe drinking this water.

This is a place to be, if not feared, treated with a lot of respect.

I taste my mind.

Oh, the size of that thing.

There's a big herd of wildebeest right there.

Rhino tracks.

Meats.

I'm not going to kill you, Gorons.

They call Kate Buffalo the Black Death for a reason.

They'll just straight up kill you.

We don't control the game.

Here you go.

Bloody.

This has nothing compared to what's coming.

It hurts so much, man.

It's freaking hard.

So the question is, how strong of a mind do you need to have to win this?

Whoo!

I thought about that **** that I get myself in, too.

Long, long, late.

The last one attack walks out of here with 500 grand.

This is one of the hardest things that a person can do in their life.

Oh, my gosh.

It's another great day in Africa.

Good morning.

We're going to get walking because I'm cold.

Oh.

Sad to leave the bow here, but...

I can't pull my bow back anymore.

Socks, but that's reality.

Bring in the hat.

We're just going to do a loop.

Get warmed up.

Whoo!

Burp.

First walk without the bow.

My bow is my whole world out here in South Africa.

Fishing is not working.

I'm not catching anything.

So without my bow, I'm going into the starving game.

These walks really get me.

Mentally going for the day.

Not being able to pull my bow back is devastating, but I'm trying to stay positive.

Mentally, it just depresses me to sit at camp all day.

So I have to do these walks.

It's calm.

It'll be a nice day again.

There's a wildebeest on the hill.

Over here, I'm snorting.

But I can't shoot anybody game and that's what I want.

Oh, man.

More dogs.

They're right there.

Go ahead, my bow, I shoot them.

Stupid, more dogs.

No way.

I hit the spring buck.

This is depressing to see wildlife.

When you are starving and can't hunt them, it's discouraging.

Gosh darn.

My stomach hurts.

I'm so hungry.

That's all I got to say.

But I have an idea.

I'm going to go find some bait real quick.

Let's try fishing.

Hunting is no longer an option for me.

I know that in order to stay out here, I have to fish.

I have to bring fish in.

OK, we're getting some maggots from my dead warthog from the pit here for bait.

I'm going to try fishing with them.

Ooh, juicy.

Put them on.

When you're out here, it's so easy to make excuses to go home.

Not being able to pull your bow is a huge reason to go home.

It's justifiable.

OK.

I got to wind me against you.

But I'm not going to go home.

I'm going to stay here and push.

OK.

I'll try that.

I'm going to see how much grit I truly have and stay out here even without the bow.

So we'll keep on fishing.

We'll keep trying till we can't.

Oh, my God.

The windy cold out there.

Far out.

It will take another couple of hours for that to warm up, although it may not be warming

up at all today.

Ah.

I'm going to force myself to eat the greens.

It's hard to keep it up, to be honest.

Maybe I'll take that off.

Oh, my God, my hair.

Because issues.

My face is so dry.

Everything's so dry.

My lips feel a bit better after getting it.

I put a lot of the moisture on it yesterday last night.

I have feel myself feeling the cold for the first time.

I think as I'm losing a bit of weight, it'll be harder to feel warm at night.

Time will be really good.

Everyone's just got to blink it.

And still no meat.

So that's the thing for me that I'm sort of laughing.

I'm doing okay on all the plant food, but it's just boring, it's driving me nuts.

I could probably survive on plant food for 50 days, but it'd be so painful.

Oh, my God.

I'm sick of eating greens and things like that.

Feels like every day I wake up, it's like a D-Day.

I have to get more food today, type of feeling, and I've woken up with that again today.

I'm going to walk east and just see what's on the other side of that hill.

And hopefully there's more resources there.

I'm not losing hope, we'll see.

This is the week for it to come forward and happen.

We're heading east to see what's down there.

And hopefully get a little bit of purchase on maybe some fish and all hunting.

That is a river entrance, so it's like a fish funnel.

And I don't really know what's over there.

I'm very, very hopeful that there is muscles, potentially because muscles are fabulous,

or even other animals that just don't have any idea that I'm around, that I could just ambush.

It's not a new ecology, but it's a new space.

It's going to offer different resources.

So I'm calling it the promised land.

This is worth it.

It's not the water energy.

Getting over to the promised land is a real opportunity cost to consider because there's genuine risk.

The physicality of it, given that I haven't had a lot of protein in the last four weeks,

it's a stretch.

But I'm really extraordinarily hopeful that it will pay off for you.

You see that there, that chew?

That's the 45.

Coming through here, good to see.

That way, it's too dangerous, knowing that way.

I really want to see what's on the other side of that.

What's on the other side?

Over here.

Oh, ****.

Oh, ****.

Ouch.

Okay.

I'm going to go.

I'm going to be careful.

I think rocks are not. Look at that.

Oh, not stable.

I don't think I twisted anything.

I'm good to keep going.

I've had worse back home.

I'm really lucky to not have hit my head.

So I've just been very, very careful when I'm stepping to make sure that I feel like I've got steady feet.

Let me see how far I can go.

Navigating the terrain, it's relatively simple near the water where there's flats.

And then the minute it starts to go up, walking over boulders and rocks and trying to find trails

that animals can move through.

Oh, my God. This could be...

That could just be a bicycle.

Maybe I'll try another way I can.

I think it's a little...

A smaller brush, but then it comes...

Well, open. Here we go.

I'm finding it tougher than I thought to get out through the promised land.

I'm tired.

This is just a decision-making point.

So I've come along all the way from there.

And I can see over here the mouth of the river and a little open sort of area.

And that next valley in through there.

But to get around there is still quite a trek.

And I don't know, man. I don't know what the right thing to do is.

It's a lot of energy.

And I don't want to hurt myself going along the rocks, you know, just for the sake of getting somewhere.

I'll go no further today. I'll try again, though.

This is nice.

I was thinking about Erika and our tradition of starting every day, having coffee together.

Not necessarily talking a lot, just sitting and drinking and enjoying being together.

First thing every morning, usually before daylight.

Today, I need to redo that corner.

That's going to be a delicate repair.

You can do it, though.

It's scary to attempt rebuilding this wall because it's in a very fragile state missing that corner.

And more of this wall can easily collapse.

So I'm going to have to be extremely delicate building this wall back up and merging it with those fractured edges.

It's probably going to be some more losses. I just assemble this.

You're going to have to go back down pretty far.

I'm just going to then eat into the wall and over to the corner.

It's going to be a little bit tricky.

This repair is going to be harder than building in the first place.

Time to dive into fixing my mistake.

As I watched this shelter collapse, it was interesting how many thoughts just passed through my mind so quickly.

Like, it's over and done. I can't recover from this.

It's going to continue to collapse. I will have to start over completely. Is it worth it?

But since on the first time I've made a mistake, and what I've learned in life is that you can recover from mistakes.

It's not the end of the world.

I just had a critical point in that repair. I don't think anything else is going to collapse. You have solid.

Whew! That was scary.

With this, all the stone is already here. The fill is here. I just have to rebuild.

Even though I'm using more calories than I expected doing this again, I'm still here.

Right before I came out here, Eric and I were discussing the reality of the opportunity to be on a loan.

One of the main pros is that this shows our children that we're willing to take risks in our own life.

She's in this game with me. She's taking care of everything at home.

And we're separated from each other. We're both going through the struggle of that.

So, we're showing our children it's okay to take risks, and if they don't all work out, that's okay.

At least you have the courage to try and not be too afraid to fail.

Okay, now the stone work's done. That was a major setback.

I'll do a little bit more stone work, you know, matching it to the roof line, which isn't going to be straight and perfect because there aren't no straight logs here.

Well, there's one log that I know is going to be good, but it's really heavy.

I can't carry it here without cutting it. So we're going to go do that. We're going to cut it with fire.

The roof structure is going to be a challenge.

I don't have a saw to cut anything to length.

The lumber that I'm going to use, it's an acacia log, so it's very dense wood. It's more than I can pick up.

So I'm going to have to burn to cut it in its location, make it smaller so I can carry it to this site.

So this looks like it's going to go pretty quickly.

Once I get it to length, I'll put the fire out and I'll carry it to the shelter in the morning.

My goal today was to finish the rock work and it is done. I'm just going to start on this roof tomorrow.

And we got a little bit started on that. So it's feeling pretty good.

This is the case you burned off last night. It's a nice straight piece. So it's part of the roof.

This log is really dense. It's a hard wood. It's like iron.

I don't know if I can carry it. I might just have to drag it. But where's Roland when you need him, right?

As I'm building this shelter, I've had to go further and further away to get materials.

And that's been a big calorie expenditure.

All right. Well, the main roof supports are up.

My plan now is to start at the back end, cover it with straight sticks,

and use clay and grass mixed to fill that all in and make a roof, a clay roof.

After I have the beams up, it breaks the roof effectively into three sections that are shorter spans.

And I'll be spanning those sections with sticks, a solid layer of sticks, one right next to the other.

And that layer of sticks is going to support the weight of the grass and clay on top of that.

Any one stick doesn't have to be particularly strong, because bundles of sticks tend to be quite strong.

And so a solid layer combined will give this roof the strength it needs.

All right. Take a break.

I am hungry. It's terrible to feel this way, guys. Hunger.

If you ever see anybody in need of food and you have five bucks, please help them out.

We still have our maggots on. Nothing wanted to eat them. Shame.

Our fishing sucks. There's no more catfish in here.

They would have been on that by now.

I've tried fish guts. I've tried maggots. I've tried beetles.

I even had a worm at one point, and I can't catch anything.

It's like the fish have just stopped biting.

Okay, well, let's go forward.

I have no energy for projects. Can't walk for too long either.

I'm losing strength. I'm losing muscle. Weight. You name it. I'm pushing my limit.

So what I just noticed on this acacia tree, see those green peepods? I can eat those.

But this is the only tree with green peepods. Everything else is already brown and already fallen down for the winter.

Okay, got him. We'll go eat him.

So it's literally like a peepod.

You can see that.

It tastes like peepodard.

Now if I had like literally four peas, yeah. I wonder what four peas does for the body.

Probably nothing.

It's good if I could get a ton of these, but they're already gone. Winter's here.

There's seven in that one. One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight in this one.

Can't even get this one open. It's so little.

Good snack. Just not enough of it.

I fantasize about food all the time.

And that's really hard. That's so hard to do to get off your mind, and you just can't get it off your mind.

We have at least like six and a half hours for bed.

I'm still hungry.

So we're going to go try our hand upriver a little bit.

It takes a lot of energy to go up to the pond upriver.

It's a lot of work, but I'm desperate to find something to eat.

Made it.

Cheepers.

I'll try over here.

I can't believe how much I fantasize about food. It blows my mind.

I can go for some pizza.

Stopped crust. Garlic knots.

Narrow sauce.

Mother freaking lover.

Awesome. We walked all this way and it broke.

I'm going to go to the house.

Oh my gosh.

Oh my gosh.

Oh my gosh.

Oh my gosh.

Okay, so I'm getting frustrated. We're done. We're freaking done.

We're done.

Let's go back to freaking camp.

We're going to try and use clay with grass.

So I'm taking the clay from termite mounds.

They've already selected clay to make their mound waterproof.

It makes it with their saliva.

I'm going to add water to that.

I'm going to add water to that.

I'm going to add water to that.

I'm going to add some grass to that to make it spread better.

I'm going to plug all the holes. I'm going to work from the back to the front.

This is a shot.

The clay on the termite mounds was a combination of the clay that the termites of mind out of the soil.

I'm going to plug all the holes in the plant.

I'm going to plug all the holes in the plant.

I'm going to plug all the holes in the plant.

The clay on the termite mounds was a combination of the clay that the termites of mind out of the soil.

Their saliva and then some organic matter mixed in.

It creates this very durable waterproof structure.

Water is better. It was on easier, smoother. It finds out easier.

Those features are exactly what I'm looking for in the roof of my shelter.

I think this is going to work.

It's been so engaging having this experience.

Sometimes I'll get wound up about all the things to do when that happens at home.

My wife reminds me that there's a lot of fun to be had in life just from the very, very simple things.

That very much reminds me of my childhood.

That was getting wet and still a step nicely.

I grew up in a very large family.

We mostly lived in very small homes.

I shared bedrooms with multiple brothers all the time.

As an introvert, I naturally wanted time of quiet and alone.

The wilderness around our home was like an escape for me.

All top, past. I'm going to get a second cut.

My personality type needs some quiet time.

I'm getting that out here, building this shelter and living off the land.

I'm going to call out a day on the shelter experiment.

I'm going to go ahead and sleep in there tonight.

Take a fire in the corner.

Home sweet home.

And deciding on what the shelter would be and how it would look.

I thought a lot about the aesthetic.

I wanted to build something beautiful because I was thinking about Erica.

Not really Mr.

I've been so busy.

I haven't spent any time sitting since I arrived.

I haven't really had an opportunity to feel homesick or wish I was somewhere else.

Now that's all I'm going to be doing.

I tend to fidget a lot, always moving.

I tend to fidget a lot, always moving.

But now that I'm settled into this place, you know, my food supply is really good.

I have a permanent shelter.

So, what's next?

I think I'll just hang out by the fire for a while and see if I can get a second cut.

I think.

And so now it's just me and my thoughts and feelings.

I'm curious what I might learn about myself as I reflect on things.

We'll see how it goes from here.

I'm curious what I might learn about myself as I feel.

I'm curious what I might learn about myself as I feel.

I'm curious what I might learn about myself as I feel.

Hey guys, do you want to know how to get this nice, skinny body like me?

You want to know my secret?

I'll tell you my secret.

You want the weight to just melt away?

Book your spot for a loan with zero food.

You'll get a very nice tan while you lay in the sun and starve the pounds away.

Unable to catch any fish?

Then this is the spot for you if you want to lose some weight.

But don't worry, we have lots of rocks to munch on.

You can munch on some thorns.

How about some deadhead horns?

You'll look just like me.

Oh, you don't like thorns?

You'll get in shape even faster.

You'll get the spot that you need to take to lose weight.

Hurry up. Book your spots now because spaces are limited.

I wish I could eat these rocks.

Alright, let's go for our little walk.

Today's my mom's birthday, so let's see if there's any animals for her on her birthday.

I don't think I can harvest food anymore.

I can't pull my bow back, so a big game is no longer a question.

I gotta take breaks.

Terrell Pace, even if I go up like two steps of an incline, I doubt my new rest.

And I haven't seen a fish in ten days. There's none. Absolutely none.

I'm tired. I don't remember to pick up my feet.

One foot in front of the other.

But I have to continue to do my walks to stay mentally strong,

even though it's tough seeing all these animals that I physically can't hunt.

I put a lot of energy to get up here today.

My legs are so weak.

I feel like they just want to give out underneath me.

A very lightheaded today.

Her reminds me of a time I was out cutting.

I was solo hunting in the mountains for days.

And I was chasing this 380 bull.

I sat on them, I sat on them, I sat on them, I finally called them in.

I made a shot, missed completely underneath him.

And I was devastated that I made a shot.

I was so happy that I was a little bit nervous.

Underneath him.

And I was devastated that I made that mistake.

I was also exhausted from hunting days and days by myself.

And called my mom and dad and told my missed 380 bull.

And I was like, I don't even know if I can walk up this hill, this mountain.

My mom goes, one foot in front of the other, Kelce.

One foot in front of the other, he'll get there. He'll get there.

And I just remember that today, one foot in front of the other.

Just keep going, one foot in front of the other.

No matter how exhausted you are.

Because my mom's birthday, so.

And on her birthday, she gets a sable.

Oh, look at the sable.

And it's your birthday sable.

It's your birthday sable.

I saved a tiny bit of jerky for your birthday.

It's the size of a corn flake.

Same to a free birthday.

That's it.

So, I'll get to that.

So, I hope you're having cake.

And steak.

Or a fish fry.

And you better eat two pieces for me.

I'm gonna head back.

So, anyways, happy birthday, mom.

Thank you for supporting me.

And I love you.

Hope you have a great day.

And I hope you're having ice cream and ness quick just for me.

My relationship with my mom is awesome.

She's super outgoing.

My mom can meet a friend anywhere.

I do feel like that's where I get my confidence from.

Like in college or when I moved away, I never let anything or anybody hold me back.

My whole entire life, if I wanted it, I just went and got it.

Well, mom, hope your birthday is better than me.

I'm starving.

You know, I feel like I came in here, the underdog.

I told him, I was like, I'm gonna come out of nowhere.

I really hope I do come out of nowhere.

The hardest part of this game is the unknown how many people are left.

I bet you all, Katie's still here.

When I think about the last two people, me and Katie absolutely come to mind.

Two strong women that can endure so much, that would be awesome to see.

I've been contemplating writing a book on all my grand adventures.

Charged by grizzly bears, almost drowned kneeboarding.

Survived, roll over car wreck.

Things like that.

Hunting, fishing, all those crazy adventures, you know, horse training.

The rescue, this adventure.

I love to put all the crazy adventures in a book.

It's gonna be called, How to Wing It.

Nothing I do is planned.

It's wild.

And if it is planned, plan A goes out the window, plan B goes out the window

and you don't have a plan C. So you wing it.

Because you can't be successful without failure.

One day at a time, that's how I got here.

But, we're not done yet.

Can't give up.

I had one of those dreams last night.

It was just me and Kelsey who were the last two people.

In the show.

For a recurring dream.

I've only had recurring dreams. I'll have to unpack that one.

Do I sit by the water and try to hunt?

Or do I walk up onto that ridge and have a look down and see if it's possible to make it the promised land?

The reality of where I am here is that I think for me to get better bait and fish and hunt,

I'm gonna need to end up over that ridge to the promised land.

I still feel like I've been rejected by all the animals.

I feel like they've all gone, ah, we're getting out of here.

We're gonna go round that side of the hill.

Because that human lady over there, she just keeps trying to kill us.

It's a shame.

I don't like that feeling.

And I just honestly don't know that I've got the energy to get myself there.

So I'm just sort of contemplating the reality of all of that.

I'm gonna trust whatever feels right rather than the head.

So, to the promised land.

I feel like I've got everything else dialed in.

I feel like I have an amazing nest at night that I can go into and I'm warm.

The plant food's all happening.

The water's all happening.

The critical piece is the protein.

That's the missing link every day.

I'm waking up and thinking, how am I going to crack this?

What am I missing?

And it feels like there's a push inside to try to work that out.

Let's go across the top here.

We'll go up and over there and down.

You might find some more animals up there sheltering.

We will see.

It's fresh pool.

It's a good sign.

I can see a male.

Nail.

Moving across.

Okay.

Put his head down with clever.

Hiding his horns.

It's gonna just disappear like they all do.

They're such clever animals.

Goodness me.

I see I can just see those tracks.

There's one.

Good meeting just over the other side of the clearing.

I don't know how they get over there without me.

A bit of hamster on the floor.

I was thinking, looking that way, but I can see.

I'm going to sit away and see until it goes further and try to come up on my head.

I can see the kudu.

Nail with the weak leo horns.

Nail as well in the stripes on his body.

They're gonna come right in front of me, I think.

Yeah, they're coming.

I think I've got a shot here.

I'm gonna take a shot.

Nothing on that one.

Damn it.

It's actually out of food.

How strong of a mind do you need to have to win this game?

I have this sort of seeking part of me that always wants to know what's really possible.

I tell myself to suck it up.

This is my adventure and I can do it as long as I want.

This is a loan.

Haven't you seen it?

Anything can happen.