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[upbeat music playing]

♪ Oh, baby, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ Get enough, oh, oh, oh Get enough… ♪

You're really out here plating DoorDash. I just love how extra you are.

-You don't know what I'm doing. -You're right, I don't.

You have no idea what's happening behind you.

-This is like ASMR right now. -I know.

[upbeat music continues]

[Zaina] Okay.

Wow.

I woke up early and made us breakfast from scratch.

In three minutes.

[Zaina] You deserve it.

♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, get enough ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh, get enough, oh, oh ♪

♪ Can't get enough ♪

♪ Can't get enough of you Yeah, yeah, yeah… ♪

-Can we come up with a handshake? -Yeah.

[Aria] Something like this, like this, like this, and then…

[both laughing]

[Caleb] I don't promote those types of activities.

[upbeat music continues]

It's been a brutal couple weeks, for sure.

I can't imagine how this can get much worse unless

I don't know, I get hit by lightning or something.

Nah, it's-- I'm too dark and moody.

It's too happy.

[laughs]

♪ Can't get enough of you ♪

[dramatic music plays]

[upbeat music playing]

[J.R. grunts, laughs]

[music fades]

What's your expectation surrounding social media in a marriage?

Oh, that's a good question.

If you're my husband, you're posting me.

And I'm posting you. Like…

I think the female could post, but the male shouldn't be obligated to.

That's the dumbest thing you've ever said.

[laughs]

Like, actually why? Explain that right now.

-[laughing] -What?

I know people, they don't want to put that out there

because they don't want people contacting their wife. I get that.

Is it because you found out your ex-wife was cheating?

-'Cause you went through her phone? -Yeah.

That's why I don't want to share phone passwords.

I don't want to know what's in your phone,

because I don't wanna see what you're doing behind closed doors.

Are you scared you're gonna see something you don't want to see, or…?

Yeah, like, my ex is beautiful,

so I'm sure people will reach out to her in DMs.

Like, okay, but I don't want to see it because I know it's going to trigger me.

Right.

-It's hard to handle that stuff, you know? -Yeah.

But you can't hold on to things.

You need to be able to let go of the past.

Yeah. I think going through this trial marriage with you

has opened my eyes to a lot of things.

That's what you need in a partner, someone that's gonna listen to you

and give you real, authentic feedback, and that's what I appreciate about you.

Has this process, like, made you think deeper about marriage?

For sure. Like, I don't think that it has to be so scary.

I have actually been trying to lead with my heart.

I've always been like,

"It's so hard for me to be vulnerable,"

but through this, I'm like, I can be super vulnerable.

I don't care. It's actually not even, like, weird or hard for me.

Right. I think we make it easier for each other.

Yeah.

[tender music playing]

It's wild.

I do want to be married, I do want kids, I want a family.

-Mm-hm. -I want that, like, soon-ish.

I feel like now that we're here, and we're talking about it so much,

I am excited to, like, start that chapter of my life.

That's a really exciting period.

Wow, I feel like that's the first time I've heard you outright say that.

-Yeah. -Shows that you're evolving as a person.

That's deep. I get excited at that, though, too.

♪ I'm so glad I found you here ♪

♪ Because I'm ready for your love ♪

♪ As long as I got you ♪

♪ We're down to do too much ♪

♪ Oh, I just need your love ♪

♪ Whoa, I wanna try again… ♪

-[Belen] Wow! -Okay. Hi!

-[Zaina] Hi, friend. -Hi!

[Zaina] Hey.

-You look so good. -[Zaina] Good. This is my trial husband.

Nice to see you. What's up?

-This is my sister. -[Hannah] Oh, hello.

-[Zaina] Obviously. -[laughs]

Okay, can you give us some context?

-We know nothing. -[Zaina] You know nothing!

-[Hannah] I wanna hear from the beginning. -[Zaina] Yeah.

We each came in here with our partner, and we had to break up immediately.

And then we just had to dive into the dating scene.

We're both on the same side of the ultimatum.

-He issued an ultimatum. -[Scotty] I issued the ultimatum.

I did, obviously.

We have the same vision of how we want marriage to look like.

[Jarrad] Why did I just get chills?

-We both did-- There are chills! -Stop!

-There are actually chills! -There are! [laughs]

So, what drew you to Zaina?

-I mean, we were at the pool, and then… -[tender music playing]

It was a hot day. And I had my date with Zaina.

-Then it became a hotter day, obviously. -That was cute.

[laughs]

First, I think she was very open and honest.

Everything that she shared about who she is,

why she wants what she wants, why she's ready to be a wife,

has all been consistent with our trial marriage experience.

[Hannah] How long were you in your relationship?

-[Scotty] Three years. -Okay.

Are there things that you see in Zaina that are lacking in your…

in that relationship?

You're getting into the deep questions quick.

I think one of the main differences in Aria's case,

she's had a lot of difficult and challenging relationships with men.

So, I think, a large part of our relationship has been me almost

trying to prove her wrong.

I feel like with Zaina, she has a different level of life experience

and the emotional maturity that comes with that life experience.

[poignant music playing]

We chose each other because we wanted to challenge each other.

He's pointing out things about me that I didn't even recognize.

I'm able to tap more into my emotions

and not see it as something I need to conceal or hide.

To be vulnerable is not a weakness.

I've learned a lot, y'all.

-[music fades] -You're kind of speaking of Zaina, like…

You're liking what she brings to the table.

Is that now changing your mind on whether you're ready to get married to Aria?

If you had to answer tomorrow, what would you say?

To be honest, I don't know.

And I think part of the not knowing is that because I'm able to recognize

that Zaina is an incredible woman.

I would never have chosen her

if I didn't think that there was something beyond the trial marriage

that could potentially unfold.

[romantic music playing]

♪ This life is a daydream ♪

♪ Our time is a precious thing… ♪

We can get really deep and talk about our past,

talk about our present, talk about our future.

What I want out of marriage has evolved.

[Hannah] I love J.R.

[music fades]

So, obviously, like, I'd be sad if they don't end up together.

[pensive music playing]

J.R., if he was to propose tomorrow, like, would-- essentially want that,

but do you feel like it's changed, or…?

If J.R. were to ask me tomorrow, the answer would be no.

[music fades]

I might leave here single.

Whew.

I might leave here with another person.

[romantic music resumes]

♪ Won't stop 'til we get it right… ♪

[Jarrad] I feel there's an energy there that I was surprised to see

just given that it's been such a short amount of time.

[Belen] When Zaina's with J.R., she's, like, very happy-go-lucky.

She's like that with Scotty too,

but I think she's a little bit more open to just, like, talking about her feelings.

I don't know what will happen, who either of them will walk away with.

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ When all is said and done… ♪

[Aria] This is cool. It's a whole setup.

You're always telling me you love fires.

And I was like, "What goes better with a fire…"

Than Arizona.

"Than beautiful company and s'mores?"

Have you ever played Chubby Bunny?

-That's a game? -Yeah, wanna do it?

How do you do that?

You put one in your mouth, then you say, "Chubby Bunny,"

then you put it, and you keep on doing it until whoever has the most in their mouth.

-Okay. We're doing this? -Yes.

[Aria laughs] Okay. Okay.

-Cheers. -Cheers.

[whimsical music playing]

[both laugh]

-Chubby Bunny. -[laughing]

Chubby Bunny.

Chubby Bunny.

Okay.

Ah…

[both laughing]

Wait. I can't do it.

Chubby Bunny.

[both laughing]

This is such a crackhead game.

Chubby Bunny.

Okay, you win.

-[music fades] -[both laughing]

Damn, that could hold a lot of… marshmallows.

I feel like we didn't get as much time together today.

-Aw, yeah, we didn't. -You know?

You missed me?

I did.

You've done everything you could to just make me feel comfortable.

If this is the extent you're willing to go to,

I can only imagine what that'd be like if…

you were married.

When I care about someone, I just care a lot.

Yeah, that's just how the heart swings, huh?

[Aria] Yeah. Just all in or nothing.

Something that impressed me about you was

you'll think about me when you're making food, like,

"Hey, if you're gonna be home, do you want this?" You know?

I was impressed by the way you think about me when I'm not there.

But it's mutual.

I don't know. Are you an affectionate person?

I, like, think so.

[poignant music playing]

If I'm standing behind you and, say, we're waiting in the grocery store line,

I might just put my hand on your back and lightly rub your shoulders.

Or noticing when your hair is in your face and, like, moving it out of the way.

What about you?

I feel like I could be better at it, honestly.

[music fades]

It's just allowing yourself to be a little more vulnerable.

-[tender music playing] -Why am I so nervous? I'm like…

-How do you wanna hold it--? -You good?

-Yeah. -Are you good? All right.

There you go.

Serious. This is serious stuff.

My heart's on the line.

♪ We're walking together ♪

♪ Through any weather… ♪

[Aria] Physical touch isn't just natural for me.

I'm sure it connects to, like, why I don't trust men.

But I feel like with Caleb, he's so open with me

that I don't have any type of distrust towards him.

♪ When the going gets tough… ♪

[Aria] If I'm being honest, I don't think off the bat I was super attracted to him.

The physical attraction came after.

We've just established a really awesome, unique, emotional connection,

and I couldn't be happier.

♪ When we're side by side ♪

[both laughing]

[music fades]

[pop music playing]

♪ Oh, when you saw me You had to have me ♪

♪ We're so attracted ♪

♪ So stop your acting ♪

♪ I'll do you longer than any lover ♪

♪ I'll love you harder ♪

♪ 'Cause if you choose me I'll make it… ♪

One, two, three.

-[laughing] -Oh, my God. This is a setup.

[music fades]

Bruh. You need to let me know that you're good at everything.

-I'm not good at darts! -Getting tired of this.

[music resumes]

[Sandy] Stop looking at your muscles.

-I'm not. I'm listening to you. -Stop flexing muscles.

I'm not flexing.

-No. Oh, my God. -I'm not flexing. I swear.

[Sandy laughs]

Can you tell that my butt's wet?

-No. -It's dark. You can't see anything.

-Yeah, it probably is. -Mm-hm.

-If you want me to look at your butt, ask. -No, I would never.

[both laugh]

♪ It's you and me against the world ♪

♪ You're my boy and I'm your girl ♪

♪ Whoa, you and me ♪

[music fades]

-What? Hello! -[Liz] Hey!

-[Sandy] My God, your guys' plan! -You look so good.

-How are you? I'm J.R. -Oh, hi!

-Nice to meet you! -Lori, right?

-Lori. Nice to meet you. -Pleasure to meet you as well.

-[Carley] I like those earrings. -Thank you.

-The whole hair thing. -I know!

-I appreciate that. -Put some blonde in it.

[Sandy] Got it going on.

-So what do you do? -[Liz] Yeah.

I'm an entrepreneur. I have my own fitness business.

-[Liz] Nice. -Personal training, online coach.

Check out these.

-[women whooping] -[chattering excitedly]

-My mom's already been checking you out. -[Lori] Yeah.

I felt that when I, you know, got a little grab in there.

So, J.R. loves to do things with his shirt off.

-[Lori] Good. -I'm sure!

-Feel free. -"Feel free." [laughs]

-You guys are vibing, huh? -[Sandy] So…

-Oh, we're vibing. -Tell us about your vibing.

-[Liz] Yes! -[J.R.] Literally my first date.

I think it was like love at first sight when I seen her walk over to me.

-[exclaiming] -Okay!

She had so much swag, and she was so confident.

I've never met someone I'm so connected to in such a quick time.

We're so different, but so similar…

-Yeah. Funny. -Both the same zodiac sign.

-We're a big Scorpio. -He's a Scorpio.

-We're one week apart. -I've never talked to another Scorpio.

First thing she said was like, "What's mine is yours."

-[Sandy] Yeah. It's true. -"It's ours, it's not mine."

-Every food I get, we can share it. -We're living together, like…

I'm like, "Wow, that's eye-opening."

We're sharing a bathroom, sharing a kitchen, sharing a bedroom.

I think we're taking it very serious.

-Yeah. -[J.R.] It does feel like we're married.

-I call her my wifey. "Babe." -[Liz] "Wifey!"

Wifey.

-Do you come together, debrief the day? -Yeah.

We could talk for hours just about our days and our thoughts.

We get really deep.

[Sandy] We think the same, you know?

I think that's really important for me in a partner and in a marriage.

-[J.R.] Yeah. -[Lori] I wanna talk to him. Do you mind?

-No. -[Lori] I'm gonna get the real scoop.

Look at his cute rose tattoos. He has rose tattoos on his hands.

Like, rose on those?

-[Liz] We love roses in our family. -[Lori] Oh my.

What is that?

-It's Latin for "Fortune favors the bold." -[Liz] Ooh!

[Sandy] It's cute.

-He has the serenity prayer. My favorite. -I have a sacred heart, as I'm religious.

I like you're religious.

What religion are you?

My dad was a pastor.

-Pastor's kid. PK. -So growing up a PK. Yeah.

-She knows what PK is. -I know that term. I know what PK is.

[Sandy] It's been nice through this whole experience.

Like, I mean, in my relationships, it's like this, emotional, like…

And again, I've never been with somebody like J.R. where it's just, like,

he's really strong, like, mentally, and he's very grounded and stable.

-And it's just really… -[Lori] It's nice?

Yeah.

It's nice to see somebody actually willing to pull some weight.

-Yeah. -Shots fired. [chuckles]

She spends so much of her energy helping other people,

but it's, like, in a partner, you can't give, give, like…

Keep giving, yeah.

I've watched her give for three years. I'm like, "Okay."

There's gonna be no gas left in your tank. You gotta receive at some point.

She's such a strong person, and that's what I appreciate about her.

I know, but he's a sweetheart.

I'm only a sweetheart to people I care about.

I know, but you're so open with me, and, like, I see who you are.

Yeah.

And obviously you have, like, your shell on the surface,

and, you know, you gotta protect, and you can go really deep, like…

-[Liz] Which you love. -[Sandy] Which I, like, I need that.

-How does it feel when you let it out? -[J.R.] It feels weird.

I met her two weeks ago, and this is the most…

-[Liz] Deep diving her deepest… -This is the most vulnerable I've been.

It also feels good 'cause I know she cares about me on a deeper level.

I mean, are you actually serious about maybe walking away together,

like, as a couple?

All this shit is very real.

-Like, it's very, very real. -It's very real.

J.R. and I have developed, obviously, such a close connection,

and I just feel we have a lot of respect for each other.

Yeah. It's gonna be really hard. I have to make a decision.

Right.

[poignant music playing]

-Is the grass always greener? -[Carley] Yeah.

Is it?

[Lori laughs]

It is. It is.

[music fades]

[cell phone beeping]

[tense music playing]

[Nick] I found out that J.R. had met Sandy's mom, and that rocked me.

[cell phone beeps]

I came into this experience very sure of myself.

[line dialing]

I'm just experiencing what it's like to sit in your own stuff.

[sniffles]

Oh my God.

Right now, it's a lot of chaos.

[line dialing]

[Sandy] Hello?

[Nick] Sandy?

I'm in love with you, and I'm very scared.

[cell phone beeps]

Sandy?

Hello?

[sniffles]

Hello?

I love Nick so much, and I respect him and our relationship.

And clearly, Nick was very hurt tonight, which I feel bad about that.

Like, I feel guilty.

[Nick] Why are you mad at me?

But at the same time, we knew what we were signing up for.

You know, he brought me here.

So, I'm gonna just lean into my trial marriage with J.R.

and really get some answers on what I want for myself.

That's part of the process, then we'll come back together

and do it again with each other.

[Sandy] What?

[Nick] Why are you punishing me? I have done literally nothing wrong.

[Sandy] Because you're blowing me up, and it's disrespectful.

[Nick] If you're over me, there's no reason for me to stay.

[poignant music playing]

I have to sit with the feeling of being threatened in this experience

because J.R. is the biggest threat to me.

She has no threats 'cause there's nobody here.

It's frustrating. It's threatening. It's weird. I'm like, I'm over it.

It's just a lot of fucking feelings.

Oh my God. I'm done!

[poignant music continues]

[Nick wails]

[music turns tense]

[door slams]

[chime]

[knocking on door]

[knocking continues]

[door opens]

[J.R.] What's up?

[Nick] I gotta see her.

[J.R.] No. Get the fuck outta here.

[door slams]

[knocking on door]

[J.R.] Bro, she doesn't want to talk to you.

[Nick] Are you kidding me?

Sandy?

-[Sandy] Okay, we're not doing this. -[Nick] I don't care.

[Sandy] You need to leave. Seriously, this is so not fair.

-It's not okay. -[J.R.] Why you showing the fuck up here?

[Nick] I don't know you. You don't know me. Stop it.

-You don't know my girl or any of this. -[J.R.] I know your girl.

-[Nick] Why did this… Oh, really? -[J.R.] Yeah.

It's not funny, man, come on.

-[Nick] You're not funny. -[J.R.] I know I'm not fucking funny!

Bro, leave. You're embarrassing yourself. Seriously.

[door slams]

[Sandy sniffles]

[J.R. exhales]

[Sandy] It's so disrespectful. I feel so, like, violated.

He wants me to go home.

That's so fucking unfair.

[J.R.] I'm trying to embrace this experience with Sandy.

I'm not gonna let her ex come in and demand to talk to my wife.

So I take that seriously,

and it's very disrespectful to what we have built so far.

-[J.R.] You wanna block him? -[Sandy] I just did.

[poignant music playing]

[sobbing]

Why? Why? Why?

Oh, my God. Oh, my fucking God!

[Nick wailing and sobbing]

[tranquil music playing]

♪ Like the pages flow I don't know ♪

♪ Recognize ♪

♪ There's a million different colors For a million different eyes ♪

♪ Let's do this ♪

I literally, like, lay in bed being like, "God, please let Scotty act like Caleb."

-[laughs] -"Please. Please." [laughs]

-No, you don't. -Yes, I do!

-Yeah? -Yes, I do!

-You're wild for that. You're wild. -[both laugh]

I am very, very curious. Like, very, very curious.

-What? -If anyone else is experiencing this.

What do you mean?

I didn't anticipate finding someone that I'd be so connected with,

and that I'd feel so comfortable around.

[tender music playing]

This time won't be forgotten.

So I feel like us, like, holding hands, it just feels, like, way more intimate.

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh… ♪

And I feel like the way that you rub my hand, it calms me down.

It also kind of soothes me to, like, do that.

It was like I was actually getting to see the real you.

And I think it's beautiful.

I just want to make sure that you and Mariah feel respected.

-Mm-hm. -That's like at the forefront of this.

[Caleb] I'm big on loyalty, and my loyalty is to Mariah,

but I feel confused because I didn't anticipate having a…

I would say, like, an emotional connection with Aria.

-We're lucky. -Yeah, we're lucky.

[pop music playing]

♪ Lift me up where I can't be seen ♪

♪ Take me somewhere no one knows me ♪

♪ Help me and come ♪

♪ We're going higher And higher and higher now ♪

[music fades]

[Zaina] Busy day?

Yeah. It's like I got a lot of work done, but I'm still stressed.

-Same. I'm, like, trying to catch up. -Um…

And I really want to, like, organize the closet today.

No ifs, ands, buts. We can make it a group activity.

You know what, we should do something out of the house.

Like a hot air balloon trip together.

Not a hot air balloon. [laughs]

Okay.

Like, I would probably have major anxiety in a hot air balloon.

It won't be enjoyable. I'd probably be freaked out.

What about cryotherapy? Have you done cryotherapy before?

What I know about me is that I don't like being cold.

So that's something I don't enjoy fundamentally.

I mean, I could research cryotherapy. I'm sure there's a ton of benefits.

It's just not something I'm like,

"Oh, my God, that's something relaxing that I want to do."

No more cryotherapy talk. I'm over it.

-You feel me? -What are you talking about?

Like, I'm over that shit.

[tense, pensive music playing]

If you don't wanna get taken out, just say that. It's all good.

Do you feel like your ideal date is going out to dinner and shit?

No, I'm down to do fun stuff, however…

Well, I'm feeling we might have slightly different definitions of fun.

What does 32-year-old fun look like?

Okay, let's not put an age with fun. Cryotherapy, to me, is not fun.

-You shut down a lot of date ideas. -[music stops]

One that involved extreme… cold, and another in an air.

You sounded disgusted by it, you know what I'm saying?

Yeah, but that has nothing to do with you.

That was just, like, my raw reaction to the idea of being in a hot air balloon.

But everything else, like the thought behind it,

I appreciate that.

I don't want to dismiss

the thought and the effort of trying to do something new and exciting.

I have a problem with rejection.

[poignant music playing]

I think, in part, it's because I got so much validation as a kid.

-You felt that was a form of rejection? -For sure.

-Something on your list I didn't wanna do? -Definitely.

That was not something that I ever want you to feel.

This side of Scotty I've never seen before in our trial marriage.

We're still learning each other, so just because I turned down two ideas

doesn't mean that it was some sort of rejection.

[Scotty] Did you eat without me?

Yeah.

-I figured you ate without me. -You figured wrong.

[Zaina] It changed the tone of the whole conversation.

I was just really confused by this last conversation.

This is just not…

-Not what I looked for in a trial wife. -I left you this morning.

Someone that just eats without me.

[dramatic music playing]

♪ I could take you down ♪

♪ If you try… ♪

[man] Upcuts, hooks, straight, practice, your aggression.

-Whatever you want. -Okay.

-Relive it. -Okay.

♪ So come and find me… ♪

We're getting towards the tail end of our trial marriage,

so I keep telling myself seven more days, six more days until I reunite with Caleb.

I would say I'm ready.

♪ Never mistake me ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ So come and find me ♪

It's not like I'm having the same experience

as the other men or women.

I'm in a tailspin of emotional chaos, and at this point,

I'm just taking whatever steps necessary to heal.

You're a stud.

-[exhales] -I feel like I'm catching my breath.

-Oh, my gosh. [groans] -[music fades]

Definitely feel better now I just put J.R.'s face right there,

and I was like, boom. All right.

I very much like boxing for that reason. Like, I feel like I envision my anger,

the person, whatever it is, into the bag, and it feels good.

The other night, I went into, like, a full-blown tailspin,

and, uh, I fucking freaked out.

-Mm-hm. -And I went to their door and…

-What? -Yeah.

J.R.'s like standing in front of her and, like, talking shit to me

as if it's his chick.

-I'm like… -Yeah.

[exhales]

-Like… -[poignant music playing]

-I can only imagine. -Oh, that was a lot.

That was a lot. Like, the boys' night out, I'm like, oh, my God.

-I completely forgot about that. -Oh, my God. Um…

It's gonna be a little awkward.

-I have some issues with him, big time. -Yeah.

But more than anything, we're adults now,

and hopefully, we're not justifying these lash-outs.

You're right. You gotta just learn and grow from it.

Yeah.

♪ Everything… ♪

I am doing a lot of work, staying positive…

♪ If we have hope… ♪

There were definitely situations where I'd see Caleb and Aria on dates

and kind of in my line of view,

-That's hard. -My body was feeling anxious.

Going into this experience, I felt pretty confident and secure,

and like, "Oh, I got…" I mean, everybody almost low-key.

It seemed like that was the mentality going into it,

and then we get here, and everything's so real.

And it's not fun anymore.

[music fades]

The more I think about where Caleb's at, the more nervous I get.

There are times where I feel like, one, I'm hard to love, or I'm too much

because I want a deep connection with someone so incredibly bad.

That is gonna be my ride-or-die person.

I'm going to spend the rest of my life with them.

Why not understand their vulnerabilities and insecurities?

How can I support? How can they support me?

It's like an egg, something fragile, and you want them to take care of you,

and you take care of them.

-Now you're gonna make me cry. -[laughs]

-It's hard. It's definitely… -Yeah, that's, uh…

That is exactly what I'm dealing with right now.

Yeah. At the end of the day, we just want to be understood and loved.

And also loved in the really difficult moments.

-Like… -Mm-hm.

You just want somebody that's got your back through that,

and know that the next day is gonna come and they've got you.

[poignant music playing]

♪ Hold me under the stars ♪

♪ 'Cause what's mine could be yours ♪

♪ If you want it ♪

[music fades]

[Aria] How do you want me to approach this girl's night? Anything specific?

[Caleb] No.

So this is what I'm thinking about saying, but I don't know if you're…

I just don't want to…

[both laugh]

This is a little too premeditated.

Just because I've been thinking about it.

And I feel like it's because, at the same time too,

I don't want her to worry more.

At the same time, I don't want her to run it back, and then be like,

"Mm, you guys said it was solely a friendship."

I feel the dynamic.

Somebody could see that there's that chemistry. You know?

Because it's like she's not gonna see that chemistry until after the fact.

So I feel like, for me, I don't wanna come off as a liar.

[pensive music playing]

I feel like, what is it? Like, the friendship, but in a sense, too,

it's, like, I feel like I emotionally developed a connection.

And that's not a lie.

Um…

I probably wouldn't say that. I probably wouldn't go with that.

-The emotional connection thing. -You wouldn't?

-Mm-mm. -[cell phone rings]

But…

Oh, she's texting.

[Aria] I want to tell Mariah

I think that there's an emotional connection developing.

That's something that I can own up to and be truthful about.

But I think with Caleb, he just keeps on using friendship

and not being honest about it.

Aria's probably one of the last people Mariah would want to hear from.

Like, let me just talk to Mariah. She's navigating this experience alone.

I don't know if he feels guilt, or what he's going through,

but I don't think he's being honest with himself or Mariah.

I don't know. Honestly, overthinking it is not really a good…

Not going to be a good thing. Yeah.

[sultry music playing]

-[J.R.] Whoa! -[chuckles]

What do you think about this?

It's a girls night!

There's been a lot of emotions cooking up over the last couple weeks, and…

I feel like J.R. and I have connected… on such a deep level.

Sheesh!

You ain't wearing that out without me. That's too damn sexy.

It's just the ladies.

I think there's definitely some conversations that need to be had,

particularly between me and Zaina.

I'm a little nervous. I just don't really know what to tell her.

So, not looking forward to that, but it'll be fine. I'll get through it.

I wasn't expecting that.

[Sandy laughs]

Damn!

[sultry music continues]

♪ I'm shining ♪

♪ Hey, I keep the back ♪

♪ Come find me ♪

♪ Baby, where the money at? ♪

♪ One, two, three… ♪

[Sandy] Hello, my ladies. How is everybody?

-[Aria] Um, good. -[music fades]

I was surprised on how easygoing this whole process has been.

-[Sandy] Yeah. -How has it been for you?

[Sandy] It's like, what we're doing is so hard,

and your exes can really get in the way of your experience.

Like, Nick is alone

and hasn't respected what we both knowingly came into.

Right.

You're the one that brought me here, wanting to do this.

I feel like the handcuffs got so tight the second we got here.

I'm really frustrated right now.

That sucks. I'm sorry that you feel like your experience is getting shortened.

It's brought out really, really dark emotions, and, like,

it really hurts me.

It makes me… It's like I feel guilty. I'm confused. I'm scared. I'm sad.

I don't know what to do, you know?

[Mariah] So, we've been on a few activities,

and I definitely feel like he's very in his head.

Like, he's felt triggered. He's felt just probably not good enough.

He feels, like, just a lot of weight and heaviness, and…

and I guess, like, overall insecurity of the relationship.

-Yeah. -Which is understandable.

I really, truly wanted to help him, and he's poured himself into art,

which I've seen, but it's almost still escapism

or just a means to distract himself, so…

What a fucking idiot. I'm sorry, but what?

He's just escaping through art? You're not dealing with it.

If he can't show up for himself, how could he show up for me?

[tense, pensive music playing]

Now that I've gotten to know him,

do I think that he'd make for a good husband? I don't think so.

I'm so sorry to say that if that offends you, but I don't.

[dramatic music playing]

It's so wild to me.

♪ They say that in the darkness ♪

♪ There's a light ♪

♪ Though it's been a while ♪

♪ Since I've felt it shine on me… ♪

-[Caleb] How's it going, bro? -[J.R.] Good to see you're staying sane.

♪ If "hopes" is the word… ♪

[Nick] Boys…

-How you doing, man? -I'm very sorry.

-Huh? -I'm very sorry.

-Okay. We can talk about it. -[Nick] Okay.

I just… I really am. Man to man, I made a big mistake.

[music fades]

I know it's not clear,

but I'm not here to make enemies or fight,

and to be going through this alone is so fucking hard.

This is one of the biggest tests of my life emotionally.

Yeah.

I've never cried this much in my life. I've never been this spun out.

-I've never seen this version of myself. -[J.R.] Yeah.

I want to ask you why. Is it because she chose me?

No. Um…

No, no, no.

Maybe I'm seeing things one-sided. I haven't talked to you.

The only time I talked to you was when you came up to the apartment.

-That was… -Banging on the door.

Asking to talk to Sandy. I'm like, "What the fuck?"

-I lost all respect for you after that. -[dramatic music playing]

[Nick] You realize that I'm not the only guilty party?

Well, tell me about it. 'Cause I don't know.

There's been a handful of "I miss you"s and a handful of…

-Okay. -So it's not one-sided.

-[Nick] I'm owning it was a huge mistake. -I know. Just giving you my side.

-You saying you lost your respect for me… -[J.R.] At that point, I did.

-I get that. -[J.R.] It was disrespectful.

-It was disrespectful. -You came into our space.

Disrupted what we had going on

to pull her out and talk to her about God knows what.

-I didn't know you knew where we lived. -[Nick] Yeah.

-This is disrespectful. -Trust me, I wish I didn't.

I wish I didn't.

There's a lot of me that wishes I never signed up for this,

because I didn't need this.

I was very hopeful

that this was gonna be an opportunity for us to strengthen our relationship.

You really have to understand that this is the person

I thought I was gonna spend the rest of my life with, and she looked at you

in a way that she used to look at me.

And… I don't know how that's not heartbreaking.

[wistful music playing]

We were both issued ultimatums.

We both came here ready to embrace the experience.

That's one of the top reasons I chose her.

The way you react, I'm like, "He's making this easy for you

to make a decision on whether you want to get married to him or not."

I know. And I have to live with that.

I know you have a connection. It does scare me, obviously.

I don't know where your head's at with your ex,

but I hope you're getting the answers that you need.

[J.R.] I am. I've done a lot of soul-searching.

I learned a lot about myself through this process just by being with her.

[tense, pensive music playing]

She challenges me in different ways that I had not been challenged before.

She has a huge heart, and she really cares about me.

Her showing me that care, I was like,

"There's actually good people out in this world."

Like, she showed me so much about myself, and I'm learning from her every day.

-Yeah. -Her spirit, her soul, her confidence.

The way she cares, the way she listens, a lot of things that I was like, "Damn."

I see why you wanna marry her.

[dramatic tone plays then fades]

Yeah.

[J.R.] I don't know where I'm at.

I gotta go through this with Zaina to figure things out with her.

-What up, Scotty? -[Scotty] How you doing? What's up?

-What's up? Um… -[poignant music playing]

-I'm conflicted, dude. -Yeah?

You really have no clue what's going on on the other side of the walls.

[poignant music continues]

-[Zaina] I've been excited to talk to you. -[Sandy] Me too.

It's been… I don't know.

-It's been a lot to process. -I know.

I feel like it's just obviously a weird situation, you know?

At the end of the day, I'm supposed to be going through this with J.R.

I'm sure you are with Scotty too.

It was, like, meant to be, and I'm glad that y'all chose each other.

We both came in here knowing what we signed up for.

Like, Sandy's cool. If I was a lesbian, I would probably choose Sandy too.

-[laughing] Like… -[laughs] Trial wives, sister wives.

But my main priority was for J.R. to connect with someone

that could really help him through the process.

Yeah. Obviously, J.R. and I have, like, connected,

but at the end of the day, there's nothing between us other than

we are trying to get the most out of this experience for one another.

Genuinely.

We're not, like, hooking up.

[pensive music playing]

Him and I are not dating for real.

Trust me.

I'm trying to, like, train him on things, so that he could show up better for you.

Because I'm like, you deserve to have someone that, like,

isn't holding on to shit from past relationships or past marriages.

That's not fair to you.

[poignant music continues]

I'm battling his perception of, like, his past relationships.

Even when it comes down to marriage.

He made a comment before, like,

as soon as a woman gets a ring, they change up.

Is that consistent with my character?

But that's because he had one experience with that,

and he'll hold it with him till the day he dies.

-And that's his problem. -It is a problem.

With all the things that I've been experiencing with Scotty,

just, like, the validation and reassurance I get,

Like, "You will actually be an amazing wife and amazing mother."

I don't hear that from J.R.

[music fades]

I know he loves me, and I know he recognizes those qualities,

but it's not vocalized in our relationship,

and I realize that's something I do need.

And I need actions to back it up too.

If you really are like, "It is marriage or we break up," then stick to that.

[poignant music playing]

You know, you choose you.

[music fades]

I feel like everyone's wondering, "How is Caleb and Aria doing?"

We see you outside walking around together.

[pensive music playing]

[Caleb] We're chilling. I lucked out on her.

You got a good one, man.

[music fades]

Not catching no feelings for her?

[tense, pensive music playing]

It's just a friendship.

[music fades]

I thought I would walk into this experience,

and someone would for sure develop feelings.

When you said, "We built a friendship," I was like,

"For real?" I definitely was not expecting that one.

[pensive music playing]

[Caleb] You don't have to worry about me pursuing her in the romantic sense.

-I don't have that approach with her. -Interesting.

I came here to find out whether Aria and I are gonna get married.

[tense, pensive music playing]

In the event that she had a connection

that surpassed the connection we built over the past three years,

it is what it is because I know what I bring to the table,

and I know that somebody will see that.

If you already have that mindset, there's not much for me to say.

That's not a conversation for me, you know what I mean?

That's a conversation for you two to address on your own time.

[Scotty] If I'm being real,

I do not feel like there's been any heterosexual male that has met Aria

and only wants to be Aria's friend.

And I need that to be explicitly clear.

We're not here to make friends.

It just seemed very contrived.

[music fades]

I truly can appreciate Caleb, honestly, for the person he is.

Like, he's so calm. He's so respectful.

He's so in tune with other people's emotions.

This man is goofy. He is a goofy dude.

I love that he's okay with me telling him he's goofy.

Like, I feel like that was something that was not liked by my partner, Scotty.

I don't know if maybe it's that perception thing,

but he doesn't like that I call him goofy.

But I enjoy that in men

because I feel like we have that type of back-and-forth banter.

We've talked about deep stuff.

I told him literally so many things.

This is probably the most vulnerable I've ever been.

Yeah.

I think it's because we really started with a foundation of friendship.

-It's like no judgment. -Well, that makes me happy.

[poignant music playing]

He's told me about your guys' fights.

I'm not someone that needs, like, over-communication.

I don't need someone telling me what they're doing when they're on a trip.

He says that's something he's gotten with you

on multiple things that he's done by himself,

and he says he fears that that's gonna be his reality.

I seemingly thought it was healthy to be overly communicative,

and I think he was always thinking I just wanted to control.

It's not that, but it was my mindset. I was like, "I think it's healthy."

He doesn't feel trusted based on the communication you need.

-[tense, pensive music playing] -But I do trust him. Like, I genuinely…

He's never done anything to make me feel any type of way. It's just always been me.

What I was beginning to feel insecure about was an emotional insecurity

of just maybe I wasn't giving the connection that he was looking for.

Self-sabotaging habits came through hard because of the trauma I've also been in.

Well, something to notice, too,

is, when you're in toxic relationships or used to that,

when you're in your first healthy one, sometimes you become the toxic one.

I don't see myself that way.

I've only shown up authentically as me this entire time.

If that isn't what he's looking for, then that's not what he's looking for.

Do you feel like you've gotten the most out of this experience with him,

or do you feel like you have all the answers that you need?

Honestly, I think that Caleb has added

some confusion to my, uh, situation with Scotty.

And the reason why, I'd say,

is because I just do not fall super hard for people easily.

I think he's funny. He thinks I am. We're just going back and forth.

I feel like I have not laughed as much as I've laughed in my life.

When I came here with Caleb, I knew something wasn't quite working

on an emotional level, in a way, with our relationship,

so it's nerve-wracking to think of an emotional connection

that's greater than what Caleb and I have.

I feel like I had to address it, and I'm not someone who bites my tongue.

When she goes back, I think she'll see that there is some type of connection.

I think him not being honest to her now will hurt his relationship.

[music fades]

For me, I just want to truly feel heard,

and I think in the process with Caleb, I have felt that.

I feel he's kind of showing me things that maybe I didn't realize.

-Maybe I need this, you know? -[poignant music playing]

I feel like I wasn't prepared for that, honestly.

♪ Just you ♪

♪ It's you that I want… ♪

How you holding up, bro?

-[Scotty] Shit's a lot. I'm not gonna cap. -Yeah.

I'm one of two men that issued the ultimatum.

I want Aria to be honest with me about where she's at.

I do know, sometimes when we get in disagreements or arguments,

they're visceral,

and that's one difference I noticed about with Zaina is, like, she's just so calm,

and she's become more emotionally vulnerable.

What Zaina really needs in a man that she's gonna marry

is emotional vulnerability.

What we've created in the context of what we're doing

has nothing to do with my feelings or perception about you.

[J.R.] You sure?

-What? -I said, "Are you sure?"

[tense, pensive music playing]

-Yeah, I am sure. Why? What you mean? -I just heard some shit.

What did you hear? Let's get into it.

There's rumors going around saying I was only here for a hall pass.

Why do you think those rumors came from me?

'Cause they said Scotty said that.

You saying you heard that from Sandy?

[J.R.] No, I didn't hear it from Sandy.

-I see people in the gym, out and about. -What did-- You heard it from Zaina?

I'm not gonna tell you who told me. We'd be out, people be like,

"Scotty said you're here for a hall pass." I'm like, what the fuck?

Look, bro, what could possess me to be like, "J.R.'s here for a hall pass"?

You tell me. Are you saying that's not true?

It's absolutely not true.

What does that do for me? You feel me?

There's no reason for me to say that about you.

You could be building a connection with Zaina and be like,

"J.R.'s doing this or that," trying to fill shit in her head,

so she opens up more to you.

-[Scotty] You really think that… -It's very manipulative.

Whoever's telling you is the one who's manipulative.

-Yeah, sounds like… -[Scotty] Yeah.

It could be. That's what I'm trying to figure out.

I have no ulterior motives, and I get,

based on the escalation of how this conversation has gone,

you might not believe me.

There's nothing about Zaina where I'm like,

"If I just cast doubt on her relationship, maybe I could slide in there."

That's not who the fuck I am.

I'm sure the assumptions are adding up.

You see me and Zaina together, picking up packages, this, that, third.

I don't see y'all doing nothing. I've seen y'all once or twice.

Why are you mad, bro?

I'm not. Why are you calling me mad?

-I'm just asking a question. -You're clearly upset.

Yeah, I'm annoyed.

Why is my name in somebody else's mouth? Saying I'm here for a hall pass.

[Scotty] I'm trying to--

You don't know what's going on between me and Sandy. We have a real connection.

Does that mean you're sleeping together?

[tense, pensive music playing]

-In the same bed? Yeah. -No.

Everyone's doing that, right?

-I don't think that's what he's asking. -It's not what I'm asking.

I respect you and you bringing me the truth to it.

It also feels there's a part of you that wants us to not be together

and go be with her, and that's coming up for you.

-That's really challenging. -I don't know.

I'm telling you the truth of what we're going through.

I get that, but, like, what that does is confirm all of my worst fears.

So things that have been coming up, and I've been screwed up about, are true.

So it's validating all the fucked up shit that's going on in my head.

♪ There's a part of me That wants to burn it all down ♪

♪ There's a part of me That wants to see your soul drawn ♪

[J.R.] I have no decision in my head whether I'm proposing to Zaina,

whether I'm leaving with Sandy or by myself. I'm taking it day by day.

♪ There's a part of me That wants to burn it all down ♪

[music fades]

[poignant music playing]

I'm so in love with you.

♪ I don't wanna be alone tonight… ♪

[J.R.] The ultimatum is about to come to term.

You don't want to hurt the person you love.

You also wanna make sure you're making the right decision.

[Zaina] J.R.! I just found out you kissed another woman!

-We kissed twice. -[dramatic music playing]

[Nick] J.R. is the biggest threat to me.

[Sandy] I was going to tell you after filming.

When? After we got engaged?

♪ It's a cruel world ♪

[Caleb] I feel like you're hyper-focused on Aria's intentions towards me.

Yeah, it makes me so uncomfortable.

I'm at the point where I'm not gonna play this game.

♪ It's a cruel world ♪

If you feel like you don't want to propose anymore, that is on you.

I don't give a fuck if you love me. Are you trying to get married or not?

♪ It's a cruel world ♪

[Sandy] I'm being pulled in different directions.

I feel like my head is gonna explode.

♪ It's just the beginning ♪

[Scotty] This decision is monumental. It is life-changing.

[Caleb] It is hard to think this could end everything.

[dramatic music continues]

♪ Right now I cannot believe my eyes ♪

♪ Up here I can see a new horizon ♪

♪ So long I've been waiting for the lie ♪

♪ Up here I can see a new horizon ♪

♪ New horizon ♪

♪ New horizon ♪