All language subtitles for Clocking Off s04e01 Suzies Story

Right with the death.

Sorry.

I'll forgive you.

Been waiting ages. I thought I'd missed
you. I know. Some dick hid my bag on top

of the lockers. Like working with a
bunch of five -year -olds.

God, it's ages since I saw you work
dinner.

I looked at the clock, right, thinking
we were nearly finished.

Three o 'clock. I swear it was going...

Was this your idea?

He's nothing to do with me.

Best man? Jesus, Jamie, you could have
done better than that.

Hey, Jamie, how do you get a woman to
stop giving you a blowjob?

Marry her!

No, seriously, Susie, good luck.

You'll need it.

Thanks, Dave. Yeah, Susie.

Is it something blue?

Well, strictly speaking, it's something
borrowed, but what they don't know won't

harm them. Oh, thanks, Susie. Good luck.

Thanks. Give us a ring if you get stuck.

Bunch of dicks.

Right then. Right then.

I don't know, last night of freedom and
all that.

Probably go out, shag a few birds, get
shit fixed, you know, nothing hectic.

I've got to go, I'm late for Ryan.

See you tomorrow?

See you tomorrow.

Do you think too much?

No. Need a bit better spot for the
photo.

It's a fine line though, innit? I don't
want everyone thinking I look like a

tart.

Do it. Do it. I'll get it.

I'm there.

Alright, got a good hour yet?

Let's do room service.

Champagne and ta -da!

A million dollars?

We'll give you a minute.

What happened to that scruffy little
ginger -eyed girl I used to know?

I don't know.

Stop it, you'll make me make a run.

You ready? Car's waiting.

Quick pee, okay? I'll be right out.

All right, kiddo? Yeah, you look smart.

For a change.

Are you all right? No.

Hey.

Eileen, hiya. Nice to see you again.

Any word?

Oh, where is she?

Where the bleeding hell is she, Dad?

I'm sorry, lad.

DJ!

Please tell him I'm sorry.

I'm really sorry.

All right, all right, I'm coming.

Right, see you in a bit.

My dad's dreading.

Where is she? In a bath.

Lytton, are you all right staying here
for a bit? My dad and Eileen are looking

after her. I need to go and help them
sort stuff out for her. Of course.

Cheers.

If you can get anything out of her.

What happened, Suze?

What was the arse of him?

I thought it was what I wanted.

It is what I wanted.

I couldn't believe it when Jamie
proposed to me.

It's like, wow, I've found someone.

Who loves me, wants to spend the rest of
his life with me.

Cos it had been a while before Jamie,
you know.

I hadn't had anyone for ages.

I mean, they had Shag and that, but, you
know, no one proper.

A single mum working in a factory, he
wants to take that home.

Am I really stupid?

I phoned Stuart.

Ryan's dad.

I've got his mobile number, you know,
for emergencies and that, but I never

him.

But I wanted to talk to him.

I wanted to tell him I was getting
married.

I don't know, maybe I wanted to prove
something to him.

You know, let him know I was sorting
myself out.

Anyway, we got talking and I'm running
up this massive phone bill, so we were

like, should we meet up?

For old time's sake.

I'm not going where I think it's going.

Well, it depends where you think it's
going.

I didn't sleep with him.

I know it was stupid, but... I didn't
think it was going to happen.

We got pissed, that's all.

We'd laugh, we'd talk about the past.

I didn't think we'd end up shagging. So
why did you?

I don't know.

All right.

You shagged your next boyfriend a week
before your wedding.

Not great.

Work happens.

Why run?

I couldn't go through with it.

No -one needed no -one. I would.

I tried burying it.

But the day when it came to going, I
couldn't do it.

Why did I leave with you?

You know, how could I do it, Hannah?

person does something like that.

this is Jamie I'm on my honeymoon at the
moment so leave me a message and I'll

call you when I get back cheers

Yeah? Same here.

That's it for you.

Gary, please.

Have you ever waited in a pub for the
mate that didn't turn up?

Embarrassing, isn't it?

Imagine that time's ten and you're still
not even close. I need to speak to him.

He don't want to see you. Look, he can't
make me feel any worse than I already

feel.

Gary!

Please!

Which bit of that didn't you understand?

What can I do for you?

It's alright, it's alright.

Right.

Well now you've said it, I'll see you in
the block.

Hey, that's easy.

It's easy to show up.

What the bloody hell are you doing?

I don't want him.

So you can keep him.

Sell him.

Burn him.

And again, it might be better to return
him.

That pain in the ass, this, isn't it,
Egg?

It'd be easier just to marry him.

What are you doing here?

I need to speak to you. Who is it?

No!

Hop on the corner, King's Head. Give us
ten minutes.

Day of the wedding.

Jesus, you don't do things by halves, do
you?

Still, if he went right, he went right.

You'd have only ended up tearing bits
out of each other.

It's not that.

He's brilliant.

So what's this?

What?

This.

I mean, call it male intuition, but you
haven't come for a shoulder to cry on.

Stuart.

What happened between us the other
night? What about it?

I don't know.

It's... It was a shag.

A mistake.

We agreed.

Why? Is that simple?

Yeah. It's that simple.

We got pissed, we got carried away.

You'll get married, for God's sake.

I never promised you anything, Susie. I
know.

So what do you want me to say?

Nothing.

I don't know, I just thought that...
What?

What, Susie?

What did you think I'd say?

Oh, don't let me keep you.

Where am I supposed to be, Susie?

Who am I supposed to be with?

Eh? You turn up at the doorstep, no
warning.

I said I'd be half an hour. You'd better
get back then, hadn't you?

Look, it's... Do you know, you say you
love her and then you go and shag your

-girlfriend behind her back. Oh, but
it's all right, innit? Cos it didn't

anything. It was just a bit of fun.

You just do what you want and stuff for
consequences. Dory your life in its due.

We had sex.

What do you want me to do, eh?

Marry you?

How on form were you last night?

Talk about in there. She practically had
her hand down his pants.

Jailbait, telling you.

Hello, what's your... 18.

Yeah, right, tell it to the judge.

If she was a stunner, though, I would
have well shagged her.

You'd shag anyone.

See, this is what happens. Let a good
one go and someone else will snap him up

just like that.

Tonight, get Sam today to say we're
going out.

Yeah, hello.

Two sellers, please, love.

Excuse me. Yeah.

Excuse me. Two sellers, please, love.

Jesus Christ, I thought I was going to
be there all night.

God, he kept ignoring me. I was leaning
that far over. I was practically

sticking my tits in his face. He's like,
oh, I'm sorry, love. I didn't see you.

So much for my low -cut talk. No, I
probably did.

And he's hell of them.

Fancy more ones with no dress then.

Oh, my God. Oh, look, over my shoulder
there. Look, look, look, look.

What do you think he looks like? We
should have a word. What about his way?

looks like he fell out the old clutcher
and hit every bread on the way down.

Hey, at this point, Jesus.

Have I got somewhere else?

Yeah. Yeah.

Stop it.

Stop it, get off. You don't mean that.

Pick it in.

Get off.

What are you on about?

I don't want it.

What are you doing?

Come on.

It's for your idea. You can't leave me
like this. No.

Stop it. Get off.

You pick me up, bring me halfway across
Manchester and decide you're not up for

it. What's that all about?

I didn't want you in the first place.

We tossed for you and your mate.

I lost.

Get out.

I don't even know where I am. You could
leave things as I can.

Get out.

I'm going.

Get out.

Get off.

Pretty big bitch.

What was all that about?

Love a boy.

You ought to be careful.

Dickhead like that, anything could have
happened.

I fancied him in the club.

We had a laugh.

I was going to shag him.

It's all a block I should be with, isn't
it?

So, look, I deserve.

Yeah, Dad.

Should be a ten -minute job, this, but
the soil's full of bloody rocks.

Then she'll get back and wonder why it's
taken me all afternoon.

I wish I knew what to say, kid.

I wish I could make it all all right.

It was a lot easier when you were seven.

One big cuddle and everything was fine.

I know it's not been easy, love,
bringing up Ryan, managing on your own.

But I see other girls your age, the way
they behave, the way they carry on, and

I think our Susie's worth ten of them.

I know I'm just your daft old man, but I
reckon you've turned out all right.

I'm proud of you.

Can we try that cuddle now?

Come on, Zeus.

Don't make me get down, man. Leave.

Can I come in?

Please?

I know I always have asked for leaving
you to bring right up on your arm,

I can't take my clock back.

I had my reasons, you know. Yeah?

Blonde, red locks and an enormous pair
of tits, wasn't it?

I was Kelly Marie. Do you see much of
her these days?

I was 21.

I wanted to get pissed, have a laugh,
not...

Sit at home watching postman bleeding
part.

And his black and white cat.

Do you think that's what I wanted?

It was your decision.

You backed out of the abortion.

Because I loved you.

Because I thought, I don't know, that
we'd work it out, that we'd cope.

Because it was our baby, me and you.

If I'd known you were going to piss off
with some type before I was out on

nappies, I wouldn't have bothered.

It would be different, you know.

Have we met now?

We're just too young, that's all.

We met too young.

You still do something to me,

Susie. You know that, don't you?

You still have that effect.

That night.

The night we...

The mistake?

Yeah.

Except for it wasn't, was it?

It was fantastic.

There's still something between us.

Something that Max and Jamie can't give
us.

If you change your mind, you know where
I am.

I thought I should tell you myself
rather than, you know, some big mouth

blabbing over there.

So when are you leaving?

In a month.

I had a word with Pat and told her the
score.

She said that under the circumstances, I
didn't have to work my full notice.

Isn't it a guilt trip, Susie?

Makes sense.

You're out.

Clear my head.

Start again.

Well, if it's what you want. It isn't
what I want, Susie, but, you know, under

the circumstances, it's the best I can
come up with.

You know, you always said you'd go,
didn't you?

Vancouver, Rocky Mountains.

It'll be brilliant.

I hope to be with you.

It's your cousin, we're quieter.

Why didn't you come to me?

Talk to me if you were worried.

We could have talked about it.

Instead you make out everything's
alright till the day of the wedding and

bam, deal with that.

Sorry.

Sorry's not good enough, Susie.

I feel like I've had the shit kicked out
me.

All I ever wanted was to make you happy.

Put a smile on your face because I
thought you deserved it.

You know, when you told me about all the
stuff you'd been through with Ryan and

your family and all that crap, I just
wanted to look after you.

To put my arms around you.

I missed the fun.

It's such a laugh.

Hiya. Hiya.

What's he done this time? Sorry?

Ryan, have you kept him behind?

No. He left with the others.

Call the police. Susie, let's just try
and stay calm. Think of where he

Call the police!

We've been having some problems at home.

I was supposed to get married and I
didn't and I think Ryan...

Found it hard, but he's never threatened
to run away or anything. He normally

just sulks, you know. He's a sulking
little sod.

We've got a patrol car doing a search of
the area.

So if he's decided to go and walk about,
we'll soon find him.

Meantime, I need you to do me a list.

Friends, family, anywhere you can think
of that he might have gone.

Okay?

What are you doing here?

I want to see you.

Does your mum know you're here?

Hello? Hiya, it's me.

Jeremy, hiya.

Listen, I've got a visitor.

How long's he been there?

I wish you were still my mum.

You're not the only one, Ryan.

It was brilliant before.

Now it's just crap.

Listen.

We can still be mates, you and me, eh?

If you ever need to talk about anything.

She's messed it up.

Why does she have to mess everything up?

Did you ask her?

Why shouldn't I marry her?

Sort of.

You know, it's no straightforward, Ryan.

You've seen anything about my dad?

Your dad?

I won't ever, ever do that again, all
right?

You promise me?

Promise.

You have me worried sick.

Go on, get inside.

Thanks for bringing him back.

Don't mention it.

He missed this year.

Yeah? Well, he's going to have to get
used to it, isn't he?

Because I'm not his dad and I never will
be.

What? Go and look after your son.

Don't get your knickers in a twist.

Piss off, Jed.

What are you doing?

Him, isn't it? The ex.

The reason you didn't marry me is
because something to do with him. Jamie,

here. Hasn't it? That twat left you. For
God's sake, in the back.

What are you looking at?

For God's sake, you're going to get the
sponsor's back. I couldn't give a shit.

I could.

It's him, isn't it?

Stuart. Yeah, I remember the way you
used to talk about him. Loving your

life. Doesn't matter that he treated you
like shit.

Doesn't matter that he walked out on
you, left you with a baby.

You never stopped loving him, did you?
It's got nothing to do with him. Liar.

didn't. Liar!

Just tell me the truth, Susie.

Look me in the eyes and tell me that
bastard's got nothing to do with it.

Look at me. Get off me!

At me.

It wasn't him. It wasn't you.

It was me.

Jamie.

Jamie. Jamie.

Jamie. Listen to me.

Listen to me.

I was confused, okay?

I just had all these thoughts going
round in my head.

And I panicked.

You've shagged him, haven't you?

Just don't, Susie.

Because it doesn't matter anymore.

You know, I look at you, and even now,
even after all this shit,

it's like there's been some big mistake.
It's like someone up there has screwed

up.

Because we were meant to be together.

If there was one thing that I was sure
of in this life,

is that we were meant to be together.

Because I love you more than I've ever
loved anyone.

Well, I guess I got that wrong.

Got a couple of minutes to keep you
company.

Yeah?

Shooting.

Hang on.

Who is it? Jamie.

Some blow cases there, yeah?

No, I don't know. Some jammies.

What's the idea?

She's just shit!

She's not doing that for you!

Get off me!

Get off me! Get off me!

Get off me! Get off me! Get off me! Get
off me!

You need my life, I'll ruin yours.

Yeah, who is it? You come back here
again and you are dead.

Who is it?

Pack it in! Get inside! Who is it? Get
in!

When he first started, I didn't give him
a second glance. Well, not a bollock,

cos I gave him all a second glance.

But Cathy and Christine then had the
tongs out after him and I just saw...

It's out of my league.

Then I got to know him and there was
something there.

It's the first time it's ever happened
like that.

Nobody will shag him and then try and
find something worth sticking around

Jamie just thought I crept up on me.

That was the first time since Stuart
that I'd been in love.

I love him more than I've ever loved
anyone.

But I didn't think I was good enough for
him.

I didn't think I deserved him.

Why me?

You know, why would someone that
brilliant want someone like me?

Well, we've got some with Jamie.

Yeah, sure.

How's that?

Cheers, mate.

It's night.

Jamie's leaving, Dean.

What about it?

Listen, I'm fairly bothered, but I sort
of feel like I should go.

Yeah, no.

Don't be stupid. You've got to go, yeah.

It's fine, honestly.

Visible came through.

It's wedding business.

Taking its toll.

You're saying I've caused this? I'm
telling you what he won't, cos he keeps

things from you. Treats you like babies.

Night of your wedding?

Well, suppose wedding.

I found him in the bathroom.

Sobbing.

That big man in there, crying like a
baby.

But he didn't tell you that, did he?

No.

Cos he bottles it up.

Never lets you know how he's feeling.

And he takes it home and worries himself
to death.

They've moved him upstairs for the PT
scandal.

Okay,

that's fine.

I think I've made the biggest mistake of
my life.

Is it too late to put it right?

I don't know.

Well, you'd better find out, wouldn't
you?

Jamie I've got a heart attack, I'm sorry

I've got to talk to you.

Please.

Sorry, I need time.

Sorry I didn't get dressed up.

I didn't think I was coming.

Yeah, well, I'll let you off.

There's this all the way here, and now
I'm here.

I don't know what to say.

Jamie.

I don't want you to go.

I know I've hurt you, and I know I've
humiliated you, but I love you, I love

you, and I don't want you to go.

I've just been at the hospital.

My dad's had a heart attack.

He's all right.

But I was sitting with him, watching him
sleep and wondering what I'd do if

anything happened to him.

There was only one person that I wanted
there with me.

Who?

Oh, Jesus, Susie.

I was scared to love you, Jamie.

I was scared to let you in. I was... I
was scared. I don't know what I was

feeling. What about that dickhead?

Stuart, hmm?

What was all that about?

He just came along at the wrong moment
and made me panic.

I deserve better than Stuart.

I realise that now.

He's not the person I want to spend the
rest of my life with.

You are.

You say you don't want to get married on
your wedding day.

You say you don't want me to leave, but
my leaving do.

Tell you what, Susie, your timing's
bloody awful.

I wish that none of this had happened.

I wish that we'd just got married and
everything had been wonderful.

But it doesn't mean that we can't still
make this work.

The day I proposed, I thought I'd find
the most beautiful woman in the world.

Funny, sexy, mad as a bloody march hare,
but a beautiful, beautiful person.

You've tainted that, Susie.

Everybody started to hate you.

It was the only way to get over you.
I've left my job, I'm leaving the

because I couldn't stand the pain of not
being with you.

And now you come in and tell me I can
have everything I wanted all along.

No. No, Susie, it's all booked. I've
even started looking forward to it. But

you're just running away. Yes, I am!

You know, I'm not... Thank you, Susie,
but my life's been a piece of piss up to

now and I don't know how to deal with
this.

I don't know what to do other than run
away.

Pretend that this shit never happened.

How can I get past this, Susie?

How can I forgive you for all that pain?

We take it day by day.

We work at it.

And slowly...

All this becomes something that just
happened.

Something that we got over together.

Sorry, Jamie.

Cassius will give you 60 quid for that
flight you got booked to Canada.

Still going, mate.

Hold it. Just booked another ticket.

Really? When do you fly? Next Friday.

Jesus, you think you'll still be
together by then? Ah, bless all.

Eh, tell you what, when it all goes tits
up, I'll give you 100 for the pair.