All language subtitles for Clocking Off s03e05 Jennys Story

Ta -da!

How do I look?

Too good to be going out with a bunch of
women.

Come here.

Will you marry me?

All right, then.

Oh, I've got to go.

Bye.

All right.

Hey. And don't shag anyone.

Bye.

You good for saying? I will. And don't
shag anyone.

Thank you.

Not to take my big brother off me.

Yeah.

I feel a bit drunk.

There's a drink coming out the wall.

That was the best night ever.

When the alarm went off this morning.

How's your head, Julie?

Oh, key 103 blacking out. I thought I
was still in the club.

But it's Sam's there, it's all mine.

Best sex we've had in months,
apparently.

I can't remember.

I can't.

Oh, I made a right dick of myself with
that DJ and all. I kept asking him to

play because he was in the house. And
he's like, I haven't got it.

And I was going, sexy stuff, sexy stuff.
Play some sexy stuff. You've got 40

women down there gagging for it.

I see myself in the mirror behind it,
thinking I look like Sophie Downes or

something. I'm flirting like hell. What?
What?

Do you know something like that? Put in
a room.

We can get through this afternoon and
get yourself up to bed. I'll look after

Tom for a couple of hours, all right?

You can't put Merv de Perv on the same

table as Ledley. He'll just wind her up.
If you drink down her neck, she'll end

up twatting him.

Well, where then?

Well, stick him in my lot from work.

What about your dad and Eileen?

Dad can come top table. Eileen will have
to sit with the relish. That'll go such

a row.

Oh, she's not family.

It's good, Ed.

Look, we can only have... ten people on
the top table. There's no room for her.

Fine. It's your dad.

Sorry.

Well, I'll learn to think before I
speak.

They'd have been proud of you, Jen, if
they were still here.

You know that, don't you?

Hey, come on.

A family like everyone else.

You've got one.

I mean, I know we're all a bit all over
the place, but Mum and Dad love you.

Susie loves you.

I think you're all right.

You, me and Tom, we're a family now,
Jen.

Well, we will be if we ever get this
bloody wedding sorted.

Murray's leaving, dude.

Didn't know many were leaving. Yeah,
guard club. 30 grand a day in a company

car. No security in it, though.

Where's the dude?

11 June Palace.

Got an extension till two.

It's going to be one of them that turns
into a free -for -all. Probably.

I'm coming.

How much?

Tenner. Five for the club, five for the
pot. We're buying them a parachute,

James. Oh, fancy it, Jen.

Jen? Yeah, I just remembered I've got,
um... I've got a friend who's got more

holiday.

No. Yeah. What are they doing?

Cooling system's knackered. That bloody
oven in here. Look, even Peter's got a

sweat on.

How long will it take?

About a week, week and a half. Why?

As soon as you fancy one of them.

Look at the tea.

What about a tip?

Five minutes.

Please, I just want to talk. Help!

thinking, where is she, where is she? I
didn't think for a minute you'd have

buggered off.

I had a funny turn.

I got a panic attack or something.

I just had to get out, calm down.

I went to find the car you'd got. I
couldn't believe it. Where did you go?

I'm sorry.

I'm really, really sorry.

I don't know what came over me.

I felt really jittery.

Honestly, I feel terrible.

It was just...

I had to get out.

Sorry, Sue.

Honest, I am.

And they had no bleeding crumpets.

All

right,

cut it. I'm off.

See you later.

Bye -bye.

Have a good day.

See you, Tom. See you.

Tom?

Fancy a day off?

Susie, do you mind taking a bath in?
Tom's a bit off colour.

Yeah, yeah, he's come out in a rash.

I don't know what it is.

I'm going to have to go to the doctor.

Yeah, tell Matt that I'm ready to go,
but I should be back in on Monday.

OK.

How are we?

What kind of mess?

Loading, mate.

No, nothing.

Oh, Jenny would.

She'd load him back.

Oh, anyone!

Oh, that was my wife!

What have you done today?

Um... Your mate.

Oh, Jenny?

Yeah, I thought you were joined at the
hip.

Money. Pink Mary's due. Come on, I'm far
tense. I want it back.

Do you want to pay for Jenny while
you're at it? No, I don't know if she's

coming yet.

Oh, she better have. Put her name down,
then.

Now, today, Tom, it's just between you
and me, all right?

Everyone's going to get in trouble.

So...

You're not married yet, you know.

I don't feel like it.

Oh, come on, it'll be a laugh.

Nah.

Tom's still a bit off colour.

You go.

I'll look after Ryan.

Jen. Go on.

Find a man.

Shake his brains out.

You don't need me.

Are you window shopping?

Oh, you're joking, aren't you? Most of
these lot have found themselves, I doubt

it. I don't think we've been formally
introduced, Neil. Oh, Susie.

Here, do you want to actually drink?

Oh, loopy juice.

When you look at the videos now, you're
like, of course he's gay.

I don't know if you can feel it.

I had posters of him all over my bedroom
wall. I had a massive big one of him

with no shirt on. And his trousers and
all, so you could see all his pubes. I

used to love it.

Like right about Careless Whisper time.

My first love turns out to be a pub.

Right, I'm going on out of that. No.

Right, quick, wait.

I'll come back and you can talk for a
bit, all right?

Two seconds.

Hello?

Is my mum there?

Yeah, well, she's just gone to the
toilet. Shall I get her to give you a

No. Tell her not to get drunk.

She's far over.

All right, no problem.

What's your name again?

Brian. Good night then, Brian.

Bye.

Guess what? What?

The drought's over.

I got sex.

I got sex.

And it was great.

And he's good looking.

And he's still in my bed.

Who is it? Someone from work?

I thought, I'll tell you about it later,
right? Can you keep holding my hand for

us for an hour?

Yeah, sure.

All right.

See you later.

Your mum's a bit up and down at the
moment, so I'll tell you back in a bit,

right?

Neil,

this is Jenny.

Jenny and Neil.

Nice to meet you.

I, uh, must be off.

Well, you've got my number. Any time.

Coffee?

You don't even know him.

So? Well, it could be anyone.

You shouldn't just bring people back
here. Anything could have happened.

Well, it did.

Five times.

Then what was he doing there anyway? He
doesn't even work at our place.

I don't know.

What did you tell him?

Jan, you're being weird.

Then what did you tell him?

About what?

Anything.

Are you jealous?

I don't trust him.

You don't know nothing about him.
Neither do you.

I'll tell you what, I know how big his
dick is.

It's good enough for me.

Um... Did you tell him about Ryan?

Yes.

Is that what this is about?

I wouldn't lie about my son just to get
shagged yet.

Did you tell him about Tom?

Tom?

Well, didn't he ask where Ryan was with
you? I mean, didn't he ask about his

dad? What's that got to do with Tom?

Did you tell him that he was staying
with me?

I mean, you must have said something.

No, I didn't.

Hello? It's me.

We need to talk.

You look different.

Older.

So why did you go?

Carol. Jenny.

Yeah, well, it was Carol when you left.
I mean, you just walked out.

Carol to my brother Phil and to your mum
and dad and Callie and Steph and Ray

and everyone else that's spent the last
eight years thinking about you,

wondering what happened to you.

Why?

Why just go?

It's not a word.

It's not a call, not so much as a bloody
postcard.

They think you're dead.

Eight years.

They think you're dead.

And yet every day they hope you walk
back in.

Do you care? Of course I care. Well,
then act like it. What do you want me to

say? Ask after them. Ask how they're
doing.

Ask something, anything.

That life is over.

Carol Wood.

I'm Jenny now.

I like being Jenny.

She's happy.

She's got a friend.

She's in love.

She's going to get married.

You can't do that. Why not?

What about Phil?

What about Phil?

It's irrelevant. We weren't married.

Irrelevant?

You've ruined his life.

First he loses his son, then he loses
you. That's not irrelevant.

I didn't mean to hurt anyone.

I was in pain.

I was unhappy.

I couldn't cope, Neil.

After what happened?

There's a part of you today.

So?

What do we do now?

Why Manchester?

That's where the coach stopped.

Why are you in Manchester?

Lawton's relocated up here.

I didn't want to move, but they offered
me a good deal.

So, what happens when I go back down
south?

I see your old man in the pub and he
mentions you.

What do I say to him?

Please, Neil.

No one knows.

No one.

Not even Sam, the man I'm marrying.

I think my parents are dead.

I don't know anything about Phil.

About losing the baby.

Nothing.

It was easier that way.

I wanted to start again.

A new life.

But I wanted it to be about me and
everything else. Do you understand?

You've got to tell him the truth, Carol.

You can't marry this guy.

He doesn't know you. He does.

He knows me.

Yeah, the last few years.

But all the rest is lies.

And what if he wants kids?

He should know what you've been through.

Kids.

After what happened.

I couldn't bear to love something so
much.

To have it taken away again.

Fancy not in.

We've been mates for years.

Two women working with a bunch of men,
you've got to stick together.

And at first it was just work.

But then when me and Jeff split up, we
started going out.

I tell you, I can talk at the best
times, but with Jen, Jesus, my mouth was

going 20 for the dozen.

She's so quiet. She's like a little
mouse.

And then we started taking the kids out
together at weekends and babysitting for

each other.

And I don't know, it just develops,
doesn't it?

Before you know it, you can't imagine
not being there.

Jenny's got a kid?

An eight -year -old, Tom.

Why?

Well, she doesn't look old enough.

And I do, cheeky cat.

That's it.

Wow! That's a good throw, that, Tom.

I was going crazy. I had one when I was
a kid. They're great.

Go on, run down and get it. The other
end.

What do you want? Nice kid.

I'm looking after him for a friend. Stop
lying, Carol.

I'm not. Stop lying.

Eight -year -old son.

You've got an eight -year -old son,
Carol.

He's failed, isn't he, Carol?

See you, son.

What about son?

He's gone. Oh, he's working.

Well, when did you last see her?

Saturday, why?

She's gone.

I mean, they're both gone.

It's the wedding.

It must be the wedding.

She loves you. She's desperate to marry
you. She told me.

Then why?

Maybe she just needed some space to
clear up. No, no, no message. Not

her mobile.

She's been acting strange these past few
days.

I'm weird at row.

I mean, nothing big, but you know what
me and Jenna like. We're thick as

thieves.

This week, it's... It's been like
there's something else going on up here.

Like what?

I don't believe this.

We're getting married in a bloody week.

Jesus, she picks her moments, doesn't
she?

She's going to call it off, isn't she?

She's going to call this bloody thing
off.

What have I done wrong?

Where's Jenny? I don't know. Well, she's
your man. I don't know, all right.

Jenny's

gone.

Yesterday, no explanation, just...

I don't know what to do. My brother is a
wreck. A week before the wedding.

And she hadn't said a word.

I don't know what to make of it.

What?

Trip time.

Can you go back?

It's football after school.

You need me.

I taught the girl.

I don't want to be here anymore.

I want to go back.

I can't believe it.

She's told a lot of lies, Susie.

There's things I still don't understand.

She broke my brother's heart. Make sure
she doesn't do the same to yours.

Is that why you shacked me?

To get closer to Jenny? No.

It is, isn't it?

Yeah. You bastard!

You useless bastard! Hey, don't shoot
the messenger.

I was using you, so?

We both had fun and we both know that's
not the point.

This thing's only tonight.

Eight years ago, I took off, started
again.

I was engaged to a lad called Phil, a
decent bloke.

I was trained to be a fireman.

I suppose I loved him, but looking back,
we were so young.

We had a kid together.

Tom.

He died a few months old in his cot.

Not Mr Thick. I couldn't believe I'd
lost him.

Unreal.

Things you should never go through.

Seeing him there, still, at the funeral
with his

piney coffin.

It was like a joke.

Thinking about all the things you'd ever
do, you know, just torturing yourself

with it. Looking for blame.

If Phil was there that night and he was
supposed to be looking after him while I

was out with the girls having a laugh.

And he was supposed to be looking after
him.

We were 21.

We were grieving a dead baby.

Two of us apart.

I just walked out.

I went.

I wanted to get some distance between me
and all that misery.

He was the best friend I have ever had.
You know that, don't you?

Yes.

I've lied to you, Susan.

I've lied to all of you.

You see, I wanted to run away, my answer
to everything, but I couldn't. You see,

I love Sam so much.

I love you both so much.

I've done something terrible, Susie.

Unforgivable.

Nothing's ever that bad.

You see, I was a wreck.

And I needed help.

wandering around shopping centres, just
looking.

But they were everywhere.

They were babies.

Everywhere.

And they all looked like Tom.

And there was this one, and he was up in
his pants, his brown eyes.

Tiny black curls, and it looked exactly
like him.

It was him.

It was my little doll.

I went crazy.

I must have gone crazy.

Because I took him.

I took him.

I know it's awful, but you see, I
couldn't give him a rap because he got

And I was frightened.

And I looked after him until he got
better. And then it was too late, you

It was too late.

Ryan, take him off. What?

Substitute him! Take him off! He's
playing well. Now!

I want to play with Ryder.

Don't you talk.

Why tell me?

Why bring this into my life?

You're my best friend.

Look at you, Susie, please.

What?

What do you want me to say? That it's
all right, everything's going to be

I can't do that, Jenny.

I know what I did was wrong.

Wrong?

Wrong?

It's someone else's child.

Can you imagine what his parents have
been through? Have you got...

I thought it was mine.

Everything was perfect.

You and Sam.

Us. The kids.

It's all ruined.

No.

No, no, she doesn't have to be because
we can get through it. We can sort it

out.

You have to go to the police.

And you have to tell them everything
because I don't want any of this. I

want any of it.

And you shouldn't have that little boy a
minute longer.

I'm his mother.

No.

I'm his mother.

You are not.

So I came back.

Come with us, Susie.

Who wins?

Whose life is it going to be made any
better?

No one's.

It will just cause more pain and misery
and unhappiness.

after all these years? Do you think
that's going to make them feel any

Or destroy them?

I'm his mother.

No one is going to take him away from
me.

Get out.

Please, just get out.

So you're all back on again like nothing
ever happened?

She panicked, that's all.

If anyone understands, you should.

Why? You meet someone now, you like
them, you get on, great.

But it's not that simple anymore, is it?
Because conscious or not, you're

picking a dad for Ryan.

What she said?

Ain't about what she said. She just
wants what's best for Tom. Tom.

There's something I've got to tell you.

What?

What? I think you should call it off.
Call it off? I don't think she's right

you. What are you on about? She's your
best friend. I know you love her. She's

your best friend. And you're my brother.

How many women have I had? How many
women have I had? I'm only saying it

I love you.

I just don't want you to get hurt.

You could form a hockey team, I don't
know.

And how many have lasted?

How many had a hope and had a going
anywhere?

Jenny's different.

She understands me.

She's like the other bit of the jigsaw.

I've never met anyone that makes me feel
like that.

And I'm not going to lose her.

off your face and all.

You gave me no option. Really?

She was worried. Thought you'd done a
runner. Left her brother in the shit.

All seemed a bit familiar.

The kid. He's Phil's, isn't he?

Bollocks. Eight -year -old kid.

It all fits.

He's not Phil's. Who then?

No one.

Oh, Immaculate Conception. Nice. Someone
else.

Who? One -night stand.

Shagging the bushes. Fling. What does it
matter?

He is not Phil's.

After.

It meant nothing.

He couldn't even do it, Neil.

After we lost the baby.

Phil couldn't even.

So I'm pretty sure that it's not his.

All right?

Then why run?

I was scared.

Of you.

For this.

It's the truth.

We're finished here.

Work's done.

Tomorrow, out of your life.

Then what?

Well, you obviously don't want to be
found, so what's the point of them

you?

I'll do your deal.

I tell them what I tell them.

No comeback.

Something. Let them know you're alive.

As far as I'm concerned, it's the past.

You sort out the present.

See you around, Jenny.

Come on, tell me what you want me to do.
Come on, tell me, Susie. What am I

supposed to do?

You've got to do what's right.

McIntosh Textiles, Trenchfield.

Ten minutes, thanks.

I'll give you a lift.

Cab's on its way.

I'll give you a lift. I don't want a
lift.

It's costing you a fortune. I'll manage.

Susie. This is ridiculous.

Please, just get in the car.

Get in the car.

Susie.

Get in the bleeding car!

Where are you going?

I'm picking up the kids.

I'm going to practice penitence in the
park.

Jenny, where are you going?

To do what's right.

Is this what you want?

He's someone else's child.

I love him. But he's someone else's
child. And I love him. But he's someone

else's child!

You've ruined their lives.

You know what it's like to lose a child,
and yet you took someone's baby.

Someone's baby.

I have to live with that.

At Christmas at home, on his birthday,
the thought of him suffering, wondering

where he is, wondering what's happened
to him, assuming he's dead, but...

Never knowing, never sure.

He's eight years old, Susie.

He doesn't know them.

If I brought him back tomorrow, he
wouldn't even recognise them.

I'm all he's ever known.

So what are you going to do? Just keep
on lying for the rest of your life?

Lying to your husband, lying to your
son? You can't live like that, Jenny.

If you think this is right, let's go in.

I couldn't carry it around with me
anymore.

I wanted somebody to know.

You're my friend.

I need your help.

Ta -da!

Well, what do you think?

Bloody hell, what have you done with
your brother?

Look, dumb dad's cool a lot.

Thanks a lot, madame.

I

don't

want you marrying him.

I want you out of his life.

That's not going to happen. You're not
bringing up that kid. I want you out of

his life. I love him.

Either you go...

Or I'll tell him.

Everything.

You'll destroy him.

Disappear.

You've done it before. Start again
somewhere else. My life is here. Not

I love him, Phoebe.

I love him.

Either you go, or I'll tell him.

It's up to you.

What happened?

He's always that bastard.