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Film star and I'm open and available sexually.

But there are times in the real world where I have to pull back in the

world. And I resent it. And I don't like it. And I feel ripped off by it. And it

upsets me that there are so many people that are so repressed that they can't be

honest about who they are and what it is that they want because everyone has

strange, wonderful, bizarre fantasies.

My earliest sexual memories and fantasies, well, first of all, I started

was pretty young, much younger than I am now, many years ago.

But they were always about older men. I really got off on older men. I always

thought there was something really special and different about them, and

knew so much, and they were so worldly, of course.

I would start with one and then I would go to another.

And so I would fantasize about being with more than one, maybe at some

incredible lounge or flying off somewhere on a weekend doing something

outrageous.

But I really always liked older men. That was my first.

The first time I ever had sex, I had, again, I had just

graduated high school.

And this is actually a great story.

I had been going with this guy for a really long time, for about four years.

he was also older than I was, but not much older, but he was older than I was.

And we had set it up to have sex at this point in time when I was old enough and

felt comfortable in one thing and another.

And sure enough, the night before I was supposed to have sex with him for the

very first time, I had met another man who gave me a surprise party.

And this man was very charming.

I mean, he was into everything. He had everything going for him, and he gave me

this surprise party, and I ended up making love to him first.

So I didn't tell the guy that I had been going with for four years that I had

already made love to someone else, and I sort of faked it. But it was great, and

it was...

It was something I'll never forget.

And also, it kind of reminds me of this movie I did with Mike Horner, Sex Lives

of the Rich and Famous, when I sort of center always on two men. I have one and

another or two together.

And we were having this...

fabulous sex scene.

And the director of that movie couldn't decide if Randy West should be in that

scene or not. So we brought him in, then we took him out, then we brought him

in, then we took him out. And it was about 110 degrees in the house that we

shooting in.

And Mike and I ended up having a very, very hot scene, even though we had to

start and stop a million times. And for some reason, those two things really

remind me of each other, having one man and then another.

I shudder to think what disgusting acts poor Julie might be going through at

this very moment.

What disgusting acts?

She could even be using her mouth on Roman's masculine

parts.

Roman's penis?

Exactly.

It's so inconceivable to me that it stirs strange,

terrible feeling in my...

In my... Mind?

Exactly. In my... Oh, I

conceive of... I just can't

conceive of what that would be like. I just can't.

Nor can I.

But I'll bet it's a wonderful feeling.

I can only imagine what they're experiencing now.

Poor Julie's mouth.

Is the door locked? Yes.

Her beautiful mouth.

Almost as beautiful as your mouth. Oh, Mrs. Gap.

Her lovely mouth.

Like your mouth, Mrs. Gap.

Warmly, sweetly, deeply.

his raging erection or thrusting down her throat.

But I know.

Lord, you...

Oh,

boy, darling, the girl.

Have you seen her?

Words like, yeah.

Take it deeper and deeper with my balls, you slut, you.

Oh, my God.

Oh, God.

Oh, God, how she suffers.

Yeah.

He won't give it.

He's gonna make her do more and more.

Making that poor innocent girl nick up and down the shaft of the gun.

Be sure to do it, Doc.

Look at that.

Yeah.

Oh, God.

Shut up, Amy. Come on.

Come on. Fuck me.

All right. Come on. You're caught.

All right. Come on. You're caught.

Come on.

Come on. Take it.

Take it. Come on. Take it. Take it now. Oh, my God. Take it. Oh, fuck.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Love you.

Love you.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah. Love you.

I don't want to be pregnant.

No. Oh, no.

Don't come on my couch.

I'm going to come.

I'm going to come on your stomach.

Disgusting. The first time I saw erotic material, I was also pretty young. I

had just graduated high school, and I had a boyfriend who, of course, was an

older man.

And I think he was about 20 -plus years older than I was at that time. And we

went down to a theater to see an erotic film. And I thought it was unequivocally

the best thing that I had ever seen. I couldn't...

I couldn't believe that people did that, that that was, it was so bizarre. You

know, it was bizarre and it was hot and it was different and it was very taboo.

It wasn't until several years after I saw my first porno film that I started

watching them all the time. And I realized about seven years ago when I

the business that I could do that.

That, you know, that it wasn't very far away from who I really was.

And so I imagined myself being in that space, knowing that I could do that. And

I started to actualize doing that. And, of course, here I am.

And I had done some nude modeling before, and I had really enjoyed it in

younger years. All through my years, I had done some modeling.

I'd always modeled and done other things.

And then, of course, I did nude modeling as I got older and really enjoyed that,

too. And, you know, I'm an exhibitionist.

So to take it to the nth degree was obviously where I was going. It took me

little longer to get there than some women, but I knew that I could be one of

the best actresses in adult films, if not the best, because I knew my ability.

had been an actress before. I had done lots of other things in straight films,

commercials, television, whatever. And I knew that...

part i was very confident about i knew that given the opportunity i could be

best that the industry ever had and so that's what i was aiming for and that's

what drove me forward and still does drive me forward my first movie um

was beyond the denver dynasty and um

When I did that movie, I wasn't too sure if I could really do that.

But I think because I was a little older than most of the women that come into

the industry off the top right away, it was expected, it was almost expected of

me to do really well.

I was very nervous.

I mean, the acting part was easy. I was very nervous about the sexual part. I

know that I'm very sexual and I know that, and I'm sensual and I have a lot

give in that area, but I really, you know...

I couldn't believe that I was finally there doing it. My first scene was with

Tommy Byron. I mean, I've heard it a million times.

Hundreds of women have had their first scene with Tommy. And the great thing

about Tommy is that he was really there.

He really wanted to be there with me and do that scene with me, and it made me

very comfortable. And I was very, very nervous and didn't think that...

I didn't understand yet how it worked. It took me a long time to figure out how

sex scenes work in movies and how it comes off and what it looks like. It

me a long time of watching myself and trying to relate to that. So I just

to be there as much as I could, and it was hard. It's hard to be in your body

when you're having sex for the first time in a movie.

I don't know.

I don't know.

Oh,

God.

They got it. They got this.

Oh,

God. Come

on.

I can't.

Huh?

Woof woof!

Oh yeah!

Cut me?

Oh, yeah.

Oh, my

God.

I do have orgasms when I perform, and I pride myself on being a real performer.

I do not leave my body. I've tried to actually separate myself from my

body while I've been having sex, as I do in acting.

When you can tell that you're really having a great acting scene is when you

leave your body, stand out over here, and look back on yourself and watch

yourself. being the person. I've done that many times. I can't do it in a sex

scene and be there. The minute that I do that, the guy is instantly not hard, no

matter what. I mean, I can feel his energy moving away.

So I pride myself on really being there, being involved, and enjoying

it as much as I possibly can.

Being an adult film star, or an erotic film star, I'd rather refer to myself

Definitely helped my sex life. It's opened me up to a lot of new experiences

new things.

I have really grown a lot. I have matured much more than I ever

think I would have had I not gotten into the business.

I've learned so much more about other people. I think the main thing for me is

that I was never able to separate sex and love, ever.

And I made dozens of wrong decisions about men that I was with, men that

I probably didn't have to stay with as long as I did because I couldn't

differentiate between sex and love. And it wasn't until I got in the sex

business that I realized that I could just have great sex.

It was okay to have great sex.

And it was okay to be in love. And I could have great sex in a film and get

an orgasm and do all that stuff. And then I could go home and be with my

and be in love and have a different kind of sex.

And in this movie I did, Sex Lives of the Rich and Famous, I had this scene

Randy West.

And it's interesting because some...

Sometimes you feel a deeper connection to some of the people that you work with

than others.

Randy's one of those people I feel a very deep connection with. He's very,

sexy, very sensual. I love his look.

And I felt very connected to him in the scene that we did, and it was a very

good scene.

I mean, there are only a handful of people I think that I've ever worked

that I have ever felt connected to that way.

And that gets a little bit scary because you don't want to be connected to the

person that you're working with because one is work and one is play. But I did

feel connected to him, and it shows in that particular scene.

There's something that I haven't told you because I was afraid that it would

really hurt your feelings if I did. But you leave me no choice if you're going

to be friends with the Cox family.

Monty Cox, he... What?

He took me against my will.

He did what?

He... No, no, no.

Don't. No. No, it's okay. I don't want to touch it. No, no, no. I want to tell

you. I have to tell you. I have to get it off my chest.

It was right after Roman and Julie, you know, they were in the garage. You

remember that incident, of course. Well, Monty came over to talk to me about it.

He wanted to explain to me that their fornication was all right. And while he

was doing that, he showed me his... His cock?

He showed you his cock?

It was terrible.

Is it, um... Is it big?

Huge. Oh, no.

Listen, I, uh... I kind of have the idea that you might like hearing about this.

I... I want you to get it out of your system, to cleanse yourself, to make

yourself feel at ease.

You're right, I have to do that.

He, uh... Go on.

He undid his pants.

And he fucked his cock.

And he

fucked

his cock. And he fucked his cock.

Show me in black what you did.

Oh yeah, like this.

Like that.

Oh, like that?

Oh,

I shouldn't have let it happen with him turning me on.

Go ahead.

He nauseated me. I can tell you, I'm nauseated. I can imagine. So

you beat him up?

You jerked his cock?

You did?

And you licked him all over?

Show me how deep you took him.

Isn't that far?

Yes.

Come on. Come on, Max.

Come on.

Come on. Come on. Come on.

Come on.

Come on. Come on.

Come on.

Help me. Help me.

Help me. Help me.

Oh, baby.

I love you. I love you.

Oh, Jesus Christ.

Yeah, I'm coming now. Oh,

fucking God.

Oh,

please, Jesus.

Oh, please, please.

Help me out, baby.

Help me out, baby.

Help me out, baby.

Come on, fucking.

Come on. That's how you do it. You need to come like that. Oh,

my God.

I'm coming.

Oh, dear.

Oh, God.

Oh,

God.

Oh,

God, that's so good. Oh, God, that's so good.

Oh, God!

Oh! Oh!

Oh! Oh! Oh!

Mike.

Jeff.

Mike.

Jeff.

Jeff. Jeff. Jeff. Jeff. Jeff.

Jeff. Jeff. Jeff.

The God in it.

Thank you, darling.

Oh, Julia.

You've never been better.

You've never been hotter.

You're such a turn -on.

I'm just so amazed and so pleased.

Darling, I know it was tough, but I'll stand by you. I knew you would.

I love you.

I love you. My private life is...

It's different and it's not than what it is on screen. I mean, I'm very

fortunate to be married to a man who's in this business, who loves wild and

crazy sex and lots of it.

It's different because I'm in love with him and we have a very deep, intimate

connection.

The difference comes in the fact that we study spiritual sex.

and we take more time with our sex.

In a movie, you know, we don't take very much time. We have to do what's

available. Sometimes we only have 15 minutes. You know, you have to... I

a lot that directors like to move cameras just as you're orgasming. Well,

privacy of my home, I'm not moving a camera.

So nothing like that is happening. We have as much time as we want. One thing

that I do miss, however, is that I am an exhibitionist, and I really get off.

when there are 1, 10, 15, or 20 people standing around.

So something is taken away a little bit by being home alone together

as opposed to having 5 or 6 people standing around. So we swing. We do have

other people because that really turns me on, and it gives him a chance to

experience other women as well because it's so easy for me. I mean, I get a

taste of something different all the time. It's not as easy for him.

because he's in production and directing and whatever. So we have other women

and other couples, and it's really, really fun for him, and it's fun for us

and I think that it expands our relationship further.

One of my most favorite and private sex fantasies has always been thinking

about what it would be like to have sex in a gym.

you know, really hot gym. And the gym that I work out in is really hot. I

all these great looking people and everybody's sweating. And I've always

imagined myself being with a woman or a guy, you know, and we're doing bench

presses flat. You just slide up next to them and pull their pants down.

do something nasty. And I got an opportunity to do something like that in

Lives of the Rich and Famous Part 1 with John Martin. It was a nominated sex

scene. It was really a fabulous scene. Very, very hot. I was bench pressing.

And he came in to taunt me and torment me.

And we did everything around that dumbbell. I mean, I was exhausted.

I mean, I kept pressing it. And eventually I had to stop because he came

do the wild thing with me.

It was good. You'd have to say it to really appreciate it.

They were naked in the garage.

And your son, Roman, he had his... Oh, I can't even talk.

His, uh, his cock?

His cock?

Did you, uh, fuck him in the garage?

Huh? Fuck him in the garage?

It's cute, but, uh, you know, I prefer toilet.

Well, what did you, uh...

With his dick out, huh?

Did he take his dick out?

Mm -hmm. April, June, McKay, huh?

Yes.

He stuffed his big dick.

Yes.

Hey, uh, wait a minute.

He put it in his mouth, huh?

You're not wearing any underwear with your leather pants.

That's right.

I like the way it nicks my dick.

You want to suck it? Mm -hmm.

Mm -hmm.

Yeah? She get it hard? Mm -hmm.

A little hard.

Mm -hmm.

She get it? She lick the head?

Mm -hmm.

Mm -hmm.

Mm -hmm.

Mm -hmm.

Lookie where she got it.

Yeah. Talk, talk real good.

Yeah?

Mm -hmm.

Did she lick his ball? Mm -hmm.

Mm -hmm.

Mm -hmm.

Okay. She's getting real wet.

Pull her balls out. Lick them. Lick them.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah.

Did she pull out her tits? Did she?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Squeeze that nipple.

Did she? Oh, yeah.

Yes. Yes.

Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah.

You're late for the body of this cat.

China.

What's your daughter?

Yeah.

Let's see. Get it wet for her.

Just like she did.

Let her come real wet.

Yeah. You like that, don't you?

It's all right.

It's all right.

Yeah. Yeah.

Too late.

Too late just for the dick.

You've got to take care of the pussy first.

Looks pretty good.

There,

just really play with it.

Get it fucking wet.

That's it.

Put some fingers in that pussy.

That's it.

You want to tell Terrence?

Terrence?

Terrence wouldn't know what to do with me.

Obviously he has. Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Yeah.

Yeah. How?

Yeah. How does he do that?

Okay.

I can't hear you. Yeah.

Yeah.

Fuck, man.

Yeah.

I like that I'm turning my ass when I'm jerking on my dick.

Mm -hmm. Yeah, that's it, dude. Mm -hmm.

It's like sweet little jewelry, exactly.

It respects it like an asshole.

It's supposed to have gotten it from you. Mm -hmm.

Mm -hmm.

Mm -hmm.

So when you're married to such an asshole, huh?

Huh? Yeah, stick your tongue right up there, baby.

Uh -huh.

Yeah. Oh, dirty little thing, you.

You're so deliciously dirty.

Take it in your throat, baby.

He'd be the least.

He'd be a man.

No, he'd be a man.

He'd be a man. He'd be a man.

He'd be a man.

He'd be a man. He'd be a man. He'd be a man. He'd be a man. He'd be a man. He'd

be a man.

He'd be a man.

Look real good when your leg is spread like that.

You know that, Regina?

Regina.

It's fucking Regina now.

So to the day you'll never call yourself Regina.

I'm going to get fucked.

Yeah?

Please watch it. Please.

No.

No.

Please. Please. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah? Yeah.

I'll think about it.

Tell me why I should fuck you.

Good. Yeah?

Because I want you to.

Because you want to.

I'm going to put me on you.

I'm going to put me on you.

It's a Roman fuck, little Julie, huh?

You spread her legs and shove this dick all the way up her cunt.

You just got close bitches, you know that?

All you need is a good fuck.

Fuck me, young woman.

You're easy to get along with.

No.

I'm coming.

I'm coming.

I'm coming.

Yeah Oh

my

god

Go ahead.

Get it wet, baby.

Put my dick wetter than the bottom of your head.

Tell me, baby.

Tell me.

Baby.

How could you, God?

Tell me. Tell me.

No.

I didn't think I should have my son fuck you.

You're probably going to the

toilet and jerk off.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God. Oh, my God.

I'm coming again.

Yes! Yes!

Yes!

I'm coming again.

Let me see if I can help you now, lady.

Very good.

Hmm.

Get out. I'm sick.

Your whole family's sick.

You're a bunch of perverts.

Get out. Get out of my house.

I may be sick, Regina, but let me tell you one fucking thing.

I'm going to best lay you over.

Some women eat pussy better than men, although some men are divine.

You know, I think it depends on the person. I think that, like I said, for

it has a lot to do with chemistry.

It has a lot to do with how the person smells.

I have a very strong sense of smell, how they feel, how their skin feels.

You can guide or I can guide anyone to do the right thing. Some people take

direction better than others. Some people have more of a knack for it than

others. Women probably, on the whole, they may have a little

better feel for it.

But I've met many men who are fantastic.

So I really think it's an individual thing.

I have to be really honest about this. Sometimes I prefer...

women and sometimes i prefer men i've noticed that recently i'll go for like

weeks and i'm on men i mean i just really gotta have men and then i'll go

three months and i just gotta have women one of those periods where i just had

to have women um was when i was uh doing a movie called um our dinner with

andrea and it was a wonderful film with a movie that i produced and co -directed

with my husband and i had a scene with one of my all -time favorites, Sharon

Kane. And she and I are very good friends. And I just love her. I love her

I love her chemistry. I love everything about her. And we had a wonderful scene

with a crystal cock.

Beautiful, ancient crystal cock that was given to me by my shaman.

And it was a very wonderful, spiritual thing to use.

And we had a great time with it. And we danced, we played, we laughed.

We put a lot of energy into that because she also comes from that very spiritual

place. And it was good to be with her in that way. It was really quite

extraordinary.

Thank you.

Can you move it up?

Yeah. Look at how hot it is. Oh, my God, it is.

Am I ready for this?

Yeah, you're ready.

Holy

cow.

Huge, isn't it?

Big as a cow.

How is it?

Huge.

Okay, thin.

It's great.

It's hot, isn't it? Oh, yeah.

Oh, turn it that way.

Yeah.

Does it feel powerful?

It does.

Do you like it?

Yes.

Oh, yeah, baby.

Oh, yeah.

My

pussy's so

wet.

Oh,

yeah,

come for me.

Oh, yeah, baby. I'm going to come all over it right now.

My favorite way of getting off

is...

Well, I like to start with some good kissing and petting, and I love to be

petted and stroked very gently, very lightly.

And then I like to have some good eating on me until I

orgasm. I normally orgasm like three times in a row. It takes me 20 minutes

really get up to my first orgasm.

Then after my first, my second and my third come right after.

And then I like...

my husband to get on top of me and do it really hard for a long time, really

long time. And then I flip over and get on top of him and stay like that for

quite a long time.

That's how I really like it.

When I masturbate, which I do quite frequently, I fantasize a lot.

I have a very vivid imagination and I fantasize a lot about seeing other

other things, things outside of myself.

And I did a film called Going Down Slow for John Leslie. I think it was the

first film I did for him. I've done others since then, but that, I believe,

the first.

And I had a scene, I believe, where I was looking out the window and I had a

mask on that I was holding and I was masturbating. I was watching someone

And it was...

It was a challenge to do. It was difficult and it was challenging because

really had to use my imagination.

I obviously, while I was doing the scene, wasn't looking at anyone.

So I had to imagine that I was.

And I imagined that I was watching a man in a room with a woman he didn't know.

And there was another man sitting in the corner and he was doing himself.

And actually,

I had a great time.

And I had to do it over and over and over again. So I didn't allow myself to

orgasm because once I orgasmed, it would have taken so much more for me to

orgasm a second and third time. So I just waited until he said, okay, we're

with what we need to do now. You can orgasm.

That was pretty cool.

Yes, that's it.

That's it.

He's the most attractive man I've ever seen in my life.

Oh, God, I love him.

I'm so in love with him.

Whoever he is.

Whoever he is.

It should be me.

It should be me.

Oh, God. It's so big. It's so big. It's so hard.

He's strong. He's really strong.

He warms my pussy all over.

Oh, yeah. I can feel his big, oh, driving against my thigh.

Oh, I wish.

If he could only see me now, I'd leave that whore.

I'd leave her.

He'd come to me. He'd love me.

He'd make love to me.

I'd talk dirty to him.

She talks dirty to him all the time.

No.

Oh, I'd let him lick me and suck me. I'd be his whore.

Yeah, I'd be his whore. He could lick my nipples and pull on me and suck

them all around.

Then I'd feel his cock.

Run down.

And I'd get his hard knob in my mouth and I would just roll my tongue all

around it just like that.

I can just feel his tongue licking me.

Oh, yes. Good. And he loves it.

And then he puts his big cock on my pussy.

Oh, he puts it up there and he just rams it up my pussy.

Yes.

He just rams that cock up there and puts it in the finger of my ass.

And I put the finger of my ass and it would come all over you.

Pull you down.

Rub it all over my tip.

Just rub it all over me.

In between my nipples.

So wet and creamy.

Oh, yeah, you got my juice all over you.

I want you to shoot your cum all over my pussy.

Oh, yeah. I want you to just drive it in there.

Oh, yeah, drive it in there.

Yeah.

Oh, make me calm.

Leah, I love you so much.

If you could only see me now.

If you could only see me now.

I want you to fuck me harder.

I think my sexual strong point is giving head. I think that I do that very well,

as good as, if not better, than anyone else in the business.

I love it, and I think that that really shows up when I do it. I really love it.

I love to lick and eat everything that's available on a man or a woman, but

especially a man. I love giving head to a man. I want to talk a little bit about

the most unusual thing that I wanted. do.

I really want to do this. I've been wanting to do it for a long time.

I've always had this fantasy about prisons.

And I think that the end of last,

I guess it was like in the fall, I went up to San Francisco and I visited

Alcatraz.

And I really got off. I mean, I couldn't believe how turned on I was. I was

turned on from the moment I got on the boat.

until days after I came home. I mean, I videotaped the experience.

Every time they, like, took us down another path or something, all I could

about was having sex in Alcatraz. I mean, that was it.

That's all I could think about.

And so the wildest thing that I could imagine doing would be having sex in

I mean, to me, that's...

And that's it. I don't know what it is about that particular fantasy. I don't

know. You know, I can't tell you. I'd like to be able to say to you, this is

exactly what it is, and I know that this particular thing turns me on, but I

think it's the idea of, first of all, having a prison guard in uniform and

the setup, the whole setup, the way that it looks, being behind bars, being

controlled, not being able to leave.

All of that stuff is so stimulating to me. It's so underworld.

It's so sleazy. It's like everything that you could think of that would be

negative I think is totally positive and a complete turn on.

So I can't wait to do it.

Wake up.

Time to get up.

What are you looking at?

Nothing.

Nothing.

Seth, what are you looking at? Nothing. Nothing.

Like that?

You wish you could have it?

Let me touch that. Let me see it, baby.

You want to suck it up, huh?

Do you want to suck it?

Yeah, I want to suck it.

Sure? Yeah.

Get on your knees and come over here and suck it, baby.

Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah.

You know what I mean, come on.

I can't have it anymore.

You want me to have it again?

Maybe. Okay.

I couldn't thank you so much.

I want to go.

You like to have it in your pussy, don't you?

I'll catch your pussy for you. Hold on.

Come on, let me see that.

Get it up. Let me see.

I told you to quit begging.

Please.

I know that can't be so long.

Back in a second.

Come here.

Who got those antelopes?

What's in the cart, pal?

Oh, yeah.

Is this when you put your hand in there?

You want any pussy? Tell me. You want any pussy?

I want it. I want it.

Keep it all in there.

See ya.

See ya.

Whoa.