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You really think that she's a danger to herself?

Yes. I feel it. If you ever lay a hand on my daughter, I will make sure that

regret it.

He didn't do anything. She started it. Why did you do that?

Louis sexting's Blake. Your boyfriend Blake?

That's why he kept liking all her thirst traps on Instagram.

Why wouldn't you let me in on what you were going through? Like you and Dad let

us in on things? When was it that you told us why you were splitting up?

You saved her life.

Thank you for creating a place like this.

I fucked up. I let Lucy see Alex.

You what?

She has no friends.

She only has us. But I managed to connect to her.

Finally, she's talking to me. She's starting to trust me.

Every six days, a woman in Canada is killed by her intimate partner.

Countless others endure physical, emotional, and psychological abuse,

silence and isolation.

This is not the legacy that we want to leave for our daughters and for my Lucy.

So today, we raise our voices in unison and we say, enough is enough.

action from our government.

Well, it's that time of year again. The leaves are starting to hint at a change.

Back -to -school season is upon us. Good one.

And with that, school supply lists are dropping, and it is a bloodbath out

there. Inflation is hitting harder than a pop quiz.

Well, lament no more, because I am here to share my back -to -school shopping

tips. Tell us your secrets, Jill.

Well, for starters, my tip is to shop early and shop smart.

Back to two.

Hey. Look, I'm not asking you for anything.

Obviously, you are in the thick of it right now, and I couldn't possibly

understand.

I just want you to know that I am here for you.

Okay, whatever you need.

And I'm saying that as your friend and colleague.

Part of me that's in love with you... Fuck that guy, okay? Forget about him.

Don't worry about him.

It's the part of you that's in love with me that I'm worried about.

Why do I get the feeling that was goodbye?

Goodbye, Manny.

I take it you're not getting any sleep either.

Why is Lou so fragile?

Did I push her too hard?

Did I expect too much? Is it because we...

Split up?

Rationally, we must recognize that it's not our fault.

I mean, we never argued in front of them. We never bad -mouthed each other.

I mean, geez, I even moved right next door so we could stay close. What more

could we have done to make it easier on them? By telling them what was going on

between us.

They had to figure it out themselves once Naima moved in.

I think that hit you the hardest.

I had no objection.

Then why dwell on it?

Because what does that say about your dynamic with them? Your dynamic with

What are you trying to say?

I don't know. I'm just... I'm wondering if Lou is insecure

because of your chronic avoidance of her.

By what?

By your own admission, you didn't want another child.

When she was born, you were angry. Angry with me, fair enough, but you wouldn't

go near her.

He wouldn't hold her.

You've always struggled with that.

Maybe Lou sensed it.

Maybe that's why she lacks self -esteem.

Mr. Daniels, Miss Walker.

We're just trying to piece together what led to Lucy's emotional state.

The principal said that you had a few sessions with her when her grades

slipping. I did.

At our first meeting, you should know.

And, of course, I shared this with Principal Gleeson.

Lucy flirted so aggressively with me that I suggested she speak with a female

colleague instead.

Jesus Christ. I think she was just testing whether she could trust me.

But once I called her out on it, she stopped deflecting and opened up.

She had recently withdrawn from her sports study program, citing immense

pressure. She was particularly distressed.

about falling out with friends.

Lucy exhibited a tendency to belittle herself.

That said, on our subsequent meetings, she seemed to have improved.

She mentioned having a boyfriend, and her outlook seemed positive overall,

genuinely optimistic.

I found her demeanor convincing.

Did she say anything about us?

Like many teenagers, she oscillates between viewing you as superheroes and

finding you nagging or overbearing.

But what I gleaned from it is that you are actively involved in her life, and

that's a good thing.

Catch you later?

Stella.

Is Lucy okay?

We haven't seen her around.

No. No, she's not. She's going through a really rough time.

Look, I was hoping that we could talk.

I don't know. I get it. It's uncomfortable. But I'm just trying to

why Lucy would hurt you the way that she did.

Because she was jealous.

Jealous of... What?

I don't know. She just didn't feel good enough, I guess.

I think that's why she started acting out all of a sudden.

What do you mean all of a sudden? When did this start?

I guess it sort of started around the second qualifying round for the

score brought down her team average, dropping her into a lower division.

So Josie had to change her routine.

And Lou, she just lost her spark.

After that, she became so angry.

And she started taking it out on us.

On me, mostly.

That's when I found out she was texting my boyfriend just to hurt me.

What are you doing with my phone?

After that day, she stopped coming to gymnastics.

And that's when she met that older guy.

I'm sorry, Mrs. Walker. I have to go.

Thank you.

Do you have any idea how much the sports study program costs?

Of course I do.

Then how do you justify dropping Lucy after one bad day of tryouts?

Tryouts? That was over four months ago. She told me that she quit to focus on

academics. Now I know that you just gave up on her.

Do you realize how humiliating that must have been?

Do you even get how vulnerable kids are at this age?

Sports is meant to teach resilience, and I'm sorry Lucy just doesn't have it.

She gave up on herself, and she would have taken the whole team down with her.

This is high school, not the Olympics, for Christ's sake. Look, no parent wants

to see their child fail, but gymnastics is demanding.

It's competitive. It's my job to push these kids to be their best, and to tell

them the truth when they just don't have what it takes.

That takes courage.

No.

It takes courage to believe in someone who has given up on herself.

And if you don't have that, you better find the balls to tell her mother about

it.

We've been keeping a close eye on Lucy over the past few days. It appears she's

suffering from major depressive disorder, or MDD.

Sorry.

Parking was a nightmare.

She's my partner. I thought she should be here for this.

Very well.

We feel Lucy is currently at high risk for self -harm.

While... Recent events have contributed to her depression. It's possible that

there are deeper underlying issues at play.

For example, unresolved trauma can dysregulate the body's stress response

system. When can she come home?

We've started her on antidepressants, but I'd like to keep her under

a little longer.

Why did you bring me here? I want to go home.

We want to help you to get better.

It's not helping.

I hate it.

I'm begging you, please get me out of here.

Come home to mama.

Procedure now.

Procedure now.

Come home to mother.

I shall burn down the heat. I shall take away every

morsel to eat.

I shall turn every field into stone.

he gets out of the hospital, we're splitting custody 50 -50.

We'll get the lawyers to draw it up. I'm not going to stand by any longer while

you try to shut me out of my daughter's life.

Look, I wasn't trying to accuse you of anything. I'm just trying to figure out

what's going on with Lou. Look, I'm tired of being blamed for everything

you act like you are above reproach.

Do you even know how your decisions have impacted my life?

We already had a child, Nick.

It's not like I... I didn't want another child. You knew that.

I just needed some time to process it, to forgive you.

Does that make me a bad guy?

Is that why you kept me away from her? To punish me?

Or to prove yet again that you were the super mom, the super woman?

The one who's really in control?

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Abigail Walker?

Is this really necessary?

So it came as a complete surprise, then.

Sorry, what came as a surprise? You were telling me your reaction to being

awarded the Order of Canada in June.

Oh, uh, no. I mean, yes.

It was a complete surprise.

Let's have a look at some of the highlights of a career marked with

initiatives and achievements and progress and justice.

Enough is enough.

Sorry about that. It's good to know it really does happen to the best of us.

Hey, Jonathan. It's Abigail Walker. How are you? Hey, Abby. Great to hear from

you. Yeah, how are your classes going?

It's busy, but you know.

Great, great, great.

I have a little favor to ask you.

So?

What do you think?

What do I think about what?

Circus school.

I mean, you've always loved the circus, and you're so talented.

What about gymnastics?

Gymnastics?

I don't know. It's just, it's a lot of pressure, isn't it?

Well, yeah.

With tryouts coming up, plus midterms and everything, it's hard to find time

train. Isn't gymnastics more of a stepping stone to this?

I mean, you're more than an athlete.

You're an artist.

So I thought, why wait?

You mean now? Yeah. It's the middle of the semester.

The director said you can enroll anyway.

Just show them what you got, and I bet they will jump at the opportunity to

you. You think so?

Hell yeah.

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death welcome to the show thank you so much for having me it's great to be back

in toronto

Excuse me, but what is going on with the new guy that has you all up to here?

What? Nothing. I'm just out of it. Now, I see you. I see him. I see you seeing

him. I see you. Hey there, Kat.

We're in a room full of mics that leads straight to HR.

I never said a thing.

Express and change for food, ma 'am.

I'm pregnant and I have nowhere to go.

I left my guy because he was a fighter.

You know what I mean?

Had to get my baby out of there if we're going to stand a chance.

I know, Stephanie.

How do you know my name?

You told me, didn't you?

Do you want to come with me? I know a place where you could stay. It's safe.

Go with me.

How are you sure she has borderline personality disorder?

Was she assessed?

You'll understand when you talk to her.

Well, we don't have the resources to accommodate mental health cases. I know,

but we have to. We need to launch a program for it.

Okay, well, that requires funding and more personnel. We'll recruit more staff

and we'll double our fundraising goals.

With the election looming, the premier has no choice but to back us if he has

any hopes of re -election.

And I have a meeting with the minister to discuss a subsidy.

I'll arrange one with him this summer.

And all signs point to a cabinet reshuffle on the horizon.

Don't you think?

Jesus, Abigail, slow down.

doing here well i have an idea what kind of idea i think you should consider

quitting your job but you've always told me you wanted me to be independent yeah

so that's where my idea comes in i will pay you a salary to focus on your

studies plus the bonus if you get your grades up it has been a lot yeah i don't

think i can do this circus program audition tomorrow

I don't feel ready.

You don't need to prepare anything elaborate. The director just wants to

what you can do.

I'm struggling with my new routine.

And national gymnastics trials are next week.

Well, then do an older routine you feel more comfortable with.

And what if I get in?

What about gymnastics?

And what about my friend?

We'll cross that bridge when we get to it. I need you to believe in yourself.

Can't make this deal with me, Lou.

She's got a strong foundation.

You can definitely work with her. You just need to discuss some accommodations

for her support study program, and her academic performance requires a little

bit of attention.

Her grades won't be a problem, I promise, Jonathan.

Josie is going to understand.

No, it's not that. I just, I don't want to stop gymnastics.

I know it's been hard, but I really think I can be better if I focus and put

the work.

I can do Circus Academy next year, maybe.

There might not be a spot for you next year.

I know, but this is what I want.

Sweetie, your friends are still going to be your friends. You'll meet new

friends in circus school.

I just think that the circus is what you need right now.

I thought it was supposed to be my choice, because it's starting to sound

it's yours.

You're right. I'm sorry.

It's just... Never mind.

Okay, I'll see you later.

Have fun.

Trying to make me late for trials?

No, I just can't find my, uh, my lid.

Wait, hold on.

Yes.

Ultimately, it is your choice.

But can you tell me the real reason that you're backing out of the circus

academy?

I'm scared.

What?

Of what?

That I'm not good enough.

Honey, they already want you.

And circus isn't about comparison like gymnastics.

It's about creativity and teamwork.

I mean, wouldn't you rather be a part of something that's about creation and not

competition?

There's always competition.

Have you seen those girls at the academy?

They're all tall and graceful and beautiful.

I stick out like a sore thumb.

Sweetie, you are beautiful.

No, I'm not.

Lou, oh my God, you are stunning.

Trust me.

You're my mom, you have to say that.

Plus, I'll never be as beautiful as you.

Well, that's not how I see myself.

I'm not even close.

If you feel that way, maybe we need to trade perspectives.

You look at yourself through my eyes, and I'll look at myself through yours.

That was great.

He's cute. You should invite him to your party.

Mom. Mom. What?

Did Lucy tell you guys how well it's going at circus school?

No, but we can tell.

I'm honestly so proud of her.

Okay, I need at least, like, everything you're wearing right now. What are you

up to?

Oh, just a little work party.

Speaking of which, aren't you running late?

Loud and clear.

And remember, you don't have to drink nearly as much as you think you do to

a good time.

We heard you the first time.

We should have the party ourselves.

I'm going, I'm going, I'm going.

Bye. Bye.

To the number one morning show, not to mention reigning supreme

among women in the 25 to 54 demographic.

Well, when I was there, I think she was talking to that circus dude.

You don't mind if our elbows are touching, do you?

No. Okay.

It's kind of a kink of mine.

Elbow touching.

You have a look about you.

Do I?

What kind of look is that?

Thank you for reminding me.

Reminding you of what?

How much I enjoyed that.

By that, do you mean the intertwining of two souls meeting in the thrills of

passion?

No, you're welcome with this.

I can't happen again, though.

What? But...

Once is really not enough to experience the full breadth of my sexual talents.

Oh, wow.

Then we better make it a doubleheader.

Because after tonight...

See that sentence?

It's too long. It obscures what you're trying to communicate.

Lou, we're trying to get your grades up here.

What are you talking about? This couldn't be more clear.

Yes, it could, and you could make a stronger argument.

If it were me, I would say, what distinguishes literature from other art

is the ease and precision with which it can simplify complex subjects, like love

and death.

This whole other part is redundant.

So, I was thinking about how I want the kids to be in Ottawa when I receive the

Order of Canada. Yeah, I thought that was the plan.

Well, I was thinking that I want their father there, too.

Maybe we could go out for a nice dinner and celebrate Lucy's academic success as

well. I mean, Naima's more than welcome, obviously. You know that she works

weekends. Besides, I'm sure that wasn't what you had in mind. Well, just tell

her she's invited.

I think the kids will love it, and I would love to have the whole family

together.

What do you have?

Your dad's going to pull a classic move and order something you saw at another

table. Okay.

And your mom's going to get stuck in manual limbo, regretting her choice the

second she sees mine.

And then I'm going to ask you to switch.

Why aren't you guys together anymore?

Where did that come from?

Uh, well, um, we split up because we

weren't in love anymore.

And we were more like friends, you know?

And we thought it would be easier on you guys if we said that we were just

taking a break and Dad moving next door was only temporary.

But we knew that was a lie, and we should have been honest with you.

It's too bad.

You guys make a cute couple.

And that's why you were blindsided when Naima showed up.

It must have seemed like it came out of nowhere, but you can't fault your father

for wanting to move on, right?

At that point in time, your mother and I weren't together. I know, I know. She

talked to you both first, but everything happened so fast.

Okay, uh, we gonna order or what?

Right? Santa Tartar? That looks good.

Hey, no duck faces, this is for Instagram.

Thank you so much.

Oh, I haven't. No, you haven't.

Can we go to the outdoor concert at City Hall?

Uh, you know what? We have an early start tomorrow. The ceremony's at nine,

don't think it's a good idea.

I wouldn't mind checking out the concert, too.

Okay. Well, as long as you guys stick together and no fighting, please.

What do you mean?

We never fight.

And back to the hotel as soon as the concert's over.

Yes, Mother.

Good night.

Good night.

Why did you tell him that we weren't in love anymore?

I just thought that it was time to be honest with him.

Might have been honest for you, but I was still in love with you.

The breakup was tough on me, but so was parenting with you.

You made me feel like I couldn't do anything right, especially with Lou.

You held it against me that I didn't want her at first, and that I couldn't

her in my arms.

If I could go back, I'd change all of that.

You know, it was hard for me, too.

When I moved in with you, I knew it was over between us, but I just kept asking

myself, why her?

Meaning?

She's so different than I am.

Just easy with her.

We're a team. I feel supported, accepted, seen.

And when we make love, we...

She knows how to let herself go.

Wait, let herself go?

As opposed to what, exactly?

Yeah. I mean, come on, you know.

No, I don't.

We talked about this all the time.

Well, then remind me.

Those times when we really took our time, you know?

When we really made love and let ourselves go.

Afterwards, you...

Jumped out of bed right away.

It was uncomfortable for you.

You had to put some distance between us, like the connection was too much for

you.

So what? It was 17 years of bad sex?

I'm not talking about sex.

I'm talking about intimacy vulnerability.

It's just not easy for you, that's all.

Night.

We'll let you know when we get through it tomorrow.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Uh, yeah.

Okay.

All right. Me too.

I just want you to know... I think you're a good man.

And I think you're a great father.

Never let myself go.

Not even once.

I know.

On a scale of one to ten?

Nine. Nine?

I haven't even looked at my phone.

Even though I'm not thinking about the kids.

Definitely a six. Oh, my God.

Oh, it's Felix.

Hey, are you heading back?

Mom, I don't know what to do.

Lou's getting hammered with some guy at the bar, and she won't come back to the

hotel with me.

What? Put her on the phone.

Can't see them anymore.

Where are you?

Grenade on York Street.

Okay, well, just stay there, okay? I'm coming.

What's going on?

Hey, it's Lucy.

Leave me a message.

Lou, call me right now.

It's Lucy.

Leave me a message.

Lucy, please call me.

Oh, my God. I've got my phone synced to hers. I can track her location. Oh,

shit. What's this? What? No, that was last time. What does this guy look like?

How old is he? I don't know. Like 30, maybe? 30?

And you let him walk out the door with her? I tried to stop him. It's not that

small. Panicking won't help, Abby.

Of course he's going to do that. What the hell was I thinking? What the fuck

we do, Nick?

Yes, she was last seen with an older man.

I think they took off that way.

We'll search the parking lot near the train tracks.

Lots of folks go there to... I'm going to head back to the hotel.

Are you serious?

No, that's a good idea. Just tell us if she shows up, okay? Come on.

Son of a bitch.

What's the problem, officer?

She's a child and she's intoxicated. You fucking pervert.

Jesus.

Oh, my God. Are you okay?

I am.

You know how old she is? She's 15.

She told me she was 19.

Are you blind? Calm down, sir. We don't want you in trouble, too.

Why did you do this?

Abigail.

Answer me, Lou.

What was it?

Was it all too good?

Were we all too happy and you had to mess things up?

I didn't raise you to be like this, did I?

What? Tell me what I did wrong. Tell me what I'm supposed to do with you.

I'm completely lost. I'm just so ashamed.

Just say it. It's okay.

I'm a disgusting slut. I know how you see me.

How could you say such a thing?

Listen.

Look at me, sweetie.

Nobody here thinks that about you.

I took at school.

I only got into the circus program because the director is one of her fans.

I'm never going to be like you.

Like what?

Perfect.

I know you want me to be, but I can't.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm sorry.

For over a decade, Abigail Walker has been a transformative force in Canadian

society. Her unwavering advocacy for survivors of domestic abuse,

through her groundbreaking Fight of Our Life march, has empowered women of all

walks, providing them with the tools to heal and rebuild their lives.

A model for all of us, Abigail embodies the spirit of service and compassion,

and so it is with great honor that the Governor General invests Abigail Walker,

into the Order of Canada.