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Previously on The Summer I Turned Pretty…

I told everyone that I applied to Finch

because it was a good school,

but truest of all was that I just wanted to be near him.

Now here we are.

We are gonna do this for the rest of our lives.

- I got off the wait list for study abroad. - Paris?

Have you and Conrad started your speech

for the dedication ceremony?

Half of Cousins is coming to see Susannah's memorial garden.

I went to go get my cap and gown and my name wasn't on the list.

I'm not graduating.

We keep coming back to each other.

- It feels like it's never really over. - I got that

- summer clinic job. - Have you ever been in love?

- Once. - So, what was her name?

Belly.

Wait, like, your brother's girlfriend?

Hey, Jere. Look, I am not

gonna be able to make the dedication.

Well, what happens in Cabo stays in Cabo.

Did you hook up

- with Lacie Barone during spring break? - Oh, shit.

It happened when we were on a break. It didn't mean anything to me.

- It means something to me. - I swear to you…

You ruined everything.

♪ Lacy, oh, Lacy ♪

♪ Skin like…

Bells, can we go on a coffee run?

I thought you said you had to get at least a B

on your Media Ethics midterm

or you were so screwed.

Fine. You are no fun.

- Mm. - Mm.

♪ Ever tell you that…

Wait, what's this?

Important flight update for Cabo?

Since when are you going to Cabo?

Yeah, I-I told you about the last-minute flight I booked.

Uh, I think I would have remembered you going to Mexico.

Oh, well, Bells, this is my last spring break,

and you're gonna be in Philly, so…

Yeah, but we said we might meet up in Cousins.

And I thought you were trying to spend more time with your dad.

Okay, don't try to guilt-trip me about my dad.

I just saw him last weekend.

Did something happen with you guys?

You've been kind of moody since then.

Something worse than visiting my dead mom's grave?

- No. - Hey, okay, that's…

That' not fair. I just… I think you're being a little bit selfish.

Okay, sorry. Can you just stop riding me?

If you want to come to Cabo, then just come.

No, I don't want to crash your boys' trip.

It's not just boys. The sororities are going, too.

Oh, so, girls were invited, just not girlfriends? Cool.

Look, I promise I'm not interested in whatever wet T-shirt contest

or whatever it is that you're picturing.

- It's not that. - Then what is it?

What is wrong with you right now?

You're the one who didn't even tell me that you're leaving the country.

Yeah, because you hate anything having to do with frats.

When did I ever say that?

You don't have to. I can feel you judging us.

Sorry if I'm a dumbass who's probably gonna bomb his midterm.

Sorry if I want to have a little fun at spring break and I'm sorry

that I'm not some straight-A overachiever going to med school

- like Conrad. - Oh, my God, what?

Please… please don't put your inferiority complex

- on me. - I wonder where that came from.

Well, didn't start with me, so maybe

- look at your dad. - Wow.

Well, if you think I'm so stupid and selfish, then why are you even with me?

Fuck it. I won't waste your time.

You're being ridiculous right now.

You think everything I do is ridiculous and I'm sick of it,

so let's just end it.

- Are you serious? - Yes.

- I'm serious. - Okay, fine, if that's how you feel.

- It is. - Great, okay, awesome. Bye.

Bye.

I went home for spring break

and we still hadn't talked.

I can't believe it's been five days and he still hasn't texted me.

Haven't you also not texted him?

Yeah, but he's the one who picked the fight out of nowhere.

Why don't you just come with me to New York for a couple of days?

We can, like, run around the city after I crush my interview.

- I'm too depressed. - Stop looking at Instagram.

I just still don't even know what the hell happened.

Let's see.

Okay, I'm heading out.

Bye, Mom.

Well, the good news is he looks emotionally destroyed.

I mean, I knew he was down about his grades, but I…

Just stop obsessing.

You want to know what's going on, why don't you ask him?

- Yeah, but he's the one… - Just talk to him when he gets back.

Guys are like dogs. They hide when they've screwed up.

And even the world's best boyfriend is gonna fuck up sometimes.

You know he feels bad about it. Like, it's Jere.

You're his oxygen. He can't breathe without you.

I really thought Taylor was right.

So when we got back to school,

I went to see him.

Were you really not gonna come find me? I mean, you pick a fight,

walk out the door and I don't hear from you for a week?

I'm a total asshole, Belly.

I fucked up and I fucked up really bad.

Hey. No, it's-it's okay.

No.

No, it's not. I have… I had a shitty week

and I took it out on you.

I'm just sorry… I'm sorry, Belly.

Look, I mean…

we had a fight.

It's not the end of the world.

Does this mean…

does this mean you want to get back together?

We never stopped being together.

Belly,

when I was in Cabo…

I-I thought…

- Hey. - I wish I would've…

I just can't believe I almost lost you over something so stupid.

You could never lose me.

Uh…

Uh…

I got you this.

I was just on the beach and I was just thinking about you.

I didn't even know if we would ever talk again, but…

But it's really stupid

- and you don't have to wear it, but… - No.

I love it.

I love you.

Fucking worthless.

Taylor's here.

- I'm asleep. - Got it.

- She's asleep. - Okay, I just want to talk to her.

I think she should rest right now.

Okay, fine.

This is a breakfast burrito. Extra crispy bacon, the way she likes it.

- Just make sure she eats something. - Okay.

Bye.

Belly, I-I swear, I-I obviously had no idea about Lacie.

You know I would have killed them both for you.

Okay? Please, just call me back.

Like, just call me back.

- Oh, no. I wouldn't - Taylor…

get any closer unless you want your balls cut off.

- Please, just tell me how she is. - I don't know.

She won't talk to me, either. Your side chick is in my sorority,

so now I'm just, like, guilty by association.

Taylor, please hear me out.

No, I have always been on your side.

I was the freaking CEO of Team Jeremiah.

Now to find out that you're this scummy little fucking hot tub cheater…

- it-it's insane. - I didn't cheat, we were on a break.

No, that's bullshit.

You're not getting off on this, like, technicality.

You were broken up for all of two seconds, Jeremiah.

And then you got her this, like, cheap-ass puka shell bracelet to make it up to her.

Like, what are you doing? What are you thinking?

What, you're the expert on cheating now, huh?

- Excuse me? - You heard me.

How are Davis and Mia?

Don't turn it around on me.

You were supposed to be the ideal. You were supposed to deserve her.

But you don't, and th… you probably never did.

Can you get out of here?

Hey, this is Taylor. Leave a message.

Adam called you in for this meeting, too, huh?

Yep. Yeah.

Fun way to spend a Sunday. Hmm?

Sitting in the background while the grown-ups talk.

Did you, uh, get to the dossier I sent you on Friday?

Yep. Yep, yep, yeah, yeah.

So, you saw it's StarcadeX?

StarcadeX…

- Like-like, the gaming start-up? - Oh, my God,

I knew you were a gamer. Jesus, be a bigger nerd cliché, please.

Okay, no, no. Relax.

All right? I used to program that shit.

Computer engineering at Princeton.

- Right. - Remember?

Yes, how could I forget?

It is in your email signature.

- Mm. - Look, just do me a favor, all right?

Read the dossier,

then call your girlfriend.

- Okay? - Yeah. Well, I actually, um…

I actually broke up with my girlfriend.

That was, uh, that was my-my ex.

Well, ex-ex?

- Um… - Oh, my God. No, no, no. Stop immediately.

No. I'm n… No personal stuff.

All right? I'm not the coworker who's gonna be invested in your little dramas.

I don't care.

Yeah.

All right, um…

- StarcadeX? - Every VC shop

is gonna try to move on this company, all right?

So we really need to be on the ball with this.

Copy. Copy. Got you.

Thank you.

You just have to make it to the library.

One thing at a time.

Yeah, but every "thing…"

leads to him.

Like, I-I can't just study,

I also have to call and quit my summer job,

because, obviously, I'm not gonna be in Cousins,

because Jeremiah.

And then I have to figure out how to tell my mom

that I can't bring myself to go to Susannah's memorial

because, again, Jeremiah.

And I might never even go to the summer house again

- because of fucking Jeremiah. - So,

okay, one thing at a time's not gonna work for you.

No. No, nothing's gonna work, because everything is…

Oh, my God.

Hey, you're gonna be okay.

I'll meet you after study group.

It's not just Lacie I can't avoid.

I see Jeremiah everywhere.

♪ Hung all my clothes in the closet you made…

Even when he isn't really there.

♪ I send them your way ♪

♪ Hoping life brings you no ♪

♪ new pain ♪

♪ I rearrange my memories ♪

♪ I try to rewrite our life ♪

♪ But no matter ♪

♪ how I ♪

♪ try to ♪

♪ and no matter ♪

♪ how I ♪

♪ want to ♪

♪ and no matter how easy ♪

♪ things could be if I did ♪

♪ and no matter how guilty ♪

♪ I still feel saying it ♪

♪ I wish I hated you ♪

♪ Our shadows dance in a parallel plane ♪

♪ Just two different endings ♪

♪ You learn to repair ♪

♪ and I learn to keep me in one place…

Everywhere I go, there's a memory of us

from when we were golden.

I'm ready. Yeah.

♪ And no matter how guilty ♪

♪ I still feel saying it…

- So… - * I wish I hated you…

I just need to not be here.

Hi.

Mom, hi. Um, quick question.

Can you send me my birth certificate?

Overnight, if possible?

Hello to you, too, my loving daughter. I'm fine, thanks for asking.

- How are you? - Sorry. How are you, Mom?

At an extremely dull conference.

Which means I am nowhere near your birth certificate.

What do you need it for anyway?

A passport.

I found out I got off the waitlist for Paris.

That's fantastic! Honey, congratulations.

How is Jere taking it?

I know he'll miss you, but he must be so proud.

Yeah. Um…

- Mom, I got to go. - Okay. Love you.

Bro.

You're tweaking. You need to…

level out.

Try some of this new indica I got. It may help ease the pain.

I just lost the most important person in my life.

Sorry if I don't have the energy to be alive.

Oh, you don't think I know about break ups?

I know about break ups. You saw me after Sean.

You two were together for two seconds, Redbird.

- Felt like something to me. - I can't believe I fucked it up this bad.

Dude, I-I-I dig your girl…

I really do… and I say this with love, but…

you two were broken up, right?

And you were wasted as hell and Lacie was all over your shit…

Bro, it is not an excuse!

I should have told her as soon as I got back.

Yeah. Yeah, probably.

Belly's been the center of my world

since I lost my mom.

She's everything to me.

And losing her feels like…

It feels like I'm-I'm losing the best part of myself.

That's beautiful, man.

So fight for her.

Stop saying you're sorry.

Find a way to show her.

You make it sound so easy.

I don't think it's supposed to be.

I just can't believe it.

He acts so devoted, but he is just as shady as the rest.

I swear, if he comes to our dorm,

- it's on sight. - Don't smile, please.

That won't be a problem.

Kind of sucks you're not leaving for Paris tomorrow.

- Do you think I'm being too hard on him? - Look.

If he really thought you were broken up,

technically, it's not cheating.

But to keep it a secret?

That tells me he knew what he did was wrong

and he chose to keep it from you.

That's the part I can't get over.

What Anika didn't know was that I had a secret, too.

It was the day after Christmas, last year.

My mom was at a writer's retreat, Steven was visiting friends,

Jere was going skiing with his dad and Conrad.

I figured, why be home alone when I could be at my favorite place in the world?

So I drove up in Steven's car and went to Cousins.

Ah, shit.

Shit, shit, shit.

Oh, my God. Okay, what would Kevin do?

What would Kevin do?

Okay…

Steven, open up, it's me.

Belly.

You okay?

Yeah, yeah. Sorry.

Just the flash got to me.

- Okay. - Next.

Belly…

No. P-Please, don't leave.

I-I made the biggest mistake of my life.

Please, just talk to me.

I'll tell you anything.

I'll tell you any… I just don't want any more secrets between us.

Okay.

How did it happen?

I-I was really sad. I was drunk.

She was just there.

How many times?

Twice.

- Jere, how could you do this to me? - Belly, please.

I know I don't deserve you, but I love you more than anyone else in the world.

And it kills me to see you hurting, and I would do anything to take it back.

Just stop. You can't undo what you did.

Belly…

Please. I'm sorry.

I'm so sor… I've never loved anyone but you.

I love him, too.

And I want to forgive him, I just don't know how.

You were supposed to be the one person who would never hurt me.

And now you're the person who hurt me the most.

Laurel.

- Eliot. - Hey.

Hey. Wow.

Fancy books you got there.

Oh, yeah, you know, well, I've already read the Moncrieff translation

- twice, so… - As one does.

Yeah.

Yeah, I've decided it's the year that I finally read

À la Recherche du Temps Perdu

in the original French.

Go for it. Live on the edge.

You know, um, you and I, we could start our own book group if, uh,

- If you're interested. - Uh, unfortunately,

Professor Park dropped out of French her first year of college.

John, what are you doing here?

Hoping to have a word with you, in private, Professor.

- Uh… - Okay.

See you later, Eliot?

Uh, sure. Yeah, um…

I'll be at the, uh, Flaubert symposium if you want to drop by.

Okay. Sounds great.

Okay.

- What was that? - So,

TAs are allowed to flirt with professors now?

He's an adjunct.

And maybe I was flirting back.

Well, then I was doing him a favor.

You would have eaten him alive in about five minutes.

What's a history professor doing at a lit conference anyway?

Researching potential crossover courses.

Our provost is looking for ways to make history sexy again.

And a lit conference is definitely the way to do that.

Shoot me dead.

Please make your way into Ballroom B

- for Tropes of Old English Epic Poetry. - Thank you.

That sounds…

- Boring as shit. - Yeah.

Okay.

New plan. We find somewhere to drink this.

- Steal a wine opener. - I can't do that.

Pull your weight.

Okay. Welcome to day one.

By the end of the summer, I expect

half of you will still be here.

Don't piss me off and we'll be fine.

Okay, first patient. We have a 15-year-old boy,

came in following a seizure.

Any thoughts on what might be going on?

I want to start off with our first years.

What do you say?

- Well, it could… - Well…

Uh, could be puberty hormones. He's 15.

- Uh, could also… - He's also recovering from the flu,

and fevers are the most common cause of seizures

- at his age. - Very good.

They also gave him nausea meds at the ER

- and that does increase risk. - Good catch.

Sometimes it's just the obvious answer.

Absolutely. Thank you, Dr. Namazy.

- I'll keep that in mind. - Okay.

Next patient.

Are you trying to make me the med student that gets cut on day one?

I'm sure that's just a myth.

It's fine, I'll take the L. Make it up on the next one.

Look, I know that climbing up Namazy's ass is just a coping mechanism

for your all-consuming love for your brother's girlfriend.

- Why did I tell you that? - Because you were, like, yearning to.

Whatever.

Safest place to hang out at an academic conference is in the hotel gym.

- Nice! - Give me your phone.

- Mine's dead and I want to call the kids. - It's in my room.

Also, the kids are fine. Also…

- you're upside down. - Yes. Yes, I am.

What are you doing?

Getting some things off my chest.

Oh, why did I ask?

You know, even though our marriage went to shit,

we ended up being pretty good co-parents.

Yes, we did.

♪ I've been down one time…

Oh, my God! I just remembered.

Belly called me today to say she's studying abroad next semester

in Paris!

Oh! Do you know

how the Parisian police found Quasimodo?

They followed a hunch.

Please, never tell that joke again.

You used to love my jokes.

You used to laugh so hard, beer would come out your nose.

In fact, wasn't that why you slept with me on our first date?

I was fake laughing.

And I planned to sleep with you all along.

You did?

Mind if I work in?

Uh, no, it's all yours.

Uh, nope, we're done here.

Appreciate it.

Why are you here?

What do you… You haven't responded to my texts all day.

It's… finals.

It's a stressful time.

Tay, are you okay? What's wrong?

Uh, I'm… I'm hungry.

Okay, then let's… let's just grab some food.

Come on, get in.

Okay.

So, uh…

…uh, where do you want to go eat?

I don't know.

What?

Uh,

I broke up with Mia.

I hope you didn't do that for me.

What?

Well, uh…

Sorry.

I just, I thought you'd be happy that I just wanted to be with you.

After-after the other night, sleeping over.

Steven, I… You're wrong,

and I've told you before, I just want this to be casual.

Okay. It's never casual with you and me, Taylor. You know that.

- Oh, my God. - Let's just stop fucking around, you know,

and do it for real so we don't keep hurting other people.

They don't even know about us.

That doesn't matter. It's still messed up.

Taylor, I want you and me to have a fresh start.

You know, free and-and clear and clean.

Steven, we've tried before.

- We've tried a million times. - We were kids then.

- We don't work. It never works. - We were…

Taylor, you are the only girl

- I want to be with. - Oh, my God. What…

- I'm telling you I-I think I love you. - Stop.

Stop! No, don't… I-I-I can't do this.

- What are you talk… - Can you just,

- can you pull over and let me out… - Taylor, pl… Taylor.

- …of the fucking car? - No, Taylor, I need you to listen to me.

- Please. That's all I'm asking for… - Steven, please,

just let me out of the car!

We're in the middle of the road, Taylor.

- I'm not doing that. - I don't care! I want to leave!

Pull over and let me out of the fucking car!

Fine! Fine! Fine! Fuck!

Here, I'm pulling over, okay?

Taylor, what the fuck?

Taylor, I told you I don't want…

Oh, my God.

Taylor.

I'm really sorry.

What happened? Were you with him?

Are you hurt?

What happened?

I… I wasn't in the car.

Okay.

We were arguing…

…and I jumped out,

and he was trying to come after me.

Okay.

What?

What?

Hey, what happened?

It's just my fault.

No, no, no, it's not your fault.

Yes, it is.

You're with Steven Conklin?

Yeah, yeah.

Is he okay?

Uh, Initial scans show a cracked rib

and a cerebral contusion.

Cerebral contusion? What?

It's a bruise on the brain.

We won't know how serious it is until the swelling goes down.

Until then, we'll keep him sedated.

So we just wait and see? Is that it?

There's some paperwork to fill out,

and someone will need to make decisions on his behalf.

Can that be one of you?

I'm his sister.

Sister works.

Okay. Um, what kind of decisions do I…

Uh, it's… it's in the paperwork there.

Uh-huh.

I need to… I need to try my parents again.

- I couldn't reach either of them. - Okay.

I-I will try them. I will do it.

Okay.

I don't know Steven's fucking insurance,

if he's on our parent's insurance or his job.

How am I supposed to know his fucking blood type?

I think… I think I remember Steven bragging about being a universal donor.

Of course, he would brag about anything.

Okay, uh, he… O negative.

He's O negative.

Okay.

- I'm gonna try your parents again. - Okay.

I think I should, uh,

let a few other people know, too.

You want me to call Jere?

I don't know. An hour ago, I wanted to throw up thinking about him,

but now I just…

- I just wish he was here. - Hey.

He would know what to say to make me feel better.

I'm gonna be your Jere today.

Okay, we'll track down your parents.

I will call Jere's dumb ass, too. Okay?

Just… just fill out the paperwork

and leave the rest to me. I'm gonna do it.

Okay. Thank you.

Um, can you call, uh, Conrad, too?

'Cause he just might

understand what all this means.

Yeah, I got you. I'm gonna call Conrad.

Well, I-I'll hop on the next flight.

No, it's fine. Laurel and John

- will probably be here by then. - Okay.

Well, tell me what the doctor said, exactly.

He's kind of a dick. He basically blew us off.

We're-we're trying to get updates,

- but… - Well, maybe I can help.

Where's he admitted?

We're at, um, Provid… Providence General, but

- how? What are you… - I will figure it out.

I just want to do something.

Hey, how's Belly?

She's fine.

Yeah? Okay.

- Yeah. - Yeah.

- Great. - Okay.

Well, just keep me updated, okay?

- Yep, will do. - All right.

Dr. Namazy?

Excuse me.

What's up?

Uh, a friend of mine was in a car accident.

Uh, very close friend.

More like family, and he's at Providence General.

Is there any chance you know anyone in neurology there?

The head of neurology is a friend of a friend.

Well, his name is Steven Conklin.

Do you think there's any possible way that you could make a call?

I'll see what I can do.

Thank you.

Do you think you need to take the day?

Uh, no.

I'm good.

Okay.

Jere's in the lobby.

Yeah, I know, babe.

He just wants to be nearby if we need him.

He's not gonna come try and talk to you,

or anything.

That's so sweet.

Why does he have to be so sweet?

Should I text him?

Isabel Conklin?

Yeah.

I'm Dr. Jun Kwaan. I head up the neurology team.

I'm taking over your brother's case.

Does that mean he's gotten worse?

No, it means someone well-connected is looking out for you.

I got a call from a colleague at Stanford.

Steven is sedated and sleeping.

He's stable, and I've ordered a CT scan.

Have you seen him yet?

Well, let's get you back there.

We allow two visitors, immediate family only,

so I'll presume this is

Steven's other sister. Follow me.

Any news on your friend?

No.

Are you sure you shouldn't just go out there?

I don't know even know what I would do if I did.

It's not like I'm a doctor yet.

Plus, we've barely talked over the last few years.

No cell phones.

Yeah.

How did everything go with those blood draws?

- Good. - Great.

This is mislabeled.

Oh, that's, uh, that's mine. My mistake.

A mistake that put your patient at risk.

- I'll fix it right now. - You should've gone home

when I gave you the chance.

- It won't happen again. - No, it won't.

You're done here. You're not ready for this.

You're firing me for one mistake?

Dr. Namazy, please, I didn't…

You may see this as one mistake,

but this is about you not knowing your limits,

which makes you a walking liability.

My liability.

Dr. Namazy, I…

No.

You can always apply again next year.

Steven, can I tell you a secret?

I've never loved anyone like I love you.

Do you know how scary that is?

I know I act like I don't care,

but I just… I care so, so much.

You know, I'm always afraid that it's just a matter of time

before you come to me and you tell me that I'm not worth it.

You're just gonna be like,

"Actually, you're not worth it."

So I figured if I keep pushing you away

and pretend like you don't mean anything to me,

then you can't hurt me.

And I don't know how to stop doing that.

You know, the first time we got together,

you remember you told me that you were like…

you told me that you wouldn't give up on us?

You have no idea how badly I wanted to believe you.

I have good news. The CT scan is clear.

The CT scan is clear? What does that mean?

The swelling on Steven's brain has gone down

and we can start weaning him off the sedatives.

It'll be a while until he wakes up.

We'll let you know when he's ready for visitors.

- Thank you. - Mm-hmm.

It's okay. He's going to be okay.

I've just been scared.

I'm really sorry to dump this on you.

I know that… I know you don't think that Steven and I should get back together.

- No, I never should've judged you… - You were right.

I've been all over the place.

Like, not wanting to let go of Steven, but still keeping Davis around

as this, like, emotional buffer, it's shitty,

and selfish.

And Steven was trying to do the right thing and I just freaked.

But all this, it's like…

I think…

I think that it made me realize that even though I'm so scared…

I'm so scared to lose Steven again,

I'm… I'm more scared not to try.

I'm gonna… I'm gonna break up with Davis.

Whatever you want to do, I support you.

All right, how rough do I look right now?

Do I look hot?

I'm not gonna lie to you.

I look that bad?

Just go back to the house, eat something.

Shower.

Well, you heard the doctor.

He's not gonna be up for a little while anyway.

Thanks, babe.

Hey…

If you want to get back with Jeremiah, just do it.

I never said that I…

And make him beg, obviously, but…

don't just throw away everything you guys have had for the past four years.

Like, not if it's still what you want.

Okay.

Laur.

We got to get up.

Shut up.

Still not a morning person, huh?

Oh, my eyes are crispy.

Can you bring me some of your contact solution?

Yeah.

Oh, my God.

John, get in here.

Oh, my God, Mom, where were you?

- Belly, I just got your messages. - What is it?

What's going on? Uh, Steven was in an accident?

Is he okay?

He's gonna be fine.

I've been trying to keep it together, but I'm…

I was so scared.

Oh… Shut up.

I can't imagine how terrified you must've been.

I'm s-so, so sorry.

Have you been there all alone?

No, no. Um…

Taylor's here and she's been amazing, and…

And Jere's here. He stayed all night.

Mom, things have been so crazy.

Listen, sweetheart, I'll be there as soon as I can, and, um…

I-I'll track down your dad and let him know.

I love you so much, Belly.

I love you, Mommy.

S-Steven was in a car accident?

- He's okay. - Okay.

- He's gonna be fine. - Fuck.

But Belly couldn't reach either of us last night.

- Oh, it's okay. It's… - Just meet me in the lobby in five.

We hadn't seen each other much over the years,

and we hadn't been alone together since…

Hey.

…that day at the motel.

- Hey. - Hey.

Why are you holding a poker?

Oh, um, I thought you were a burglar.

Of course you did.

Where's Jere?

He and your dad are on their way to Chamonix.

Right.

Aren't you supposed to be meeting them there?

Yeah, my flight got delayed because of the weather.

They were trying to rebook me for the 28th.

Mm.

What are you doing here?

My mom is on a retreat in the mountains and Steven's in New York.

I was all alone at home.

So…

You have chocolate all over your face.

No, I don't.

What did you do? You just stick your whole head in to save time?

Shut it.

Leave me alone.

You cold? I could start a fire.

Actually, I think it's maybe a little late for a fire.

Think I'm just gonna crash.

Merry Christmas, Belly.

It's really good to see you.

You, too.

The next morning, right when I woke up,

I had this funny feeling that he had already left.

Ow.

Ow.

You okay?

Oh, no. Leave me alone.

Are you hurt? Can you move?

I thought you were gone.

Nope.

Still here.

Ow.

Let me help you up.

No, no, no. Ow. Just…

Just… give me a minute.

Okay.

How bad does it hurt on a scale from one to ten?

Eleven.

You're such a baby when it comes to pain.

No, I'm not.

I mean, that fall you took was no joke.

Seriously, it was like…

when animals slip and fall in cartoons on banana peels.

Are you calling me an animal?

Ow.

Ow.

I'm gonna pick you up and I'm gonna carry you to the couch.

No, no, no, just… J-Just… No, just, I'm too heavy for you.

- Just leave me here. - Okay.

I know I can't bench press my body weight like Jere,

but I can pick you up, Belly.

Ready?

Okay, come on.

Okay. Ow.

You're okay.

- Ready? - Ow.

Watch your legs.

Ow.

- You're okay. - Yeah. Ow.

That's when I had this sudden thought.

A part of me will always love you.

We spent the day together, but not "together."

♪ Oh, to see without my eyes…

♪ The first time that you kissed me ♪

♪ Boundless by the time I cried…

"Entertainingly expressive"? H, blank, blank, blank, Y?

"Hammy."

- "Hammy." - Mm.

♪ Fumbling by Rogue River ♪

♪ Feel my feet above the ground…

She was better off with Laszlo.

You're insane. Rick and Ilsa are obviously meant for each other.

Their little love story is nothing

compared to the work that Laszlo was doing for the Resistance.

Oh, my God. What?

I'm gonna get more firewood.

You're way too young to be this cynical.

Yeah, yeah.

- Belly. Belly. - Hey.

Hey, sorry, my reception out here is terrible.

I'm on a mountain freezing my balls off. What are you up to?

I'm actually in Cousins.

I-I got super lonely, so I-I drove up.

Oh, nice. Uh, did you bring Taylor?

No, I came by myself.

Well, I wish you were here with me.

Conrad's flight got messed up because of the weather,

so I'm stuck here with my dad.

- Yeah, he, uh… - What?

Hello?

Belly? Can you hear me?

- Jere, I… - I can't hear what you're saying.

Uh, never mind.

What?

Wait, um, I'll try you tomorrow.

- Okay. Bye, Bells. - Okay. Okay, love you.

Hey, I… I would've told Jere that you're here, too,

- it's just… - Don't worry about it.

I never told Jeremiah that Conrad was with me at Cousins.

Because there was nothing to tell.

Nothing happened with Conrad.

Nothing was ever going to happen.

♪ Now I'm prone to misery ♪

♪ The birthmark on your shoulder reminds me…

The next morning, Conrad was gone.

He left just like I thought he would.

No goodbye, just gone like a ghost.

♪ How much sorrow can I take? ♪

Conrad Fisher, the Ghost of Christmas Past.

♪ Blackbird on my shoulder ♪

♪ And what difference does it make ♪

♪ when this love ♪

♪ is over? ♪

♪ Shall I sleep within your bed? ♪

♪ River of unhappiness ♪

♪ Hold your hands upon ♪

♪ my head ♪

♪ till I breathe ♪

♪ my last breath ♪

♪ Oh, oh ♪

♪ Woe is me ♪

♪ The last time that you touched me ♪

♪ Oh, will wonders ♪

♪ ever cease? ♪

♪ Blessed be ♪

♪ the mystery ♪

♪ of love ♪ ♪

Come in.

- Hey… - Can you take your shoes off?

I'm gonna be here for, like, a sec.

I was just on my way in and…

Came to rub it my face that I got fired on day one?

No, jerk, I wanted to see how your friend's doing.

Yeah, he's gonna be okay. Thanks.

Good.

- Okay, this is for you. - Thank you.

You're welcome. Um…

So, look, um, about yesterday.

- I mean, we all know Namazy's a hard-ass… - I'm fine.

C-Cool. Uh, that's, uh…

Actually, I was gonna say, "but she kind of has a point."

Oh.

I mean, look, you know I always tell you the truth, right?

And the truth is that you're smart as hell, obviously,

but you need to pay more attention to your feelings.

Excuse me?

Well, you can deny your emotions all you want,

they're not going anywhere.

And as long as you're afraid to face them,

they'll run you and not the other way around.

"Hello" would've been nice.

Hello.

Steven? You ready for a visitor?

- Hi. - Oh, you're awake.

Oh, hey… ow.

- Ow. Ow. Easy. - Careful of his ribs.

No, no, break another one, why don't you?

- It's barely cracked, you baby. - Ow.

How's, uh, how's Mom and Dad?

- Where are they? - They're on their way.

Hey.

Uh, hi.

I'm gonna give you two a minute.

I'm glad you're alive.

You scared the shit out of everyone.

You know that? Belly was worried to death.

I knew you were just being a drama queen, obviously.

I was in a coma, so…

Yeah, but medically induced.

Uh-huh.

Steven, I'm joking.

I was worried about you, too, obviously.

Yeah, yeah, you know, I've been thinking a lot

about what you said since I woke up.

You know, before the crash…

- Me, too. - …and you were right.

You and me, we don't work.

What?

If we, uh, never ran into each other that day in New York,

we would've just gone about our lives and-and been fine,

so let's just pretend we didn't.

I've never been able to think clearly when it comes to you, Tay.

I couldn't let you go.

You know I love a challenge, but…

…this is a wake-up call.

You were right.

You and me, we don't work.

Good, then we're on the same page.

- Yeah, yeah. Finally. - I'm gonna go find Belly.

First loves are important.

Conrad was mine.

For the rest of my life, I would think of him fondly,

the way you do your first pet, the first car you drove.

But they're not as important as lasts.

Steven's gonna be okay.

Oh, thank God.

Do you want to get some air?

Yeah. Yeah, I would love that.

I was… I am so mad at you.

And you have every right to be.

I'm sorry for what I did to you, and I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner.

I'm sorry you found out the worst way possible.

I know it's-it's gonna take a lot of work for you

to even begin to trust me again, but I am willing

to do whatever it takes if you let me.

I'm sorry, too.

Sorry for what?

I'm sorry for everything leading up to that fight.

And to Cabo.

I can see how you thought we were broken up.

You can?

Yeah, but I-I don't understand how you could just

move on to somebody else so easily.

I mean, I could barely function.

H-How were you okay enough to have sex with someone?

No, Belly, I was completely numb that whole week.

I-I didn't even feel like I was there when Lacie and I…

when we had sex.

After, I-I just sat in the shower

and cried for, I don't, I don't even know how long.

Just thinking, how could I deserve you after that?

Maybe we…

shouldn't let one mistake erase all these years.

I mean,

if we both believe that what we have

is bigger than our mistakes, then…

maybe we can just start over.

I want that, Bells.

I-I want that so much.

You can't ever hurt me like that again.

I promise.

I promise.

I don't want to mess this up again.

We won't.

- * I started driving… - After Steven,

I-I get it now.

You know, life's too short

not to spend it with the person that you love.

♪ The way it felt for me to finally hold you…

I want to be with you always, no matter what.

I just can't imagine my life without you.

Me, either.

Belly, it's always been our story.

Yours and mine. Nobody else's.

What are you thinking?

Just, the future is-is crazy…

Come on, what? Say it.

- Would you… - Yes.

You don't even know what I'm about to say.

Try me.

♪ These butterflies lived…

Isabel Conklin…

…will you marry me?

Yes.

Yeah, I'll marry you.

♪ I swear I've known you ♪

♪ longer than ♪

♪ forever…

I love you.

I love you, too.

♪ A day ♪

♪ Forever ♪

♪ and a day ♪

♪ Forever and a day ♪

♪ A day ♪

♪ Forever and a day ♪

♪ I bet we already knew our names ♪

♪ before we met each other ♪

♪ I bet we've sailed the Milky Way ♪

♪ walked on the sun together ♪

♪ How could I forget ♪

♪ those emerald eyes? ♪

♪ They took me by surprise ♪

♪ But suddenly, I missed your face ♪

♪ I knew that smile from miles away ♪

♪ I knew that I have loved you ♪

♪ forever… ♪

♪ and a day ♪

♪ A day ♪

♪ In all my lives ♪

♪ I've waited every time ♪

♪ to hear you say ♪

♪ "I'm yours forever and a day" ♪

♪ I don't believe ♪

♪ in destiny ♪

♪ But I might ♪

♪ have to say ♪

♪ your melodies ♪

♪ they're changing me ♪

♪ I'm yours ♪

♪ forever ♪ ♪