Original subtitles

Previously on Dr. Quinn... Michaela?

Are you? No, not if you ask me.

I think pregnant. Oh, no, and I couldn't be. I came to say goodbye, but I don't

think I ever can.

You have a son who's been very ill.

What do they tell you? He'll be fine. And you?

You are gonna be all right.

Suddenly feeling very tired.

I wanted a child.

Dolly's child.

My child.

Finish writing that essay for Parents' Day yet?

I've been working on it.

What's yours about?

I haven't quite figured it out yet. I want it to be great.

It will.

You sure?

Yeah.

Oh, you're hurt.

I'm taking you to the boss.

Just another one of your attacks.

Now, you rest a while, and me and your pa will take you home later.

Be right back.

I'm going to bring Anthony some of that to me to see if he likes it when you

feed him on it.

Please, Grace, wait a moment.

Anthony's condition.

This latest attack.

The fever.

I believe it may have damaged his kidneys.

His kidneys?

What's wrong with his kidneys?

They're enlarged.

Painful to the touch.

That's never happened before.

No, it hasn't.

We've learned to deal with Anthony's sickness as it comes. There's no

it. But I appreciate you telling us, Dr. Mack.

I'm going to go get him that soup now.

Look out for soldiers.

We've got a few minutes.

How did it go? The goddamn thing.

We have to speak with the Indian elders?

Black Moon got to him first.

He's got them joining up with other tribes.

Kaya Apache.

He's telling them what the army's planning on killing every Indian in the

territory.

Don't you worry, Michaela.

It ain't over. We're not giving up.

I received an answer from Sergeant McKay.

Want me to turn down our appeal?

Like I said, we're not going home.

What is it?

Something else happened?

Set against peace for the army.

But Sully's determined to keep trying to convince them.

How is Sully?

Oh, he's all right.

No, I mean, how did he take the news about the miscarriage?

I couldn't tell him.

Couldn't.

I wanted to, but I couldn't answer his pardon.

Michaela, you've got to tell him.

For both your sakes.

Be all right, I will.

Just let us know when you're feeling tired.

I'm all right.

Ma, what's your favorite thing about Colorado Springs?

It's not an easy question.

I know.

Miss Teresa told us to write about our favorite thing.

And then she's going to pick one to read our parents today.

Well, just figure it out one step at a time.

What things make you feel good?

Well, I like the fishing.

Fishing? That's good.

And the library.

They got books all the way from Boston.

Well, you could write about what those books mean, do you?

And the hot springs. And the newspaper.

Not many other places got those.

Well, you got plenty of things to pick from.

That's my problem.

What's my favorite thing?

I'll see what you mean.

That's what makes our town special.

Hello there.

Dr. May. Robert E. Grace.

Come to check on my patient.

How are you feeling, Anthony?

He's better.

That attack's passed.

Yeah.

I'm better.

I'm glad to hear that.

Well, come on, Anthony.

Let's get these beans on the stove.

He's trying to hide it.

I can tell he's still in pain.

It's never lasted this long.

No, it hasn't.

Many more Apache and Kyle come from the east to join Black Moon.

You think he's going to attack?

For now, he waits and gathers strength.

Good, he'll buy us some time.

Maybe we can talk to the Cairo and the Apache ourselves and convince them to

move up north here where they can live free.

Yes. But we also have to convince the army to allow them free passage.

You and me ain't exactly welcome.

It's true.

But we are not the only voice.

Kayla's tried. Daniel's tried.

Army wasn't listening.

Perhaps Dorothy could help.

Dorothy? I believe the Gazette can help people see the justice in our cause.

Perhaps then they can help convince the army.

Well, then you should talk to her, my friend.

I am pleased to see that your essays are progressing so well.

I will collect them on Friday.

Michael, your handwriting is amazing.

I'm glad you said you couldn't decide what to write about.

Something my mom and pa say gave me an idea.

Hi.

I think I'm going to be...

Matrice, Anthony's sick.

You do feel a little wrong.

Perhaps it would be best if you go home.

Brian, would you go with me? Sure.

It is good to see you.

Oh, you look... well.

And you.

McKenna said you were going... Were you able to reason with Black

Moon?

He sees the white man as his enemy.

As the white man sees him.

But there is something we can do to help.

Something you can do.

Me?

What can I do? What you do best.

Write about it.

Make your people understand we are not the enemy.

Why would they listen to me?

Because you thought as they do.

Yes, but that was before I... But now with the raids and folks losing

their homes... You had a great belief in your book, and I did.

I believe you can do the same thing with the Gazette.

Their hearts will hear what your heart hears.

Thank you for coming, Dr. Mike. We'll keep him quiet until his stomach's

settled. Grace, nice nap will do him good.

Maybe I'll make him some pudding. That always seems to quiet him. Grace, I

believe that Anthony's nausea and fatigue are symptoms that are related to

kidneys. You still think there's something wrong with him? With each

pain and swelling seem to last much longer.

And now his kidneys are showing clear signs of deterioration.

What does that mean?

One can't survive without one's kidneys.

Are you sure you're reading the symptoms right, Dr. Mack?

Or perhaps we should get another opinion.

Well done.

Why don't we step outside and get a little fish air?

How about a...

Both sick or not.

Well, yes, you know that.

I mean, you've had these attacks for a very long time.

I mean, really sick.

Why don't we wait here while Dr. Cook has his thing?

Ain't there something you can do for it?

The cause of his illness is still unknown.

Michaela has done everything possible to treat his symptoms, but it would appear

that Anthony has moved into a... hopeful state.

I am truly sorry.

I wish I could offer you better news.

What did the doctor say, Ma?

Dr. Cook says you're going to be just fine.

Now, come on.

Let's go home. I've got an order of apple pie to fill, and you know you are

official date.

How's my sweet girl? How'd you get so big, huh?

Sully?

Do this, Michaela.

Come on.

She's gonna be running soon.

I know, and we won't be able to keep up with her.

Sully, something I need to talk to you about.

While you were away, I... Did you hear that, Michaela? She said, Pop.

Yes, I heard it.

You said Pa, Katie. Yes, you did.

I'm sorry, Michaela. What were you saying?

I, um... You said something about while I was away.

It's about Anthony.

He's become very ill.

How bad is it?

I don't believe he'll recover.

There's nothing worse than losing a child.

I thought I'd never get over it.

You're going to have to talk to me sometime.

I've got nothing to say.

Maybe I do.

I'm listening.

Grace, Dr.

Mike and Andrew wouldn't lie to us.

Now,

we've got to face it.

For Anthony's sake. I know what they said, but they're doctors, Robert E.

I'm his mother.

And if Anthony was not...

I feel it.

Right here.

I want to believe that too.

You'd want to go for a ride.

My legs are still hurting me.

You could ride on the handlebars.

I don't think so.

I might fall.

Hey, Brian?

Yeah?

I think there's something they're not telling me.

What do you mean?

Well, Mama says I'm fine, but I don't know.

It's fine.

Something feels different.

Maybe you could ask your mom what's wrong with me.

Sure. I'll ask her.

Thanks.

Thank you, Brian.

Sure thing.

Ma? Hmm?

What's wrong with Anthony?

Well, you know that Anthony's very sick.

Yeah. And he seemed real worried when I saw him today.

He said something feels different this time.

I'm afraid that it is.

Anthony's condition is... It's very serious.

You mean... He's gonna die?

I'm sorry, Brian.

But there's gotta be something you can do for him.

I wish that there were.

Ma, he wants to know the truth.

You gotta tell him.

I can't, Brian.

Why can't you?

Grace and Robert, you're his parents.

They're a place to tell Anthony.

They don't want me to do it.

But you're his doctor.

And I'm also their friend.

And I must respect their wishes.

What about Anthony's wishes?

Brian's right.

Anthony should know the truth.

I agree.

Robert, he feels the same way, but Grace sees things differently.

I can't imagine, Sully, how they must be feeling.

We'll get through it.

Just like you and I made it through the tough times.

We'll get through it together.

There's something I need to tell you.

I tried to before, but while you were gone, I had a miscarriage.

You were pregnant?

I lost our baby, Sully.

Are you all right?

Oh, I feel well enough now.

When did it happen?

A few weeks ago, just before Founders Day.

I know, I should have told you right away, but I wanted to protect you.

I should have been there.

I'm almost done.

Well, that's wonderful.

Don't I get to read it?

Not yet.

It's a surprise.

I still gotta look it over, check the spelling.

Anthony, I've been thinking.

How would you like to go to New Orleans?

New Orleans?

Wouldn't you like to see where your ma grew up?

When can we go?

Oh, if we save our pennies, I think your pa and I could save enough money that

we could be able to take the train this Christmas.

Christmas?

Wait till I tell Brian.

Dr.

Mike, we're going to New Orleans for Christmas.

Well, that'd be lovely.

Grace, I know Dr. Mike.

He's dying.

So why are you planning a trip to New Orleans?

Because I want the rest of my boy's days to be filled with hope, happiness.

I want that for Anthony too, Grace.

But he's getting weaker every day.

He knows that he's sick.

Planning a trip like this can only confuse him. Didn't you just see him

just smiling like that?

Grace,

you need to hear the truth from his mother. No.

I'm going to tell him it's whatever it takes to keep that smile on his face.

Every precious day he's alive.

Sally is gone?

I rode up to the cave last night to bring up the fruit flies.

I couldn't find them anywhere.

Maybe he's with Carl Danson, trying to talk to some of the Indians.

Yes, I'm sure that's where he was.

Michaela, what is it?

Did you tell Sally about the baby?

Yes.

How did he take it?

He was saddened by it, concerned for me.

But there was something else.

What? I sensed something in him.

The way he held me, it... It was as if something had changed between us.

Oh, Michaela.

You've both been through a great loss.

Sally will get through this.

And you will, too.

Together.

Robert E.

Sorry.

How are you holding up?

I've learned that my son's sorry.

I know, Robert E., I know.

It ain't right a child die before his parents, Robert E. There ain't nothing I

can do about it!

If you can be with him, Robert E., let him know he ain't alone.

That's just it.

Even with him with him, I still feel he's alone in this.

I mean... We're there by his side trying to ease his pain.

Do we tell him we love him, but still?

I don't know.

Listen, it's a good thing that you're telling those things, Robert.

It's a good thing.

But sometimes, it's things that we don't tell each other that keep us apart.

I finished the editorial.

Do you want to read it?

Because you have written it. I know it isn't true.

Thank you.

I keep thinking about when you and I... When we can...

I too have thought about adopting.

Minds being what they are.

Yes. There are many difficulties.

Many questions.

And no answers.

Not yet.

But there will be.

But Ma said I could.

Did you talk to Dr. Mike for me?

Yeah.

What did she say?

She thinks you should talk to your Ma.

No.

I don't want to make her sad.

Yeah.

Maybe you're right.

This was a most difficult decision.

Each one of your essays was deserving of a prize.

However, there was one that stood above the rest.

I am very happy and proud to announce that the winning essay to be read at

Parents' Day was written by Anthony.

You won!

Take her to the clinic.

Al said he collapsed.

Is he all right?

It appears that Anthony suffered a slight stroke.

There's a weakness on the right side and his speech has been affected.

I believe.

We're both here, son.

Hey, sleepyhead.

Hey, Mom.

Anthony.

I know you've been wanting to talk to me about things.

But I was so afraid that I would say the wrong thing that I may... the mistake

of not saying anything.

Isn't this all right, Ma? No.

No, it ain't.

But I'm here.

Me.

And your pa.

To tell you that you can talk about anything you want.

Anything.

What's going to happen to me when I die?

Your soul is going to go straight up to heaven.

Where God will be waiting for you.

Will it hurt?

There'll be no more pain, Anthony.

Will I ever see you again?

Oh, of course you will.

You'll see us in heaven.

How long will I have to wait?

In heaven, years seem like seconds.

Hardly before you can even turn around, there will be your mommy.

Do you mean it?

You know I do.

I thought you left to go see Anthony.

Brian.

I don't know what to say to him, Matthew.

I don't know what to do.

He's the best friend I ever had.

He's going away and he ain't never coming back.

You don't know that?

Let me tell you something else he knows.

He knows you're hurting for him.

What am I supposed to say?

You don't gotta say nothing.

Just being with him is all he needs right now.

Hey, Brian.

Did that wake you?

No, I was just thinking.

I remember how you used to read to me from Robinson Crusoe when I first came

town. Yeah.

You were always wanting to go on an adventure to fall off places.

You even got me to hop the train with you.

Remember?

I'll never forget that day.

That was a really stupid idea.

Nah.

It was fine.

I want you to have this.

But you gotta promise to take real good care of it.

Don't mess up the bill.

Keep it straight.

Smooth it down nice and flat when you take it off at night.

I will.

And don't go letting some girl wear it. It ought to smell like perfume.

I won't.

Good.

I feel better then.

Anthony?

Sully? Oh, I'm sorry.

Oh, Sully, I was so worried.

I know.

I'm sorry.

Oh, I'm sorry.

I was so afraid to tell you about the baby when you first came home.

You told me as soon as you could.

I couldn't find you and I was so afraid.

It's all right.

I just had to get away and think about it.

I was feeling like I should have been here, like I could have done something.

You mean everything to me, you and the children.

If anything ever happens to you, I need to be there.

We're here.

As soon as you got me.

I'd eat home instead of at the clinic.

When he first came to stay with us, I'd get up and sneak into his room just to

make sure he was all right.

I know.

I used to follow you.

Remember that first day?

And he stole that apple pie out of a cool one.

Ended up having apple pie all over his face.

And all over Dr.

Moxter's.

He was so determined.

He was going to come live with us.

But you were the one smart enough to insist that we adopt him.

I had to.

He's our son.

That he is.

I would like to welcome all of you to Parents' Day.

We will begin our program today with a presentation by one of our brightest

students.

He will read his winning essay, A Place Called Home.

Anthony?

Miss Teresa asked us to write what our favorite thing about Colorado Springs

was.

But I don't have one.

I have a hundred.

One of them is sleeping off the porch for Mr. Bray, who gives me a piece of

candy if I do a good job.

Thanks, Mr. Bray.

Good work.

One of them is going down to her church and visiting our reverend.

Who can see what you're thinking without using his eyes.

Everyone's here, Reverend.

One of them is delivering the gazette for Miss Dorothy.

Gives me newspapers from all over the country to read.

Thank you. So I can learn what's going on in other places.

One of them is going to see her very own lady doctor.

Takes care of you without making it hurt more.

One of my very favorite things.

Having a best friend makes you feel like you can do anything if you try.

But my most favorite thing about Colorado Springs is my mom and pop.

Who took me in when I had no family and gave me a home.

They love me all the time, no matter what.

And even went to the judge and asked him to make me their son.

I lived in a lot of towns in my life.

But Colorado Springs is the best place I've ever known.

Because that's where I found my mom and pa.

No matter how far I travel.

Or where I might go.

I can always close my eyes and I'll feel

and know that I am home again.