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Previously on The Summer I Turned Pretty…

I want you to want me.

I do want you.

I wasn't in Cousins.

You know, I was just a distraction

to keep you busy while you waited

for Conrad.

Conrad and I weren't together.

If you won't say it, I will.

That we're over?

And Susannah was dead.

It doesn't feel the same

as last summer.

Jer, we're gonna lose this house.

Now Aunt Julia owns the whole thing.

Susannah's sister?

I get to choose what happens to this house

and I choose to put it on the market.

The house is the last thing tying us together.

I'll never get Susannah back, but I can't let Jeremiah and Conrad go, too.

Please just let Belly

handle this by herself.

She feels so shitty about how things are with the boys right now.

She knows she screwed up.

I'm going to Cousins.

Well, I'm-I'm coming with you.

Surprise!

It's different than if Susannah was still here.

But I think she'd approve.

This feels pretty magical to me.

Are you ever gonna give me a second chance?

I-I don't think I can take it if you change your mind like last time.

There is

nothing left between me and Conrad.

There'll always be something between you and Conrad.

Why? Why did you

throw it all away?!

I thought that we loved each other.

We did.

You can't let them lose this house, Adam.

Do this one last thing for her.

Okay, then.

Thanks, Dad.

Yeah, this house has seen its fair share of make-outs.

I like you. Even when you were just my little sister's

annoying best friend.

I don't want to get between you guys anymore, so…

we're friends.

So I release you, Conrad Fisher.

I evict you from my heart.

Jeremiah.

I want you.

I used to wait all year for summer.

The magical months between June and August.

But that year,

I had something to look forward to in the fall.

College.

You nervous, bean?

No.

- Why? Should I be? - Definitely.

Not helpful, Steven.

Well, I'm nervous.

Why would you say that, Dad?

♪ Oh, my life ♪

♪ is changing every day ♪

♪ in every possible way ♪

♪ And, oh, my dreams ♪

♪ it's never quite as it seems ♪

♪ never quite as it seems ♪

Okay.

Hold on.

♪ I know I felt like this before…

Taylor!

Call me.

My mom always said she found her soulmate in college.

But I was lucky,

because I'd already found mine.

- Hey! - Hi!

It felt like it had always been this way.

I told everyone that I applied to Finch because it was a good school.

It had all the things I wanted. And that was true.

But truest of all was that I just wanted to be near him.

I wanted him for all seasons,

not just summer.

I missed you so much.

I missed you more.

You guys saw each other last week.

Hey, man.

Hey, Laur!

Hey, Mr. Conklin.

- Hi, Jere. - Hi!

- How was the drive? - It was good.

Lucinda! Hey!

You look so good!

Aw, Steven!

Sweetie, I miss you!

Don't be a stranger!

I won't. I promise.

Mwah.

Tay-Tay!

♪ And now I tell you openly ♪

♪ you have my heart…

- Can you take these? - Yeah.

Cool.

All right, we're burning daylight, people.

Okay.

He seems surprisingly good.

Yeah, well, I heard him crying through the walls the other night, so…

not so good?

I give it a week before they're back together.

Oh, Mr. Conklin, you need help?

Yes, please.

♪ Oh, my life…

- Sorry. Sorry. - I'm so sorry.

♪ Every day, in every…

- Steven. - Mm.

Stop.

Boom.

Fixed it for you.

- You dick. - Ow.

Oh! Nice!

You beat your roommate here?

Oh, that means superior bed is yours.

- Oh. - You got it?

Yeah. Almost there. Come on.

There we go.

I'm still surprised you're not rooming with Taylor.

Yeah, why, so she can suck out her soul?

Well, we figured that this way

we'd force ourselves to…

find our own lives,

our own people, you know?

It was very mature of you girls.

I'm proud of you.

- Thanks. - Kids are all grown up.

Oh, my… Dad, why-why are you s…

- You don't have to say that… - Okay, come on, Steven.

- Let's go get the next load. Come on. - No.

Yeah, we got it. Come on.

Use those muscles.

Mr. Conklin, you can totally stay if you want. Like, no worries.

- I'm fine, Jeremiah. - Yeah. No, no worries.

Don't hurt yourself.

So, is it gonna be weird,

- being home all alone now? - Oh, God.

Probably.

Maybe I should get really into true crime podcasts.

Mom, no.

I mean, can you find, like, an actual hobby?

Or make a new friend?

You make it sound like I have no life.

Yeah. That's because you don't.

That's why you're always in all of our business.

Speaking of,

I was FaceTiming with Conrad

and a girl stopped by.

Wait, was her name Agnes?

I don't know.

But it seems like he's doing really well out there.

Yeah. I guess so.

Oh, I have something for you.

Oh, my God.

- Is this from… - Freshman year.

College is where Beck and I found each other.

But it's also where we found ourselves.

That's what I want for you.

Yeah, yeah. I want that, too.

Okay.

Here you go.

You know I love Jere so much,

- but I have to say this. - Mom.

Please don't limit yourself.

Part of the thrill of college is meeting new people,

trying new things.

Just let yourself have this experience.

Give yourself the chance to…

discover all the possible versions of you. Okay?

Okay. I will.

I promise.

Mm.

- Love you. - I love you, too.

♪ With open, open, open, open arms…

Now here we are, three years later.

We've known each other our whole lives,

and in some ways, it still feels like a big surprise.

And in other ways, it feels inevitable.

♪ You keep me open…

My boyfriend.

My Jeremiah.

More and more, I understand.

This is the way it's supposed to be.

He's the one.

My one.

What are you thinking?

That I don't want to put my clothes back on

- and go to my FitPsych lecture. - Mm.

I just am not ready for this year to end.

Since when does Belly Conklin not look forward to summer?

Since you're graduating. I mean…

Pretty soon, we're not gonna get to do this anymore.

♪ Consequences, repercussions, karma keep on changing me ♪

♪ For you I try…

We are gonna do this for the rest of our lives.

Yeah.

You know what I mean.

It's just gonna be weird being here without you next year.

You're never gonna be without me.

Boston is only an hour away from Finch.

And before that, we get the whole summer in Cousins together.

Yeah.

You still sure you wouldn't rather take that internship with your dad?

Spend the summer doing boring-ass financial shit with my dad?

Or with my favorite person?

In our favorite place?

Yeah, I'm good.

Okay.

No, no, no, no.

Five more minutes.

Five more minutes.

Wait, hold on.

Oh, shit, it's my mom.

- Where's my shirt? - I don't know.

Hey, Mom!

Hey, bean. Is Jeremiah there?

- Uh… - Uh…

Hey, Laur.

Hey, Jere.

Have you and Conrad started your speech for the dedication ceremony?

Uh, not exactly.

Jeremiah,

half of Cousins is coming to see Susannah's memorial garden.

I know, but Conrad…

…has been, uh, busy.

I see.

All right.

I will twist his arm.

Gently, of course.

- Thank you. - Okay.

Yeah, Mom, I got to go to class.

Okay. Love you both.

- Bye. - Love you. Bye!

I'll walk you.

Plus, I got to go get my cap and gown, so…

Okay. Then hurry.

You're not making me late to class again.

Um, from what I recall,

you were the one who texted me to come over and…

take care of business.

Okay. And business has been taken care of.

- Mmm. - So let's go, buddy.

"Buddy"? Oh, I'll show you buddy.

♪ Can't stop, addicted to the shindig ♪

- * Chop Top, he says I'm gonna win big… - Oh, hey. Conrad.

Game this Sunday. We need our QB.

Just text me. Yeah.

♪ Distant cousin to the reservation ♪

♪ Defunct, the pistol that you pay for ♪

♪ This punk, the feeling that you stay for ♪

♪ In time, I want to be your best friend ♪

♪ East Side love is living on the West End ♪

♪ Knocked out, but, boy, you better come to…

- Hey. Come on in. - Thank you.

Remind me, how long has it been since you've been back there?

A while.

Um…

Part of me thinks it's better if I just don't go back.

That's normal.

You probably feel a lot of pressure for everything to go perfectly.

I mean, yeah.

Of course.

But I know…

I can't control that.

And, yeah, there's all the shit with my dad,

but me and Jere have been solid.

So it's not… it's not that.

Okay, then what is it?

I don't know.

Let's try something.

Instead of focusing on everything that could go wrong when you go back,

let's try

walking through a version of the day where everything goes right.

Okay.

All right, so…

Take a deep breath.

Now, tell me about the best possible version of this day.

Uh…

Everyone…

gets along and… Yeah. I don't know.

That's okay. That's all right.

Um, let's just take it one step at a time.

All right, you fly into Boston.

- What happens next? - My flight lands on time.

Yeah.

- No delays. - Mm.

And no traffic.

I'm…

sailing down the highway, record time.

I…

see the "Entering Cousins Beach" sign, and it feels like home.

And I…

…pull into the parking lot and everyone's there.

That's good.

Keep going.

Jere and I give our speech, and we…

say exactly the right thing to honor our mom.

Um…

And what do you see?

The whole town's there.

Everyone who loved my mom.

Even Dad looks proud.

Laurel's doing that thing where she smiles and cries at the same time.

Steven's next to her looking at us like, "You got this."

And… next to him…

…there's…

just a lot of people who loved my mom.

- That's it? - Yeah.

That's the day.

- Hey, Belly. - Hey.

You still miss it, huh?

No.

I mean, every once in a while, I think, "What if I…

hadn't jumped for that ball and messed up my knee?"

It's weird how

one choice can end up shaping your whole future.

Well, without it, you wouldn't have found sports psychology.

I think I would've.

Just would've taken me longer to get there.

Yo, Belly, Jere. What up, baby?

Hey.

'Sup, girl?

- Hey, Redbird. - How you doing?

- Hey, are you ready for tomorrow? - Oh, yeah.

Dude, we have to crush those Delts at Finals Freakout.

- We're going to crush them. - Crush them.

- We're going to crush them. - We have to crush them.

Dude, come play with us.

I-I'm sorry, man. I'm gonna go grab my cap and gown.

Okay. All right. Later.

- Hey, see you, man. - Yeah.

- Bye, girl. See you. You look great. - Bye.

Hey, after tomorrow, you can, uh, stop pretending

- you don't hate my frat. - Oh, God, I can't wait.

I'm kidding. I don't hate your frat… that much.

Um, meet you at the dining hall?

I can't. I'm studying with Taylor and Anika.

But I'll come over after. I promise.

Okay.

- Bye. - Bye, Bells.

Conklin, set up a call with the founding partners at Paisley.

Why?

Their earnings are trash. You see their burn rate?

Right. Remind me, which one of us

is a senior associate and which one is a glorified intern?

Okay, I have been here six months, Denise, so…

Mm-hmm. Yes, I know.

And you graduated early with honors from Princeton.

Please just tell me all about it again, as if I don't have actual work to do.

Good call on the Nectar analysis, Steven.

Uh, yeah. Yeah, thank you.

I mean, you know, it's an interesting position,

minimal exposure, but it's early.

Couldn't agree more. Nice work.

Keep it up. People are noticing.

Well done pretending like you actually give a shit about this job.

- I do give a shit. - Yeah, but you don't love it.

Okay, who loves their job?

I do.

Okay, and I think you have an unhealthy relationship with work.

- Okay. - Come on, a job's a job.

You know, sentiment does not apply.

Oh, it's really a shame. Today's youth lack passion.

Oh, today's y… You are, like, two years older than me.

Three, and you report to me.

Coming to happy hour tonight?

Ooh… Let me see,

brown liquor with finance bros?

- I mean, it sounds tempting. - Hmm.

But, uh, I've got some preexisting commitments.

Mm.

Passion, Conklin.

It'll serve you well.

♪ Friends ♪

♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh ♪

Yes. Right there.

♪ You're in my head…

Can't you pay someone to do this?

You love my feet, sicko.

No, what I love…

♪ Back here again…

…is your belly button.

Stop trying to smell my belly button.

I'm sorry, I can't help it.

♪ Forever, and you were there on my lonely nights, yeah ♪

♪ keeping me together ♪

♪ So wouldn't it make sense if I was yours ♪

♪ and you could call me your baby? ♪

♪ But we say we're just, say we're just ♪

♪ friends just for now ♪

♪ Yeah, but friends don't say words that make friends feel like more…

Fuck.

Taylor.

Is that my sister?

Oh, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit.

♪ So let's put the end in friends ♪ ♪

Hi. What's up?

Are you early? I feel like you're a little early.

Mm, no. I'm on time.

Do you still want to study with me and Anika, or are you…

too busy?

No, I just…

woke up from a nap. Um…

Let me just get dressed, and I'll meet you in the library.

Okay. I mean, you know I'm not gonna rat you out for having your boyfriend

- in your room, right? - What?

He's not in here.

Uh…

Just-just tell Davis that I'm glad he finally ditched the gray sweatpants

because they leave too little to the imagination.

Those aren't Davis's. They're mine.

Menswear is in.

Sure. Yeah. Okay.

Um, I'll see you in the library.

Bye, Davis.

Where is pretty boy, anyway, huh?

Uniqlo having a sale on joggers?

I mean, come on, Tay.

It's Friday night. I guess you guys aren't that serious.

Yeah, no, he wants to spend the summer in New York

because I'll be there for my internship and he can't stand being away from me,

- but sure. - Mm-hmm.

- Not serious. - No, sure, sure.

I mean, the guy can't even be bothered to wear pants with a zipper,

but, uh, no, I'm sure he'll figure out summer in New York.

Right, no. If you, if you, uh, if you say so, Tay.

Stop pretending to be jealous.

I'm not.

You're not pretending or you're not jealous?

Both.

Uh, neither.

I don't, I don't… You are confusing me.

- I'm confusing you? - Mm-hmm. You are.

Why?

Do you want me to be jealous?

No.

I want you just like this.

No drama.

No strings.

That's the only way that this works.

Okay, I have to study.

What?

Nothing.

I can, like, feel you looking at me.

Just thinking.

Oh, my God.

- What? - What?

I got off the wait list for study-abroad.

Shut up. For real?

Yeah, it says someone dropped out, so I guess…

Oh, my God. Belly, fall semester in Paris? Hell yeah.

I mean, I don't know. I kind of got used to the idea of staying here.

Like, I already registered for classes and…

you know, we were gonna get that apartment together.

B, don't even worry about it.

I'll go in on the Pine Street place with Shani and Rachel.

Yeah, but I mean, then I'm, you know, gonna miss all the senior year stuff, too.

Oh, my God. Who cares about the senior year stuff?

You can do that with Jere this week.

This is Paris we're talking about.

- We know we're talking about Paris? - For real. You're going,

and I'm coming to visit.

Yeah, so am I.

I want to go to the Chanel on Rue Cambon.

- It's Cambon. - Cambon.

Holy shit, okay, I'm going to Paris!

- Paris! - I know!

Jere, you're never gonna believe it, but…

Hey.

What's wrong? Are you sick?

No, I'm not sick. I'm just a fucking idiot, and I'm not graduating.

Not graduating? What do you mean?

I went to go get my cap and gown, and my name wasn't on the list.

Yeah, well, must be a mistake, right?

Nope. It turns out that I needed to take

some extra core classes when I switched my major,

and the ones I took before… don't count.

Ugh, shit. I'm so sorry, Jere.

I can't believe I'm gonna be a super-senior taking freshman classes.

- It's so embarrassing. - Hey,

there's nothing to be embarrassed about.

Come here.

At least we'll get to spend some more time together.

Yeah.

Well, what was the news that you wanted to give me?

Oh, um..

Today I-I walked in on Taylor and Davis…

post-coital.

Ugh. I mean, I didn't see him. I just saw his pants,

and then Taylor got all cagey and…

Oh, my God. I know whose pants those are.

They're Steven's! I mean, they're some stupid designer,

and he was preening at himself in the mirror the last time I saw him.

Steven and Taylor are hooking up again.

- I don't have the energy to be surprised. - Yeah, but, I mean,

this time, Taylor has Davis and Steven has Mia.

They've-they've never done the cheating thing before, you know?

I don't feel like dissecting their relationship right now.

Yeah. Yeah, I'm sorry. Right.

Well, do you want to go get midnight waffles?

No. I just want to be here with you.

Can we just cuddle?

Yeah.

- Mm. - Mm-hmm.

I'm not going anywhere.

I love you, Belly.

I love you, too.

Mm.

Are you still here?

Yeah. I, uh…

I kept waiting for your sisters to leave,

but then, uh, more people kept showing up.

There was a lot of shouting.

Then I just fell asleep.

It was Settlers of Catan night.

Um…

They're all at the bar now, so it should be safe to slip out.

Yeah. Okay.

Or I could stay the night.

We don't do sleepovers.

Yeah. Yeah, you're right.

Okay.

Then we won't sleep.

Mmm.

Thanks.

- There you are. - Hey, Agnes.

Are you studying? You know the year's over, right?

Yeah.

It's a paper Dr. Namazy published

last spring on critical care strategy.

I wanted to be prepared since we're in the final round.

I don't know if that's your speed or if that's a me thing or…

Yeah, um, about that.

- Uh… - Did they announce who got it?

They did.

Me.

- Dude. - Yeah.

- Congratulations. - Thank you. Thank you.

- You deserve it. - Thanks.

Um, oh, and you.

- We're both in. - That was so messed up.

- I'm sorry. I had to. I had to. - That's so messed up.

- Congratulations. - Congratulations.

- Ah. - Drinks tomorrow night to celebrate?

- Obviously. - Absolutely.

And they moved up the start date to this week.

- To this week? - Mm-hmm.

Okay. Great.

- What? - Do you think

Dr. Namazy would give me a few days off if I asked her for it?

Conrad, what are you talking about?

- We worked months for this. - No, I know.

Uh, I-I just have, like, a family thing coming up.

I mean, you could ask.

Namazy's notorious for firing someone day one, but sure,

why not piss her off before you even start?

No.

No. This job is my priority.

Duh. Hey, let me see that.

All right.

Good morning.

Hot Pocket?

Coffee.

Wait, did you go to the kitchen?

- Yeah. - Did someone see you?

Uh, I mean, I don't think so.

I mean, the place is weirdly empty, you know?

- It is? - Mm-hmm.

Oh, shitty shit. Shit.

- What time is it? - I don't know, like, 10:00, 10:15?

I was supposed to be up, like, an hour ago.

Chill. It's Saturday.

Yeah, it's the last Saturday before finals.

Okay, you say that like I have any idea what you're talking about.

Finals Freakout. Hello?

It's a Greek thing. I do it every year.

It's like the Olympics but with binge drinking.

I don't think I will ever get over

"Taylor Jewel, sorority girl."

You know, like, Jere I get. Um…

Man was born to be in a frat. I mean, look at him.

But… but you.

I rushed so that I could make connections for my future, dummy.

It's no different than your little Princeton eating club.

Whoa!

Personal attack. Relax.

- Is that Mia? - Uh…

Uh, yeah.

Cute.

- I should, uh, I should go. - So go.

- Want to do this again tonight? - Twice in a row?

No. It's bad enough that you slept over.

Hey, hey, come on.

- I got to go. - No, no, no.

Come here.

Have a good day, Tay Tay.

Conrad. Finally.

Hey, Laur.

Uh, sorry, it's been, it's been kind of busy here.

Um, which is, uh, kind of what I wanted to talk to you about.

I got that summer clinic job that I was telling you about.

- Oh, Connie, that's amazing. - Yeah.

The thing is, it starts right away,

and I'm not sure if they're gonna give me any time off.

So that would mean…

The dedication.

It's okay if you can't make it work.

Really.

Okay, I just don't want to let anyone down.

You're not. We all know how much you want to be there.

Your mom would be so proud of you. I hope you know that.

Thanks, Laur.

But, Connie, Jere thinks you're making that speech together, so if you think

it's not gonna happen, you should give him a heads-up.

For sure.

Yeah. I'll give him a call.

Okay.

♪ Baby, move your hip, don't break it ♪

♪ We don't come for the spot, we take it ♪

♪ Really running this shit like Matrix ♪

♪ Got 'em mad, take a look at their faces ♪

♪ All this ass, yeah, I feel like Kim ♪

♪ Margarita got a bitch on ten ♪

♪ Trendsetter, yeah, we settin' the trends, we up in this bitch ♪

♪ and we'll do it again…

- You ready? - Yeah.

Okay, come here.

- No, please. - Let me just put a little bit.

- Please don't. - Please? Come on.

Good.

Come on, cheer up. You've been looking forward to this all week.

I-I feel like everyone's staring at me.

I-I feel like the loser who's not graduating on time.

You are graduating. It's just one more semester.

I mean, look, the sun is shining and the Slip 'N Slide is…

slippery.

It's all your favorite things that aren't…

boobs and abs.

You know me too well.

Okay, you ready for the three-legged race?

The reigning champ.

You're right.

- It'll be great. - You're right. You want to be my partner?

- Uh… - Taylor.

Yeah.

- Tell her to play with us. - Play with us.

I'm not Greek.

Well, as rush chair, I hereby declare you an honorary Tri-Phi.

Davis.

Will you hand me a shirt?

Yeah. Got you, bae.

You feeling like a winner today, Davis?

Oh, always, when I got Tay by my side.

Dude, it's a bummer you have to do another semester.

Yeah, dude, it's-it's bullshit.

But at least I get another semester with my girl.

Wait, what about…

- Come on, everybody, let's do this! - Ooh!

- Yeah, babe, you ready? Let's go. - Ooh. That was good.

- All right, here we go. Come on. - Okay.

- Catch up. - * Five, six *

- Oh, they're beating us! - * Five, six, seven, eight *

♪ H-O-T T-O G-O…

Two, three…

Yes, of course I'm gonna do this.

We got it, we got it. Oh!

Up, up, up, up, up! Let's go.

One…

Yes, we got it.

♪ Take me hot to go ♪

♪ H-O-T T-O G-O ♪

♪ You can take me hot to go ♪ ♪

- Right hand, green. - Got it.

Hey, Jere, it's-it's Conrad.

Oh, uh, can you answer it? Tell him I'll be there in a sec.

Uh, sure.

Hello?

Belly?

- Hey. - Hey.

Uh…

I-Is Jere there?

He's kind of in the middle of something.

Uh, hang on, I can…

No, that's fine, honestly, uh, I'll just, I'll just give him a call back, okay?

All right. Bye.

Okay, bye.

Hey, babe.

Guess who studied in Paris last semester.

So, Belly just found out that she got in and…

Oh. Can we just talk for a second? Alone?

Oh, yeah. I was gonna jump in the game.

Cool.

I haven't decided yet about Paris, so can you

- just not tell anybody? - My God. I knew it.

You can't just give up on Paris, Belly.

No, I'm not, I'm not giving it up, I just…

when I applied, I thought that Jere would be graduated

and that I'd be all alone.

- Thanks a lot. - Okay, you're always busy

with your sorority or with Davis.

And you're always with Jere, so whatever.

You know you would give me so much shit

if I told you that I wasn't going to New York this summer

just so I could stay here and do bong hits with Davis.

Yeah, I know, but…

Babe, it's Paris.

Jere is rich. He can fly over all the time.

And I'm coming at least once.

I'm already planning a whole Parisian wardrobe.

- Okay. - Okay.

Okay, yeah, I'll think about it.

Don't think about it. Just do it.

No, I'll think about it.

♪ Pull up to the red light, lookin' right ♪

♪ Come here, can I get your name, girl? ♪

♪ Tell me where you're from, what you do, what you like ♪

♪ Let me pick your brain, girl ♪

♪ And tell me how they got that pretty little face ♪

♪ on that pretty little frame, girl ♪

♪ But let me show you round, let me take you out ♪

♪ Bet you we could have some fun, girl ♪

♪ 'Cause we can do it fast, fast, slow ♪

♪ whichever way you wanna run, girl ♪

♪ But l?t me buy you drinks, better y?t, rings…

Oh, shit, wait. Did you, um…

did you remember to call your brother?

Uh, whoops. No, no, I-I didn't.

I'll-I'll call him after dinner.

I got to get on him about the speech.

And I want to try to convince him to come to Cousins

for the Fourth this year.

He owes me after bailing on skiing over Christmas, so…

Oh, shit.

I texted my dad about the school stuff, and he's probably pissed.

A text, Jere?

I know, I know.

You know what, it's fine. It's fine.

He's gonna yell, and then he'll get over it, right?

Yeah.

Hey, Dad. Uh, hey, listen, I know you're probably not psyched

about the graduation thing, but…

Not psyched?

No, Jere, I'm not psyched.

Dad, Dad, relax, it's not that big of a deal.

- It's just gonna be… - Relax? Really?

Did you just say that to me?

It was an honest mistake, all right?

- I'm sorry. - You know, it's never your fault.

And now I'm on the hook for another 20K in tuition.

- I'll pay you back. - How?

You gonna, uh, pick up some extra lifeguard shifts at the club?

Dad, that's not fair.

Jere, do you think your brother would ever let something like this happen?

No, we all know that Conrad is perfect.

Just act like a fucking adult.

I was acting like an adult. I've been acting like a fucking adult.

All right? I'm sorry if I want to have a little fun at college.

You're 21.

Okay? Welcome to the real world. It's not all about fun.

All right.

I will wire the money to the school in the morning.

But, Jere, you're paying me back for this.

I wish you didn't have to hear that.

No, don't worry about it.

I-I can't do this dinner right now.

Yeah, okay. Of course.

Yeah, let me just call Steven and tell him that we can't go.

No, I-I think you should go.

I just…

I-I need some time with my thoughts.

Okay.

Um… okay.

I'll just, I'll catch a ride with Steven and-and meet you at the party?

Fuck. Right. Yeah, the party.

I love you.

I love you, too.

Okay.

I'll see you later?

I mean, he was such a dick.

Can you believe he compared the two of them like that?

No. No. No, no, no, no, no.

Okay, look, you know I love Jere, all right?

But Adam is stuck paying a whole extra semester of tuition

because Jere didn't bother to read an email.

I mean, I'd be pissed, too.

What?

Don't look at me like that, all right?

You know Jere doesn't always have his shit together. It bugs you, too.

- It does not. - Come on.

Okay, uh, what about… Cabo?

He forgot to tell you about the spring break trip until the last minute.

- You guys broke up over that. - No.

No, no, we did not break up. We had a fight.

- Sure, sure. Mm-hmm. - We had a fight.

Does the little stuff bother me sometimes?

Sure. Like his seasonal allergies

and the fact that he leaves his snotty tissues everywhere.

And do I wish that he didn't smoke so much weed?

Yeah, but none of that stuff actually matters

because we've been through the real stuff together.

And no offense, but you just don't know what it's like

to really be with somebody.

Uh, I'm with Mia.

I saw your pants, dumbass.

- What's wrong with my pants? - No.

I saw them…

I saw your pants in Taylor's room.

I know you guys are… whatever-ing.

And don't bother lying, 'cause you're a terrible liar.

I am not a… I am…

Okay, yeah, fine. Um…

Yeah, those-those-those were my pants.

You know, the last time you two flamed out, she made me promise

that if she were ever tempted to get back together with you,

that I would have to put her on an involuntary psych hold.

- And you said to me… - I remember. I remember. I remember.

I remember. I…

It's not like we-we-we meant to, okay?

It just… it just happened.

How?

We ran into each other in New York

when she was interviewing for her internship.

Steven, that was two months ago.

You've been cheating on Mia this whole time?

Yes.

Yes.

And I feel like an asshole.

It's just, Taylor and I have never not been single

when we've hooked up.

You know, and-and-and Mia's great.

I mean, Mia's so great.

She really is, she's just… she's just not, um…

Taylor?

So, what are you gonna do?

I don't know. I don't… I mean,

it has to mean something, though.

Right? That we keep coming back to each other,

that it feels like it's never really over?

Yeah, okay. So, what does Taylor think?

I…

haven't had the nerve to ask her yet.

You know that you can't keep stringing Mia along like this,

no matter what happens with Taylor.

I know, I know.

You're right.

- Thank you. - Okay.

Now, can we go back to you and Jere and whatever it is that's making you guys,

ugh, so extra about this?

I got into

the study-abroad program in Paris for next year.

What?

Belly, that… that's amazing.

What? Congratulations.

What-what's wrong? I mean, does Jere not want you to go?

Mm, Jere doesn't know that I got in.

- You hypocrite, Belly. - No.

- No, no, no, no, no. - Yes. No, you blamed me,

- and then you don't tell him. - No! Just, I feel like…

I feel like I'd be abandoning him, you know?

So, what, you're gonna abandon your own dreams of going to Paris?

No, no. I just, I swore the year that everything happened with Susannah

that I would always be there for him.

Okay, yes.

Yes, absolutely. Okay?

But Jere repeating a semester isn't on the same level as losing Susannah.

Right? Plus,

if you don't tell Jere about Paris,

you're not giving him the opportunity to step up,

you know, and show you what he's capable of handling.

Kind of makes you just as bad as Adam.

Wow. Harsh.

Yeah, that's what I'm here for.

No, get your hand out of my face.

God forbid I try to show a little love.

♪ Find a reason to live or find…

Hey, man. Uh, sorry I forgot to call you back.

Oh, no worries, dude.

I, uh, I just wanted to call you and talk about Mom's thing

and the… the speech and all.

Yeah, yeah, right. Um…

hey, I'm not really up for working on that right now, so, uh…

Actually, do you mind just writing it yourself?

You'd probably do a better job than me anyways.

What's going on?

My major changed up the requirements to graduate,

so, um, I'm just… I'm stuck here for another semester,

and Dad's being a freaking dick about it, so it's just whatever.

That sucks.

- I'm sorry. - Yeah.

It's not that big of a deal, though, right?

I mean, lots of people take an extra semester to graduate.

Not people like you, Connie.

He made that one really clear.

Screw him. You know how he is.

I just wish I didn't have to put up

with his shit at the dedication. I want to be thinking about Mom

and not how much I want to punch him in the nuts.

Trust me, Jere, it's very possible to do both of those things at the same time.

Yeah.

I miss you.

Uh, I feel like Thanksgiving was a million years ago.

Uh, hey, can you… can you hold on a second?

Uh, Redbird is on the other line.

Yeah. You know what, dude? Just take it.

Uh, we will talk later, okay?

Okay, yeah. Sounds good.

- Bye. - See you, man.

♪ Ooh, got that nani, nani, nani ♪

♪ How she walk through swinging that body…

- Mother. - Hey, Taytie Tot.

What are you doing?

Ooh, where are you going?

Um, I have a thing at Davis's frat.

Why are you home on a Saturday night?

- What's wrong? - Nothing.

Where's Scott? I swear to God,

if that man does you dirty again, I will personally…

Stop. Nothing's wrong.

- He went to Rudy's. - Okay.

You should do a smoky eye.

Oh, I love you with a smoky eye.

Mom, it's kind of… dated.

You're so mean to me.

Is that Steven's sweatshirt?

I thought you got rid of that the last time you two broke up.

It's soft.

Oh, my God. You guys are back together, aren't you?

What? No. What are you talking about?

Wait, I thought that he was still dating…

Oh. Oh, my God, what's her name? What's her name? Gia.

- Yeah, Mia. - Babe?

Tell me you're not the side chick.

God, stop being dramatic.

It's barely even a thing.

Okay,

but remember this:

Once you've downgraded yourself, there is no going back up,

and then you're just a ho.

Excuse you. Who says that?

I'm trying to help you right now.

Okay, well, don't.

And keep your '90s-ass advice to yourself,

because, by your definition, me and Steven are both hos.

- Okay? - I'm not saying you're a ho.

I'm just saying that it's ho behavior.

- Uh, Mom, I got to go. - Wait, wait, wait.

What are you doing here, dummy?

I, uh, I dropped Belly off after our dinner.

I told you I have plans tonight.

I know. Just wanted to see your face before I headed back.

Well, here you go. Happy?

Eh.

Happy now?

Hi.

Hi, beautiful.

I brought you your favorite.

Free breadsticks, with sauce.

You are so good to me.

I'm sorry about dinner.

What did I miss?

Well, I mean, we actually kind of just talked about

what's been going on with me.

What-what's, what's going on with you?

Come-come here, sit.

Well, um, do you remember

that study-abroad program that I got wait-listed for?

- Yeah. Paris. - Yeah.

Uh, so, I just found out that I got off the wait list.

Wh-What? When?

Yesterday.

I was gonna tell you earlier,

- but I just… - But then I fucked it up

with the whole graduation thing.

No, no, I-I just, I didn't want to dump it

- on you and… - Hey, hey.

This is amazing.

This is amazing. You…

Y-You've wanted this so bad.

We should celebrate.

Yeah, but I-I don't even know if I'm gonna go.

I mean, what if I said I-I'd rather

maybe stay here with you?

Then I'd say you're an idiot.

Jere.

Hey. You know I want this for you, right?

All day long, I've been thinking,

you know, about how I don't want to leave you all alone.

But maybe I just don't want to be alone.

- Mm. - You know, Paris is so far away

and I won't know anybody, and I mean, what if I hate it?

Okay.

But what if you love it?

Come on, Bells.

Will I miss you? Oh, like crazy.

But-but Paris is your dream.

And I want all of your dreams to come true because you deserve it.

And will I visit?

You bet.

And we'll drink wine and we'll eat steak frites

- and I'll make you try escargot. - Mm-mm.

- You're gonna love it. - Nope.

I will never, ever love snails.

But I love you.

So you're going?

- I'm going. Yeah! - Yes!

Whoo!

Should we just skip this thing and go back to my room?

You're not getting out of it that easy.

- Come on. - Okay.

- Come on. Let's go, beautiful. - Okay.

- Here you go. - Yes.

- Time to celebrate. Hop on. - All right.

Uh…

♪ I'm vanilla, baby ♪

♪ I'll choke you, but I ain't no killer, baby ♪

It's time to party.

♪ She 28, telling me I'm still a baby ♪

♪ I get love from Detroit like Skilla Baby…

What?

- What are we doing with this… - Look at you.

Hey.

Congrats on second place today.

- Oh, thank you. - I'm Belly, by the way.

Oh, yeah, I know. I'm Lacie Barone.

- Cool. - Come on, Bells. - Hey, Jere.

Hi, Lacie. Hi.

Uh, less talking, more celebrating. Come on.

What are we celebrating?

I got into the Paris study-abroad program.

Oh, right.

I had the best time there. There's this little bakery

right by the dorms that I loved.

Oh, yeah? What's it called?

Hey, let's go get a drink. Come on.

Let's go.

♪ I'm vanilla, baby, I'll choke you ♪

♪ but I ain't no killer, baby ♪

♪ She 28, telling me I'm still a baby ♪

♪ I get love from Detroit like Skilla Baby ♪

♪ And the thing about your boy is ♪

♪ I don't like no whips and chains and you can't tie me ♪ ♪

♪ I love you ♪

♪ and I need you ♪

♪ Belly, I love you ♪

♪ I do ♪

♪ need you ♪

♪ No matter what I do, all I think about…

Hey, don't ever cut your hair, okay?

I have to. I'd look like a witch.

♪ Boy, you know I'm crazy over you…

I like you witchy.

Okay, I will grow my hair forever

if you stop threatening to grow a beard.

Hmm? I like you smooth.

♪ East Coast, I know you shaking right ♪

♪ Down South, I know you bouncing right ♪

♪ West Coast, I know you walking right ♪

- * You don't know what you mean to me * - * Midwest, I see you swinging right *

♪ East Coast, you still shaking right…

To global domination.

And, you know, medicine. Obviously.

Can you at least pretend to be happy?

I'm sorry, it's been…

a long day.

Well, there's ample distraction.

I mean, Elena definitely wants to get it wet, so…

Oh, no, no, no, no, no.

Please don't say that.

And I'm not very good at relationships.

You of all people should know that one.

Okay, who said anything about a relationship, first of all?

And yeah, you were clear from the get-go that you weren't looking for one.

I was the one who pressed the issue.

Anyway, ancient history.

To… friendship.

And pushing each other to greatness.

Have you ever been in love?

- Have you? - I asked you first.

Okay.

Then yes.

How many times?

Once.

Like, how in love? On a scale of one to ten.

You can't put being in love on a scale.

- Either you are or you aren't. - Okay, but if you had to.

Ten.

Impressive.

Thanks.

So, how did you meet?

Um…

we never really met.

I just always knew her.

So when did you know it was love, then?

Just…

It wasn't one moment. It was…

You know when you're still half asleep,

and you don't even realize that you're awake

until there's one moment when you just are?

- Mm-hmm? - It's like that.

Like one day, I just…

Woke up.

Gotcha.

So, what was her name?

- What, you can't even say it? - Mm-mm.

Come on.

Belly.

Wait, like, your brother's girlfriend?

Have you just been, like, pining after her this whole time?

- She was my girlfriend first. - Wait, she dumped you for him?

Bitch. What?

No, no. No, no, no, no. I…

I was a shitty boyfriend.

We… broke up at prom.

Wait, you broke up with her at prom?

Technically, she broke up with me,

but, um, yeah, I basically teed it up for her.

Seriously? Oh, my God, you did that thing that guys do

when they're too chickenshit to break up with a girl,

so they, like, act like a dick until she does it for him?

Ugh, no. God.

So, what, is it, like,

super awkward now or…

I barely ever see them together. I mean, I see Jere…

Okay, but like, when you do?

♪ The one that I call "baby" ♪

♪ You can kiss a hundred boys…

I remember the first time that we were all together,

they tried to downplay it for my sake.

But I could just tell that they were so happy.

And so, I had to be happy, too.

From that moment, I-I… I-I-I knew that…

I couldn't be alone with her.

I wouldn't be able to keep it in.

♪ You'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling…

Keep what in?

That I…

…l-loved her.

♪ Just to stop the feeling ♪ ♪

When we were together, I never said the words,

and now…

I don't know.

Um…

I got to go.

Okay.

I got it, I got it.

- You sure? - Mm-hmm.

- Get home safe. - Yeah, you, too.

Hey, it's Jeremiah. Leave a message.

Hey, Jere, uh, look, I…

am not gonna be able to make the dedication.

I got this job, and it starts real soon,

and it's a pretty big deal.

So, uh…

I'm really sorry.

But if you need help with the speech or anything,

you let me know, I'm here.

But I know you'll do great, so…

Yeah. All right. Bye.

♪ I like the way you kiss me…

Just a sec.

He does look really hot tonight, right?

Jeremiah always looks hot.

I'm so jealous you got to hook up with him.

Well, what happens in Cabo stays in Cabo.

Oh, shit.

- Excuse me. - Hey.

♪ I'm on the case ♪

♪ You take the heat and with such grace ♪

♪ You say we're done, but here you stay ♪

♪ Said you're scared I'll let you down ♪

♪ Stick around and you'll find out…

Jere. We need to talk.

- Now. - What's-what's going on?

Did you hook up with Lacie Barone during spring break?

- Belly. - Oh, my God, Jere. Oh my God.

- Belly, I can explain. - Oh, my God.

- No, no, no. Get away from me. - Belly, please, let me explain.

Belly, please. Belly, wait.

Belly, please. Let me explain to you, please…

Okay, explain.

It happened when we were on a break.

Wh-When we were broken up.

You knew that we weren't really broken up, that that wasn't real.

How was I supposed to know that? It was real for me.

Well, if I knew it, then you should have known it.

I didn't mean for this to happen.

And it was a mistake.

- A mistake? - Yes.

Like, what, like you tripped and you fell on top of her naked?

I think I'm…

Don't touch me.

What did you do?

I want to know exactly, what did you do?

I want to know what you did.

- We had sex. - Fuck you.

Look, it didn't mean anything to me.

- I swear. I swear to you. - It means something to me.

Okay? You know

that I've only ever been with one other person.

♪ Stop…

Yeah, I know.

You ruined everything.

I'll never trust you again.

Bells, please don't say that. I love you so much.

It's always been you, Bells, please.

We can't get it back. Whatever… whatever we were, it's gone.

- We lost it. We lost it tonight. - No, we can… Yes, we can.

- We can get it back. - No, we can't. No, I…

I don't even know who you are anymore.

Belly, wait.

♪ 'Cause you're losin' me ♪

♪ 'Cause you're losin' me ♪

- * Stop * - * Stop *

♪ 'cause you're losin' me ♪

♪ My heart won't start anymore ♪

♪ 'Cause you're losin' me ♪

- * My heart won't start anymore * - * Stop, 'cause you're losin' me *

♪ How long could we be a sad song ♪

♪ till we were too far gone to bring back to life? ♪

♪ I gave you all my best me's ♪

♪ my endless empathy ♪

♪ and all I did was bleed as I tried ♪

♪ to be the bravest soldier ♪

♪ fighting in only your army ♪

♪ Front lines, don't you ignore me ♪

- * I'm the best thing at this party * - * You're losin' me *

♪ And I wouldn't marry me, either ♪

♪ A pathological people pleaser ♪

♪ who only wanted you to see her ♪

♪ And I'm fadin', thinkin' ♪

♪ Do something, babe, say something ♪

♪ Say something ♪

♪ Lose something, babe, risk something ♪

♪ You're losin' me ♪

♪ Choose something, babe, I got nothing ♪

- * I got nothing * - * to believe *

♪ unless you're choosin' me ♪

♪ You're losin' me ♪

- * Stop * - * Stop, stop *

♪ You're losin' me ♪

- * Stop * - * Stop, stop *

♪ You're losin' me ♪

♪ I can't find a pulse ♪

♪ My heart won't start anymore ♪ ♪