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CC: Ugh, I don't know, 18 down, and maybe it's bluffed?

No.

It can't be bluffed.

It's got to be five--

I know, I'm horrible at these.

You do it.

Come on, we can't give up.

Let's see.

You're relentless.

I'm just not a quitter.

Remember that time, the first Christmas we had in Hollywood,

when you kept forcing me to sing Christmas carols?

[laughs] What Christmas carols are you talking about?

Christmas carols.

You have such a vivid imagination, CC.

Imagination?

It is my memory, Ms. Whitney.

And my memory is very, very long, like it or not.

Well, I'm gonna depend on you for that.

[music playing]

YOUNG CC: (SINGING) You've got to give a little,

take a little, and let your poor heart break a little.

That's the story of, that's the glory of love.

As long as there's the two of us,

we've got the world and all its charms.

And when the world is through with us,

we've got each other's arms.

You've got to win a little, lose a little,

and always have the blues a little.

That's the story of, that's the glory of love.

[applause]

Thank you.

Don't fear the hat.

Thank you in advance.

I'm CC.

I'm Hillary, Hillary Whitney.

Well, well, well.

I really loved your singing.

Thanks.

I'm working on it.

You don't have to give me a whole 10 though.

It's the thought that counts.

No way.

I have another anyway.

Well, well, well.

Stop doing that.

I'm guessing you're not from here.

No, I'm just here till tomorrow.

You?

Come on, let's bolt. I don't have a permit.

Can we bolt a bit faster?

What's the problem?

Is that your mom?

Hah, I wish.

That's my au pair.

Come on.

So where is your mom?

Why'd she stick you with the au pair on vacation?

She died two years ago.

Whoa, sorry.

It's OK.

I'm used to it, I guess.

I still have my dad.

Where is he?

In a meeting probably.

He's a lawyer, so he's very important.

He travels a lot.

Sometimes I get to come along.

What does your dad do?

I don't know, never met him.

I'm sorry.

It's OK.

I'm used to it, I guess.

LEONA: CC?

I'm gonna kill you.

Crap.

Over here, Leona.

Jesus, kid.

No, look, I was working.

On your time, you do whatever you want.

On my time, you got to watch the stand,

and wipe that mustard off your face

before you talk to the customers.

Does your boss always yell like that?

That's not my boss.

That's my mother.

What do you want to find out?

You sell this stuff?

Yeah.

I like to think of this place as my humble beginnings.

I'm gonna be a famous singer someday.

You have an amazing voice.

Really?

You think so?

You're lucky.

I wish I knew what I want to be when I grow up.

Well, enjoy it while it lasts.

When you know what you want to be when you grow up,

you have to start working.

My dad says I have to be a lawyer like him.

Where do you live, anyway?

Outside San Francisco, Oakland Hills.

That's not that bad.

At least we're in the same state.

I was scared you lived in like Connecticut or something.

I leave for boarding school in Connecticut in September.

No!

[laughter]

[camera lens clicking]

YOUNG CC: There.

YOUNG HILLARY: Promise you'll write?

YOUNG CC: For sure.

I'd be bummed if we never talked again.

You're the best person I've ever met.

That's the best thing anyone's ever said to me.

Hillary Ann Whitney, explain yourself.

I did not come to Venice to spend my time chasing you down.

I came here for work.

Am I at work right now?

No, sir.

I almost called the police.

I'm sorry, Daddy.

I lost track of time.

I met a new friend.

CC Bloom, nice to meet you.

[sighs] Oh, come on, Hillary.

Bye, CC.

Bye for now, Hillary Whitney.

CC (VOICEOVER): Dear Hillary, this

is my 10th audition this month.

How many times am I going to be rejected before I take a hint?

I don't look like these other girls.

My nose is too big and so is my mouth.

I wish I wanted to give up.

HILLARY (VOICEOVER): Dear CC, you're forgetting something.

You're more talented than any of those airheads.

Speaking of which, have I mentioned how much

I hate my new boarding school?

Dad shipped me off here and I can't come back with anything

less than straight A's.

CC (VOICEOVER): Like you need to worry, Hillary.

You got this.

HILLARY (VOICEOVER): Well, my 4.2 GPA got me into Spelman.

I thought I'd get a pat on the back from my dad,

but he handed me a practice test for law school.

I keep waiting for the moment when I'll finally

feel like myself.

I'm so tired of feeling like I'm living someone else's dream.

CC, you're so lucky to have your own.

Write back soon.

Love you.

CC (VOICEOVER): Ha, ha, yeah, Hillary, I'm living

the dream, recording dog food commercials.

I can't even do a good chihuahua.

I would have quit if I weren't fired.

As for you, my dear, one day you'll

be helping innocent people get out of jail.

And that is truly heroic.

MAN: Less Terrier, more Doberman.

A little bit more Doberman?

OK.

Woof.

HILLARY (VOICEOVER): Yeah, yeah, yeah, will you stop wallowing?

And don't forget me when you become rich and famous.

Hello.

CC (VOICEOVER): I don't see why you have

to go to Harvard of all places.

There are plenty of law schools in LA.

I'm joking, kind of.

Your father must be jazzed you're following

in his immortal footsteps.

Did I tell you I booked a gig?

I play a secretary who spills coffee on her keyboard and gets

reprimanded by her boss for breaking the no liquids rule.

It's a corporate training video.

Should I kill myself now?

How's it going with what's his face?

You guys broken up this week or what?

I can't keep track.

Cut, cut.

HILLARY (VOICEOVER): Dear CC, stop being so judgmental

about your work.

We all have to start somewhere.

Can you believe I'm finally done with school?

19 years straight and now I'm a Harvard Law grad.

What's his face is good.

And yes, we're back on.

He's even joining my dad's firm.

Now, some of you have been--

HILLARY (VOICEOVER): So here I am--

big, fancy office, fancy clothes,

and fancy corporate cases.

And what do I have to show for it?

A boss that expects twice as much for me as he

does from anybody else and a heart that is really only half

in it.

I don't know how long I can do this, CC.

CC (VOICEOVER): Well, I was about to throw myself

out a window, but as always, your words of wisdom

staved off my disappointment another day.

I'll never know how someone so frustrated with her own life

is able to calm me down about mine.

It's really a gift, Hill.

Speaking of, how's work?

Oh, and I got a gig singing in a hotel three nights a week.

It's not Broadway, but it's something.

Good crowds, too.

[piano music]

(SINGING) I can hear the music, music from afar.

I can hear you calling somewhere where you are.

Who are you?

And when will you appear to be the music I hear?

Yes!

[vocalizing]

Mark Reid on trumpet.

[trumpeting]

[vocalizing]

(SINGING) I can hear the music, music from afar.

I can hear you calling somewhere where you are.

Who are you?

And when will you appear to be the music I hear, the music I

hear?

Can you feel the music?

I can hear the music.

I can hear the music.

[sparse applause]

Thank you.

We're going to take a little break.

Hey, Pete, can I have a Jack and ginger

and my purse and my phone?

Did you hear that crowd?

It's amazing, right?

Like ah, CC, CC.

I mean, I never heard a crowd like that before.

Living the dream.

What?

[laughter]

Oh my god.

Oh my god.

Oh my god.

That's the creepiest thing you've ever done.

Hi.

I know, I'm sorry.

You are so amazing.

Really?

Yes, I forgot how beautiful your voice is,

and to see you on stage?

Oh, come on, I sing for you on the phone all the time.

What are you doing here?

Are you on vacation?

Oh no.

What'd you do?

I don't know.

I was feeling--

I was feeling trapped and I was feeling suffocated.

So I just--

I left.

OK.

Start from the beginning.

What happened?

Nothing, nothing happened.

I was in my office.

I was closing out a couple of cases.

And I just felt like I was going through the motions.

And I just left.

I wasn't happy doing that work anymore.

What'd your father say?

I don't know.

I'm scared to check my voicemail.

PETE: CC, here you go.

Get your drink.

Congratulations, Hillary Whitney.

Everyone deserves a nervous breakdown.

I have a couch with your name on it.

Oh god, oh.

OK.

Uh, OK.

This is the living room.

This could be your room, you know?

Don't turn on the oven.

I keep my sweaters in there.

Bathroom, watch when you stand naked in front of the window,

because people can see in there.

I learned that the hard way.

OK.

OK.

Ah, central air.

[distant sirens]

I even got a balcony.

You can see the Hollywood sign.

So what do you think?

Hey, I know it's not that much, and-- and I

can get a screen for privacy.

And I won't leave as much stuff on the floor.

(SOBBING) It's perfect.

I love it.

It's so you.

[music - "hava nagila"]

[non-english singing]

Yay, [hebrew].

Kill me now.

You have an amazing voice.

Me?

Oh, thanks.

I'm John, John Pierce.

CC Bloom.

Which one's yours?

Oh, no, I don't have any children.

I work with Rachel's father, or have worked with them.

I'm a director.

Oh, cool.

[gasps] The hawk--

wait, you did that four-person thing with the rock opera about

the Revolutionary War--

"The Mirrors," yes.

"The Mirrors."

[gasps]

Yes, you saw it.

Yeah, I mean, well, I ushered, free tickets.

Had I known one of our ushers could

sing like that I would have insisted you get up on stage.

Well, that can be arranged.

Well, maybe you should come try out for the next one.

We're holding auditions.

Give me a call.

Wow, seriously?

Seriously.

CC?

Hi, I know you wanted me to get you at 4:30,

but I was looking for you, couldn't find you.

CC: I can't see the cars from here.

Hi.

Oh, hi.

You know, we should probably get going because the traffic is

really bad.

Are you late for an audition?

You must be an actress.

Me?

[laughs] No, I'm not an actress.

I'm a lawyer.

Lawyer?

Wow, you almost never meet anyone other than actors in LA.

Are you a divorce lawyer, because you could probably

make a killing in here.

[laughter]

No, I do a lot of pro bono work.

Oh.

Yeah.

We should be going.

HILLARY: OK.

I'm John.

Oh.

I'm so sorry, where are my manners?

I'm Hillary.

Hillary.

Nice to meet you, John.

Nice to meet you.

Oh, my voice sounds so much better when I'm not

singing in Yiddish.

Well, I look forward to hearing that.

No, I look forward to you hearing that.

Oh, I'm going to remember this for the rest of my life.

What?

You, me, folding laundry, us, everything.

I mean it.

I will.

OK.

OK, that's really sweet, CC, but you

need to actually be folding.

I am folding.

HILLARY: You should call him.

Huh?

Call who?

John Pierce.

Two, one, three, director--

Is this yours?

You know you don't have to wait for him to call you.

It's typically how it works after you audition for someone.

Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't realize it was strictly

business.

[laughs]

Exactly, just bring it down into your body a little more

and see how that feels.

All right?

OK, I can do that.

All right.

Thanks.

Herr director, I'm understudying the henchman.

And the mayor.

And the mayor.

And you're in the ensemble.

Well, I thought you liked my voice.

I do.

Come on, CC, let's sing another one.

No way.

I sang all those dreidel songs with you.

You can sing another one.

There's only one dreidel song.

Good night, Hillary.

(SINGING) O come, all ye faithful--

--(SINGING) joyful and triumphant.

(SINGING) O come--

Tell me the truth.

Do you think I'm going to make it,

like legitimately, it would be a crime if I didn't keep

on going, or at this point just take a hit and, you know,

get my real estate license or something?

I think you should keep going.

Are you sure?

Yes, I've told you that a zillion times.

I know, but maybe you're just being nice.

How should I know?

Maybe you have to say that because you're my best friend.

No, I've said it before and I will continue to say it,

you are amazing.

I meant it then and I mean it now.

But like really, really, amazing, or--

(SINGING) Deck the halls with boughs of holly,

fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la.

(SINGING) 'Tis the season to be jolly, fa-la-la-la-la,

la-la-la-la.

You're singing my part.

Well, I understand that, but it was a nonviolent offense.

Well, of course, you have the right to perceive it however

you'd like, but the truth is the truth.

I got the gig.

(WHISPERING) I got the gig, the gig, I got the gig.

HILLARY: Yes, well, then, you know what?

I have three witnesses--

(WHISPERING) I got it.

HILLARY: --that say otherwise.

Well, then I'll just have to see you in court.

Thank you, Councilor.

I got it.

Ah, I am now the star of their next show, "The Sorcerer."

Wow, what?

That's amazing.

Oh, my god, I love you.

Thank--

Oh my gosh, that's so great.

Thanks for helping me.

I was terrible, I--

Not so good, but anyway, you helped me.

And I love you.

John--

If I come in sooner--

--a second, I want your eyes before I make the final

alterations.

Does this work?

[gasps] Beautiful.

It's not too much?

No, it's perfect.

WOMAN: Hello?

Are we good?

Huh?

Oh, yeah, we're good.

We're so good.

[string music]

(SINGING) Give me the love that loves for love alone.

I love that love, I love it only.

What man for any other joy can thirst, whose

loving wife adores him duly?

Want, misery, and care may do their worst if loving woman

loves you truly.

Give me the love that loves for love alone.

I love that love, I love it only.

Give me the love that loves for love alone.

I love that love, I love it only.

[vocalizing]

Give me the love that loves for love alone.

I love the love, I love it only.

Give me the love that loves for love alone.

I love the love, I love it only.

Give me the love.

[applause]

Don't read it-- only if it's good, please.

JOHN: I know, I know.

It's good, CC.

You were amazing. [cheering]

Read it.

I don't like to read reviews if they're bad.

Hang on, hang on, listen--

"Pierce's latest revival is as modern

as it is classic, 120-minute spectacle of spirit you simply

can't miss.

And CC Bloom, our lovely CC--

Ah, yes.

What's it gonna say?

CC Bloom shines at its center with a voice almost too big

for the stage.

We're lucky to have her on.

It's a rave.

Yes.

Yes.

[laughter]

"The Daily," too.

I got "Time" out.

And "The Reporter."

OK, don't read it.

No more reading here.

I'm so proud of you.

A toast to the right group of people at just the right time.

- Yes. - Cheers.

Cheers.

Cheers.

You're a star.

Thank you.

Thank you, CC.

Oh, I'm so relieved.

She was amazing.

She's a star.

You know, I just can't shake the feeling that I know you

better than I do.

HILLARY: Really?

I kind of feel the same way.

Because I talk about both constantly.

Oh, thank you.

Ah.

Hey.

Hey, look at that, guys.

She took my drink.

Maybe we should get another one.

She did take your glass.

You're fine with that?

Here's your jacket.

Thank you so much.

Not a problem at all.

Thanks.

It's right over here.

[somber music]

Good morning.

You scared me.

CC: You're home early or late, depending

on how you look at it.

Sorry.

Did you sleep with him?

Yes.

So are you in love now?

I don't know.

I don't know.

I mean, I--

I like him.

Oh yeah, I know how you feel.

Sorry, CC.

It's complicated.

It's complicated, but you did it anyway.

You've been working with this guy for weeks

and you haven't mentioned anything.

I thought you were over him.

It's not that easy for me.

I'm not like you.

Well, what is that supposed to mean?

It means that you just roll out of bed

and life falls into place for you.

I have to work at everything-- at my looks, at my talent.

I work so hard just to be noticed.

And you just stroll in and-- and--

I don't understand how someone with such a big ego

can be so insecure.

Oh, so we're moving into the insult part of the injury now?

Is that it?

No, I just wish that you would show up for your life the way

that you show up for your career.

Well, some rejections are not as easy as others.

But you didn't try.

I was the one who told you to call him.

I am not a mind reader.

I didn't know that you were waiting in the wings

to swoop on in.

I knew that I had missed my chance.

I knew I was messing it up, but not to you.

You of all people, you were supposed to have my back.

You're supposed to be--

just forget it.

I won't see him anymore.

Who are you kidding?

No, I won't.

I won't see him anymore.

So what are we gonna do?

I don't know.

Well, do you hate me?

Yes.

No, not really.

Do you want me to move out?

No.

Can I use this towel?

Yeah, sure, whatever you want.

Oh, shut up.

I was sad.

[laughter]

HILLARY (VOICEOVER): Hey, it's me.

I'm sorry I left in such a rush.

Dad is doing OK, but during surgery they found a tumor.

It's bad.

I'm so not ready for this, CC.

What's-his-face is here.

He still works for the firm.

It's actually been nice having him around.

I miss you.

How's the show going?

I promise I'll come back to LA as soon as things settle down

here.

Call me no matter what time.

CC (VOICEOVER): The show is going great.

I'm going to sing on Leno, yeah, the actual "Tonight Show."

Can you believe it?

Ah, the world suddenly feels huge, Hill.

I really wish I could get up there, though,

but between the play and the auditions

and I'm fighting a cold--

ugh, I thought I could catch you before I go on vocal rest.

Text when you get this, please.

PS, I forgot what's-his-face's actual name.

Is that bad?

HILLARY (VOICEOVER): I missed you again.

Ugh, I can't tell if your phone is off or just full.

His name is Bryan with a Y. Don't even start.

Oh, and I watched your Leno performance 10 times.

Everyone was great, but you were the best.

You were amazing, CC.

Hey, by the way, how's John?

Do you see him?

I mean, other than at the theater?

[mumbling]

[laughter]

CC (VOICEOVER): I got cast in a pilot, shoots next week.

I'll stay on the play until I know if it's going to series

or not.

It's a sitcom set in a Catholic school and I play a nun.

Huh, I must be a terrific actor, right?

[laughs] Call me.

That was better.

Get off.

You just--

[music playing]

Ha, ha!

Whoa.

No.

Dammit.

You know what?

You should have went right--

Just stop, I'm serious.

Stop!

I tried--

Hi, Daddy.

Hi.

Hey.

Hey.

You look good.

How you feelin'?

Listen, I want you to take over the Perry case.

Come back to the firm full time.

Can you do that for me?

Of course.

So any word from Hillary?

Her father's still in hospice.

Could be days, could be weeks.

But she's back together with what's-his-face again,

so at least she's not alone.

I'm happy someone's there to take care of her.

Yeah, good.

Hey, Leona is coming to the show tonight.

She goes home first thing in the morning,

so you're spared any real interaction.

Well, we'll take her for drinks tonight.

And I'll tell her what a talented daughter she has,

before I lose you to Hollywood once and for all.

Oh come on, babe, what's good for me is good for both of us,

right?

Mostly.

Enough about me, blah, blah, blah.

So?

So Bryan and I are officially married.

It seems crazy, but we did it.

CC (ON PHONE): Very crazy.

Yeah, I know.

It was so nice to have Daddy here.

He was so proud.

And I can't imagine getting married without him.

So how was the ceremony?

It was perfect.

The only thing missing was you, but I--

I understand you have to work and the show must go on.

Thank you for the gift.

HILLARY (VOICEOVER): Was it the one you wanted?

The one?

The-- wh-- the--

Uh, do you mean-- you mean the salt and pepper shakers?

The-- yeah, right, the salt and pepper sh-- the-- yeah,

was it the pair that you wanted?

Yes, they're perfect.

Oh god, they're calling me to set.

Um, uh, Hillary, I'm so happy for you.

I'm so sorry I wasn't there.

The AG said that he would get me out

and then he rescheduled for the last second.

That's OK.

I understand.

OK, make sure you tell Bryan I said congratulations,

what's-his-face.

I can't believe it.

I will too.

OK, I love you.

Bye.

I love you too, CC.

Did you really buy my best friend salt and pepper shakers

for her wedding?

I said I wanted something nice.

[somber music]

HILLARY: Every Black man in America

should have an intimate understanding of the law.

Those are the words of Herschel Whitney.

Herschel Whitney was my father.

He was my daddy, a single father who

raised me to be proud of the woman that I see in the mirror.

Daddy, may you rest in peace.

May you rest in power.

I love you endlessly.

Thank you all for coming.

Thank you all for being such an important piece and part

of his journey.

[interposing voices]

REPORTER: CC, it's the night of your big premiere.

How do you feel?

WOMAN: CC, CC.

MAN: Sandra, right here.

Sandra!

WOMAN: CC.

Sandra, Sandra.

WOMAN: CC.

Sandra.

CC.

All three C's together, group photo!

[interposing voices]

WOMAN: Becca.

MAN: CC, over here, CC.

Becca, wonderful, wonderful.

Don't worry, babe.

We'll catch her after.

CC (AS NUN ON SCREEN): You think just because I'm a nun I don't

feel what you feel?

MAN: Maybe you didn't stop being a person,

but you certainly fancy yourself a saint.

CC (AS NUN ON SCREEN): Would a saint do this?

[laughter]

HILLARY: Well, I must say the house was beautiful.

Ah, it took forever to find, but it's totally worth it.

I finally feel like an adult, you know?

Yeah, well, I did love our place.

I loved it, too, but it was barely an apartment.

We lived in a glorified storage unit with a terrace.

Yes.

So are you still singing?

Uh, well, yeah, here and there when I have time.

I have to watch my voice contractually because the show

is very demanding.

Are you still--

H-- hi.

You're home early.

Well, we can't run Act III without Micky,

and she's still out with a cold.

Ah.

HILLARY: Hi.

Hillary.

How are you?

I haven't seen you for so long.

It's so nice to see you.

Great to see you, too.

John, this is Bryan, Hillary's husband.

JOHN: Uh, nice to meet you.

Nice to meet you.

I'm, uh, I'm--

I'm CC's, uh--

I'm CC's.

[smooches] Isn't he cute?

So what are you up to these days?

Uh, we're doing an all-female 1776 musical.

And we go up next month.

That's amazing.

It's so nice that you continue to do inspiring and interesting

art.

So who's playing Ben Franklin?

Oh, honey.

Um, an intern, actually.

The wig was a tough sell.

I bet.

Well, the truth is it was, uh, it was quite a change.

A lot of hours, but worth it.

To be partner would mean that I would leave a legacy, like Mr.

Whitney.

Yes, and I can't wait to see his name on that door.

He's certainly earned it.

What about you, Hill?

What about me?

Are you getting back to your advocate work?

No, not right now.

Believe me, she's doing much bigger things at the firm.

CC: Well, that's a matter of opinion.

CC.

No, it's OK.

I sit at my dad's desk.

My pro bono work will just have to wait for now.

Things change.

OK.

Things change.

Cheers, guys.

Cheers.

Well, I'm glad we could do this.

Me too.

Are you guys talking about babies?

Yeah, well, I'm not really trying yet, but we will soon.

That's great.

Thanks.

You're not going to ask if we're talking about it?

You and John?

Why do you say it like that?

I'm sorry, I'm just surprised.

Why would that surprise you?

HILLARY: Well, you're so obsessed with your career.

You don't strike me as the type of person that

would want to give that up.

Well, I don't think I'd have to give that up.

Just because you give up on things--

I haven't given up on anything.

Who are you right now?

I just-- I don't recognize you anymore.

We've grown apart.

It happens.

We've lasted longer than most.

But now this is over.

And what's over?

This, us.

We haven't grown apart.

You're falling apart.

You've been spiraling ever since your dad got sick.

How would you know?

All you did was send flowers.

I had to shoot.

And that wedding gift, did you even send it yourself?

Yes.

What, am I on trial here?

The two most important days of my life and you

were nowhere to be found.

You're the one who left.

I'm not doing this.

You said you were coming back and you never did.

You just picked up where you left off over there like none

of this actually happened, like-- like I was just

some intermission from your real life.

Real life?

What do you know about real life?

You live in some fantasy where everything is about you.

Well, listen, let it be about me.

I don't go from one domineering man to another.

Let's not forget about the domineering woman in between.

Stop acting like you have no say in anything.

Well, stop acting like such a goddamn bully.

I'm not bullying you.

I'm challenging you.

Oh, you're challenging me.

You're so egotistical.

You're jealous because I'm doing what I set out to do.

Jealous?

Jealous of what?

Your blinding ambition, your paralyzing need for attention,

or your relationship of convenience?

My what?

My what?

You got him by default and you know it.

Well, at least I belong to myself.

I'm living the life you wanted to live, tried to live,

but didn't have the guts.

I'd be jealous if I were you, too.

I just wouldn't be such a bitch about it.

[buzzing]

Those look nice.

Thank you, honey.

Are you sure?

I am.

I don't get say in any of it?

Your whole life is say in this.

I resent being punished because I'm successful.

JOHN: I'm not punishing you, Cees, I'm proud of you.

I just don't belong here.

CC: We have been fighting about this for so long.

I don't understand, what is it?

What is so wrong with success?

What's important to you isn't important to me.

And that's OK, because yours is bigger.

I just don't want to be in the shadow of it.

You know what?

If the roles were reversed and I was

OK with being in your shadow, it would make me a good partner.

It would make me a good wife.

I don't want to be your wife.

And you don't want to be my partner either.

So that's it?

Love doesn't factor into any of it.

Cees, love absolutely factors into it.

That's why I want to let us go before us goes bad.

I want to keep loving you.

Even if it's from afar.

Yeah.

Loving you at a distance is better than resenting you

in this room.

I know this is wrong, but it can't be goodbye.

I think it has to be.

You're a nun and I'm married.

Where does your wife think you are?

Church.

[gasps]

Clementine--

Cut, that's a wrap on episode eight.

Hey, CC?

Walter wants to see you in the office.

Walter does?

Yeah.

CC Bloom for Karen, please.

You knew they were writing me off

and you didn't say anything?

Yeah, just now, today.

We can't just let the--

oh.

Well, when?

When did they say that?

Ugh, I'm not that distracted.

No, my heart is in it.

OK, you know what?

Let's just-- what's done is done.

No, I don't-- I don't want to see the silver lining, OK?

[sighs] I just--

I just need a week.

I'll call you in a week, OK?

Thanks.

Bye.

What are you doing?

[seagulls squawking]

HILLARY: My mother loved coming here.

It's so peaceful.

I wish we could spend more time here.

Yeah.

I just feel much more connected, you know?

Yeah, me too, baby.

[chuckling]

Hmm, hmm.

I'm ready to have a baby.

Hey, uh, whoa, whoa, I thought we decided that, uh, now wasn't

the time.

I don't think we're there.

I'm not there.

What do I need to do to help you get there?

Baby, I need time.

OK.

BRYAN: You all right?

You know, I don't even think I'm cut out for it.

Anyways, you know, I want to--

I want to focus on the firm right now.

You know that.

You know the job.

And you saw how hard your father worked, right?

Mhm.

Yeah, OK.

Look, I should, uh, I should get going.

I want to beat that traffic.

BRYAN (ON ANSWERING MACHINE): Hey, it's Brian.

Leave a message.

CC (ON ANSWERING MACHINE): Hey hon, it's me,

just thinking about you.

I hope you made it home safely.

Hillary, uh--

[banging]

There's nothing you can say.

I want you to leave.

And then I never want to see your face again.

You're disgusting.

[somber music]

CC: (SINGING) I'm sorry if I wasn't there

or acted like I didn't care.

You were always there for me, seeing what I couldn't see.

I'm sorry if you felt alone.

I should have called.

I should have known.

There's nothing that I wouldn't do to get just one more

day with you.

So don't let the last time I hurt

you be the time I heard you.

Don't let the last time I held you be the last time I felt

you.

Wouldn't let you get away if I had another day.

Don't let the last time I saw you be the last time,

be the last time.

I'm sorry if I got too loud or if I didn't make you proud.

You always gave me what you could.

When I was wrong you understood.

Sorry if I made you mad.

If I could I'd take you back.

You're not where I thought you'd be,

but you'll always be a part of me.

Don't let the last time I hurt you be the last time I heard

you.

Don't let the last time I held you be the last time I felt

you.

Wouldn't let you get away if I had another day.

So don't let the last time I saw you be the last time.

So don't let the last time I saw you be the last time,

be the last time, be the last time.

Can we take it from the bridge?

Psh.

Can you give us a second, please?

Thanks.

What are you doing here?

I went to your place.

You weren't there.

I gave your housekeeper 50 bucks to tell me where you were.

Well, she's fired.

Is now a bad time?

I'm not talking first.

I don't know what to say.

OK, well, I have work to do.

So--

HILLARY: Well, you sound great.

Look, I'm sorry I didn't return your calls.

But the more time passed, the easier it was not to call.

Well, it got harder for me.

Every day that went by got harder than the one before it.

So I'm sorry it was easier and easier for you,

but that's not how I felt.

I didn't mean it like that.

I'm sorry for everything.

OK, I don't know what happened.

I don't even know why I was angry with you for so long.

But it doesn't matter anymore.

What matters-- what matters is I forgive you

and I just wanted you to know that.

Oh, you forgive me?

You took your friendship away without even

talking to me about it or yelling at me about it.

It meant everything to me.

I trusted in it.

I believed in it.

But you didn't.

And now it's gone.

So thank you for forgiving me, but I don't forgive you.

You were right.

I was jealous.

And I hated myself for it.

But you know who you are.

You are confident.

You're strong.

You're talented.

And I couldn't compete with that.

You are smart and you're beautiful

and you do everything well.

And people look up to you.

It's my fault.

No, don't be silly.

It was our fault. And I'm sorry.

CC: Pregnant?

Yes, but I don't find out until after he leaves.

You're having a baby.

Shit.

I'm having a baby and he wants nothing to do with it.

He didn't want kids, or at least not with me.

Maybe with her, but not with me.

Who?

HILLARY: His girlfriend.

Well, now I think she's his fiance.

But he signed over all of his parental rights

so he could move to Boston and start a life with her.

OK, wait, you catch what's-his-face with another

woman and now you're having his baby by yourself?

That's amazing.

It is?

Yes.

Oh, that is the scariest, most beautiful thing

I've ever heard of.

You are amazing, Hillary Whitney, brave and amazing.

I'm not.

Not all strength is loud, Hill.

Oh God, thanks, CC.

[somber music]

Well, you can hire people to do this for you, you know.

I understand that, but you know what?

I think this is going to be fun if you just cooperate.

Where's the wrenchy thing?

You know, the universal tool?

I don't think you need that for this.

All we have to do is put the [swedish] into the [swedish]..

CC: Ooh, that's what she said.

That just sounds crazy.

I don't understand why the English instructions are

in Swedish.

Oh god, I can't take it.

I'm going to get a drink.

[grunts] Oh, I'll drink yours too, don't worry.

Don't come back drunk because we have lots of work to do.

Did you know if I get drunk I can talk Swedish?

Is that an alien or a squid?

Oh, stop it.

Don't you see that big head right there?

She looks smart already.

Oh, I know.

It's amazing.

I want to feel.

I mean, can I?

Of course you can.

Here, let's find the head.

Give me your hand.

I think it's over here.

Can you feel it?

Oh my god, that was it?

I know, she's moving.

That was her.

She's totally moving.

Oh my god, oh my god.

Ah, that's so cool.

Don't scare her.

You're screaming.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

OK, I just got a call from my agent.

They want me back at "Pretty Sinners."

Well, that's great.

What about your album?

It's just a guest spot, three episodes.

HILLARY: Good.

Apparently I have like a big internet presence or something.

CC, that's great.

Why are you looking like that?

Because I have to be in LA like now

and I don't know what to do.

What do you mean you don't know what to do?

You're going to take the job.

That's great.

I've got like 10 more weeks before this happens.

We're good, just promise me you'll be there for the birth.

I would never miss that.

Really?

Never ever, ever, ever.

HILLARY: OK, I believe you.

I mean, you know, time is not really your thing,

but I believe you.

OK.

So has the director tried to sleep with you yet?

I'm not really into chicks.

Oh, you will be.

Oh my god.

Oh my god, it's happening.

Why do you have a pager?

I don't have the time or the crayons to explain this to you.

I have to go.

I have to go.

Just kill me off again if you have to.

CC, what the hell?

Keep breathing.

Good, good, good, good.

Yeah.

I'm trying to stay calm.

You're doing-- you're doing good.

Jesus, there you are.

There you are.

Oh my god.

Why do you always do this to me?

What?

- You are always late-- - I am not.

HILLARY: --for every single thing.

You're like a week late.

No, for every single thing, you're always late.

CC: You're later than any of us have been.

Don't you remember that time in the restaurant

when you left me in the lobby that entire time and I waited

for you and I waited?

No, why do you always bring that up?

'Cause because.

You know, I was getting a manicure and the lady

next to me, she stole my bag and I had no keys and no phone

and no money.

What was I supposed to do? - Do you believe this?

CC: Teleport to you?

This is my best friend and she's always late.

- She needs-- she needs quiet. - Are we doing anything?

Is she OK?

Why isn't anyone doing anything?

There's nothing to do except to have a baby.

OK.

Nothing to do.

Yes, there's nothing to do.

Ah, uh, uh, I think I'm ready to push.

OK, I'm ready to push.

Get down there.

Am I dilated?

Is it time?

I don't know, but I hope you went to the bathroom.

DOCTOR: You're good.

Oh god, ready.

DOCTOR: OK, yeah.

1, 2, 3, [screaming].

Hi.

Oh hi.

Oh, yes.

Oh, I know.

Look at us.

It's all so new.

She's magical.

Oh my God.

Victoria Cecilia Whitney.

Thank you for that.

I love you.

I love you.

Tory Cecilia Whitney, what are you up to?

I'm trying to see if this one should go here

or if it should go here.

How about there?

Check.

Ugh.

No, don't beat yourself up.

You just have to keep practicing.

It takes time to learn this game.

It's time for bed.

The sooner you go to bed, the sooner it's morning,

the sooner school's out.

I can't be that bad, is it?

You only have three weeks left.

Summer's better.

I know what you mean.

Mommy's exhausted.

I'm egg-hasuted too.

Well, good, because it's time for you to go to bed.

[laughter]

TORY: Love you.

I love you too, baby.

You're perfect.

Dream big and broad and--

--and wide and beautiful.

That's right.

Good night.

Good night.

MAN: And now our next guest.

You know her from "Pretty Sinners" with her hit song,

"Last Time," touring her second album.

Please give it up for CC Bloom.

(SINGING) Oh, why you look so sad?

Tears are in your eyes.

Come on and come to me now.

Don't be ashamed to cry.

Let me see you through 'cause I've seen the dark side too.

When the night falls on you you don't know what to do.

Nothing you confess can make me love you less.

I'll stand by you.

I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you.

Mom.

Tory, baby, I cannot commit to having a permanent sleepover

for the entire summer.

Mommy is tired.

You're always tired.

Now please, go get ready.

We're late.

Hillary?

Hillary?

Yes?

The social worker and the advocate are upstairs.

Oh great.

Do you think we can get a room?

Because I'd love to go over a couple of things.

We're in session in less than 10 minutes.

Right.

OK.

I'll be-- I'll be ready.

OK.

Thank you.

Hillary?

Hillary!

Someone call an ambulance.

It's OK.

It's OK.

It's OK.

You're gonna be OK.

You're gonna be OK.

You're gonna be OK.

OK, thank you.

Thank you.

(SINGING) I get angry, too.

Well, I'm a lot like you.

You're standing at-- Rick, just give me a little bit more

high end in my ears.

Don't know what-- yeah, a little less reverb--

oh-- that's nice, I like that--

I stand by you.

I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you.

I'll stand by you.

What's wrong?

I-- I have an emergency.

Get-- uh, tell Frank to get the car.

Frank, we need CC's car.

I'm sorry guys, I--

I got to go.

Here's your bag, should just be right down there.

Hillary Whitney's room, please.

[cheering]

Well, what was she admitted for?

Well, is she-- you can't tell me how she is?

You called me, remember?

OK, well, can you at least tell me if somebody is with her?

You know what?

If I find out she's alone, I'm going to kill you.

And then I'm going to sue you.

And I'm never going to stop calling ever.

CROWD: CC, love you, CC.

I'm sorry, what's your name?

Yes, thank you, I will hold.

Come on, let's go.

Go.

[crowd shrieking]

Hillary Whitney, please.

They said she was up here.

Are you family?

Yes, I'm CC.

You called me.

She's right in there.

Hill?

You're here.

Thank you.

OK, so cardiomyopathy?

Hypertrophic cardiomyopathy.

Well, what can-- what are we gonna do about it?

Medication and rest.

I mean it-- no exertion, no strenuous activity

or situations.

Yeah, but what are we gonna do?

This doesn't seem like a very aggressive approach.

It's not.

Hillary?

We've placed Ms. Whitney on a donor list.

And?

Unfortunately, Ms Whitney has type O blood, which accounts

for less than 5% of donors.

It's a waiting game.

And given the advanced progression of her condition,

I believe it's unlikely we find an appropriate match.

So I'm treating her accordingly.

I'm sorry if this is overwhelming.

I don't think you're aware of this, but I'm very rich.

I can buy a heart.

CC, it's the same disease my mother had,

same age, same blood type.

I'll give you two some time.

Let us know if you need anything.

Hillary, unlikely doesn't mean shit.

We're not giving up.

There's nothing to give up.

It is what it is.

No, we haven't even gotten a second opinion.

She is the second opinion.

We'll get a third opinion, for God's sakes.

CC, not all strength is loud.

I want to Tory to the beach house.

I can't be alone.

I know you're touring.

I'll be there for however long you need.

OK?

Let me just go make some calls.

I'll be right back.

OK.

CC: I'm coming right back.

You made it.

You made it.

You've no faith in me.

CC?

Tory, hey.

Hey, babe.

Hey.

What are you doing here?

Where's Mom?

She's right in there.

Don't worry, we'll get-- we get to bring her home tomorrow.

You know what?

Give me your backpack and go say hi.

She can't wait to see you.

Thank you, baby.

Whew, maybe that's the last of it.

That doesn't go there.

It's going to be a long summer.

You don't want to stay the whole time if you don't want

to.

Mom?

Yes, what is it, Tory?

CC left her towel on the floor.

OK, well, pick it up.

Whenever I leave anything lying around,

you make me pick it up myself.

I know, Tory, but she's a guest.

CC: I haven't cooked in a long time, OK?

[inaudible]

It's not that bad.

OK, it's really bad.

[laughter]

You want to just make sure you have three sections, OK?

OK, I got it.

Sorry, honey, there you go.

One, two, three.

This is not gonna look as good as mommy's.

Ow.

Sorry, I just couldn't resist that.

One, two, two, two, two, one, [laughs] two.

I'm not so good at that game anymore, I guess.

We have the same hands.

We do, don't we, sweetie?

Come.

Is this-- what?

Sure.

All right.

Right.

Right.

Hill, it's 3:00 in the morning.

What are you doing, honey?

I'm trying to find a picture of my mother's hands.

I don't remember what they look like.

OK, we're gonna find it.

Because I was looking for the picture, and I--

look, I f-- I found her pearls.

CC, I'm really scared.

I'm scared.

We're gonna find it.

I have this picture of her hands, you know.

And I have had it since I was a little girl and I was trying

to find it and I couldn't.

I know that ha--

I saved the picture because I was

saving the picture for Tory.

I'm just trying to find the picture because I know that I

have it.

I can't find-- look at her.

Yeah.

CC: Is that it?

Thank you.

[chuckles]

Yeah.

Oh, that's good.

Yay.

One more time to do it.

Wait, I can do it.

Watch.

Ah, ha-ha.

Oh my god, I'm never going to be able to walk again.

I'm gonna save you.

I'm gonna save you.

Not now.

I'm gonna save you, I promise.

Hey, you want to go to the pier?

We're going to the market later.

You know I can't walk that far.

Well, I can drive.

No, thank you.

Well, come outside because we're gonna test the kite.

And it's-- ah, it's so gorgeous out.

I'm fine where I am, CC.

Look, Hill, I know this is hard.

You don't know shit.

You don't know what it's like being trapped in a body that's

failing you, watching my baby go to you instead of me

when she needs something because you have energy and you--

and you have life.

You told me to go play with her.

HILLARY: I know what I told you, but I didn't

know I was gonna be this upset.

I didn't know it was gonna--

I didn't know it was gonna hurt.

Finally I find the one thing that I'm good at,

the one thing that brings me peace,

and I can't even do the job.

I'm not gonna be there to watch my little girl grow up,

to teach her how to drive, to take her to college.

Don't talk like that.

It's the truth.

Don't tell me not to talk like this because this is my truth.

Fine, you want to talk truth?

Stop feeling sorry for yourself.

You're dying.

Yeah, it sucks.

Yeah, it's actually the worst possible thing

I could ever have imagined.

But please stop acting like you're dead already.

Right now, today, you are still a beautiful little girl's

mother.

Look at this match.

Isn't it perfect to go with me--

It might go-- oh my gosh.

It's just--

It does.

Would you die?

Do you die?

Did you know that I used to sell these--

TORY: Really?

CC: --in Venice, yeah, when I was a little girl with my mom.

Yeah, so-- hey, that one's totally mine.

Hey, this is mine and you can't make me give it to you.

I will steal from a child.

You can't make me give anything to you.

Hey.

Hi, Mommy.

What are you up to?

CC's teaching me accessories.

Nice.

I like that blue one.

Get in line.

What do you mean get in line?

That's our favorite, too.

TORY: Here, you want to make one?

HILLARY: I do really quick.

See, you take at least one string and you find a color.

Imagination?

It is my memory, Ms. Whitney.

And my memory is very, very long, like it or not.

Well, I'm gonna depend on you for that.

It's foxed.

Right here, 18 down, foxed.

I've still got it.

CC: You don't have to show it to me.

I believe you.

HILLARY: I want you to see the proof.

[piano music]

Want to know the most magical thing about being a mommy?

What?

I'm always with you.

Really?

Mhm.

Do you remember that time when you were taking swim lessons

and you were so afraid to get in the deep end,

and then all of a sudden you got this courage

and you jumped in there?

You remember that?

Yeah.

Well, I was there.

And do you remember the time you broke your arm

and you didn't even cry one tear?

Yeah, not one tear.

That's because I was there.

So moms can go invisible?

It's not that I'm really invisible,

it's just that I am right here with you.

And you live right here in me, no matter what.

No matter what.

And there's nothing and no one that can change that.

I'm gonna be in here when you're 995 years old.

[laughter]

And you know your aunt CC loves you, yeah?

Yeah.

You know she's been my best friend ever since we were kids?

Really?

Mhm.

We met on the beach.

She knows every single thing about your mommy.

She knows the good stuff and the bad stuff.

And she knows-- she knows all of my stories.

You have stories?

You know I have stories, yes.

We all have a story.

Maybe one day she'll share it with you.

[glass shattering]

Hillary?

Hill?

Hillary?

Hillary?

Hillary?

Hillary, you fainted, honey.

(GASPING) I was just trying to get water.

It's OK.

No, no, no, no.

I just--

I just wanted some wat--

water.

OK, I need to take you to the ER.

You fainted.

No, no.

Hillary, I'm taking you to the hospital.

No, I want to be here with you, you.

Are you sure?

I'm sure.

OK.

Hi.

Hey.

Thank you.

No problem.

Oh.

What?

I want you to take Tory.

Hillary--

No, CC, before you say anything,

just please listen to--

to me.

I've thought about all of this.

I've thought about everything.

I know what I love about you.

I know what I hate about you.

I know everything about you.

You're my friend.

I want you to take Tory.

I'm--

You're gonna be great.

Look at me.

You're gonna be great, truly.

You can do this.

Of course.

I put it in my will.

Will you sleep with me tonight?

(SINGING WEAKLY) Oh come ye faithful.

[crying laughter]

I know you hate it, but come on, just sing it with me

one more time, please, one more time.

(SINGING) O come all ye faithful--

BOTH: (SINGING) --joyful and triumphant.

[MUSIC - IDINA MENZEL, "WIND BENEATH MY WINGS]

(SINGING) It must have been cold there in my shadow,

to never have sunlight on your face.

You were content to let me shine.

You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory

while you were the one with all the strength, beautiful face

without a name, beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you're my hero and everything

I would like to be?

I can fly higher than an eagle if you

are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?

You're my everything, everything I wished I could be.

Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle.

She actually thinks we'd be, uh, we'd

be really good together.

Will you stay here in my house?

No.

I understand if you don't-- you don't want to come live with

me.

I don't know what kind of parent I'd be.

I'm selfish.

You know I can't cook.

I don't know what she was thinking--

not that I don't want you to come live with me.

I do more than anything.

I love you very much.

CC?

Yeah?

If I come live with you, are you gonna change your mind?

No way.

Are you kidding?

Cross my heart.

I promise you.

Your mom was stuck with me for 30 years.

Now you're gonna be stuck with me, too.

OK.

I'll come live with you.

[music - "the glory of love"]

CC: (SINGING) You've got to give a little, take a little,

and let your poor heart break a little.

That's the story of, that's the glory of love.

You gotta laugh a little, cry a little

before the clouds roll by a little.

That's the story of, that's the glory of love.

As long as there's the two of us,

we've got the world and all its charms.

And when the world is through with us,

we've got each other's arms.

You got to win a little, lose a little,

and always have the blues a little.

That's the story of, that's the glory of love.

That's the story of, that's the glory of love.

All right, so what did you think?

How'd I do tonight?

You did amazing.

Really?

You look like Miss America.

Oh wow, that's a compliment.

I like your skirt.

Did you take it from my closet?

Maybe.

Maybe not.

Did you know that the song that I closed with tonight

was the first song I ever sang to your mom?

I was singing it to her when we met.

Really?

Mm-hmm.

We weren't that much older than you, really.

Did you know that?

Yeah.

We were, um, were in Venice Beach.

And your mom is trying to hide from her au pair, which

is kind of like a fancy word for nanny, I guess.

My mom was hiding from her nanny?

Yeah, and her dad.

She was so much more adventurous than she ever gave herself

credit for.

And what were you doing?

Well, I was street performing, of course.

I was trying to be sneaky about it because it's not exactly

legal.

And they'd already picked me up earlier that week.

Oh.

Yeah, and then when I finished this song, she said--

YOUNG HILLARY: You have an amazing voice.

YOUNG CC: Really?

YOUNG HILLARY: I'd be bummed if we never talked again.

You're the best person I've ever met.

YOUNG CC: That's the best thing anyone's ever said to me.

YOUNG HILLARY: Bye, CC.

YOUNG CC: Bye for now, Hillary Whitney.

[somber music]