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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:01:18,122 --> 00:01:20,149 Have a good show. 2 00:02:30,962 --> 00:02:33,658 ...rock 'n' roll's definitive crazy person. 3 00:02:45,143 --> 00:02:49,375 Ozzy Osbourne, who is known for biting the heads off of bats... 4 00:02:55,319 --> 00:02:57,446 Hey, he's twisted, but he's all right, man. 5 00:03:05,630 --> 00:03:08,423 Here's another scientific mystery that's stumping scientists. 6 00:03:08,573 --> 00:03:14,028 How is Ozzy Osbourne still alive after decades of drugs and alcohol? 7 00:04:00,218 --> 00:04:02,413 Fuck... - Happy birthday. 8 00:04:14,432 --> 00:04:16,662 Well, we made it, Bill. 9 00:04:17,668 --> 00:04:19,932 Good to see you, good to see you! 10 00:04:20,538 --> 00:04:24,133 It's nice to see you, too. - It's good to see you, man. 11 00:04:24,809 --> 00:04:28,575 We fucking made it. I never thought that. 12 00:04:29,280 --> 00:04:31,339 You look great, you look great. - I do. 13 00:04:31,716 --> 00:04:35,274 Nice smile. Come on. 14 00:04:35,423 --> 00:04:38,280 Ozzy, smile! It's your birthday, with your family. 15 00:04:38,430 --> 00:04:41,114 I don't feel like fucking smiling. Shut the fuck up! 16 00:04:41,264 --> 00:04:44,282 Come on, smile. It's your birthday. There we go. 17 00:04:44,432 --> 00:04:45,960 Come on. 18 00:04:49,267 --> 00:04:53,260 Looking back, I should've died a thousand times, but I never did. 19 00:04:53,471 --> 00:04:55,881 I never thought I'd make it to fucking 40. 20 00:04:56,031 --> 00:04:57,900 Because by 12:00, in the old days, 21 00:04:58,050 --> 00:05:01,285 I'd have powder up my nose, fucking shit in my veins, 22 00:05:01,435 --> 00:05:02,606 and all kinds of stuff. 23 00:05:02,980 --> 00:05:05,306 All right, one, two, three. 24 00:05:05,456 --> 00:05:07,939 Nice smile, ladies, come with your brother. 25 00:05:08,089 --> 00:05:10,108 There's one or two ways to get in this world, 26 00:05:10,258 --> 00:05:12,155 there's so many fucked up ways to go out. 27 00:05:12,423 --> 00:05:14,648 Once you're dead, you're gone. 28 00:05:14,798 --> 00:05:16,781 I'm just a very fortunate man to be still here, 29 00:05:16,931 --> 00:05:18,259 talking to you about my life. 30 00:05:18,429 --> 00:05:21,290 One, two, three. - He's too short. 31 00:05:21,439 --> 00:05:23,624 Louis, smile. - I am smiling. 32 00:05:23,773 --> 00:05:28,296 I've had a crazy life and it ain't over yet. 33 00:06:08,179 --> 00:06:12,445 I was born John Michael Osbourne, December 3, 1948. 34 00:06:15,686 --> 00:06:17,677 I was raised in Aston, 35 00:06:18,089 --> 00:06:21,252 a working class suburb of Birmingham, England. 36 00:06:22,026 --> 00:06:26,122 A lot of the city was destroyed by the Germans in World War II. 37 00:06:26,464 --> 00:06:28,289 I used to play on a bombed building site, 38 00:06:28,439 --> 00:06:31,226 thinking it was a place that you go and play, 39 00:06:31,375 --> 00:06:34,634 not realising it was a building that had been bombed in the war. 40 00:06:40,845 --> 00:06:44,713 That's my grandma, my mother and Gillian, my sister's there. 41 00:06:46,450 --> 00:06:48,574 I've got three sisters. 42 00:06:48,723 --> 00:06:52,713 My sister Jean, my sister Iris, and my sister Gillian. 43 00:06:53,591 --> 00:06:58,051 We're a working-class family. There wasn't a lot of money about. 44 00:07:00,731 --> 00:07:03,757 We lived in a small, terraced house. 45 00:07:04,368 --> 00:07:07,195 Six children had to share the same bedroom. 46 00:07:07,344 --> 00:07:11,832 We were the poorest kids of the street, there's no doubt about it. 47 00:07:12,576 --> 00:07:15,032 I didn't come from fucking royalty. 48 00:07:15,181 --> 00:07:18,940 I didn't come from a middle-class or upper-class background. 49 00:07:19,089 --> 00:07:21,381 Where I came from was like, 50 00:07:22,820 --> 00:07:25,687 very bottom end of the scale. 51 00:07:27,358 --> 00:07:31,055 We were all from the same area in Birmingham in England. 52 00:07:32,096 --> 00:07:34,621 It's very much a working-class area. 53 00:07:36,000 --> 00:07:38,990 I don't think any of us had hot water 54 00:07:39,139 --> 00:07:44,200 or indoor toilets, or things like that. 55 00:07:45,810 --> 00:07:47,835 My mother and father. 56 00:07:52,416 --> 00:07:55,540 He was a good guy, you know. 57 00:07:55,690 --> 00:08:00,610 He worked hard all his life. Would never miss a day from work. 58 00:08:00,760 --> 00:08:04,023 If he ever missed a day, you knew he was fucked. 59 00:08:04,495 --> 00:08:07,020 He used to work nights at a factory. 60 00:08:09,633 --> 00:08:14,161 John used to go out and have a drink, get in fights and that was it. 61 00:08:14,438 --> 00:08:17,563 From what I saw of John, he was always in and out of trouble. 62 00:08:17,713 --> 00:08:19,298 Dad was always telling him off. 63 00:08:19,448 --> 00:08:22,169 And one day Dad says, "You'll either get killed, 64 00:08:22,318 --> 00:08:27,342 "or die one way or the other," you know what I mean? 65 00:08:27,685 --> 00:08:30,708 A lot of the kids turned to crime and I did for a time as well, 66 00:08:30,858 --> 00:08:33,722 but I wasn't really good at it. I didn't want to do it, really. 67 00:08:40,464 --> 00:08:42,689 "John Michael Osbourne. 68 00:08:42,838 --> 00:08:44,057 "Age, 18. 69 00:08:44,206 --> 00:08:46,792 "Break and enter to the shop of Clara Sharpe 70 00:08:46,942 --> 00:08:51,500 "and steal two coats, 20 pairs of stockings. 71 00:08:52,576 --> 00:08:54,402 "Fined 20 quid. " 72 00:08:54,551 --> 00:08:56,501 To cut a long story short, the police come round, 73 00:08:56,650 --> 00:08:59,874 says to Mr Osbourne, "Does John Osbourne live here?" 74 00:09:00,023 --> 00:09:02,452 And our dad says, "There he is. Take him. " 75 00:09:03,721 --> 00:09:07,589 I got locked up in Winson Green Prison for about six weeks. 76 00:09:08,959 --> 00:09:13,362 When I eventually got out of prison, life still felt hopeless for me. 77 00:09:13,731 --> 00:09:16,355 I'd let my family down for being arrested. 78 00:09:16,505 --> 00:09:18,958 I had no idea what I wanted to do. 79 00:09:19,270 --> 00:09:22,496 Really, there were about three or four choices when we were teenagers. 80 00:09:22,645 --> 00:09:25,331 One was, we would either probably go to prison, 81 00:09:25,481 --> 00:09:29,071 or go in the factories, or go in the army. 82 00:09:29,313 --> 00:09:31,302 I remember being in a factory and one guy, 83 00:09:31,451 --> 00:09:33,972 I'd say to him, "How long have you been working here?" 84 00:09:34,121 --> 00:09:36,843 And he'd go, "Thirty-five years this year, 85 00:09:36,993 --> 00:09:39,477 "and I'm retiring, and I'll get a gold watch. " 86 00:09:39,627 --> 00:09:41,713 I thought, "Fucking gold watch? 87 00:09:41,863 --> 00:09:45,556 "Thirty-five years of your life have been in this fucking factory. " 88 00:09:45,763 --> 00:09:47,785 I just couldn't handle it, you know. 89 00:09:47,935 --> 00:09:50,157 I had job after job after job. 90 00:09:50,306 --> 00:09:52,064 I could never hold a job down, didn't want to. 91 00:09:53,504 --> 00:10:00,068 I used to think, "Fuck this! Is this me for the rest of my life?" 92 00:10:02,413 --> 00:10:05,211 John wanted things which he couldn't have. 93 00:10:05,549 --> 00:10:07,943 There was something inside him that wanted to get out. 94 00:10:08,092 --> 00:10:10,496 Nothing really happened to me in my life until the Beatles happened. 95 00:10:10,645 --> 00:10:14,990 Then it was like someone had turned the world on for me. 96 00:10:16,427 --> 00:10:18,382 They played She Loves You on the radio 97 00:10:18,531 --> 00:10:22,761 and I remember thinking to myself, "Fucking hell, this is incredible!" 98 00:10:23,467 --> 00:10:25,709 From that moment on, when I first heard She Loves You, 99 00:10:25,858 --> 00:10:28,805 I knew I wanted to be a rock star for the rest of my life. 100 00:10:30,341 --> 00:10:32,002 Come on, everybody! 101 00:10:35,779 --> 00:10:37,508 You are number one! 102 00:11:05,509 --> 00:11:08,535 Thank you, good night! God bless you all! 103 00:11:47,017 --> 00:11:49,349 This is adrenalin from the gig. 104 00:11:52,790 --> 00:11:54,690 Hello, is Sharon about? 105 00:11:56,093 --> 00:11:59,221 Just tell her the gig was phenomenal. 106 00:12:00,397 --> 00:12:02,922 And the crowd, fucking unbelievable! 107 00:12:03,233 --> 00:12:06,358 It's fucking undescribable. 108 00:12:06,508 --> 00:12:09,496 It's like a divine experience, you know. 109 00:12:10,808 --> 00:12:14,369 All right, I'll call back. I'll speak to you later, bye. 110 00:12:15,512 --> 00:12:17,939 I'm lucky. I'm 60 years of age. 111 00:12:18,089 --> 00:12:20,039 I'm still travelling all over the world. 112 00:12:20,718 --> 00:12:24,894 I'm still doing gigs and people still want to see me. 113 00:12:25,044 --> 00:12:27,047 Ozzy! Ozzy! - Ozzy! Ozzy! 114 00:12:29,359 --> 00:12:32,850 It's Ozzy night, man. It's night of the living dead. 115 00:12:32,999 --> 00:12:35,857 I've been fucking listening to him since I was nine, 10. 116 00:12:36,007 --> 00:12:38,264 Yeah, man, I got those ones. 117 00:12:39,703 --> 00:12:42,035 I got that one and I got that one. 118 00:12:42,473 --> 00:12:44,995 A big Black Sabbath cross on my leg. 119 00:12:45,145 --> 00:12:47,035 Number one Ozzy fan. - Oh, yeah? 120 00:12:47,185 --> 00:12:49,738 Since Black Sabbath days. Check this out. 121 00:12:53,217 --> 00:12:55,048 Fucking love him, man. 122 00:13:01,825 --> 00:13:03,622 Right here... 123 00:13:04,194 --> 00:13:07,493 Can you bend down? Can you crouch down a little bit? 124 00:13:12,870 --> 00:13:14,394 You all right? 125 00:13:14,605 --> 00:13:16,695 I remember when I was a fan of the Beatles, 126 00:13:16,844 --> 00:13:19,234 I had my fantasies... 127 00:13:19,383 --> 00:13:21,899 And if it's gonna make somebody's day a little bit better to say, 128 00:13:22,049 --> 00:13:25,969 "Wow! I met Ozzy Osbourne today," I mean, that's my job, you know. 129 00:13:26,119 --> 00:13:28,358 Can you get this please? - Sure. 130 00:13:28,508 --> 00:13:30,476 Just right down there. 131 00:13:32,389 --> 00:13:36,155 Sharon goes to me, "You get back there and sign that autograph!" 132 00:13:37,528 --> 00:13:43,257 I go, "What do you mean, my darling?" She says, "Well, one day, if they 133 00:13:43,406 --> 00:13:46,194 "don't ask you for your autograph, that's when we got a problem. " 134 00:13:46,343 --> 00:13:48,095 Just check out my shirt. 135 00:13:48,244 --> 00:13:50,901 And I figure you can't fuck it up no more than President Bush. 136 00:13:52,142 --> 00:13:54,451 I have something for you, here's your own. 137 00:13:54,601 --> 00:13:56,420 Thank you. - Thank you. 138 00:13:56,570 --> 00:13:59,104 I'll go down the road. Now, if I get recognised, I get pissed off, 139 00:13:59,253 --> 00:14:01,908 but at the same time, if I don't get recognised, I get pissed off. 140 00:14:02,057 --> 00:14:03,473 People recognised me 141 00:14:03,623 --> 00:14:06,042 for a lot of years, and for a lot of different reasons. 142 00:14:06,192 --> 00:14:08,611 And I just want my audience to know that I will not abandon them 143 00:14:08,761 --> 00:14:10,784 to become the fucking weatherman. 144 00:14:22,039 --> 00:14:24,803 Wonder how many signatures you've signed? 145 00:15:39,049 --> 00:15:40,983 Sabbath was monumental. 146 00:15:41,151 --> 00:15:44,587 A huge influence on Metallica. 147 00:15:49,626 --> 00:15:51,958 Black Sabbath was a big deal for me. 148 00:15:52,129 --> 00:15:54,120 Man, we worshipped those records. 149 00:15:56,900 --> 00:15:59,676 They were like pioneers on so many levels, you know. 150 00:15:59,825 --> 00:16:03,136 Doing new things with rhythm, doing new things with musical interaction. 151 00:16:08,812 --> 00:16:13,005 I mean, listening to it now, it doesn't sound that crazy at all, 152 00:16:13,155 --> 00:16:16,813 but then, it was quite off the wall. 153 00:16:23,660 --> 00:16:26,857 My very first memory of Black Sabbath, I just remember doing... 154 00:16:32,636 --> 00:16:34,934 I was like, "Oh, my God! This is insane!" 155 00:16:40,777 --> 00:16:42,802 Thank you very much. 156 00:16:47,250 --> 00:16:52,552 Before Black Sabbath, I was in a band with Tony lommi and Geezer. 157 00:16:53,123 --> 00:16:55,990 What was next needed, really, was a singer. 158 00:16:58,595 --> 00:17:01,354 So we went to this music shop in Birmingham 159 00:17:01,504 --> 00:17:03,729 where all the musicians used to hang out. 160 00:17:05,068 --> 00:17:07,091 Ozzy had put this little calling card 161 00:17:07,240 --> 00:17:09,399 in a music shop called Jones and Crossland, 162 00:17:10,173 --> 00:17:12,801 and he'd written, "Ozzy Zig needs a gig. " 163 00:17:12,976 --> 00:17:15,803 First time I ever met Ozzy was at school. 164 00:17:15,952 --> 00:17:20,042 He was, like, for want of a better word, a nuisance. 165 00:17:20,317 --> 00:17:23,374 And so when Bill and I walked up to Ozzy's door, 166 00:17:23,524 --> 00:17:26,081 I saw him in the back room, walking in. 167 00:17:26,390 --> 00:17:27,550 And I said to Bill, "Forget it. " 168 00:17:27,758 --> 00:17:30,556 I just thought, "This is gonna be a joke. " 169 00:17:31,161 --> 00:17:34,252 Ozzy wrote the magic words, "has his own PA," 170 00:17:34,401 --> 00:17:36,832 because nobody could afford PAs back then. 171 00:17:37,000 --> 00:17:40,333 If he sang and had a PA, he got the job. We didn't even have to hear him. 172 00:17:40,704 --> 00:17:43,463 Although money was very scarce in the household, 173 00:17:43,612 --> 00:17:45,939 I asked my father to buy me a PA system. 174 00:17:46,109 --> 00:17:49,971 It was the best gift I ever had 'cause had he not got that PA for me, 175 00:17:50,120 --> 00:17:52,170 I don't think I'd have ever got a gig, you know. 176 00:17:52,319 --> 00:17:56,184 The first time we got together went down great and... 177 00:17:56,953 --> 00:17:58,181 No, it was good. 178 00:18:00,123 --> 00:18:03,650 In the early days, it was just fucking guys having a blast. 179 00:18:07,264 --> 00:18:10,091 You know, if we'd never have made anything of ourselves, 180 00:18:10,240 --> 00:18:13,392 it was a good time for me just to be around a bunch of guys 181 00:18:13,542 --> 00:18:17,200 with fuck all to lose and everything to gain. It was great. 182 00:18:20,444 --> 00:18:24,073 We used to rehearse across the street from a movie theatre 183 00:18:24,381 --> 00:18:27,111 and I think it was Tony who said, 184 00:18:27,617 --> 00:18:32,913 "How weird that people go to movies to get scared. 185 00:18:33,063 --> 00:18:35,287 "Why don't we start doing scary music?" 186 00:19:13,230 --> 00:19:16,324 And that's how the beginnings of Sabbath started. 187 00:19:36,219 --> 00:19:38,545 And when we used to play that song live in the early days, 188 00:19:38,695 --> 00:19:40,816 kids would just fucking scream and run out. 189 00:19:46,830 --> 00:19:49,853 And we started getting invites to fucking Black Masses 190 00:19:50,003 --> 00:19:54,075 and fucking Highgate Cemetery at fucking 12:00. 191 00:19:54,225 --> 00:19:57,173 And we go, "Is this for real?" We never thought it was real. 192 00:20:01,011 --> 00:20:04,569 In life, we know about the dark side and the light side, 193 00:20:04,718 --> 00:20:06,506 the good side and the bad side, and I think 194 00:20:06,656 --> 00:20:09,173 that's probably the attraction, is that it hadn't been dealt with 195 00:20:09,323 --> 00:20:11,477 till the Black Sabbath started dealing with it. 196 00:20:11,627 --> 00:20:14,313 And people go, "Oh, yeah. This is great. Well cool. " 197 00:20:14,463 --> 00:20:17,251 It's like the attraction of Dracula or vampires. 198 00:20:17,400 --> 00:20:21,194 It's a rich source for exploration, I would think. 199 00:20:26,403 --> 00:20:27,992 What happened with Sabbath... 200 00:20:28,142 --> 00:20:30,296 For instance, Black Sabbath One, the first album, 201 00:20:30,445 --> 00:20:32,733 we recorded that in 12 hours, believe it or not. 202 00:20:32,882 --> 00:20:36,400 The whole thing was done in 12 hours on an eight-track machine 203 00:20:36,550 --> 00:20:38,772 in a little backstreet studio in London. 204 00:20:38,921 --> 00:20:41,073 It cost, like, 10 bucks to make or something. 205 00:20:41,223 --> 00:20:43,243 It was one of the biggest-selling albums I ever did. 206 00:20:47,224 --> 00:20:49,516 The manager comes up to me and he goes, 207 00:20:49,666 --> 00:20:52,087 "Your album's going in the chart next week at number 17." 208 00:20:52,236 --> 00:20:55,235 I said, "Fuck off! You're joking. You're winding me up. " 209 00:20:55,385 --> 00:20:56,389 "No!" 210 00:20:59,903 --> 00:21:02,763 When I got my first record royalty advance in money, 211 00:21:02,913 --> 00:21:06,308 I got 105 pounds, which is about $220. 212 00:21:06,710 --> 00:21:09,970 I went and bought myself some shoes and some socks, 213 00:21:10,119 --> 00:21:14,847 some patterned trousers, and a bottle of Brut cologne. 214 00:21:15,552 --> 00:21:18,578 I always liked to smell nice. I used to stink. 215 00:21:19,723 --> 00:21:21,914 Coming along from having nothing, 216 00:21:22,064 --> 00:21:25,352 literally fucking zero, no socks on my feet, 217 00:21:25,502 --> 00:21:28,158 walking around in fucking open sandals in the winter, 218 00:21:28,331 --> 00:21:32,893 that's, from that to a pair of fucking socks and shoes, big time. 219 00:21:36,640 --> 00:21:38,870 Then the next one, Paranoid, comes out. 220 00:21:40,710 --> 00:21:43,042 The song Paranoid went up the English charts. 221 00:21:43,246 --> 00:21:45,370 The album went straight in at number one in England. 222 00:21:45,519 --> 00:21:47,139 It was like, "Fucking hell!" 223 00:21:47,288 --> 00:21:49,509 That was our second album, we got a number one album. 224 00:21:49,658 --> 00:21:51,883 And we're going, "Fucking hell, man!" 225 00:21:52,222 --> 00:21:54,918 The real rock star vibe, you know, hit us. 226 00:22:18,248 --> 00:22:20,648 This is the first one I ever got. 227 00:22:22,185 --> 00:22:24,210 Gold disc from... 228 00:22:26,423 --> 00:22:30,484 It fucking spelt my name "O-S-S-I-E", which is fucking great. 229 00:22:30,694 --> 00:22:33,020 But those early days were fucking fantastic. 230 00:22:33,169 --> 00:22:35,787 We all had a laugh, we'd fuck around. 231 00:22:35,937 --> 00:22:38,891 We'd fucking smoke dope, drink beer, you know. 232 00:22:40,370 --> 00:22:42,842 Going around with him was a total adventure. 233 00:22:42,991 --> 00:22:44,995 We never knew what was going to happen. 234 00:22:45,144 --> 00:22:47,133 Ozzy would often walk into a room naked. 235 00:22:49,546 --> 00:22:52,174 In the early days, he was absolute bedlam. 236 00:22:52,482 --> 00:22:55,539 Me and Ozz were like a wrecking crew in the hotel room, 237 00:22:55,689 --> 00:22:59,379 so we'd dismantle the bathroom completely. 238 00:22:59,528 --> 00:23:03,233 Just big sledgehammers, the toilet, sink, all gone. 239 00:23:03,382 --> 00:23:05,534 Put it outside, everything goes outside. 240 00:23:05,683 --> 00:23:07,319 I remember I got a picture early on 241 00:23:07,468 --> 00:23:09,364 of him setting fire to Bill Ward's beard. 242 00:23:10,166 --> 00:23:12,657 And Ozzy would be laughing and Bill would just sit there. 243 00:23:13,737 --> 00:23:16,395 Growing up, Ozzy was a real prankster, 244 00:23:16,544 --> 00:23:19,737 but especially in his 20s with Sabbath, 245 00:23:19,909 --> 00:23:22,033 he was like the band clown. 246 00:23:22,182 --> 00:23:25,342 He got everyone going, laughing. 247 00:23:27,250 --> 00:23:29,946 He did that because that was his shield. 248 00:23:30,420 --> 00:23:33,184 That protected his insecurities. 249 00:23:34,591 --> 00:23:36,714 Ozzy had low self-worth. 250 00:23:36,864 --> 00:23:40,519 He always considered himself less than. 251 00:23:40,668 --> 00:23:45,294 That's how he survived everything, was just being the prankster. 252 00:23:45,802 --> 00:23:47,963 What do you do to relax? 253 00:23:51,775 --> 00:23:53,263 You were joking when you said that, of course? 254 00:23:53,412 --> 00:23:55,367 Yeah, right. 255 00:23:57,013 --> 00:24:01,707 With the success of the albums came more money, 256 00:24:01,856 --> 00:24:05,514 which enabled us to buy a better class of drug, basically. 257 00:24:06,089 --> 00:24:09,320 Which is basically what we were all doing it for, at the time. 258 00:24:10,560 --> 00:24:13,825 Cocaine, acid and stuff like that. 259 00:24:15,165 --> 00:24:18,794 This is a good old cocaine shot, we were all fucked up on these. 260 00:24:19,135 --> 00:24:21,158 If you look at the face, when you do cocaine, 261 00:24:21,307 --> 00:24:23,899 you just lose all expression in your face. 262 00:24:31,815 --> 00:24:35,440 We did the album, Volume 4, and we'd been in Los Angeles 263 00:24:35,590 --> 00:24:37,543 recording that for about three months. 264 00:24:37,921 --> 00:24:42,824 We used to have cereal boxes of cocaine delivered to the house. 265 00:24:43,226 --> 00:24:46,953 We'd just tip it into this big bowl and so we go... 266 00:24:47,102 --> 00:24:48,928 A bit like Scarface kind of thing. 267 00:24:50,700 --> 00:24:53,897 For a while, we used LSD before we played. 268 00:24:54,070 --> 00:24:56,971 And so we would go on stage, you know, tripping. 269 00:25:01,077 --> 00:25:04,069 Come on! Let's have a party! 270 00:26:01,437 --> 00:26:05,840 I was young, I had money, I had cars, I had a fucking house. 271 00:26:06,509 --> 00:26:09,569 I was fucking king of the world at fucking 22. 272 00:26:19,188 --> 00:26:21,179 Thank you very much! 273 00:26:28,398 --> 00:26:31,128 Thank you. We'll see you again soon! 274 00:26:37,440 --> 00:26:41,032 Shortly after we all became successful with Black Sabbath, 275 00:26:41,181 --> 00:26:42,634 I met Thelma in a night club. 276 00:26:44,480 --> 00:26:48,348 Then we got married and we had two children, Jessica and Louis. 277 00:26:53,089 --> 00:26:55,182 And this is a picture of my parents. 278 00:26:55,491 --> 00:26:58,324 That was actually at the Hilton Hotel in Las Vegas. 279 00:27:03,166 --> 00:27:07,933 Some lovely ones, him looking very young and handsome and sultry. 280 00:27:10,106 --> 00:27:11,664 These are nice ones. 281 00:27:12,175 --> 00:27:15,598 Before we had our house decorated, so this must have been very early. 282 00:27:15,747 --> 00:27:17,077 1972. - 1972. 283 00:27:17,680 --> 00:27:20,672 Got a Black Sabbath sticker on the telephone. 284 00:27:21,718 --> 00:27:23,740 My recollection from my childhood with Dad 285 00:27:23,890 --> 00:27:27,186 is that he'd be away for very long periods of time, 286 00:27:27,523 --> 00:27:31,148 and there would always be a period of adjustment when he came home, 287 00:27:31,298 --> 00:27:34,886 and then it would get to normality, and then he'd go again. 288 00:27:35,035 --> 00:27:37,159 So it was a very erratic childhood with Dad. 289 00:27:38,234 --> 00:27:40,223 Dad got into the local newspaper 290 00:27:40,372 --> 00:27:42,994 for the prized green beans that he had grown. 291 00:27:43,144 --> 00:27:45,233 That's a nice picture of the house and of our vegetable garden. 292 00:27:45,975 --> 00:27:48,166 He was always a very big social drinker, 293 00:27:48,316 --> 00:27:50,469 so the pubs in the villages where we all grew up 294 00:27:50,618 --> 00:27:54,277 were a very big part of the social scene, so he would go to the pub. 295 00:27:59,622 --> 00:28:03,991 The only thing in English countryside really back then was pubs. 296 00:28:04,594 --> 00:28:06,785 I'd go, "There's a pub there, the house is just down the road. 297 00:28:06,935 --> 00:28:08,789 "Idea. I haven't got a driving licence. 298 00:28:08,939 --> 00:28:10,853 "For one, I can walk to the pub and back!" 299 00:28:11,003 --> 00:28:13,990 My idea of going for a drink was to go to a pub, 300 00:28:14,140 --> 00:28:16,592 get as much poured down my neck as I could 301 00:28:16,742 --> 00:28:18,897 and stumble out. That was my idea of a drink. 302 00:28:19,047 --> 00:28:21,806 When he was around and he wasn't pissed, he was a great father. 303 00:28:22,211 --> 00:28:24,200 But that was seldom, really. 304 00:28:24,349 --> 00:28:26,838 I just have a lot of memories of him being drunk. 305 00:28:27,016 --> 00:28:29,972 Fucking just random shit, you know. Fucking driving cars across fields, 306 00:28:30,122 --> 00:28:32,930 and crashing them in the middle of the night and stuff like that. 307 00:28:33,079 --> 00:28:35,456 It's not good for family life, really, you know. 308 00:28:37,727 --> 00:28:42,123 When you drink alcohol and someone goes, "Dad, help me do this math. " 309 00:28:42,272 --> 00:28:45,223 You go, "What the fuck you even bothering me for?" 310 00:28:45,468 --> 00:28:48,960 It just gets a big ugly scene, but that's the way your life becomes. 311 00:28:49,305 --> 00:28:53,708 I don't remember being put to bed or a bath or that kind of thing by Dad. 312 00:28:54,577 --> 00:28:56,566 I wouldn't say he was there for us, no. 313 00:28:56,715 --> 00:29:00,872 Never on a sports day, a school trip, a parents' evening. 314 00:29:01,022 --> 00:29:02,938 He wasn't like that, no. 315 00:29:03,088 --> 00:29:04,810 It just pissed me off that Dad never remembered my birthday. 316 00:29:04,960 --> 00:29:07,613 Just a fucking phone call to say, "Happy birthday, Lou. " 317 00:29:07,762 --> 00:29:11,023 Just make me happy. That's all I wanted but he couldn't remember that. 318 00:29:11,728 --> 00:29:13,717 When was Jessica born? - Sorry? 319 00:29:13,866 --> 00:29:17,823 When was Jess born? - I think '71, '72. 320 00:29:20,403 --> 00:29:22,459 Maybe before. 321 00:29:22,609 --> 00:29:25,166 I don't really know. I'll find out for you. 322 00:29:29,779 --> 00:29:32,247 Do you think he was a good parent? 323 00:29:33,349 --> 00:29:34,907 No. 324 00:29:37,720 --> 00:29:40,209 I did the best I could in the situation at home. 325 00:29:40,359 --> 00:29:42,655 I was fucking 22. 326 00:29:43,025 --> 00:29:45,755 I mean, people knew who I was. 327 00:29:46,028 --> 00:29:50,722 I could drive the fucking Mercedes, fly on Concorde to New York, 328 00:29:50,872 --> 00:29:54,234 fucking first class seat, and stay at a nice hotel. 329 00:29:54,570 --> 00:29:57,095 You know, I mean, I was a rock star. 330 00:29:57,406 --> 00:30:00,098 And when you become a successful rock star, 331 00:30:00,247 --> 00:30:01,568 they don't give you a handbook and say, 332 00:30:01,717 --> 00:30:03,666 "You should learn these rules. This is what you got to stick by. " 333 00:30:03,816 --> 00:30:06,408 It's the fucking world. You're young, you got money, 334 00:30:06,582 --> 00:30:09,847 you're successful, chicks want to be seen with you. 335 00:30:10,887 --> 00:30:13,219 What more can you say, you know? 336 00:30:31,107 --> 00:30:34,304 It's just probably stress or anxiety. 337 00:30:35,044 --> 00:30:38,878 I don't know. I'm not anxious. I'm feeling okay. 338 00:30:39,649 --> 00:30:43,847 Well, you've told me before that you get a bit wound up at the gigs. 339 00:30:44,153 --> 00:30:47,213 The last time was great. That's why I'm doing it, you know. 340 00:30:47,456 --> 00:30:49,856 I'm not wound up at all. 341 00:30:52,395 --> 00:30:57,492 Okay, there, Ozzy. Here we go. Now give me... M-U-H-M. 342 00:31:02,438 --> 00:31:03,905 Now, we're gonna give you the... 343 00:31:05,107 --> 00:31:08,167 Slightly hooty... And do the long one, and say... 344 00:31:14,050 --> 00:31:17,542 Now, Ozz, give me a plain old... And same thing, say... 345 00:31:25,962 --> 00:31:29,227 Okay, I'm gonna give you the chance to rest for a little bit, 346 00:31:29,398 --> 00:31:31,559 and then we'll start again. 347 00:31:32,835 --> 00:31:36,995 I love my job, you know. I'm very fucking passionate about it. 348 00:31:37,144 --> 00:31:40,633 When I can't give a good show, I get pissed off about it, you know. 349 00:31:41,043 --> 00:31:46,481 When I can't do my job... I suffer from terminal perfectionism. 350 00:31:46,916 --> 00:31:49,817 I'm just gonna flip-flop Bark At The Moon with Suicide Solution, 351 00:31:51,087 --> 00:31:53,555 Crazy Train, and leave it as the old set. 352 00:31:53,956 --> 00:31:58,154 Yeah, I mean, if you want... 353 00:31:58,461 --> 00:32:02,488 We can do Fire in the Sky, 'cause that's more for you to sing. 354 00:32:02,732 --> 00:32:05,688 Yeah, but I'll know when I get there, you know. 355 00:32:05,837 --> 00:32:07,860 Exactly. You know, right? 356 00:32:08,170 --> 00:32:10,866 I'm not gonna fucking do all this shit, all right, man? 357 00:32:13,743 --> 00:32:15,197 I mean, we're gonna go over everything, 358 00:32:15,347 --> 00:32:17,935 we'll be here till fucking midnight, going over all this shit. 359 00:32:18,085 --> 00:32:19,237 We got here a little while ago. 360 00:32:19,386 --> 00:32:21,039 We'll just keep going till we get it right. 361 00:32:21,188 --> 00:32:22,208 All right. 362 00:33:00,156 --> 00:33:03,916 Not every night I'm great, not every night I'm half great sometimes. 363 00:33:04,066 --> 00:33:05,970 I'm terrible if my voice goes out, 364 00:33:06,119 --> 00:33:08,586 like everybody else is, but the show goes on. 365 00:33:20,176 --> 00:33:21,165 Yes, sir. 366 00:33:24,080 --> 00:33:25,741 If I can't get it to... 367 00:33:28,818 --> 00:33:30,807 Fucking... I'm deaf. 368 00:33:30,956 --> 00:33:34,185 Next year I'll be, like, on fucking Braille, man. 369 00:33:57,913 --> 00:33:59,039 Hey. 370 00:34:06,389 --> 00:34:08,687 You're so tired, that's why. 371 00:34:10,326 --> 00:34:13,659 I first met Ozzy when Black Sabbath asked 372 00:34:13,863 --> 00:34:16,730 if my father was interested in managing them. 373 00:34:18,300 --> 00:34:23,294 Black Sabbath was a phenomenon. It just instantly happened. 374 00:34:25,608 --> 00:34:29,132 And for guys that just came from a poor background, 375 00:34:29,282 --> 00:34:32,646 to suddenly money everywhere being thrown at them, 376 00:34:33,349 --> 00:34:38,290 they were really out of their comfort zone, those guys, they really were. 377 00:34:38,440 --> 00:34:42,187 When you think they were all so young, terribly young. 378 00:34:48,197 --> 00:34:51,997 Towards the late '70s, we were very high, high, high. 379 00:34:52,501 --> 00:34:53,725 There was a lot of cocaine. 380 00:34:53,874 --> 00:34:57,602 I know I was using cocaine regularly, on a daily basis. 381 00:34:57,773 --> 00:35:01,702 I remember doing it every day, like, 24 hours a day, practically. 382 00:35:01,851 --> 00:35:06,740 So, I didn't realise at the time, all the management was interested in 383 00:35:06,890 --> 00:35:09,838 was ripping as much money off us as they possibly could. 384 00:35:09,988 --> 00:35:15,116 I mean, Sabbath was royally fucking ripped off. Royally ripped off. 385 00:35:15,291 --> 00:35:18,624 And then we didn't know anything about royalties. 386 00:35:20,196 --> 00:35:23,222 I didn't even know you got royalties for writing the music. 387 00:35:23,632 --> 00:35:27,961 Circa about 1976, I produced this report, quite a long report, 388 00:35:28,110 --> 00:35:31,779 basically saying how their money wasn't quite as they thought it was. 389 00:35:31,929 --> 00:35:34,931 For example, they all had houses, but they didn't own them. 390 00:35:35,080 --> 00:35:38,270 We had all these million, platinum selling albums and everything, 391 00:35:38,419 --> 00:35:41,190 and nothing to show for it. No money. 392 00:35:41,340 --> 00:35:44,582 We were all out of our brains on dope. 393 00:35:46,455 --> 00:35:49,253 So the band was just, like, split anyway. 394 00:35:51,193 --> 00:35:53,286 It had been broken, really. 395 00:35:53,896 --> 00:35:55,789 Hello, welcome to Top of The Pops, and right now, 396 00:35:55,939 --> 00:35:58,492 here's a rundown on the brand new Top 30. 397 00:36:14,783 --> 00:36:15,956 Right now, Never Say Die, 398 00:36:16,106 --> 00:36:18,315 that's the brand new one from Black Sabbath. 399 00:36:42,044 --> 00:36:44,786 The last album I did with Sabbath was Never Say Die. 400 00:36:44,936 --> 00:36:48,674 It was the worst piece of work that I've ever had anything to do with. 401 00:36:48,824 --> 00:36:51,184 I'm ashamed of that album. It was disgusting. 402 00:37:04,400 --> 00:37:07,159 He puts everything he's got into it. That's Black Sabbath right there. 403 00:37:07,308 --> 00:37:08,695 John Travolta and Olivia Newton-John 404 00:37:08,845 --> 00:37:10,795 have gone straight in at number 23 this week... 405 00:37:15,311 --> 00:37:17,404 When his dad passed away, 406 00:37:17,780 --> 00:37:23,013 and it really knocked the shit out of him. It nearly destroyed him. 407 00:37:24,453 --> 00:37:28,412 We were all devastated. We all loved Jack. 408 00:37:28,724 --> 00:37:32,785 It was Jack that had given us the crosses. 409 00:37:33,996 --> 00:37:36,857 This is the original, original, original Sabbath cross. 410 00:37:37,006 --> 00:37:39,894 My father made that when he was at work, 411 00:37:40,043 --> 00:37:42,896 and then when he'd come back with it, 412 00:37:43,045 --> 00:37:46,545 everyone in the band wanted one and he made another. 413 00:37:46,695 --> 00:37:51,339 Bill Ward wore his right up to relatively recently. 414 00:37:52,715 --> 00:37:55,941 I always wanted a man-to-man conversation with my father, 415 00:37:56,090 --> 00:37:59,577 but I was too into drugs and alcohol before he died. 416 00:37:59,989 --> 00:38:02,651 I miss my father a lot, you know. 417 00:38:03,726 --> 00:38:06,215 But I was young, I was doing... 418 00:38:06,364 --> 00:38:09,126 I was riding the fame game for a long time. 419 00:38:12,334 --> 00:38:14,542 Ozz was in absolute turmoil, 420 00:38:14,692 --> 00:38:17,366 and he put himself right inside the bottle. 421 00:38:18,641 --> 00:38:20,905 He stayed there for a while. 422 00:38:22,044 --> 00:38:25,502 And so we got on with trying to make another record. 423 00:38:27,449 --> 00:38:32,374 And we all came over to LA to do the album after Never Say Die, 424 00:38:32,523 --> 00:38:34,814 and Ozzy didn't turn up for two weeks. 425 00:38:34,963 --> 00:38:40,156 Two weeks later, he rolls through the door, smashed out of his head. 426 00:38:40,896 --> 00:38:44,488 He'd beaten somebody up on the plane coming over from England, 427 00:38:44,637 --> 00:38:48,934 and the Customs had arrested him for beating this person up. 428 00:38:50,539 --> 00:38:56,403 By the time we got to the house, he was obliterated, started rehearsing, 429 00:38:56,553 --> 00:38:58,236 and he just wouldn't sing on anything. 430 00:38:58,386 --> 00:39:01,145 He was like, "That's shit. Crap, that is. " 431 00:39:01,450 --> 00:39:03,540 Ozzy wasn't into it. He really wasn't into it. 432 00:39:03,689 --> 00:39:07,711 And most of the time, he would be on the couch asleep, 433 00:39:07,860 --> 00:39:09,514 he'd have done some Quaaludes or whatever 434 00:39:09,663 --> 00:39:13,149 it might've been at that time, and he wasn't happy, I don't think. 435 00:39:13,299 --> 00:39:15,751 He was doing too much of everything, as we all were, 436 00:39:15,900 --> 00:39:19,855 but some people can handle it better than others. He couldn't handle it. 437 00:39:20,004 --> 00:39:21,361 The conversations began about 438 00:39:21,510 --> 00:39:23,870 the possibility of looking at another singer. 439 00:39:24,940 --> 00:39:27,350 He just didn't want to be there. 440 00:39:27,500 --> 00:39:29,965 We knew it was, like, either the whole band split, 441 00:39:30,115 --> 00:39:32,135 or we'd get somebody else in. 442 00:39:32,284 --> 00:39:37,740 It was me that actually says to him, "You know, Ozz, we're gonna move on. 443 00:39:37,889 --> 00:39:41,118 "We're gonna move on without you. " Broke my heart. 444 00:39:44,126 --> 00:39:47,118 We all cried our eyes out for about a week, 445 00:39:48,130 --> 00:39:50,621 when Ozzy had gone, because we... 446 00:39:52,067 --> 00:39:56,058 I swear to God, if he hadn't have been fired from the band, 447 00:39:56,207 --> 00:39:59,572 he'd have been dead within a month. 448 00:40:02,277 --> 00:40:05,936 It was tough for Ozzy when he first got let go from Sabbath. 449 00:40:06,086 --> 00:40:10,007 He had very low self-esteem, he had no confidence whatsoever. 450 00:40:10,419 --> 00:40:12,458 When I got fired from Sabbath, 451 00:40:12,608 --> 00:40:14,745 I didn't know what to do, I didn't know where to go. 452 00:40:14,895 --> 00:40:18,088 I thought it was the end of the dream. 453 00:40:18,560 --> 00:40:21,516 I'd never ever dreamed that I would do it again on my own. 454 00:40:21,666 --> 00:40:24,085 I just thought, "This is it. " So what money I had, 455 00:40:24,235 --> 00:40:25,991 I just got fucked up and bought drugs 456 00:40:26,140 --> 00:40:29,901 and stayed in an apartment for three months and got loaded. 457 00:40:30,606 --> 00:40:35,131 You'd go into Ozzy's room and he'd be curled up on the floor 458 00:40:35,281 --> 00:40:38,835 covered in piss, beer bottles all around him, 459 00:40:38,985 --> 00:40:41,848 drug paraphernalia everywhere. 460 00:40:42,050 --> 00:40:45,411 And what could be sadder, what could be lower than that? 461 00:40:45,560 --> 00:40:47,749 His dignity had well gone. 462 00:40:54,863 --> 00:40:58,005 Ozzy did feel very alone, lost and broke. 463 00:40:58,154 --> 00:41:00,825 Suddenly he was out of the band, and would he get picked up, 464 00:41:00,974 --> 00:41:03,530 and who was interested in him and was his career over? 465 00:41:04,440 --> 00:41:07,250 For a guy like me who's got self-esteem issues, 466 00:41:07,399 --> 00:41:10,277 the idea of going solo was very, very scary. 467 00:41:11,480 --> 00:41:13,435 I knew he had great talent 468 00:41:13,585 --> 00:41:18,452 and I just felt in my gut that he could make a huge comeback. 469 00:41:19,054 --> 00:41:24,549 It was then that I became his actual manager, properly. 470 00:41:25,093 --> 00:41:28,529 And first thing, we had to find that band. 471 00:41:30,599 --> 00:41:34,558 We auditioned hundreds of guitar players. 472 00:41:34,803 --> 00:41:39,328 Literally, we would turn up at the rehearsal rooms 473 00:41:39,478 --> 00:41:42,535 and there would be lines around the block 474 00:41:42,744 --> 00:41:45,402 of musicians waiting to see Ozzy. 475 00:41:45,552 --> 00:41:47,171 It was a bit of a slow process at first, 476 00:41:47,320 --> 00:41:50,581 until I met someone who put me in touch with Randy Rhoads. 477 00:41:52,054 --> 00:41:55,490 Randy had a deep-ish voice for a little guy, like, "Wow. " 478 00:41:56,391 --> 00:42:00,832 So he goes into the studio and I'm sitting here in this studio window, 479 00:42:00,982 --> 00:42:04,290 like that thing, you know, I'm fucking zonked. 480 00:42:04,439 --> 00:42:05,589 And he goes, "What do you want me to... " 481 00:42:05,739 --> 00:42:08,067 I said, "Play any fucking thing. " 482 00:42:08,303 --> 00:42:10,528 He said, "I have a solo," and he played his fucking solo. 483 00:42:10,678 --> 00:42:13,882 And I was like, "Am I that fucking stoned, 484 00:42:14,031 --> 00:42:16,375 "or am I hallucinating? What the fuck is this?" 485 00:43:02,090 --> 00:43:05,150 So he was very lucky to run into Randy Rhoads. 486 00:43:05,394 --> 00:43:10,661 And the guitar sound really reinvented Ozzy's voice. 487 00:43:19,942 --> 00:43:24,504 And he had a true writing partner, and a friend. They really clicked. 488 00:43:28,350 --> 00:43:30,541 Everybody thought maybe he was gonna be down and out 489 00:43:30,691 --> 00:43:33,917 because of what happened with Sabbath and he just shocked the world. 490 00:43:37,993 --> 00:43:39,419 Especially with Randy Rhoads, 491 00:43:39,569 --> 00:43:42,551 and the magnitude of what this guy was doing. 492 00:43:42,701 --> 00:43:46,391 Here's this guy who's giving Eddie Van Halen a run for his money 493 00:43:46,540 --> 00:43:48,992 and everybody thought that Eddie Van Halen was the king. 494 00:43:56,445 --> 00:44:00,289 I knew instinctively that he was something extra special. 495 00:44:00,439 --> 00:44:03,191 He was like a gift from God. 496 00:44:03,340 --> 00:44:07,894 And having that fucking thing, having a gift from a higher power, 497 00:44:08,043 --> 00:44:10,146 I don't know what the fucking deal was, 498 00:44:10,296 --> 00:44:12,584 but this guy did something to me. 499 00:44:12,734 --> 00:44:17,290 And one thing that he gave to me was hope. 500 00:44:17,499 --> 00:44:20,991 He gave me a reason for carrying on. 501 00:44:27,209 --> 00:44:31,284 Blizzard of Ozz, the first record, was done in six weeks. 502 00:44:31,434 --> 00:44:36,544 It just instantly, instantly blew up everywhere. 503 00:44:44,693 --> 00:44:49,684 He went right on tour through Europe with the band. 504 00:44:49,834 --> 00:44:54,530 Then back into the studio three months later to do Diary of a Madman. 505 00:44:57,172 --> 00:45:01,433 Less than a year after being fired from Black Sabbath, 506 00:45:01,582 --> 00:45:03,636 Ozzy was a rock star again. 507 00:45:26,501 --> 00:45:29,732 Diary of a Madman tour was just massive. 508 00:45:29,905 --> 00:45:32,601 It was the loudest show I've ever been a part of. 509 00:46:33,969 --> 00:46:36,492 That tour was just like a magical time. 510 00:46:36,642 --> 00:46:40,166 I think Randy and Ozzy gelled together 511 00:46:41,076 --> 00:46:43,801 like left and right hand, it was just amazing. 512 00:46:43,950 --> 00:46:45,310 Their friendship was... 513 00:46:46,581 --> 00:46:50,808 It was just like two best mates hanging out 514 00:46:50,958 --> 00:46:54,314 and laughing but yet that passion for music, 515 00:46:54,463 --> 00:46:57,350 everything, the albums that they were writing, 516 00:46:57,500 --> 00:47:01,753 and the gigs, just music talk the whole time. 517 00:47:01,903 --> 00:47:06,192 Randy was able to achieve a lot in a very short period of time. 518 00:47:06,341 --> 00:47:09,327 And a lot of it was due to Ozzy's mentorship. 519 00:47:10,138 --> 00:47:13,533 Randy, on behalf of the over half million readers 520 00:47:13,683 --> 00:47:16,131 of Guitar Player Magazine in the US 521 00:47:16,280 --> 00:47:17,968 and in 70 countries throughout the world 522 00:47:18,118 --> 00:47:22,019 I'd like to present you with the 1981 Best New Talent Award. 523 00:47:22,169 --> 00:47:23,811 Congratulations. - Thank you. 524 00:47:31,259 --> 00:47:33,250 Give him a kiss, Ozzy. 525 00:47:36,631 --> 00:47:38,654 I've got a lot of work to do, 526 00:47:38,803 --> 00:47:42,259 and it makes you realise it's a lot of responsibility. 527 00:47:42,938 --> 00:47:47,913 This tour, I wanna really get myself together and work hard 528 00:47:48,062 --> 00:47:51,444 because I'm really proud and honoured, 529 00:47:52,647 --> 00:47:54,672 and I don't wanna stop here. 530 00:47:58,353 --> 00:48:02,080 Randy Rhoads, the 25-year-old lead guitarist for Ozzy Osbourne's group, 531 00:48:02,229 --> 00:48:05,247 was killed in a plane crash this morning along with two other people, 532 00:48:05,397 --> 00:48:07,551 Andrew Aycock, the pilot of the plane, 533 00:48:07,701 --> 00:48:10,455 also Rachel Youngblood, the group's hairdresser. 534 00:48:10,604 --> 00:48:13,156 Ozzy Osbourne himself was in the van 535 00:48:13,305 --> 00:48:15,223 when one of the plane's wings clipped it, 536 00:48:15,373 --> 00:48:17,697 but Ozzy escaped injury, we understand. 537 00:48:17,846 --> 00:48:20,832 25-year-old Randy Rhoads is dead today. 538 00:48:22,510 --> 00:48:25,968 The morning that Randy was killed, I'll never forget. 539 00:48:28,617 --> 00:48:33,575 I'll never forget. We were there for so many hours 540 00:48:33,724 --> 00:48:37,882 because it took so long for the authorities to come down, 541 00:48:38,031 --> 00:48:40,015 the police and the fire department. 542 00:48:40,165 --> 00:48:45,041 We finally went to a nearby hotel and I just couldn't stay in my room. 543 00:48:45,190 --> 00:48:49,762 So I went down the street and I found a church right down the street. 544 00:48:50,538 --> 00:48:52,802 All I wanted to do was just sit there 545 00:48:52,974 --> 00:48:57,741 and just make some sense of what was going on. 546 00:48:58,246 --> 00:49:01,841 I didn't even look up and I'm sitting there 547 00:49:02,651 --> 00:49:06,417 and I hear this sobbing and this crying... 548 00:49:09,524 --> 00:49:15,190 And I thought, "Wow, this person has got to be in more pain than I am. " 549 00:49:15,397 --> 00:49:18,332 And I look up and it's Ozzy sitting there. 550 00:49:20,101 --> 00:49:23,158 The craziest day of my life was the day that Randy Rhoads died. 551 00:49:23,308 --> 00:49:26,233 And I couldn't believe that. You got to deal with that. 552 00:49:26,382 --> 00:49:30,277 People tend to forget people in this business so quickly. 553 00:49:30,679 --> 00:49:32,887 That guy was my brother, man. 554 00:49:33,036 --> 00:49:36,004 That guy was a part of my life, and he's dead. 555 00:49:36,153 --> 00:49:39,326 Why don't people start talking to me about the death of Randy Rhoads 556 00:49:39,476 --> 00:49:42,651 instead of asking me the craziest prank that I've ever done? 557 00:49:42,924 --> 00:49:45,250 That's the craziest prank that I've ever witnessed, 558 00:49:45,400 --> 00:49:47,385 was seeing that guy burn. 559 00:49:47,762 --> 00:49:52,158 And the day that Randy Rhoads died, that was the day a part of me died. 560 00:49:52,308 --> 00:49:55,560 And Rachel Youngblood, my seamstress. 561 00:49:55,710 --> 00:49:58,662 Can't forget that. It just gets kind of weird. 562 00:50:39,347 --> 00:50:41,247 It's Friday or Saturday, yeah? 563 00:50:41,516 --> 00:50:43,279 Today is Saturday, yes. 564 00:50:43,485 --> 00:50:45,209 I don't know what country I'm in half the time. 565 00:50:45,359 --> 00:50:48,778 I don't know what time it is. - Tell me about it. 566 00:52:57,485 --> 00:53:02,511 After the Diary of a Madman tour, I went to Barbados with my family. 567 00:53:02,661 --> 00:53:05,957 My ex-wife told me on the plane, coming back, "I want a divorce. " 568 00:53:07,695 --> 00:53:10,289 But that was very ugly for a while. 569 00:53:10,598 --> 00:53:14,639 My children still wanted their father, their dad, 570 00:53:14,789 --> 00:53:19,229 and that's a fucking dreadful feeling that you have to go through. 571 00:53:19,807 --> 00:53:24,403 I remember going to my house one day and Louis, my son, was a little kid 572 00:53:25,079 --> 00:53:26,472 and he got me... 573 00:53:26,621 --> 00:53:29,976 I can remember him sticking his fingernails in, 574 00:53:30,125 --> 00:53:32,478 and tears were streaming down his face and he says, 575 00:53:32,627 --> 00:53:35,982 "Daddy, please come home. We can work this out. " 576 00:53:36,131 --> 00:53:41,819 That one incident tore my heart out. Tore my fucking heart out. 577 00:53:41,969 --> 00:53:44,990 It just fucked me up. And I don't know really... 578 00:53:45,800 --> 00:53:47,927 It devastated me. 579 00:53:53,241 --> 00:53:56,972 Ozzy and I were friends. We worked together and that was it. 580 00:53:57,512 --> 00:54:02,074 But it wasn't until August of 1980 581 00:54:02,483 --> 00:54:06,283 that we actually had a relationship going. 582 00:54:10,491 --> 00:54:16,917 The first night that we were actually together in Shepperton in 1980, 583 00:54:17,067 --> 00:54:20,825 and then the next day I thought, "Oh, well. It just happened. 584 00:54:20,975 --> 00:54:25,494 "Drunk. We were in the moment. It'll all be over. " 585 00:54:25,643 --> 00:54:29,333 And each night after the show... - It happened again... 586 00:54:29,482 --> 00:54:32,405 It happened again and again and again. 587 00:54:32,555 --> 00:54:37,314 And it was either we were in the pub, in bed or on stage. 588 00:54:37,518 --> 00:54:40,282 That was it? Yeah. - That's about it, isn't it? 589 00:54:45,126 --> 00:54:47,720 I didn't know they had a relationship or anything. 590 00:54:48,029 --> 00:54:49,939 I'm shooting Ozzy in the bed, 591 00:54:50,088 --> 00:54:56,560 and then all of a sudden, Sharon goes under the covers. 592 00:54:58,473 --> 00:55:02,807 All of a sudden, Sharon's down there like she's doing the deed. 593 00:55:03,044 --> 00:55:05,308 And Ozzy's just like freaking. 594 00:55:08,082 --> 00:55:12,041 Ozzy and I got married in 1982 in Maui. 595 00:55:18,526 --> 00:55:21,819 And we wanted to start a family, that's why we got married. 596 00:55:21,969 --> 00:55:24,261 We both wanted our own family. 597 00:55:46,821 --> 00:55:49,946 Dad was there for me when I was growing up. 598 00:55:50,096 --> 00:55:52,822 There were times, there were, like, chunks. 599 00:55:53,127 --> 00:55:59,823 But then again, there were loads of times where he wasn't a great father, 600 00:55:59,973 --> 00:56:03,563 and he wasn't there when I needed him. 601 00:56:03,738 --> 00:56:07,538 Meaning the fact that he was messed up a lot of the time. 602 00:56:07,709 --> 00:56:10,542 When he was drunk, he was mostly tearful, 603 00:56:12,013 --> 00:56:14,504 and sometimes he'd get a bit angry. 604 00:56:14,682 --> 00:56:19,119 And a bit, like, "I work hard. I should be able to do what I want. " 605 00:56:21,022 --> 00:56:22,915 But mostly tearful. 606 00:56:23,065 --> 00:56:26,419 I don't honestly think that Ozzy knew how to be a father. 607 00:56:26,568 --> 00:56:31,187 The drinking, the huge success that was going on in his life, 608 00:56:31,336 --> 00:56:35,598 the turmoil of leaving one family and starting another family... 609 00:56:35,803 --> 00:56:39,068 He was treading water. 610 00:56:39,607 --> 00:56:43,134 And that caused the behaviour to get even worse. 611 00:56:43,611 --> 00:56:47,771 So his pranks that he used to play 612 00:56:47,920 --> 00:56:51,074 would get bigger and larger and crazier, 613 00:56:51,224 --> 00:56:55,645 and his whole behaviour, on and off stage, was over the top. 614 00:56:56,224 --> 00:56:59,585 And it was like insanity, 615 00:56:59,734 --> 00:57:04,090 just going around and around and around, complete insanity. 616 00:57:04,239 --> 00:57:05,855 Rock star Ozzy Osbourne, 617 00:57:06,005 --> 00:57:10,059 who is known for biting the heads off of bats at his concerts... 618 00:57:10,209 --> 00:57:12,969 Osbourne was arrested for urinating on the Alamo... 619 00:57:13,307 --> 00:57:15,965 The Union Arena was filled with the anticipation 620 00:57:16,115 --> 00:57:20,568 of a cat slaughter tonight. Rumour was that punk rocker Ozzy Osbourne 621 00:57:20,718 --> 00:57:23,204 was going to release hundreds of cats here 622 00:57:23,353 --> 00:57:26,718 and expected the audience to kill them before his appearance onstage. 623 00:57:27,021 --> 00:57:29,010 The lyrics from one of his songs 624 00:57:29,159 --> 00:57:31,114 encouraged a young man to commit suicide. 625 00:57:31,592 --> 00:57:34,993 His father claims John was listening to Ozzy Osbourne music at the time. 626 00:57:35,463 --> 00:57:36,585 He gained reputation for being 627 00:57:36,735 --> 00:57:39,097 rock 'n' roll's definitive crazy person. 628 00:57:39,367 --> 00:57:40,905 Well, I suppose you could say that. 629 00:57:41,055 --> 00:57:44,971 Can we talk about you being crazy? - I'm not crazy... 630 00:57:46,307 --> 00:57:49,831 In the '80s, I was the craziest guy of rock 'n' roll. 631 00:57:49,981 --> 00:57:53,345 If you wanted me to do something, tell me not to. 632 00:57:53,881 --> 00:57:55,870 That was about the order of the fucking day. 633 00:57:56,019 --> 00:57:58,624 I was drunk and fucked up on a daily basis. 634 00:57:58,774 --> 00:58:01,411 So, when you get drunk and fucked up, they hardly expect you 635 00:58:01,560 --> 00:58:04,787 to fucking tiptoe through the tulips or whatever the fuck. 636 00:58:06,160 --> 00:58:09,129 When you're loaded, you do crazy things. 637 00:58:32,587 --> 00:58:36,544 It was the first time that Ozzy met the A&R staff, 638 00:58:36,693 --> 00:58:40,753 promotional staff, at CBS in Los Angeles. 639 00:58:42,296 --> 00:58:45,472 Ozzy's deal was a cheap deal. They didn't want Ozzy. 640 00:58:45,621 --> 00:58:50,367 It was a favour that they signed Ozzy. It was just a favour. 641 00:58:51,038 --> 00:58:53,973 Sixty-five grand they paid for the album. 642 00:58:54,141 --> 00:58:57,406 So he wasn't on their "high list of priorities. " 643 00:58:57,678 --> 00:59:00,134 They had fucking Michael Jackson. 644 00:59:00,283 --> 00:59:04,241 And it was like, "Okay, they've got to remember you. " 645 00:59:04,418 --> 00:59:07,478 So, then we said, "Doves of peace. That'll be nice. 646 00:59:07,655 --> 00:59:12,490 "Go in and let the birds go and then it'll be lovely," you know. 647 00:59:12,894 --> 00:59:15,366 "They'll remember, maybe it'll shit on somebody's desk 648 00:59:15,515 --> 00:59:18,255 "and that'll be funny, and then we leave. " 649 00:59:18,405 --> 00:59:22,325 She wanted me to go in there with two doves, a peace offering. 650 00:59:22,837 --> 00:59:25,377 She says, "You blow this and we are completely fucked. " 651 00:59:25,526 --> 00:59:28,833 We go into the meeting and there's the big conference table 652 00:59:28,983 --> 00:59:32,338 and there must've been, I don't know, 20, 30 people in there. 653 00:59:32,487 --> 00:59:34,772 And he sat there and he lets this bird go 654 00:59:34,922 --> 00:59:39,211 and everybody's, "Oh, magic trick. Oh, is that real?" 655 00:59:39,360 --> 00:59:42,647 I threw the one up in the air, it sat on this girl's lap, 656 00:59:42,797 --> 00:59:45,157 snapped the other one in my mouth and bit its head off. 657 00:59:45,326 --> 00:59:48,159 There's a photo somewhere of the actual event happening. 658 00:59:54,702 --> 00:59:57,827 He just picked it up and ripped its head off 659 00:59:57,977 --> 00:59:59,634 and spat it out on the girl. 660 00:59:59,807 --> 01:00:03,208 And she went absolutely fucking insane. 661 01:00:07,181 --> 01:00:08,973 They suddenly called the security 662 01:00:09,122 --> 01:00:12,246 and we were yanked out of the conference room. 663 01:00:16,223 --> 01:00:17,711 It was not a publicity stunt. 664 01:00:17,861 --> 01:00:20,555 I was just out of my fucking face on drugs and alcohol. 665 01:00:20,828 --> 01:00:23,558 What is the truth behind Ozzy biting the head off a bat? 666 01:00:23,764 --> 01:00:26,324 The bat started because of the dove. 667 01:00:27,001 --> 01:00:29,868 Kids kept hearing these stories, 668 01:00:30,104 --> 01:00:33,505 so they would bring him animals to the gigs, 669 01:00:34,842 --> 01:00:37,140 thinking that he would want to eat them. 670 01:00:37,678 --> 01:00:40,272 And somebody threw a bat and I don't know... 671 01:00:41,082 --> 01:00:44,108 To find someone who goes to a concert with a bat, 672 01:00:44,285 --> 01:00:46,729 a real bat... You always get the joke ones, you know. 673 01:00:46,878 --> 01:00:50,051 You get like the rubber ones you buy from the corner joke shop. 674 01:00:50,491 --> 01:00:52,384 And I picked it up, I thought, "This should be good. " 675 01:00:52,533 --> 01:00:55,017 Bit into this bat... - You bit it. 676 01:00:55,229 --> 01:00:58,185 Believe me, if I'd have known it was a real live bat, 677 01:00:58,335 --> 01:01:00,456 I would never have picked it up. 678 01:01:00,605 --> 01:01:02,359 But I'll tell what, you know, 679 01:01:02,509 --> 01:01:06,907 afterwards, the rabies shots were horrendous. 680 01:01:09,610 --> 01:01:14,135 It went out on the wire that Ozzy had bitten the head off a bat 681 01:01:14,285 --> 01:01:15,972 and had to have these rabies shots. 682 01:01:16,122 --> 01:01:21,077 And then suddenly, Ozzy is this larger-than-life character. 683 01:01:27,762 --> 01:01:29,662 When we were on tour with Ozzy, 684 01:01:29,964 --> 01:01:32,364 we would always have these crazy parties backstage. 685 01:01:33,267 --> 01:01:34,789 He would come onto our bus and say, 686 01:01:34,938 --> 01:01:37,594 "I'm riding with you guys to the next city. " 687 01:01:37,743 --> 01:01:39,660 And he'd fucking reach into his 688 01:01:39,810 --> 01:01:42,743 coat pocket or his pants and pull out, he goes... 689 01:01:43,344 --> 01:01:45,169 He'd pull out, like, two huge bags of cocaine, 690 01:01:45,319 --> 01:01:48,674 and he goes, "I've got bags of this shit. " And we would fucking... 691 01:01:48,824 --> 01:01:50,738 All of us would go back to the back of the bus 692 01:01:50,887 --> 01:01:52,941 and we would fucking snort cocaine 693 01:01:53,091 --> 01:01:56,251 for fucking, you know, 10-hour bus rides. 694 01:01:57,491 --> 01:01:59,514 And we're walking into the hotels like the Four Seasons 695 01:01:59,663 --> 01:02:02,082 or the Ritz-Carltons where, you know, Mom and Dad... 696 01:02:02,232 --> 01:02:04,123 "We're a happy family, we're out by the pool," 697 01:02:04,272 --> 01:02:05,753 and everybody's like... Their little resort. 698 01:02:05,902 --> 01:02:09,199 And here comes M�tley Cr�e and Ozzy, just fucking blasted. 699 01:02:11,539 --> 01:02:14,934 And it was this who-can-out-gross contest, 700 01:02:15,083 --> 01:02:17,081 which Nikki kind of started. 701 01:02:17,231 --> 01:02:20,200 And all of a sudden, we're sitting out by the pool having drinks, 702 01:02:20,350 --> 01:02:22,139 and Nikki pisses on the ground 703 01:02:22,288 --> 01:02:25,480 and goes to lick up his own piss to freak Ozzy out. 704 01:02:25,686 --> 01:02:28,378 Ozzy beats him to the punch and starts licking up Nikki's piss. 705 01:02:28,527 --> 01:02:32,050 And we're like, "Oh, fuck! 706 01:02:32,259 --> 01:02:34,693 "This is fucked up. What is wrong with you two?" 707 01:02:36,330 --> 01:02:38,521 And the hotel was freaking out. 708 01:02:38,671 --> 01:02:40,289 Security's kicking us out of the pool. 709 01:02:40,439 --> 01:02:42,491 They're doing the out-gross contest. 710 01:02:42,640 --> 01:02:45,128 Snorting ants, fucking licking up each other's piss. 711 01:02:45,606 --> 01:02:47,966 And I'm like, "Dude, let's just go to the fucking room. 712 01:02:48,115 --> 01:02:51,267 "Let's just chill out. Come on. " "And the fucking... Fucking... " 713 01:02:51,417 --> 01:02:54,137 And he's just going... I'm like, "Dude, please. " 714 01:02:54,287 --> 01:02:57,479 I just fucking grab him, "Come on!" Take him to the elevator, 715 01:02:57,818 --> 01:03:00,645 I find his room, put the key in. I'm like, "Okay, bud. " 716 01:03:00,795 --> 01:03:04,346 I push the door, like, "Okay, bud, you're in your room. Hey, bye. " 717 01:03:04,496 --> 01:03:06,885 He's like, "No, fucking come here, mate. " 718 01:03:07,035 --> 01:03:09,690 And I'm like, "Fuck, I almost got out of here. " 719 01:03:09,930 --> 01:03:12,831 And he pulls me into his room, pulls his pants down, 720 01:03:13,467 --> 01:03:16,061 and just shits on the fucking floor. 721 01:03:17,905 --> 01:03:21,864 A fucking big shit on the floor. And I'm like... 722 01:03:22,910 --> 01:03:26,069 I'm like, "Okay, dude, I gotta go. " "No, fucking come... " 723 01:03:26,218 --> 01:03:28,169 And he fucking drags me back in, 724 01:03:28,318 --> 01:03:30,771 and now he picks up the shit, and he's got it in his hands, 725 01:03:30,921 --> 01:03:34,111 and he's just smearing it all over the walls of his fucking hotel room. 726 01:03:34,260 --> 01:03:37,622 I'm like, "Dude, I gotta go. This is fucked up. " 727 01:03:38,325 --> 01:03:43,452 I just remember turning around and I just saw his back, 728 01:03:43,602 --> 01:03:45,755 and he was just painting with his shit on the walls, 729 01:03:45,905 --> 01:03:48,426 and I just fucking was like, "Now is my chance. " 730 01:03:48,636 --> 01:03:50,428 And I fucking pinned it out of there, dude. 731 01:03:50,577 --> 01:03:53,095 I was like, "This is on some other next level shit. 732 01:03:53,244 --> 01:03:56,472 "Like, I'm not really ready to compete at this level. 733 01:03:56,911 --> 01:04:00,403 "I'm cool with taking a shit in the toilet. " 734 01:04:05,619 --> 01:04:10,043 I think that Ozzy's behaviour in the '80s, 735 01:04:10,193 --> 01:04:14,300 I think it's a fact of everything Ozzy had always lost. 736 01:04:14,449 --> 01:04:17,761 You know, he lost Sabbath, 737 01:04:18,299 --> 01:04:21,530 he lost his first wife, he lost his first kids. 738 01:04:21,936 --> 01:04:24,959 Everything would come and go. 739 01:04:25,109 --> 01:04:29,867 So, he was fucking everything that fucking had a pulse, 740 01:04:30,017 --> 01:04:32,404 sniffing everything he could sniff. 741 01:04:32,554 --> 01:04:34,603 Because he thought that it was all going to end, 742 01:04:34,752 --> 01:04:38,344 so he was going to go out with a... You know, on a high. 743 01:04:50,064 --> 01:04:51,588 I hated this video. 744 01:04:52,233 --> 01:04:54,428 So fucking lame. 745 01:04:58,138 --> 01:05:00,065 I don't like it. Fucking... 746 01:05:00,214 --> 01:05:03,005 Everybody was fucked up and drunk and everything. 747 01:05:04,511 --> 01:05:06,135 When I look at it, I don't even remember 748 01:05:06,284 --> 01:05:08,738 what drugs I was addicted to at the fucking time. 749 01:05:12,319 --> 01:05:13,911 So, next! Come on. 750 01:05:31,272 --> 01:05:34,366 It's a clich�d fucking '80s video. 751 01:05:41,282 --> 01:05:43,307 I can't remember doing this fucking thing. 752 01:05:43,584 --> 01:05:47,012 I was a mess in the '80s. I was doing fucking morphine, 753 01:05:47,162 --> 01:05:52,247 Vicodin, fucking booze. All kinds of shit, really. 754 01:05:52,397 --> 01:05:55,556 I can't remember. I just can't remember it at all. 755 01:05:56,830 --> 01:05:57,819 Never happened. 756 01:06:02,870 --> 01:06:04,132 Next. 757 01:06:13,414 --> 01:06:14,403 Hokey. 758 01:06:18,786 --> 01:06:21,254 "Whose idea was this?" How the fuck do I know? 759 01:06:21,789 --> 01:06:26,158 It's just boring. I find it hard to go back there and look at it. 760 01:06:26,794 --> 01:06:28,318 I don't want to go back there, you know. 761 01:06:36,503 --> 01:06:37,828 Where are you going? 762 01:06:37,978 --> 01:06:41,271 Have a walk around, than fucking watch this shit. 763 01:07:48,842 --> 01:07:50,207 Let's get on with this. 764 01:07:50,377 --> 01:07:54,002 Yes. What does it feel like tonight? - Come on. 765 01:07:54,152 --> 01:07:56,457 You have a tour starting tomorrow. 766 01:07:56,606 --> 01:07:59,074 Is it always like this or is this an exception? 767 01:08:02,790 --> 01:08:06,590 Yeah. Yeah, it is. Come on, come on. 768 01:08:08,896 --> 01:08:09,988 Yeah. 769 01:08:12,066 --> 01:08:14,796 No... It's like we do... 770 01:08:16,336 --> 01:08:19,169 Sixteen days ago, we got over from Japan. 771 01:08:23,510 --> 01:08:29,340 When Ozzy was drunk, he was fucked up beyond belief. 772 01:08:29,490 --> 01:08:31,506 I mean, to the point where 773 01:08:31,655 --> 01:08:35,076 he would drink until he couldn't drink any more. 774 01:08:35,856 --> 01:08:37,878 Where he would be unconscious... 775 01:08:38,028 --> 01:08:39,350 That's the only thing that would stop him drinking. 776 01:08:39,500 --> 01:08:41,223 He'd be unconscious or asleep. 777 01:08:42,563 --> 01:08:47,193 He was blacking out, he was drinking and going unconscious on the floor. 778 01:08:48,302 --> 01:08:50,161 He couldn't move. His eyes would be open. 779 01:08:50,311 --> 01:08:52,363 But he would be, like, unconscious. It was weird. 780 01:08:56,176 --> 01:08:59,111 I passed out with a bottle of fucking Vicodin in my mouth. 781 01:09:00,614 --> 01:09:05,207 Mainly, I was concerned about him choking on his vomit, 782 01:09:05,356 --> 01:09:07,583 falling asleep when he was drunk, and choking on his vomit. 783 01:09:13,927 --> 01:09:16,794 This is me at my stag night, I'm fucking blasted. 784 01:09:23,604 --> 01:09:26,334 I think it was in Memphis, Ozzy disappeared. 785 01:09:28,642 --> 01:09:30,535 He got found in the middle of a freeway. 786 01:09:30,685 --> 01:09:32,768 He crossed over half of a freeway and stopped in the middle 787 01:09:32,917 --> 01:09:35,348 and he was in the central reservation. 788 01:09:35,849 --> 01:09:37,208 And he was sleeping and he woke up 789 01:09:37,357 --> 01:09:39,210 and he had to get across the other half. 790 01:09:39,360 --> 01:09:41,409 I mean, how he didn't get knocked over, 791 01:09:41,559 --> 01:09:43,683 'cause he was absolutely shit-faced. 792 01:09:47,027 --> 01:09:49,235 That's when I clocked Sharon, I think. 793 01:09:49,385 --> 01:09:51,058 Really? - I think so. 794 01:09:51,999 --> 01:09:54,365 We were always fucking fighting with each other. 795 01:09:55,969 --> 01:09:58,233 That's when I smacked Sharon in the eye. 796 01:09:59,139 --> 01:10:00,663 Over what, I don't know. 797 01:10:02,442 --> 01:10:05,803 It had been coming for a while. Ozzy was on a bender. 798 01:10:05,953 --> 01:10:09,576 You know, he was really on a roll. 799 01:10:12,352 --> 01:10:16,247 He'd been very bad for the last couple of weeks. 800 01:10:16,397 --> 01:10:19,014 And we'd had a couple of fights where 801 01:10:19,164 --> 01:10:22,853 we'd beaten each other and it was nasty. 802 01:10:23,002 --> 01:10:25,397 But you kind of get... 803 01:10:25,999 --> 01:10:28,893 When, anyone who knows, who lives with an addict, 804 01:10:29,043 --> 01:10:31,896 that there are times when it's worse than others, 805 01:10:32,046 --> 01:10:33,932 and it was just building to something. 806 01:10:34,082 --> 01:10:36,805 You could just feel it in the atmosphere between us. 807 01:10:37,477 --> 01:10:40,071 And my God, it did. 808 01:10:42,983 --> 01:10:47,559 I put the kids to bed, was sat down, I was reading. 809 01:10:47,708 --> 01:10:50,885 And he came in. He'd been lying down. 810 01:10:51,425 --> 01:10:54,394 He'd actually drunk himself into one of those 811 01:10:55,162 --> 01:10:57,187 coma-zone things on the bed. 812 01:10:57,497 --> 01:11:01,758 He'd passed out. And woke up, came downstairs, 813 01:11:01,907 --> 01:11:07,063 and I knew when he came in that he was looking for trouble. 814 01:11:07,212 --> 01:11:11,266 And Ozzy is very rarely calm. 815 01:11:11,416 --> 01:11:13,069 Very calm in his eyes, 816 01:11:13,218 --> 01:11:15,371 a kind of shutter had gone down on his eyes, 817 01:11:15,521 --> 01:11:18,144 you couldn't really... 818 01:11:18,485 --> 01:11:22,611 I had no idea who was sat across from me on the sofa, 819 01:11:22,761 --> 01:11:24,884 but it wasn't my husband. 820 01:11:27,094 --> 01:11:30,185 And then he just said that he'd made a... They had come. 821 01:11:30,334 --> 01:11:36,059 He said they've made a decision that I had to die. And I'm like, "They?" 822 01:11:36,209 --> 01:11:38,895 "Yes, they've made the decision. We've made the decision. 823 01:11:39,044 --> 01:11:40,961 "You're gonna have to die. " 824 01:11:41,110 --> 01:11:43,508 And then he just 825 01:11:44,978 --> 01:11:47,535 got up from the sofa and just dived on me 826 01:11:47,685 --> 01:11:50,208 and started to choke me. 827 01:11:50,584 --> 01:11:51,881 Fabulous! 828 01:11:54,321 --> 01:11:56,979 All I remember was waking up in Amersham jail. 829 01:11:57,128 --> 01:11:59,820 And I asked the cop why I was there. 830 01:12:00,394 --> 01:12:02,517 "Excuse me," I asked him, "Why am I here?" 831 01:12:02,667 --> 01:12:05,530 He says, "You want me to read your charge?" 832 01:12:05,732 --> 01:12:08,925 So he read, "John Michael has been arrested 833 01:12:09,074 --> 01:12:11,429 "for attempted murder of Sharon Osbourne. " 834 01:12:11,579 --> 01:12:13,965 I'm like, "Is this a joke?" 835 01:12:14,115 --> 01:12:17,767 He says, "I'm not joking. You'll go to court in a minute. " 836 01:12:17,916 --> 01:12:22,042 That hit me like a fucking hammer in between the eyes. 837 01:12:22,549 --> 01:12:27,077 I remember getting this dull feeling in my heart. 838 01:12:29,256 --> 01:12:32,589 I didn't know whether she was in hospital or what I had done. 839 01:12:48,275 --> 01:12:51,636 I know where we are. That's where we used to rehearse. 840 01:12:51,785 --> 01:12:53,906 That's where we used to rehearse, there. 841 01:12:55,515 --> 01:12:58,038 That's the pub I used to go to, right over there. 842 01:12:58,188 --> 01:13:01,810 Down there is Witton Road. I used to walk all the way up here 843 01:13:01,960 --> 01:13:05,449 to Lucas car factory every day to go to work with my mum. 844 01:13:06,827 --> 01:13:08,920 Fucking hell! 845 01:13:10,664 --> 01:13:13,326 We are just coming up to Lodge Road now. 846 01:13:23,377 --> 01:13:24,639 Fucking hell, man! 847 01:13:25,912 --> 01:13:29,814 It's so small, it's unbelievable. I can't believe how small it is. 848 01:13:30,717 --> 01:13:32,685 Fucking Jesus Christ! 849 01:13:33,387 --> 01:13:36,879 When I was a kid, it used to be like the longest road in the world. 850 01:13:39,760 --> 01:13:41,619 When you are a young kid and you get successful like I did, 851 01:13:41,769 --> 01:13:43,919 you get very arrogant, and your ego runs away. 852 01:13:44,069 --> 01:13:48,490 You think it's you, you know. You forget your upbringing... 853 01:13:49,936 --> 01:13:52,370 Took me till now to kind of realise that, you know. 854 01:13:55,776 --> 01:13:56,834 Wow! 855 01:13:58,345 --> 01:13:59,539 Wow! 856 01:14:01,982 --> 01:14:03,813 This is... 857 01:14:06,686 --> 01:14:08,745 Wow, this is unbelievable. 858 01:14:10,390 --> 01:14:13,188 It is amazing. Wow! 859 01:14:14,828 --> 01:14:16,853 That was Mrs Clarke's shop I broke into. 860 01:14:20,133 --> 01:14:22,294 That was my bedroom up there. 861 01:14:23,703 --> 01:14:25,259 As my sisters... Most of my family... 862 01:14:25,408 --> 01:14:27,631 My sisters would get old and get married. 863 01:14:27,780 --> 01:14:30,642 You're allowed to go into the back room. You have it to yourself. 864 01:14:32,045 --> 01:14:33,774 And this is about right here. 865 01:14:35,215 --> 01:14:38,651 I lived in here for a while, and this is unbelievable. 866 01:14:50,797 --> 01:14:54,255 I hated school. I fucking hated it. 867 01:14:57,471 --> 01:15:01,529 I have dreadful, dreadfully bad dyslexia. 868 01:15:01,679 --> 01:15:05,300 When I was at school, nobody knew what it was about. 869 01:15:05,450 --> 01:15:08,904 When somebody goes, "Look, one plus one equals two. " 870 01:15:09,149 --> 01:15:12,710 And you look at him, you go, "What the fuck does 'one' mean?" 871 01:15:12,986 --> 01:15:15,076 I couldn't retain any information. 872 01:15:15,225 --> 01:15:18,021 My attention deficit was so bad, still is. 873 01:15:18,758 --> 01:15:20,848 I go rambling on, you know. 874 01:15:20,998 --> 01:15:23,896 I don't know what I'm talking about half the time. I just talk. 875 01:15:27,133 --> 01:15:29,124 I was very low on self-esteem. 876 01:15:29,769 --> 01:15:32,101 I used to get picked on by bullies. 877 01:15:32,539 --> 01:15:34,973 It just pushed me further inside myself. 878 01:16:10,544 --> 01:16:13,235 Where you came from, did everyone drink? 879 01:16:13,385 --> 01:16:14,801 Coming from the background that I come from, 880 01:16:14,950 --> 01:16:17,972 I thought that was what you do. 881 01:16:18,121 --> 01:16:21,811 You get successful, you get married, you have kids, you go to the pub. 882 01:16:21,961 --> 01:16:23,978 I used to think everybody, 883 01:16:24,127 --> 01:16:26,081 as they get older, gets fucking pissed. 884 01:16:26,526 --> 01:16:29,921 The first time I got drunk was... I was about 14. 885 01:16:30,071 --> 01:16:33,256 I drank it and I got the feeling... 886 01:16:33,405 --> 01:16:35,800 I drank till I pissed my pants in this fucking pub. 887 01:16:36,036 --> 01:16:38,800 And then that's the way I... From the first drink, 888 01:16:39,272 --> 01:16:42,503 I didn't drink for the drink, I drank to get the effect. 889 01:16:42,943 --> 01:16:45,933 How many rehabs? - I've been in a bunch of... 890 01:16:46,082 --> 01:16:49,345 Between detoxes and rehab, this would be at 10 or 12. 891 01:16:49,716 --> 01:16:55,211 Ozzy tried to get sober, I would say, between 40 to 50 times. 892 01:16:56,022 --> 01:17:01,352 But he had been in and out of rehabs about... 893 01:17:01,501 --> 01:17:05,261 I can think of 10 different rehabs he went to, over the period of time. 894 01:17:06,232 --> 01:17:08,721 I used to go 90 days. 895 01:17:08,871 --> 01:17:12,066 I'd go, "Fuck this, it's crap!" And go out and get fucked up again. 896 01:17:12,339 --> 01:17:13,962 One minute he'd be sitting here sober, 897 01:17:14,112 --> 01:17:16,164 the next minute you'd see him, he'd be fucked up. 898 01:17:16,313 --> 01:17:20,233 He would disappear somewhere, or he would go to the fridge and get a beer 899 01:17:20,383 --> 01:17:22,713 or he'd go for a walk up the drive to the pub. 900 01:17:23,683 --> 01:17:27,078 I just knew the cycle. It would be my dad would go to treatment, 901 01:17:27,228 --> 01:17:29,744 he'd stay sober for maybe 60 days, tops. 902 01:17:29,893 --> 01:17:32,115 And then he would start messing around with pills. 903 01:17:32,264 --> 01:17:35,052 And then he would do that for a while, 904 01:17:35,201 --> 01:17:37,684 and then he would just go right to the drink. 905 01:17:37,834 --> 01:17:40,459 And then it would get really bad, then he'd go back to treatment. 906 01:17:41,034 --> 01:17:44,834 I don't actually believe that he was ever fully sober. 907 01:17:45,505 --> 01:17:48,201 He was just drunk. He was just not a dad. 908 01:17:48,942 --> 01:17:51,217 He was drunk and he was fucked up all the time. 909 01:17:51,367 --> 01:17:53,771 I came home from school every single day 910 01:17:53,921 --> 01:17:56,037 to see him lying on a couch, 911 01:17:56,187 --> 01:17:58,441 drooling with a pill bottle on the floor 912 01:17:58,591 --> 01:18:02,715 or a vodka bottle on the floor, or, you know... 913 01:18:04,958 --> 01:18:07,893 Opening up the oven to make a cake with my friends 914 01:18:08,294 --> 01:18:11,923 to find that that's where my dad hid the bottles of alcohol. 915 01:18:12,132 --> 01:18:14,857 One thing about drugs and alcohol, they make you lie. 916 01:18:15,007 --> 01:18:17,457 You start lying and covering up your tracks, 917 01:18:17,606 --> 01:18:19,362 and hiding things and fucking... 918 01:18:19,511 --> 01:18:21,664 I used to wait for the guy to drop my drugs off, 919 01:18:21,813 --> 01:18:25,074 and I'd be running in and out of the fucking house all day long, 920 01:18:25,412 --> 01:18:29,610 thinking that nobody would suspect I was waiting for dope to be delivered. 921 01:18:38,591 --> 01:18:41,080 When The Osbournes first started, 922 01:18:41,230 --> 01:18:45,652 he was probably at his worst peak of drinking. 923 01:18:45,801 --> 01:18:48,063 I mean, like, pretty much going through the worst times. 924 01:18:49,002 --> 01:18:52,194 That you pick up the fucking phone and call in. 925 01:18:52,344 --> 01:18:56,207 That was the worst thing I'd ever do. They were never off the phone. 926 01:18:56,776 --> 01:18:59,870 Sometimes, you know, he'd be popping pills from numerous, different 927 01:19:00,513 --> 01:19:03,448 disgusting doctors that would give him whatever he wanted. 928 01:19:04,784 --> 01:19:06,143 I don't know, sometimes he'd be on downers, 929 01:19:06,292 --> 01:19:09,647 sometimes he'd be on uppers. So, that obviously 930 01:19:09,797 --> 01:19:13,453 will make anyone behave a little bit off and scary sometimes. 931 01:19:13,860 --> 01:19:16,488 Why do we have three brown fingers? 932 01:19:18,264 --> 01:19:19,561 Three brown... 933 01:19:23,803 --> 01:19:26,601 Because I put brown dye in my hair. 934 01:19:27,340 --> 01:19:29,964 I think it was affecting... Well, it was affecting his speech. 935 01:19:30,114 --> 01:19:32,099 It was affecting the way he walked. 936 01:19:32,248 --> 01:19:37,479 It was affecting the way he stood. It was just... Everything. 937 01:19:38,218 --> 01:19:42,141 Part of his fame came from how he looked. 938 01:19:42,291 --> 01:19:44,450 People thought it was funny, thought it was cute. 939 01:19:46,693 --> 01:19:48,684 What the fuck's this shit? 940 01:19:50,630 --> 01:19:53,098 This is not allowed. What's happened to it? 941 01:19:53,533 --> 01:19:56,427 How do you get this fucking thing on? 942 01:19:56,577 --> 01:20:00,027 What they thought was funny was kind of sad, because 943 01:20:00,176 --> 01:20:04,338 he was actually destroying himself and also destroying the family. 944 01:20:04,744 --> 01:20:09,238 There's hours and hours of footage of stuff that just couldn't show. 945 01:20:10,183 --> 01:20:12,777 It was too real. 946 01:20:13,787 --> 01:20:16,546 Granted, yes, The Osbournes was not scripted, 947 01:20:16,695 --> 01:20:19,466 but people don't wanna sit home on MTV 948 01:20:19,615 --> 01:20:24,325 and watch alcoholism tear apart a family. 949 01:20:25,799 --> 01:20:27,990 When we first started filming The Osbournes, 950 01:20:28,140 --> 01:20:29,724 it was no secret my dad did drugs. 951 01:20:29,874 --> 01:20:33,033 He was an addict, but he was kind of a functioning addict. 952 01:20:34,274 --> 01:20:36,397 But when my mum was diagnosed with cancer, 953 01:20:36,547 --> 01:20:38,238 it very quickly... 954 01:20:39,779 --> 01:20:42,646 He was out of control. 955 01:20:43,550 --> 01:20:45,541 Out of control. 956 01:20:45,952 --> 01:20:49,077 He never came out of his room, that we called the bunker. 957 01:20:49,227 --> 01:20:52,317 He couldn't stand up straight. He couldn't walk properly. 958 01:20:53,193 --> 01:20:56,424 He couldn't hear. He shook, he stuttered. 959 01:20:58,031 --> 01:21:01,762 Everything that you could imagine. I mean, he was a zombie. 960 01:21:05,405 --> 01:21:07,427 I was taking drugs, too. 961 01:21:07,577 --> 01:21:10,367 During that time when my mum had cancer, I was using, too. 962 01:21:10,516 --> 01:21:12,870 I got through that experience 963 01:21:13,019 --> 01:21:15,539 by hiding my emotions through using drugs. 964 01:21:16,850 --> 01:21:20,210 I'll get you a bottle of water, just sip on the water. 965 01:21:20,360 --> 01:21:22,213 I've got that interview on the phone. 966 01:21:22,362 --> 01:21:24,715 On the phone? - She's holding on. 967 01:21:24,865 --> 01:21:27,418 I had to hang up 'cause I was throwing up. 968 01:21:28,628 --> 01:21:31,426 Let me get a bottle of water. 969 01:21:31,831 --> 01:21:33,488 Jack and Kelly started using 970 01:21:33,638 --> 01:21:37,661 and doing drugs and alcohol and whatever at a very early age. 971 01:21:40,874 --> 01:21:42,671 Things started happening in my family. 972 01:21:43,543 --> 01:21:47,240 I mean, it was my son Jack who got sober first. 973 01:21:47,780 --> 01:21:52,508 When I'd got sober, we sat at a table and he's like, 974 01:21:52,658 --> 01:21:56,041 "I threw away all my pain medication the other day. " 975 01:21:56,191 --> 01:21:58,914 And I was like, "Well, why did you have them in the first place?" 976 01:21:59,064 --> 01:22:01,994 And this whole argument erupted. 977 01:22:02,795 --> 01:22:08,457 And one excuse my dad always went to when he was getting messed up was, 978 01:22:08,606 --> 01:22:10,661 "You guys never needed for anything. 979 01:22:10,937 --> 01:22:13,633 "Whatever you wanted, I gave you. " 980 01:22:14,407 --> 01:22:17,706 I said to him, "What the fuck are you always pissed off at me for? 981 01:22:18,177 --> 01:22:20,835 "You've never, ever wanted for a fucking thing 982 01:22:20,985 --> 01:22:23,436 "from the moment you took your first breath. " 983 01:22:23,585 --> 01:22:26,640 And he went, "Oh, yeah? What about a father?" 984 01:22:26,790 --> 01:22:28,376 And that hit me straight between the eyes, 985 01:22:28,526 --> 01:22:31,911 like fucking David and Goliath, when he gets that slingshot. 986 01:22:32,060 --> 01:22:35,620 It knocked me on my eyes. I'm just, "Fucking hell!" 987 01:22:38,097 --> 01:22:40,322 I honestly think that 988 01:22:40,472 --> 01:22:44,995 the turning point for Ozzy was Jack's sobriety. 989 01:22:45,571 --> 01:22:49,632 Jack learned how to deal with life sober. 990 01:22:49,909 --> 01:22:53,467 And I think it shamed Ozzy that he couldn't do it. 991 01:22:53,616 --> 01:22:56,569 He could never get it, and that's what was 992 01:22:56,719 --> 01:22:59,413 his big turning point in life. 993 01:23:05,692 --> 01:23:08,518 That was the start of the journey of him being sober. 994 01:23:08,668 --> 01:23:10,853 The evidence proves the fact, 'cause he hasn't drunk 995 01:23:11,002 --> 01:23:13,489 or abused for over five years now. 996 01:23:14,400 --> 01:23:16,923 I'm clean, I'm sober. I don't smoke. I don't do drugs. 997 01:23:17,073 --> 01:23:20,296 I don't do alcohol any more. I haven't done for a long while 998 01:23:20,445 --> 01:23:23,666 but I like being sober, I like being straight. 999 01:23:23,815 --> 01:23:26,006 I don't want to smoke tobacco any more. 1000 01:23:27,413 --> 01:23:29,436 He blew us all away. I mean, we didn't... 1001 01:23:29,585 --> 01:23:32,426 None of us ever thought he'd maintain it for as long as he has now. 1002 01:23:32,576 --> 01:23:35,419 And it really seems like he has come through the other side. 1003 01:23:36,522 --> 01:23:38,679 When you really let go, it's like 1004 01:23:38,829 --> 01:23:42,816 somebody takes a chain off you and you just go... 1005 01:23:42,965 --> 01:23:46,886 When you're involved in it, you don't realise 1006 01:23:47,036 --> 01:23:49,992 how much hard work it is to be a fucking alcoholic. 1007 01:23:51,170 --> 01:23:54,964 But it's when you get fed up with you behaving the way you do. 1008 01:23:55,114 --> 01:23:57,400 I mean, there's sometimes when I go, "Is this what it's all about? 1009 01:23:57,550 --> 01:23:59,671 "I want to get fucked up," but I don't. 1010 01:24:00,580 --> 01:24:02,602 His face is alive. 1011 01:24:02,752 --> 01:24:08,613 And he stands up straight and he walks tall and with confidence, 1012 01:24:08,762 --> 01:24:10,878 and he's not ashamed of himself any more. 1013 01:24:11,028 --> 01:24:15,082 He has nothing to hide any more and he has nothing to lie about any more. 1014 01:24:15,232 --> 01:24:18,925 Which makes him... 1015 01:24:19,298 --> 01:24:21,391 I think he's really proud of himself. 1016 01:24:22,435 --> 01:24:26,166 I think it's the first time he's proud of himself. 1017 01:24:27,440 --> 01:24:30,500 Do you like it, being clean? - I like it, yeah. 1018 01:24:30,777 --> 01:24:35,538 With a bit of time, you start to go, 1019 01:24:35,688 --> 01:24:37,671 "What did I ever think about that was fun? 1020 01:24:37,820 --> 01:24:39,840 "What was fucking fun about waking up in a police station 1021 01:24:39,989 --> 01:24:41,544 "or in the back of a fucking police car?" 1022 01:24:41,854 --> 01:24:44,880 I have a laugh now. I mean, naturally. 1023 01:24:47,260 --> 01:24:49,749 If I could sprinkle this on the fucking world, 1024 01:24:49,898 --> 01:24:52,023 it would be a much better place. 1025 01:24:57,637 --> 01:25:02,095 I spent 19 years of my life praying that I would wake up one day 1026 01:25:02,244 --> 01:25:04,230 and have the father I have today. 1027 01:25:04,380 --> 01:25:07,299 And most people can't turn around and say that that has happened for them, 1028 01:25:07,449 --> 01:25:10,211 and it happened for me and I love... 1029 01:25:10,516 --> 01:25:14,748 I am so proud of him, because I know how hard it is. 1030 01:25:14,954 --> 01:25:18,011 I think it's fucking fantastic. Our relationship has improved a lot 1031 01:25:18,161 --> 01:25:19,815 over the last few years since he has been sober. 1032 01:25:19,964 --> 01:25:23,720 I'm actually quite amazed at how fit he is 1033 01:25:23,870 --> 01:25:26,223 and how more astute he is than he was. 1034 01:25:26,373 --> 01:25:29,563 He has changed a lot. 1035 01:25:30,169 --> 01:25:32,326 He's lost a lot of weight. 1036 01:25:32,476 --> 01:25:35,782 He's very health conscious, he works out nearly every day. 1037 01:25:35,931 --> 01:25:38,268 Ozzy's grown up, you know. 1038 01:25:38,417 --> 01:25:42,370 It took him longer than most people, but he's got there. He's here. 1039 01:25:42,748 --> 01:25:46,741 He works really hard for his sobriety and he deserves it. 1040 01:25:48,721 --> 01:25:50,746 Sobriety's totally changed him as a person. 1041 01:25:51,958 --> 01:25:54,948 He just seems like he's a lot more at ease with himself. 1042 01:25:55,097 --> 01:25:58,051 You know, whereas before, he was just all over the place. 1043 01:25:58,200 --> 01:26:04,125 Now he'll just sit with his headphones on quietly, just drawing. 1044 01:26:09,942 --> 01:26:14,470 It's not art. I do it for therapeutic reasons. 1045 01:26:15,414 --> 01:26:19,748 I just find it stops my head of hand grenades going off, you know, 1046 01:26:20,520 --> 01:26:24,752 because it slows my head down. I've always worried... 1047 01:26:24,924 --> 01:26:27,317 Sometimes, I worry 'cause I got nothing to worry about. 1048 01:26:27,467 --> 01:26:29,587 That's how bad it is, sometimes. 1049 01:26:42,141 --> 01:26:45,665 I don't go to bed at night thinking, "I shouldn't have painted that, 1050 01:26:45,815 --> 01:26:47,502 "because people are going to get pissed off at me 1051 01:26:47,652 --> 01:26:49,638 "and they ain't going to buy another painting. " 1052 01:26:51,017 --> 01:26:56,043 Out of all this chaos and all this anxiety I live in, all this fear, 1053 01:26:56,192 --> 01:26:59,882 it stops everything in its tracks, and it's mine. 1054 01:27:00,031 --> 01:27:03,651 And so when you ask me a question about it, I have no answer 1055 01:27:03,801 --> 01:27:06,254 because I don't think of anything more than it's mine. 1056 01:27:15,675 --> 01:27:19,469 He really talked for years about wanting to have his driving licence 1057 01:27:19,619 --> 01:27:21,736 and never thought he could do it. 1058 01:27:21,885 --> 01:27:26,277 He wouldn't have been able to do it in his drinking days, obviously, 1059 01:27:26,426 --> 01:27:29,375 but since he had become sober he had talked about it quite a lot, 1060 01:27:29,524 --> 01:27:31,786 about getting his driving licence. 1061 01:27:40,967 --> 01:27:44,958 I'm getting my licence so I don't feel like a terminal prisoner, 1062 01:27:45,107 --> 01:27:48,632 meaning that when everybody leaves the house, I'm stuck. 1063 01:27:49,508 --> 01:27:51,999 I can't go anywhere. 1064 01:27:54,213 --> 01:27:56,704 It's a way of feeling free. 1065 01:28:00,386 --> 01:28:04,413 I'm dependent on everybody to drive me wherever I want to go, 1066 01:28:04,590 --> 01:28:07,231 that's the reason why I want to get a driving licence right there. 1067 01:28:07,381 --> 01:28:09,483 I'm not intoxicated, I don't want people to say... 1068 01:28:09,633 --> 01:28:12,257 I want a part of my life where I can say, "I'm in the car, 1069 01:28:12,498 --> 01:28:14,790 "driving my car where I want to go. " 1070 01:28:14,940 --> 01:28:16,456 Not sitting and going... 1071 01:28:16,605 --> 01:28:18,828 Having an argument with someone over some shit. 1072 01:28:18,977 --> 01:28:23,272 I just want to get the freedom of being able to drive with my head. 1073 01:28:25,011 --> 01:28:27,536 When I first got successful, right, 1074 01:28:27,713 --> 01:28:31,308 I bought the guns, the fucking knives, 1075 01:28:31,717 --> 01:28:33,925 the fucking archery sets, the motorcycles, 1076 01:28:34,075 --> 01:28:38,482 all the things that I felt I couldn't afford to have 1077 01:28:38,632 --> 01:28:41,092 when I was younger, right? 1078 01:28:41,694 --> 01:28:43,554 So, I got all of that out of my system. 1079 01:28:43,703 --> 01:28:46,456 Now, I've always really wanted to drive, 1080 01:28:46,605 --> 01:28:49,591 but I've been too fucked up to get that way. 1081 01:28:49,869 --> 01:28:53,737 So, I'm fulfilling all the things that I wanted to do. 1082 01:28:54,774 --> 01:28:57,470 I've had a one-of-a-kind life, you know. 1083 01:28:58,177 --> 01:29:01,271 I've had a lot of ups and downs in my life. 1084 01:29:01,647 --> 01:29:05,014 People say if I could change any one thing, what would I change? 1085 01:29:05,184 --> 01:29:09,848 I don't know. I think everything's there for a reason. 1086 01:29:10,956 --> 01:29:13,049 And life's a learning process. 1087 01:29:14,827 --> 01:29:18,250 I don't know what the fucking secret of life is, 1088 01:29:18,399 --> 01:29:22,391 I don't know what the thing is. I've had a good run, you know. 1089 01:29:23,102 --> 01:29:26,367 I love my wife, I love my family. 1090 01:29:26,706 --> 01:29:30,301 I'm beginning to love me a lot more than I ever used to. 1091 01:29:31,944 --> 01:29:35,573 First person you should always learn to love is yourself. 94032

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