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Maybe he's still here.

Matthew?

Matthew!

Why wouldn't you tell us where he was going?

Probably didn't want us to know.

I felt like him just to run off.

He's been brewing for a while.

I don't understand. He was doing so well since Ingrid died.

Maybe not as good as we thought.

Could you wash the stew? I don't want it to burn.

Good.

Hungry? A little. I can wait for Ma.

Sorry I'm late. Everything took longer than I thought.

Did you stop by the telegraph office?

No word from Matthew?

Not yet.

He's been gone a long time.

Just two weeks.

Sit at the table.

He said he'd write.

Maybe he's not in a place where he can mail a letter.

Rod, would you like to say grace?

Thank you, Lord, for the gifts you bring us.

Could you watch over Matthew, please?

Bring him home soon?

Amen. Amen.

Thank you, Kelly.

Thank you.

Peter!

Hello. Come on in.

Thank you.

I thought you were working down at the railroad camp.

That is why I have come.

Is something wrong?

Many people are sick there.

They fall down. They have fever.

They cannot work. How many?

Last Monday, one or two. But each day, more get sick.

Now, I think maybe ten or fifteen.

I'll ride out tonight.

I'll go with you. The road's in bad shape. It could take all night.

Well, I'll go.

Why don't you all wait outside?

We don't know what these men have, and it may be contagious.

Dr. Quinn, that is the wrong tent.

Matthew?

Dr. Mike.

Matthew! Matthew!

Hey, Matthew.

Why didn't you tell us Matthew was here?

I thought you knew where he was.

When are you coming home?

I don't know.

But we miss you.

Everybody does.

What are you doing about your cattle? I gave them to Jan.

He's going to take the family to Montana, start a new life.

Maybe you can come back to town with us.

I'm working here now.

Here? How did that happen?

Well, the last bartender, he stole a week's earnings and disappeared.

So the bar, Mr. Riggs, asked me to stay.

You're a bartender?

I run the tent.

Over here.

I'm going to press down gently on your stomach.

Have you been able to keep any food down?

Colleen, would you give the gentleman some Paragoric?

That should stop the pain and the cramping.

But you are dehydrated, so I'll need you to have some broth. Just one sip at a

time.

Don't drink too fast.

They all have dysentery.

It could have been something they've been eating or drinking.

I'll go check, see where they're drawing their water from.

Good. Well, I'll be back shortly. I'm going to talk with Matthew.

I don't think that's a good idea.

He doesn't belong here.

Right now, it feels like he doesn't belong anywhere. We're his family.

We remind him about Ingrid dying.

The whole town does. That's why he took off. I understand.

But if he were near us in time, we could help him heal.

Folks got different ways of healing.

Some want to be with the people they love. Others got to go off by

I still say you ought to find out what they need before you can trace them out

there. Those fellas have been gone long enough. They're going to need just about

everything. And they'll pay top dollar, too.

That's the law of supply and demand.

Well, I guess you wouldn't understand about something like that. Am I right,

Jake? Most ladies don't.

What makes you think those men are going to want Barbara? There's nothing for

them to dress up for. She's good for the soul.

Lauren, I was hoping to order some furnishings for the bank. Well, well,

will help you. Jake and I are just setting out.

Oh, may I ask where? Oh, yes, you may.

We may or may not tell you.

They are going to the railroad camp.

Lauren has spent all his money buying things to sell to those workers.

That sounds like a wise business strategy, Lauren. Well, what did I tell

See what I told you?

Well, since you seem to be intent on doing this, would you mind going by

on your way back?

Suits me.

I've got to talk to the mayor there anyway.

This is for Mr. Little John at the Machine Works.

It's for a new press. Tell him to ship it here.

How much money you got in there?

One hundred dollars.

Everything I've made since I started the Gazette. Why don't you just keep on

using the press you've got? Because I need a larger one if I'm going to expand

to eight pages.

Dorothy, I'm delighted to hear you thinking like this.

But I can handle the transfer of money.

It's safer and more businesslike.

No, thank you.

Lauren can take care of it just fine.

Two, four, six. That's 106. Not bad.

We'll take in double that on payday.

Set up an extra table? Two.

And give them drinks for a half price as long as they keep playing.

Here's your cut.

Mr. Riggs?

Dr. Quinn, how are my men doing?

Improving.

I think I found the source of your problem.

What's that?

You've been here for two weeks, and since the water pump is too close to the

outhouses, the water's been contaminated.

I'm afraid you'll have to draw from the stream from now on.

Fine, we'll move the pump.

How long before my men can go back to work?

A few days.

Much obliged, Dr. Quinn.

I've got big plans for your boy here if he keeps on going the way he is.

Do you think I could have a word with Matthew?

Not at all.

You feeling all right? You're not sick?

No.

I ain't been drinking much water.

Matthew, I think I know what you're going through. No.

You don't.

You can't run away from things.

You have a way of catching up.

I don't want to talk about it.

When I thought I'd lost David.

I'd feel waves of sadness.

Missing him, remembering him.

But over time, the pain did ease.

I know you're trying to help me.

But you're making it worse.

Matthew, we love you.

Maybe you ought to get going back to town.

Everything's on sale.

Wool blankets, suspenders, shoes.

Anything you want, we got it here at Bray's Mercantile.

I don't understand it. I lowered my prices.

Twice. Nobody's even looking.

Oh, they're looking. They just ain't buying.

I prayed you too late.

Another merchant came through last month, right after payday.

Then bought up everything he had.

Dang!

Paid twice what you're asking, too.

There's got to be something they need. I don't think you can give that away.

But my investment.

Don't worry, it'll work out.

How? Somehow.

I'll buy you a drink as soon as I'm done here.

Dr. Mike, I heard about the epidemic. I came as soon as I could.

That's very kind of you, but I think we have things under control.

Men are improving.

We'll be going home soon.

But I don't want to leave without Matthew.

Matthew's here?

He's running the saloon.

But I'm afraid he won't come back with us.

That's unfortunate.

Yeah.

Maybe you could talk to him.

Maybe he'll listen to you.

Matthew. Everything happens for a purpose, and we can't always see that.

God has his reasons. He has a larger plan.

We can't expect him to tell us all of his reasons.

What kind of loving father punishes folks without telling them why?

God only sends us what we can bear.

That's why I know that you'll get through this.

That ain't true, Reverend.

Sometimes folks can't take what they get.

Sometimes ruins are lies.

Like who?

Like Sully's folks?

When they lost their farm, his pa gave up.

Ma drowned herself.

I don't know what happened with Sully's parents.

But with Ingrid, I believe that God has a higher purpose for her.

She is in a brighter world.

Sorry, Reverend.

The only world I know about is this one.

Brian, take this. I need to get some rope from Lauren. Okay.

Who's slow?

You. We could have laid ten more feet if you hadn't been taking your sweet time.

I can drive spikes faster than any man here.

Prove it.

I will.

We

got

Wilbur, and we got the Chinaman.

Hand me up a dollar and place your bet. First man to drive ten spikes. Takes the

prize, $20.

And I'm covering all bets, so who's in?

Five bucks on the Chinaman.

His name is John Lou.

Oh, Chinaman's no match for that Wilbur.

Why, look at them arms. He's huge.

Biggest ain't always the fastest, Lord. In this case, he is.

Oh, if I had any money, I'd bet it on him. You can make back everything you

lost. I know, but I ain't got nothing.

Unless I borrow Dorothy's. Why not? This is a sure deal.

Who else wants to join me? this concept.

I do.

I'll put a buck on Matthew.

Here. A hundred dollars on Wilbur.

All bets

are in.

Keep your hammers on the ground till I say start.

to leave tomorrow.

We could stay another day or another week. It wouldn't make a difference.

I can't leave him like this. He's lost.

Maybe he needs to be lost for a while.

I did.

You suffered so.

I got through it.

Matthew, he's going to do the same.

Wouldn't you want to save Matthew that pain?

Of course I would.

But I wouldn't know how.

I have to try whatever way I can.

I only wish it was me instead of Matthew.

If I could take the pain.

But you can't.

Just stay on.

Two days.

And I'll go without complaint.

You're only making this harder on everybody.

What am I going to do?

Tell her.

Dorothy, I gambled away all your money. I can't say that.

Do you want me to tell her? No.

She'll have my hide.

My life won't be worth two cents.

You could always go to Bolivia.

I don't want to go to Bolivia.

You did before. I don't now.

So what do you want me to tell her when I see her?

Tell her business is wonderful.

I didn't know you were back.

Where's Lauren?

He got delayed.

Oh, why's that?

That little business plan of his didn't quite work out.

Oh, told him it wouldn't.

Now he's gone and lost all that money.

Money?

Well, the cash that he invested to buy all those goods.

Oh, well, he's still got all the merchandise.

What's he going to do with it?

Guess he'll find some other folks to buy it.

Well, has he left the Manitou yet?

Might have.

Might have?

Well, he was planning on it when I left. Look, don't worry about it, Dorothy.

He'll be back in a moment.

What do you think is going to happen to Matthew?

I think he'll work in that saloon for a while.

Follow the railroad until he realizes it ain't what he wants.

How long will that take?

Can't say.

Depends.

It's all right, Peter.

Quick, get him into the tent.

Be careful with his arm. Come on, guys.

We're going to need replacements for those men.

Anybody here work with nitroglycerin before?

Well, somebody's going to have to learn real quick because we can't move

forward.

So what will you do? I'm afraid we'll have to amputate.

It's the only chance he has.

Will you get me the bone saw?

Still unconscious.

Give him some chloroform anyway and watch his breathing.

Just read and study.

All right.

Folks, I fear.

This makes 12 who have died since we started.

Won't be the last.

You want to do with the thing and ship them back home?

No. We will bury these with them.

And I have to make lanterns.

Lanterns? Before.

We believe that a spirit must travel across the dark water before it can

heaven.

So we light a lantern to help guide the spirit on its journey home.

Can I help you?

Yes, that would be good.

How is Yong Liu?

He did very well. He has a good chance of surviving.

I'm afraid we had to amputate his arm.

Then he cannot work. Not for the railroad.

He was sending money home to feed his family.

All the men were.

They kept nothing for themselves.

We can take up a collection.

All they dreamed of was seeing their homes once again.

Or find men.

What good did it do them?

Matthew. You can talk now.

Let me have your attention.

Gentlemen, do I have any volunteers yet? You ain't got a Chinaman's chance of

finding anybody to blow that wall.

Would a $50 bonus change anybody's mind?

Won't do me any good if I'm dead.

Those men were just unlucky.

There's a lot of money to be made if you got a talent for this.

Who wants to try?

I will.

Good man.

Can you do it tomorrow?

Why not?

What are you doing?

You don't know a thing about nitroglycerin.

I'll learn.

Not in one day.

It takes months to learn how to use it.

We don't blow that wall, and nobody works.

You could get blown up with it.

I'll take my chance. 50 dollars?

It's not the money.

I don't care about money. Then what is it?

What do you care about?

Nothing.

You've got to stop him. How?

Like his father.

He'll listen to you.

Michaela, he's not listening to anybody right now. Well, you've got to hold him

back. I don't care how you do it. You mustn't let him go up on that wall.

He's of age.

I could tie him up and hold him. He'll go out later and find something just as

dangerous and just as crazy.

I know when Abigail died, you went off to war.

You put yourself in the most dangerous spot you could.

You were lucky.

But we can't trust a lot now.

Not with Matthew's life.

Can we?

You got another way out of this tent?

Why? Dorothy's here.

Dorothy? She just drove up with Jake and another fella.

Big fella.

Who? I don't know.

Maybe it's the man that wanted to sell her that press.

Now they're both gonna want to kill me.

She gave me money to buy the press and I lost it all gambling on that spike

driving contest.

You can get out that way.

Thanks. I gotta hide my wagon before she sees me.

Miss Dorothy?

Jake? Are you all right?

I'm fine. Oh, good.

Have you seen Lauren?

Why?

Oh, we've got to find her. I can't explain right now, but it's very

Well, if I run into him, I'll let him know.

Well, do you know if he's still in camp?

I don't know.

Oh.

Where's your mom?

She'd be at the medical tent.

Maybe she can help.

What do you put on the lanterns? We write in praise of those we have lost,

a prayer for their safety.

What does that one say?

Wisdom.

That's how you spell wisdom.

Hey, Matthew!

Come here! Look at this!

Our language does not use letters.

We use characters, pictures that mean words.

This means broom, and this means heart. The broom is placed over the heart.

Because when you sweep the heart clean, sweep away anger and bitterness, wisdom

can arise.

Why do you put the lanterns in the water?

Buddhists believe that life is like a sea of suffering.

We place the lanterns on the water to help the spirits reach the other side.

You believe that?

In some ways, yes.

There is much suffering in life.

But there is also much beauty.

It's hard to see that through the suffering.

You must grieve for your loved one.

Then you must let them go across.

Matthew, maybe you could make a lantern for Ingrid.

Yes, we will place them on the water together.

You already had a funeral.

How's it gonna take?

I've seen him work with this stuff.

I know what to do.

I've seen him use it a few times, too.

Doesn't mean I know anything about handling something that unstable.

Nothing's gonna happen while I'm up there.

Yes, it is.

Because you wanted to.

I never said that.

You didn't have the guts.

Guts? I'm the only man with the nerve to blow this wall.

No, you're the only man stupid enough not to wait for a demolition team.

Is that what you came here for?

To tell me I'm stupid?

Matthew, you are not the first person to lose somebody.

I walked around for months in circles asking myself why.

Why did I have to lose my wife and my baby?

But there ain't no sense in asking that.

It happened.

The question now is what are you going to do?

Are you going to go up or are you going to go down? And let me tell you, going

down is the coward's way.

You blow this wall and you're a coward.

Come on, man. Let me see how mad you are. Show me how mad you are at Ingrid

leaving you here all by yourself. I'm not mad at Ingrid. Yes, you are.

And you're mad at me because I won't let you blow yourself to bits no matter how

stupid you are.

You got more to show me.

Let me see.

Come on.

Show me how mad you are.

You cannot do this alone.

I ain't asking for help.

You need a steel driver.

And you need someone to steady the basket while you set the light your good

in.

Please.

You must have two men in the basket.

Why can't we come?

Too dangerous.

Matthew. We'll take care of Matthew.

He's our brother. We've got a right to be there too.

Stay in your tent. We'll come get you when it's safe. Don't worry. We won't

anything happen to him.

I want to go, too.

All right, let him down.

All right, it's easy now.

Keep it steady. Keep it steady.

You see?

You

see?

Gently. Clay.

You ready?

You ready?

Yeah.

Help me.

Help me.

Matthew!

Matthew, help me.

Matthew! Matthew!

Matthew!

Let's get pushy!

Rick said they cleared the wall.

They'll be moving on in a few days.

Matthew will be going with them.

It's going to be all right.

It's going to take some time.

But I think he's been through the worst of it.

I really think so.

He made a choice up there.

I'll get my wagon and bring it to the back of the tent.

You can't keep hiding from her. I know. That's why I'm getting out of here.

No matter where you go, she's going to be right behind you. Or you're going to

be thinking about her. If only I had better money.

But you did.

What am I to do?

Pay it back.

Over time.

You're lucky. This is something you can pick.

The longer you hide from her, the harder it's going to be.

Lauren, free! Where have you been? We've been looking for you for two days.

I got it.

I'll have it. Just give me the time.

Get what?

What you're looking for.

Lauren, the money I gave you, did you take it to Manitou?

Oh, oh, thank God.

You're not mad? Oh, mad. I'm thrilled.

The machine works went bankrupt. If you'd given them the money, I'd never

seen it again. Oh, thank you.

Thank you, Lauren.

My money's safe.

Dorothy, there's something I gotta tell you. Oh, I know all about it. Jake told

me. Don't worry, I got a solution.

You do?

This. is Mr. Baines from Texas.

He's driving 10 ,000 head of cattle to St. Louis.

St. Louis?

His cowboys have been on the trail for so long they need shirts, hats, boots,

blankets. I got it. I got everything you need.

Ordered direct from Denver. Well, finest quality.

I'll take it all.

How much?

It's finest quality.

$100?

You got yourself a deal.

Here you go.

Lauren, my money.

The money I gave you to buy the press.

Oh, that money.

Oh,

here.

Thank you.

Mr. Baines?

You see?

Told you it'd all work out.

Dorothy's happy. Baines is happy. You got rid of all your merchandise.

But I lost my money.

Well, you can't have everything.

That'll do it.

You can take the rest.

At the rate we're moving, we should probably make it to Pueblo by next

Then head south to Santa Fe.

Wherever you go, we hope you'll be happy.

I don't know about being happy.

You just take it as it comes.

Someday you might even have some of the things that you dreamed of having with

Ingrid.

I don't know.

Ingrid and I were going to have our own home.

She was going to send for things from Sweden so she'd feel even more like it

hers.

It would have been lovely.

I was going to take her to Boston.

So that she could see where you grew up.

She was going to take me to Sweden.

And we were going to have children right away.

You'd have been a grandma.

I would have loved that.

Maybe you ought to take this back for me, too.

What is it?

This is the first thing that Ingrid was going to put in our house.

It's beautiful.

She was having a man in Denver make it.

Jan told me that she would send 50 cents every month, no matter how bad things

were.

She was only four months away from finishing her payments.

When she died, the man just gave it to Jan.

May I open it?

What's that sound?

You know it.

Don't you?

You remember that... ...herd of gurry that we had in Miss Olive?

Couldn't work up the nerve to ask Ingrid to dance.

She was crying because she thought no one was asking her, but she didn't know

that I'd bought a bunch of tickets.

That's when we finally talked.

And when we danced, this was on their plan.

yawn.

She always wanted to remember this music.

And that way she'd never forget what it felt like to fall in love with me.

Please. I made one for you.

Let's pray.

Listen to me when the candle goes out.

It means the spirit has reached the outer side.

Let's go home.