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Have a good show.
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...rock 'n' roll's definitive
crazy person.
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Ozzy Osbourne, who is known
for biting the heads off of bats...
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Hey, he's twisted,
but he's all right, man.
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Here's another scientific mystery
that's stumping scientists.
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How is Ozzy Osbourne still alive
after decades of drugs and alcohol?
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Fuck...
- Happy birthday.
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Well, we made it, Bill.
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Good to see you, good to see you!
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It's nice to see you, too.
- It's good to see you, man.
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We fucking made it.
I never thought that.
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You look great, you look great.
- I do.
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Nice smile. Come on.
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Ozzy, smile! It's your birthday,
with your family.
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I don't feel like fucking smiling.
Shut the fuck up!
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Come on, smile. It's your birthday.
There we go.
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Come on.
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Looking back, I should've died
a thousand times, but I never did.
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I never thought
I'd make it to fucking 40.
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Because by 12:00, in the old days,
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I'd have powder up my nose,
fucking shit in my veins,
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and all kinds of stuff.
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All right, one, two, three.
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Nice smile, ladies,
come with your brother.
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There's one or two ways
to get in this world,
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there's so many fucked up ways
to go out.
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Once you're dead, you're gone.
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I'm just a very fortunate man
to be still here,
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talking to you about my life.
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One, two, three.
- He's too short.
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Louis, smile.
- I am smiling.
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I've had a crazy life
and it ain't over yet.
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I was born John Michael Osbourne,
December 3, 1948.
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I was raised in Aston,
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a working class suburb
of Birmingham, England.
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A lot of the city was destroyed
by the Germans in World War II.
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I used to play
on a bombed building site,
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thinking it was a place
that you go and play,
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not realising it was a building
that had been bombed in the war.
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That's my grandma, my mother
and Gillian, my sister's there.
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I've got three sisters.
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My sister Jean, my sister Iris,
and my sister Gillian.
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We're a working-class family.
There wasn't a lot of money about.
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We lived in a small, terraced house.
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Six children had to share
the same bedroom.
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We were the poorest kids of the
street, there's no doubt about it.
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I didn't come from fucking royalty.
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I didn't come from a middle-class
or upper-class background.
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Where I came from was like,
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very bottom end of the scale.
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We were all from the same area
in Birmingham in England.
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It's very much a working-class area.
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I don't think any of us had hot water
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or indoor toilets,
or things like that.
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My mother and father.
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He was a good guy, you know.
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He worked hard all his life.
Would never miss a day from work.
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If he ever missed a day,
you knew he was fucked.
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He used to work nights at a factory.
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John used to go out and have a drink,
get in fights and that was it.
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From what I saw of John, he was
always in and out of trouble.
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Dad was always telling him off.
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And one day Dad says,
"You'll either get killed,
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"or die one way or the other,"
you know what I mean?
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A lot of the kids turned to crime
and I did for a time as well,
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but I wasn't really good at it.
I didn't want to do it, really.
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"John Michael Osbourne.
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"Age, 18.
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"Break and enter to the shop
of Clara Sharpe
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"and steal two coats,
20 pairs of stockings.
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"Fined 20 quid. "
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To cut a long story short,
the police come round,
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says to Mr Osbourne,
"Does John Osbourne live here?"
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And our dad says,
"There he is. Take him. "
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I got locked up in Winson Green
Prison for about six weeks.
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When I eventually got out of prison,
life still felt hopeless for me.
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I'd let my family down
for being arrested.
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I had no idea what I wanted to do.
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Really, there were about three or
four choices when we were teenagers.
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One was, we would either
probably go to prison,
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or go in the factories,
or go in the army.
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I remember being in a factory
and one guy,
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I'd say to him, "How long have you
been working here?"
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And he'd go,
"Thirty-five years this year,
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"and I'm retiring,
and I'll get a gold watch. "
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I thought, "Fucking gold watch?
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"Thirty-five years of your life
have been in this fucking factory. "
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I just couldn't handle it, you know.
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I had job after job after job.
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I could never hold a job down,
didn't want to.
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I used to think, "Fuck this!
Is this me for the rest of my life?"
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John wanted things
which he couldn't have.
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There was something inside him
that wanted to get out.
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Nothing really happened to me in
my life until the Beatles happened.
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Then it was like someone had turned
the world on for me.
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They played She Loves You
on the radio
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and I remember thinking to myself,
"Fucking hell, this is incredible!"
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From that moment on,
when I first heard She Loves You,
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I knew I wanted to be a rock star
for the rest of my life.
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Come on, everybody!
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You are number one!
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Thank you, good night!
God bless you all!
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This is adrenalin from the gig.
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Hello, is Sharon about?
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Just tell her
the gig was phenomenal.
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And the crowd, fucking unbelievable!
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It's fucking undescribable.
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It's like a divine experience,
you know.
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All right, I'll call back.
I'll speak to you later, bye.
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I'm lucky. I'm 60 years of age.
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I'm still travelling
all over the world.
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I'm still doing gigs
and people still want to see me.
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Ozzy! Ozzy!
- Ozzy! Ozzy!
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It's Ozzy night, man.
It's night of the living dead.
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I've been fucking listening to him
since I was nine, 10.
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Yeah, man, I got those ones.
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I got that one and I got that one.
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A big Black Sabbath cross on my leg.
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Number one Ozzy fan.
- Oh, yeah?
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Since Black Sabbath days.
Check this out.
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Fucking love him, man.
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Right here...
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Can you bend down?
Can you crouch down a little bit?
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You all right?
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I remember
when I was a fan of the Beatles,
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I had my fantasies...
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And if it's gonna make somebody's
day a little bit better to say,
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"Wow! I met Ozzy Osbourne today,"
I mean, that's my job, you know.
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Can you get this please?
- Sure.
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Just right down there.
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Sharon goes to me, "You get back
there and sign that autograph!"
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I go, "What do you mean, my darling?"
She says, "Well, one day, if they
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"don't ask you for your autograph,
that's when we got a problem. "
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Just check out my shirt.
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And I figure you can't fuck it up
no more than President Bush.
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I have something for you,
here's your own.
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Thank you.
- Thank you.
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I'll go down the road. Now, if I get
recognised, I get pissed off,
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but at the same time, if I don't
get recognised, I get pissed off.
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People recognised me
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for a lot of years,
and for a lot of different reasons.
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And I just want my audience to know
that I will not abandon them
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to become the fucking weatherman.
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Wonder how many signatures
you've signed?
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Sabbath was monumental.
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A huge influence on Metallica.
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Black Sabbath was a big deal for me.
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Man, we worshipped those records.
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They were like pioneers
on so many levels, you know.
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Doing new things with rhythm, doing
new things with musical interaction.
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I mean, listening to it now,
it doesn't sound that crazy at all,
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but then, it was quite off the wall.
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My very first memory of Black
Sabbath, I just remember doing...
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I was like, "Oh, my God!
This is insane!"
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Thank you very much.
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Before Black Sabbath, I was in a band
with Tony lommi and Geezer.
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What was next needed, really,
was a singer.
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So we went to this music shop
in Birmingham
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where all the musicians
used to hang out.
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Ozzy had put this little calling card
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in a music shop called
Jones and Crossland,
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and he'd written,
"Ozzy Zig needs a gig. "
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First time I ever met Ozzy
was at school.
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He was, like, for want
of a better word, a nuisance.
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And so when Bill and I
walked up to Ozzy's door,
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I saw him in the back room,
walking in.
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And I said to Bill, "Forget it. "
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I just thought,
"This is gonna be a joke. "
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Ozzy wrote the magic words,
"has his own PA,"
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because nobody could afford
PAs back then.
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If he sang and had a PA, he got the
job. We didn't even have to hear him.
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Although money was very scarce
in the household,
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I asked my father
to buy me a PA system.
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It was the best gift I ever had
'cause had he not got that PA for me,
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I don't think I'd have ever
got a gig, you know.
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The first time we got together
went down great and...
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No, it was good.
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In the early days, it was just
fucking guys having a blast.
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You know, if we'd never have made
anything of ourselves,
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it was a good time for me
just to be around a bunch of guys
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with fuck all to lose and everything
to gain. It was great.
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We used to rehearse across the street
from a movie theatre
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and I think it was Tony who said,
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"How weird that people
go to movies to get scared.
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"Why don't we start
doing scary music?"
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And that's how the beginnings
of Sabbath started.
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And when we used to play
that song live in the early days,
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kids would just fucking scream
and run out.
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And we started getting invites
to fucking Black Masses
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and fucking Highgate Cemetery
at fucking 12:00.
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And we go, "Is this for real?"
We never thought it was real.
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In life, we know about
the dark side and the light side,
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the good side and the bad side,
and I think
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that's probably the attraction,
is that it hadn't been dealt with
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till the Black Sabbath
started dealing with it.
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And people go, "Oh, yeah.
This is great. Well cool. "
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It's like the attraction of Dracula
or vampires.
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It's a rich source
for exploration, I would think.
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What happened with Sabbath...
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For instance,
Black Sabbath One, the first album,
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we recorded that in 12 hours,
believe it or not.
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The whole thing was done in 12 hours
on an eight-track machine
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in a little backstreet studio
in London.
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It cost, like, 10 bucks to make
or something.
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It was one of the biggest-selling
albums I ever did.
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The manager comes up to me
and he goes,
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"Your album's going in the chart
next week at number 17."
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I said, "Fuck off! You're joking.
You're winding me up. "
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"No!"
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When I got my first record royalty
advance in money,
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I got 105 pounds,
which is about $220.
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I went and bought myself
some shoes and some socks,
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some patterned trousers,
and a bottle of Brut cologne.
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I always liked to smell nice.
I used to stink.
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Coming along from having nothing,
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literally fucking zero,
no socks on my feet,
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walking around in fucking
open sandals in the winter,
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that's, from that to a pair
of fucking socks and shoes, big time.
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Then the next one,
Paranoid, comes out.
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The song Paranoid
went up the English charts.
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The album went straight in
at number one in England.
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It was like, "Fucking hell!"
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That was our second album,
we got a number one album.
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And we're going,
"Fucking hell, man!"
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The real rock star vibe,
you know, hit us.
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This is the first one I ever got.
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Gold disc from...
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It fucking spelt my name
"O-S-S-I-E", which is fucking great.
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But those early days
were fucking fantastic.
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We all had a laugh, we'd fuck around.
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We'd fucking smoke dope,
drink beer, you know.
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Going around with him
was a total adventure.
233
00:22:42,991 --> 00:22:44,995
We never knew
what was going to happen.
234
00:22:45,144 --> 00:22:47,133
Ozzy would often
walk into a room naked.
235
00:22:49,546 --> 00:22:52,174
In the early days,
he was absolute bedlam.
236
00:22:52,482 --> 00:22:55,539
Me and Ozz were like a wrecking crew
in the hotel room,
237
00:22:55,689 --> 00:22:59,379
so we'd dismantle
the bathroom completely.
238
00:22:59,528 --> 00:23:03,233
Just big sledgehammers,
the toilet, sink, all gone.
239
00:23:03,382 --> 00:23:05,534
Put it outside,
everything goes outside.
240
00:23:05,683 --> 00:23:07,319
I remember I got a picture early on
241
00:23:07,468 --> 00:23:09,364
of him setting fire
to Bill Ward's beard.
242
00:23:10,166 --> 00:23:12,657
And Ozzy would be laughing
and Bill would just sit there.
243
00:23:13,737 --> 00:23:16,395
Growing up,
Ozzy was a real prankster,
244
00:23:16,544 --> 00:23:19,737
but especially in his 20s
with Sabbath,
245
00:23:19,909 --> 00:23:22,033
he was like the band clown.
246
00:23:22,182 --> 00:23:25,342
He got everyone going, laughing.
247
00:23:27,250 --> 00:23:29,946
He did that
because that was his shield.
248
00:23:30,420 --> 00:23:33,184
That protected his insecurities.
249
00:23:34,591 --> 00:23:36,714
Ozzy had low self-worth.
250
00:23:36,864 --> 00:23:40,519
He always considered himself
less than.
251
00:23:40,668 --> 00:23:45,294
That's how he survived everything,
was just being the prankster.
252
00:23:45,802 --> 00:23:47,963
What do you do to relax?
253
00:23:51,775 --> 00:23:53,263
You were joking when
you said that, of course?
254
00:23:53,412 --> 00:23:55,367
Yeah, right.
255
00:23:57,013 --> 00:24:01,707
With the success of the albums
came more money,
256
00:24:01,856 --> 00:24:05,514
which enabled us to buy
a better class of drug, basically.
257
00:24:06,089 --> 00:24:09,320
Which is basically what we were
all doing it for, at the time.
258
00:24:10,560 --> 00:24:13,825
Cocaine, acid and stuff like that.
259
00:24:15,165 --> 00:24:18,794
This is a good old cocaine shot,
we were all fucked up on these.
260
00:24:19,135 --> 00:24:21,158
If you look at the face,
when you do cocaine,
261
00:24:21,307 --> 00:24:23,899
you just lose
all expression in your face.
262
00:24:31,815 --> 00:24:35,440
We did the album, Volume 4,
and we'd been in Los Angeles
263
00:24:35,590 --> 00:24:37,543
recording that
for about three months.
264
00:24:37,921 --> 00:24:42,824
We used to have cereal boxes
of cocaine delivered to the house.
265
00:24:43,226 --> 00:24:46,953
We'd just tip it into this big bowl
and so we go...
266
00:24:47,102 --> 00:24:48,928
A bit like Scarface kind of thing.
267
00:24:50,700 --> 00:24:53,897
For a while,
we used LSD before we played.
268
00:24:54,070 --> 00:24:56,971
And so we would go on stage,
you know, tripping.
269
00:25:01,077 --> 00:25:04,069
Come on! Let's have a party!
270
00:26:01,437 --> 00:26:05,840
I was young, I had money,
I had cars, I had a fucking house.
271
00:26:06,509 --> 00:26:09,569
I was fucking king of the world
at fucking 22.
272
00:26:19,188 --> 00:26:21,179
Thank you very much!
273
00:26:28,398 --> 00:26:31,128
Thank you. We'll see you again soon!
274
00:26:37,440 --> 00:26:41,032
Shortly after we all became
successful with Black Sabbath,
275
00:26:41,181 --> 00:26:42,634
I met Thelma in a night club.
276
00:26:44,480 --> 00:26:48,348
Then we got married and we had
two children, Jessica and Louis.
277
00:26:53,089 --> 00:26:55,182
And this is a picture of my parents.
278
00:26:55,491 --> 00:26:58,324
That was actually
at the Hilton Hotel in Las Vegas.
279
00:27:03,166 --> 00:27:07,933
Some lovely ones, him looking
very young and handsome and sultry.
280
00:27:10,106 --> 00:27:11,664
These are nice ones.
281
00:27:12,175 --> 00:27:15,598
Before we had our house decorated,
so this must have been very early.
282
00:27:15,747 --> 00:27:17,077
1972.
- 1972.
283
00:27:17,680 --> 00:27:20,672
Got a Black Sabbath sticker
on the telephone.
284
00:27:21,718 --> 00:27:23,740
My recollection
from my childhood with Dad
285
00:27:23,890 --> 00:27:27,186
is that he'd be away
for very long periods of time,
286
00:27:27,523 --> 00:27:31,148
and there would always be a period
of adjustment when he came home,
287
00:27:31,298 --> 00:27:34,886
and then it would get to normality,
and then he'd go again.
288
00:27:35,035 --> 00:27:37,159
So it was a very
erratic childhood with Dad.
289
00:27:38,234 --> 00:27:40,223
Dad got into the local newspaper
290
00:27:40,372 --> 00:27:42,994
for the prized green beans
that he had grown.
291
00:27:43,144 --> 00:27:45,233
That's a nice picture of the house
and of our vegetable garden.
292
00:27:45,975 --> 00:27:48,166
He was always
a very big social drinker,
293
00:27:48,316 --> 00:27:50,469
so the pubs in the villages
where we all grew up
294
00:27:50,618 --> 00:27:54,277
were a very big part of the social
scene, so he would go to the pub.
295
00:27:59,622 --> 00:28:03,991
The only thing in English countryside
really back then was pubs.
296
00:28:04,594 --> 00:28:06,785
I'd go, "There's a pub there,
the house is just down the road.
297
00:28:06,935 --> 00:28:08,789
"Idea. I haven't got
a driving licence.
298
00:28:08,939 --> 00:28:10,853
"For one, I can walk
to the pub and back!"
299
00:28:11,003 --> 00:28:13,990
My idea of going for a drink
was to go to a pub,
300
00:28:14,140 --> 00:28:16,592
get as much poured
down my neck as I could
301
00:28:16,742 --> 00:28:18,897
and stumble out.
That was my idea of a drink.
302
00:28:19,047 --> 00:28:21,806
When he was around and he wasn't
pissed, he was a great father.
303
00:28:22,211 --> 00:28:24,200
But that was seldom, really.
304
00:28:24,349 --> 00:28:26,838
I just have a lot of memories
of him being drunk.
305
00:28:27,016 --> 00:28:29,972
Fucking just random shit, you know.
Fucking driving cars across fields,
306
00:28:30,122 --> 00:28:32,930
and crashing them in the middle
of the night and stuff like that.
307
00:28:33,079 --> 00:28:35,456
It's not good for family life,
really, you know.
308
00:28:37,727 --> 00:28:42,123
When you drink alcohol and someone
goes, "Dad, help me do this math. "
309
00:28:42,272 --> 00:28:45,223
You go, "What the fuck you even
bothering me for?"
310
00:28:45,468 --> 00:28:48,960
It just gets a big ugly scene,
but that's the way your life becomes.
311
00:28:49,305 --> 00:28:53,708
I don't remember being put to bed or
a bath or that kind of thing by Dad.
312
00:28:54,577 --> 00:28:56,566
I wouldn't say
he was there for us, no.
313
00:28:56,715 --> 00:29:00,872
Never on a sports day,
a school trip, a parents' evening.
314
00:29:01,022 --> 00:29:02,938
He wasn't like that, no.
315
00:29:03,088 --> 00:29:04,810
It just pissed me off that
Dad never remembered my birthday.
316
00:29:04,960 --> 00:29:07,613
Just a fucking phone call
to say, "Happy birthday, Lou. "
317
00:29:07,762 --> 00:29:11,023
Just make me happy. That's all I
wanted but he couldn't remember that.
318
00:29:11,728 --> 00:29:13,717
When was Jessica born?
- Sorry?
319
00:29:13,866 --> 00:29:17,823
When was Jess born?
- I think '71, '72.
320
00:29:20,403 --> 00:29:22,459
Maybe before.
321
00:29:22,609 --> 00:29:25,166
I don't really know.
I'll find out for you.
322
00:29:29,779 --> 00:29:32,247
Do you think he was a good parent?
323
00:29:33,349 --> 00:29:34,907
No.
324
00:29:37,720 --> 00:29:40,209
I did the best I could
in the situation at home.
325
00:29:40,359 --> 00:29:42,655
I was fucking 22.
326
00:29:43,025 --> 00:29:45,755
I mean, people knew who I was.
327
00:29:46,028 --> 00:29:50,722
I could drive the fucking Mercedes,
fly on Concorde to New York,
328
00:29:50,872 --> 00:29:54,234
fucking first class seat,
and stay at a nice hotel.
329
00:29:54,570 --> 00:29:57,095
You know, I mean, I was a rock star.
330
00:29:57,406 --> 00:30:00,098
And when you become
a successful rock star,
331
00:30:00,247 --> 00:30:01,568
they don't give you
a handbook and say,
332
00:30:01,717 --> 00:30:03,666
"You should learn these rules.
This is what you got to stick by. "
333
00:30:03,816 --> 00:30:06,408
It's the fucking world.
You're young, you got money,
334
00:30:06,582 --> 00:30:09,847
you're successful,
chicks want to be seen with you.
335
00:30:10,887 --> 00:30:13,219
What more can you say, you know?
336
00:30:31,107 --> 00:30:34,304
It's just probably stress or anxiety.
337
00:30:35,044 --> 00:30:38,878
I don't know. I'm not anxious.
I'm feeling okay.
338
00:30:39,649 --> 00:30:43,847
Well, you've told me before that you
get a bit wound up at the gigs.
339
00:30:44,153 --> 00:30:47,213
The last time was great.
That's why I'm doing it, you know.
340
00:30:47,456 --> 00:30:49,856
I'm not wound up at all.
341
00:30:52,395 --> 00:30:57,492
Okay, there, Ozzy. Here we go.
Now give me... M-U-H-M.
342
00:31:02,438 --> 00:31:03,905
Now, we're gonna give you the...
343
00:31:05,107 --> 00:31:08,167
Slightly hooty...
And do the long one, and say...
344
00:31:14,050 --> 00:31:17,542
Now, Ozz, give me a plain old...
And same thing, say...
345
00:31:25,962 --> 00:31:29,227
Okay, I'm gonna give you
the chance to rest for a little bit,
346
00:31:29,398 --> 00:31:31,559
and then we'll start again.
347
00:31:32,835 --> 00:31:36,995
I love my job, you know.
I'm very fucking passionate about it.
348
00:31:37,144 --> 00:31:40,633
When I can't give a good show,
I get pissed off about it, you know.
349
00:31:41,043 --> 00:31:46,481
When I can't do my job...
I suffer from terminal perfectionism.
350
00:31:46,916 --> 00:31:49,817
I'm just gonna flip-flop Bark At
The Moon with Suicide Solution,
351
00:31:51,087 --> 00:31:53,555
Crazy Train,
and leave it as the old set.
352
00:31:53,956 --> 00:31:58,154
Yeah, I mean, if you want...
353
00:31:58,461 --> 00:32:02,488
We can do Fire in the Sky,
'cause that's more for you to sing.
354
00:32:02,732 --> 00:32:05,688
Yeah, but I'll know
when I get there, you know.
355
00:32:05,837 --> 00:32:07,860
Exactly. You know, right?
356
00:32:08,170 --> 00:32:10,866
I'm not gonna fucking do
all this shit, all right, man?
357
00:32:13,743 --> 00:32:15,197
I mean, we're gonna
go over everything,
358
00:32:15,347 --> 00:32:17,935
we'll be here till fucking midnight,
going over all this shit.
359
00:32:18,085 --> 00:32:19,237
We got here a little while ago.
360
00:32:19,386 --> 00:32:21,039
We'll just keep going
till we get it right.
361
00:32:21,188 --> 00:32:22,208
All right.
362
00:33:00,156 --> 00:33:03,916
Not every night I'm great, not
every night I'm half great sometimes.
363
00:33:04,066 --> 00:33:05,970
I'm terrible if my voice goes out,
364
00:33:06,119 --> 00:33:08,586
like everybody else is,
but the show goes on.
365
00:33:20,176 --> 00:33:21,165
Yes, sir.
366
00:33:24,080 --> 00:33:25,741
If I can't get it to...
367
00:33:28,818 --> 00:33:30,807
Fucking... I'm deaf.
368
00:33:30,956 --> 00:33:34,185
Next year I'll be, like,
on fucking Braille, man.
369
00:33:57,913 --> 00:33:59,039
Hey.
370
00:34:06,389 --> 00:34:08,687
You're so tired, that's why.
371
00:34:10,326 --> 00:34:13,659
I first met Ozzy
when Black Sabbath asked
372
00:34:13,863 --> 00:34:16,730
if my father was interested
in managing them.
373
00:34:18,300 --> 00:34:23,294
Black Sabbath was a phenomenon.
It just instantly happened.
374
00:34:25,608 --> 00:34:29,132
And for guys that just came
from a poor background,
375
00:34:29,282 --> 00:34:32,646
to suddenly money everywhere
being thrown at them,
376
00:34:33,349 --> 00:34:38,290
they were really out of their comfort
zone, those guys, they really were.
377
00:34:38,440 --> 00:34:42,187
When you think they were
all so young, terribly young.
378
00:34:48,197 --> 00:34:51,997
Towards the late '70s,
we were very high, high, high.
379
00:34:52,501 --> 00:34:53,725
There was a lot of cocaine.
380
00:34:53,874 --> 00:34:57,602
I know I was using cocaine regularly,
on a daily basis.
381
00:34:57,773 --> 00:35:01,702
I remember doing it every day,
like, 24 hours a day, practically.
382
00:35:01,851 --> 00:35:06,740
So, I didn't realise at the time,
all the management was interested in
383
00:35:06,890 --> 00:35:09,838
was ripping as much money off us
as they possibly could.
384
00:35:09,988 --> 00:35:15,116
I mean, Sabbath was royally fucking
ripped off. Royally ripped off.
385
00:35:15,291 --> 00:35:18,624
And then we didn't know
anything about royalties.
386
00:35:20,196 --> 00:35:23,222
I didn't even know you got
royalties for writing the music.
387
00:35:23,632 --> 00:35:27,961
Circa about 1976, I produced
this report, quite a long report,
388
00:35:28,110 --> 00:35:31,779
basically saying how their money
wasn't quite as they thought it was.
389
00:35:31,929 --> 00:35:34,931
For example, they all had houses,
but they didn't own them.
390
00:35:35,080 --> 00:35:38,270
We had all these million, platinum
selling albums and everything,
391
00:35:38,419 --> 00:35:41,190
and nothing to show for it. No money.
392
00:35:41,340 --> 00:35:44,582
We were all
out of our brains on dope.
393
00:35:46,455 --> 00:35:49,253
So the band was just, like,
split anyway.
394
00:35:51,193 --> 00:35:53,286
It had been broken, really.
395
00:35:53,896 --> 00:35:55,789
Hello, welcome to Top of The Pops,
and right now,
396
00:35:55,939 --> 00:35:58,492
here's a rundown
on the brand new Top 30.
397
00:36:14,783 --> 00:36:15,956
Right now, Never Say Die,
398
00:36:16,106 --> 00:36:18,315
that's the brand new one
from Black Sabbath.
399
00:36:42,044 --> 00:36:44,786
The last album I did with Sabbath
was Never Say Die.
400
00:36:44,936 --> 00:36:48,674
It was the worst piece of work that
I've ever had anything to do with.
401
00:36:48,824 --> 00:36:51,184
I'm ashamed of that album.
It was disgusting.
402
00:37:04,400 --> 00:37:07,159
He puts everything he's got into it.
That's Black Sabbath right there.
403
00:37:07,308 --> 00:37:08,695
John Travolta and Olivia Newton-John
404
00:37:08,845 --> 00:37:10,795
have gone straight in
at number 23 this week...
405
00:37:15,311 --> 00:37:17,404
When his dad passed away,
406
00:37:17,780 --> 00:37:23,013
and it really knocked the shit out
of him. It nearly destroyed him.
407
00:37:24,453 --> 00:37:28,412
We were all devastated.
We all loved Jack.
408
00:37:28,724 --> 00:37:32,785
It was Jack that had
given us the crosses.
409
00:37:33,996 --> 00:37:36,857
This is the original, original,
original Sabbath cross.
410
00:37:37,006 --> 00:37:39,894
My father made that
when he was at work,
411
00:37:40,043 --> 00:37:42,896
and then when
he'd come back with it,
412
00:37:43,045 --> 00:37:46,545
everyone in the band wanted one
and he made another.
413
00:37:46,695 --> 00:37:51,339
Bill Ward wore his
right up to relatively recently.
414
00:37:52,715 --> 00:37:55,941
I always wanted a man-to-man
conversation with my father,
415
00:37:56,090 --> 00:37:59,577
but I was too into drugs and alcohol
before he died.
416
00:37:59,989 --> 00:38:02,651
I miss my father a lot, you know.
417
00:38:03,726 --> 00:38:06,215
But I was young, I was doing...
418
00:38:06,364 --> 00:38:09,126
I was riding the fame game
for a long time.
419
00:38:12,334 --> 00:38:14,542
Ozz was in absolute turmoil,
420
00:38:14,692 --> 00:38:17,366
and he put himself
right inside the bottle.
421
00:38:18,641 --> 00:38:20,905
He stayed there for a while.
422
00:38:22,044 --> 00:38:25,502
And so we got on with trying
to make another record.
423
00:38:27,449 --> 00:38:32,374
And we all came over to LA
to do the album after Never Say Die,
424
00:38:32,523 --> 00:38:34,814
and Ozzy didn't turn up
for two weeks.
425
00:38:34,963 --> 00:38:40,156
Two weeks later, he rolls through
the door, smashed out of his head.
426
00:38:40,896 --> 00:38:44,488
He'd beaten somebody up on the plane
coming over from England,
427
00:38:44,637 --> 00:38:48,934
and the Customs had arrested him
for beating this person up.
428
00:38:50,539 --> 00:38:56,403
By the time we got to the house, he
was obliterated, started rehearsing,
429
00:38:56,553 --> 00:38:58,236
and he just wouldn't sing
on anything.
430
00:38:58,386 --> 00:39:01,145
He was like,
"That's shit. Crap, that is. "
431
00:39:01,450 --> 00:39:03,540
Ozzy wasn't into it.
He really wasn't into it.
432
00:39:03,689 --> 00:39:07,711
And most of the time,
he would be on the couch asleep,
433
00:39:07,860 --> 00:39:09,514
he'd have done some Quaaludes
or whatever
434
00:39:09,663 --> 00:39:13,149
it might've been at that time,
and he wasn't happy, I don't think.
435
00:39:13,299 --> 00:39:15,751
He was doing too much of everything,
as we all were,
436
00:39:15,900 --> 00:39:19,855
but some people can handle it better
than others. He couldn't handle it.
437
00:39:20,004 --> 00:39:21,361
The conversations began about
438
00:39:21,510 --> 00:39:23,870
the possibility of looking
at another singer.
439
00:39:24,940 --> 00:39:27,350
He just didn't want to be there.
440
00:39:27,500 --> 00:39:29,965
We knew it was, like,
either the whole band split,
441
00:39:30,115 --> 00:39:32,135
or we'd get somebody else in.
442
00:39:32,284 --> 00:39:37,740
It was me that actually says to him,
"You know, Ozz, we're gonna move on.
443
00:39:37,889 --> 00:39:41,118
"We're gonna move on without you. "
Broke my heart.
444
00:39:44,126 --> 00:39:47,118
We all cried our eyes out
for about a week,
445
00:39:48,130 --> 00:39:50,621
when Ozzy had gone, because we...
446
00:39:52,067 --> 00:39:56,058
I swear to God, if he hadn't
have been fired from the band,
447
00:39:56,207 --> 00:39:59,572
he'd have been dead within a month.
448
00:40:02,277 --> 00:40:05,936
It was tough for Ozzy when
he first got let go from Sabbath.
449
00:40:06,086 --> 00:40:10,007
He had very low self-esteem,
he had no confidence whatsoever.
450
00:40:10,419 --> 00:40:12,458
When I got fired from Sabbath,
451
00:40:12,608 --> 00:40:14,745
I didn't know what to do,
I didn't know where to go.
452
00:40:14,895 --> 00:40:18,088
I thought it was
the end of the dream.
453
00:40:18,560 --> 00:40:21,516
I'd never ever dreamed
that I would do it again on my own.
454
00:40:21,666 --> 00:40:24,085
I just thought, "This is it. "
So what money I had,
455
00:40:24,235 --> 00:40:25,991
I just got fucked up and bought drugs
456
00:40:26,140 --> 00:40:29,901
and stayed in an apartment
for three months and got loaded.
457
00:40:30,606 --> 00:40:35,131
You'd go into Ozzy's room
and he'd be curled up on the floor
458
00:40:35,281 --> 00:40:38,835
covered in piss,
beer bottles all around him,
459
00:40:38,985 --> 00:40:41,848
drug paraphernalia everywhere.
460
00:40:42,050 --> 00:40:45,411
And what could be sadder,
what could be lower than that?
461
00:40:45,560 --> 00:40:47,749
His dignity had well gone.
462
00:40:54,863 --> 00:40:58,005
Ozzy did feel very alone,
lost and broke.
463
00:40:58,154 --> 00:41:00,825
Suddenly he was out of the band,
and would he get picked up,
464
00:41:00,974 --> 00:41:03,530
and who was interested in him
and was his career over?
465
00:41:04,440 --> 00:41:07,250
For a guy like me
who's got self-esteem issues,
466
00:41:07,399 --> 00:41:10,277
the idea of going solo
was very, very scary.
467
00:41:11,480 --> 00:41:13,435
I knew he had great talent
468
00:41:13,585 --> 00:41:18,452
and I just felt in my gut
that he could make a huge comeback.
469
00:41:19,054 --> 00:41:24,549
It was then that I became
his actual manager, properly.
470
00:41:25,093 --> 00:41:28,529
And first thing,
we had to find that band.
471
00:41:30,599 --> 00:41:34,558
We auditioned hundreds
of guitar players.
472
00:41:34,803 --> 00:41:39,328
Literally, we would turn up
at the rehearsal rooms
473
00:41:39,478 --> 00:41:42,535
and there would be lines
around the block
474
00:41:42,744 --> 00:41:45,402
of musicians waiting to see Ozzy.
475
00:41:45,552 --> 00:41:47,171
It was a bit
of a slow process at first,
476
00:41:47,320 --> 00:41:50,581
until I met someone who put me
in touch with Randy Rhoads.
477
00:41:52,054 --> 00:41:55,490
Randy had a deep-ish voice
for a little guy, like, "Wow. "
478
00:41:56,391 --> 00:42:00,832
So he goes into the studio and I'm
sitting here in this studio window,
479
00:42:00,982 --> 00:42:04,290
like that thing, you know,
I'm fucking zonked.
480
00:42:04,439 --> 00:42:05,589
And he goes,
"What do you want me to... "
481
00:42:05,739 --> 00:42:08,067
I said, "Play any fucking thing. "
482
00:42:08,303 --> 00:42:10,528
He said, "I have a solo,"
and he played his fucking solo.
483
00:42:10,678 --> 00:42:13,882
And I was like,
"Am I that fucking stoned,
484
00:42:14,031 --> 00:42:16,375
"or am I hallucinating?
What the fuck is this?"
485
00:43:02,090 --> 00:43:05,150
So he was very lucky
to run into Randy Rhoads.
486
00:43:05,394 --> 00:43:10,661
And the guitar sound
really reinvented Ozzy's voice.
487
00:43:19,942 --> 00:43:24,504
And he had a true writing partner,
and a friend. They really clicked.
488
00:43:28,350 --> 00:43:30,541
Everybody thought maybe
he was gonna be down and out
489
00:43:30,691 --> 00:43:33,917
because of what happened with Sabbath
and he just shocked the world.
490
00:43:37,993 --> 00:43:39,419
Especially with Randy Rhoads,
491
00:43:39,569 --> 00:43:42,551
and the magnitude
of what this guy was doing.
492
00:43:42,701 --> 00:43:46,391
Here's this guy who's giving
Eddie Van Halen a run for his money
493
00:43:46,540 --> 00:43:48,992
and everybody thought
that Eddie Van Halen was the king.
494
00:43:56,445 --> 00:44:00,289
I knew instinctively that
he was something extra special.
495
00:44:00,439 --> 00:44:03,191
He was like a gift from God.
496
00:44:03,340 --> 00:44:07,894
And having that fucking thing,
having a gift from a higher power,
497
00:44:08,043 --> 00:44:10,146
I don't know
what the fucking deal was,
498
00:44:10,296 --> 00:44:12,584
but this guy did something to me.
499
00:44:12,734 --> 00:44:17,290
And one thing that
he gave to me was hope.
500
00:44:17,499 --> 00:44:20,991
He gave me a reason for carrying on.
501
00:44:27,209 --> 00:44:31,284
Blizzard of Ozz, the first record,
was done in six weeks.
502
00:44:31,434 --> 00:44:36,544
It just instantly, instantly
blew up everywhere.
503
00:44:44,693 --> 00:44:49,684
He went right on tour
through Europe with the band.
504
00:44:49,834 --> 00:44:54,530
Then back into the studio three
months later to do Diary of a Madman.
505
00:44:57,172 --> 00:45:01,433
Less than a year after being fired
from Black Sabbath,
506
00:45:01,582 --> 00:45:03,636
Ozzy was a rock star again.
507
00:45:26,501 --> 00:45:29,732
Diary of a Madman tour
was just massive.
508
00:45:29,905 --> 00:45:32,601
It was the loudest show
I've ever been a part of.
509
00:46:33,969 --> 00:46:36,492
That tour was just
like a magical time.
510
00:46:36,642 --> 00:46:40,166
I think Randy and Ozzy
gelled together
511
00:46:41,076 --> 00:46:43,801
like left and right hand,
it was just amazing.
512
00:46:43,950 --> 00:46:45,310
Their friendship was...
513
00:46:46,581 --> 00:46:50,808
It was just like
two best mates hanging out
514
00:46:50,958 --> 00:46:54,314
and laughing
but yet that passion for music,
515
00:46:54,463 --> 00:46:57,350
everything, the albums
that they were writing,
516
00:46:57,500 --> 00:47:01,753
and the gigs,
just music talk the whole time.
517
00:47:01,903 --> 00:47:06,192
Randy was able to achieve
a lot in a very short period of time.
518
00:47:06,341 --> 00:47:09,327
And a lot of it
was due to Ozzy's mentorship.
519
00:47:10,138 --> 00:47:13,533
Randy, on behalf of the
over half million readers
520
00:47:13,683 --> 00:47:16,131
of Guitar Player Magazine in the US
521
00:47:16,280 --> 00:47:17,968
and in 70 countries
throughout the world
522
00:47:18,118 --> 00:47:22,019
I'd like to present you with
the 1981 Best New Talent Award.
523
00:47:22,169 --> 00:47:23,811
Congratulations.
- Thank you.
524
00:47:31,259 --> 00:47:33,250
Give him a kiss, Ozzy.
525
00:47:36,631 --> 00:47:38,654
I've got a lot of work to do,
526
00:47:38,803 --> 00:47:42,259
and it makes you realise
it's a lot of responsibility.
527
00:47:42,938 --> 00:47:47,913
This tour, I wanna really
get myself together and work hard
528
00:47:48,062 --> 00:47:51,444
because I'm really proud
and honoured,
529
00:47:52,647 --> 00:47:54,672
and I don't wanna stop here.
530
00:47:58,353 --> 00:48:02,080
Randy Rhoads, the 25-year-old lead
guitarist for Ozzy Osbourne's group,
531
00:48:02,229 --> 00:48:05,247
was killed in a plane crash this
morning along with two other people,
532
00:48:05,397 --> 00:48:07,551
Andrew Aycock,
the pilot of the plane,
533
00:48:07,701 --> 00:48:10,455
also Rachel Youngblood,
the group's hairdresser.
534
00:48:10,604 --> 00:48:13,156
Ozzy Osbourne himself was in the van
535
00:48:13,305 --> 00:48:15,223
when one of the plane's
wings clipped it,
536
00:48:15,373 --> 00:48:17,697
but Ozzy escaped injury,
we understand.
537
00:48:17,846 --> 00:48:20,832
25-year-old Randy Rhoads
is dead today.
538
00:48:22,510 --> 00:48:25,968
The morning that Randy was killed,
I'll never forget.
539
00:48:28,617 --> 00:48:33,575
I'll never forget.
We were there for so many hours
540
00:48:33,724 --> 00:48:37,882
because it took so long
for the authorities to come down,
541
00:48:38,031 --> 00:48:40,015
the police and the fire department.
542
00:48:40,165 --> 00:48:45,041
We finally went to a nearby hotel
and I just couldn't stay in my room.
543
00:48:45,190 --> 00:48:49,762
So I went down the street and I found
a church right down the street.
544
00:48:50,538 --> 00:48:52,802
All I wanted to do was just sit there
545
00:48:52,974 --> 00:48:57,741
and just make some sense
of what was going on.
546
00:48:58,246 --> 00:49:01,841
I didn't even look up
and I'm sitting there
547
00:49:02,651 --> 00:49:06,417
and I hear this sobbing
and this crying...
548
00:49:09,524 --> 00:49:15,190
And I thought, "Wow, this person has
got to be in more pain than I am. "
549
00:49:15,397 --> 00:49:18,332
And I look up
and it's Ozzy sitting there.
550
00:49:20,101 --> 00:49:23,158
The craziest day of my life
was the day that Randy Rhoads died.
551
00:49:23,308 --> 00:49:26,233
And I couldn't believe that.
You got to deal with that.
552
00:49:26,382 --> 00:49:30,277
People tend to forget people
in this business so quickly.
553
00:49:30,679 --> 00:49:32,887
That guy was my brother, man.
554
00:49:33,036 --> 00:49:36,004
That guy was a part of my life,
and he's dead.
555
00:49:36,153 --> 00:49:39,326
Why don't people start talking to me
about the death of Randy Rhoads
556
00:49:39,476 --> 00:49:42,651
instead of asking me the craziest
prank that I've ever done?
557
00:49:42,924 --> 00:49:45,250
That's the craziest prank
that I've ever witnessed,
558
00:49:45,400 --> 00:49:47,385
was seeing that guy burn.
559
00:49:47,762 --> 00:49:52,158
And the day that Randy Rhoads died,
that was the day a part of me died.
560
00:49:52,308 --> 00:49:55,560
And Rachel Youngblood, my seamstress.
561
00:49:55,710 --> 00:49:58,662
Can't forget that.
It just gets kind of weird.
562
00:50:39,347 --> 00:50:41,247
It's Friday or Saturday, yeah?
563
00:50:41,516 --> 00:50:43,279
Today is Saturday, yes.
564
00:50:43,485 --> 00:50:45,209
I don't know what country
I'm in half the time.
565
00:50:45,359 --> 00:50:48,778
I don't know what time it is.
- Tell me about it.
566
00:52:57,485 --> 00:53:02,511
After the Diary of a Madman tour,
I went to Barbados with my family.
567
00:53:02,661 --> 00:53:05,957
My ex-wife told me on the plane,
coming back, "I want a divorce. "
568
00:53:07,695 --> 00:53:10,289
But that was very ugly for a while.
569
00:53:10,598 --> 00:53:14,639
My children still wanted
their father, their dad,
570
00:53:14,789 --> 00:53:19,229
and that's a fucking dreadful feeling
that you have to go through.
571
00:53:19,807 --> 00:53:24,403
I remember going to my house one day
and Louis, my son, was a little kid
572
00:53:25,079 --> 00:53:26,472
and he got me...
573
00:53:26,621 --> 00:53:29,976
I can remember him
sticking his fingernails in,
574
00:53:30,125 --> 00:53:32,478
and tears were streaming
down his face and he says,
575
00:53:32,627 --> 00:53:35,982
"Daddy, please come home.
We can work this out. "
576
00:53:36,131 --> 00:53:41,819
That one incident tore my heart out.
Tore my fucking heart out.
577
00:53:41,969 --> 00:53:44,990
It just fucked me up.
And I don't know really...
578
00:53:45,800 --> 00:53:47,927
It devastated me.
579
00:53:53,241 --> 00:53:56,972
Ozzy and I were friends.
We worked together and that was it.
580
00:53:57,512 --> 00:54:02,074
But it wasn't until August of 1980
581
00:54:02,483 --> 00:54:06,283
that we actually
had a relationship going.
582
00:54:10,491 --> 00:54:16,917
The first night that we were actually
together in Shepperton in 1980,
583
00:54:17,067 --> 00:54:20,825
and then the next day I thought,
"Oh, well. It just happened.
584
00:54:20,975 --> 00:54:25,494
"Drunk. We were in the moment.
It'll all be over. "
585
00:54:25,643 --> 00:54:29,333
And each night after the show...
- It happened again...
586
00:54:29,482 --> 00:54:32,405
It happened again
and again and again.
587
00:54:32,555 --> 00:54:37,314
And it was either we were
in the pub, in bed or on stage.
588
00:54:37,518 --> 00:54:40,282
That was it? Yeah.
- That's about it, isn't it?
589
00:54:45,126 --> 00:54:47,720
I didn't know they had
a relationship or anything.
590
00:54:48,029 --> 00:54:49,939
I'm shooting Ozzy in the bed,
591
00:54:50,088 --> 00:54:56,560
and then all of a sudden,
Sharon goes under the covers.
592
00:54:58,473 --> 00:55:02,807
All of a sudden, Sharon's down there
like she's doing the deed.
593
00:55:03,044 --> 00:55:05,308
And Ozzy's just like freaking.
594
00:55:08,082 --> 00:55:12,041
Ozzy and I got married
in 1982 in Maui.
595
00:55:18,526 --> 00:55:21,819
And we wanted to start a family,
that's why we got married.
596
00:55:21,969 --> 00:55:24,261
We both wanted our own family.
597
00:55:46,821 --> 00:55:49,946
Dad was there for me
when I was growing up.
598
00:55:50,096 --> 00:55:52,822
There were times,
there were, like, chunks.
599
00:55:53,127 --> 00:55:59,823
But then again, there were loads of
times where he wasn't a great father,
600
00:55:59,973 --> 00:56:03,563
and he wasn't there
when I needed him.
601
00:56:03,738 --> 00:56:07,538
Meaning the fact that he was
messed up a lot of the time.
602
00:56:07,709 --> 00:56:10,542
When he was drunk,
he was mostly tearful,
603
00:56:12,013 --> 00:56:14,504
and sometimes he'd get a bit angry.
604
00:56:14,682 --> 00:56:19,119
And a bit, like, "I work hard.
I should be able to do what I want. "
605
00:56:21,022 --> 00:56:22,915
But mostly tearful.
606
00:56:23,065 --> 00:56:26,419
I don't honestly think that
Ozzy knew how to be a father.
607
00:56:26,568 --> 00:56:31,187
The drinking, the huge success
that was going on in his life,
608
00:56:31,336 --> 00:56:35,598
the turmoil of leaving one family
and starting another family...
609
00:56:35,803 --> 00:56:39,068
He was treading water.
610
00:56:39,607 --> 00:56:43,134
And that caused the behaviour
to get even worse.
611
00:56:43,611 --> 00:56:47,771
So his pranks that he used to play
612
00:56:47,920 --> 00:56:51,074
would get bigger and larger
and crazier,
613
00:56:51,224 --> 00:56:55,645
and his whole behaviour,
on and off stage, was over the top.
614
00:56:56,224 --> 00:56:59,585
And it was like insanity,
615
00:56:59,734 --> 00:57:04,090
just going around and around
and around, complete insanity.
616
00:57:04,239 --> 00:57:05,855
Rock star Ozzy Osbourne,
617
00:57:06,005 --> 00:57:10,059
who is known for biting the heads
off of bats at his concerts...
618
00:57:10,209 --> 00:57:12,969
Osbourne was arrested
for urinating on the Alamo...
619
00:57:13,307 --> 00:57:15,965
The Union Arena was filled
with the anticipation
620
00:57:16,115 --> 00:57:20,568
of a cat slaughter tonight. Rumour
was that punk rocker Ozzy Osbourne
621
00:57:20,718 --> 00:57:23,204
was going to release
hundreds of cats here
622
00:57:23,353 --> 00:57:26,718
and expected the audience to kill
them before his appearance onstage.
623
00:57:27,021 --> 00:57:29,010
The lyrics from one of his songs
624
00:57:29,159 --> 00:57:31,114
encouraged a young man
to commit suicide.
625
00:57:31,592 --> 00:57:34,993
His father claims John was listening
to Ozzy Osbourne music at the time.
626
00:57:35,463 --> 00:57:36,585
He gained reputation for being
627
00:57:36,735 --> 00:57:39,097
rock 'n' roll's definitive
crazy person.
628
00:57:39,367 --> 00:57:40,905
Well, I suppose you could say that.
629
00:57:41,055 --> 00:57:44,971
Can we talk about you being crazy?
- I'm not crazy...
630
00:57:46,307 --> 00:57:49,831
In the '80s, I was the craziest guy
of rock 'n' roll.
631
00:57:49,981 --> 00:57:53,345
If you wanted me to do something,
tell me not to.
632
00:57:53,881 --> 00:57:55,870
That was about the order
of the fucking day.
633
00:57:56,019 --> 00:57:58,624
I was drunk and fucked up
on a daily basis.
634
00:57:58,774 --> 00:58:01,411
So, when you get drunk and fucked up,
they hardly expect you
635
00:58:01,560 --> 00:58:04,787
to fucking tiptoe through the tulips
or whatever the fuck.
636
00:58:06,160 --> 00:58:09,129
When you're loaded,
you do crazy things.
637
00:58:32,587 --> 00:58:36,544
It was the first time
that Ozzy met the A&R staff,
638
00:58:36,693 --> 00:58:40,753
promotional staff,
at CBS in Los Angeles.
639
00:58:42,296 --> 00:58:45,472
Ozzy's deal was a cheap deal.
They didn't want Ozzy.
640
00:58:45,621 --> 00:58:50,367
It was a favour that they
signed Ozzy. It was just a favour.
641
00:58:51,038 --> 00:58:53,973
Sixty-five grand
they paid for the album.
642
00:58:54,141 --> 00:58:57,406
So he wasn't on their
"high list of priorities. "
643
00:58:57,678 --> 00:59:00,134
They had fucking Michael Jackson.
644
00:59:00,283 --> 00:59:04,241
And it was like,
"Okay, they've got to remember you. "
645
00:59:04,418 --> 00:59:07,478
So, then we said,
"Doves of peace. That'll be nice.
646
00:59:07,655 --> 00:59:12,490
"Go in and let the birds go
and then it'll be lovely," you know.
647
00:59:12,894 --> 00:59:15,366
"They'll remember,
maybe it'll shit on somebody's desk
648
00:59:15,515 --> 00:59:18,255
"and that'll be funny,
and then we leave. "
649
00:59:18,405 --> 00:59:22,325
She wanted me to go in there
with two doves, a peace offering.
650
00:59:22,837 --> 00:59:25,377
She says, "You blow this
and we are completely fucked. "
651
00:59:25,526 --> 00:59:28,833
We go into the meeting
and there's the big conference table
652
00:59:28,983 --> 00:59:32,338
and there must've been, I don't know,
20, 30 people in there.
653
00:59:32,487 --> 00:59:34,772
And he sat there
and he lets this bird go
654
00:59:34,922 --> 00:59:39,211
and everybody's,
"Oh, magic trick. Oh, is that real?"
655
00:59:39,360 --> 00:59:42,647
I threw the one up in the air,
it sat on this girl's lap,
656
00:59:42,797 --> 00:59:45,157
snapped the other one in my mouth
and bit its head off.
657
00:59:45,326 --> 00:59:48,159
There's a photo somewhere
of the actual event happening.
658
00:59:54,702 --> 00:59:57,827
He just picked it up
and ripped its head off
659
00:59:57,977 --> 00:59:59,634
and spat it out on the girl.
660
00:59:59,807 --> 01:00:03,208
And she went absolutely
fucking insane.
661
01:00:07,181 --> 01:00:08,973
They suddenly called the security
662
01:00:09,122 --> 01:00:12,246
and we were yanked out
of the conference room.
663
01:00:16,223 --> 01:00:17,711
It was not a publicity stunt.
664
01:00:17,861 --> 01:00:20,555
I was just out of my fucking face
on drugs and alcohol.
665
01:00:20,828 --> 01:00:23,558
What is the truth behind
Ozzy biting the head off a bat?
666
01:00:23,764 --> 01:00:26,324
The bat started because of the dove.
667
01:00:27,001 --> 01:00:29,868
Kids kept hearing these stories,
668
01:00:30,104 --> 01:00:33,505
so they would bring him animals
to the gigs,
669
01:00:34,842 --> 01:00:37,140
thinking that he would
want to eat them.
670
01:00:37,678 --> 01:00:40,272
And somebody threw a bat
and I don't know...
671
01:00:41,082 --> 01:00:44,108
To find someone who goes
to a concert with a bat,
672
01:00:44,285 --> 01:00:46,729
a real bat... You always get
the joke ones, you know.
673
01:00:46,878 --> 01:00:50,051
You get like the rubber ones
you buy from the corner joke shop.
674
01:00:50,491 --> 01:00:52,384
And I picked it up,
I thought, "This should be good. "
675
01:00:52,533 --> 01:00:55,017
Bit into this bat...
- You bit it.
676
01:00:55,229 --> 01:00:58,185
Believe me, if I'd have known
it was a real live bat,
677
01:00:58,335 --> 01:01:00,456
I would never have picked it up.
678
01:01:00,605 --> 01:01:02,359
But I'll tell what, you know,
679
01:01:02,509 --> 01:01:06,907
afterwards, the rabies shots
were horrendous.
680
01:01:09,610 --> 01:01:14,135
It went out on the wire that Ozzy
had bitten the head off a bat
681
01:01:14,285 --> 01:01:15,972
and had to have these rabies shots.
682
01:01:16,122 --> 01:01:21,077
And then suddenly, Ozzy
is this larger-than-life character.
683
01:01:27,762 --> 01:01:29,662
When we were on tour with Ozzy,
684
01:01:29,964 --> 01:01:32,364
we would always have these crazy
parties backstage.
685
01:01:33,267 --> 01:01:34,789
He would come onto our bus and say,
686
01:01:34,938 --> 01:01:37,594
"I'm riding with you guys
to the next city. "
687
01:01:37,743 --> 01:01:39,660
And he'd fucking reach into his
688
01:01:39,810 --> 01:01:42,743
coat pocket or his pants
and pull out, he goes...
689
01:01:43,344 --> 01:01:45,169
He'd pull out, like,
two huge bags of cocaine,
690
01:01:45,319 --> 01:01:48,674
and he goes, "I've got bags of
this shit. " And we would fucking...
691
01:01:48,824 --> 01:01:50,738
All of us would go back
to the back of the bus
692
01:01:50,887 --> 01:01:52,941
and we would fucking snort cocaine
693
01:01:53,091 --> 01:01:56,251
for fucking, you know,
10-hour bus rides.
694
01:01:57,491 --> 01:01:59,514
And we're walking into the hotels
like the Four Seasons
695
01:01:59,663 --> 01:02:02,082
or the Ritz-Carltons
where, you know, Mom and Dad...
696
01:02:02,232 --> 01:02:04,123
"We're a happy family,
we're out by the pool,"
697
01:02:04,272 --> 01:02:05,753
and everybody's like...
Their little resort.
698
01:02:05,902 --> 01:02:09,199
And here comes M�tley Cr�e and Ozzy,
just fucking blasted.
699
01:02:11,539 --> 01:02:14,934
And it was this
who-can-out-gross contest,
700
01:02:15,083 --> 01:02:17,081
which Nikki kind of started.
701
01:02:17,231 --> 01:02:20,200
And all of a sudden, we're sitting
out by the pool having drinks,
702
01:02:20,350 --> 01:02:22,139
and Nikki pisses on the ground
703
01:02:22,288 --> 01:02:25,480
and goes to lick up his own piss
to freak Ozzy out.
704
01:02:25,686 --> 01:02:28,378
Ozzy beats him to the punch
and starts licking up Nikki's piss.
705
01:02:28,527 --> 01:02:32,050
And we're like, "Oh, fuck!
706
01:02:32,259 --> 01:02:34,693
"This is fucked up.
What is wrong with you two?"
707
01:02:36,330 --> 01:02:38,521
And the hotel was freaking out.
708
01:02:38,671 --> 01:02:40,289
Security's kicking us
out of the pool.
709
01:02:40,439 --> 01:02:42,491
They're doing the out-gross contest.
710
01:02:42,640 --> 01:02:45,128
Snorting ants,
fucking licking up each other's piss.
711
01:02:45,606 --> 01:02:47,966
And I'm like, "Dude,
let's just go to the fucking room.
712
01:02:48,115 --> 01:02:51,267
"Let's just chill out. Come on. "
"And the fucking... Fucking... "
713
01:02:51,417 --> 01:02:54,137
And he's just going...
I'm like, "Dude, please. "
714
01:02:54,287 --> 01:02:57,479
I just fucking grab him, "Come on!"
Take him to the elevator,
715
01:02:57,818 --> 01:03:00,645
I find his room, put the key in.
I'm like, "Okay, bud. "
716
01:03:00,795 --> 01:03:04,346
I push the door, like, "Okay, bud,
you're in your room. Hey, bye. "
717
01:03:04,496 --> 01:03:06,885
He's like,
"No, fucking come here, mate. "
718
01:03:07,035 --> 01:03:09,690
And I'm like,
"Fuck, I almost got out of here. "
719
01:03:09,930 --> 01:03:12,831
And he pulls me into his room,
pulls his pants down,
720
01:03:13,467 --> 01:03:16,061
and just shits on the fucking floor.
721
01:03:17,905 --> 01:03:21,864
A fucking big shit on the floor.
And I'm like...
722
01:03:22,910 --> 01:03:26,069
I'm like, "Okay, dude, I gotta go. "
"No, fucking come... "
723
01:03:26,218 --> 01:03:28,169
And he fucking drags me back in,
724
01:03:28,318 --> 01:03:30,771
and now he picks up the shit,
and he's got it in his hands,
725
01:03:30,921 --> 01:03:34,111
and he's just smearing it all over
the walls of his fucking hotel room.
726
01:03:34,260 --> 01:03:37,622
I'm like, "Dude, I gotta go.
This is fucked up. "
727
01:03:38,325 --> 01:03:43,452
I just remember turning around
and I just saw his back,
728
01:03:43,602 --> 01:03:45,755
and he was just painting
with his shit on the walls,
729
01:03:45,905 --> 01:03:48,426
and I just fucking was like,
"Now is my chance. "
730
01:03:48,636 --> 01:03:50,428
And I fucking pinned it
out of there, dude.
731
01:03:50,577 --> 01:03:53,095
I was like, "This is
on some other next level shit.
732
01:03:53,244 --> 01:03:56,472
"Like, I'm not really ready
to compete at this level.
733
01:03:56,911 --> 01:04:00,403
"I'm cool
with taking a shit in the toilet. "
734
01:04:05,619 --> 01:04:10,043
I think
that Ozzy's behaviour in the '80s,
735
01:04:10,193 --> 01:04:14,300
I think it's a fact of everything
Ozzy had always lost.
736
01:04:14,449 --> 01:04:17,761
You know, he lost Sabbath,
737
01:04:18,299 --> 01:04:21,530
he lost his first wife,
he lost his first kids.
738
01:04:21,936 --> 01:04:24,959
Everything would come and go.
739
01:04:25,109 --> 01:04:29,867
So, he was fucking everything
that fucking had a pulse,
740
01:04:30,017 --> 01:04:32,404
sniffing everything he could sniff.
741
01:04:32,554 --> 01:04:34,603
Because he thought
that it was all going to end,
742
01:04:34,752 --> 01:04:38,344
so he was going to go out with a...
You know, on a high.
743
01:04:50,064 --> 01:04:51,588
I hated this video.
744
01:04:52,233 --> 01:04:54,428
So fucking lame.
745
01:04:58,138 --> 01:05:00,065
I don't like it. Fucking...
746
01:05:00,214 --> 01:05:03,005
Everybody was fucked up
and drunk and everything.
747
01:05:04,511 --> 01:05:06,135
When I look at it,
I don't even remember
748
01:05:06,284 --> 01:05:08,738
what drugs I was addicted to
at the fucking time.
749
01:05:12,319 --> 01:05:13,911
So, next! Come on.
750
01:05:31,272 --> 01:05:34,366
It's a clich�d fucking '80s video.
751
01:05:41,282 --> 01:05:43,307
I can't remember
doing this fucking thing.
752
01:05:43,584 --> 01:05:47,012
I was a mess in the '80s.
I was doing fucking morphine,
753
01:05:47,162 --> 01:05:52,247
Vicodin, fucking booze.
All kinds of shit, really.
754
01:05:52,397 --> 01:05:55,556
I can't remember.
I just can't remember it at all.
755
01:05:56,830 --> 01:05:57,819
Never happened.
756
01:06:02,870 --> 01:06:04,132
Next.
757
01:06:13,414 --> 01:06:14,403
Hokey.
758
01:06:18,786 --> 01:06:21,254
"Whose idea was this?"
How the fuck do I know?
759
01:06:21,789 --> 01:06:26,158
It's just boring. I find it hard
to go back there and look at it.
760
01:06:26,794 --> 01:06:28,318
I don't want to go back there,
you know.
761
01:06:36,503 --> 01:06:37,828
Where are you going?
762
01:06:37,978 --> 01:06:41,271
Have a walk around,
than fucking watch this shit.
763
01:07:48,842 --> 01:07:50,207
Let's get on with this.
764
01:07:50,377 --> 01:07:54,002
Yes. What does it feel like tonight?
- Come on.
765
01:07:54,152 --> 01:07:56,457
You have a tour starting tomorrow.
766
01:07:56,606 --> 01:07:59,074
Is it always like this
or is this an exception?
767
01:08:02,790 --> 01:08:06,590
Yeah. Yeah, it is. Come on, come on.
768
01:08:08,896 --> 01:08:09,988
Yeah.
769
01:08:12,066 --> 01:08:14,796
No... It's like we do...
770
01:08:16,336 --> 01:08:19,169
Sixteen days ago,
we got over from Japan.
771
01:08:23,510 --> 01:08:29,340
When Ozzy was drunk,
he was fucked up beyond belief.
772
01:08:29,490 --> 01:08:31,506
I mean, to the point where
773
01:08:31,655 --> 01:08:35,076
he would drink
until he couldn't drink any more.
774
01:08:35,856 --> 01:08:37,878
Where he would be unconscious...
775
01:08:38,028 --> 01:08:39,350
That's the only thing
that would stop him drinking.
776
01:08:39,500 --> 01:08:41,223
He'd be unconscious or asleep.
777
01:08:42,563 --> 01:08:47,193
He was blacking out, he was drinking
and going unconscious on the floor.
778
01:08:48,302 --> 01:08:50,161
He couldn't move.
His eyes would be open.
779
01:08:50,311 --> 01:08:52,363
But he would be, like, unconscious.
It was weird.
780
01:08:56,176 --> 01:08:59,111
I passed out with a bottle
of fucking Vicodin in my mouth.
781
01:09:00,614 --> 01:09:05,207
Mainly, I was concerned about him
choking on his vomit,
782
01:09:05,356 --> 01:09:07,583
falling asleep when he was drunk,
and choking on his vomit.
783
01:09:13,927 --> 01:09:16,794
This is me at my stag night,
I'm fucking blasted.
784
01:09:23,604 --> 01:09:26,334
I think it was in Memphis,
Ozzy disappeared.
785
01:09:28,642 --> 01:09:30,535
He got found in the middle
of a freeway.
786
01:09:30,685 --> 01:09:32,768
He crossed over half of a freeway
and stopped in the middle
787
01:09:32,917 --> 01:09:35,348
and he was
in the central reservation.
788
01:09:35,849 --> 01:09:37,208
And he was sleeping and he woke up
789
01:09:37,357 --> 01:09:39,210
and he had to get across
the other half.
790
01:09:39,360 --> 01:09:41,409
I mean,
how he didn't get knocked over,
791
01:09:41,559 --> 01:09:43,683
'cause he was absolutely shit-faced.
792
01:09:47,027 --> 01:09:49,235
That's when
I clocked Sharon, I think.
793
01:09:49,385 --> 01:09:51,058
Really?
- I think so.
794
01:09:51,999 --> 01:09:54,365
We were always fucking
fighting with each other.
795
01:09:55,969 --> 01:09:58,233
That's when I smacked Sharon
in the eye.
796
01:09:59,139 --> 01:10:00,663
Over what, I don't know.
797
01:10:02,442 --> 01:10:05,803
It had been coming for a while.
Ozzy was on a bender.
798
01:10:05,953 --> 01:10:09,576
You know, he was really on a roll.
799
01:10:12,352 --> 01:10:16,247
He'd been very bad
for the last couple of weeks.
800
01:10:16,397 --> 01:10:19,014
And we'd had a couple of fights where
801
01:10:19,164 --> 01:10:22,853
we'd beaten each other
and it was nasty.
802
01:10:23,002 --> 01:10:25,397
But you kind of get...
803
01:10:25,999 --> 01:10:28,893
When, anyone who knows,
who lives with an addict,
804
01:10:29,043 --> 01:10:31,896
that there are times
when it's worse than others,
805
01:10:32,046 --> 01:10:33,932
and it was just
building to something.
806
01:10:34,082 --> 01:10:36,805
You could just feel it
in the atmosphere between us.
807
01:10:37,477 --> 01:10:40,071
And my God, it did.
808
01:10:42,983 --> 01:10:47,559
I put the kids to bed,
was sat down, I was reading.
809
01:10:47,708 --> 01:10:50,885
And he came in. He'd been lying down.
810
01:10:51,425 --> 01:10:54,394
He'd actually drunk himself
into one of those
811
01:10:55,162 --> 01:10:57,187
coma-zone things on the bed.
812
01:10:57,497 --> 01:11:01,758
He'd passed out.
And woke up, came downstairs,
813
01:11:01,907 --> 01:11:07,063
and I knew when he came in that
he was looking for trouble.
814
01:11:07,212 --> 01:11:11,266
And Ozzy is very rarely calm.
815
01:11:11,416 --> 01:11:13,069
Very calm in his eyes,
816
01:11:13,218 --> 01:11:15,371
a kind of shutter
had gone down on his eyes,
817
01:11:15,521 --> 01:11:18,144
you couldn't really...
818
01:11:18,485 --> 01:11:22,611
I had no idea who
was sat across from me on the sofa,
819
01:11:22,761 --> 01:11:24,884
but it wasn't my husband.
820
01:11:27,094 --> 01:11:30,185
And then he just said that
he'd made a... They had come.
821
01:11:30,334 --> 01:11:36,059
He said they've made a decision that
I had to die. And I'm like, "They?"
822
01:11:36,209 --> 01:11:38,895
"Yes, they've made the decision.
We've made the decision.
823
01:11:39,044 --> 01:11:40,961
"You're gonna have to die. "
824
01:11:41,110 --> 01:11:43,508
And then he just
825
01:11:44,978 --> 01:11:47,535
got up from the sofa
and just dived on me
826
01:11:47,685 --> 01:11:50,208
and started to choke me.
827
01:11:50,584 --> 01:11:51,881
Fabulous!
828
01:11:54,321 --> 01:11:56,979
All I remember was waking up
in Amersham jail.
829
01:11:57,128 --> 01:11:59,820
And I asked the cop why I was there.
830
01:12:00,394 --> 01:12:02,517
"Excuse me," I asked him,
"Why am I here?"
831
01:12:02,667 --> 01:12:05,530
He says,
"You want me to read your charge?"
832
01:12:05,732 --> 01:12:08,925
So he read,
"John Michael has been arrested
833
01:12:09,074 --> 01:12:11,429
"for attempted murder
of Sharon Osbourne. "
834
01:12:11,579 --> 01:12:13,965
I'm like, "Is this a joke?"
835
01:12:14,115 --> 01:12:17,767
He says, "I'm not joking.
You'll go to court in a minute. "
836
01:12:17,916 --> 01:12:22,042
That hit me like a fucking hammer
in between the eyes.
837
01:12:22,549 --> 01:12:27,077
I remember getting this dull
feeling in my heart.
838
01:12:29,256 --> 01:12:32,589
I didn't know whether she was
in hospital or what I had done.
839
01:12:48,275 --> 01:12:51,636
I know where we are.
That's where we used to rehearse.
840
01:12:51,785 --> 01:12:53,906
That's where
we used to rehearse, there.
841
01:12:55,515 --> 01:12:58,038
That's the pub I used to go to,
right over there.
842
01:12:58,188 --> 01:13:01,810
Down there is Witton Road.
I used to walk all the way up here
843
01:13:01,960 --> 01:13:05,449
to Lucas car factory every day to go
to work with my mum.
844
01:13:06,827 --> 01:13:08,920
Fucking hell!
845
01:13:10,664 --> 01:13:13,326
We are just coming up to
Lodge Road now.
846
01:13:23,377 --> 01:13:24,639
Fucking hell, man!
847
01:13:25,912 --> 01:13:29,814
It's so small, it's unbelievable.
I can't believe how small it is.
848
01:13:30,717 --> 01:13:32,685
Fucking Jesus Christ!
849
01:13:33,387 --> 01:13:36,879
When I was a kid, it used to be like
the longest road in the world.
850
01:13:39,760 --> 01:13:41,619
When you are a young kid
and you get successful like I did,
851
01:13:41,769 --> 01:13:43,919
you get very arrogant,
and your ego runs away.
852
01:13:44,069 --> 01:13:48,490
You think it's you, you know.
You forget your upbringing...
853
01:13:49,936 --> 01:13:52,370
Took me till now
to kind of realise that, you know.
854
01:13:55,776 --> 01:13:56,834
Wow!
855
01:13:58,345 --> 01:13:59,539
Wow!
856
01:14:01,982 --> 01:14:03,813
This is...
857
01:14:06,686 --> 01:14:08,745
Wow, this is unbelievable.
858
01:14:10,390 --> 01:14:13,188
It is amazing. Wow!
859
01:14:14,828 --> 01:14:16,853
That was Mrs Clarke's shop
I broke into.
860
01:14:20,133 --> 01:14:22,294
That was my bedroom up there.
861
01:14:23,703 --> 01:14:25,259
As my sisters... Most of my family...
862
01:14:25,408 --> 01:14:27,631
My sisters would get old
and get married.
863
01:14:27,780 --> 01:14:30,642
You're allowed to go into the back
room. You have it to yourself.
864
01:14:32,045 --> 01:14:33,774
And this is about right here.
865
01:14:35,215 --> 01:14:38,651
I lived in here for a while,
and this is unbelievable.
866
01:14:50,797 --> 01:14:54,255
I hated school. I fucking hated it.
867
01:14:57,471 --> 01:15:01,529
I have dreadful,
dreadfully bad dyslexia.
868
01:15:01,679 --> 01:15:05,300
When I was at school,
nobody knew what it was about.
869
01:15:05,450 --> 01:15:08,904
When somebody goes,
"Look, one plus one equals two. "
870
01:15:09,149 --> 01:15:12,710
And you look at him, you go,
"What the fuck does 'one' mean?"
871
01:15:12,986 --> 01:15:15,076
I couldn't retain any information.
872
01:15:15,225 --> 01:15:18,021
My attention deficit was so bad,
still is.
873
01:15:18,758 --> 01:15:20,848
I go rambling on, you know.
874
01:15:20,998 --> 01:15:23,896
I don't know what I'm talking about
half the time. I just talk.
875
01:15:27,133 --> 01:15:29,124
I was very low on self-esteem.
876
01:15:29,769 --> 01:15:32,101
I used to get picked on by bullies.
877
01:15:32,539 --> 01:15:34,973
It just pushed me further
inside myself.
878
01:16:10,544 --> 01:16:13,235
Where you came from,
did everyone drink?
879
01:16:13,385 --> 01:16:14,801
Coming from the background
that I come from,
880
01:16:14,950 --> 01:16:17,972
I thought that was what you do.
881
01:16:18,121 --> 01:16:21,811
You get successful, you get married,
you have kids, you go to the pub.
882
01:16:21,961 --> 01:16:23,978
I used to think everybody,
883
01:16:24,127 --> 01:16:26,081
as they get older,
gets fucking pissed.
884
01:16:26,526 --> 01:16:29,921
The first time I got drunk was...
I was about 14.
885
01:16:30,071 --> 01:16:33,256
I drank it and I got the feeling...
886
01:16:33,405 --> 01:16:35,800
I drank till I pissed my pants
in this fucking pub.
887
01:16:36,036 --> 01:16:38,800
And then that's the way I...
From the first drink,
888
01:16:39,272 --> 01:16:42,503
I didn't drink for the drink,
I drank to get the effect.
889
01:16:42,943 --> 01:16:45,933
How many rehabs?
- I've been in a bunch of...
890
01:16:46,082 --> 01:16:49,345
Between detoxes and rehab,
this would be at 10 or 12.
891
01:16:49,716 --> 01:16:55,211
Ozzy tried to get sober, I would say,
between 40 to 50 times.
892
01:16:56,022 --> 01:17:01,352
But he had been
in and out of rehabs about...
893
01:17:01,501 --> 01:17:05,261
I can think of 10 different rehabs
he went to, over the period of time.
894
01:17:06,232 --> 01:17:08,721
I used to go 90 days.
895
01:17:08,871 --> 01:17:12,066
I'd go, "Fuck this, it's crap!"
And go out and get fucked up again.
896
01:17:12,339 --> 01:17:13,962
One minute
he'd be sitting here sober,
897
01:17:14,112 --> 01:17:16,164
the next minute you'd see him,
he'd be fucked up.
898
01:17:16,313 --> 01:17:20,233
He would disappear somewhere, or he
would go to the fridge and get a beer
899
01:17:20,383 --> 01:17:22,713
or he'd go for a walk up the drive
to the pub.
900
01:17:23,683 --> 01:17:27,078
I just knew the cycle. It would be
my dad would go to treatment,
901
01:17:27,228 --> 01:17:29,744
he'd stay sober
for maybe 60 days, tops.
902
01:17:29,893 --> 01:17:32,115
And then he would start
messing around with pills.
903
01:17:32,264 --> 01:17:35,052
And then
he would do that for a while,
904
01:17:35,201 --> 01:17:37,684
and then he would just
go right to the drink.
905
01:17:37,834 --> 01:17:40,459
And then it would get really bad,
then he'd go back to treatment.
906
01:17:41,034 --> 01:17:44,834
I don't actually believe
that he was ever fully sober.
907
01:17:45,505 --> 01:17:48,201
He was just drunk.
He was just not a dad.
908
01:17:48,942 --> 01:17:51,217
He was drunk
and he was fucked up all the time.
909
01:17:51,367 --> 01:17:53,771
I came home from school
every single day
910
01:17:53,921 --> 01:17:56,037
to see him lying on a couch,
911
01:17:56,187 --> 01:17:58,441
drooling with a pill bottle
on the floor
912
01:17:58,591 --> 01:18:02,715
or a vodka bottle on the floor,
or, you know...
913
01:18:04,958 --> 01:18:07,893
Opening up the oven
to make a cake with my friends
914
01:18:08,294 --> 01:18:11,923
to find that that's where my dad
hid the bottles of alcohol.
915
01:18:12,132 --> 01:18:14,857
One thing about drugs and alcohol,
they make you lie.
916
01:18:15,007 --> 01:18:17,457
You start lying
and covering up your tracks,
917
01:18:17,606 --> 01:18:19,362
and hiding things and fucking...
918
01:18:19,511 --> 01:18:21,664
I used to wait for the guy
to drop my drugs off,
919
01:18:21,813 --> 01:18:25,074
and I'd be running in and out
of the fucking house all day long,
920
01:18:25,412 --> 01:18:29,610
thinking that nobody would suspect I
was waiting for dope to be delivered.
921
01:18:38,591 --> 01:18:41,080
When The Osbournes first started,
922
01:18:41,230 --> 01:18:45,652
he was probably
at his worst peak of drinking.
923
01:18:45,801 --> 01:18:48,063
I mean, like, pretty much
going through the worst times.
924
01:18:49,002 --> 01:18:52,194
That you pick up the fucking
phone and call in.
925
01:18:52,344 --> 01:18:56,207
That was the worst thing I'd ever do.
They were never off the phone.
926
01:18:56,776 --> 01:18:59,870
Sometimes, you know, he'd be popping
pills from numerous, different
927
01:19:00,513 --> 01:19:03,448
disgusting doctors that would give
him whatever he wanted.
928
01:19:04,784 --> 01:19:06,143
I don't know, sometimes
he'd be on downers,
929
01:19:06,292 --> 01:19:09,647
sometimes he'd be on uppers.
So, that obviously
930
01:19:09,797 --> 01:19:13,453
will make anyone behave
a little bit off and scary sometimes.
931
01:19:13,860 --> 01:19:16,488
Why do we have three brown fingers?
932
01:19:18,264 --> 01:19:19,561
Three brown...
933
01:19:23,803 --> 01:19:26,601
Because I put brown dye in my hair.
934
01:19:27,340 --> 01:19:29,964
I think it was affecting...
Well, it was affecting his speech.
935
01:19:30,114 --> 01:19:32,099
It was affecting the way he walked.
936
01:19:32,248 --> 01:19:37,479
It was affecting the way he stood.
It was just... Everything.
937
01:19:38,218 --> 01:19:42,141
Part of his fame
came from how he looked.
938
01:19:42,291 --> 01:19:44,450
People thought it was funny,
thought it was cute.
939
01:19:46,693 --> 01:19:48,684
What the fuck's this shit?
940
01:19:50,630 --> 01:19:53,098
This is not allowed.
What's happened to it?
941
01:19:53,533 --> 01:19:56,427
How do you get this fucking thing on?
942
01:19:56,577 --> 01:20:00,027
What they thought was funny
was kind of sad, because
943
01:20:00,176 --> 01:20:04,338
he was actually destroying himself
and also destroying the family.
944
01:20:04,744 --> 01:20:09,238
There's hours and hours of footage
of stuff that just couldn't show.
945
01:20:10,183 --> 01:20:12,777
It was too real.
946
01:20:13,787 --> 01:20:16,546
Granted, yes, The Osbournes
was not scripted,
947
01:20:16,695 --> 01:20:19,466
but people don't wanna sit home
on MTV
948
01:20:19,615 --> 01:20:24,325
and watch alcoholism
tear apart a family.
949
01:20:25,799 --> 01:20:27,990
When we first started filming
The Osbournes,
950
01:20:28,140 --> 01:20:29,724
it was no secret my dad did drugs.
951
01:20:29,874 --> 01:20:33,033
He was an addict, but he was kind of
a functioning addict.
952
01:20:34,274 --> 01:20:36,397
But when my mum was diagnosed
with cancer,
953
01:20:36,547 --> 01:20:38,238
it very quickly...
954
01:20:39,779 --> 01:20:42,646
He was out of control.
955
01:20:43,550 --> 01:20:45,541
Out of control.
956
01:20:45,952 --> 01:20:49,077
He never came out of his room,
that we called the bunker.
957
01:20:49,227 --> 01:20:52,317
He couldn't stand up straight.
He couldn't walk properly.
958
01:20:53,193 --> 01:20:56,424
He couldn't hear.
He shook, he stuttered.
959
01:20:58,031 --> 01:21:01,762
Everything that you could imagine.
I mean, he was a zombie.
960
01:21:05,405 --> 01:21:07,427
I was taking drugs, too.
961
01:21:07,577 --> 01:21:10,367
During that time when my mum
had cancer, I was using, too.
962
01:21:10,516 --> 01:21:12,870
I got through that experience
963
01:21:13,019 --> 01:21:15,539
by hiding my emotions
through using drugs.
964
01:21:16,850 --> 01:21:20,210
I'll get you a bottle of water,
just sip on the water.
965
01:21:20,360 --> 01:21:22,213
I've got that interview on the phone.
966
01:21:22,362 --> 01:21:24,715
On the phone?
- She's holding on.
967
01:21:24,865 --> 01:21:27,418
I had to hang up
'cause I was throwing up.
968
01:21:28,628 --> 01:21:31,426
Let me get a bottle of water.
969
01:21:31,831 --> 01:21:33,488
Jack and Kelly started using
970
01:21:33,638 --> 01:21:37,661
and doing drugs and alcohol
and whatever at a very early age.
971
01:21:40,874 --> 01:21:42,671
Things started happening
in my family.
972
01:21:43,543 --> 01:21:47,240
I mean, it was my son Jack
who got sober first.
973
01:21:47,780 --> 01:21:52,508
When I'd got sober,
we sat at a table and he's like,
974
01:21:52,658 --> 01:21:56,041
"I threw away all my pain medication
the other day. "
975
01:21:56,191 --> 01:21:58,914
And I was like, "Well, why did you
have them in the first place?"
976
01:21:59,064 --> 01:22:01,994
And this whole argument erupted.
977
01:22:02,795 --> 01:22:08,457
And one excuse my dad always went to
when he was getting messed up was,
978
01:22:08,606 --> 01:22:10,661
"You guys never needed for anything.
979
01:22:10,937 --> 01:22:13,633
"Whatever you wanted, I gave you. "
980
01:22:14,407 --> 01:22:17,706
I said to him, "What the fuck are you
always pissed off at me for?
981
01:22:18,177 --> 01:22:20,835
"You've never, ever wanted
for a fucking thing
982
01:22:20,985 --> 01:22:23,436
"from the moment
you took your first breath. "
983
01:22:23,585 --> 01:22:26,640
And he went,
"Oh, yeah? What about a father?"
984
01:22:26,790 --> 01:22:28,376
And that hit me straight
between the eyes,
985
01:22:28,526 --> 01:22:31,911
like fucking David and Goliath,
when he gets that slingshot.
986
01:22:32,060 --> 01:22:35,620
It knocked me on my eyes.
I'm just, "Fucking hell!"
987
01:22:38,097 --> 01:22:40,322
I honestly think that
988
01:22:40,472 --> 01:22:44,995
the turning point for Ozzy
was Jack's sobriety.
989
01:22:45,571 --> 01:22:49,632
Jack learned
how to deal with life sober.
990
01:22:49,909 --> 01:22:53,467
And I think it shamed Ozzy
that he couldn't do it.
991
01:22:53,616 --> 01:22:56,569
He could never get it,
and that's what was
992
01:22:56,719 --> 01:22:59,413
his big turning point in life.
993
01:23:05,692 --> 01:23:08,518
That was the start of the journey
of him being sober.
994
01:23:08,668 --> 01:23:10,853
The evidence proves the fact,
'cause he hasn't drunk
995
01:23:11,002 --> 01:23:13,489
or abused for over five years now.
996
01:23:14,400 --> 01:23:16,923
I'm clean, I'm sober. I don't smoke.
I don't do drugs.
997
01:23:17,073 --> 01:23:20,296
I don't do alcohol any more.
I haven't done for a long while
998
01:23:20,445 --> 01:23:23,666
but I like being sober,
I like being straight.
999
01:23:23,815 --> 01:23:26,006
I don't want to smoke
tobacco any more.
1000
01:23:27,413 --> 01:23:29,436
He blew us all away.
I mean, we didn't...
1001
01:23:29,585 --> 01:23:32,426
None of us ever thought he'd maintain
it for as long as he has now.
1002
01:23:32,576 --> 01:23:35,419
And it really seems like
he has come through the other side.
1003
01:23:36,522 --> 01:23:38,679
When you really let go, it's like
1004
01:23:38,829 --> 01:23:42,816
somebody takes a chain off you
and you just go...
1005
01:23:42,965 --> 01:23:46,886
When you're involved in it,
you don't realise
1006
01:23:47,036 --> 01:23:49,992
how much hard work it is
to be a fucking alcoholic.
1007
01:23:51,170 --> 01:23:54,964
But it's when you get fed up
with you behaving the way you do.
1008
01:23:55,114 --> 01:23:57,400
I mean, there's sometimes when I go,
"Is this what it's all about?
1009
01:23:57,550 --> 01:23:59,671
"I want to get fucked up,"
but I don't.
1010
01:24:00,580 --> 01:24:02,602
His face is alive.
1011
01:24:02,752 --> 01:24:08,613
And he stands up straight and he
walks tall and with confidence,
1012
01:24:08,762 --> 01:24:10,878
and he's not ashamed of himself
any more.
1013
01:24:11,028 --> 01:24:15,082
He has nothing to hide any more and
he has nothing to lie about any more.
1014
01:24:15,232 --> 01:24:18,925
Which makes him...
1015
01:24:19,298 --> 01:24:21,391
I think he's really proud of himself.
1016
01:24:22,435 --> 01:24:26,166
I think it's the first time
he's proud of himself.
1017
01:24:27,440 --> 01:24:30,500
Do you like it, being clean?
- I like it, yeah.
1018
01:24:30,777 --> 01:24:35,538
With a bit of time, you start to go,
1019
01:24:35,688 --> 01:24:37,671
"What did I ever think about
that was fun?
1020
01:24:37,820 --> 01:24:39,840
"What was fucking fun about
waking up in a police station
1021
01:24:39,989 --> 01:24:41,544
"or in the back
of a fucking police car?"
1022
01:24:41,854 --> 01:24:44,880
I have a laugh now.
I mean, naturally.
1023
01:24:47,260 --> 01:24:49,749
If I could sprinkle this
on the fucking world,
1024
01:24:49,898 --> 01:24:52,023
it would be a much better place.
1025
01:24:57,637 --> 01:25:02,095
I spent 19 years of my life praying
that I would wake up one day
1026
01:25:02,244 --> 01:25:04,230
and have the father I have today.
1027
01:25:04,380 --> 01:25:07,299
And most people can't turn around and
say that that has happened for them,
1028
01:25:07,449 --> 01:25:10,211
and it happened for me and I love...
1029
01:25:10,516 --> 01:25:14,748
I am so proud of him,
because I know how hard it is.
1030
01:25:14,954 --> 01:25:18,011
I think it's fucking fantastic.
Our relationship has improved a lot
1031
01:25:18,161 --> 01:25:19,815
over the last few years
since he has been sober.
1032
01:25:19,964 --> 01:25:23,720
I'm actually quite amazed
at how fit he is
1033
01:25:23,870 --> 01:25:26,223
and how more astute he is
than he was.
1034
01:25:26,373 --> 01:25:29,563
He has changed a lot.
1035
01:25:30,169 --> 01:25:32,326
He's lost a lot of weight.
1036
01:25:32,476 --> 01:25:35,782
He's very health conscious,
he works out nearly every day.
1037
01:25:35,931 --> 01:25:38,268
Ozzy's grown up, you know.
1038
01:25:38,417 --> 01:25:42,370
It took him longer than most people,
but he's got there. He's here.
1039
01:25:42,748 --> 01:25:46,741
He works really hard for his sobriety
and he deserves it.
1040
01:25:48,721 --> 01:25:50,746
Sobriety's totally changed him
as a person.
1041
01:25:51,958 --> 01:25:54,948
He just seems like he's
a lot more at ease with himself.
1042
01:25:55,097 --> 01:25:58,051
You know, whereas before,
he was just all over the place.
1043
01:25:58,200 --> 01:26:04,125
Now he'll just sit with his
headphones on quietly, just drawing.
1044
01:26:09,942 --> 01:26:14,470
It's not art.
I do it for therapeutic reasons.
1045
01:26:15,414 --> 01:26:19,748
I just find it stops my head of
hand grenades going off, you know,
1046
01:26:20,520 --> 01:26:24,752
because it slows my head down.
I've always worried...
1047
01:26:24,924 --> 01:26:27,317
Sometimes, I worry
'cause I got nothing to worry about.
1048
01:26:27,467 --> 01:26:29,587
That's how bad it is, sometimes.
1049
01:26:42,141 --> 01:26:45,665
I don't go to bed at night thinking,
"I shouldn't have painted that,
1050
01:26:45,815 --> 01:26:47,502
"because people are going
to get pissed off at me
1051
01:26:47,652 --> 01:26:49,638
"and they ain't going
to buy another painting. "
1052
01:26:51,017 --> 01:26:56,043
Out of all this chaos and all this
anxiety I live in, all this fear,
1053
01:26:56,192 --> 01:26:59,882
it stops everything in its tracks,
and it's mine.
1054
01:27:00,031 --> 01:27:03,651
And so when you ask me
a question about it, I have no answer
1055
01:27:03,801 --> 01:27:06,254
because I don't think of anything
more than it's mine.
1056
01:27:15,675 --> 01:27:19,469
He really talked for years about
wanting to have his driving licence
1057
01:27:19,619 --> 01:27:21,736
and never thought he could do it.
1058
01:27:21,885 --> 01:27:26,277
He wouldn't have been able to do it
in his drinking days, obviously,
1059
01:27:26,426 --> 01:27:29,375
but since he had become sober
he had talked about it quite a lot,
1060
01:27:29,524 --> 01:27:31,786
about getting his driving licence.
1061
01:27:40,967 --> 01:27:44,958
I'm getting my licence so I don't
feel like a terminal prisoner,
1062
01:27:45,107 --> 01:27:48,632
meaning that when everybody
leaves the house, I'm stuck.
1063
01:27:49,508 --> 01:27:51,999
I can't go anywhere.
1064
01:27:54,213 --> 01:27:56,704
It's a way of feeling free.
1065
01:28:00,386 --> 01:28:04,413
I'm dependent on everybody
to drive me wherever I want to go,
1066
01:28:04,590 --> 01:28:07,231
that's the reason why I want
to get a driving licence right there.
1067
01:28:07,381 --> 01:28:09,483
I'm not intoxicated,
I don't want people to say...
1068
01:28:09,633 --> 01:28:12,257
I want a part of my life
where I can say, "I'm in the car,
1069
01:28:12,498 --> 01:28:14,790
"driving my car where I want to go. "
1070
01:28:14,940 --> 01:28:16,456
Not sitting and going...
1071
01:28:16,605 --> 01:28:18,828
Having an argument
with someone over some shit.
1072
01:28:18,977 --> 01:28:23,272
I just want to get the freedom
of being able to drive with my head.
1073
01:28:25,011 --> 01:28:27,536
When I first got successful, right,
1074
01:28:27,713 --> 01:28:31,308
I bought the guns,
the fucking knives,
1075
01:28:31,717 --> 01:28:33,925
the fucking archery sets,
the motorcycles,
1076
01:28:34,075 --> 01:28:38,482
all the things that I felt
I couldn't afford to have
1077
01:28:38,632 --> 01:28:41,092
when I was younger, right?
1078
01:28:41,694 --> 01:28:43,554
So, I got all of that
out of my system.
1079
01:28:43,703 --> 01:28:46,456
Now, I've always really
wanted to drive,
1080
01:28:46,605 --> 01:28:49,591
but I've been too fucked up
to get that way.
1081
01:28:49,869 --> 01:28:53,737
So, I'm fulfilling all the things
that I wanted to do.
1082
01:28:54,774 --> 01:28:57,470
I've had a one-of-a-kind life,
you know.
1083
01:28:58,177 --> 01:29:01,271
I've had a lot
of ups and downs in my life.
1084
01:29:01,647 --> 01:29:05,014
People say if I could change
any one thing, what would I change?
1085
01:29:05,184 --> 01:29:09,848
I don't know. I think
everything's there for a reason.
1086
01:29:10,956 --> 01:29:13,049
And life's a learning process.
1087
01:29:14,827 --> 01:29:18,250
I don't know what
the fucking secret of life is,
1088
01:29:18,399 --> 01:29:22,391
I don't know what the thing is.
I've had a good run, you know.
1089
01:29:23,102 --> 01:29:26,367
I love my wife, I love my family.
1090
01:29:26,706 --> 01:29:30,301
I'm beginning to love me
a lot more than I ever used to.
1091
01:29:31,944 --> 01:29:35,573
First person you should always
learn to love is yourself.
94032
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