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Thank you.

I'm so tired of being someone's punching
bag.

How can love hurt like this?

When did I get to this place thinking
it's okay for a man to beat on me?

Is it because I grew up being abused?

Looking at myself in the mirror made me
think back to my childhood struggles

while growing up in Florida.

Get out. I'm sorry I've been bad. I
promise I'll be good from now on.

Get out.

Even though it was only five minutes, it
seemed more like eternity.

All I kept asking myself is, how can
someone be so mean?

How can you be so cruel?

How can you just drive away and leave me
like that?

As if I'm nothing.

My mom had gotten in the habit of
dropping me off with totally different

strangers.

And leaving me for days at a time.

Are you a young lady?

What's your name?

Rosalyn. I knew my mom wasn't coming
back any time soon.

She done it so many times before to me.

I've gotten used to it.

Let's go!

What are you doing?

Rosalyn!

Yes, Mommy?

I'm leaving now.

So you're going to stay here with
grandmother for a few days, okay?

Okay.

You need to stop doing this to her.

Doing what?

I really don't even know what you're
talking about. You know exactly what I'm

talking about. This is your child. I do
everything for her. You do everything

except spend time with her? You think
that's being a good mother? Are you

kidding me?

I don't have time for this.

Lois.

Lois.

She needs to know that you love her.

She needs to know that you care.

My grandmother Eula would always make
excuses for my mom.

But as long as I had my grandmother
Eula, I didn't care.

I didn't really know my mom anyway.

And then the unthinkable happened.

Thank you so much, Irma, for coming to
my mother's funeral today.

I wouldn't have it any other way.

Your mother was like a mother to me,
too.

She was very fond of you.

Thank you so much.

I have to go.

But before I do, I need you to know
something.

Call me if you need anything.

I mean anything.

Whether it's a place to stay, food to
eat, someone to talk to, someone to pray

with.

I'm here for you.

Like your mother was here for you. Thank
you so much.

You take care.

You be safe out there.

I was later told that my grandmother
Eula was killed in a car accident.

They say she died instantly.

My Aunt Cece was driving the car.

A lot of my family blames her for the
accident.

I can only imagine how hard that was on
her.

Rodwin, keep still.

After Grandma died, me and my mom went
to live with Aunt Cece and her family.

store. I'll be back in a bit.

Hey, girl.

Do you think I can bring you back some
cigarettes and I'll give you the money

back when I get paid?

Girl, let's go.

Come on.

One day while my mom was doing one of
her banished naps, my Aunt Cece dropped

off to my grandmother on my dad's side
in Vienna.

Boy, I sure didn't know what I was doing
myself until...

Yes, he is.

Look at my little bed.

Rudolph tells me that your mama passed.

Yeah. Yeah.

Are you old enough?

As best I can, I suppose.

Yeah, well, you and your family are my
friends.

Thank you. I sure appreciate that.
Please, Auntie, please don't leave me

I promise I'll be good and clean up my
mess and won't eat your food anymore.

Please, Auntie.

You're going to be okay soon.

I guess I must be going, okay?

It's going to be okay.

It's going to be all right.

Well, I'll see you later. Thank you.

Hey, your family, I send my love. I sure
will.

Mm -hmm.

My mother Beatrice was an old food
southern lady with a twist of praises.

Hey, you there.

You okay?

Who you talking to?

Nobody.

Here, man.

Let me talk to you.

Right up here.

You know, contrary to what you think,

your grandmother does love you.

But she beats me all the time.

She just...

She just has a funny way of showing it.

She's what they call a disciplinarian.

What's that?

Someone who believes in firm discipline.

Like beans.

They do it out of love.

I don't get it. If you love somebody,
why would you hurt them?

You'll understand in one day. All right?

But don't worry.

Uncle Martin is here now. All right?

My Uncle Martin was my hero.

I always wished he was my dad instead of
my uncle.

He's one of the few people that spent
time with me. He saved me from a lot of

Beatrice crazy.

Lord, please help my uncle with his
drinking problem.

He is such a good person, Lord, even
when he drinks. In Jesus' name I pray,

amen. I always pray to God to help my
uncle stop drinking. I hate it when he

drunk.

I was trying to make her some dinner,
Mama.

You know, every night you come home
drunk, and then you try to burn the

down.

I was trying to help your way. How? By
burning down the house?

You know what?

You just a wicked woman.

I see why you haven't done it.

I said it.

And if I was him, I would have left your
ass too.

I don't need to take this shit.

Oh, you got to go.

You ain't going to shoot your own son
now, are you?

I'm tired of you.

You shot me.

I can't believe you shot me, mama.
That's what you get.

Why don't you go sit over there in that
chair over there and sit still so I can

wrap you up before you bleed to death.

Okay.

Oh,

oh, oh, oh.

Okay. All right.

Over there.

Okay.

Okay.

Get your hand up. Get your hand up.

I think that'll hold you and we can get
you to the hospital.

Don't just stand there. Come on over
here and help me get your uncle outside

take him into the car and put him in the
hospital.

Hey.

They're not telling nobody what
happened, huh?

How was your day?

How was my day, Mama?

I'm going to be on crutches because you
shot me.

Please, that was just a little wound.
You'll get over it.

You want me to make you come out there
for me too?

She knew she was wrong, so she was being
extra nice to him.

Me? I was just happy to have him home.

I never heard my grandmother scream and
cry like that with so much pain and

anguish. Later, I found out that my
uncle had died.

I lost my best friend that day. I lost
my hero.

A part of me died, too.

Y 'all get your black asses in this
house.

And don't make me repeat myself.

Who said you could sit your ass on that
bed? Get up. In fact, all y 'all line up

right here. But, Grandma, we didn't do
anything. Shut up!

Now, I don't know which one of y 'all
did it, but somebody took $5 from my

purse.

And if one of y 'all don't fess up, I'm
going to beat all y 'all.

But, Grandma, we didn't do anything.

I said shut up!

She's right. We wouldn't do anything
like that.

I'll shoot you one by one until somebody
tells me who took my money.

Grandma, please do not shoot us.

You don't have your money, Grandma.

Please.

Do y 'all think I'm playing?

Do you think I'm playing? Do you? No.

Do you think I'm playing?

Thank you.

what you want.

Jesus on the main line.

Tell him what you want.

Sleeping

in

the woods was my safe haven.

I started running away when I was nine
years old.

And to think my grandmother found her
$5, and she didn't even apologize to

anyone.

Sitting here watching all my brothers
and sisters open their gifts, and I

get anything that year. I was used to
it, though, because I was the stepchild.

I was the black sheep.

That's the best place I've ever been.

You look good.

You think so?

I know some very loud -ass men, too.

I just want to kiss your pretty lips.

Wait. I don't know if I'm ready for
this.

What do you mean?

I love you. I thought you loved me.

I do, but... But if you do, then you do
whatever it takes to make me happy just

like I do whatever it takes to make you
happy.

You're looking good today.

You say that to every girl.

Nah, you're special, like, really,
really special.

All of you.

Wanna come inside?

My parents were expecting me home an
hour ago to babysit my little brother.

what's 30 minutes gonna hurt?

Are you trying to kill me? Nah, I'll
protect you, for real. Okay, Superman.

Yeah, I am Superman.

You know what I mean?

Yo, what's good?

I'll be right back. What you mean you'll
be right back? Like I said, I'll be

right back.

Who was that?

Who, her?

She ain't nobody.

You know Sean, right?

Well, that's his girl.

She was just out here looking for him.

Why were you just chilling in her car?
I've been calling your house.

Baby, baby, stop.

You know I love you, right? Only you.

You sure have a funny way of showing it.

Well, I can show you better than I can
tell you.

Right after that, I found out I was
pregnant.

Unfortunately, I was forced to get rid
of the baby.

I broke up with my first boyfriend and
met this cute guy from Philly. And

a year of my first pregnancy, I was
pregnant again.

I started dating another guy from my job
named T.

He accepted my first baby and treated
her like his own.

He bought more stuff for her than I did.

It just seemed like we belonged
together.

I found a credit card, and instead of me
turning it in, I took the opportunity

to go on a shopping spree that landed me
with some legal issues.

Where's Rosalyn?

Grandma,

what you doing on this side of town?

Last night I dreamt of fishing.

You pregnant again?

Yes, ma 'am.

I did not raise my granddaughter to be
sitting around here with a bunch of

babies.

And you better take care of her and
treat her right. Because if you don't,

you're going to be meeting your mother
real soon.

You hear me?

That's what I thought.

Well, I better get my collard greens
before someone gives them away.

Yo, what's up with your grandma?

She's a loose cannon. What you want me
to say?

I can't believe you stood there while
she pulled a gun on me like that.

Like it's cool.

Well, it could have been a lot worse.

Not too long afterwards, I was placed on
community control and violated twice.

Then I was sentenced to prison and
pregnant.

My daughter's godmother, Pat, offered to
take care of my daughter while I was

away.

What's up, baby?

I miss hearing your voice. How you
holding up? I'm doing okay. I just can't

believe they gave me all that time.

I miss my baby.

I miss being at home, and I miss you.

Don't even stress it like that. You'll
be home before you know it.

I hope so.

So, how's my little princess doing?

How do you know it's a girl?

Because I had a dream.

Like when your grandma dreamed about bad
fish.

Shut up.

Yo, put myself down.

Who's that?

A friend of mine, they came over to
chill.

Well, that's my time.

Keep your head up, baby.

I love you.

And I'm here for you.

Love you, too.

I'm Dr.

Lewis, and this is Nurse Thomas.

Hi, Rodman.

Hi. How are you feeling?

I'm feeling a little better than I did
earlier today, but I'm still in a lot of

pain. I heard you had a pretty bad
fever, but it seems like the medicine I

prescribed is working for you.

Yes. Good.

Nurse Thomas, did you take her blood
pressure?

Yes, it's 114 over 78.

All her vitals are normal.

All right. All right, good.

All right, well, let's see what we got
going on here.

Let's come see him in that chair over
there.

Scoop this way and just place your knees
up. There you go.

All right, perfect.

All right, I'm just going to need you to
relax, all right?

Relax and breathe.

Relax.

Okay. All right. All right.

So I hear you're from Winter Park.

Matter of fact, I still own a house
there.

Yeah, all right. Yeah, keep breathing,
okay?

Dr. Dominguez, please dial extension
112.

Dr. Dominguez, please dial extension
112.

Is everything okay?

Is my baby okay? Why did the doctor
shake his head?

He just said that you're not dilating
like you should be.

What does that mean?

That means that he may have to give you
a cesarean. No!

No!

My second daughter was born while I was
in prison, and she's okay.

So, I got this cute little two -piece
sequin dress up tonight. You know that

club on 9th Street. It's gonna be
dumping tonight.

No, I'm not trying to go to no club now.

I'm still trying to get on my feet. The
last thing I need is to be moving back

with my grandmother, because I couldn't
make it on my own.

Besides, you know, I want to do right by
T.

What? You relying on T or something?

What do you mean by that?

I'm just saying, you're crazy for
thinking T is... Ever gonna get his act

together.

I mean, I just don't get it, Kay. Like,
T... T used to be so good at being

supportive.

You know? And when I was with him, I
used to feel like no matter what was

on, everything was gonna be all right.

Now I don't know what happened.

I know.

What?

T is... I'm gonna put this.

He's smoking rock. Huh?

You heard me.

He, your man, smoking rock.

Smoking rock?

You mean crack?

Nah, I mean Play -Doh. Yes, crack.

White? Coke?

He is a crackhead?

Nah.

He smokes weed.

Occasionally. But I know for a fact, he
does not throw crack.

Right. A friend of mine said they saw
him at a crack house a few weeks back.

Nobody's going to be hanging at no crack
house just because.

So either he's using it or he's selling
it, and we both know he broke.

No. So selling it down.

Look, I'm just... No way. I'm telling
you this because you're my girl. You

two beautiful kids to tend to.

Be careful with tea.

And watch your stuff.

Have a good day.

Okay

your

total is 39 .6.

I know I have it in there somewhere. I
just have to find it.

Put it in my pocket.

$39 .46, right?

Right.

Can I leave this item here and hold and
come back and get them? Yeah, sure. I

can leave them on the counter.

Okay. Thank you.

I'm sorry. I think I left my money at
home.

No problem.

Kay, can you come over and watch the
girls for a few minutes?

I need to step out the house.

Is T here?

Is T in there? Who? T!

I don't know no T.

I'm gonna call -

What are you doing here?

The question is, what are you doing
here?

I'm just hanging out.

Why did you take that money from my
purse?

I couldn't pay for the girl's diapers
and their food because you stole my

Lower your voice. And then you went and
stole all of our jewelry.

Have you lost your mind?

I've been struggling.

Struggling trying to keep this family
afloat and this is what you gonna do?

Go and smoke up all of our money?

You son of a bitch.

Really gonna come over here with this?

Oh, you came here to play, huh?

Get up off the ground.

Get your ass up off the ground. Get your
ass up off the fucking ground.

Get your ass up off the fucking ground.

I don't know what happened

to us.

As bad as I hate to say it, I told you
so.

A crackhead, though.

I can deal with a lot of things, but I
can't deal with that.

Rosalyn, I told you to watch out for
your stuff.

Yes, he sold all your money and your
jewelry first.

Then it's going to be your TV and your
cable box.

Then he's going to go in that room, take
that mattress and your headboard.

All your kids' nice clothes, gone.

They nice, pale -ass shoes.

Bye -bye.

Oh, and those snacks in that kitchen,
those steaks in the freezer, they gonna

gone, too.

He's gonna wipe you out and hurt you bad
if you don't do something now.

You don't think he can change?

Change? Why doesn't he think?

This is not a pair of shoes we're
talking about, sweetheart.

This man is a stone cold hardcore
crackhead.

Anyone can change.

I do believe that.

I mean, look at me.

You remember how I used to sell my food
stamps to pay my cable bill?

That was the old me.

You just have to make up in your mind.

And ask yourself, is it really worth
holding on to someone who's going to

you, steal from you, and smoke crack?

No.

Look, you're my girl.

Whatever you decide, I'm here for you,
no matter what.

Okay?

I'm going to be all right, girl.

Get somebody to beat him up, don't worry
about it. Yeah, I'll do that.

Nah, I don't want to miss no crackhead.

Dark.

Albert's room is dark.

Light.

Amy's room is light.

And they lived happily ever after.

You like that?

Can we read another one tomorrow?

Hey, you know what time it is. You
already know. We got the good stuff now.

The good stuff. The good stuff now.

The good stuff.

I got the good stuff, baby. I got the
good stuff now.

Yeah. Yeah, man.

I mean, right now, that better be the
best stuff I ever had.

I like that right there. Yeah, baby,

that's what I'm talking about. That's
what I'm talking about, baby.

I don't know what type of party you'll
have going on in there.

I swear to God, man. Give us a minute.

Give us a minute, man.

I can't get out of my house. Come on,
man. Keep checking.

We're dipping, baby. We're dipping,
baby.

Shortly afterwards, I ended up going
back to jail.

I really couldn't get it right.

Step forward.

Can't get it right.

Move out.

And I met a girl named Tammy, and we
became fast friends.

And she introduced me to her brother,
Eve.

What?

E would accept my calls, and we would
talk almost every day.

And when I was released from prison, he
was right there outside the prison gate.

While I

moved in with E and got adjusted, my
grandmother thought it was

best for my girls to stay with her to
give me a chance to really get to know

You keep on cooking like that?

I mean, this food was so good.

I'm going to end up putting the ring
right there on that finger. I ain't

playing.

Hello?

Who the fuck are you calling?

I told you I'd be over there later.

Look, don't call this shit damn house no
more.

Bye.

What are you talking about? Nobody.

Why are you lying to me?

Whoa, whoa, whoa. Hold up. Who the fuck
is you talking to like that?

You just blew my whole goddamn day.

I'm getting in the shower.

E?

Time for all this, man.

Wait. Who was that on the phone?

Listen, I gotta take a shower. We're
gonna talk when I come out. We're gonna

talk about this right now.

So you're just gonna watch me take a
shower? Maybe.

All right, see you soon.

So you're not going to answer my
question?

Ross, I don't know what you're talking
about. I know you're lying to me, and I

know it's one of those fucking bitches
calling your phone.

What the fuck are you talking about?

Hey.

After that, I knew I needed to get out
of this relationship, but I just

bring myself to do it.

I was intrigued by the fast money,

so it wasn't long before I started
selling drugs, too.

But the funny thing is, I would
shortstop his customers, and then he

about our selling drugs, so we ended up
going half on a package.

We started getting so much money, we
decided it was time for us to hit 95

and head into Miami.

Roz Lynn, glad you made it.

Thank you for the invitation.

Anytime. Girls, go.

Have a seat.

Make yourself comfortable.

Gracias.

So you're going to taste it? Come.

It's good shit.

We started buying cars like they were
toys.

I was so busy with my mind on my money
and my money on my mind that I wasn't

even paying attention to each eating
behind.

What's up?

You think I was going to find out about
this? No, no, no.

Everything is cool.

Go get high.

Hold on. You cheap ass dress.

What the fuck are you doing?

What the hell is wrong with you, E? You
crazy.

Go get your shit and let's go.

I'm not coming home, man. Go get your
shit. I'm not coming home, man.

I'll see you guys soon.

What are you talking about?

I need a gun.

Somebody's talking about me.

What? I need a gun.

Bring that back, man.

I might pin that to the grass.

Man, get some sleepy ass in the car.
Take me to the liquor store.

I need to get my ass.

What's up? What are you doing?

What the fuck?

Let me have that gun, Rob.

Look around.

Look around.

He is not worth spending the rest of
your life in prison for.

No, I know I'm not perfect, Rob.

I'm not taking this shit no more.

Whoa, come on. I don't deserve this
shit. So what, you gonna shoot me?

Come on, think about this. Think.

Think about yourself. Think about your
girls. Think about the girls.

Huh? How you don't explain this shit to
them, huh?

You really want to watch your girls grow
up from behind bars?

Come on, Ross.

He was on his best behavior for a while
after that.

I guess I showed him that I can be
crazy, too.

Everything went back to normal after a
while, though.

Do not vote no. If they don't get
signed, they're going to end up doing

did. Well, there'll be no more
competition.

What's good, man? How you doing?

Come and get that.

Yeah, I'm home.

I told you I'm trying to get on your
level.

All right, take it easy.

Hey, man, hit my pager, man.

Here we come, 5 -0.

Good. Got more work on you?

Good now.

So what y 'all doing out here?

We're just chilling.

Is that right?

Yeah. Well, we just got a phone call.
That's it.

Someone out here just pulled out a gun
on someone. Any truth to that story?

Sounds like you have a prank caller,
officer. I think you're better off

to find who's wasting the city's money
and resources by sending you out here

no reason.

I'm going to need to see both of y 'all
licenses.

My license is in my purse.

That's in the car you need a warrant to
search for.

Well, go get it.

Watch your mouth.

Whoa, whoa, whoa.

Man, you said you need our license,
right?

Well, my life is in my wallet, in my
wallet, in my back pocket.

Bye.

Roslyn Davis, go ahead and turn around
and put your hands behind your back.

Yeah, with their back, their back. Don't
move, all right?

Rod, I'm going to call E. Don't even
worry.

He's going to bond you out in a minute.

Look ahead.

He gets on my nerves, always chasing the
skirt.

I should have called the police on him
instead.

He ended up bailing me out with the
quickness.

Thank you.

You're looking good today.

Why did you bring me here?

Explain.

My daughter got daycare like two blocks
over.

Oh, okay.

I can't go down just a little bit on
that 13 .5 for a half a brick?

If I gave it to you for any less than
that, I would be losing money.

You drive a hard bargain, baby.

I want to be like you when I grow up.

Girl,

stop.

Anyway, where's your man at?

I don't know. It's probably at some
chick's house.

Typical weekday.

Why do you keep putting up with that?

I don't know.

You're too beautiful to go through that.

You'll probably be in there flirting
with the ladies that work there.

Remember what I told you.

Cut it out.

Serious.

What you been doing all day?

Been making money.

Oh, making runs, huh? That's what I
said.

Why don't you do me a favor and hop in
your car and follow me?

Fine.

No, I ain't going to ask you too many
more questions. What was you doing all

day? I told you.

I was making runs.

You don't have to believe me if you
don't want to.

Shut up.

I'm going to ask you one more time.

What was you doing all day?

He has a girlfriend.

Okay.

Okay.

Well, I'm going to tell you like this.

I knew where you was at all day because
I followed you.

And I knew who you was with.

And if I catch you with that bird again,
I'm going to kill both of y 'all. Do

you understand?

Yes. Do you understand? Yes, yes.

Now, I got to make a run. I'll be back.

Now, you get yourself in the house and
clean yourself up.

You ain't gonna be able to do that, man.
Every time.

Every time there's another female.

Hell no. Yo.

Yo.

Who you?

I was with a lot of people today.

Roslyn, niggas.

Our money good.

What's the problem?

Stay away from my mother.

I know we've been through a lot.

I made a lot of mistakes, and I'm sorry
for that.

But I'm ready to take things to the next
level.

I want to spend the rest of my life with
you.

At one point, he even proposed to me.

Will you marry me?

But I was still hurt.

No.

And saying yes would only make matters
worse.

One day I was called in by Maitland
Detective to do a handwriting analysis.

Wright. Is this your first day? I asked
the questions. Roz Wright.

Roz Lynn.

David. Okay, Roz Lynn.

David. David.

Well, I'm Detective Johnson.

Congratulations. Why are you wasting my
time? And this is my partner, Detective

Spears. Long time.

Hmm.

It's only been a week. Same time.

Yeah.

Same outfit.

Right.

So listen.

This is how this is gonna go. If we ask
you any questions, you answer them.

Right. If we ask you to do something,
you do it.

Understood. Okay, well, I'm going to
start. I'm writing ethical conduct.

Write whatever you want. Go from there.

Smart mouth.

Switch it up. Use your right hand.

I know you've done that before. Use your
right hand. Use my other hand.

You've been to jail, right?

Oh, yeah.

Have I been locked up before? That's
what I said. Is there a second home?

Is she training? Have you been to jail?

Okay.

Okay.

That's good.

You know what?

You need to stop playing games.

Everybody knows why you're here.

So just tell the truth.

You can stop wasting my time and stop
wasting your time. No, you're wasting

time. Stop wasting my time.

You're wasting our time.

What? Is Rosalind Davis home? No.

So you don't mind if we take a look
around? Yeah, I do.

Okay.

If you see her, ma 'am, can you just
give us a call? Yeah, fine. Thank you.

After giving them a call and agreeing to
meet them at a secured location, they

arrested me and took me off to jail.

While in jail, I received a letter from
an anonymous female who was dating Eve,

telling me she's upset because I ruined
her Valentine's Day teddy bear and how

she was sleeping with him and hanging
out at our place and wearing my clothes

jewelry and naming all of my perfume on
my dresser. The most hurtful of all was

that she was pregnant for me.

He proposed to me again after denying
everything, and I said yes, thinking he

would change.

But boy, was I wrong.

I ended up receiving 18 months in the
feds and was released to a halfway

What are you doing?

I came to get my food voucher.

It's 3 .02.

You're late.

I know.

I was on the phone with my husband.

I was checking on my girls.

Well, I guess they're more important
than your dinner tonight.

Miss J, can I please have that voucher?

Do I look like I care anything about
your begging?

One

day

coming home from work, I caught Lady J
searching my room again.

Lady J, why are you searching my room
again today?

Because I can.

But the rules say you can't have random
searches every day.

Rules. Yes.

I run this place.

So you know what that means, right?

I make the rules.

Girl, I am the rules.

So I can do whatever I want to do,
whenever I want to do it. Because I've

the right to do that.

I know what it is that you're trying to
do.

So you can have me arrested.

But you're not even worth it.

But in the meantime, I will be reporting
you.

Girl, go ahead, honey.

Go get the door. What?

Go get the door.

Oh, thanks.

My P .O. is here. Get out.

Get out. My P .O. is here.

What are

you making all this noise

for? My P .O. is here.

If he sees all of this, we both want a P
.O.

Don't mess up my stuff.

Where did you get that?

You're crazy.

Rosalind Jones, how are you? Good
morning.

May I come in?

Um, yeah.

Sure.

What's that?

Powdered sugar?

My husband was making coffee last night
and he forgot to clean it up.

Powdered sugar, huh?

Yes.

in there sleeping.

And he likes us. Thank you.

Well, I guess I'll have to check in next
time.

Do

you

have any questions for me?

No, ma 'am.

All right. Well, I guess I'll be on my
way.

I'll be seeing you on the 23rd. Yes.

23rd. What is wrong with you?

You need to pay attention to your
surroundings.

Stay out of your head.

Girl, you are tripping.

Like, you've been here a million times.

Why is this time different?

I don't know.

Something just seems off.

You're just mad because he forgot your
birthday.

No, that's not it.

All right, don't look at

nobody.

Don't talk to nobody, all right?

Be attentive.

Yeah. Let me go get up. Where you going,
sis?

Huh? Where the wire? What wire?

The police. Listen to me. I don't know
what you're talking about. I don't have

the wire. Where the money at?

Oh, my God. Wait.

Listen. Hey, my bag. What the fuck you
playing with?

Take a plan, huh?

You think you're too pretty to die?

I call the police. Everything is going
to be all right.

You okay?

That

was

the last day I sold drugs. I promised
God and myself that my dealing days were

over.

It was at that moment that I knew I had
to turn my life around.

And rather than owning up to what you've
done as a man, taking your medicine

like a man, you decide to be a rat, a
snitch, a stool pigeon.

I mean, it's not like it's my first time
seeing it, but this is my first time

seeing someone willing to sell out their
woman to save his own hide.

It's pretty cowardly.

Hey, yo, man, can we get on with this?

Whoa, whoa, whoa.

Ain't y 'all missing something?

I'll be right back.

I ended up getting custody of my
daughters again.

We moved in a really nice apartment in a
nice neighborhood.

I feel so bad for what I put them
through.

from the foolish and bad choices that
I've made, not being there for them as I

should, like my mom wasn't there for me,
forcing them to feel the same pain that

I felt, not having a mother present.

Looking in the mirror at myself today,
it's amazing how many lessons we

encounter throughout our lifetime.

I've had my fair share of ups and downs,
even though I changed my life. I thank

God for loving me through it all and
never giving up on me, even when I

to give up on myself.

Now I can stand tall.

Now I can tell my story.

Everything happens for a reason.

It's why I stay filled up.

Betrayed with the times and seasons.

Nothing ever changes.

Taking the proper steps.

Trying to balance it all.

Don't fall, don't fall, don't fall.

Keeping my head real high, so I can
still press the die.

But you don't know what's inside.

You don't really know me.

You don't know what I feel. You don't
really know what I go through.

You don't really know me.

You don't know.

Do I have any real friends?

Or are they all just here for now?

For now.

Is there any particular reason people
stay when they should?