All language subtitles for the_athena_s01e26_leigh_feelings

Previously on the Athena.

That's not just makeup, it's more.

See, they're good, but not as good as
you.

I'm just trying to work out if I can be
my crazy butterfly self and be something

else too. And?

Nyla, are you okay?

Me, in New York?

The answer's yes!

I have to speak quickly before I chicken
out.

At first I thought how I felt about you
was just me being me.

Distracted by the latest shiny thing.

It's been months and I still feel those
things. You were with Sam for years.

Sam was my safety blanket.

Probably why I felt like such a monster
when it got ripped away.

But I got lost in you and I don't care.

I'm not even trying to make sense of my
compass anymore.

Well.

Oh, that's a bit so long.

I... I'm not a seize the day girl.

I walk away from the day.

I think about the day for a while.

Then maybe, if the day looks acceptable,
come back to the day.

Reluctantly. So do that.

I know I want to be your girlfriend.

Think about whether you want... I did.

I can't risk my heart on you.

I was just looking for you.

Can we talk?

You go first.

Actually, I don't think I can.

So... Okay.

Yeah.

I'm transferring to New York.

Wait, what?

For second year.

And third year. Ali said that if I stay,
I'm just going to stagnate. You're

leaving me.

I'm not leaving you.

You're my only friend, and you're
leaving.

That's why I don't get close to people.
They let you down. I'm not letting you

down. I'm just following my own path.

Seriously? You want to sound more like a
self -help book?

This isn't going to affect our
friendship. It's affecting it already.

Only because you're not taking it the
way you should be.

This conversation is pointless.

Done with it.

Enjoy New York.

Well, yeah, I will.

Because there won't be anyone there
holding me back.

We're electrically connected, we're
lighting our own way. We've got this all

together, no matter what they say.

We'll weather any storm and we'll ride
it to the end, just stay connected.

You can't tell him now, right? I mean,
you saw how Lee reacted.

Wow.

A tablecloth. I mean, it must be a
serious date if there's a tablecloth.

These might make it a little bit less
serious.

Okay,

yeah, you're right.

More relaxed now.

Sam Warner, you are very wise.

Thank you. And I can also order it. Oh,
you can, but let me do it, please.

You've done everything.

Good evening. Can I tempt you to a glass
of our finest orange guave?

Oui, oui, you can. I have heard it is
from the region of Corner Shop.

Ah, yes, in the Isle of the Catalitaire.

Oh, um, hands out me and birthdays are
really not a good combination.

It's fine.

It's fine because we're going to have a
great second day.

And we're going to have an amazing third
day.

And things don't have to be perfect
right away because I'm not leaving

But I am.

I'm not surprised Oscar's going to
option this.

So perfect.

Look, I can hold it in my left hand and
my right hand.

Yeah, that's how bags work.

You done for the day?

Do you want me to help you tidy up?

You tidy?

For someone else?

Jamie, are you feeling okay?

Just feeling smart enough to help
someone on the verge of success.

And I do need my beauty sleep.

You don't have to want me home.

Hey, I'm going to make the most of every
second I've got left with you.

Plus, I think your robe might have
werewolves, so just... You're being so

calm and nice.

I mean, don't you just want to shout and
say it's not fair and don't go?

Yeah, of course.

But I won't.

I'm not going to be the guy that stands
in your way.

Do you have to eat so loudly?

They're crisps.

There's no way of eating them quietly.
I've tried.

They're just very soggy in your mouth.

The whole joy of a crisp is to crisp.

Fine, eat loud but walk fast.

You're distracting me and I present
tomorrow afternoon.

Yeah, same.

So you should be stressed.

No, I have to think before I can paint.
I have to imagine my masterpiece in my

art brain. Sometimes I think we're both
aliens from two different planets.

What's your process then?

Uh, stress.

frustration, hatred of anybody that
seems to have it easy, that includes you

right now, wrap that all up in a neat
little bow of anxiety, and that's my

process.

You know what?

You need to relax.

How about some dancing?

You're such a weirdo. No, I'm a genius.
In fact, you don't even have to dance.

I'll dance for you, and just watching me
dance will help you feel less of all

those sad little things.

That is an unreasonable amount of pain.

Maybe if I don't say the words out loud
this time.

You're moving to New York?

No.

Why would you want to leave the Athena?
Why would anyone?

Well, the college in New York is the
Athena Sister College.

So technically I'm not leaving. I'm just
transferring.

Okay.

Just a sec. I got this.

Did you mean any of that at all?

No.

But that's what you really want.

But we're really going to miss you.

Yeah. But we're really happy for you.

I'm also sad.

Are you mad at us?

How can I be?

Happy but also sad.

That's exactly how I feel.

Every big moment.

Happy, confused, heartbroken.

They've been right there next to me.

I'm starting to wonder if I can even do
this.

Did I mention how the situation had
turned because of Chris? Yes, you did.

you don't need to worry.

A broken wrist is a legitimate reason to
not be able to finish.

We can postpone the assessment until
after your recovery.

Thanks. That's good, but... No,
that's... Good.

What are you doing here?

I'm... Well, here to tell Ali I've
changed my mind.

Seriously?

Yeah, seriously.

After yesterday, I thought you'd be
pleased.

Yesterday was... Yesterday.

And this isn't you.

You throw yourself at the world.

You don't hide.

We have these moments, these choices in
life, and you don't make the safe

choice.

Me and you, we wouldn't be here if...

You hadn't taken a risk by speaking out
about what the beer felt.

If you hadn't been brave enough to apply
to the Athena...

I've been carrying this around

because I didn't want to let you go.

But I have to.

Nyla Malik, I love the way you throw
yourself at the world.

You don't hide.

And just for a second, I'm going to be a
bit more like you.

Yeah.

Okay.

I do throw myself at the world.

Very good.

I'll see you later for your final
interview.

Dory, I actually thought this was over.

So, um, I'll just...

Nope. No.

Because being brave does not involve
turning away.

Um... Sorry, this...

Won't take long.

Satori, I realized I want to seize the
day.

Or take a risk.

It's a yes, basically, to being your
girlfriend.

Cool.

For the love of all things adult, can we
please

move on now?

Hey.

So, um... I made...

But you always make me think so.

And I wanted you to know you don't have
to come and visit.

You didn't exactly sign up for long
distance.

Actually, I sort of did.

I just thought that I was going to be
the one moving away.

Chippenham's a bit closer than New York.

True.

Look, I don't doubt that this is going
to be hard.

That we might fight, that we might even
break up.

But that's OK, because we're always
going to be able to make up, because we

infinite timing.

Samona, I don't know if you've noticed,
but I haven't said I love you yet.

No, actually, I hadn't noticed, because
I'm far too cool.

Oh, yeah, you're so cool.

But, um... I wanted to say... I don't
just love you.

I moon and back love you.

It's what the fox says to the bear in my
favourite book when I was a kid, OK?

It's kind of a big deal.

Well,

if New York is the moon... I guess I
will need the scarf, then.

It's the first in the range. I've
already been working on the Nisha purse

the Nisha cardholder. As you can see, it
looks equally brilliant from the left

and from the right.

Is it supposed to happen?

Yet it has.

And I will not option anything from a
girl who can't get basic stitching or

construction right.

Who's next?

We'll talk about it later.

It's been to New York and it's not that
great, apart from the bagels and the

pizza and the art scene. And Central
Park is really beautiful, and the

Bridge, but apart from that it's
rubbish.

It's a pretty good thing I haven't set
my expectations very high.

And anyway, I don't think life is going
to be better out there.

How can it be?

I don't have my BFFF.

Then why go?

Because it's not about life being
better, it's about life being different.

Different fears to face, different
levels to complete.

Now I'm even angrier because you just
make sense.

But you're not going to stay angry at
me, are you?

I'll circle around to understanding.

It's what BFFF has to do.

Do they also explain wrist injuries?

I was trying to cheer Naomi up, and it
was working, but then... And I'm already

going to go crazy. I can't... I can't
paint.

And I can't play the guitar, and... Oh,
so it's not just anger about me, then. I

don't know how to just sit.

And what if it doesn't heal properly? I
can't just become good at math, and I

don't want to. Did you know that I
wouldn't talk until I was three years

And it's not that I couldn't, I just
didn't see the point.

Because I would draw everything that I'm
thinking, and now... Now I...

I don't think you've ever seen me like
this.

You just need to ignore fate, Benny.

Kick against it. And I don't mean by
kicking against inanimate objects.

You just need to figure out a way to
still be you.

Even though it hurts, it'll be worth it.

Come in.

Thanks all the bunches for agreeing to
interview me. I'm so excited I'm not

a tad late.

I'm looking forward to seeing your work.

You slimy little boy. You sabotaged my
bag.

Can you have your little meltdown about
this later? I'm presenting in five.

No. gonna have my large meltdown about
it now how is this any different to what

you did with the red carpet dress i
didn't know that yeah i knew about it

then you punched me and in what world am
i gonna let either of those things

slide you said i was interesting you
wanted to be friends yeah i still do

destroying the bag was about evening
things up true friendship is built on

equality do you think you're smart
enough to get your head around that yes

obviously i'm very clever yes is the
talk done yeah speak to you later

happened to you, did it?

Most people, something happened to them.

Like Nyla threw away a career, and Sam
has the worst dad.

And me, I was so boring, I started lying
to seem interesting.

But nothing happened to you.

Your family has money, so you have
money.

You've got talent and confidence. You're
wrong.

You don't know anything about me.

I haven't always been confident. Maybe
not.

Maybe the full -sized Jamie ego took
time to grow.

But your life has been easy.

Too easy.

Nothing has happened to you to teach you
anything.

So you're just a shell.

You're empty inside.

You're late.

Only because there's no point.

It's obvious what's coming next.

No, it's not.

Because I'm putting you through to
second year.

But perhaps be more careful from now on
with your choice of friends.

Have you seen Jamie?

I know, I know. I didn't have to.

But I give everything my everything.

I don't know how else to be.

Well, you don't need a final interview.

Based on this alone, Lenny, you have a
place in second year.

Ali,

bring it in for a fifth time.

Yeah, I'm not going to do that.

But well done.

When you told me about New York, I said
something that was untrue.

I said that you were my only friend.

But... He's my friend.

And he's my friend.

And they're my friends.

And she's my girlfriend.

She's kind of my friend.

I just want you to know that I'll be
okay.

We'll all be okay.

I mean, I have a flight for Kat.

But I think there's time for one last
fantasy.

I've got it here in my heart.

It's never too late to start all over
again.

Seriously, another rom -com.

Hey, you knew what you were getting into
when you agreed to move in with us.

Okay, but next time, I pick the film.

Next time, I pick the film.

Don't try to break any of your place at
the Athena's. Oh, I actually can't

believe you're going to be a student,
love.

Can I?

But I think it's going to be okay.

No, that doesn't sound right.

I think it's going to be awesome for us.