All language subtitles for Picket Fences s04e13 My Romance

Carter, come on. Please, I need some
help. I don't know what... Somebody get

some help.

Could you call 911, please?

Everything's set up.

Where's that first aid kit? I don't know
if you should be touching.

911's on the way.

They'll be here any minute.

Some fun, huh?

Grandpa Bill?

What are you doing here?

You're dead.

Hey, what do you say we kick back,
finish that model airplane we were

before I passed away?

We can do whatever we please up here,
and I'll answer any questions you throw

me, just like I used to.

Because to put it mildly, we got time.

Carter? Nothing. Carter, come on.

Carter, get that IV going.

Epinephrine and bicarbonate. I'll get it
ready. On my way.

Dr. Joanna Diamond, this man is my
patient. How long since he stopped

A little over a minute. Stop the
compressions.

All right, we're going to defibrillate.
Here's the paddle.

Charge.

Okay, clear.

Clear.

Check the pulse.

Again, fibrillation 300.

Clear.

Again. Charge.

Clear. Clear.

Damn it, Carter.

How can I be dead?

Oh, I wouldn't put too much stock in
dead, Carter.

Dead isn't really a thing.

Oh, the body dies, but that's never what
it was all about.

You just merged with the infinite.

Merged with the infinite? Infinite what?

Just regular plain infinite.

You're saying there's life after death?

You betcha.

Come on.

Okay, okay.

Then what's the point of life on Earth?
Why all the suffering and messiness, the

pain? Why bother? Why not skip straight
to this?

Because you've got to learn.

That's what real life is for.

To learn.

Learn what?

How to love.

The infinite's mainly love, Carter.

So, what do you say we go fishing for a
few million years?

I've been missing you, boy.

Wait. Wait, Grandpa Bill.

What about the problem of evil?

The origin of the universe. The whole
free will question.

Grandpa Bill, come back.

Come to mama. Come to mama.

Come back.

Five.

He's back. Get him to the hospital. All
right, one.

Keep the drip going.

Keep an eye on his vital signs.

Don't worry about the burns. Just keep
him breathing.

Lost you for a little while there,
fella. You gave us good scare.

Two more minutes, I would have missed my
pedicure.

Okay,

boy.

And it's live.

I'll start IV with an 18 gauge.

Thank you, all of you, for welcoming us
so warmly to Rome Junior High.

She's going to be staying with us.

What? What, like your house?

With her.

Is that her music tutor?

In a moment, Alyssa will play for you
Bach's Cello Suite No. 1 in G Major.

But first, I'd like to tell you... I
hope this goes not majorly close.

It's my mom's idea, obviously.

By the age of... Seven, Alyssa had
mastered Elgar's challenging cello

in E minor.

See her junior high synopsis letter
looking for a host while she's touring

schools? It turns out my mom isn't even
going to be here because she has this

medical conference all week.

Shh!

And so, playing for you Bach's suite,
number one in G major for unaccompanied

cello,

Miss Alyssa Min.

Whoa, time out.

You can totally see the outline of her
bra.

What's going on? What'd they do?

The tour bus was on the way to Door
County and had an accident when Carter

jumped in front of it.

Now they're stranded till it gets fixed.

Why are you booking them?

They're not booked. The mayor felt bad
for them. She made hotel arrangements,

set up some tours of people's gardens,
the courthouse.

This isn't a jail tour.

Douglas Fombo for the over -the -hill
gang.

You know all that, huh?

Look at these ladies.

As beautiful as they are bad.

Oh, yeah, Katie.

Because it's totally obvious.

The way he totally lusts after you. The
way he looks at you.

Well, it's a shame Jill couldn't be
here.

Um, Alyssa's parents were sorry they
couldn't make it, too, but, um...

There were commitments.

Oh, like you haven't noted.

Matthew!

She's just discovered girls.

Could you pass the salad, please?

Sorry. It's okay. I got it.

It's okay.

Matthew,

please.

Have, like, food between my teeth?

No.

Oh, because you were looking at me
like... No.

Oh, so I was, um, just wondering, you
know, um... Do you

practice a lot?

Do you practice a lot?

Well, does she?

Of course she practices a lot. Obviously
she practices a lot. She played with

the Milwaukee Philharmonic.

She must think I'm a total idiot.

I should have mentioned my trombone.

Why didn't I mention my trombone?

How do you just mention a trombone?

She probably only goes for Korean guys
anyways.

Plus 13.

What?

She definitely does practice a lot.

Sue.

You're going to be okay, Carter.

Dr. Joey says you're going to be just
fine.

I tried to talk to you.

I was there.

You were there.

The most amazing thing happened to me.

With a winter garden, you have a shift
in priorities.

Other seasons, it's about show, color,
variety.

But not winter.

Winter is about form.

Skeletons of trees, the lie of your
fence.

Now, many people think it's the best
time of the year.

How long does your tiniest viburnum
flower?

Well, it'll flower all winter if the
ground doesn't freeze too deep.

Do you mulch?

Well, I use...

I use

my regular compost, which... Oh, excuse
me. I lost my train of

thought.

Don't worry about it. We're running late
anyway.

Thank you for the tour, Judge.

Thank you, Judge. Okay. Bye.

Good God.

Emily?

So, there I am, hovering over my own
body, and I'm watching the tractor's

mash me into the ground, and the blades
of the rototiller going...

up toward my head.

Hold still.

Excellent veins, man.

Anyway, the rototiller rips my scalp
right off my skull. I'm hearing my mom

screaming. Meanwhile, no pain.

And then, there's this white light, just
like what you saw.

Now hold that up.

You look pale, buddy.

Anyway, one thing leads to another.

And then I meet the dolphin.

The dolphin?

He's waiting for me on the other side.

We swim. We do those dolphin flips.

We talk.

And then

Jake tells me. Jake?

The dolphin's name is Jake. Uh -huh.

So Jake goes, Serge, my man.

Well, obviously, this is all in dolphin.

Right.

God is love.

Let the love you feel in your heart show
itself to all you meet.

And, uh... Well, that's what I try to
do, man.

You stay with the light, brother.

I got a bedpan to change 205.

Isn't that a beautiful story?

What?

Yeah.

I lost my nerve back there in your
garden.

Hello, Henry.

You look the same.

I have nine toes in the grave.

It's been a long time.

Over 50 years, God help us.

Oh, here, come on.

Why don't you sit down over here?

Thank you.

Well, well, well.

Emily Ridgefield.

Porter.

Oh, yes, yes.

I remember.

Dale Porter.

Don't make any of your crack.

He was a very good husband, as it
happened.

I'm sure he was.

He died then?

Last year. Heart attack.

I'm sorry.

How did you know that I was in Rome?

I had no idea.

Until I learned that your garden was on
our tour.

I'd lost track of you, you know.

You never did write from college.

Well, you eloped before I had a chance
to pick up a pen.

Is this your wife?

Mm -hmm.

May.

She, uh... She died some years ago.

Beautiful woman.

So, you actually met someone who's good
enough for you.

Not a Harrisburg girl, that's for
certain.

And you.

How many proposals did you get that
summer?

Five or six?

It was only four.

Johnny Bradshaw proposed twice.

Don't you remember?

You sat in front of me, making a list of
all of them.

Virtues, defects.

You treated me terribly, you know. Well,
not as horribly as you treated them.

I was useless that summer.

You used to say I was the most useless
girl in the world. Well, you were.

I'd never seen anything like it.

You were so glad to get away from here.

Go to college.

That last night when you came over to
say goodbye, you hung around my porch

the night doing absolutely nothing
except abusing me terribly.

Oh, no, no, no.

Abusing? No, no, no. That was a long
time ago, Emily.

Yes.

Well, you must have a lot of things to
do. Oh, no, no, no. My work can wait a

while.

What do you say we have a cup of coffee?

I'll try to keep the abuse to a minimum.

All right. Let me get my coat.

Look.

How many children do you have?

Just one.

A boy, but he died.

Anyway, it was a better life here for a
family.

Grass, et cetera.

Do you have children?

Seven. Good Lord, seven.

There's not a whole lot to do in
Cleveland.

Yeah.

Thirteen grandchildren.

God almighty.

You're a dynasty.

Horrifying, isn't it?

Well, I did my best.

Now, I suppose they're all in therapy
now.

Isn't that required by law?

We talk on the phone and they visit.

Weekends and holidays.

There were times when they were little
that I thought I'd go crazy, but I look

back now and it seems like the best time
of my life.

Yes. Yes, it must have been quite
wonderful.

I always enjoyed talking to you.

Remember how we used to talk for hours
and then suddenly look up and it was two

o 'clock in the morning?

I thought I could say anything to you.

Absolutely anything and you'd
understand.

I suppose you saw me for the idiot I
was.

No, no, no.

You weren't an idiot.

You just seem determined to think of
yourself that way.

You told me I was afraid to take myself
seriously.

I'd never met anyone quite like you.

I thought I'd die when you left town.

You're joking, of course.

Stop it.

Henry, stop. You knew.

No.

No, I didn't.

Of course you did. Don't pretend you
didn't.

But you never said anything.

And have you teased me to death?

It was pathetic.

It got so bad there were times when I
thought you actually cared for me. I

figured you knew how I felt.

That you were just being tactful.

I guess it doesn't matter now.

No.

No, it doesn't.

Your turn.

Who are we? We are men!

We are men.

Men with feelings.

Men who love their wives. Men who love
their children. Men who are not afraid

say, I feel love.

And I am a man, and to hell with you if
you don't like it.

You are empowered because love is the
power of God.

See that?

Virtually verbatim what my grandfather
said to me in the dream. Love is the

power of God.

Love is the infinite.

So?

Sue, this is a men's movement
inspirational tape here. Serge gave it

know, Mr. Dolphin?

I mean, I almost got sucked in, and then
I watched this. Sucked into what?

Oh, don't tell me you got sucked in.

Think about it. The banality of the
revelation I supposedly had.

God is love.

Something you see on posters with
pictures of seagulls. It's not at least

of my get -well cards.

You know, you didn't just supposedly
have the experience.

You were clinically dead for three
minutes.

Studies have indicated that in near
-death experiences, oxygen is cut off to

brain, causing a general failure of the
inhibitory system of the visual cortex,

hence light.

That deprivation also produces an
endorphin rush, causing euphoria.

Combine that with the denial of death
instinct we carry.

Are you saying it didn't happen?

I don't know.

Maybe there are philosophizing dolphins
named Jake.

But you saw your grandfather. You told
me that.

I still have dreams about him.

So obviously when I had this supposed...
God, stop saying supposed. Would you

listen to yourself?

A miracle happened. Can't you let
yourself believe it?

Or are you just too you?

I'm not even going to ask what that's
supposed to mean.

It doesn't mean anything. Never mind.

What?

You know, at least these guys believe in
something.

So?

So did Jake the Dolphin.

Sorry, I didn't want to bug you or
anything.

If you're practicing... Especially not

if you're practicing Beethoven's Cello
Sonata in A over 69.

How'd you know?

Well, I happen to know a little about
music.

Actually, I've been listening to some
CDs and cello stuff lately.

Like, a lot.

And as I listened to the Yo -Yo Ma
rendition, I couldn't help being struck

the resonance of his interpretation.

Yeah.

But Rostropovich is still king, and the
scherzo, he's awesome.

What are those?

Oh, it's nothing.

It's just, you know, a little something
I did up in my free time.

It's nothing, really.

Bach double violin concerto? Second
move?

Yeah. It's one of my favorite pieces.

Mine too, because it's so romantic.

I mean, because of the way there's two
violins and their parts sound so

beautiful together. It's like they're
having the most beautiful conversation

the world.

But you wrote here for cello and
trombone?

You play trombone?

Only a little. I dabble, actually. I'm
first chair in the Tri -City Junior High

Orchestra.

Want to play it?

What, now?

I don't have my trombone or anything.

You could get it.

Okay.

It was in the hall.

Fifteen -two, fifteen -four, and a pair
of six.

Why do you keep looking at that watch
for? Three times I saw you. I was

somewhere.

Ocala is, if you must know.

Oh, you mean that shindig which they're
throwing for the bus group?

Yeah. I tried to wrangle an invitation.

That I think her name was, but she
rebuffed me. Who asked you?

Emily Ridgefield.

We knew each other a long time ago.

Why did she rebuff me as if she's such a
prize?

Maybe I should go.

I'd go.

I hear they're having a smorgasbord.

Ah, what's the point?

Creamed herring.

That's the point. You can't turn back
the clock.

And who'd want to anyway?

We're better off not knowing.

Not knowing what?

I've had a very full life, Wombau.

I don't believe in regret.

Bully for you. What are we talking
about?

Emily. What Emily?

The Emily who invited me to Ocala's,
damn it.

All right, all right. No need for
profanity.

I feel guilty if you want to know the
truth.

Seeing Emily has stirred up all kinds of
feelings.

And then I think of my wife.

She's dead.

He's been dead 12 years.

Why am I feeling this way?

Because you're alive.

Busy bees quilting in the Pioneer
Village.

Quilting for beginners.

Beyond the patch.

Quilting for the 90s.

Toothbrush.

Stock was under the bed.

Apparently I've been polarized. The
hospital released me.

What are you giving these to me for?

Well, I just thought you'd want them
back. I mean, since we broke up.

When did we break up?

Oh, come on. Tell me the groundwork
wasn't being laid.

You're too you.

I know what that means.

I mean, if you had said you're too
greedy, for example, or you're too foul

-mouthed, or you have this really
irritating tendency to tell long,

anecdotes and then laugh hysterically,
well, then, okay, we could do something

about that. But being me?

For God's sake, Carter.

When I find your other sock, I'll put it
in the mail. Wait.

Oh, looks like I'm being me again. Shut
up.

You have no faith in anything.

The last time we went to a restaurant,
we were there for two minutes, and

convinced that the waiter forgot our
order.

Your bobbin thread got all tangled up,
and you assumed that you broke the

machine.

And then you experienced an actual
miracle. I had no idea you were so sick

me. Oh, God, you are so damn insecure.

Well, gee, I wonder why, when my entire
being seems to offend you.

You know what really burns me up?

You just...

Let me go on.

You let me go on thinking that you had
feelings for me, and the whole time...

Had feelings?

You won't even say it.

You thought I loved you.

Why can't you believe it?

Why can't you believe anything?

Go out with a Dalai Lama.

Hello. Hello.

You won't report me if I crash this
party, will you?

Oh, I'm so glad you came.

Ah, come on.

Let's get some food.

I could never resist creamed herring.

It took such a long time to

forget you, Emily.

So why didn't you say something?

I don't know.

Couldn't stand to be one of the crowd, I
guess.

Ah, I think I was afraid.

Couldn't stand to seem like a fool.

Which I was.

And you see, I thought... I thought you
knew.

I was so sure you were going to say
something. Or that I would.

And then you were gone.

And it was Del.

He was a good man.

You know, I came to love him.

He was... Nobody's life is ever perfect.

No. Your life turns out one way.

It's just the way things happen.

You look very nice, Emily.

But then you were always beautiful.

You always made fun of me for being
vain.

You were vain.

But you were also very beautiful.

And you still are.

I think I can tell you that now without
your going on a ten -day ego trip.

Don't bank on it.

Okay, so we're meeting the sandwich,
right?

She's walking through the kitchen. And
I'm like, how was the Tri -City High

concert? And she's like, great. And I'm
like, good night. And she's like, good

night.

So?

Well, it was the way she said good
night.

Like, we both knew that after tonight
we'd never see each other again.

How could it be a good night when it
was, like, good night?

I guess... Or maybe she was just being
polite. I mean, if somebody says good

night to you, you have to say good night
back. It's like a biological function.

Zach, if you really want to know how she
feels about you, why don't you just ask

her? I can't just do that. I mean, what
if she totally rejects me?

Look, I could probably help you out.

I'll go talk to her.

Oh, God, don't do that. I... I mean,
unless you do it in a really unobvious

Oh, hi.

I was just, uh... Oh, if you were
sleeping... No, no, I...

So I just had this one question.

This is kind of weird.

You've had a good time here and stuff?

I guess I haven't seen you much.

Well, you're in high school and
everything.

You're still in ninth grade?

It's so lame.

I figured you for the... I mean, it just
seems like you like school because

you... Yeah, a geek, right?

No, you're not a geek.

Look at you here.

Geeky is definitely not the word.

Oh. Well, um... Hey, you want to sit
down or something?

So... I just mean ninth grade's lame
because...

I don't know.

My mom always says I have an old soul,
you know?

Ninth graders are like...

They're like obsessed with their zits or
something, and it's like, grow up.

You're a different kind of person.

I just sometimes wish I had someone I
could really talk to.

I know.

Like with hockey.

A lot of my friends play in stuff, but
it's not the same as for me.

For me. It's sort of like... Your
destiny?

Yeah.

I totally believe in destiny.

Me too.

I'm gonna love you Like no one's loved
you

Come rain or come shine

Emily, I have to tell you something.

My feet are killing me.

Shut up and dance.

Hi, Matthew.

How you doing?

I thought you were asleep.

So, how'd it go?

Do you think she likes me?

Because, you know, I really kind of
think she does.

You know, up close, she's really not
that good looking.

She has these kind of funny eyebrows,
like in here.

There's that whirly thing.

She said she only goes for Korean guys.

Damn it, Zack!

What's wrong with you, Zack?

Liar.

It's the man we ran over, the one who's
dead.

Dead for three minutes, huh?

You must have a few stories to tell.

Stories about what dead is dead.

Did you ever have general anesthesia?

That's what dead is.

So that's right.

Dead is dead.

I really don't feel qualified to issue a
categorical... Told you.

Let's get on the bus.

Excuse me, sir.

There's just one thing that I've been
wondering. Can I ask you?

Sure.

It's just that I've... read about life
after life and i don't know what to

but you were dead for three minutes and
sometimes people who were dead like that

have experiences and they meet people
they used to know you didn't happen to

meet anybody like that did you what
makes you ask oh it's so silly you'll

it's so silly but there is somebody i
would like to say something to

Who is it, this person that you want to
talk to?

My little boy, Teddy.

You see, I'm just a foolish woman.

You had a son who died?

It was so long ago.

He was four.

Meningitis.

What is it you wanted to say to him?

You see, I'd stay with him nights in the
hospital because he was afraid of the

dark.

And he used to like to have me bring him
a cup of water.

My mother used to do that for me when I
was sick.

Yes.

Well, things got very bad.

He'd come and go. And one night when I
went out to get his water,

I...

fell into a conversation with the nurse.

And by the time I got back, I just kept

thinking he must have been so thirsty
when he died.

And he must have thought I'd forgotten
all about him.

No, no, no, he couldn't possibly have
thought that.

He must have wondered where I'd gone.

And he must have been so thirsty.

And he was alone.

If I could just see him again, if I
could just tell him that I would never

forgotten to get him his cup of water,
and I would never have allowed him to

all alone.

And so I just wanted to ask you, because
you were dead for three minutes,

do you believe that I'll ever have the
chance to see him and talk to him again?

Yeah. Based on my experience, yes, I
believe you will.

That's all I wanted to know.

I hope I didn't dance your feet off last
night.

Well, as far as I can tell, they're
still attached to my ankle.

So, you're on to Portage.

Some sort of god -awful horde festival.

I've enjoyed seeing you, Emily.

And I you.

I've thought of you over the years, so
many times.

I loved you then.

I know.

Well... Maybe you'll come to Cleveland
to visit someday.

Maybe I will.

I'll never forget you, Henry.

We've gone over 50 years.

Seems we haven't forgotten each other
yet.

Come here.

I found your other sock. It was behind
the door.

I just spoke to this woman who...
Rationally, I don't know if what I

said was... Maybe I just said it out of
compassion, but...

Compassion... Hope, who's to say they're
not some form of the truth?

I spent... My life as a scientist, Sue,
what tools do I have besides reason?

Sentimentality, you know, can lead to
all sorts of horrible injustice, witch

hunts, religious intolerance.

But Einstein said the most beautiful
thing we can experience is the

It is the source of all true art and
science.

I'm really confused, Sue.

I know I love you.

Anyway, here's your sock.

She's gone.

You forget her.