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What have you done?They said

an incident. What source of incident?For

God's sake, Tom, what have you done?

Miss McKinney, please come in. Tom, you

too.

Tom attacked another boy at lunchtime. We

think he may have broken his jaw.

Why?Well, the boy can't say, and

Tom won't say.

I've been concerned about his behaviour

for some time now, but all we can get out

of him is a yes or a no. Is he like that

at home?Yeah. Or do you know

why?He's a teenager. We

think he might be a bit more than that.

We were wondering whether we should send

him along to the Bureau.

The Bureau?The Merseyside Teenage and

Mental Health Bureau.

Can we send Tom out for a minute?Yeah,

sure. Tom, would you mind?Just.

You know his history. Yes. And obviously

we think that that could be linked.

That's why we'd like the Bureau to take a

look at it. And how do we go about that?

We'll refer him. And if he could get his

GP to refer him to, that would help alot.

I'm. I'm sorry about that. I know it

looks bad. Your mum's very ill, so I hope

I sleep.

Hello.

Thanks.

Yeah, thanks. All right, yeah,

bye.

She's dad.

Sorry to have to tell you this, Joe. Your

mother's died.

Don't leave the house until I get back,

right?And you keep your phones switched

on, 'cause I'll be tracking you. Stop for

10 seconds. There's no phone for a week.

Right?Yeah. Good.

Oh.

Ellen Mum's phone.

I only phone to hear her voice, I'msorry.

From you

guys, too.

Hello.

Has Mum gone?

Yeah.

What, was it her heart?Yes.

Did you survive?No. And she died at

home. She's here now.

Well, can I come to the funeral, Dad?No.

Please.

Anna will be there. Tom will be there.

How could you possibly come?

Why?You broke it. Her

heart.

I'll write the referral, of course I

will. But there's no guarantee the mental

health team will think he's sick enough

to be seen. What do you mean, not sick

enough?There's an epidemic of mental

illness amongst children, Anna, and they

can only see the worst of them. What if

he is sick enough?First appointment, 21

weeks.

Okay, in the meantime?One of

those groups might be able to help, but

we don't recommend any in particular.

Right. I'm sorry, I can't do more tohelp.

Um.. I work in

a supermarket on the till, and

it's getting to me.

Um.. If you'd asked for a bag, I'd have

given you a bag, so stop them flying, I'm

a liar, right?I need you to sign

me off and I could do with some of those

pills you gave me last time.

I can't, Anna. You hear about Tom.

To talk about you needs another

appointment.

Right. You can make an appointment on the

way out. Right.

I want you to read at your grandma's

funeral. Peter's reading

one and I want you to read the other,

will you?

Did you love her?

Yeah. I didn't show it. Read at a

funeral.

Are you doing this to get attention?Is

that what it is?No. He's a knob. You

think you've done it for so long now that

you can't go back on it?She's a knob. Are

you doing it for a bet?

No. A day?No. There's someone at school

day to do it. No. He's

just a ginormous knob.

It's you, Shannon, and your grandad, you

knowDid you?Yeah. We were at a

concert. We were stood in a... Hot dog,

Hugh. I saw your nan looking over at your

granddad. So I introduced him,

but we got to all right. They

ended up getting married.

She was a great woman.

We therefore commit her body to the

ground, earth to earth, ashes to

ashes, dust to dust.

Hey, all G and T. So?

Hey, you want another, Paul?No, I'm good,

mate, thanks.

You're not back on, am I?No.

Just today. She'll kill ya. Yeah, I

know.

It's hard, isn't it?

It's even harder when you're full of

guilt, mate.

Yeah?

No.

I've had a few other women, Paul. Not

many, but a few.

Jodie Taylor. Jodie Taylor in there?

Yeah. Bloody

hell.

Punching above your weight there, aren't

you?Yeah. I thought

there's no way I'm ever gonna regret

this. Stark bollock naked with Jodie

Taylor.

But he's doing me inmate.

No one's perfect.

You loved your missus. Your missus loved

you. That's what counts.

He's been here all day. Yeah.

What are you doing here?You had

your lunch here?Yeah.

No teacher?No.

You've been here all day on your own.

Yeah.

I'm not having this conversation out

here. Please come in here. Yeah, OK. Tom

has been put into special education

needs. No, he hasn't, has he?He's been

simply separated from the rest of the

school. Yeah, for now, yes. And when does

that change?As soon as we can get someone

in. Not tomorrow?No, not tomorrow. Next

week?Week after that?I don't know. Right,

well, I'm going to take him home and

school him there. Because he's not

leaving. And when he's better, I want him

back here functioning normally. Right,

can we please talk about this?No, we

cannot.

Hi. Can you talk?Yeah.

You haven't been in

touch?No.

Why?

It doesn't seem right. It was all

right when she was alive, but not now

that she's dead. Yeah.

We had hurt her when she was alive. We

can't now. I

know, but it still doesn't seem

right. So what do you want to do?

I don't know. Do you want us to finish?

I don't know. There's nothing to stop us

seeing each other now. It's okay, it's a

bit soon. So we keep it secret a bit

longer, but eventually,

we can be out in the open.

Yeah?There's someone at the door, I've

got to go. Right.

So when you get out, you can't go and hit

the victim on his family. You understand

that?Yeah. So we do have an

exclusion zone, right?It's

basically anywhere within the 26th Bull

Street. He lives there, goes to school

and his mates there, his mum's there and

their family. So it's a no-go zone area

for you, I'm afraid. Can I

see you get a copy of that?Are

you looking for a job?Mum.

I sent out 28 letters and I got one

reply. It was like, do you say, thank you

for your letter, but our policy is not to

employ sex offenders.

Yours sincerely, et cetera. Am I gonna

whiff a self-pity there, Joe?No, no, it's

just, it's more of a realistic appraisal

in my current situation, that's all.

Right, I've told us any more about the

hostel?Yeah, I don't want to.

Well, have you got anywhere else to live?

No. They were not back at hostel.

Because they'll know I'm a sex offender.

Not necessarily. Oh, they'll know, and

they'll glass me like I've seen it

before, Jack. Have

you heard of St. Maurice?No.

Well, they take in men who are sexually

offended. And there's six places, but I

know there's only five there at the

moment. Well, is it a Christian thing?

Yeah. Are they going to go to church and

all that?Only on a Sunday. Whoa, Joe,

it's either these people or a tent. They

don't need you. You need them.

So we're interested?Well,

I like to put it like that, yeah?Well,

I'll have to interview you first. It's a

Catherine Farrell. Right.

Are you all right?Hiya. Right, do you

want to sit down?Yeah. So you want to

come and stay with us for a bit, yeah?Yeah

Why?I've, um..

I've got nowhere else to go. Well,

you'd have to work with us. work on

coming to terms with what you did. It

would be different from what you've done

here in the prison. Could you do that?

Yeah. And

what would you hope to get from that?

Um, forgiveness. Do you

think that's likely?

No, but what you said hope to get, nor

expect to get.

Anything else?Anything else you'd hope to

get from it?

Yeah, but it's it's like selfish of me.

Isn't forgiveness selfish?

Yeah, but it can help to forgive her,

can't it?Like

this other thing's just for me. And

what is it?

I'd rather not say, if if that's okay.

Oh, it doesn't really work like that,

Joe. You see, we expect openness

and honesty.

I had to go to sleep one night not hating

myself and to wake up one morning not

hating myself.

Like just once...

I don't know if it can happen once, it

can happen again, can't it?I've

been in the DMs.

Hello.

Hi, it's it's it's Joe Mitchell. He

told me to phone when I was on Cranfield

St. I'm here now. Yeah, it's

number 32, Joe. All

right, thanks.

Are you all right?Yeah. Come in, then.

We like to keep the address a secret, if

you could do the same. Otherwise, it's

bricks through the window and whatnot.

Right. Would you like a cup of tea?

Um, yeah, please. We want you to come

to church with us on a Sunday. Can you do

that?Yeah. And you're

not to bring anyone back here.

Ever.

Okay. Right, how do you

take your tea?So you

don't, it's not X and Y,

it's apples and bananas,

right?So four bananas

and two bananas, that's six bananas,

right?And then six bananas

over three, divided by three, yeah?

YeahSix bananas divided by three bananas,

that's two, isn't it?Yeah.

Yeah, two bananas, so say it. So

say it, son.

Please?

I still want to look at the house. Hi.

Yeah. We've started...

Started what?Eating. Oh,

all right.

Uh, I'm sorry. Do you want to sit

down?Yeah.

It's Ben, Lenny, Brian, Mike, and

Jack.

Help yourself.

All right, just... Thanks.

Hey, Lenny, sitting here beside of me,

yeah?Yeah

He fucked his 10-year-old daughter.

I read his file.

There's some good stuff, innit?

All right.

You got your file?No.

Could I read it?No.

I'd let you read mine. I'm fine. Thanks,

mate.

Hopefully this will be the first of a few

sessions that we have together, Joe. Was

it like therapy?A bit like that, yeah.

Right. Did you get loads of these in

prison?Yeah. What were they

like?Yeah, they

were good. They were shaped, weren't

they?

Why'd you go?I

don't know. Get your boxes

ticked.

Yeah. Well, I'm hoping that you're going

to find these, uh, a bit more

helpful.

In prison, they might have told you that

you'd always be as you are now, sexually

attracted to boys, no cure.

just control it. Is that right?

Yeah. We don't believe

that. We

believe that we can do more. Would

you like that?Not

today, obviously. It will take some

time.

Could you fix me?I

don't know.

And I got married and I'd just left me,

my dad and my mum.

I like come home from work and hang

around for me me turn and go out for a

pint. Every night?Yeah,

most like, yeah.

Did you have girlfriends?I had a

few of you. And were you

intimate sexually with them?

Yeah. Did you enjoy it?

Sometimes, yeah.

Did your mum and dad visit you in prison?

No, it was just me mum. My dad couldn't

even look at me, really.

Yeah, no one could. It was, um.. It was

just me mum that came to see me.

That must have been incredibly hard when

she died.

Yeah. Did you

get to see her?

No. Did you

go to the funeral?

No, I wasn't allowed.

I'm sorry, Joe.

Well, that's not more than I deserve.

Really?Well, I'm shit aren't I?

I'm just a piece of

shit

Would you like to be me?

I'm happy being me. Well, and you don't

realise how lucky you are. Like,

when... When do these, um.. When do these

sessions finish?Like, when do they end?Do

you want them to end?Yeah. Fine.

Had you done it before, what you did to

Tom?Had you done it to anybody else?

No.

Okay.

Can you tell me what happened?

What's in there?I'd like you to tell me.

Why?I'd

like to hear it from you, if that's okay.

Lots of people want to come here, Jo.

They give their right arm to be sitting

where you are now.

That's why we expect everyone here

to do their very best.

I like making things, and Tom's the same.

He's got, like, the same gene.

And I've been going around there every

Sunday, and we'd have, like, a late

breakfast. And they'd go

and wash up, and then and then me and Tom

would go into the yard and do a bit of

welding or something.

this day I wanted to show him some good

stuff on the internet, so...

So we stayed in the room, and...

And

it was warm and he had like a... Yeah,

like a t-shirt and shorts on,

and and he was all just like... arms and

legs and not not an ounce of fat

on him. Like, he was...

Like, he was beautiful.

I...

I'd been touching him for weeks. I'd

started off with, like, a

little part on the knee at the end.

and went a bit, a bit further up each

time. And he didn't say nothing.

So... So I

thought, like, you know, like,

this is it, this is...

Like, this is the day I touched his cock

And I touched it,

and he, like, he went berserk. And

And his mum and

dad came in,and his dad started

hitting me.

And I felt like I had to take it, so I

did. And then I don't I

don't know where I went after that,

but by the time I got back, there was

like a a police car waiting outside our

house.

Like, I do feel ashamed of

what I did to Tom and his parents.

I do, or...

Boy, I feel...

I feel even more ashamed of what I did to

me mum.

Why can't you do the hours that you're

doing now?Because I need to home school

my son. Well, can't you own schooling at

night?No. Why not?

Because I just can't. So what would you

like?Well, ideally, Excuse me, where are

you at?It's

down that aisle or bottom right?Oh,

thanks. Ideally, I'd like a split shift,

like early mornings and late afternoons.

I can't. I don't need anybody early

morning. And there's no sort of shift

anyway. Right. So. So what am I supposed

to do?Carry on with what you're doing.

I'll jack it in. What's it to be?

I really appreciate the overwhelming

sympathy you're displaying. What's it to

be?Well, a few of the hours I've got,

right?

Tom. Oh,

God. tom-tom.

Tom.

Peter! What?Call an ambulance! What?

Call an ambulance now! Come on, Sutton.

Come on. Come onHey. Hey

Come on. Come

on

Tom! Hey,

They say it was a crisis of help, but how

can I help?What can I do?

The mental help bureau will see you soon

and all. Did you know that?Is that why

you did it, to move up the list?

Is it?

What do you want?

It's me son. You

okay, son?Yeah?YeahWhat

have you been doing, hey?

Peter called you, I assume.

Yeah.

He's my son, too.

What have they said?They

don't think it was a genuine attempt.

I've been trying to get him an

appointment with the mental healthbureau.

This means he'll definitely see him now.

OK. I've come with nothing, sir.

Can you wreak the habit of a lifetime and

then me a tenner, please?I'll drive you.

No, I want to get a taxi. I've got no

money. You've got no money?It's your

cards these days, isn't it?

Joe's out.

HuhWhat, he got just under

forwarded half, he's out on licence.

He hasn't been around, has he?No, he's

excluded.

Does Tom know he's out?Yeah. Do

you think that's why he did it?The Bureau

will find that out.

I, um.. I..

I might have to prep my job in.

Why is that?I'm home-schooling Tom, which

means you're going to have to shape up a

bit, money-wise. Yeah, I'll do me

best.

You had anyone round?Yeah.

Any offers?No.

You think maybe that's going to be too

much?No.

Can I come in?No.

Most Merciful God, we have sinned

against you in thought, word and

deed, by what we have done, and

by what we have left undone.

We have not loved you with our whole

heart, and we have not loved our

neighbors as ourselves, and we justly

deserve your present and eternal

punishment through our fault,

through our fault, through our most

grievous fault. Amen.

May Almighty God have mercy on

us, forgive us our sins,

and bring us to everlasting life.

Amen.

Take a seat, Joe.

Now, we we want

you to be part of our community here,

Joe. At the

same time, we have to protect this

community, yes?Yeah. So you see there's a

bit of a dilemma there, you

know?Your development, your growth

versus the safety of the people. So,

we've drawn up a few rules,

my rules, not the church's, and I'd like

to outline them if that's okay. Okay

Right, so, we'd like you to come

to service, Joe, but only this one,

service at this time of day has fewer

children, you see, okay?

And you always sit here, Joe, altogether,

and not with any other members of the

congregation. And you're not to speak

to any other members of the congregation.

If they speak to you, answer them by all

means. But you're not to initiate a

conversation with anyone.

If you bump into any member of the

congregation outside this church, you're

to let us know. And if you arrange

to meet anyone, you're to tell us,

and we'll decide whether it's suitable

or not. Well, then, all that said, Joe,

Mrs.

McKinney, please come in. How are you?

I've been better.

How's Tom?He's he's OK.

He's still. not talking but he's reading

and writing and I'm not the best

home schooler but you know he seems to be

doing okay. Difficult isn't it?

Stressful. Yeah.

Have you thought any more about the

specialist school?Yeah.

He's not going. May I ask why?

Well would you send your son there?Well

yeah if he needed it. They're not what

you imagine Mrs. McKinney, they do

brilliant work with children with

specialist needs. It's... He's

still not going. You know, I

know the head teacher of Church Row Comp.

Yeah, he's not going there either. It's

got every facility that Tom could ever

need. It's got every facility because

everyone who goes there's thick as two

short planks. And I'm...

Sorry, I know I shouldn't say that, but

sod it's the truth. What do you intend to

do then?I'm gonna continue to home-school

him, and the mental health bureau's gonna

treat him, and when he's better, he's...

He's going to come back here?Yeah, and

that could take a long time. Yeah.

You know, there's Shearcross. That's a...

Well, it's a very good school. It's not

as good as Church Road, but it's still

very good. I think it would really suit

Tom.

Mm-hmmAm I right in thinking that if he

goes to another school, then he becomes

their problem?Like, he won't be able to

come back here, for instance, when he

gets better?No, he wouldn't.

Right, so how's that good for Tom, taking

him out of the school that he loves,

where he knows everyone and dumping him

somewhere strange, when he needs more

support than he's ever done?It's good for

Tom because it brings a bit of certainty

back into his life. I don't think it

does. I think it does the opposite. We

need a decision, Mrs. McKinney. It's

Churchill Comprehensive, Shercross or the

specialist school?Right, and I've made my

decision. None of them. If you won't do

it, we'll do it for you.

Why are you doing this?

You hardly see, Tom. What's your problem?

Well, if you won't do it, we'll have to

do it for you. It's the

absenteeism, isn't it?

You're actually spoiling your record,

your oh-so-precious school attendance

record. This has got nothing to do with

the absenteeism figures. Oh, it's got

everything to do with it. Now, I'll tell

you something. I'm gonna go, but you're

gonna listen to this first. This is

my son's local

school. His brother comes

here, I came here, and if you try to

drive him out, I am going to contact

every parent governor and ask them how

they'd like their kids treated like this.

They're desperately ill kids, because

that's what my son is, how they'd like

their kids treated in this fashion.

And I promise you I will do that.

like to go back to the day that you

committed the offence. Right.

Can you tell me what you were thinking?

Nothing. You said that you knew

that was the day you'd touched Tom.

Yeah. What did you think

his reaction would be?Well,

I thought he'd like him. Why?I

just did.

Prior to that, you touched his knee and

his leg, yeah?Yeah

How did he react?

He didn't. He didn't say he liked it.

No. He didn't say he didn't

like it.

No. So what made you

think he'd like you to touch his penis?

Is it too difficult to answer?

But there is an answer.

Yeah.

I've got breast cancer.

I'm telling my mum tonight.

Dreading it. She wanted me to

get married like my sister, have kids

like my sister, have grandchildren like

my sister. And instead,

I became a nun because that's what God

wanted me to do. And now I've got breast

cancer. The nun's disease.

She's going to find it really difficult.

Is there anything you can do?Yeah, a

mastectomy. I don't know when, but soon.

I'm sorry to hear that. Thank you, Jo. I

know you expect me to tell you everything

because you've told me that. No.

No, I just wanted you to know that what

happens here goes both ways.

Right, then. I'm not with silence.

You're comfortable with silence, but me,

I'm...

a child abuser. I'm just waiting for you

to speak. I

was touched up when I was 12.

You won't find her in there because I've

never told anyone.

It's in prison, it's about what you've

done, not what's been done

to you.

Would you like to tell me about that?

I used to play footy when I was a kid,

and... And

one day I got sent off, and I was alone

in the changing room.

And our manager came in and...

he sat next to me and started talking to

me and...

touching me and

rubbing me, and I came.

Like I was only 12, but I came.

How did you feel about that?

I loved her, didn't I?

A piece of shed, so I loved her.

Sorry, Mum.

Love you.

Hannah, please don't say I was here. If

you say I was here, I go back to prison.

Like, please don't do that. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. I just-- I just really needed

to see it. Sorry. You bastard

I'm sorry.

Fuck you.

We're gonna seal... The lamb.

So a bit of oil in the pan. There you go.

Not too much.

Yeah. YeahLike that.

There. And when it's hot enough,

we add the

lamb. All right.

Right now. I'll move it around so it

doesn't stick.

And then turn it over so it all cooks

through.

I saw Joe today. What?I

saw him. Where?At

the cemetery. He murdered?

Yeah. He's

excluded. I know.

What did he say?He

said not to tell anyone.

Right, that's it. Mum, you're not

cooking it. You're sealing it.

You've got to tell him. Right,

now we're going to add the meat

to the veg and mix it

all in.

Nice. I love you've got to tell

them. I

know.

You could move in here for a bit.

Might be easier to sell if it's less

cluttered to your place. Could be a bit

of a trial. Well, if you didn't

like it and the kids didn't like it and

you've still got your place to go backto.

I know about...

Jodie Taylor.

How?My

mum told me.

Your mum new here?Yeah. Oh.

Oh. How long has

she known him?Um..

since Boxing Day. Oh.

Why... Why didn't you say something?

Look, I was waiting for Mum to say

something.

Oh.

Hi. She knew.

Sheila?Yeah.

I told Joe he broke his mother's heart.

And he did, no doubt about that.

But I did, too.

So you know, then?

The seminary is right in the middle of

your exclusion area. Well, it shouldn't

be like you can't keep me away from your

mother's grave. Why didn't you

say that when we do it up?Because I'm a

piece of shit and I've got no right to

say anything. What

are you going to do?I'm going to have to

recall you back to prison. What else can

I do?See, like... You haven't just bumped

into your sister. You've bumped into the

mother of the victim. Do you realise how

serious that is?It was four o'clock on a

Wednesday afternoon and I never expected

to see anyone, let alone a woman with two

school-aged kids. But she was there!

Well, can I tell you why I went?Yeah.

You tell me why you went.

My mum was the only one in me family who

spoke to me after I was arrested, right?

She was the only one in me family who

visited me when I was put away and I

couldn't go and see her when she was

dying and

I couldn't go to the funeral when she was

dead.

I know you're expecting me to stay away

from my grave. Like, no, like, I won't.

Like, I'm not guilty of breaking any

rules whatsoever. Like, I'm guilty of

loving my mum and that's it.

I'll have to speak to some people. I'll

phone you tomorrow. Please don't send me

back to prison, Jack. Like, I won't go

anymore if that's what you want. I'll

phone you tomorrow.

Did he say what time he'd call?No.

Right. Do you want me to speak to him,

tell him how well you've been doing here?

Would that help?Please.

Hello?

Oh, thanks, Jack.

Thanks, like, I won't do anything stupid

now. Like, he can trust me, honestly.

Yeah,

right. Bye.

Paul passes and crossed the ball and I

caught it sweet on the half volley.

It hit the crossbar so hard that when we

came back a week later, it was still

rattling.

No lie, that son. Promise you. No

lie.

So this therapy today, there'll be a

machine with a light on it going

backwards and forwards. You just need to

follow the light, yeah?Why?Well,

it helps clear the mind.

Right.

Just remember you've always got one foot

in this ring. Everything's fine here.

Right.

Give me a nice memory from when you were

a child. And you felt safe.

Um..

I was about five, and

we were at Newton Park Lake, and it was

me, Anna, and my mum and dad.

And we decided to go home and start a

walk, and and my dad said, We'll

never get a bus now, it's peak hour.

And I'd never heard of peak hour before,

and it was like a wind. blown on the lake

and it was making all the water peaky.

And I thought like that, that meant peak

hour and that the water always did that

at that time of the day.

Great. This is your

safe place and we can come back here

whenever you need to. Okay?Yeah.

Okay. OkayYeah.

Tell me again what you did to Tom. Is

that okay?

I remember putting me hand on his thigh.

I hear like it because I liked it. But

every time, like, a look on his face, I

always hear his horror.

Like, I moved me hand further up,

pinging that. that the horror will turn

into joy, or it doesn't.

And

he like forces me hand away and starts

shouting, What do you think you're doing?

And then... And then

suddenly his dad's in the room and like

it only takes him like a few seconds to

work out what's going on. And

he just starts like...

Like, punching me. I'm punching me.

He'll like it 'cause I liked it. That's

what you said, yeah?Yeah

Can we go there?Is that okay?Yeah,

um..

We're in the changing rooms and...

and as much as still going on...

I'm sitting down, just the two of us, and

he's, um..

Like, he's touching me, so he still likes

me.

Even though I let everyone down, he still

likes me.

Let's go back to the light again. Then

we'll see what happens.

Did you tell your mum about the canter?

That was between us, Jo. It was... Was it

as bad as what you thought it was gonna

be?Like, was, um.. Was

anyone else there when you told her?

Yeah, yeah, I did tell

her. Yeah, it was as bad as I thought it

would be. My sister was there.

She...

Hugged me. And my mum...

just sat there and stared.

That's not good.

No. You told your secret to a piece of

shitWhat did you expect?

But you think you get something back from

God, didn't you?Aye

You gave him a life and what did you get

in return?Breast cancer. God didn't give

me breast cancer, Joe.

God's will is never done. We

pray for it every day. Thy will be done.

But it never is done.

It's man's will that gets done.

Big hairy arse man.

Come in. I'm

I'm so, so sorry. I shouldn't have said

that. Why did you say it?

I didn't want to go there, so...

Shall we go back there tomorrow?

Can't we?Please.

Yeah.

And now?He's

speaking.

Um.. He's

saying I've...

I've let myself down. I've I've let the

team down. I've let

him down. And then he

he puts his hand on on on me thigh.

What do you do?

I freeze.

And then...

he stands.

And then he puts his hands down the front

of my shorts. And,

like, I try and pull him away, but he's,

like, he's too strong for me, and he's

got...

He's got like his other hand on

me shoulder pressing down.

Sorry.

So, like, I can't I can't move off the

bench.

And, like, I think about shouting, but

but I can't because if...

If people come in, like, they'll they'll

think it's going on because they want it

to go on.

And I hear the referee's whistle

and and players' voices.

What can you see?

I'm looking through the window at the top

of the wall and I can see, like,

like twigs and clouds.

Why are you looking there?

Because I don't...

I don't want to see what he's doing

'cause it's horrible.

Well, I don't like it, but like

there's... There's nothing I can

do 'cause he's, he's like, he's too

strong for me.

You assaulted me. You

looked up to him, trusted him. Didn't

want to think he could hurt you, but he

had. Well, why couldn't I see her as that?

Well, sometimes the brain shuts out

things it can't cope with. Some

men who abuse

have themselves been abused.

So all this could go back to that. It's

what he did to me.

Possibly.

Why did he do this to you?Do

you recognize me?

Has?There's a man who

sexually abused his 12-year-old nephew.

Wanted to show me what they thought of

that, and it's not a lot, obviously.

You want to hate me now?

No. Well,

I don't mind, honestly.

Hello?Hi,

it's, um.. It's Joan Mitchell here,

Paul.

I was thinking that we we could, erm, we

could meet up.

Erm... Yeah,

uh.. Well, I can't, I'm

I'm excluded from by ours.

Oh, right. I

was thinking, you know, you know the pub,

the lion?Yeah,

when?

Tonight at six o'clock or something.

Okay, see you then.

Bye.

All right, Joe.

All right.

Jim, do you want a drink?

Yeah, I've got one. I'll have a pint of

bitter. Sorry, mate, can I have

a pint of bitter, please?Right, yeah.

Thanks. What

happened?Nothing.

How are you?I'm fine, yeah.

You?I'm fine.

No, no, I'm not. I'm not fine. I'm...

I'm a bit fucked up to tell you the

truth, Paul.

Yeah?Yeah

Sorry about it, mum.

Did you go to the funeral?Yeah. I

did to Eulasi.

Your dad wasn't upset.

She was a great woman.

Yeah, she was.

You're outside licensed, then?Yeah.

What was it like?It's 280, please, mate.

I'll just keep the change, mate. It's

fine. Thanks. Yeah, we should. Shall

we, um.. shall we take a seat?Yeah.

Paul, I'm thinking about going to the

police and and tell them that you abused

me when I was 12.

I didn't. No, I hate you for

it. I hate you for the abuse. Yeah, but I

hate you even more for what come after.

Why you abuse me, right?

Then I went on to abuse. And because I

abused, I went to prison. And because I

was in prison, I couldn't see me dying

mother. Right. And that's down to

you, mate.

I've no idea what you're talking about,

Joe. No, noYou also abused Sammy McVray,

and I know this because Sammy told me.

And if there was me and Sammy, then there

must have been more.

So that's what all this is about.

You and Sammy trying to get money out of

me. A nice little scam.

And why?Why me, Paul?

Why?What did you say?Hey.

How did you know that I'd say nothing and

do nothing?

Like I said...

I have no idea what you're talking about,

Joe. Oh, you do. You do.

You all right, it's Hannah, isn't it?What

do you want?Is Sammy there?

No.

Please, it's it's actually really

important. He's gone for a walk.

Hello. Hi, it's

it's Joan Mitchell here, Sammy. What do

you want?Just to talk.

I'm I'm actually at your front door now.

Jesus.

You out then?Yeah. Do

you want to talk about?Do you

remember Paula Patterson?

Right. What?You're

talking to that pervert?Yeah. You should

be ashamed of yourself, you. You piece of

shitDoing that to a 12-year-old

boy?You piece of shit

You filth, you scumbag.

Where do you want to go?Anywhere,

mate. I'm going to go to the

park. Why are you going to

the police?Because I think he should pay

for what he did. Why are you telling me?

Because I want you to come with me. Why?

Because he abused you as well, mate. Only

three people know about that. You, me and

him. And that's the way it's going to

stay. No way is Hannah found out about

this, mate. No way. Well, he fucked up

our lives, Sammy. He didn't fuck up mine.

Don't want to know why your life's a

mess?Because of what you did. Not him. He

wants his 12-year-old nephew. well I I

did it because Pardisan did it to me.

Hang on a minute, why didn't I do it?I

went through what you went through, so

why did nine months of someone?Honestly,

I don't know. I know. You're not gonna

like it, but I know. It's 'cause you're a

nonce

So you won't do it for me?

No. I won't do it for someone else.

He molested you and he molested me like

he could be doing it to someone else

right now.

Hey, please come with me.

No. Stay away from me house.

Right, there could be money, innit?

How?Criminal injuries.

It's too late for all that. What's that?

It's that.

How much?I don't know, it'll

be a few grand now.

Who's your favorite?Mo Salah. No.

Virgil. No. Ah, okay. Um..

Trent, Alexander, Arnold. Yeah. Why

Trent?

'Cause he's local. Yeah. It's

great when a local lad makes it, isn't it?

Yeah. I did what you were doing. It's

about your age, too. might have been a

little bit older. I told my friend a

secret, and he told someone else and got

me into trouble. So I thought,

That's it. No one can be trusted. I'll

say nothing in future. I kept it up for a

while, and they took me to a

psychologist, and he got me

talking again. He fascinated

me, and I thought, I want to do what that

man does, and now I do,

and I love it.

Not talking was the best thing I ever

did. Or didn't.

What is it, Tom?

You won't tell me, Mum?Will I need to

tell her?No.

Then I won't tell her?

You think that's what you mean like...

your uncle. You're

going to... hide each time.

You seem normal. You didn't

look like it, babe. Didn't sure

like him, did not like him, so...

Said nothing. And

then he went for this, and...

Now, my mum doesn't see him, and she used

to see him all the time. He'd

tell my brother, he doesn't see him, and

he loved him. And I don't see him-- I

don't want to see him, but I miss him.

And now Dad's gone, and so because I

didn't say something and I should've said

something. And if I didn't say it, then

why shouldn't I

know?You've done really well today.

Is there anything else on your mind?

Anything you want to talk about?No.

Okay.

stay to you. I'm getting a shower now.

I've just done those stairs. Sorry.

What, you couldn't have a shower there?

They were cold. What, they're cold and

kill you?We won, by the way.

So why didn't Sammy do it to anyone?

You say I abused because I've been

abused, but so would Sammy. Not

everybody who's been abused goes on to

abuse, just some do. So I might have done

it anyway, even if I hadn't been abused,

I still might have done it. And

I think that's why he did it to me,

because he he saw it in me.

Bare of hair, so, but we did it.

You're a child, too. I've

cope with a lie. I've I've cope with it

for years, but... all is

truth, and it's like...

this is too much for me.

Hello?Yes, please.

Here here

Hello?Hi. Hiya. I'm Jack Hargreaves. I'm

Brian Mitchell.

Brian. Thanks for coming. Would you like

to take a seat?

You're this probation officer?Yeah.

The man who didn't recall him to prison,

even though he bumped into his sister.

Yeah. Why?And

that cemetery's in the exclusion zone, so

why?Didn't the liaison officer explain?

No.

Well, we thought it was too severe to

exclude the cemetery. So Joe can go,

but it's one day, well, an afternoon, a

week. But on that afternoon, I can't go.

I won't be going anyway. My wife's in

there, and you're telling me when I can

and cannot go. I won't be going anyway,

Dad. Sorry. Look,

I'm here for me. Dad, I'm here, 'cause he

asked me to be here, and I've got no

interest in anything he's got to say to

me, but, um, I've got something to say to

him.

Did you know that my son tried to kill

himself?

No. Yeah, he tried to kill himself

because of what you did to

him. Oh, I'm sorry.

He needed help, but I couldn't get him

any because he was just the victim, you

see. But you were getting help, weren't

you?You were getting plenty of help, like

therapies galore. But my son,

my son, the bloody victim, he couldn't

get any. I'm

really, really sorry, Honor.

You were touching him for weeks, weren't

you?Like,

for weeks before you did that, you...

You were touching him on the leg, right?

Right

And you know how you got away with her?

Because you're my brother, and you're his

uncle, and we loved you. You bastard

You know, can someone you love be capable

of something like that?

That's how you got away with it.

No one hates me more than I hate myself,

Anna. No, I hate you.

I can promise you that I hate you.

And who else?My

what?Who else did you

abuse?No

one. No one, I swear. He's...

He's just Tom.

So, why are we

here?

There's something Joe would like to say.

I was sexually abused when I was 12.

You weren't. I was.

We'd have known. But I

might not have known, but your mother

would. She didn't know

that.

Who by?

Poor Patterson.

Paul Patterson's got two kids and three

grandkids. There's more chance of Mother

Teresa abusing him than Paul Patterson.

He abused me, Dad.

When?When I got sent off in the

Moorgrove game. He got the fella to open

the changing rooms and he did it in

there, honestly.

What are you going to do about it?Go

to the police. Oh, for God's

sake. You also abused Sammy McVeigh?

Do you remember Sammy's dad?

Sammy with a sweet left foot?Right. Is

he going to the police?

Yeah. Don't believe it.

Sorry, I can't believe a word of this.

And why now?

Why would you tell us that now?

'Cause men who are abused go on to abuse.

He made me what I am, and I hate him

for it. Men who are abused go on to

abuse?Son.

So my son, then?No. No,

because he's decent. Right, he's decent.

Like, you know what this is?This is you

just trying to throw even more shitThat's

what I say, even more, Phil. No, no

Someone did it to you, so that means you

can just do it to someone else, or no.

No, Jo. You did it because you're

filth.

You all right, Bri?Sammy

and Han. Why?

Need to see him. About Paul

Patterson?

Yeah. I knew this would

happen. I told you this would

happen! Go in. I told you you wouldn't

get a minute's piece, you soft bastard Go

in. I told you this would happen! Go in.

What is it?Did Paul

Patterson sexually abuse you?

Yeah. And

did he sexually abuse our Joe?

Yeah. I didn't

see it, but I saw them walking off the

pitch together and I thought he was bound

to have a go.

Did you sexually abuse my son?

No, I didn't.

But you're here, so you think I might

have done.

And that's enough for me.

That's enough for me, Brian, so why don't

you just go, please?

Just go.

We've got your son down at the police

station.

Can I go?Yeah, I'll do it. Yeah, she's

just going to take over.

I was expecting Tom. Of

course you were. It's always Tom.

No one else exists for you apart from

fucking Tom.

I want to go and live with my dad.

You want to live with your dad?Well,

there's no chance of that because he

doesn't want you. And he

doesn't want you because you're costing

money.

Do you know that he's not giving me one

single penny to keep you to?

Not one single penny. That meal

that you just, you just eaten that was

paid for by me. Doing a

shitty job in a shitty

supermarket, and there's no thanks for

so fucking ever.

Yeah, it's about him all the time, but

that's because he's ill, and that's

because he's been through what he's been

through, and I don't like it any more

than you do. But tough, that's the way it

is. And yeah, I'm a

lousy mother. And you don't have to

remind me of that, because I confront it

every day. I know I am one big, lousy

mother, but you know what?I'm one big,

lousy mother who is doing the best she

can. And I'm sorry if it's not

good enough for you, but that's how it

is.

I'm doing the best I can.

Do you want a cup of tea?

What?

I said... I said, Do you want a cup oftea?

Yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Paul Patterson, please stand.

Count one you are charged with sexual

assault for a child under 13. Contrary

to Section 7 of the Sexual Offences Act

2003, the particulars are

between the 4th of May 2006 and the 17th

of June 2006, intentionally

touched Samuel McVeigh. The touching

was sexual and Samuel McVeigh was aged

under 13 years old. To that charge, how

do you plead?Not guilty.

Count two under the same act on the 14th

of September 2006. You intentionally

touched Joe Mitchell. The touching was

sexual, and Joe Mitchell was aged under

13 years old. To that charge, how do you

plead?Not

guilty. The alleged abuse happened when

you were 12 years old. Yes. And

you are now 31 years old, is that right?

Yes. So you'd agree that this was over 19

years ago?Yes.

Yet you've only recently disclosed it.

Yes, I I wanted to forget about it, but

I've realized I can't. Did you realize

you can't forget about it after a recent

visit from Joe Mitchell?

Yes. Prior to this visit, you'd been

happily going about your life, hadn't you?

Well-- Joe put this idea in your head,

didn't he?

Well, he says he shouldn't get away with

it for any longer. And what was the first

thing you did after Joe Mitchell's visit?

I went to the police. You didn't, though,

did you?What you actually did was try to

get your hands on some money from the

Criminal Injuries Compensation Authority.

This case isn't about truth or

justice. It's all about money. Your

Honor, this line of questioning is highly

inappropriate.

I don't know how following a light makes

sure I remember things better, but... But

I did.

Like I remember he used force and his

fingernails bit into my skin, and it

wasn't nice. It

wasn't nice at all, but then, you know,

I'd done that to Tom, hadn't I?

You know, I'd done something like that to

my own nephew and

that that made me feel even worse and

made me hate myself even more.

He He went back outside and I just sat

there for a bit. And like I'd

never, I had ejaculated before, so I

didn't know what it was.

So I went into the showers. Well,

like I felt, I felt too vulnerable to

shower on my own.

So I cleaned myself up at the sink and

then, and

then I went, I went back into the

changing room and I heard like

the referees blown for full time and and

people coming into the building. And

then. And then

like the team I played for came in and

none of them said nothing to me because

I'd been sent off and I had a bollocking

from Paul

and and that was the reason why I was I

was sat there saying nothing. And

then

and then I went on with the lads that I

usually go on with and and that was that.

Did Sammy McVeigh say anything?Yeah,

yeah, on the bus, yeah, he said, Are you

all right?But, like, with a question

mark, Are you all right?

Thank you. No further questions.

You continued to play for the team after

that day. Yeah. And Paul

Patterson continued as manager.

Yeah. You continued to play for a

team... Managed by a man who you

say sexually abused you. Yeah.

And so did Sammy McVeigh.

And that was because this abuse never

happened. No, I did.

I carried on playing for the team because

they were good. But

I know that that you'll soon be hearing

from somebody. boys that I've coached

over the past 30 years or so. But

can I say this right now?

There could have been hundreds of them

here today. I mean,

I've coached hundreds of

boys over the last 30 years and not one

of them has a

bad word to say about me, apart from

these two.

And of these two, I I believe Joe

Mitchell is a stronger

personality. I

think Sammy's only here because

Joe Mitchell asked him to be here.

Think about it. This is between me and

Joe Mitchell.

So I ask you.

Who do you believe?

Me, a father and a grandfather?

Or him, a

child abuser?

The jury's coming back.

Will the formal of the jury please stand?

Have you reached a verdict on which you

are all agreed?We have.

On count one, sexual assault of Sally

McVey between the 4th of May

2006 and the 16th of June

2006, do you find the defendant guilty

or not guilty?

Not guilty.

On count 2, sexual assault of Joe

Mitchell on the 14th of September

2006, do you find the defendant

guilty or not guilty?

Not guilty.

Mr. Patterson, you have been found not

guilty. The case against you is now

finished. You may now leave the doctrine.

You got your phone?Yeah, yeah

Ready?Yeah. Wait, wait

There's nothing under.

I'm going over to it.

Come

on, boys.

So sorry, Dad.

Fancy a pint.