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Here it is. I found it. William's stupid
new pen.
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It's a limited edition Mont Blanc Andrew
Carnegie pen.
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Oh, my God.
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This thing costs $5 ,000.
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How much is the firm paying him?
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Hell, I want to know, too, because they
rolled up in a new 7 -series BMW last
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week. Hmm.
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Is it just me or is William looking more
and more like my second husband?
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Why don't you marry the first one first?
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What? A girl can't have a five -year
plan?
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Being diagnosed with AIDS five years
ago.
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definitely enhanced my perspective on
living.
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A lot of people are alive, but they're
not living.
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They're existing.
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They're just here.
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Living is taking one tiny moment and
making it into an
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eternity so that you never lose it.
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It means...
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Putting a value on every breath you take
so you might take another one.
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And I didn't view it that way before I
was diagnosed.
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Being told that I have AIDS had to be,
no,
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it was the most terrifying moment in my
life.
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It's not a moment that I asked for.
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And I'm not happy about it, and I'm not
supposed to be.
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But I have to deal with it.
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And at times, it's not the easiest thing
to do.
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Here you go, Tony.
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Okay, Lynn, what's up?
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You never buy the drink.
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I mean water.
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I need you to fly to Virginia with me.
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Sandy's been avoiding me again, and I'm
going to go down there and drag her butt
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back here. Why, to help you with your
little documentary?
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My presentation to the Phillips
Foundation is next week, and they're
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need to see some footage if we're going
to get this grant.
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Ask Joan. She's a supportive one.
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I'm the cute one, and as you can see,
I'm doing my job.
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Joan can't go. She swam to work.
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What about Sinbad?
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His name is Savad, and he's at a poetry
slam in Oakland.
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Tony, I really need your support.
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Sandy already rejected me once.
Actually, twice. Remember, she did give
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at birth.
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What? She didn't?
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Tony.
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All right, all right, I'll go.
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But I'm not going to hold your hand.
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Seeing how this hand will be in first
class and that one will be in coach.
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Hell no.
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What's his assistant making?
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Hello?
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Oh, you like it.
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It's my new Cartier steel roadster.
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I was going to go with the gold tank
Francaise, but a little too bling bling.
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Way too much ching ching.
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Hey, Maya, have you seen... Yeah, yeah,
I heard bling bling ching ching.
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Look, William, I don't like to deal with
Daddy, okay?
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I want to be your new assistant. You
need one. I need a raise. You know I'm
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good. What do you say?
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Maya, you know it's frowned upon for
lawyers to steal assistants from other
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lawyers. Not to mention Joan's going to
kick your ass.
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Joan is my friend. She will understand.
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No, she won't.
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But on the odd chance she does give you
her blessing, you're hired.
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Provided you survive the ass -kicking.
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I just saw William's new office. Can you
believe he has a $40 ,000 decorating
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budget? I can't even get a new stapler.
Maybe William will buy you one.
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Find out how much you make.
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Oh, my God.
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This is twice what I make.
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They've given him everything but the
senior partner title. Oh, God. Yeah.
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Uh, listen, Joan, there's, uh, something
I need to talk to you about. Aw, damn.
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You got the title?
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No. Oh, phew.
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All right, look, it's just that, you
know, this past year has been really
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for me. Girl.
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For me, too. Please tell me that this
includes his year -end bonus. Joan,
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please. I'm sorry. Thank you.
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What?
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It's just, well, you know, when Darnell
and I split, I was lost.
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But with your support, I was able to
move on.
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And we'll see, that's just the thing,
Joan.
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There comes a time when you...
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gonna go upstairs and demand a new
stapler.
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Hey, Joan. Oh, my God.
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William, you would think with what
they're paying you, you could afford to
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knock. Actually, with the free reign
they give me around here, I don't have
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Look, here's a novel idea.
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Defunct before you come to work.
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I have to pull an all -nighter.
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Some of us still have to work for a
paycheck.
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I've seen your paycheck.
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You're working too hard.
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Did Maya talk to you last night?
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She did, and, you know, I'm really proud
of her.
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I mean, she has gone through a lot in
this past year, and sometimes it's
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hard to embrace change and move on. But
she is doing what she's got to do.
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Wow, Joan, I'm amazed you're taking this
so well.
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Taking what so well? The fact that Maya
wants to be my assistant.
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She never told you, did she?
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This is why I try not to travel south of
the Mason -Dixon line. Always giving me
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root flashbacks.
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God, look at this place.
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Sandy must be loaded.
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Hey, somebody needs to tell Chicken
George and Fiddler they don't have to
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this abuse.
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They's free now.
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Tony, don't start. This is my mother's
house.
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That's right.
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One of those men could be your pappy.
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I brought you along to be supportive,
not to make an already awkward situation
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even more... Shoot, you think?
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Good afternoon, ladies.
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If you're here about the kitchen
position, it's already been filled.
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Hold on! Do I look like I work in a
kitchen?
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I've never even been in my own kitchen.
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We're looking for Sandy Bickle. I'm
afraid my daughter's a little under the
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weather. She's not quite up to company.
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Oh, my God, your daughter?
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You're my grandmother.
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I'm Lynn Searcy, Sandy's daughter.
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Honey, you must be mistaken.
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My daughter doesn't have any children.
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Listen here, lady.
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Just because she was a mistake doesn't
mean she's mistaken.
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I think it's time for you and your
friend to leave.
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Look, I just traveled 2 ,000 miles.
Coach, not first class.
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To see Sandy, and all I need is five
minutes of her time.
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We're working on a documentary together,
and look, I don't mean to seem
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disrespectful, but I have come just too
far to turn around and go back now.
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She told you she made documentaries?
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Why don't you come around back? I want
to show you something.
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Why, we got to go around back.
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If she tries to put us to work, I'm
going to go Nat Turner on her ass.
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This is Sandra's room.
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Oh, here are some chapters from her
unfinished novel.
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This is from her Van Gogh phase.
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Now, last year, these cages were full of
cats and rabbits. She was trying to
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breed rabbits.
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I thought my mom was crazy.
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My dear, Sondra is bipolar.
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She disappeared a couple of months ago
during one of her manic highs, and I
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assumed she was making candles again in
colonial Williamsburg.
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I guess that's when she was looking for
you.
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Well, I can't believe all that stuff
about her documentary was just a lie.
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She's a nutcase.
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That's why she had to give you up.
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Well, that and the fact that your daddy
was some colored fella she met on a bus.
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Okay, now you're just being hurtful.
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A bus?
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Bipolar? I never picked up on it.
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She seemed a little eccentric, but...
Mama, are you in my room again? Damn it,
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can't I get any privacy?
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Oh, my God.
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Hey, Sandy.
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Why'd you come here?
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Well, I've been working on a
documentary, and we're up for a grant
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Phillips Foundation.
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And I need your help.
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Excuse me.
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I am so sorry I'm late.
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Maya? Yeah, yeah, yeah. I had an
interesting conversation with William
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morning.
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Is there anything you want to tell me?
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Yeah, just that William is a big, fat
liar.
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Why did you do this to me?
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Joan, I'm sorry.
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Doesn't loyalty mean anything to you?
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Joan, my loyalty is to Jabari.
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First, last, and always.
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Look, we know how much William makes,
all right? And I need the extra money
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assistant will get.
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Jabari's tuition goes up every year,
plus you know I want to go back to
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and get my degree.
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Joan, please.
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William won't do it without your
approval.
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You're right.
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So how about I ask the firm to give you
a raise?
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How about you can't even get a new
stapler?
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How about I pay you the difference out
of my pocket?
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Well... What?
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So it's not just about the money? No,
no, no. No, it is. It is. It is. It's
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there's the right now money, and then
there's after William makes senior
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money.
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So you don't think I'm going to make
senior partner? Of course you will.
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Eventually.
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John, come on, girl. Look, you said it
yourself.
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You know, they've given him everything
already except the title.
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You know, and it's in my best interest
to attach myself to someone who's on the
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fast track.
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It's not personal, John. This is
business.
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Would you please tell William that
you're okay with this?
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I can't afford to lose my assistant
right now.
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Nothing personal.
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Just business.
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Come on.
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I don't think they're coming back. Maybe
we should just go.
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I'm not going until I talk to Sandy.
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Well, you can mope around here if you
want to, but I'm taking my ass back to
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cold side of town before it gets dark.
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Look, Lynn, I'm sorry about Sandy, but
the fact is, none of us can choose the
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families we're born into.
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And I should know that better than
anybody. I grew up with an alcoholic
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who even on her sober days dressed like
she was drunk.
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Sweetie, but I've had to learn to love
her for who she is.
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Just like you're going to have to learn
to love your mother for who she is.
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What?
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Total fraud?
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Got me involved in a stupid documentary
and then left me hanging?
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But at least she inspired you to start
the documentary.
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Everything after that has been all you.
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You just have to see it through, and I
know you can do it.
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What if I'm just like her?
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I mean, look at all this stuff she
starts and doesn't see through. Come on.
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That's me.
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Lynn, we are not our mothers.
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Do you see me down at Marshall's trying
on a polyester pantsuit?
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Or catching the Holy Ghost at a tent
revival?
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No, you don't.
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And you never will.
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And you, sweetie, I've never seen you
more passionate and focused about
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in your life.
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Lynn, you found your calling.
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Don't throw it away just because she
isn't what you thought.
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You know you're tripping.
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She betrayed me.
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Take it from someone who's fresh off the
plantation.
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Emancipate her. Let your people go.
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But I would... It's no but, Joan.
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Let the girl make some money. I know
what you're paying. You should be
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It's not me.
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It's the firm. Oh, I see. So you're just
the overseer speaking for Matthew.
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Okay, Tony.
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Enough of the slavery references, okay?
I get it.
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I'm going.
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Nice pen, huh?
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Why don't you see that? Stop.
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See with your eyes, not with your hands.
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Maya, can I talk to you?
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Do I have a choice?
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No, you don't.
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Maya,
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I just wanted to tell you that if you
want to go and work for William, I'm not
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going to stand in your way.
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And about the things that I said... No,
look, we both said some things that we
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just didn't... Let me finish, okay?
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Look, it hurt, but you were right.
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William took some risks, and I paid off
for him, so I'm not going to fault you
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for wanting to go work for someone whose
career is going somewhere.
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Joan, you're 31 years old, and you're a
junior partner at one of the most
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prestigious law firms in L .A.
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You have a career that you can be proud
of.
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You know, that's just it.
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You know, you have a career.
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Tony has a career.
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Hell, even Lin's ass found herself a
career.
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And what do I have?
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I have a job.
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And that's just not good enough for me
anymore.
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You know, that's why I need the extra
money, Joan.
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To go back to school so that I can have
a career of my own.
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How can I help?
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By just being there and being my friend.
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And by watching Jabari three nights a
week when I go back to school.
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Can I have everyone's attention, please?
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Someone once told me I'm dying.
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Black women like me are dying.
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And AIDS is our killer.
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I took that as a challenge.
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And this presentation is my answer to
that challenge.
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I've put together a portion of my first
documentary titled Lives in the Balance,
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African American Women and the AIDS
Epidemic.
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With funding from your foundation,
hopefully we'll save a life.
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I'd like to thank you all for coming out
tonight.
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And give a special thanks to the person
who inspired me to become a filmmaker in
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the first place.
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Thank you, Sandy.
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Now this speech is getting longer than
my presentation, so I should roll it.
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Hi,
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my name is Carla Bailey.
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I have HIV disease.
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I was diagnosed in 1989.
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All I could say was I didn't want to
die.
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HIV is now the leading cause of death
for African American women between the
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ages of 25 and 34.
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So the first thing you do is you break
down and you cry like a baby.
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And they try to control you, but you
don't hear nothing past you have.
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Black women now account for 33 % of all
new AIDS cases among African Americans.
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One in three go to the football stadium
or just sit and watch the Super Bowl.
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And just imagine all those people, one
in three.
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Black women are leaving this planet
faster than ever.
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So I want to be in the battlefield.
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You know, I'm not going to just die
quietly or not fight this thing.
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I want to help people know that they can
prevent it. I want people to know that
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they can live with HIV.
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And I want people to...
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not be prejudiced or get opinions about
people with HIV.
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So that's my story.
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Epidemic.
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She got the grant.
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What? Your daughter. The grant from that
foundation?
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It's on their website if you want to
take a look.
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who I am.
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I'm proud of my life.
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I have a wonderful family that supports
me. I have friends who encourage me
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every day. I have two magnificent kids
that say, they say,
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Mommy, you're my bestest friend.
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They say that.
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Even when I'm mean to them, they find it
in their hearts to say that to me.
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That gives me strength.
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You know?
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And I'm going to be damned if I let
something like AIDS break their hearts
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spirit.
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AIDS is a condition. It's not a verdict
on who I am. And I'm not going to be
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demonized for having it.
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I won't do it.
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So, I ain't going nowhere.
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I'm too cute for that.
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So, I have a wedding to attend in a
couple of weeks. I have children to
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And I have a full life to lead.
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Man, I have moments to get.
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