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I want what she's not willing to offer,

and she's always known that.

And I think it's time that I had a conversation with her.

[knock on door]

Hey, I got your text message. I'm sorry I didn't write back.

Dani, what is it?

I, uh...

was at Uptown with Hayley.

I thought you said you were gonna stay away from her.

I was. She found me.

And you have to believe me, I didn't want it to happen.

There was so much blood.

Hey, what happened?

What are you talking about? Was there an accident or...

I think I made Hayley lose her baby.

Well, yeah, Dani caught me before I got on the plane.

She told me what happened. I went to the hospital,

but you had already left.

So, just tell me, baby, are you okay?

No, Bill, I'm... I'm not okay.

I lost the baby.

Oh, love.

Wha-- This can't be happening. This can't be.

I'm...

Okay, I'm here. I'm here now. Come here. I got you.

♪ ♪

Do you trust me?

I don't trust anyone,

but I enjoy you more than I enjoy anybody else in this town.

You know your world. I know mine.

I promise Doug won't be a problem anymore.

Doug's particular vices

fall squarely within my purview, not yours.

So, do tell.

How did you work your magic?

And how can you be so sure?

He still cares about what happens to me.

I reminded him the business is in my name.

He can't take you down for laundering money

without taking me down, too. End of story.

He may be a flawed man, but he's not about to do that

to his own wife.

[phone buzzing]

Are you insane?

What are you thinking showing your face in town?

Man, you spent months trying to save me from myself.

What the hell?

What, do you have a death wish?

Are Orphey Gene's biscuits worth risking your life?

They're really good biscuits.

Listen, man, take it easy, all right?

I'm in and I'm out.

Some things are worth the exposure.

Like what?

I had some business to take care of.

That sounds like code for woman problems.

Really?

Why don't you just tell me

why you were trying to get hold of me?

I was thinking maybe you can help me

with some business of my own.

Doctor business?

I can't live in Joey's shadow

while he's strutting around town like he's untouchable.

It's time we take our power back.

Are you ready to take down Joey Armstrong?

The guys at the station said you were here.

Just in time.

I didn't realize you'd been reduced to such a...

sad, sad dinner.

I know how it looks, but...

I'm just getting ready for the triathlon.

It's got a grand prize with my name written all over it.

There's an even bigger prize that's slipping

through your fingertips.

My daughter, Derek.

-I'm talking about my daughter. -Yeah, I get that.

But I don't think that's happening.

Listen, I got the whole story from Ashley already,

and I'm calling bull.

All of these "what ifs" are just wasted energy.

And I'm not gonna let you ruin your happiness

over some FOMO.

...nine, ten. -WOMAN: Ready?

-Get those legs up. -One, two, three, four

-Come on, ladies. Push through. -five, six, seven, eight, nine.

-Great job. Now get some water -[panting]

and walk it out.

Derek's everything you wanted.

How are you gonna feel when he abandons you again

for his so-called "work"?

You're just...

not the ki... kind of guy to put down roots.

What if I am and I've just never found a safe place to dig deep?

Ashley, what if you're my safe place?

Come on, Ashley.

Make a decision.

Here, have a sip.

More.

Okay.

Here.

Now, talk to me. What happened?

I was so sure, Andre.

-And I was so wrong. -Wrong about what?

Hayley. We were going back and forth, like we always do.

She called me old and manless.

I accused her of faking her pregnancy,

and then she doubled over.

And at first, I thought she was faking it.

We've been through this song and dance a couple weeks ago.

She cried miscarriage, and she was absolutely fine.

Right, and this time was different?

She came back from the...

She came back from the bathroom with blood all over her.

She wasn't lying.

Dani, did-did someone at least call 911?

She ran out of Uptown and went to the hospital

with some man she didn't even know.

All because she couldn't stand to be in the same car as me.

-So she left with a stranger? -With some guy named Sammy.

I mean, Hayley preferred a total stranger to me,

and I can't say I blame her.

Andre. Andre, what have I done?

Did you hear what I said?

Oh, yeah, I heard you.

I just don't know if you've lost your damn mind

for suggesting it

or I've lost mine for not getting up from this table yet.

I know, I know. Joey's the big, bad wolf. Except he's not.

He's only human.

Then he is more human than the rest of us.

Look, a lot's happened

between Vanessa and I since I got you out of here.

I'm guessing nothing good,

seeing as how you're proposing this Hail Mary.

But this place just isn't sustainable for us anymore.

Joey's never gonna back down. He's never gonna play nice.

And how is that a reason for me to go up against him?

Because you're my friend. And you owe me one.

Listen to me, Doug.

You wouldn't be the first person to attempt to get rid of Joey.

And those guys-- they are not here to tell that tale.

But the difference is I have him dead to rights

to money laundering.

Follow the money like Capone.

But if he gets pulled in for that, then there's no way

he doesn't know it was you that set him up.

Yeah, true.

I mean, if I go to the police,

that'll lead 'em straight to my wife,

and I can't sentence Vanessa to 20 years in an orange jumpsuit.

So what's your play?

We pivot.

Forget about the-the hustle

that Joey has with my wife's company.

We have to think big.

Something like... murder.

Oh, Vanessa. That face. That body.

That brain.

You could launch a thousand ships.

You could make men do crazy things,

even, perhaps, mend their ways.

But you've been Doug's for a long time.

Now, how do I know he's not immune to your influence?

Because he's also been mine for a long time.

Based on the call I overheard, he's forgotten who he is.

And who I am.

Doug's given in to his vices, yes,

but I have to own my part in his spiral.

He senses what's going on between us, and...

he's processing what it all means to him.

A real man manages his business,

even when a woman rips his heart out.

Let me ask you,

do you still plan to share your percentage

of our operation with him?

Because he can't have his cake and eat it, too.

We haven't discussed what will happen to my cut.

Then let me help you.

Your commission isn't worth his wounded pride.

He doesn't get to judge and threaten our venture

while profiting from it.

You don't know him like I do.

He gave me his word, Joey.

It's over.

You don't have to give Doug another thought.

Why are we talking about murder, Doug?

It's not like I haven't thought about getting rid of the man

who's been christening casino tables with my wife.

Oh.

So, they are involved.

Vanessa, she's always preferred the thrill of danger,

the dark side.

And you're sure?

I almost walked in on them a couple of times.

A man knows these things.

Brother, I am sorry.

I saw her sidled up to Joey,

thanking him for doing her favors.

Some business, some personal.

But Joey doesn't typically make a habit

of mixing business with pleasure.

Huh.

Knowing my wife's special to the devil

doesn't really ease the blow.

Look, Vanessa and I don't have the perfect marriage by far,

but just knowing that was happening

right under my nose...

And that's why you got that itchy trigger finger.

There's a few things I can do with my scalpel,

if given a chance,

but no, I don't want you to murder him.

I just want him to suffer.

You're exactly the man that can make that happen.

This is all me.

Everybody knows that I don't like Hayley,

but I would never...

wish this on another woman.

And now she's probably in that hospital all alone.

Hey, okay, okay, fine.

Yes, some of this is on you.

You upset her so much that it sent her to the hospital.

But the truth is you don't know all the facts, Dani.

The doctors could've stopped the bleeding by now.

Hayley could be looking at an ultrasound

of a healthy baby right this second.

Did they say it had anything to do with that fall in the office?

-No. -Well, then how the hell could they release you

so quickly like that?

I-- What's the name of the ER doctor you saw?

I'm gonna-- They're gonna hear from me.

Bill, stop. They treated me.

There was nothing left to say or do.

The baby was...

gone, and....

all I wanted to do was just come home and be with you.

There's plenty left to say.

Naomi, I...

Did you come here to see me?

No. I came over to talk to Hayley about something,

but I didn't know about the baby.

Okay. It's a good thing you beat me here

so Hayley wasn't here another moment alone.

-Baby, I'm sorry. I... -It's okay. Okay?

-I'll be okay. -No, it's not okay.

It's not okay. None of this will ever be okay.

God...

Naomi, would you mind staying with her

while I go make her some tea, please?

Of course.

I don't want to sound indelicate,

but why the hell didn't you tell me what happened

when I walked through the door?

Well, maybe I wanted to tell your father first.

This is sensitive, and it's between us.

And maybe I didn't and still don't want

to talk about this with you.

But I wasn't gonna say anything in front of him,

especially with how broken up he is about all this.

But you need to clarify some things.

Why did you pretend to have an ultrasound?

And is my dad mourning a baby

that never existed in the first place?

Okay. So, tell me the real.

You want to make Joey suffer,

but you can't get him on money laundering

without implicating Vanessa.

So what's going on in your mind?

Joey tried to get you to carry out a hit for him, right?

And it did not go as planned.

So, what, you think just because you couldn't

finish the line, he just, what, gave up?

You don't think he hired somebody else

to finish the task?

I don't know. And, brother, I don't want to know.

Randy, if the police know that Joey coerced you

into murder, they will follow the bread crumbs.

And I'll bet all my chips on them landing on a dead man.

Premeditated, willful, deliberate.

Joey can go down for murder one.

So, instead of following the money,

they following the body.

You want me to snitch.

Way I see it, you either get ahead of him

or you wait around for him to remember that you are loose end.

You've never quit anything in your life, Derek.

You can't quit my daughter.

You love her. She loves you.

I left it all out on the field, Jan.

I got down on my knee, ring in my hand,

and she turned me down.

At some point, you... you got to take the hint.

There's another way to read that moment.

She got scared.

It's my fault, really.

Since her dad wasn't in the picture,

I raised that girl to be so independent

that she feels cornered instead of love.

You raised the perfect woman,

But, unfortunately, she wants someone else.

We could've weathered her being scared, for sure, but...

We just can't get past her interest in another man.

Andre Richardson is no competition for you.

-He is a player. -Yeah, well,

he's Ashley's mistake to make.

Maybe Andre did me a favor.

He showed us both that what I have to offer just...

isn't enough for her.

I just told her what I'm telling you.

Don't throw away the best thing to ever happen

to either of you because she's curious if his grass is greener.

-It's not. -Yeah, I've tried, multiple times.

And what, you're just done?

Time to lick your wounds and drink protein shakes?

I reminded her of who you are,

but apparently, you've forgotten, too.

And who am I, Jan?

You're the guy that's loved her through everything.

Who helped navigate the start of her nursing career.

You run into burning buildings for a living.

Andre is a fleeting moment.

You are a lifetime promise.

You can be plucked right out of a Hallmark movie.

This is real life.

-This isn't TV. -Exactly.

Real life, and you're a real hero.

Act like it.

And go get your girl.

So you see how you could be torturing yourself over nothing?

Why don't you call and find out?

The hospital is not gonna give me an update

over the phone.

Right, so why don't you check with Naomi or Chelsea

to see if they know anything?

Bill. I have to call Bill.

-Dani. -Look, I spoke to him when he was at the airport.

He's got to be at the hospital by now.

I know how it seems, Andre, but this is the only way...

...I can ease my mind.

Yeah, do it.

[line ringing]

-Dani. -How is she?

-Well, she's at home now. -Oh, God.

That is so good to hear. I was, I was so worried.

I am so glad that she and the baby are okay.

She and the baby are okay, right?

Well, Hayley's trying to be okay.

But the baby...

We lost the baby.

Oh, Bill...

Tick, tock, Hayley.

Spill your tea before my dad comes back

with the one he's making for you.

Okay, but it isn't what you think.

What I think is that you've been manipulating

my dad from day one.

But this is a new and confusing low.

I lied. There isn't any ultrasound.

And the printout my dad's been carrying around

like some proud papa?

I pulled that from the Internet.

But, Naomi, it sounds way worse than it actually is.

So, what, you were losing a grip on my dad,

so you fake a pregnancy and then fake a miscarriage, is that it?

No, Naomi, no.

I was pregnant.

I swear there was a baby.

One I wanted so desperately.

I-I really did lose him or her.

Why would I believe that?

That makes absolutely no sense.

Make it make sense, Hayley.

Well, this is new territory for me.

A woman working toward my best interest?

To protect me?

I'm grateful.

Don't need cops sniffing around another investigation.

Another? Is there one I'm not aware of?

"Any" is what I meant.

You're welcome.

But I'm not just protecting you, I'm protecting us. And Doug.

Mm.

You really do care about him, don't you?

I've known a lot of Dougs.

Everything's great while the cards are going their way,

but as soon as they lose enough...

...things get nasty, petty.

I can't tell you how many Dougs

have offered their wives and girlfriends to me,

right in this very room.

What about you?

If the cards weren't on your side,

would there be a different Joey?

Yeah, there might be another version of me

living on a beach somewhere,

writing novels...

...spending forever with a woman like you.

I'll tell you this. If that was my life,

I wouldn't gamble it.

In the minute that I've known Doug,

I've seen him go from a respected cardiac surgeon

to a deadbeat drunk who lives off his wife.

You've only known him a short time.

We had plenty of good years before the mundane ones.

Maybe he can't control his impulses, or...

maybe it's because his wife can't control hers,

but he's a good man.

Which is why I need you to understand something.

I told Doug you bugged his car.

I didn't hear a joke.

Buddy.

When it comes to crime, you are still a newborn.

You missed a crucial detail in this grand plan of yours.

Which is?

Joey owns the cops.

Or have you forgotten how he sent Detective Malone

to stop me from leaving town?

And I handled that.

You said "cops," plural.

Who else does Joey have in his pocket?

Man like that doesn't divulge everything, but

I'm sure he's got a few spares.

Then we go to the DA.

No way he has the whole force on his payroll.

You know, back at home,

they used to say I pulled the greatest magic trick of all.

Trading in our 'hood for a white coat

and never looking back.

I can make miracles again, and I can take you with me.

I just need you on my side.

Yes or no?

-[knocking] -That must be Naomi.

-Hi, Ash. -Hi.

I'm sorry, I-I should've called first.

Uh, no. Come in, please.

Um...

Can I get you anything? Oh, you know, I still have, um,

those protein drinks you like.

No, thanks. I'm fine.

Um...

I just saw Jan at Uptown.

Oof. God, I hope it wasn't too awkward bumping into my mom.

Actually...

...she came looking for me.

Okay, um, that won't happen again.

You know, I-I think she's just taking our breakup really hard.

Yeah.

She said something to me, though,

that I-I just can't shake.

What was that?

Sometimes, we run away

from what's right in front of us

because we're afraid that we're missing out on something else.

So, I'm here,

probably making an idiot of myself for the last time.

But here goes.

I want to be your hero, Ash.

And I don't think I should be penalized

because I haven't been exposed to the things Andre has.

I can learn,

I mean, just like I learned about wine.

I can learn about you.

And we can grow together.

Is there any chance...

...that we can still make this work?

You remember when your mom

took me to Garland when I was cramping?

I thought I was losing the baby.

The doctor wanted to do an ultrasound,

but I just couldn't let her.

Because your womb is as empty as your words?

If the doctor didn't see it or say it,

no one could tell me that I was going to lose my baby.

I was terrified.

And then the pain subsided, and

I just convinced myself that I was all right.

And when I went back for the follow-up,

I knew Bill would ask about the sonogram, so I...

I just printed one out.

Look, it was stupid, I know, but...

It stopped Bill's questions

and allowed me to-to keep pretending.

Until today. And...

Now, all I can wonder is would it have made a difference?

If I had got it done, would it...

Could I have saved my baby?

Naomi, listen.

I was picking out

paint swatches for the nursery.

Your father was online picking out the safest strollers.

I wanted to tell him. I should have told him.

But if I do that now,

all it's gonna do is hurt him all over again,

and I feel guilty enough.

Look, Naomi, I have no right to ask you this, but

are you gonna tell Bill?

Tell me what?

What's going on, ladies?

I can't take any suspense tonight.

There's something you should know, Dad.

Okay. What's up, sweetheart?

I'm really, really sorry about your loss.

I know you were looking forward to having

a little bundle of joy around here.

Both of you.

Thanks for saying that, Naomi.

I was even looking forward to meeting my little sibling.

[mouthing]

-Hey. -I got away with so much

because I was the victim and she was the villain.

But I have gone too far, Andre.

With everything I've ever done,

I-I never actually hurt someone.

-I'm a monster. -Hey, no, no, let's not start that.

I would have bet my life that she was faking.

But she wasn't.

That baby was real.

And now it's gone because of me.

Who would ever believe that-that I didn't want that

-somewhere deep down? -Me.

Dani, I believe you.

This is not your fault.

Your words, no matter how harsh they might have been,

-did not cause a miscarriage. -The stress?

Hey, you said Hayley picked a fight with you, right?

It's not like you went looking for trouble.

It's okay. Hey, this is not your fault.

-No, I'm doing it again. -Do what?

I'm using you to make me feel better.

And it's not fair.

-Hey. -God, I am the worst.

I decide what's fair to me.

No. We're friends with benefits,

and I keep crossing the line

between wanting you to needing you.

I think the key word there is "friend."

You can confide in me. You can lean on me, Dani.

Well, I appreciate that.

It cannot be all "take, take, take" every time we're together.

Right.

You wanted to talk earlier.

I know what you want to hear. And what my mom wants.

-What do you want? -I'm torn.

I love you, and a couple of months ago,

I was the happiest, surest girl in the world.

Then what happened?

I got what I wanted.

Everything I wanted. I got you.

I got my dream job, everything I'd worked for.

And suddenly, life was just set.

But it didn't feel the way that it was supposed to feel.

I mean, Derek, when you proposed,

it should have felt like heaven on earth.

And instead, I just felt like I wanted to run.

-You felt trapped. -I felt

our world getting smaller.

And there's still so much that we haven't done and seen.

And-and I don't want to hurt you. I really don't, but..

I think maybe Andre just sort of represents that...

-that sense of wonder, and... -It's 'cause you think

I'm done having adventures.

I may not have his money

or come from some glamorous background, but...

...I can still give you experiences.

But we never have them, Derek,

not even in our heads.

And look, I'm not faulting you.

You and I, we were raised the same, right?

You know, keep our heads down and-and

follow the path and create a stable

and-and solid future.

And-and part of me really wants to follow my mom's advice

and just choose the guy

that makes me feel safe.

But I can't ignore this other part of me that just

wants to throw caution to the wind and just-just

really go for it, you know?

God, I feel so selfish right now.

If there's one thing in life

you need to be selfish about, it's...

who you choose to love. You need to be sure.

For me, it's an easy choice.

There's not a thing on earth I want to do

without you by my side.

I'll never be him.

But I can promise you this.

I will work every day

to give you your dream.

Because, Ashley,

you are mine.

But I won't keep doing the back-and-forth thing.

I feel like I'm losing a part of myself waiting on you.

So...

What's it gonna be?

Forever?

Or never?

Naomi seems to be taking it really hard.

Yeah, she actually was holding space for our child.

Who knows, maybe...

our little blessing could have brought us

all together for good.

Oh, Hayley, baby.

You know, I promised that we'd do this together.

And I-I wasn't even there.

No, baby, I'm sorry.

No, no, no, no, baby. No. No. Stop that.

Okay? Stop. Listen,

As much as I like to think that I'm

in control of everything, I'm not.

All right? And neither are you.

There was nothing that you could have done.

Okay? This isn't your fault.

Come here.

I hate what he did to you and my part in it.

And living under Joey's thumb

and l-living in fear-- that ain't living.

And I need more than that.

So you're in?

We do it my way, Doug.

You've gotten sloppy and loud.

And Joey's got eyes and ears everywhere.

Vanessa told me your boss put a bug in my car.

This gives us an edge.

You can lead him down any path you want.

For once in his life,

Joey Armstrong won't see what's coming for him.

You told him about the bug?

You want to explain how you promised me

no more lies, and then you do that?

But I didn't lie.

I told you precisely what I did.

I handled Doug like you wanted.

You really don't want to split hairs with me.

I needed him to know how serious the situation was

before you took matters into your own hands.

Telling him about the bug accomplished that.

I'll never see Doug the same way again after being with you.

But I'd be heartbroken if he wasn't in this world anymore.

This was my way of fixing the problem.

Can you forgive me?

Well, it is hard to stay upset at you.

I know a few ways I can make it up to you.

You know, I'm an understanding man.

I also know

that we can't always help who we love.

Or what that love makes us do.

Well, did you two lovebirds set a wedding date?

I did what you said. Went over there.

Okay, and?

Won't be a wedding. Ever.

She chose Andre.

DANI: Ah, ah, ah, ah.

No need to be shy on my account.

Whatever it is,

I'm sure it can't be as bad as what I've done.

Hey, we can talk about this some other time, okay?

When I'm not a hot mess?

When is that, Andre?

Look, anyone would need a minute after seeing Hayley like that.

Thank you for making me feel like

I'm not the worst human being to ever walk the planet.

Hey. Dani, I wish that you could see yourself

the way I see you.

You're so good at being bad. You're so good.

But you're also great at being a mother, a sister, a friend.

You're the type of person who walks in the room

and it lights up.

You light other people up, Dani.

The kind of woman who is liable to make

a man forget anyone else exists.

And maybe one day,

you'll believe those things for yourself.

And I won't have to remind you.

Well, until that magical day comes...

...I'm glad I have you here to fluff me up.

Yeah.

What would I do without you right now?

Good thing you won't have to find that out.

-Did you hear something? -Uh...

My heart beating against my chest.

Okay, um, you know what? This is, uh...

Dani, this is amazing,

but you just had a very traumatic experience.

-I don't want to... -Right.

It's-it's probably not wise for me to use you

as my emotional support hunk right now.

Yeah, maybe not.

Can you just...

...hold me tonight?

I don't want to be alone.

Of course. We're friends.

HAYLEY: We suffered a horrible loss.

I mean, what other reason would Dani be here

than to express her sympathy?

Nicole filed for a divorce. I just got the papers.

If you want to fix your marriage, fight for her.

KAT: That was supposed to be, like, a vertical expression

of a horizontal desire.

It can be scary learning a new dance.

God, it's crazy how you just get me.

Yeah. Crazy.

We found Tyrell and Samantha's biological mother.

Oh, my sweet baby Jesus, no.

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